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Adventures of Robin in da 'hood

2012-05-18 01:24:00

Hi everyone, Not much to report, really. My makeup/face experiments continue, though my current basic setup works well. But I saw Maybelline "instant Age Rewind" and figured it was just the thing I need for those lines by my eyes. So I got the same number/color match (130) that I am ...

"This is the End "

2012-05-17 07:57:35

Well girls and boys i find myself in a situation beacaus of another and about a coment i made in the chat room . I now find myself outside of this ...

trying to breath new life into karen

2012-05-16 05:46:27

For a very long time Ive hoped and prayied that someday I would find a friend my own age who would understand. It has been a very long journey and ...

A multi thought blog

2012-05-13 19:46:49

Being a transitioning MtF, I deal with all the struggles that come every day. The anger, the names, the misunderstandings. We as society are so fixed on a male-female world that when somebody falls in between the catogories we are outcasts. We dont belong because we don't fit in the male or female ...

money money money

2012-05-13 18:51:24

I follow Drew from MTS on facebook and its great to see her doing good but most of us don't get to be on a show and basically become famous. We live day by day, trying to live through each day. I often wonder where she would be if there was no show. I see posts asking for donations for her ...

My Father's Response

2012-05-11 03:26:46

I really appreciate your message! As much as I dislike it you are right our face to face talks are not very effective. I love you so much! I have spent the last 20 and a half years trying to be the best dad I could despite my flaws. I have always been proud of you and wanted the very best for you. ...

the "Elastic band" effect

2012-05-10 23:38:05

I kind of need to write this new blog as a "Cathartic" excercise, to share what ive been going through the last couple of months, for as they say..writing it down can be a form of therapy (not that i need that right?) Dont get me wrong..im not going through any emotional drama..in fact its the lack ...

My Letter to my Father

2012-05-10 12:34:36

Hi dad, I feel our face to face conversations are rather ineffective, I get so nervous that I clam up and can't say anything and you get so nervous you say way too much so I thought this might be a better means of communication as we can both say what we like uninterrupted. To begin with I want to ...

Coming out Ready or Not, and Work part3?

2012-05-09 08:30:58

Ah ,Hi All, You find me all ready to get a lot of housework done and tidy up the small flat I live in during the Weekdays, and also mulling over the possibilities/plans for the future . Yesterday was a mixture of a day, as I had to go ...

where it the love

2012-05-09 05:36:39

Where is the Love? A young father and his two children, holding tightly on to his hands were walking down the sidewalk on a sunny summer day. As they walked along, one of the children, a young boy we will call John ...

chanel outlet online

2012-05-08 07:44:50

It's very difficult, actually, unless you go for something that is very well known and chanel outlet california probably therefore very expensive, too - Chanel No5 comes to mind as an old and very safe favorite! And who would say no to a bottle of Chanel No5? Nobody I chanel outlet online know for ...

Heart Shapes Make Highly Symbolic Engagement Rings

2012-05-08 07:42:38

Heart shaped diamond engagement rings are not only an elegant option for symbolizing a couple's imminent union, but their romantic shape is both unusual and directly recognizable. Before choosing a heart shaped ring, however, couples should note the uniqueness and styles that make these rings ...

the hublot black caviar bang

2012-05-08 07:17:06

there are lots of expensive men's watches available but which ones are most desired by men? there are some discount replica watches that guys love wearing and price a fortune, in fact one watch could equal the price of a few homes, so why do people wear them? because they are able to afford to, and ...

beats by dr dre sound like ou

2012-05-08 07:14:55

beats by dr dre sound like ou have a stereo system in your head well frst of i gt thi free m english teacher broke m original beats headphones's and went ot bt buy and got me the hd's but i forgot t tell hm i hd the guarantee and that i went to go exchange m white solo's for a nw pair!! s i got ...

"What pisses me off "

2012-05-04 03:34:34

There have been some times that Ive been here on this site and ive have to Shake my head in wonder . i oftan wondered how "rumors " here are ...

Coming out Ready or Not, and work part2?

2012-04-27 14:02:08

So Thats it Change is inevitable .sometimes we see it ,but often not.. we all have our Blind spots and partial views so to speak, and increasingly we cant stop theses changes happening . I got notified officially at work that I was being made redundant . At times in the recent past , I ...

Thought I'd Share

2012-04-24 14:32:43

I was not able to sleep so I decided to record a few of my piano songs on vocaroo. LOL digital recording at its best .. not . Still kept me busy a while. I sure wish I had a singer/lyrical writer to work with. Hope anyone that listens enjoys it. I am quite mellow on keyboards which is strange ...

Wild horses couldn't drag me away..

2012-04-22 08:59:19

I may be 24 but I feel like 15 all over again. I go outside to sit on a swing while staring at the night sky. Silently wondering to myself if your heart is racing just as fast as mine. I think I could spend hours in silence with you and be perfectly happy. The perfect ending to a hard day is to ...

A Night Out

2012-04-20 09:01:20

On Wednesday, I started out my day with the usual humdrum of waking up and getting to class for school. All day I was excited. Tonight I was going to go out with my Bestie to the local Gay Club (okay, one of the local Gay Clubs), the infamous VIP Club. Honestly, I was a bit afraid and excited--my ...

Out and About

2012-04-19 16:58:16

Hi girls. I hope this may be of some use to someone somewhere out there. Even just writing it down is of some use to me. I've been in and out a few times over the years, but this is all about the most recent, and surely to god, last time! The time before this ended in major disaster, in short ...

Can you believe this!?

2012-04-18 19:42:44

As I have explained in past entries, I have been living full time as best as I can in my community as Gen. The reactions ranged from indiiferance to dislike for what I was doing. Being part of a fundementalist (pentecostal) church which frowns on certain types of ...

Well..Nice Day Out

2012-04-16 17:07:19

Today I took day off Work to see gender specialist in London, 3 months on from blogging about the Miranda score and Waterloo Sunset . I thoroughly enjoyed the day, even though it started very cold , but soon warmed up clear sky bright Sun Shine. I decided to ...

So i'm out!

2012-04-15 16:27:19

So....i wrote my letter out this morning for my parents and after dinner decided to hand it over to them, my mom had the look of "what's that?" on her face, so i said it's a letter for you and dad and i'll be upstairs if you want me after you've read it. So i ran upstairs and sat in my room quietly ...

So you've popped up again I see?

2012-04-14 23:14:54

So you might be wondering, 'What's she all about, nothing for months then three days of frequent visits..?" Well it's not difficult, simply my wife's been away and so Rachel has been able to relax for a bit. The three days have confirmed that: My hair isn't long enough, my wardrobe lacks most ...

My day of being pampered as only a girl can be:)

2012-04-14 22:36:54

My day or dressing and being pampered as only a girl can be at Sugar and Spiced (Chandlers Ford) http://www.sugarandspiced.com/ (11/04/2012) My special day at Sugar and Spiced started at 10:00 with a big welcoming hug from Jackie the owner of this discreet dressing and pampering service. Jackie ...

I think Spring is Coming

2012-04-14 19:59:32

Well, spring as arrived (sort of), and I am anxiously waiting until the grass turns green and flowers start blooming. Soon it will be time to break out the spring wardrobe and look at buying new shoes to match. My friends continue to support me and my choice while my church still does ...

Dear Parents

2012-04-14 12:16:41

Mom and Dad, I am writing this letter to let you know something about me which may also explain certain things, I am using a letter rather than talking to you face to face as I think it would be a lot better for myself and yourselves given the situation. ...

want to know?

2012-04-14 09:33:30

As a elder girl I would like to comunecate with any GG members to discuse how they went through pubity and what to expect to happen to my body and see if my experience of hormones are the same. I am not a perb I just whant to know.

Uncontrollably calm

2012-04-13 07:40:41

The radio informs me that Edward Munch's The Scream is on display in London this week, for a single week. I think a lot of us might be able to emphasise with the main character. He's obviously just changed, grabbed his male clothing and walked back to normal everyday life, and exclaims his ...

Off to School with a Handbag on my Shoulder

2012-04-12 02:21:38

2012.04.11 First of all, I wish I could have had the energy to scribble up a blog sooner rather than making you all wait! It was such a fantastic experience and I really wanted to share it with you, my sisters, right away. And I guess without further Ado: Lately, I've taken some ...

Coming out!

2012-04-11 17:57:43

Hi all, As some of you may have noticed the past few days, maybe even weeks my mental state has been shaky and my emotions have been a rollercoaster ride from hell. I have been trying to work out exactly what has me affected so severely, with deciding to leave my work place by taking ...

Adventures of Robin in da 'Hood

2012-04-09 23:59:34

OK, so Cape Cod ain't exactly the 'Hood but it makes a good title! So I loved the skirt I exchanged at Nordstrom and felt really good, so I went out on a Friday night to the most popular eating/drinking place in Hyannnis, Sam Diego's. Feeling somewhat odd all by myself, but I ...

My best weekend ever part 6

2012-04-08 13:55:43

Having got Jacqui checked in and settled in her room we head back to the bar, big surprise! Back in the bar we chat more about different things. Jacqui is very quiet but im guessing she has just got to get used to us three gasing away like old friends, but she never stop smiling.While chatting Debs ...

reply from beaumont soc - paddy power ad

2012-04-07 18:36:20

I have received a response from the Beaumont soc, together with a copy of an apology from the public relations officer :- Dear Rosie First of all, your letter to Bella Swan, has been passed to me for attention. I have to agree with you on the negative aspects of the ...

"karen Tea 's Memores 3 "

2012-04-07 03:51:17

I find myself sometimes thinking about things that iv seen or heard over the years. Some of these memorys have stayed with me for a very long time and i would like to share some of them with you ...

paddy Power advert

2012-04-05 07:48:04

Hi, Some of you may have seen this advert on uk itv for the Cheltenham races, which is in very bad taste to say the least and has generated many complaints, and is being investigated by the tv advertising agency. As it has been reported that it was approved at script stage by the ...

Coming out Ready or Not, and work?

2012-04-04 20:36:57

Hiya All, Well Today I have got a feeling of "things are about to change", but not in an apprehensive way. A kind of pivotal moment when the the weight of various things that have been holding me down in a " restrained static state of balance" sort ...

Brooke Roses first year here @ Gender Society

2012-04-04 08:23:11

My 1st birthday @ Gender Society.A time to share and celebrate all the positive changes Brooke was blessed with this past year., To understand more about who she is and the unique way she was created.Not an accident or a mistake of nature or all alone. Rather, one sister of a sisterhood that spans ...

Robin's Blog #1

2012-04-03 01:48:27

Ok, here we go. I've written some experiences in various FORUM catagories, most interesting being in "First Time Out" or "Passing in Public", i forget. Anyway the first tiime I went out EVER was pretty funny. I felt totally comfortable in my new mode - but talking to peole was and still is a ...

20120331, A Day to Ever be Remembered

2012-04-01 10:13:11

Girls, I am happy to announce that I've managed to cross the threshold and have my first outting en femme. It was so glorious! On the 31 of March, my bestie held a party to celebrate her birthday which occured earlier in the month. She invited me and several of her friends and held a ...

A Debt of Graditude to Black Americans

2012-03-28 02:52:50

Recently the local PBS (Public Broadcasting System) channel in my area ran a documentary about the black civil rights struggles in the deep south in the early 1960's. The marches, protests and boycotts by the black community led to the Civil Right's Act of 1964. (from Wikipedia) "The landmark ...

Test 123 Test my brain too please.

2012-03-28 02:49:39

Hello world, does, this work ? Can basic members really post blogs? Am I this dull and unable to find this out until now after all these years?? Test? Test? Test?

My best weekend ever part 5

2012-03-27 22:21:00

Having strutted my stuff in the carpark, which im sure no one saw, but it felt good anyway, i headed back to my room to get things ready for the night out. It was back in my room going through my outfits I had no idea what to wear. I tried a few things on but nothing seemed to look or feel right. ...

Why Do We Fight?

2012-03-27 13:27:48

For the life of me I have never figured out why some in this community go out of their way to be negative to others who they perceive to be leading their lifes wrong in the transgender culture. At times they even go as far as to comment that a transgendered individual may even hurt the transsexuals ...

My best weekend ever part 4

2012-03-25 14:42:37

Saturday morning i was awoken by a phone call from my brother at 10am asking if i wanted to go out for a rideout on my motorbike. My reply was " Bruv i'd love to but i've just woke up in a hotel room in Milton Keynes". He asked why and I filled him in on the reason and the weekend so far. I ...

Am I ?

2012-03-24 05:11:35

A short time ago i talked about me leaving this site and a few of you asked me to stay. i have given it some thought over the winter months and i have made a choice. Befor ...

Just a little huffing and whining?

2012-03-20 09:32:30

I'm only writing this, really, to make me feel a little better. I know I'm early on in things, but it bothers me when my Bestie tries to force on the breaks. She might need to take it slow, but I think I'm moving at a good speed. I'm not out on hormones without seeing a doctor and solely operating ...

This week...

2012-03-19 07:15:20

This week, just a normal week...like all the others living in stealth ..put up with your lot .. an extreme case of not want to upset anyone... get your work done. You seem okay to me . But its NOT . I collect my official copies of deed poll [ uk name change] . see the GP ...

My best weekend ever part 3

2012-03-18 15:16:35

So there we were three girls all glammed up and ready to hit the club. We set off across the car park heels clicking as we went, you have to love that sound! The first obsticle we came across was a grass verge which we all managed to get across with not to much trouble. Then across the ...

My War

2012-03-18 05:53:36

Hey all, I'm afraid I've got some bad news, actually bad doesn't even begin to describe it, its down right awful. As many of you may know I am at the begining steps of my transition and so far things have moved along fairly well, until now. My parents do not like the idea at all and as I am still ...

Just re-connecting

2012-03-16 17:46:05

Just wanted to re-introduce myself as was a member in the past but had to close due to family issues, Which frankly is why of the picture as do not want my picture on the web, However I can send it if wanted, I am trying to keep an even level with my family as it has taken me 6 months to hear from ...

I May Disappear

2012-03-16 10:52:06

The reality is that I may soon be making a move that will leave me without Internet access for months or even years. If it occurs I will be living in a remote area of the US. Most of my socialization is on the Internet and has been for years. Most of my friends are here. If ...

My best weekend ever. part 2

2012-03-11 14:46:28

Arriving back at the hotel at 2.55am we head to our rooms to change for the trip across the road to the club. I ask the others what time to meet them, Debs says 15 minutes, so we all head into our rooms to change. Back in my room i look at the bed and think it would be nice to sleep, as i ...

Where do I go from here??

2012-03-11 03:53:21

My Dear Sisters I find my find myself oftan deep in thought about what could of been. For the past few months I was in a relationship with what i tought was someone who I though cared deeply as i did. ...

Jacqui's weekend at pps

2012-03-09 20:02:55

We were stood at the reception desk,this smart young man spoke to me but I could not understand his french accent,faye helped translate ha ha,Debs had gone in the bar with Mon. Faye helped me to my room we were so exited then back down to the bar to join the others,we all had a drink and a chat ,I ...

Jacqui's pps weekend

2012-03-06 21:05:34

Well my lovely sisters have done blogs ,so here goes,ha ha .Faye first suggested a group meet,I was very interested,not met any other girls before but not sure if the wife would ok it,really hoped she would.Desperate to meet my friends,the weeks past and the girls kept on at me if I was ...

Self photos

2012-03-05 01:58:12

Hi everyone, We love to/ hate to have pictures of ourselves to see what we work so hard at, Making the outer us match the inner us. The process that i used for the longest time was to take a single, or a few pictues and then look at them and throw them away because I was mortified by the ...

the GS PP's weekender Day 2

2012-03-04 20:05:39

The previous day was a mad rush. Being with Debbie and Monique at their makeovers and then going to Pink Punters had been a whirlwind. I had been asleep roughly 4 hours when i heard knock at my door. "Can i clean your room?" came the female voice. "No thanks." came my dishevelled reply. i woke up ...

My best weekend ever

2012-03-04 13:50:31

This is my take on our girls weekend out in Milton Keynes arranged by Faye For me the weekend started on thurs evening with packing, what to take what not to take? So i took way to much of everything. As i had booked for a make over at Style Me Quirky on the friday i packed two bags, one ...

Somewhere over the rainbow

2012-03-04 08:34:47

My life has spiraled down into the abyss of self-loathing and confusion these last few months. I am in a rut that i know i need help to get out of but am fearfull of the other side of the rutt and scared that the out cone will be just as bad or worse. My life has gone from ...

style baby!

2012-03-02 19:35:33

At the top of the main page on the Gender Society site, various advertising banners can be seen. One is for StylemeQuirky, http://stylemequirky.com/transgender-dressing-service/ a makeover/styling/wardrobe doctor/photography and much more service. They are based in London but given the right ...

First Time Out Part 2

2012-03-01 14:51:24

FRIDAY (CONTINUED) We made our way to the bar, Monique, Faye and I, and being the only Scottish one there, I was forced to buy a drink. I nearly fainted when the price for 3 drinks came to £20.60. we were all staring at each other thinking what a short night it was going to be at these ...

Translating mochaqi mochaqi

2012-03-01 10:17:36

When a passage is changed from an Asian Language to Spanish and then to English something is lost in the translation. Demolished houses construction búnkers around the suburbs, the several main streets in center of the city were even accumulated sand coats, barbed wire. A reporter ...

I feel pretty

2012-02-28 00:19:39

I had a marvelous Sunday evening with my Bestie! Of course, it all came on because I had a moment the night before, but my Bestie cheered me up really well! I came over to her house with a bag full of my girly stuff. I got dressed and then we sat down and did makeup for me. She told me ...

