On the Long Journey,but right direction

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    Hi all,

            Just thought I would do a mini Blog to test website after recent overalls. I have a few family issues to deal with as my younger brother had a recent breakdown and was diagnosed with  Bipolar Disorder.Its very Sad and my parents have had to deal with the nasty side of my brothers going through Bipolar phases, with huge distrust ,distorting speculation on my Fathers side not helping  .For their part my Parents are in their 80s and have health problems, especially my Mum, Understandibly they have great difficulty in dealing with my brother

    I ended up being the mediator in the middle between my Brother and my Father who just where inflammatory to each other.To cut a long story short I ended up getting them to both agree that they would not communicate directly with each other .I ended up doing this after my younger brother contacted me by phone [first time in 4 years], so he knew nothing about my Transition. I did not feel the need to discuss my Transition,though I did say I had to deal with Mental Health Issues of my own .  In the last 2 days my brother sent me an email in which it seems he had come down from Bad phase and was now in a lucid rational phase.He commented that my voice had become so much lighter and clearer to understand.My Mum contacted me to thank me for talking and communicating with my brother.

       In the background last 3 weeks I have been a bit housebound looking after my dog after her operation ,and with a 30cm Lampshade on her head. I can see light at the end of the tunnel.Pretty much I seem to have slipped into being a "Housewife",so that means very low income, being there for other people ,seen as a useful[cheap] resource!.I would like to get my Art work reactivated of the of the ground ,but this requires a bit of travelling and can only be done once our dog has recovered.

    Otherwise I got put on a different HRT regime which seems to be working very well.Finally just a quick snippet of a Transwomen life. I was a bit in drab after doing Garden work my hair was not done,no makeup, the dog was being looked after , and I was desperate to get a good Coffee, so I went into town, went to my favourite Cafe Chain.I got initiallyserved by a young Lady who had previously only served me and addressed me as Sir a few years ago. So as she and her colleague where preparing things and I was paying, there was an old lady next me also being served.The Old lady said "I think this lady is first ,have you served HER",to which the younger Cafe assitant "yes He has been served".The old lady then said she thought my  Earings where very Elegant. Thats fine by me , and part of being Transgendered is being able to accept that there will be these moments , and just be relaxed and cool about it . Its really not Strange.

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