Ive been wanting to bloog for abit and Ive ben thinking alot about many things.As many know i have alot on my mind as of late and at times its very difficult to ask one self where am I going with this ...Aka My dressing femm. I have been thinking alot about my futur as "Karen" and do I want to continue on my journey . Since July of 2014 and my stintis in and out of hospital I ve had some self doubt. I thought if I gave myself some time to heel up from another amputation that I would be somewhat back to normal. I ve all ways been proud like most girls here who wear "heels" or Stetto shoes and wearing dresses to show off my legs. Well I have resently tried to wear my 2'' inch heels and discoved something reather dissapointing. I can no longer wear shoes because i do not have the nesssisary toes to fill them . I feel that as a CD Im loosing this battle to be myself and Ive been very unhappy . Ive had thoughts about my futur and should I continue to be the Girl I know that I can t be. Ever since Ive been home from the hospital Ive been "Enfemm" but what I call "Under cover" and what I mean by this is my appernce is "Male" but under everything im "Enfemm". Ive bought new stuff to feel more comphy perhaps more "Fem" but sometimes I have to ask Why am dressing ?. I get so fustrated when i think about how easy some girls have it compared to what I have. i have had many say to me that It can be so easy if you do this or that but sometimes I wish they could come here and see for themselves. For sometime I have not been pleased with this site and for one reasion is because its no longer very "entertaining " I dont know if its depression that I have but I know I m not happy anymore . I know I should not complain about my time here because it has been good for a time. I just feel its a loosing Battle.
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