Your Ex Boyfriend - 5 Simple Ways to Get Him Back

2012-02-27 14:56:57

Most everyone knows that relationships have a tendency not to last. Most break ups happen because these that are within the relationship can not take care of the problems that it brings all through every day. For youngsters and younger adults, relationships have a tendency to end quickly. This ...

First Time out - part One!

2012-02-27 12:15:03

Its monday morning, im off work today, im cleaning the house and doing laundry.when i pick up an item out of the hamper, my eyes fill up. this isnt the gypsy skirt that has lain in the wardrobe out of sight for so long..its the skirt i wore walking in london surrounded by my friends, with me ...

The Best Websites for Breast Cancer Survivor Christmas Gifts

2012-02-27 12:07:15

When you have a member of the family or shut buddy who is a breast cancer survivor, you've firsthand information that these women (and men!) are a particular breed of people who need to be recognized, supported and celebrated! Whether your beloved has simply commemorated their first month as a ...

You have to laugh...

2012-02-27 03:24:09

Shopping for clothes can sometimes be a nerve wracking experience for girls like us. Especially when you are dressed as a man... Wandering around a lingerie department completely bewildered, thinking "should I or shouldn't I?", and wondering if it is actually even possible to be any more ...

The GS PP's weekender day one.

2012-02-26 20:11:03

When you meet someone for the first time there is always a nervousness to the occasion. You ask yourself questions, "will they like me? will i like them? Are they prettier than me?" (well maybe not the last one!) On the weekend end of the 24th/26th February i met four of the kindest, funniest and ...

A "tragic" end after transition

2012-02-26 03:07:44

My story is a short one but also "tragic". There Is Legend within my family that was never talked about. there are some here who can relate to this. the tought of a family member who wants ...

OK, I'm a girl who loves technology and cooking ...

2012-02-20 21:04:35

OK, I'm a girl who loves technology and cooking ... - So this girl can cook AND deal with / fix Tech! Any guy's need some help out there? On the Techie front - So the latest gadget that got me excited was a full 1080p HDTV wireless transmitter / Receiver ...

I just want to be me.

2012-02-19 18:52:54

Well, it has finally happened, I have been living fulltime as Genevieve as much as I can. Most of the people that I have known have no idea that Gen exists. When I have told them, the usual response is either acceptance and encouragement or somewhat indifference to the choice that I ...

The Occasional Crossdresser 5

2012-02-18 14:41:46

In my last blog entry, I didn’t know where I was. I was utterly lost and thought in my heart of hearts that my relationship with my wife was close to being over. We had had an awful discussion about Kati, and it had left me cold, alone, and dejected. I stayed like this for 2 days and nights; ...

Just Like A Woman

2012-02-17 21:37:53

As much as I love to dress up, make up and accessorise up, my ultimate goal is to be acknowledged being a woman without the necessity of all these fineries. It helps beyond anything for recognition to wear the tokens of womanhood but in what way are they essential to my being? Deep down I’m ...

The Occasional Crossdresser 4

2012-02-15 04:03:18

Fifteen and a half years ago I met an amazing woman. Incredible. She was everything I had ever wanted to find, and for some reason she seemed to like me too. A short time after we met, I told her about Kati, and although she didn’t immediately take me shopping or put make-up on me, she did ...

Bro-hos!

2012-02-13 11:04:24

I haven't ever used the blog space here, but I just had a really awesome day with one of my girlfriends and I didn't think setting it up as a status update was really worthy enough. Initially, I didn't have much planned for the day, just going out with one of my girlfriends for ice cream ...

"From a lost friend to a Wife.

2012-02-11 00:40:14

My story begain during the summer of 2011. i had been put into a very tight situation between two friends. i had been a friend to a member who i will call "stormy" ...

karen s memores 2

2012-02-10 01:52:27

As "basic " member here I find myself doing something I first said I would not be doing . As of March 24, 2012 It will be my 4 th year on this site . Ive got to say ...

California....Prop. 8

2012-02-08 23:48:53

California Prop. 8 Gay Marriage Ban It has come to my attention that on Tuesday, Feb. 7, 2012 the California ban on gay marriage (Proposition 8) has been lifted by the 9th Circuit Court of Appeals. The three judge panel in a 2 to1 vote deemed the proposition unconstitutional and ...

why do I come here????????

2012-02-04 06:38:42

Afew months ago in the chatroom a question came to me by a member who asked. "Why Do you come here ?? at the time I had not replyed why I do come here. So I ...

All thumbs and legally blind

2012-02-02 21:40:41

Almost done with my office administration certificate, the only problem I have is to complete the typing requirement for the certificate. At first when i started i was doing about 7-11wpm, but over 3 sememsters I have managed to get to a blazing speed of 30wpm, YAY!! not bad considering ...

Bedtime Feminization

2012-02-01 21:02:43

response from evens after i posted on there facebook page - abo

2012-01-23 15:50:03

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Heart Breaker

2012-01-19 18:36:48

Yesterday at work the W-2's where handed out. As I work at a company with 1k people I have gotten use to the idea of alot of people seeing me everyday.

~Better read than dead~

2012-01-17 20:32:11

All occasions to express my inner woman are terribly important because they help me to survive the unavoidable time spent in drab. It makes my day when I can stay at home and be a happy housewife. Keeping house and shopping for groceries is not my favourite pastime but as it has to be done ...

Is is spring yet?

2012-01-17 19:56:30

Winter is a time for rebirth and sleep, the earth goes into slumber gathering energy for it's rebirth in spring. It appears with a new covering of greenery, flowers and plants of dazzling array. Time to start anew. I also have decided to use the time of winter to rest, gather ...

Waterloo Sunset, and The Miranda Score

2012-01-16 19:43:22

So Today , I took a days Holiday went to London, main reason was see gender Specialist for routine appointment. Writing now I think I should explain first what a "Miranda" is and How its part of a Transgendered Persons life [ at least M2F]. Miranda Hart is a UK Comedienne [ a GG] quite ...

What Might The Neighbours Say

2012-01-15 02:03:37

Hello Everybody Long Time Since I Last Wrote. I Have done many things since i entered this world. firstly i would like to say that i am absolutly fearfull. because you know that if you where the only one on a street or a road. being differant but not going the extra yards of doing what you wanted ...

Coming round

2012-01-14 21:27:26

This is my first blog entry here and if you don’t mind I skip the personal introduction since it can be found on my blog “Visions of Corinna”. There have been times I did not have a clue about my situation. Oh yes, I had my dreams and I still have but did not recognise my ...

last night in brighton

2012-01-14 19:33:23

Last night … Wow … So I was really unsure about going out im just getting over a chest infection and money is so tight this month im not even going to talk about it. But I wanted to see more of a particular girl, and I wanted to be with my friends, my friends picked me up about 9 ...

The Gender Society, Chicken soup for the soul

2012-01-14 08:17:28

I have been going thru a very stressful period and it helps to visit Gender Society to commisserate with girls of a like mind. Even if it is just a chance to discuss the minutia of the day and to share my/our feelings, I find that it helps me get thru one more day. One would think ...

My Freedom

2012-01-12 04:13:35

I have relized it is time for me to climb out of this cage that has trapped me for so long. The need for society to except has no relavance at this point, however the need for myself to exsist is certain. The road that will take me through total transformation is not marked on some map but I am ...

One Week Left

2012-01-04 22:50:29

I have an exam on Friday. It's Philosophy, "Questions of the Day". I'm hopeful that I will do well. I should have written the exam before Christmas but I came down with the flu, hence I'm writing on Friday. I think I'll do well but i am a bit distracted. it's hard to concentrate on the words of ...

Trans Horror Films: Degrading Trash or Childhood Heros

2011-12-30 07:59:40

Spoiler Alert don't read this if you haven't seen The Texas Chainsaw Massacre, Psycho, or Silence of the Lambs. If so watch them because they are all awesome horror movies Ok so this is a bit of a leap but stick with me here. When I was a teenager my three favorite movies ever where The ...

My Hope for Christmas....raised then dashed....

2011-12-27 02:21:21

This year for Christmas, I was hoping that my wife would remember the real me and get me 1 present that was gender appropriate for me. So as we were opening our giifts, I unwrapped a gift that was in a Este Lauder Beauty Kit box. Inside my heart went (YEAH!!!!!!). However, when I ...

I've come so far

2011-12-19 20:18:53

I have become so much lately, people to some extent have welcome Gen into the community, but the biggest step has yet still to be taken. I have decided to meet with the pastor of our church and discuss my situation with him, I am unsure of his reaction to what I'm going to tel him, but ...

Oh Poo

2011-12-11 20:11:53

Had to go shopping today after making the mistake of putting all my tights in the washing machine without reading the instructions first. Result the biggest birds nest ever. I know any excuse to go shopping but that was an exspensive mistake. On the positive side I picked up a new dress and a ...

Update

2011-12-10 22:30:29

It's been awhile since i last visited the site. I have purgred and bought new clothes more times than i wish to remember. I am now separated from my SO and living alone for the first time in years. I bought some clothes and shoes and have just ordered my new wig. I feel great being able to move ...

... 31 days and counting

2011-12-10 18:19:37

As I write, there is a beautiful, bright, cold Canadian winter day beyond the window. I'm all set at my computer for some work but before I start, I just have to write and tell you – friends who might remember me, and others here – my good news. On January 11, I fully start a new life ...

Why are things this way?

2011-12-09 11:58:49

One wonders once in a while why things are as they are. As they have always been and shall apparently continue to be. Like the difference between my physical and mental appearence. Take my toe nails. They have been coloured for at least ten years. Red, black, green or yellow, ...

Karen s memors

2011-12-09 06:14:57

One of my early Memorries dressing happend in my late teens . Living at home had its challenges and one of them was my younger brother. My brother was 5 years younger ...

Christmas Party

2011-12-04 22:31:39

Well with the first of the Christmas Parties now under my (suspender) belt all I can say is this year is looking to be one of the best. I’d arranged a makeover with Jenn from http://blossomingbeauties.co.uk/ prior to the party and all I can say after seeing the photos is “Thank You ...

An Open Letter to the Transphobic Staff of the Stag Shop

2011-12-01 14:25:50

For those of you unfamiliar with the company, Stag Shop is a chain of adult stores in Southern Ontario. They sell sexy lingerie, anatomically correct sex toys, bondage gear, and adult magazines and DVDs. It's an adult store, dedicated to adult fantasies and fetishes, yet it seems they have a ...

"What is your crazyest christmas wish ?"

2011-11-27 03:59:35

My crazyest christmas wish was when I was 15 . Growing up I was raised on country music and I was a fan of the TV show "HEE HA" . I remember seeing ...

Rosie gets out of the closet

2011-11-26 09:02:54

I spent months looking and planning for a place to come out, it had to be far enough away from home, and not too crowded, there were quite a few to choose from , but the one i chose was Bodidris Hall in NorthWales, not cheap but very nice, owned and run by transformation, .They had 2 ...

Forced Feminization Defined

2011-11-25 22:28:17

What is Forced Feminization and how does it work? Is it forced? Is it feminization? Is it embarrassing? Is it humiliating? Is it fun? Yes. For those of you that have questions, or want to accidentally leave something on your computer for your wife/girlfriend/neighbor to find I’ve put this ...

Reaction to MTS episode 2

2011-11-21 11:38:04

I have finally been able to watch the second episode of My Transsexual Summer. It is compulsive viewing for people like us, primarily I suppose because we are able to see ourselves in each of the people in it. I thought I would put down a few of my own thoughts, although much has already been said ...

Upcoming Trip

2011-11-20 09:56:26

I wanted to let people know that I will be out of town for most of December and the first half of January, at least. I will hit NYC, Richmond, and possibly Baltimore, Chicago and who knows. Cash is short and I am not financing the trip but I have some flexibility. Part of the trip ...

acceptance

2011-11-15 13:18:05

After many years of uncertainty and regret i have finally come to terms with myself. self acceptance if you will. i have seen my therapist twice as myself now and i am certain that i am making the right choice. i am choosing to live full time but it will be on a gradient. no more rushing in ...

Internet experts....caveat emptor!

2011-11-14 12:27:56

The internet blossomed with great potential. It was to be a pipeline of previously difficult information that would would now be available to anyone with access to a PC throughout the world! And it did blossom and has become a very useful tool to learn, communicate, and share... But ...

A long winter's sleep

2011-11-12 04:36:56

Another year is almost to a close and I believe a lot in my life has been accomplished My college education is almost complete, I have become the person I have wanted to be and as a result I have come out to my community, and once and for all I have become truly happy. Yes I may still have ny ...

The Karen Tea Story 2

2011-11-06 04:25:51

As CD I have not had the experence of beeing full dressed in public befor. I had purged at the age of 22 and returned at the age of 27 . At that ...

Changing of The Guard

2011-11-05 08:32:45

Reading some post I noticed that some of us are referred to as the old timers. I guess we are. I've been at this site for a number of years. It's not the long time members that keep this site moving. As our numbers are getting smaller. It's the new members that keep things flowing. New ...

Migration of the TransMoth by Cari Tulane

2011-11-03 01:48:09

I was chatting online with one of the girls earlier today and she was feeling very depressed. I've had similar feelings before. When I am feeling really down I tend to write. I keep a personal journal that I write in frequently and I also will write poetry which helps me to process my feelings and ...

Thank you my G.S family

2011-10-28 01:04:20

I would like to thank all the GS members that comented on my blog about me leaving this site . First I would like to say that I enjoyed ...

Photoshopping

2011-10-26 07:43:23

There has been a bit of a fuss about Photoshopping of late. It is funny how Photoshopping has become an accepted verb in the English language. Soon it will be in the dictionary next to Googling. (Okay, quite far from googling, cause they start with different letters). I just wanted to point out ...

my silent suffocation

2011-10-22 20:32:46

Love looks like flying of a bird...Love feels like the having heart of a hero.I'm a third passenger under the rain...and the Love is tho source of water...but badly toxic...I know that this toxic water will kill me...and i drink it... because I know that love will give immortality to my ...

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2011-10-21 01:27:01

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FOF #1216 – Cassandra Peterson on Elvira, All About Evil

2011-10-21 01:27:01

Everybody loves Cassandra Peterson’s alter-ego Elvira, Mistress of the Dark.For more and to tune into this podcast go to... http://www.feastoffun.com/podcast/2010/07/08/fof-1216-cassandra-peterson-elvira-all-about-evil/

Bubble Tea

2011-10-21 01:27:01

LOL this is for Terry Bobble!!!

Voyage for flute and strings by John Corigliano performed by John David Wortham,flute

2011-10-21 01:27:01

John David Wortham of Baltimore,performs Voyage for flute and strings by John Corigliano. Wortham received his formal training at Oberlin Conservatory of Music studying with Robert Willoughby.While at Oberlin he won the prestigious Senior Concerto Competition(1984) performing the Ibert ...

On The Air TV- Robert E Lee Park After The Snow

2011-10-21 01:27:00

Footage of the dam in Robert E lee park taken after the big snow on Dec 19th. The Dam was built in 1861 and was the main water supply for Baltimore city [vodpod ...

The Most Accurate Movie Line Ever

2011-10-21 01:27:00

Bob Hope delivers the best, most accurate, and funniest line ever. From the movie The Ghost Breakers. Watch "The Most Accurate Movie Line Ever"

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2011-10-21 01:27:00

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2011-10-21 01:27:00

Rat Bone gets motorized

2011-10-21 01:27:00

54shadow Took the Rat Bone a step further and put a motor on it. It is a hoot to ride, gets lots of smiles from the folks I pass by. Next project will be making a woody, tear drop shaped trailer for it from an old kiddy carrier I found in the dump. Watch "Rat Bone gets motorized"

Santa here LIVE at OTA..

2011-10-21 01:27:00

Seasons Greetings From On The Air TV. We are pleased to have Santa here LIVE at OTA.. Please join in and visit Santa Live Now! to join in the chat you need a Stickam account.. Enjoy!!

On The Air TV Video Share Network Latest News: New Contest

2011-10-21 01:27:00

On The Air TV Video Share Network Latest News: New Contest. Well here it is our contest for On The Air Tv members.. The Prize is a Vivitar DVR410 4 Megapixel Digital Video Camera Vivitar DVR410-BLACK Pocket Video Camcorder Vivitar DVR410-BLACK Pocket Video Camcorder is an ultra budget-friendly ...

For The Longest Time - Song Parody

2011-10-21 01:27:00

For The Longest Time - Song Parody Doo-Wop song parody from 1993 based on Billy Joel song of the same . from Dix_Dixon Baron Dixion... one of the most versatile member at On The Air TV

VoipBuster? Another Skype?

2011-10-21 01:27:00

When Skype went down yesterday I thought I would give VoipBuster a try... Here is ehat I think.... Watch "VoipBuster? Another Skype?"

How to get a free flint for your Zippo

2011-10-21 01:27:00

How to get a free flint for your Zippo... and if you find one grab it!! Watch "How to get a free flint for your Zippo"

Here I Am - John McInnes

2011-10-21 01:27:00

A newish song I wrote last year.Visit my fan page for more music if you like this.http://www.facebook.com/pages/John-McInnes-Music/145747962129806?v=app_2405167945

Old Style Radio - Compressed Audio from Chris Jones

2011-10-21 01:27:00

I used to do broadcast radio - on the AM side - and actually liked the way the music went through a compression/limiter process to bring up the lows and reduce the highs. Listening to Shoutcast radio one day to the SKY FM 70s channel these three songs came on back to back - you can hear the ...

To WJZ TV Baltimore

2011-10-21 01:27:00

we need a choice!!! Watch "To WJZ TV Baltimore"

LiveVideo.com. A lost Cause?

2011-10-21 01:27:00

GamerGlo Added: 03-23-11 LiveVideo video sharing site seems to be dieing a slow death. as I'm writing this the site is down. This is not the first time the site has gone down. in fact the servers were off line last year for over a month. On July 23rd 2007 On The Air TV came on line as a ...

Random Thoughts 3, Part 1 of 3 Segments

2011-10-21 01:27:00

Chris Jones, Gamer Glo, special guest Mindwipe. Watch "Random Thoughts 3, Part 1 of 3 Segments"

Ramdom Thoughts 1

2011-10-21 01:27:00

Random Thoughts with Chris Jones and GamerGlo Watch "Random Thoughts 1 May 6th, 2011"

The Incredible Hulk Tv Series

2011-10-21 01:26:59

By: Vipor231 talking about one of my favorite shows the incredible hulk which aired from 1977-1982 and i also talk about the tv movies as well...plus i do my top 5 episodes from the hulk,i change these alot seeing i go back and watch these Watch "The Incredible Hulk Tv Series"

Senate Bill 978

2011-10-21 01:26:59

RE Senate Bill 978 www.ontheairtv.com Lets take a look http//www.govtrack.us/congress/billtext.xpd?bills112-978 My thoughts on proposed US Senate Bill 978 www.ontheairtv.com Could it land some people in Jail for Streaming embeded videos???i ...

Random Thoughts 3: Part 3 of 3

2011-10-21 01:26:59

This is hosted by Chris Jones and Gamer Glo, and is dedicated to random things. The Soundtrack is the star No big elaborate video production on this - Special Guest Mindwipe - This is the last of 3 Parts of RT 3. Yes there will be an RT4!

OBAMA Beans video with JakeEvilclown

2011-10-21 01:26:59

Well GWB and Obama have the PLAN all or half worked out. What's left our money will be divided up between huge UNION corporations and the banks. The rest of us better get used to eating beans. I would suggest you go out and buy a LOT of them as soon you will not even be able to afford beans.

OnTheAirTv Meetup in Baltimore

2011-10-21 01:26:59

Jul 8, 2010 54Shadow, Lucy, Maddy,Sweets,SuburbanRider, Glo We are at the Inner Harbor by the ship "The Constellation." Thanks, Chuck!!!

Missouri River Update New Location

2011-10-21 01:26:59

From Navythomas8 Description: Just an update and New Footage, Including the River stage and the Forecast for it.

The Vikings by Nigel

2011-10-21 01:26:59

Who were the Vikings, conqueurers of England? www.viking.no/e/ewho.htm I live in a part of England that was heavily influenced by them. King Cnut (Canute as known in England) ordered back the sea not many miles from where I was born, also very near a great battle at Ashingdon. (I went to High ...

Criminal

2011-10-21 01:26:59

BY Madison Lyn Etrela Visit Mattys Facebook page Description: Madison Lyn Etrela took me a few tries as i had forgotten some of the lyrics, but here it is per your request hunny Watch "Criminal"

Chuck Internet Bada$$ Show-The End of the World

2011-10-21 01:26:59

From cluelesswonder Chuck and Fred talk about the end of the world and how zombies are suppose to rise up when the other folks get sucked up by a vacuum cause, they are good. Fred is upset the zombie armageddon didn't happen because, he got all of his weapons to kill the zombies. Watch "Chuck ...

Trouble at Bubble Towers

2011-10-21 01:26:59

From TerryBubble A video that I did a couple of years ago which has jus undergone a little re-editing..The vrus ideas and footage are thanks to Baron Dixon and Lt Adams. Watch "Trouble at Bubble Towers"

TOUR OF THE DEZERLAND HOTEL MIAMI BEACH FLORIDA

2011-10-21 01:26:58

from timothyphillips This is a personal Tour Of The Famous Dezerland Hotel On Miami Beach , One Block From My Home . This Hotel Was Built In The 1950's. Eventuallly This Will Be Torn Down By Donald Trump He Is Up & Down Miami Beach With Hotels Condo's And Spa's. I Hope It's Not In The Near ...

On The Air TV Baltimore Meet Up from 54 Shadow

2011-10-21 01:26:58

from 54 Shadow Description: We meet up with Mad Goddess, Suburbanryder at the Inner Harbor in Baltimore, MD Watch "Baltimore Meet Up"

Out-of-town Benton, NY OLD Gas Pumps

2011-10-21 01:26:58

By suburbanrider So, Im riding along out in the country. I had just come from looking at a 2003 Kawasaki Concourse (13,414 miles, excellent condition, done the Dragon) and was thinking about how to convince my wifeto let me buy it when....I see old Texaco gas pumps!!!! Im thinking where have I ...

artwork

2011-10-21 01:26:58

From rigomortisfx some digital art no music added this time Watch "artwork"

Missouri River Flooding Attacks a U.S. Historic Monument, GO NAVY!.avi

2011-10-21 01:26:58

My very Special Thanks KETV channel 7, Omaha, Nebraska,(for the work they did to get the Arial shot), To the U.S. Coast Guard, U.S.Air Force, (Offut A.F.B.) and especially The Corps of Engineers for Making this Happen!! and Lastly and the most important, The Caretakers of this Historic Ship (the ...

Pinguy 11.04 Overview

2011-10-21 01:26:58

From vipor231 taking a look at a awesome linux distro pinguy 11.04 http://www.pinguyos.com Watch "Pinguy 11.04 Overview"

Safety Infrastructure by Jake Evilclown

2011-10-21 01:26:58

American jobs, outsourced slavery, and our safety infrastructure in the USA. My two cents worth. First I would like to say I’m not a conspiracy nut or Obama critic and I was excited at the chance for a new president with “CHANGE” in mind along with our infrastructure rebuilding, new industry ...

Pay for Performance Politicians by Jake Evilclown

2011-10-21 01:26:58

Pay for Performance Politicians I remember hearing once “there is no greater honor than public service”. In America we are facing huge deficits, fire / Emergency and police services are finding smaller and smaller budgets while politicians as low as city managers take home large salaries and ...

The True Legand of Jesse James (part 11)

2011-10-21 01:26:58

by: suburbanrider Outlaw guns, collector guns and how good of a shot were Jesse and Frank. Thanks to navythomas8 for the editing PIP suggestion. Watch "The True Legand of Jesse James (part 11)"

Odyssey 2009

2011-10-21 01:26:58

From: Mindwipe Description: originally done way back in the days of the amiga by alcatraz this 2009 remake updates the classic Public domain Demo in a new light. with music mixes by Daxx and Myself and video editing by a multitude of extraordinary talented ppl. one of the most famous amiga ...

Google+ the good and bad

2011-10-21 01:26:58

ontheairtv's webcam video July 11, 2011 07:29 PM talking about Google+ Watch "Google+ the good and bad"

Blast From The Past

2011-10-21 01:26:58

From suburbanrider Barney's car, Mayberry Cafe Danville, Indiana Watch "Blast From The Past"

scottish widow

2011-10-17 17:13:45

I have spent 5 years and lots of money promoting one of my songs,SCOTTISH WIDOW.now they tell me there is not a market for scottish religion ballards.so I gave up with this one and then a friend suggested I make it a story.so heres my story. UP ON A HILL IN SCOTTLAND WAY LIVES A WIDOW ...

The Karen Tea story

2011-10-16 04:53:50

I ve been a member of this site since March of 2008, but there s not too many here that know my story. As a young Canadian child growing ...

me?!!!

2011-10-14 14:54:20

this is me I...? Empty of affection and angriness ... I...?Empty of friendship and roving ... and can't choose between being or none being .... The love... my last outfit left me alone... like you... and now I only have my hands and my loneliness .... shame on me that stupidly got lost in the ...

California Transgender news!!!!

2011-10-10 22:36:54

WE DID IT! Governor Brown just signed two important transgender rights bills into law. The first, the Gender Nondiscrimination Act, brings transgender rights out of the closet in California - ...

Feeling Like a Shut In

2011-10-09 11:24:42

When you want or feel the need to dress allmost all the time but can't pass life gets to be lonely. When I dress it means I can't go out the door. Evan when I go to great pains to look as good as I can. So if I put on a skirt or a dress I have to stay home & I am dressed all the time. I ...

I must be doing something right

2011-10-07 22:23:08

I think I have finally achieved what I wanted all along. After a few experimental forays into the community, I have finally decided it was time to really become a part of public lifBeing the daring sort instead of switching to drab mode and going out, I just went with her en femme downtown ...

Another New Server, but hey, what's wrong with that?

2011-10-05 09:14:59

Have you noticed? Our site has been getting slower and slower over the last few weeks so we took the decision to move to a bigger, better, faster server with more RAM. The transfer took around ten minutes during which time the site was down but I did take the precaution of posting ...

Our New Adverts

2011-09-16 17:57:25

You may have noticed that we have recently done away with the dating site adverts which used to adorn our pages. We've taken a bit of a chance because although they didn't really fit in with the image we are trying to portray, they did pay for themselves. However, you said you didn't ...

De la pseudo évolution de nos sociétés (part1)

2011-09-14 19:41:32

Ou : un point de vue en passant sur le syndrome de Klinefelter. Faire une étude sur une communauté, quelle qu’elle soit, est d’une extrême complexité. Avant même de discuter ou réfléchir sur les moyens ou modes d’analyses ...

What the hell is wrong with Zoey?

2011-09-14 15:11:34

It's around noon. I'm sitting in my big overstuffed green lazy boy chair with my laptop on my...well, my lap. I wanted to go walking , but my back is protesting. Protesting a LOT. So, the pain killers are hitting now as I make the trade-off every time I take pain killers: Kills the pain, gives me ...

It's all coming together

2011-09-13 18:22:12

I think things are finally starting to come together for me. I have come out to a few of my friends and neighbors and so far the reaction has been quite favorable. I have been working on developing a survey to guage the reaction of the general popultaion towards our local GLBT members ...

Just another girl

2011-09-10 23:14:48

Where do I fit? I've never taken hormones. Never seriously considered SRS, FFS or any other form of physical modification. I have been dressing since I was about 8 years old. I never really fit in as a boy. I was TG, though I had no idea what that meant. Thought I was a transvestite/crossdresser, ...

Don't ever go back too often

2011-09-10 22:42:21

A quiet night in so I re-visit some old blogs - to give me encouragement to contribute something new. What am I like..?! Most the the self-centred stuff that I've contributed here has been complete tosh. So sorry all for the delusional utterings. Would be lovely to talk of nights out clubbing, of ...

Good Bye To Karen or Dressing Up Really

2011-09-08 13:12:58

At least for a while I guess. I have a nephew that's hit on hard times. He has no home or job & is one step away from living on the streets. I don't allways like him but I love him to much to let that happen. So I offered to let him stay here. He can fix up the basement & stay down ...

My thoughts

2011-09-07 01:49:33

Every once in a while we have to make mention to something that may be better left unsaid. The subject today is Chaz Bono and Dancing with the Stars. There is no question in my mind that this choice could be anything less than controversial and has become such. I guess the real question is ...

Friends new and old.....

2011-09-05 19:39:17

Hi Everyone, It is a wonderful day today! Between driving down to Carmel / Monterey this weekend, going to a Greek Festival and waking up this morning to a beautiful day, my heart is singing! What really made my weekend special, was talking with some of my new friends that I met ...

Time fly`s

2011-09-04 18:48:25

Hi girls, wow how time fly`s lol, its nearly 3 years since my last post so i guess things have changed quite alot since then. I no longer dress as such, I hav`nt worn make up in 18 months or taken even a slight interest in caring for my facial skin, at the moment i`m just getting on with ...

Irene

2011-08-28 07:27:33

Irene is making me so Wet...and I'm not the only one!

Transition Update

2011-08-24 15:41:44

Hi, Its been a while since my last proper update. Well, I have been living full time now for over two and a half years. I have been on hormones for over one and a half years. Although I changed my identity 6 months prior I "officially" went full time on 1st Jan 2009. Hormones have been ...

My Housemate problems in a nut shell

2011-08-23 10:24:07

When I woke up today and went down the stairs I noticed the kettle was on. I looked inside and it only had enough water for one cup, so naturally I filled it so there was enough for 2. My housemate promptly burst into outrage with objection. I said that I only filled it sufficiently for 2 cups and ...

Another Giant Step Towards Right Where I Need To Be!

2011-08-21 17:15:26

Did it again! So close to going out in the daytime amongst the general public now I can taste it! Went to a local club last night en femme with a few supportive friends. While there, I ran into some folks I went to high school with who couldn't believe their eyes. But could I blame ...

Dressing When I Was A Kid

2011-08-19 10:15:12

I've been thinking back to my dressing when I was very young. I think the first thing I ever wore was a pair of tights, & I got caught by everybody. I didn't get in trouble but I was told not to do that again. The thing is I don't remember how old I was. But it stayed with me, I wanted to dress & ...

Skeleton in a bar

2011-08-18 23:27:20

A skeleton walks into a bar. It orders a beer...and a mop.

Shakespeare in a pub

2011-08-13 04:54:37

Shakespeare walks into a pub and orders a pint of ale. The bartender looks at him and says, "Yo, mate, yer bard!"

I predict a riot

2011-08-11 08:33:32

There has been a lot written about the riots already (much of it by me) but I have decided to get my thoughts down in a blog. I grew up in a stable family with two loving parents who both worked hard and brought in enough money to put a roof over our heads and give us a decent holiday ...

Just Another Girl

2011-08-10 23:32:14

I wanted to respond to the rioting going on this week in the UK but this is too long for a regular post:No matter how it started, seems like rioting for rioting's sake, to me. In my area, San Francisco, anytime a cop shoots a black man, there is a period of automatic rioting and looting, but it ...

In House Pharmacy site

2011-08-09 03:17:40

Just want to tell everyone who doesn't already know that In House Pharmacy (formerly at InHousePharmacy.com) is now at InHousePharmacy.biz I think their old site was closed down for some petty reason. I just got something from them, and will post any updates if the new address changes.

Not Around Much Lately

2011-08-07 11:01:50

I know I haven't been here much lately. But with losing one job than finding another & being put on 12hr days from the start I don't have much time. I'm learning a new robot it does the same things as what I'm use to but the software is so much different & the way it's done is all new to me. The ...

Whirlwind

2011-08-02 15:49:40

I don't know what's happened these last few weeks. It's quite possibly been the best month of my life. When is it all going to come crashing down upon me? It surely can't keep up like this... My bezzie mate Gillian has been off work for 3 weeks, so we've spent a lot of time together as my band ...

Just Another Girl

2011-08-01 00:31:35

It's been an interesting week here. (Interesting doesn't have to mean good...)On Monday I managed to crack my rib leaning over and reaching into my car. Major ouch. My doctor said it wasn't serious, just a minor fracture. I was offered narcotic painkillers, but turned them down. (In the late 1960's ...

Forced Fem Goes to College

2011-07-26 21:13:17

Hi, In this Mag I have written a article on my forced feminination by a local college, and my various adventures as a female going back to college. Yes the college is forcing me to be a woman at least on campus. Here is a small part on my article. "I was in the office of the dean of ...

friends you can trust

2011-07-26 19:12:01

I have thought that my new neighbor would not be understanding, and not like her new neighbor, but the other day i was over at her aprtment, and during coffee I brought up the subject of how our childhoods were similar in how we were raised. later after after showing her a picture of me I ...

TS is it My Sisters Fault?

2011-07-25 09:56:35

I was talking with my sister or realy she was talking, I was listning, sort of. She asked me to hold on a second so she could check on something. As I was waiting I looked down at my legs & commented out loud that I needed to shave them. Well my sister heard my comment. That when she told she was ...

I want To Be Me; But

2011-07-20 11:30:37

When I lost my job I thought this would be a great time to explore jobs that would be more excepting of who I am. I had visions of me growing as Karen. The way I want to look, dress, act, well not actting anymore realy. Finely living as I have always wanted to live. But at the same time I ...

To come out or not to come out

2011-07-17 23:56:08

To date my dressing has been reserved for a select few - I go out occasionally with my wife and on a couple of occasions my parents have come along for a meal. Recently my wife has suggested that when we go out with her work colleagues and friends I go as Alice and let my hair down. She had ...

How I is now :)

2011-07-12 10:34:20

A lot has happened! After a year of harassment of being called a paedophile, threats of my vehicle being petrol bombed and general abusive comments from my neighbours they were evicted. However, abuse from other neighbours continued. Whilst crossing a foot bridge over a river 2 young lads ...

Testing

2011-07-12 10:31:51

Just testing. Now I have internet in my new home I will see how I get on with blogging again :)

My part in the whole thing

2011-07-09 02:58:45

Well this is a bit of my past so you can learn who I am. in the 80's I ran a BBS a Bulletin Board System and I was the Sysop System operator I ran wildcat software and ran fido net as my mail tosser. this was well before the internet had even started. I used to be a part ...

Sterling Silver Rings

2011-07-07 14:00:47

Sterling Silver Rings Sterling Silver Necklace sterling silver earrings Silver Rings

Space Cadet Glow

2011-07-04 16:09:55

"So ya, thought ya, might like to go to the show, To feel the warm thrill of confusion, that space cadet glow..." And so it was this week that I had the privilege of feeling the warm thrill of confusion, seeing Roger Waters perform "The Wall" live at the M.E.N. Arena. By way of Catharsis I ...

Surprise, Surprise !!! Yes .... I'm still alive!!

2011-06-30 12:14:17

Well ..... as the title tells you, yes ...... much to my own surprise, as well as your's ..... I'm still hanging on to this mortal coil!! To those of you who remember me from a few years ago, when I was active here, and whom I "fell out of touch with", my heartfelt apologies... I really ...

Religion, do I need it

2011-06-29 14:07:48

Whilst the current thread is religion thought i would add this. I once got religion, dragged Cass to our local church, We underwent an interview on suitability for accetance. Pastor asked us a lot of intimate and personal questions, could see he was getting quite excited by our ...

Easy methods to Encounter Pattaya Girls Not in the Bars?

2011-06-29 12:43:37

That i was initially waiting during famous Pattaya go-go standard, Baccara, person together with for example each and every Wednesday the location was initially loaded with into the rafters. Everyone honestly did not obtain seating together with punters the place status surrounding the stage. Girls ...

A year passed...

2011-06-26 22:28:01

It seems ages since I was last here. And it is. I was kinda shocked when I saw I was last here in September. Almost as surprised as when I realised a couple of weeks ago that it was a year since my op. And though I didn't notice the time passing as is often the case when you are busy, I don't ...

No tolerance

2011-06-26 21:11:05

What amazes me is the amount of acceptance we have in some communities and in some communities we are regarded as outsiders, freaks, or pervs, as a result we are shunned at every turn we take. what I would like to knowis who made these people judges in their little society? Would you ...

Self affirmation

2011-06-23 01:51:59

I have found, what with the forced solitude of living in a community that feared me or hated me, that my company is not so bad. I have learned to enjoy the stillness of my quiet periods, the raucousness of my manic times and the humor I enjoy on a daily basis without having to tell anyone ...

Chrissy's Chronicles. For all the things...

2011-06-21 20:16:01

For all the things..... For all the things I’ve learned today I just won’t lose my yesterday From where I stand and live and breath My past is something I still need It keeps me honest, straight and true It holds me back when things are new For all the things I’ve ...

very happy

2011-06-19 20:19:05

you know you wonder at your own struggle to experince all of life being transgendered means with the little things you discover along the way. I have found that I sometimes wanted the full experince of having my life be shared with everyone that knows me. like it was a kinda game. the ...

A Big Favour To Ask My Girlfriends Here...

2011-06-13 19:28:25

You may have seen me asking for the support of my girlfriends here in my recent status updates. Well the time has come and here's the favour... You know I've spent over a decade working tirelessly on this community and I've also worked hard on Frock, my transgender magazine, for ...

Tonight I Finally Made My Public Reveal!

2011-06-13 03:26:31

Tonight, I finally worked up the courage to go out as a lady. Apartment neighbors on the first floor had guests over and were sitting outside. I knew I'd never be able to go out past them even though it was dark out and almost gave up the idea when I saw the guests get in their car in leave. So, I ...

Have I got this right? Am I missing a point? Or totally out of

2011-06-12 13:20:21

I phoned my GP on Thursday and she told me that she had got the referral back from the Psychiatrist, and read out the conclusion to me. (So far I’ve not received a copy) She said that “By the appearance when presented, the subject is......” and I cant remember if the word ...

All is not well :(

2011-06-11 19:33:33

All is not well here :( I think we were probably very silly to assume that it would be, in all honesty. The reason why my boys have been quiet,not questioning, so seemingly accepting of Mandy's transitioning is because they have been talking to my Mum about it, not me. Mum ...

Just another girl

2011-06-07 17:56:27

I was never very good at being a boy. As I was growing up I was constantly teased, usually being called a "girl" by my classmates. When others were developing muscles and body hair, I was slender and relatively hairless.I was told that "boys don't carry their books propped against their hip."I ...

Why should I blog ? I am grateful

2011-06-02 23:15:40

in the last x years I have read a fair few blogs [Probably like a lot of you ] , and constantly surprised by the way the Internet media is allowing us to see and share our lives . Currently I am in a bit of a reflective phase ...as i see myself changing for the better and feeling more ...

Briana's Music Room

2011-06-02 00:59:31

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Chrissy's Chronicles....Giving a little back

2011-06-01 14:06:45

Chrissy’s Chronicles Giving a Little Back One of the things we never think about is putting back a little of that which we have taken. As life rolls along we get what we need and tend to move on. No harm no foul. But if you look at it from a different perspective ...

Just be my friend

2011-06-01 00:08:25

Don't walk in front of me I may not follow Don't walk behind me I may not lead Walk beside me And just be my friend Camus

DSM-5...now we are criminals or psychotic!

2011-05-30 18:04:11

Filed By Kelley Winters, PhD http://www.bilerico.com/contributors/kelley_winters/May 28, 2011 10:00 AM | 28 comments http://www.bilerico.com/2011/05/transvestic_disorder_the_overlooked_anti-trans_dia_1.php#commentsOn May 5, the American Psychiatric Association released a ...

Interesting question (and much info afore that!)

2011-05-30 17:08:18

From here on Mandy in male mode will be called **** My 2 sons (ages now 14 and 16) have always known about Mandy. I met **** online in about '04 on a website dedicated to ranting about bad drivers. We shared the same sense of humour so soon got chatting on Messenger. At that time ...

Your own confidence

2011-05-28 19:54:16

Remember the first time that you as a person for the first time started embracing your feminine side and tried dressing for the first time? I bet for being the first time a person felt many emotions rushing through them; fear, guilt, embarassment, or maybe even shame for what they were ...

Old Blog comments...

2011-05-28 18:24:43

HI All, Until this morning, I hadn't noticed that none of the Blogs that transferred over from the old system had their comments transferred as well. Not complaining, knowing the extreme amount of work Katie and team have put in for the new system. BTW: The new Blog area works great on my ...

Random thoughts of a girl in transition....

2011-05-28 18:20:40

Just some random thoughts.... Deep in my heart lives a spark, that one day grew and became a flame. A Flame consuming thoughts and identity, revealing the true me. It was in that flames light that Michelle was born... (or should I say revealed). For Michelle has always been ...

Still

2011-05-28 15:03:20

This a little test to see how the super-dooper up-dated blog pages works, and it works very well. So let's see whether my brain and typing are as reliable and simple to access.. Hi everyone, anyone or no-one, I hope you're all OK. This isn't going to be a lengthy expose of ...

How much things have changed!

2011-05-26 18:47:51

For starters its a shame none of the comments are still there on the previous entries :( And OMG!!! I re read all my previous entries......some made me laugh, some brought me to tears(again) Anyhooooooooo...........much changes!!!! Mandy is no longer in Dorset. She ...

OMG I had no idea I could still blog!!!!!

2011-05-26 17:18:25

Two and a half years or more of not blogging, and I only just found out I can still blog!!!!!

Goooooooood Loooooooord!

2011-05-26 17:14:40

Its been almost 3 yrs since my last bloggy thing!!! I was a full member then, can I still blog now? Testing testing...........

Chrissy's Chronicles....Part Four

2011-05-24 21:53:13

Chrissy’s Chronicles Part Four I think that one of the biggest things I’ve learned through my life is that Alcohol addiction should be ranked #1 on the top ten worst addiction list. It’s a powerful addiction and withdrawal can be severe and more life ...

Chrissy's Chronicles...Part Three

2011-05-23 03:08:26

Chrissy’s Chronicles 1978 to 1999 I’ve been writing about my life for a while now. Seems the more I write the more I feel like sharing. I brought everything from my teen years with me into my 20’s. I was still using drugs and the war going on in my ...

Dressing Through Time

2011-05-21 14:13:32

When I was young & got a chance to dress I wanted pretty dresses like I saw other girls wear to church or parties. With little white tights & shoes. In my teens & early 20's I wanted to look sexy. But getting to dress was something I didn't get to do very much. So I had to be happy ...

just NOT fair at all

2011-05-20 22:32:39

I'm feeling totally fk'd off with things right now. Since January i've had to put up with harassment & Abuse from an idiot neighbour of mine. It started with him ringing my bell at 2 in the morning & progressed to him actually ringing my front door bell in the earlt hours too. Since then, the dirty ...

who is charlene lynn cook

2011-05-15 22:45:11

dads grand parents come over from scottland/wales.settles in georgia and owns a chicken farm. moms parents come over from ireland and settles in kansas,where grandpop works as a machist for the union pacifc railroad. dad,the youngest of 7 brothers and 5 sisters joins the navy and serves ...

5/13/11

2011-05-14 01:45:50

5/31/11 My first posted song I just made my first trip totally en femme. Three days and about 600 miles. Had a great time and can't wait to do it again. Spent today shopping and went out to dinner with my sweetie. We both had a great time the last 6 days and tonight it comes to ...

The Life Of A Social Network Administrator

2011-05-11 19:56:15

I don't know if you've ever thought about it but the life of a social network administrator is quite demanding. You have to know about a lot of things, from email strategy to SEO, accounting, marketing and server administrating, from forum management to PHP programming and you need to know ...

last tear drop

2011-05-09 19:01:24

over the years,since youve been gone,I have lived,lived my life for you.but now no more.for you see I must go on with my life and live for me. And now I send my last tear drop to heaven,and now I write my last heart ache on a cloud.for you see I cant cry,no more tears left inside.But I will never ...

Feeling Frustrated

2011-05-06 10:43:26

As I sit here this morning I feel a bit down that I can't be me. I'm supposed to meet some people for breakfast this morning & have to do it in male mode, which sucks. I finely got my nailpolish on right, not a dab out of place & an awsome color. But it has to come off. The reality is that I can ...

Too long right?

2011-05-05 03:46:30

I grow up in a household of only women. My house hold growing up consisted of my mom, my sister, and my two adopted sisters. I am the oldest of my siblings. From the time I was five I had more interest in their toys then my own. Though even as early as that age I had been ingrained with gender ...

A good week

2011-05-04 09:02:42

After a long absence, during which time I have also used another transgendered social network (which is in reality just a sleazy pickup site), I have returned to Trannyweb - newly renamed the Gender Society. I always found the old site a bit clunky, and I really like the new layout. It allows users ...

Long Ago; Far Away

2011-04-28 18:15:44

Will anyone recall me? Really, it's been so long since I last posted. So much has happened. I last wrote in the fall of 2009 and it's now the spring of 2011. I am almost a different person. Perhaps the best news I can offer is that I have finally threaded the needle of ...

Chrissy's Chronicles...Will I ever grow up

2011-04-27 21:12:46

Chrissy’s Chronicles Will I ever grow up? So I’ve been rather misguided by what I thought to be some set in stone values. Gender was something physical you were born with. But I wasn’t feeling that physical gender as early as 8 yrs. old. Now that I’ve been ...

The journey

2011-04-26 20:17:31

I am on here but its been a long time. A lot has happened to me, I quit my job last year and went into Care of adults with learning difficulties and challenging behaviours. This is proving to be a difficult decision as I miss engineering, although that was not a lady like job. ...

The herbal way

2011-04-25 14:36:09

A few months ago i decided to try herbal hormones. i wanted to see if there were any improvements i could make, whilst waiting for a referal to see the gender Identity clinic, to my body and lifestyle. i wanted to grow breasts and soften my skin. i thought i would, in moderation, try some well ...

4/24/11

2011-04-24 20:28:27

It's really been a trying month. Haven't been playing my music much if at all. My dad passed away in March. Our relationship was never great to begin with which leaves me in this strange place in my head. Doing ok, but have kind of been more to myself lately. Sorry to those ...

Chrissy's Chronicles...Family & Friends

2011-04-24 01:55:21

Chrissy’s Chronicles Family & Friends Parents and Siblings: So I thought I would talk a little about a most important subject that’s often times the reason that most who have gender related issues remain hidden in the proverbial closet. Our fear of ...

Mixed Thoughts

2011-04-22 17:29:32

Spring is finely coming to Michigan. Though I am getting tired of cold weather I like that I can wear nice tops with a bra & forms under a jacket without anyone knowing while I run erronds. Have been looking into local groups for help in trying to look nicer when I dress evan if it is only ...

Has anyone else noticed The Trib was actually sent in error

2011-04-22 12:26:26

Has anyone else noticed that The Trib was actually sent in error, before it was finished and ready to send out? I'm actually hopping mad because a developer was supposed to be fixing several major problems with our newsletter software and by accident, he sent a half finished newsletter ...

The scent of a flower

2011-04-20 20:33:49

I love walking through the mall and inhaling all the different scents that seem to flood my senses. All the scents of the different perfumes, the smells of the new flowers. It is a wonderful day to be Ursula, how I love spring.

Forced Feminization and Blackmail

2011-04-20 16:04:03

A lot of you have a blackmail fantasy where you are threatened with exposure unless you submit completely. Just how real of a threat is this? Lets say you come home from work, take a shower and put on a pair of silky lace panties and a matching peignoir. You feel fantastic and soon forget ...

Buying Eyelashes

2011-04-16 14:08:36

Always wishing I could have nice eyes like some of the girls I see here. So today I had to run to the drug store. I decided to get some false lashes. I figgered my choises were going to be long, med, or short. Wrong!! There were a lot of different ones to choose from. So I had to look them over. As ...

Chrissy's Chronicles...Society

2011-04-14 00:32:04

Let’s talk about society for a moment shall we. Is it their fault for feeling like they do? Maybe, maybe not. Nothing is a given when it comes to the masses of people who dictate our lives. They way I was raised I should be ashamed of how I feel and I was for the longest time. Not ...

Chrissy's Chronicles Part two

2011-04-13 01:26:18

So very early on there was a foundation for what would become a war between my physical gender and my gender identity/expression. As I look back it’s no wonder that in my mid teens I turned to drugs and alcohol. I was always rather shy and uncertain of myself and ...

Chrissy's Chronicles Part One

2011-04-13 01:22:11

It's been a crazy time lately but it all started when I was 8 or 9 years old. I know, same old song and dance. Not really all that different from what everyone else goes through at that age. Boys were Boys and Girls were Girls. But the girls were dressed so pretty and that's what changed ...

I have returned

2011-04-10 23:00:34

Sorry for the absance, glad to be back blogging. I am so happy we have a new community site on the when its Back to school for one more semester, and then hopefully I can find a job as a bookkeeper. Here's hoping Hugs Ursula

The Continuing Saga of the "Soft Launch"

2011-04-10 11:02:51

And so dear reader, the "Soft Launch" continues. We had hoped that we could have a big new site launch party in a blaze of publicity this weekend but alas, it was not to be. The trouble is down to the membership subscription system which appears to be suffering from various teething problems ...

My long and winding road of life

2011-04-07 05:25:41

The first encounter 53 years ago set me on this journey of discovery that is still unfolding even as I type this blog today. It has been a constant .It is the constant thread that is weaving ,linking,effecting every decision I have made in my life.From my career to my moving to Oregon ...

A Heart Longing for quiet...

2011-04-06 23:15:04

In the quiet moments of the day, I wish my heart could be quiet. Enjoying these moments would be great, but instead I have a storm inside. It's a storm of identities It's a storm of Social Expectations It's a storm of Conforming It's a ...

A Mountain to Climb

2011-04-06 13:27:17

The mountain stands before me I must face it every day But I’ll not turn around And I’ll not run away Though painful it may be I know it’s truly for my best And as I climb, though wearily I know I’ll pass this test For God is with me every step And sends his grace ...

We've done it !!!

2011-04-05 00:04:41

Hooray! We've finally done it and I'm soooo pleased!!! Our new community site is online at last. It was a bit shaky to start with and we had a short time when the site got so slow it nearly crashed altogether, but we fixed that and it's quite speedy now. We'll work on making ...

Ironic Heels & Flats.....

2011-03-09 00:18:41

Hi All,Ironic - can wear heels all day long without a problem.Twisted my ankle while wearing flats. Go figure!Hugz,MichelleLynnPS Treatment for twisted ankle - Cold Pack, Advil and 2 mohito's w double rum.

2010-12-24 12:42:58

Hello everyone, and welcome to my new and hopefully often updated blog. I have been around this website for a while now and feel like I know all of the regulars a little, which is unfair because they know virtually nothing about me which I intend on changing here. I figured the best way to start ...

Christmas shopping as Steffie in Charlotte

2010-12-11 16:02:35

Hi girls, Last week I shopped in Asheville. Well this time I went to Charlotte because there they had a Macy's (Asheville does not) which is my wife's favorite store. I wore gray leggings along with a black top and gray/black shoes. My make-up consisted of a gray hue eye shadow. To keep ...

Reflections on the year that passed...

2011-01-01 22:10:36

HI Everyone, I’m just sitting here reflecting on the year that just passed and girl, I’m glad it is over. This year was very tough on me, but overall I’ve learned a lot . Earlier in the year, I was diagnosed as Gender Dysphoric - Male to Female and I was considering starting the full ...

A TRANSGENDER JOURNEY By Juliet Jaques

2011-01-26 13:08:37

Let me know if this 17 part series has been posted before ENJOY!A transgender journey: part oneJuliet Jacques was born a boy, but always knew that something wasn't quite right. In the first of a series of columns charting her gender reassignment process, she describes how she gradually came to ...

Tur,ning 43

2011-03-04 03:29:10

Well I had another birthday recently and am now a bit older. Not much else has changed I never thooght that I would be 43 , married and still crossdressing, I cannot see any type as I typr this so please be easy on my spelling errors. I liike to type my words out plainly and correctly but ...

A "Dark" Sate of Mind!

2011-01-23 17:49:28

I had made a pledge to myself to stay red. My friends and I decided the transition from blond was good and overdue. As I have said, I love the color and all the waves of hair. All was good until last night. A bit of the devil poked her head out and whispered "Go Dark!" I had ...

Slackers unite...TOMMOROW

2011-01-21 16:19:01

Because there is still so much to do on my original topic, the following is another one of my college assignments from last year.Key Perspective of Psychology:The Biological Perspective and Gender Identity Disorder Jillian C. McMahanWichita State UniversityPerspective“Biological psychology is the ...

A blast from the past Sparkle 2006

2011-02-03 16:36:12

If You Could,

2011-03-11 23:25:06

If You Could Would You Go All Out And Not Care What Others Might Say, But Not Really Looking Like When You Where Younger With Ageing Coming Up On You, If I Could I Might Have, But Still Stay In The Closet. I Know People Have Seen Me, Quite Along Time Ago, Say 3-4 Years. I Wish That I Could ...

Dear Reader

2011-03-10 21:00:03

Dear Readers Of My Blog I Know I have Not Been On This Site For Some Time Or Posted Any Blogss But Would Like To Continue, Since The Last Blog I Have Had A Meddical Condition That Made Me A Bit Mad. And Was Pronounce Spychotic By A Doctor, Because I tRIED tO tELL a Girl From My Past Feelings I Had ...

Saying hi agin

2011-01-09 22:02:14

just to say hi agin,to all of you. I am curantley in missiorri wait ting to p/u a load on monday,boring lol . other than that life is pretty good . Laters Barb

One of the best days of my life...

2011-03-26 00:48:12

As the title says this is one of the best days of my life. I have called the local TG Clinic in my area and set my first appointment. My wife is supportive of my decision to start my transition. The transition is only at this point going to be a partial transition but if you have followed any ...

Marsha, the plumber is here!

2010-12-10 13:24:51

Spending time with Marsha Ann during her SRS has been a lot of fun and quite interesting. It also has taught me more about where I am, psychologically. There are no fantasies here; only reality. It is much like my first time assisting with a delivery in Obstetrics, but far more personal. ...

My Journal of Transition, j0ni TSpirit

2011-02-06 23:37:26

Hello,Thanks to the staff for reminding me that i am a member here and there are many benefits to being an active participant. For details of my TK self - TrannyKink, please see fetlife.com where i am j0ni_TSpirit ( 0 is zero )Last Wednesday, Lalani and i had lunch with a long lost friend of ...

A night at Baltimore BWI Airport

2011-03-26 15:11:42

A Friday night at the airport near Baltimore, Maryland. It’s 12:55 am the next morning things are quiet and peaceful. There are not any shops open this late, they all seem to close up shop around 9 and 10 pm .. You can see the cleaning crew vacuuming and buffing the floors running ...

My Dad passed away on 2 Jan 2011

2011-01-07 14:36:08

Iuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuufeel so u[set this week

Gluing On My Breast Forms

2011-03-25 16:25:25

This was my first try at attaching my forms on with glue. Well first I had to shave my chest real close. I only nicked my nipple a little, but it took a long time to stop the blood. Next apply glue to forms & wait untill it gets tacky. That stuff sticks to everything & pulls away ...

Why do I bother?

2011-03-22 13:11:13

I sometimes wonder why I bother at all. Every time I've said we are just a day or two away from making this site live, I have been scuppered by one huge problem or another. It seemed like we were all set to go a few weeks back and I told everyone to say goodbye to the old site once ...

So close to launch

2011-03-02 13:46:30

We are so close to launch now. I feel a bit like the Launch Director at Kennedy Space Center. Our new site seems to be good to go, sitting on Pad 39A with the public still being kept a safe distance away. But before we do anything rash, like pressing the 'launch' button, we have ...

No pain, no gain

2011-02-17 12:57:17

Get ready for some disruption girls. I know I keep saying this site is almost ready for launch. Well it really is... almost. Our developers are still putting in the billing module (you know, the one I said was still just a spec in my last blog entry). A new version of ...

Isn't it weird when you walk the same speed as a stranger?

2011-02-07 21:51:36

Isn’t it awkward when you start walking at exactly the same speed and right next to a stranger when you’re walking down the street? Usually when your both in a rush and neither of you want to concede. Do you speed up and look obvious as you awkwardly fail in conquering the ...

Still, Stiil Nearly There

2011-01-22 13:49:57

Surely, nobody can be as frustrated with the recent lack of progress in getting this site live than me. Well, lack of progress is not really fair because we have accomplished a great deal since my last blog entry. However, a new tide of work has emerged that we had not reckoned ...

John Who?

2011-01-12 17:24:26

Hi, I'm not a Society girl but rather, I'm one of the developers who's been working on this site. I think it's coming together nicely now. We've all been hard at it for months and I've seen it go from a really good site to a brilliant site to where it is now - an absolutely fantastic ...

Still Nearly There

2011-01-09 16:36:38

Funny, I've been saying that we're nearly there for ages now, thinking this new site would be up and working in just a few days. Months on and we are still only nearly there. There are a number of problems on the new site which we have to fix before we make it live. We have ...

2008-09-07 16:16:59

Good Afternoon!! Yes I slept in for once.After going through treatment for hepititus, I was having my liver scanned every 3 months. The last time my doctor said that if it was still clear I could cut back to every 6 months. Well he just orderd another one at 3 months along with full blood work up. ...

No clever song lyrics today

2005-11-13 16:06:15

Hi all. Well, it looks like it's definitely over. I was at my house yesterday for the birthday party. First she asked me upstairs to help with some decorations, and we exchanged a nice little conversation about books, work, etc. I felt no anger emanating from her. But the ...

I'm so up and down, and I love what's not allowed

2005-10-17 16:10:23

Yes, I've used that tag line before...... I had to get out for a day. On Saturday I went to my folks' house and stayed for the night. The thing is, I felt like I had to get permission from my friend to do it, especially since he and my wife think my living there is a bad idea. My ...

More Nothing

2005-10-16 23:48:22

Not much to add yet. No further progress re breasts. They tried once more to finish the expansion, but again could not do it, so back under the scanner I go. No date yet. No surprise. Only positive news is that I can go bigger than I first thought, if I want to, by another 50ml. I'll sleep on ...

2005-08-03 11:06:37

The great escape Today would have been my umpteenth wedding anniversary, had I not had a lucky and merciful escape. I guess that’s not how it felt at the time, me trying to be "normal" and all that, but things really did work out for the best. When people say that, it’s not always a cliché. ...

My Glasses

2005-06-17 04:28:44

Small clarification. That was 2 pair of glasses. Well realy 1 set of tri-focal lenses. 1 pair of perscription sunglasses. I ain't that dumb. LOL Now for some bad news. Bob (the other tech at work) & I have spent about 2 months writing logic for the new ...

a change for the better?

2005-05-31 11:34:28

i've just done my job prospects the power of good by enrolling on a course to help me improve my chances of finding a proper job. I went and had the interview today and got on very well, the lady i saw was very good and treated me with respect throughout.I start officially on the 27th ...

A plea, then a funny story (maybe)

2005-05-03 17:26:34

Girls, we have some sisters here who really need our love and support. Clair, Lucy, Karen, and so many others (including me) have more crap on our plates than is necessary. While the differences in the problems are many, let's do all we can to let them know we care and we're right beside them all ...

at last....good news

2005-04-18 20:00:29

Girls i simply have to share this news with you all.As you know, i have been having no end of probs where i live with kids breaking my windows cos of me being TG,and me having to leave where i am cos my landlord's being an a**hole.Well,today i had a phone call from my local council......offering ...

cleared the air.....

2004-12-06 15:26:12

As some of you know,i've not had it easy in the last few weeks.You can tell by reading some of my earlier posts.It ended up with me havin a massive row with my mum over me going out"en-femme"...cos some of my family had seen me! I 'm not worried about what they think,but my mum was and she ...

2004-11-01 10:13:47

2004-10-21 21:13:21

Grease is the word When Pippa and I were discussing outfits for last Saturday I said to her, "I bet this gets us our pic on the Trans-mission website". This was to be my fourth TM and that was something I still hadn’t achieved; story of my life - never in the right place at the right time. Well, ...

doing what i can

2004-10-06 22:21:44

As a t-girl, I'm known to be thoughtful but inactive. Some girls have commented that I should think less and dress more. This is easy to say if your wife is supportive or you live alone. If your wife says that dressing is perverted, and doesn't know you do it - then it takes a little more ...

on kilts

2004-08-12 22:11:59

North-east Scotland was misty today. We were planning to go up a hill, but found ourselves in cloud as soon as we got out the car so we had to change plans. Instead we went to the Highland Gathering at Tain. This is Scotland's version of the Olympics: tossing the caber, throwing the hammer, a ...

What I am. Why I'm blogging.

2004-06-12 09:28:07

I'm not doing this blog because I want people to know me...those who I want to share myself with, I do. I'm not doing it to share my journey, although I might, for others are sharing that far better than I could. I just have some thoughts/feelings that I want to share because I am learning and ...

Test Blog

2004-01-30 00:45:52

Oh gosh, I've never driven one of these things before. I'm not even sure how to start it. Hmmm, lemme see, maybe this button...nope that makes the window go down. Maybe this one, well, that raises and lowers the driver seat. Wheee, kind of fun. Hmm, maybe this is it. Hey, alright, there it goes, ...

Server probs

2004-01-22 11:00:00

This morning I was pleasantly surprised to find the server up and working. I emailed Eric, the programmer in Canada, to let him know we now have server falling over problems. I couldn't tell him last night because the server was down. Eric says that he's now fixed the forum posting ...

Katie's last blog entry on this site...

2010-11-27 18:57:00

This will probably be my last blog entry in this site. As you can see, I'm not exactly a prolific blogger and we will shortly be moving to our new community web site which is awesome. I hope to continue blogging over there, perhaps a bit more often than I have here.Thanks, Katie :)

EMERALD CITY

2010-11-07 10:38:55

Well, had a wonderful time in Seattle with Joni and her SO. It was peaceful, relaxing, cool, wet and GREEEEEEEEN. I got to do a workout in their back yard in soft, green grass to my ankles. Two whole weeks of just being me. Not having to work at either gender. Not deciding which gender ...

Follow the Yellow Brick Road...

2010-10-05 08:30:28

Thursday morning I head north to Seattle, WA....The Emerald City (no I do not know why it is not in Aus.)I will be the guest of Joni Cruz, one of my long-time friends here at TGS., and her SO. Probably will be out of touch for two weeks (mostly). Only MY SO knows how to contact me for an ...

Give Wendy a hand

2010-09-30 12:17:07

In fact, the treatment, while still a bit painful, has already been very effective. The finger joint click is barely noticeable and there is no pain on movement. There are twinges of hand pain from the treatment and I am minimizing chat for now. So, this means I will have full use of the ...

Scary how time passes

2010-09-26 17:01:56

Happy anniversary to me!Today I have been a member of Katie's site for exactly nine years.In September 2001 I first went on to the internet, using a TV/Internet box - wires everywhere, dial-up and a rubber-keyed keyboard something like the old Sinclair ZX series. I knew a little about computers and ...

The future picks up speed......and the journey gets longer

2010-09-13 19:45:00

They say as you approach the speed of light time slows down. Are things progressing that quickly?Wow! I am already scheduled for a pre-surgical MRI for BOTH my shoulder, rotator cuffs. They will have to be done one at a time, of course, so that lengthens the time until I can go back to ...

Thought I should write something.

2010-08-23 13:53:08

It been awhile since I added anything but realy there's not much to add. I've been working everyday for to long. So that's been it. Go to work, go home, repete daily. Not much me time in there. With all the breakdowns at work & low porduction numbers it will take a month to get caught up ...

Sat 21 Aug 2010 - D-Day overwhelming success

2010-08-22 06:55:53

Not only did I get every tooth pulled in one session, but I had time to arrange an early September appointment to arrange surgery to correct a long-term shoulder injury and be seen about two other ortho injuries. (O-Day)Â I could be all fixed up and healed by early 2011....ready to return to ...

Wednesday, 18 Aug 2010 - D-Day approacheth

2010-08-19 01:22:26

Two days from now I should be sitting here with full knowledge of the plan for my dental repairs in hand. This means a time line for many changes. I will be able to work and soon able to go Out without having to be self-conscious about my mouth. "Why don't you ever smile?" I feel ...

The End!

2010-08-14 22:52:33

Or maybe it's the beginning?Anyway, whichever way one looks at it, I'm done. No more shrinks and doctors, appointments and tests, and all the other crap that goes along with a simple request for a bit of elective surgery. I've had my final check-up (as far as I know, and I can't be bothered going ...

Still here!

2010-07-17 18:53:15

I know I don't blog as much as I used to. It's hard to do that working two full time gigs.Dad is doing fine. Thanks for your well wishes.Josie is doing fine. Thanks for your well wishes.More later!I hope you're doing fine. Thank yourself for well wishes.

How DO they do that?

2010-07-16 16:46:26

I have been off now since the beginning of June, and am getting bored out of my skull!So this week I went back to work, mornings only for now, just to get out of the house.Even with the internet, Freeview and a mobile, the walls are too close. I really can't understand how anyone can sit around at ...

21 June 2010: Pink light at the end of a long tunnel

2010-06-22 06:09:16

At last! The roadblock that stands in the way of my returning to work is scheduled to be torn down, starting in August. I hope, by the end of the year, to be back at work and, soon after, in my own place. The time line on the treatments is way up in the air till August. In the mean time, ...

2010-06-20 10:31:54

I keep hoping to win the Lottery but keep forgeting to buy tickets. That's not working out to well.For a long time I didn't bother with dresses or skirts. With my build a nice pair of slacks look better. But so far this summer has been realy hot so when I washed clothes yesterday I didn't have any ...

Back Home

2010-06-11 22:35:53

I just realised the best part of a week has passed...Anyway, Monday and Tuesday passed uneventfully, taking it easy and enduring endless interruptions checking this and that, and gradually being released from all the tubes in and tubes out and all the stuff they do. Hospitals rarely change, leave ...

2010-06-06 13:40:28

Don't know it anyones noticed or not but I haven't been posting anything. Not here in the blogs or in the forums. No reason realy I just haven't felt like it. fact is that since I've been back to work I haven't felt like doing much of anything. The things I have tried to do haven't worked out. I ...

The long dark teatime of the soul...

2010-06-06 03:58:52

give or take 12hrs!For those of you who know your Hitchhikers Guide you will recognise I have reached that point of the daywhen you have done all you can and there is still some day left.Actually, it's now the early hours of Sunday morning, and I missed Saturday altogether. As always with me, ...

Hurry up and wait...

2010-06-03 05:52:21

One thing I am good at, waiting...Anyway, finally got here yesterday after eight-and-something hours travelling. I hate public transport, especially when the bus implies it will leave from a stop, only for one to find out after a few buses and the expected time had passed that it actually leaves ...

OMG, it's tomorrow!

2010-06-01 12:46:07

I think the realisation just hit me. It's 2pm and I go in tomorrow! Ok, the op itself is not until the day after, but...Strangely enough, it's not what happens when I arrive that gets to me, it's the getting there. Whether it is a holiday, a meeting, going in to hospital or sometimes just getting ...

T - 71.5hrs

2010-05-31 17:12:48

Yes, it's down to hours now.Spent the day in the sun by the open french windows, looking out over our bit of garden and beyond to the trees and birds flying around. Helped by Ruby, the cute two year old from next door pointing them all out. And only about 50 times each! And chatting with the ...

It's been a long time coming...

2010-05-28 09:25:40

THE DAY is almost upon me. I am due to go in next Wednesday, op on Thursday. BP is down to something acceptable, so as long as I am not full of viruses (virii? LOL) all should go ahead and out the week after for a longish break. I will be borrowing a laptop, so hope to give a bit of a running ...

2010-05-08 12:29:13

I've been reading some books by Dean Koontze. "Frankenstein" There's 3 of them so far, with another due out soon. I've never thought of him as a very deep thinker, his books are just stories. But he touched on something that got me to thinking. The good doctor is still alive & still ...

Backi for now!

2010-05-03 19:42:16

I hardly blog anymore! I don't have the time!Karen Brad is writing enough about her trip here. Because of her trip I am doing some serious thinking about maybe going back to the boats this summer (if I can!). It was great being able to talk about Chicago history and architecture like ...

Holidays

2010-05-03 14:25:55

We've just recevied our booking confimation so will be off to France in July and Italy in August for holidays, woohoo! I can't wait. Like a lot of people, I look forward to them as a refresh and recharge, and of course, it's always nice to go somewhere new and sample the local culture. (Apparently, ...

2010-04-30 16:21:15

Sorry but I've been sort of off for the past few days.Sat. Mere drove me downtown to see some sites. I got some realy cool pics. Mere knows her city. I don't know how she remembers it all but she has a head full of facts. They do tours of the city there. Here in Detroit it would take all of ...

2010-04-22 12:58:53

Sorry to leave this hanging for so long. Back to Chicago.Friday morning Mere picked me up at the motel. She had a busy day so I just tagged along. She wanted to check out a book from some collage downtown. She had to park on a sidestreet. The houses in that area were old but they were very well ...

I have a date

2010-04-20 09:05:33

And no, I don't mean with someone. Well, I do, but not romantically. And though a couple of the doctors and shrinks I have seen have been rather dishy, this one definitely isn't.He is, however, a surgeon. And carries out operations. And will be carrying out one I consider very important to me. ...

Three forward, two back, slow progress but..

2010-04-14 18:50:57

Finally, after a lot more paper shuffling, emails, faxes and goddess knows what else, the right papers ended up on the right desk and someone who could read did so and acted on them.Seen Mr Surgeon chappie, he's ok with me, got the usual earache about weight, smoking, blood pressure, etc. etc. plus ...

2010-04-14 10:36:59

Having arrived at my motel I realized 2 things. 1 that my teeth were still at home soaking, & my boobs were at home sitting on my bed to be packed. Forgetting my breast inhancers was understandable, but my teeth, there just partials but I never go out without them. I had talked to Mere while I ...

2010-04-12 09:08:59

Home from ChicagoI went without any plans realy, kind of a last minute trip. Mere realy was sick, I think she was using tissue by the box. The plan was to just hang out with Mere for a few days & that's what I did. So I'm back home & already board so your going to get all the details.The ...

2010-04-12 09:08:38

2010-04-12 09:07:30

No pain but still gain!

2010-04-10 15:10:14

About time too! Laser affects people differently, it hurts me, unlike electrolysis, which I find relaxing. Now though, I have reached the point where the laser can hardly be felt anymore, with the exception of my upper lip which still needs a good bit of treatment. There isn't so much there anymore ...

2010-04-08 13:05:07

Packing up to go to Chicago for a few days with Mere. What to pack? Well of course the essentials. But will I have time to get dolled up? Just in case I packed 2 bras, my forms & evan some pantyhose. Though I think pantyhose are a pain in the ass the do make my legs look nicer. I think! Also ...

I Got My New ipad

2010-04-03 23:20:21

The fun started as soon as it got here. UPS never delivers on Sat so I wasn't looking for them today. I was sitting at my laptop with a long skirt on when the doorbell rang. I peeked out to see who it was & it was UPS with my ipad. Usualy they just set things next to the door on the porch. But ...

Un-acceptable forum

2010-04-01 19:10:50

I put this in theforums. But I guess it's to dirty it won'e accept it.It's Warm, it's Sunny, with a mild breeze, it's MARGARITA SEASON!!!!! I am looking for that perfect drink. I want recipies to tryout. I'm allways looking for a better one. So help me find the best mix for those hot days coming ...

Long weekend

2010-04-01 08:48:52

Yay! A four day weekend coming up, and in my case, two of them as I have a long weekend next week as well. I feel like I really deserve it too as work has been very manic and my feet feel like they have hardly touched the ground. i'm looking forward to getting some nice gentle retail therapy in and ...

Swimming again!!

2010-03-27 09:04:28

I finally managed to get myself back into swimming again after about two years. The reason? Well, mostly because the pool changed their opening times which meant I now have time to go for a swim after I have given guitar lessons, or been to the gym, which takes up five evenings a week between ...

2010-03-25 10:00:39

I got to have my coffee today.i took a cab to the hospital yesterday. getting there at 8:30. they took me straight in & gave me a robe thing to put on. i was hoping i could keep my pants since i couldn't find a pair of mens underwear to wear. they left me alone to change & i got under a ...

2010-03-21 07:31:35

Weekends mess me up. Since I work mid-nights I never know when I should go to bed. I allways end up getting up early on Monday than have to be up for 20 some hrs before going back to bed. It doesn't matter this week since I won't be going back to work for a month or 2. They do my elbow this ...

2010-02-27 17:47:10

My surgery will be a very minor one on my elbow. A small cut, scrape out the damaged tissue & close. Still recovery time is 2 months for the muscle to re-attach itself to the bone. But with all the overtime I've been putting in I'll be OK. My mortgage is paid up untill June.I've been going out ...

A very quick update!

2010-02-23 23:24:51

I still don't have my internet access at home sorted out yet! Anyhow, here are some quickies (so to speak):I am pretty much fully out at work. In academia I am almost there. I am waiting on some word concerning a possible full-time teaching job, so until that happens, and I might need to get ...

Back from the slopes

2010-02-23 16:08:31

Skiing was terrific as usual, I really enjoy it even though I may not have as much grace and style as those who grew up with it. My daughter also did really well in her first ski school and came second in her slalom race held on the final day of her course. I'm so proud of her and she can't wait to ...

2010-02-20 19:44:59

Well I haven't posted in a couple of weeks because I haven't had anything worth posting. I've been working mid-nights since the newyear & still not in any kind of a routine. I just can't get use to this. But still life goes on.I had bought some brown boots with 3in heels that fit so great I ...

Funding

2010-02-09 23:31:51

FUNDING APPROVEDNeed I say more...

I feel so worn-out!!!

2010-02-04 18:42:51

I'm so sick of working everyday! I like my job, but only an idiot would like it this much. Guess I'll be able to pay for a nice funeral.Here's a look at what's going on. It's all moving at once. 5 cells.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=USXI3Tf_-fY

Good news, totally indifferent news

2010-01-28 23:27:02

The good part first.I hope to be moving. Very soon. Still rented, and subject to my approval of the flat (which is about 99.9% sure to be yes). My own front door again, after too many years.So I will soon be entering panic mode - there seems to be a huge amount of stuff here that is mine, and it's ...

Tribune

2010-01-28 15:01:53

Well, that was kind of weird reading about myself in the Tribune. I'm not the sort of person who likes talking about themselves much, I'm very private but in this instance it's a benefit to other girls to read about each others stories, at least I think so. It can be pretty interesting too. I think ...

2010-01-24 22:58:11

I just slept 10 straight hrs. I feel good but I also feel like I've lost a day as I have to go back to work in 3hrs. I see the new Trib is out & it's very good. Mere has asked me to write about anything I want. Just a couple of pages. 2 pages? If I can write 2 paragraphes I'm doing good. But ...

2010-01-19 18:06:51

As well as playing in a band myself, I also teach guitar, bass and drums to young people, and so I was very proud to be able to arrange to get three of my students to play the supporting band at a Christmas gig we did. They used our singer but are now actively looking for their own since they had ...

Scatter Brained

2010-01-16 19:28:24

Found a good way to out myself again. Wear 3in heels shopping. It's not that people noting your boots but the way you walk in them. So it's a good idea to get use to them first if you don't want to turn heads.Another good way is to use lipstick as a lip balm. My balm went into the wash & came ...

2010-01-11 20:24:53

Just some thoughts!Did you know that high-heels were first made for men to wear while horseback riding. But they came into style for women so "real" men stopped wearing them. So I guess that means I like the retro look.I've had no income since Dec 2nd when the pain in my arm returned. ...

Back to the grindstone

2010-01-04 13:45:43

It was a very nice break, in spite of the in-laws being around for far too long!! (I think we've earned our inheritance now, lol) The holidays were very relaxing and enjoyable and they didn't pass too quickly either which is nice. I couldn't get back to work today as the office suffered flood ...

2010?

2009-12-31 11:12:09

Dang it's here.So is anyone thinking about making changes in 2010, other than our genders? lolThe biggest changes I'm going to make are ones I realy wanted to make, but now have to make. Finding out I have high blood suger means I have to lose wieght, eat better, & exercise. But now I HAVE to ...

My wee Christmas....

2009-12-27 00:12:19

My christmas hasn't been too bad at all if i'm honest. I went to the midnight church service at a church near me & it was a good one as usual...thats probably why i've been every year for the past 4 years. Whilst there i did something i have never done before EVER, now i'm not a religious ...

2009-12-25 00:45:54

It's Christmas Eve & it's been a very intresting day.I had a laser treatment this morning & I got there at 9 for a 9:30 appointment only to find out I was 90 min early. Appointment was at 10:30. So I decided to go get some coffee & a lite breakfast. I found a little diner & got a ...

2009-12-20 15:29:40

Went out to dinner with my sister a couple of days ago. We were about half way through when she noticed my nails. I'm rather pleased with them. I'm using a new polish "Nail Magic" says it will make your nails harder & stronger. Well it seems to be working, my nails have never been ...

2009-12-12 13:25:26

Trying to get a handle on this bloodsuger stuff is not easy. I started off the week at about 140 both morning & evening. Then it started coming down to about 110. Then the last 2 days it's real high in the morning & too low later about 85. This morning it's 170. This may sound dumb but I ...

2009-12-12 13:24:08

Another quick update

2009-12-11 18:21:07

I finally made it out to Denver last weekend to visit Josie. We hadn't seen each other in months. Once again, it was a wonderful weekend. We did our Thanksgiving celebration on Friday. I made Cornish hens with a sausage and fruit dressing. We spent some time on her college campus, sipped ...

2009-12-05 11:22:35

It's a cold Saturday morning.It's been an odd week. It started off realy good. After having 4 days off from work I was ready to get started again. Only a press broke down over the weekend so we were manualy loading parts that we had to have. It's hard slow work, but everyone pitched in & we had ...

Urgh!!!

2009-12-03 16:20:29

It's one thing to have Jo in the UK (I miss her when she's away), but another to have to cope with the children while suffering from a two day migraine......not the best scenario I could have imagined I have to say. Just when you need a little TLC.............I heard from a friend of mine who is ...

Long week

2009-12-01 19:41:40

My other half is in the UK this week so it's going to be a long slow week for me. I really miss her in the evenings, I don't like rattling around the house on my own, it's much nicer to share the evening with someone special. *sigh*At least I will be busy both at work and at home so that keeps my ...

2009-11-29 10:40:26

A very early Sunday morning.I bought some new bedroom furniture. Bed, dresser, chest, & the nightstand. Good stuff to solid oak. The stuff I have is all mis-matched. My dresser is over 40yrs old but still solid. I hate the idea of tossing it out but I don't know what else to do with it.I went ...

2009-11-29 10:39:06

Christmas markets

2009-11-26 16:18:35

Today saw the start of the Christmas markets here in Germany. A lovely time of year to shop, have some lunch and stroll around the markets, savouring the occasional gluhwein to keep warm of course! Actually, it's unseasonably warm here, which is worrying as that might mean................no ...

2009-11-22 16:11:31

Had a realy good day at work yesterday. Everything worked right all night & I ran out of blanks right at the end of my shift, so I didn't have to set up the next job. I didn't evan get my ...

What a week!

2009-11-20 20:09:38

Firstly, my daughter had an absolutely glowing school report, they simply couldn't find fault with her and she is the top of the class! Apparantly, she's a bit of a natural leader too, which doesn't surprise me at all. Then today she was awarded her bronze swimming award, not bad for a five year ...

2009-11-15 14:14:00

Odds & EndsAccured to me the other day that when I came to TW I kept all my woman things in 2 drawers. Now I keep all my men things in a single.I'm so tired of where I work. I'm there more than I'm at home & I'm thinking about it all the time.I want to change all things in my life. That is ...

Life form or computer?

2009-11-14 18:30:26

Apparently there is some form of intelligence at the local clinic after all. Today I received a letter inviting me to another meeting with the head shrink. Having talked myself out to so many for so long I have nothing to say to them. And as I have no desire to take another morning off work to ...

Electrolysis - good & bad

2009-11-11 12:04:10

I have another electrolysis session this saturday, which is always good and bad. Results = good, pain = bad, so this time I'm off-setting it by having a facial as a treat. I do use the opportunity to visit a couple of friends who live not too far from the salon though, so that's always nice. One ...

2009-11-08 12:53:46

After I got dressed yesterday & looked to see that everything checked out ok. It botherd me to see my top didn't look right without me having breast. I'm starting to feel that I need to get things going faster. The word "need" is the word that matters. It's something more than to ...

2009-10-31 14:04:46

Seems like I'm allways at work anymore, on a 7 day week untill further notice. The moneys nice when I get the right check. I got paid on Thur & my check was $300 short. So I raised hell & they sent me a check, overnight Fed-Ex. It came at 9 this morning. But they wrote it out wrong. She ...

Scarlet woman

2009-10-31 00:21:29

I have now been taking oestrogen for five years and one day, seemed like a bit of a milestone, so… It’s going, kind of how I expected I guess. My breasts have been feeling a bit tender again recently so maybe I’m just starting on another growth splurge. I think ...

What did I do in a past life?

2009-10-29 23:53:24

If there is such a thing as re-incarnation, I am so happy I never met myself before.I must have been a real nasty piece of work, assuming your sins are re-visited upon you.Seems like someone thinks I do not get enough fresh air, so ventilated my car for me by removing the front windows on both ...

Bad girl!

2009-10-29 19:45:16

I'm bad, I used to blog in here all the time and now I don't seem to. Makes a change for me not to have something to say? Actually, it's more a case of finding the time. Well, I am enjoying a restfull week with the family away seeing relatives in the UK, I have only me to look after, (though I'm ...

Unbelievable

2009-10-22 16:56:45

Below are the emails I got today, first from PCT, second I was copied in by the clinic advising me of what is going on. Bear in mind I have two referrals from Exeter, two from Charing Cross and one from Newton Abbot. That in my book makes five supposedly qualified expert opinions, averaging one ...

Did I say 'And Finally'? Silly me!

2009-10-20 15:41:34

I really ought to know better by now. After a couple of weeks chasing my tail and getting bugger all response from the clinic (and nor, I might add, was the hospital), I went down there on a surprise visit this morning. Guess what? They have no admin staff at all. Guess what? I did find out ...

2009-10-19 13:56:06

I'm glad that weekends over. I think my boss is on drugs or something. He waited untill Friday to tell us we were going to work the weekend. He set us up for 12hr shifts. I was supposed to work from 2pm to 2am when the other tech was supposed to come in for his shift. Only he didn't have anyone ...

Putting it all together

2009-10-16 16:01:10

Here's some brief updates -Been in my new place for a month. It's been working out fine, even though I have to get used to having a roommate again. It's nice to be able to park right in front of where I live rather than blocks away.I go to Detroit next week to chair a panel at THE premier labor ...

Colder Weather & Nicer Clothes

2009-10-10 13:41:21

As Nikki said somewhere it's time for hot chocolate & good movies.I love this time of year!!!I just bought a new eiderdown coat & some scrunchy boots that look good over or under the pant leg & you can wear the most sweet looking sweaters. I do love fall!!We're still on 7 days at work. ...

All Work No Play

2009-10-04 14:17:53

I can not get an image posted in here any more. It takes longer to do that than it does to write what I want to say. So no more images.I took today off from work for some down time. Right!! I have so much to do work would have been easier. Working extended hrs everyday nothing else gets done. It's ...

Magical Journeys

2009-09-28 16:29:19

Today is my second birthday, rebirthday of course. 2 years of being happy with my new body, which is no longer new, it’s just, my body. I gave myself a bit of a rebirthday present by flying to Germany last week to see my favourite musician of the last 25 years or so, Andreas ...

Hi

2009-09-25 16:13:26

Lots going on....New place.Got a grant to attend a conference next month.Josie is doing great.No internet at home yet.Back later!

2009-09-22 12:11:23

Good Morning!!I've been off work for a week because of my arm. I woke up one morning & couldn't move it because of pain in my elbow. The doc got rid of the pain & will let me go back to work on Thur.While I've been off I've been dressing way more femm than normal for me. There have been ...

2009-09-19 11:49:13

My laptop updated my browser to IE8 without my say so. It didn't seem to run to good so I took it back out. Than some of the sites I like to go to didn't want to load right with IE7. So I finely gave up & put IE8 back in. It doesn't like to let me copy & paste off an internet page. When I ...

Vive La France

2009-09-18 15:26:50

Just been catching up with the latest blogs and see that Marsha has stolen my title, well almost, but I thought of it first! So, I’ve just been to France as promised, with my mate Gillian. The naturist resort we stayed at was lovely, all wooden chalets set in a pine forest, a few ...

And Finally...

2009-09-09 21:28:57

And finally… Caution: Some minor descriptive text of operations is included. So, eventually, the next and final step is reached. Almost ten years to the day from when I first requested help, I have been told the surgeon will be contacting me in the next two weeks regarding the last part of my ...

Life in general

2009-09-05 23:09:51

I'd be lieing if i said i HADNT been thinking about eventually having srs but if i'm honest with myself i can't see it happening if ever. Because at this moment in time for me, its not the be all & end all of things. Life's pretty good right now apart from the job situation. My Family are ...

2009-09-05 14:25:38

I admit, Karen Brad kind of shamed me into writing this, but I haven't been able to spend time on blogs lately. I know people will say 'it's only ten minutes' but when you have a hectic schedule already, ten minutes can be pretty hard, if not impossible to find. So, what's new? Well, for the ...

2009-09-05 11:23:57

Wow there hasn't been a single blog posted here since I last posted. What happend? Is blogging done, gone, is it no longer the thing to do?Maybe a Twitter type page with mobile access would be a good idea for full members. I wonder what that would cost?

2009-08-29 10:05:47

I've been all out of sorts lately. I don't know how to describe how I feel, just so blah. Happy, sad, angry, confused, all in just a few minutes time. I realy feel tired all the time.I'm back on the day shift & having to do a lot of things I never did before. When we set up a cell I allways did ...

Quick update

2009-08-18 21:53:33

I am still without a computer at home. Had a minor heartbreak when it came to an academic job. BUT - my book is now out!!!!!!! Josie is fine. I hope to see her soon.Yes, I hurt my hamstrings playing quidditch. Some people never learn.Mere

2009-08-04 13:43:41

Just back from a family holiday in Disneyland. We decided that our youngest was big enough to take some of it in and enjoy himself so we booked ourselves into a Disney hotel for the week and had a great time! The children were loving every minute of it, meeting the characters, having photos with ...

2009-08-01 16:32:08

Thank God the mid-night shift is over. I did it for 2 weeks & in that time I didn't know if I was coming or going. There were only me & 3 other people in the shop. 2 operators & a hilo driver. I was support which ment it was my jop to keep the line going. It was hard working without a ...

Sparkle debrief

2009-07-31 17:05:38

So long since I blogged I thought I’d better read my last one before I wrote this, see where I’d got up too. So apparently at a gig I turned down a guy 20 years younger, well, he really was too drunk, and not my type, but I seem to have made up for it at Sparkle… I was ...

2009-07-18 12:09:17

Another night in the hospital.If anyones read my last couple of post than you know I've been having some trouble health wise. One of the problems was my blood pressure. I've been getting dizzy so I went to the doctor. My regular doc was on vacation so I saw his replacement. He said the spins were ...

2009-07-15 10:36:11

Sitting here, early morning, drinking coffee & going nuts!!!Turns out my ankle isn't broken. Calcium deposits broke off looking like a fracture. Still hurts like hell but I will be back on my feet in half the time. That is if I have a job to go to. I get emails from the guy that should be ...

2009-07-13 12:31:02

You know, I used to be so good at writing in my blog. Nothing special, just a rambling of what I had been up to, but this year has been so busy I just haven't had the time. As my report card would have said, 'must do better'. Since getting back from holiday, which was fab or did I mention that ...

2009-07-11 16:44:26

I'm falling apart. First a hurt my ankle. Then I started getting dizzy, turned out my BP was way up so I'm on meds now for that. Than this morning I bit into a bagel & broke a tooth. I just got back from the dentest after having it pulled. I didn't go get the pain meds but I'm wishing now I had.

2009-07-05 10:49:10

Going to see Mere next weekend. Had it planned to go after I got off work on Friday. Now they changed my starting time again so I won't get off untill 6pm. After I shower & eat something it will be about 7 when I get started. The drive is somewhere between 4 & 5 hours.Work told me I can't ...

2009-07-04 23:21:41

Had Enough, Told Them Where To Shove It! About a month ago I wrote to the shrink and told him I had had enough. Not unexpectedly, I got a quick appointment.So I went down to see him and told him to his face that I was no longer interested in the program. I was totally pissed of with it all. Of all ...

Coming out, Josie, and more

2009-06-29 00:36:13

As I posted in the Forums last week, I told my Senior Coordinator - essentially my boss - that I am TS. He was so cool and supportive about it. I am getting so close to being fully out.Today is Josie's birthday. While finances kept us apart, I am happy she got out for a while. She went ...

2009-06-27 12:55:10

I dawned on me this morning as I was watering my plants that last year I was so afraid someone would notice my legs were shaved that I never wore shorts outside. This summer I've worn shorts everywhere but work without thinking about it. I guess you just get so used to it, it doesn't evan accure ...

Back from holiday

2009-06-22 13:45:27

One week away is never enough is it? However, since the children were staying with their auntie a week was all we could do and so we made the most of it. We had to overcome the guilt of going away on our own, but then, when you are there 24/7 for your children, one week off each year isn't a great ...

2009-06-20 13:06:46

Hot Humid & Icky!!!I went to bed Wensday night with out looking at a weather report. I had my window open to let in some air. When I woke up my gown was glued to me. It felt so gross. I turned on the air to kill the humidity & went straight to the shower. Work Thursday & Friday was ...

A VERY talented girl

2009-06-19 23:43:53

Been busy recently & now all my hard work's about to pay off. For a year now, i have been researching the material for a book i have been working on. Given the subject, is it any wonder why i started things off. I got to thinking that over 90% of things we take for granted today were invented ...

U-BOAT HUNTING IN DOWNTOWN CHICAGO

2009-06-16 04:19:05

(Later February 2009)Ok, mia culpa, it's been three months.To make a long story short....no, really....On the way back to L.A., my journey had a layover in Chicago, about 6 hours. I consigned myself to continue my book reading but walked about to stretch my legs. I found myself in front of ...

2009-06-13 14:28:49

They waited untill the last minute Thursday to tell me I needed to fill in for someone on second shift Friday. But that I still had to cover at least half of first shift. So I knew it was going to be a long day but yay I would get some overtime.I had to run cell 5 for the first time in a long time. ...

2009-06-06 08:34:19

Dreams can be so wierd. I had a dream in which I was a woman. I didn't feel any different but everyone kept calling me "she or her". But that's not what stuck out about it in my mind.I have on many accasions dreamed I was dressed in a nice dress or skirt. In this dream I was wearing a ...

2009-05-30 11:10:19

Guess I need to shrink this one down a bit.It's been an intresting week at work. They split my day up. I start at 6am work untill 10am than go home untill 2pm & work untill 6. It feels like I'm there for the whole 12hrs realy, not fun. But you have to be willing to do what's needed, that's just ...

2009-05-23 10:16:44

I'm looking at the end of my credit card trouble. I will soon pay off one more which only leaves one, the biggest one. But once it's done with I will never let things get to this point again. When I was laid off it was the credit cards that would have sunk me. So I've learnd one must use credit ...

A nice break from the action

2009-05-19 22:15:08

Here is an extremely short version of last week:Josie was here last week for five days. Her plane got in a little early but we were looking for each other in two different places at the airport. She came to work with me the next day - both the museum and my class - where I proudly showed her ...

Mental Roller Coaster -- Up Down-Up Down

2009-05-16 00:59:53

I started off today the same. No job nowhere to go, feeling down. At 9 I went to pick up my vacation check & heard they might be calling a tech back to work. My check coverd all my outstanding bills with some left over, feeling up.My doctor called to say the CT scan of my liver showed the cist ...

A Sign of The Times

2009-05-14 17:16:37

When I bought my condo a history search showed that they had been selling for $120,000. I paid $57,000. The unit 2 door over just sold for $25,000. The lady had to sell it or lose it. But that take the value of all of them way down. I may be losing mine soon. It would be nice if I could rent it ...

2009-05-09 09:19:49

Well trying to think of someways I could shrink my bills I got an email from Onstar. I'd forgot about that. I called to cancell & they gave me 3 months free, after that time I can still cancell or continue at a much lower price per month.Than I called Sprint to complain about getting spam text ...

2009-05-07 12:58:10

So I got time on my hands. Well I can't just sit here so I started going fow walks with my camera. I was thinking that when I see something nice I would snap a pic. On the first day I was taking a pic of a flower bed when the police pulled up. It seems someone thought I was trying to find little ...

2009-05-03 08:51:07

OK, so I get some time off from work. Looking at my money I'm good for May & I hope this is a short layoff.This could also be an opportunity for me. I'm going to look to see if I can find something that I can do as Karen. I don't evan come close to passing as a woman but if I can find work as ...

Out Of Work

2009-05-01 23:53:52

We heard at work that they were laying off some people because of theauto company filing bankruptsy. I was told I wouldn't be effected. But about an hour after I got home they called to tell me I was laid off with no return date.I was just approved for a loan to remortgage so I could pay off my ...

2009-04-30 11:10:36

So, what's new in my life, not much really. The biggest thing is that I have gotten back into mountaineering again, which I stopped for a few years when the children were still babies. I have several expeditions going on this year including some ice climbing in January (straight up the face of a ...

An offer I couldn't refuse

2009-04-27 16:17:35

Some lovely comments following my last blog, thanks everyone, and especially to my mum who is the best mum in the world, has been an absolute rock in my journey, including travelling to Thailand with me and looking after me on our return, and all along in fact. I love her to bits. Mum, you ...

2009-04-26 10:36:42

Well what can I say, my first thoughts this morning were about Bryce. My god what an idiot. I snipt the PM he sent me & posted it in the Mods forum. My first thought was to respond but what's the point. I'm sure he won't change.My loan has been aproved so I can pay off my depts. It realy hurts ...

Why DO i bother?

2009-04-25 22:25:42

I'm getting really fed up with charing cross's attitude towards me. At the beginning of April i should have gone to see Dr Lorimer but culdnt make it, so i wrote to him & explained my financial situation to him, that i was having probs getting down to see him. since then i have heard NOTHING at ...

2009-04-18 23:07:10

When I say it felt like no one cared. I was referring to family. I know the ladys here care about me the same as I do them.I found out why my loan was turned down. I did a bankruptcy in 1998 after being sued & thier holdind it against me.

CONGRATULATIONS MRS. LARSON, YOU HAVE A DAUGHTER! (late February 2009)

2009-04-18 01:27:17

The rural mid-west is a different world, with different values and a different way of life. Slower, less sophisticated, less pressured but with much more focus on the people around you, the community, the individuals and therefore more intrusive. People do not forget....EVER. If you are Out ...

Sorry

2009-04-17 20:29:55

About that last blog. I was feeling a little overwelmed after being turned down for the help I need. I just feel as no one cares.

I Don't Know What To Do!!!

2009-04-16 20:09:11

I was sick for so long that I ran up a large debt with my credit cards. And now because I took tax advice from my sister (a CPA) I owe the IRS.In 2005 I was able to pay all my bills 6 months in advance before my surgery just to be safe. Than the operation went bad & I was out of work for most ...

A short update

2009-04-15 13:05:39

A few weeks back I went with my kid to her therapist. My kid had questions for me, all of which I answered honestly. Things are much better between us, and we still see each other all the time. On occasion we do make a small joke about my being TG. She is still not ready to start spending ...

2009-04-13 13:37:55

A little slow waking up this morning coffee just ain't doing it for me.I went to my sisters yesterday for easter. My great niece was there. I wrote about her before. She's the one with the speech problem She's doing a lot better than the doctors said she would but still can't get out a whole ...

2009-04-05 00:03:00

Fairground Horses Anyone remember the old fairground ride, with the prancing horses? Well I do, anyway, and it often feels like life imitates that ride, up and down, up and down, yet it all comes full circle in the end.Looking back at my previous blogs I can see that cycle repeated in my own ...

What's a Girl to do?

2009-04-04 22:55:53

2 days ago i had to do something i never thought i'd have to do. Since 2006, i have been going to see a pyschotherapist at Charing Cross GIC , a Dr Stuart Lorimer & i have beebn doing pretty well with him. But its got to a stage now where i just cant afford £130 for what is essentially a 30 ...

2009-04-04 14:42:49

Well I can't post my little coffee guy since all I get is a softwear error. So just pretend you see it.Just got off the phone with my nephew. He calles every week to tell me how much his life sucks that it's not fair. Well he dug his own hole by running from the law. It's been about 20yrs now that ...

COGNITIVE DISSONANCE IN THE BIG APPLE (mid-January 09)

2009-04-03 07:33:54

I was far from unhappy for the next month and a half. In fact, I was experiencing a lot of wonderful things. I saw old friends, ate out a few more times and learned a lot of new things about computers working on three "new" ones for both hardware and software issues. I got to see ...

Just Me being ME....

2009-03-31 22:05:36

I never knew i had a poem written about me until now. Dinnae laugh, but i do read it occasionally especially the works of Robert Burns & this one certainly made me smile....."The Gowden Locks Of Anna Yestreen I had a pint o' wine, A place where body saw na; Yestreen lay ...

2009-03-31 22:01:32

Until now, i never realised a poem had been written about me. Dont laugh but i do read it from time to time & especially the works of Robert Burns and i found this one which kinda made me smile...." The Gowden Locks Of Anna Yestreen I had a pint o' wine, A place where body saw ...

Don't blame the hostesses

2009-03-30 13:00:49

Interesting to see how Sammi's disappearance from the site led to finger pointing and blame culture in the forums..............I know Sammi and I know how much she enjoyed this place and I agree that it has changed but it happens. I had a whinge last year about pretty much the same thing but ...

2009-03-29 11:25:28

I feel pretty good this morning. I took a very long hot shower & I did my nails. All before my second cup of coffee.Starting to injoy work again. But that might be because I have to learn the QC parts of things. It makes the job a challenge again, not just the same old thing.I didn't have ...

VIRGINA SISTER (28 Dec 2008)

2009-03-24 15:55:57

The train pulled into Richmond, VA–Staples Mill Rd. Station not long after dawn. A small station that left no doubt as to where to go. I headed for the brick building across the tracks, lugging my insanely heavy suitcase and my pack. Inside the station a quick glance resulted in two ...

2009-03-21 12:41:53

While shaving this morning I was hit with the fact that no matter what I will at best look like a man. Maybe a feminine looking man but a man all the same.So do I stop or continue on with this. If I wasn't 50yrs old I would never stop. My doctor started me on some very low dose hormones in ...

2009-03-19 15:07:18

Jeez, I have been so busy lately that I haven't had the time to write in here. What's happening? Well, I've been busy at work and have been equally busy in my personal life but it's been good things too! I have some holidays booked this year so I'm counting down to them, I can't wait! It was an ...

Memo From Work

2009-03-14 17:26:42

Dear Employees, Due to the current financial situation caused by the slowdown ofeconomy, Management has decided to implement a scheme to put workers of40 years of age and above on early retirement. This scheme will be knownas RAPE (Retire Aged People Early). Persons selected to be RAPED can apply ...

2009-03-14 12:25:16

Xmas Day, My Journey Begins...

2009-03-13 10:37:33

Actually, it began earlier. It began with decisions about what to pack. Since it would be Jessica's first in-person contact with a TG Sister, and her "big sister", we had definitely opted to do some work with her makeup and spend time en femme. So i packed tons of makeup and ...

2009-03-07 11:10:56

I posted a joke in my blog. I tried posting in in my forum but it said unacceptable content. Well there are no dirty or trashy words & it doesn't tell you just what's bad about it, so I put it here. That's annoying, it's not the first time that its happend. I just wish it would tell you what ...

Dance People Dance

2009-03-06 02:24:07

Putting life back on track

2009-03-05 13:54:17

As I wrote in the blogs, my kid pretty much figured it out about me. And, as you know, she didn't take well to it and I didn't see her for a while. She has been going back to her therapist, the same person who helped her through the separation and impending divorce. I am supposed to go there ...

I can't post this in my forum

2009-03-02 16:36:29

Never let it be said that Australian ground crews and engineers lack a sense of humor. Here are some actual logged maintenance complaints by Qantas pilots and the corrective action recorded by mechanics. By the way, Qantas is the only major airline worldwide that has never had an ...

Bassist wanted!!!

2009-03-02 08:49:31

How frustrating! The gig season is upon us and we have had a number of offers come our way so far but have had to decline a lot of them as our bassist just isn't up to scratch. Actually, he's rubbish and shows no sign of improvement so has got to go as he's holding us all back at them moment. Not ...

#1 down, 2,3,4,5 to go :-)

2009-03-01 05:56:08

I'm back in Los Angeles. I have completed New Year's Resolution #1. I'm Out to my Mum. I'll blog on it in the next few days along with my adventures on a two-month long vacation full of personal growth and new experiences.

2009-02-28 11:30:56

I am so ready for warm weather!!!!I have been taking better care of my nails, using files insted of clippers to keep the shape. Not letting them grow long, I just wanted better looking hands. They do look better & are stronger too. But there is a dark side to this. They are getting to be very ...

This is getting silly now.

2009-02-23 17:20:07

I had an impromtu day off work last Thursday since I had my ID checked, (cue much discussion between gate guard and guard commander), they then wanted to see an additional piece of ID so I showed them my driving licence, (cue much more discussion between the aforementioned people), before they came ...

In my place (still)

2009-02-22 21:59:56

Thought I’d do a quick blog as today is a momentous anniversary, well, kind of… It’s five years to the day that I joined Trannyweb. It is completely surreal to think back to how my life was when I joined, "looking for others like me" as we so often see in the "Welcome New ...

2009-02-21 12:32:27

With a fresh cup of coffee & a cigarette I'm ready to go.Work is going Ok for now so we'll leave it at that.I bought some hairspray a few days ago. Aussie was on sale so I bought that. Evan though it's in a purple can nowhere does it say, Grape bubble gum scent. But it is, realy is. Lasting to. ...

NY Resolution #1 coming up

2009-02-20 03:43:09

I was delayed leaving due to illness. In 8 hrs I'll be on my way to Indiana to see Mum. In 48 hrs I should be "out" to her. I'm nervous but committed. I can't leave it with her not knowing....a mother should know about her child. This is for her, not me, although afterward ...

Another great weekend

2009-02-14 20:36:40

Okay, so it was last weekend, but this is the first I have been able to write about it. Me and Josie had another great weekend.My plane going out to Denver was early. Josie got a hotel room for us. I will NOT recount what happened in there! As if you can't guess.The big thing is that I am ...

2009-02-14 12:55:34

Well I madt it through another layoff. But we are down to a very few people. The reason they kept me was for my QC work they said. I then went back to work & broke 2 probes at $150 each. Oops!!Now I can get back to the importent things in life.I broke a nail yesterday! I use to bite them But ...

Hanging Onto My Job By The Skin Of My Teeth

2009-02-12 23:40:08

They did another round of layoffs Monday & it missed me but not by much. Today they said there will be more Friday as Fords is shutting down for a week. They are our best costumers now. It use to be GM but they've been down for over 2 months. We got word that they are starting back up next ...

Changes

2009-02-12 12:51:00

I posted off my old ID card today, since it has now got so hard to get into work (on a military base) as my picture looks nothign like me anymore. I am accepted there as female, okay, I'm sure some at least suspect that I wasn't born that way, but no one hassles me. If you can pass on an army base, ...

Karen's Shopping Trip

2009-02-06 23:34:21

Got home from work just after noon today. Showered & dressed in a pair of black dress slacks & a black & white top. I started looking for something to cook for dinner tonight. My cupboard was bare. So I needed to go out to get somethings. Well I've never been dressed this femm before ...

2009-02-01 09:53:27

I feel much better this week than I did lastweek. I'd picked up a cold that realy came on strong for the first few days. It's all but gone now.Work is downsizing still. They've added QC to my list of things to do & let go the floor inspectors. I'm not sure where I'm supposed to find time to do ...

2009 New Year's Resolutions.

2009-01-29 07:45:24

My five major goals for 2009 are: 1. To tell mum about her daughter, finally.....would have happened already but she sent my Xmas money late and I had already booked train and plane reservations that made it impractical. This will leave me free to come out to others. 2. Go "out" to ...

I’m thinking a sort of goth/hippie-influenced pseudo-classic ro

2009-01-28 23:10:27

It’s been soooo long since I blogged, but I really haven’t had the time in the last few weeks. Some time ago we had a drummer standing in for ours as he had a wrist injury. The stand-in drummer had started his own band early last year, so I gave him the old, "If you ever need a ...

From Deutschland to Dutch Land

2009-01-28 17:18:10

I popped over to see a couple of good friends of mine, Danique and Carren, a very down to earth couple in my opinion. As she has stated in her blog, Dani is post op by about 6 weeks and I was suprised to see her up and about and so active, she's a credit to herself. Since I last saw them they've ...

2009-01-24 15:34:51

I was a little frustrighted trying to do my taxes. To get my condo I took some money out of my 401K. I couldn't find where to enter it. So after about a half hour searching I located in the form where it goes, only to find out I have to wait on another tax form from Merrill Lynch. I know the money ...

Why?

2009-01-24 01:54:17

Full circle and stopEmpty bed, empty room,Empty house, empty heart.Why us, why me,Why aren’t I free?No future, no life,Just pain, just strife,Maybe pills, maybe knife.Cries for help have gone unheard,Whether action, thought or word.The end is nigh, do not cry,To a better place I go,Where all are ...

Holidays booked!

2009-01-19 12:55:04

What a nice weekend. We booked our girly holiday (just myself and my partner) to the Canary islands for this summer, then booked a week at Disneyland Paris for the children. It's so nice to have something like that to look forward to. Of course, it's also a great excuse to go shopping as well, ...

2009-01-18 14:16:16

Snow & cold. I'm allready tired of both of them. It has been so cold, I mean well below freezing. They've evan issuesd warnings not to go out if you don't have to. And the snow, enough is enough. I live in Michigan where sunshine in the winter months is a rare thing. It's a gray day after gray ...

A little update

2009-01-16 18:30:29

Yep, it's been a while since I last posted.Sure, I could regale you with more musuem stories. I might save those for a book!I am FINALLY going to be seeing Josie in a few weeks. It has been far too long. We had one or two communication problems lately, but we resolved them. We can handle ...

2009-01-11 11:59:27

After what I wrote yesterday I got to thinking about some of the other things I did for the first time. Since I was a boy I got no instructions on how to do things. So I had to find out for myself.Wanting to wear makeup I had to first go buy some. Thinking I could say it was for my sister I went to ...

2009-01-10 16:36:43

My first time using an epilator. I guess I should have known better than to believe the box when it said gently removes hair. Is there a way to gently rip the hair out of your legs. If you've never tried it I suggest doing it at night after a beer or 6.Gotta run will write more later.

Back to work

2009-01-05 15:42:01

*Groan*I can't say I'm really that sorry to be back to work, it's just that it's very busy at the moment and there aren't enough hours in the day, and that's just on day one! It's not helped by having no internet or phone working at the moment due to the weather so everything is piling up. Between ...

2009-01-02 12:15:26

Well the new year is here.There are some things I want to do this year. I'm going to start with lazer treatment on my face & move on to mones when I can. I would like for Karen to become predominent by years end. But realy as long as I'm moving foward I will be happy.I think my shrink is as ...

The aftermath.....

2008-12-29 13:45:28

.......of Christmas that is, and a wonderful time it was too! We had a big family Christmas in the UK and only got back last night so it's a case of catching up with everything on TW now, which reminds me............Thankyou to everyone who sent me good wishes over the holidays, I really am sorry ...

2008-12-27 11:58:31

So Christmas has come & gone.It realy wasn't so bad this year. My sister got me a couple of ladies tops & a 3pak of panties. That was kind of a shock. She said there the kind she likes to wear. So I tried them yesterday. They are the right size. But there made of some kind of strechy stuff ...

2008 resolution implimented...late but in time.

2008-12-24 14:37:25

In 26 hours I board an airplane bound for NYC on the first leg of my first en femme experience with another T girl...and with an entire week to spare to meet my plan to get "Out" this year. I'm meeting my Sister (and "sister"), a friend I met on TW about 4 1/2 years ago. We ...

2008-12-21 11:35:01

A very cold good morning to all of you.After all the snow we got Friday it's going to be a white Christmas. That's good. But I had 2 deliverys coming Saturday that got pushed back to Monday because of it. 1 is fine. I orderd a pair of ankle boots with 2 1/2 inch heels & a couple of sweaters ...

Walking Around in Womens Underwear

2008-12-20 00:24:39

Jingle Bells

2008-12-19 15:15:46

Santa Boogie

2008-12-19 15:11:34

AWOL

2008-12-15 15:41:36

I haven't been around TW for a couple of weeks recently because my son was hospitalised and we only got him home on Friday. Fortunately, he is well on the mend and is getting back to all sorts of mischief so it's a huge relief for us. It's never a nice time for a child to go into hospital and as ...

2008-12-14 15:08:48

I've had my coffee allready. I went to K-Mart to get some things. Being this time of year I went early to avoid any crowds. I realy don't like Christmas shopping because of the hassel of dealing with all the people.I've bought a lot of new clothes online, slacks, a sweater, & some long sleeve ...

Scientists puzzled by lack of eruption.

2008-12-12 09:13:55

Actually, I was only briefly puzzled by the unusual lack of psychological changes that normally occur when I have a long awaited chance to dress and fully be Wendy for a long period. The explanation was simple....when you are being yourself every day, dressed or not, there is no pressure ...

2008-12-07 13:43:35

It's been a hell of a week!!I've been out at my sisters everyday after work. She's doing better all the time. We've had some nice talks about ourselves. It came down to she should have been a man & me the woman. Mixed up world.Work has told us it's going to get a lot slower over the next couple ...

Alice's Restaurant

2008-12-04 03:26:32

Here's a little update on my HRT:As I mentioned before, the doctor put me on some new meds for my high cholesterol. We did another blood test last week. While my bad cholesterol was down, my liver count rose a little. Not a lot, but enough for him to notice. There is no danger at all, ...

2008-12-03 13:24:19

Sister's home.She came home lastnight. She's very weak but her color is good. She looked like a ghost for a while.She's very over weight & the doctors said that if she doesn't start to take care of herself she'll be back in the hospital before long.For now I'm just glad she's home. I'll start ...

Feelin' Irie

2008-12-01 18:04:06

I am struggling a little with the cold in this country, but I’ve only myself to blame; it doesn’t help to go jetting off to Jamaica where it’s in the 80’s every day and arrive back to sub-zero temperatures. It’s still very pretty here though, in a different sort of ...

2008-11-30 12:21:45

My sister had a heart attack at work yesterday. Than another one on the way to the hospital & a third one at the hospital.Thier doing a bypass this morning so that's where I'll be.I was supposed to meet Jen yesterday untill this happened. I'm sorry I missed that. But being a hocky mom she will ...

2008-11-28 10:12:14

I hope you all had a nice Thanksgiving.I went to my nieces. She is very open minded so I could go as Karen. The slacks I picked out were lite weight so I decided to wear pantyhose underneath. I haven't worn any in sometime as there hasn't been a need to. Turns out I only had one pair. (Nononcense ...

Busy week

2008-11-23 08:30:57

It has been very busy this week, plus two of my neices have been over here and all of that combined with an intermittant internet connection has meant that I couldn't get online much this week. It was a good week though. My daughter started swimming lessons and is doing great. She also has to have ...

2008-11-22 13:15:40

A very cold good morning to you.With what thier saying about the price of heat going up I'm trying to keep it down by dressing warmer. So I bought some footless tights to wear. Thier warm, but what a pain to put on. A lot of tugging around after I get them up so they feel like thier on straight. ...

What a difference a day makes!

2008-11-16 23:16:53

After dragging my heels for years, I finally saw my GP on friday evening. Expecting a difficult time explaining things, imagine my surprise to discover she is not only fully supportive but works closely with a local Gender Identity Clinic - which I never knew existed! Towards the end of my ...

2008-11-15 13:05:13

Things have slowed down so much at work that it's getting kind of scary. The next couple of months will say a lot about my furture there. But I guess that's the same in a lot of places right now.

New job

2008-11-13 13:08:54

I had the first day in my new job today and it went very well although it is a change of role for me and there is a lot to take in and figure out before I will become comfortable with it. Although my qualifications are in youth work and that is what I have been dong until now, the closure of some ...

Holiday hours

2008-11-12 14:05:17

Yuck. Starting this weekend the museum is going on the holiday hours. Yuck. But at least for now it's just the weekends. The extra pay is nice, but, yuck. By the way, did I say yuck? We won't go on full weeks of extended hours for a few weeks yet.I have put in for a couple of higher ...

2008-11-09 10:35:40

Well, Good Morning!!!Nothing feels better than freshly shaved legs. I love it everytime.For some reason I wanted to dress very girly this weekend. I allways wear womens clothes but I usualy dress for comfort. But yesterday I put on white rose print hose, a little red skort, & a white sleevless ...

I lied!!

2008-11-08 20:07:07

I had to get up at 4am not 5, oh the price of beauty!! (Well, looking reasonably okay on a dark night then, lol).The session went well though and I know I have had laser before, I can feel and see the results very quickly. My face is so smooth there isn't a trace of hair and it's never been that ...

Hot off the Press!!.....

2008-11-08 01:45:02

OMG.....is it really that long since i blogged? Well, its not been too bad a period for me. On Tuesday, i had an appointment over at the Norwich GIC ( Gender Identity Clinic) with Dr Ted Olive, who i last saw here in Lowestoft back in April of 2006. This time he was accompanied by Barbara Ross who ...

Temporary glitch...

2008-11-07 23:13:23

If you’re going to lose your plot… make sure you bury it good and deep, and then make sure you are totally unaware you have ‘mislaid’ it. Like everything else I do, I made a good job of it.I see from my own scribblings that back in May everything was going swimmingly, and I was brimming ...

More electrolysis

2008-11-07 13:32:57

Tomorrow is a good/bad day. Good because I have another electrolysis appointment. Bad because it means getting up at 5am, with 36 hours hair on my face, driving for 3 hours, going through some pain and finally ending up with a face like raw meat for a few days, lol. It takes me about a week before ...

Finally some rest

2008-11-04 01:51:08

After a month of furious work on my one book, I now have everything submitted to the publisher, and can now take about a week or two off from writing. I do have other projects I want to work on, but none with any pressing deadlines. Finally, some rest! Yes, I am still teaching two classes, ...

A sleepless night, or two.

2008-11-02 19:58:27

Once again imsomnia strikes, I think I have had about six hours sleep all weekend. Urgh! I get imsomnia from time to time anyway but this weekend was worse for some reason, and now I am just feeling so tired. You would think that being so tired would ensure a good night's sleep but it doesn't work ...

A girl could get used to this…

2008-10-31 18:25:46

It’s been lovely to do a bit of pampering this week in preparation for my holiday, well ok a leg wax is not considered pampering by most people, but it wasn’t anywhere near as bad as some make it out to be, in fact I quite enjoyed it. The girl was very friendly and chatty, I ...

The Tranny Tribune

2008-10-29 13:09:10

Girls, as the new editor of the Tranny Tribune, I want you all to think about contributing. You do not have to be a regular, if you do not, but think about it. Let's say you're attending a special TG event. Take some piccies, talk to a few people, and write up a piece about it. Know ...

Typing v e r y c a r e f u l l y . . .

2008-10-29 00:08:25

So, yeah, had my nails done today and wow, I love ‘em. I‘m kinda scared of typing even, but there is certainly no chance of me using the other type of keyboard that features heavily in my life, the one with the black and white keys. I’d have to play it with my palms at the ...

2008-10-28 08:44:33

Back on day shift.While I like working days better than afternoons my body was just getting use to not waking up so early. Now I feel like a zombie.I think the worst thing about afternoons is the fact that I never had time to wear anything but the gowns that I sleep in. I'd get up @ 10 & had ...

A new role here

2008-10-27 10:12:57

Katie in either her wisdom or desparation has recently appointed me to the role of 'Forums Supremo' or words to that effect. Basically, I will take over the role occupied so successfully by Sarah Connor and will oversee all of the forums and appoint the necessary moderators. I'm really looking ...

Lucy-Corsakov

2008-10-26 23:48:28

It turns out that my car is amphibious, which is a good job else I wouldn’t have got to the gig last night. English girls may have heard on the national news about the hoo-ha over the massive mountain rescue operation in the Lake District, when organisers of a fell marathon decided it would a ...

Back from surgery.........again!

2008-10-24 08:26:13

This could really get to be monotonous if it wasn't for the fact that the end result will be worth it!I have a very sore and bruised eye as I had to undergo another operation on the eyelids, nothing serious just pure vanity about my looks. The first attempt didn't work at all so they had another ...

Josie is fine

2008-10-20 13:45:16

I already posted in the Forums about Josie's accident. Thankfully she is fine. I just wish I could be there to help. Someday soon we will be together all the time.Things keep rolling at the museum. Upper management is always asking me to do special projects. But some of the bloodshed ...

2008-10-20 13:40:16

Their bouncing around my hours at work again. I'm back on afternoons, 2:30 to 11. So I had to change my appointment times with my shrink. But now I can only see her once a month as she has no openings for earlier in the day. She still thinks I should go through with getting mones. Which is ...

MORE Good News!

2008-10-15 10:32:49

Had some news today that cheered me up in more ways than one. Months ago, i'd written to Dr Ted Olive, the Psych i saw when he was last practicing in Lowestoft back in July of 2006. I wrote to ask if he was accepting any new patients & if so, would it be possible for me to see him. Getting ...

Good News

2008-10-14 21:26:33

Its not been the best of times for me, what with recent events. Coupled with that is the fact i haven't seen charllet since July.Since then, she's moved into her new home in Kilmarnock & settling in well. But last week, i got the news i'd been longing for....in just under 2 months she'll be ...

Dream predicts Mt Wendy will erupt next week

2008-10-13 18:31:21

I just woke up from a long and detailed dream. Sound, color, dimension, lots of people and small details, conversations that made sense and reruns of places from dreams I've had in the past with additional detail. Of course the usual strange juxtapositions that occur in dreams, but this time ...

A sort of apology

2008-10-12 09:56:38

I realised that my last blog was a little downhearted which is not a mood I like to find myself in, although even I can't be 100% bubbly all the time! That's also why I chose to put it in here instead of in the forums, that's not the place to have a personal gripe. I was upset to see people leaving ...

More coming out

2008-10-11 13:23:28

My department had a sunset cruise on Lake Michigan Thursday night. It was a good time. We were on one of the large cruise ships that dock at Navy Pier. On the way over they chartered a double decker bus, complete with a docent. Uh oh. I used to do that but on the boats! I got a little ...

2008-10-10 09:49:32

Good Morning!!!Ok so I don't have cancer. What happened was that who ever read the C.A.T. scan measured the spot from a different angle than before. So since it's oblong & not round the numbers were bigger. The doctor that called me read the report without looking at the scan itself. The doctor ...

The Exodus

2008-10-09 12:44:43

It seems every day I log in, someone else has decided to leave. I have lost so many friends this year that I really don't know why I bother to keep coming here any longer. Okay, I haven't lost my friends, we still chat on IM or email but there has been a mass exodus this year, and like a road full ...

A quiet week

2008-10-04 16:33:23

Finally, a quiet week, the first one since July actually, apart from my little weekend in Paris. I got so much done this week it was amazing. The house has been cleaned thoroughly from top to bottom, the garden has been cut back and readied for the winter, I caught up with pieces of work I had to ...

The talk of the museum

2008-10-04 13:19:22

Girls, in my last blog just two days ago I wrote about that harrassment training I had to go through, and how I asked a question about what legal protections trasngendered persons have.Apparently, this has literally sent the museum into a tizzy!My friend Kelly - who does know about me (hell, I ...

2008-10-04 11:29:49

Good Morning!!I've calmed down a bit since getting the news. The spot in question has been there for sometime. I've been getting C.A.T. scans every 3 months. It started at 4mm & is now 1.6cm. Yes that is very small & found very early. They are not going to do the biopsy since they want to ...

Relief!

2008-10-03 21:49:22

I must admit to being a tad nervous with todays events but i need not have been because things couldn't have gone any better.......actually yes they could have because the weather was truly awful. Not really the weather for burying someone but what can you do. Waiting for things to get going, i was ...

Blood, bravery and recognition

2008-10-03 12:55:52

I had the follow-up with my doctor the other day. The good news? My blood work came back just great, including my liver results. That means, again, HRT is a possibility. My blood pressure is down, but my cholesterol is still high. That was no surprise. He is trying some new meds on me ...

Nervous or what?

2008-10-02 21:31:26

Tomorrow is going to be a very interesting day to say the least & i'm not sure how its going to go, because we're FINALLY getting round to burying my grandad. Its taken this long because the gravestone's had to be altered because its a joint plot( My Nan's buried there too) & the hole ...

2008-10-02 10:00:06

Doctor called he said thier pretty sure I have early stage cancer of the liver but won't know for sure untill they do a biopsy. So thats being set up.

Finally, a rest

2008-09-29 14:56:07

On Wednesday I have a follow-up with my new doctor concerning my blood work. Since he has not called me in any sort of panic, that tells me that things should be fine. When I see him he's going to refer me to some endos who are friends of his. Look out! HRT is just around the corner!Once ...

All the world is birthday cake

2008-09-28 22:42:28

Today is my rebirthday. Did I just invent a new word? Well, I’m sure someone has used it before. Post-op girls often decide that they now have an excuse to celebrate two birthdays a year, though hopefully that doesn’t make them age twice as fast. Although it’s a special day for ...

2008-09-28 10:58:44

Still on my first cup so if I make a lot of typos you know why.Have been looking for an for a doctor where I can get mones without going downtown. I called 2 & was told by both that they don't to that for that reason. Fine, whatever, I'll just keep looking.I've also been getting prices for ...

Just an Update

2008-09-26 18:29:28

Hi, ive not posted here for quite a while for several reasons mostly coz i was absent from tw for a couple of months and i have had a few problems to get my head around and get back on my feet.I gave up on the full time earlier this year because it was getting to hard at work after the lovely ...

You DO have to mad to live with them!

2008-09-25 14:10:19

Carren and Danique that is.Actually, they are, of course, lovely girls and very friendly and hospitable. I stayed with them last weekend and had a very nice relaxing time, which I needed. We just had some nice walks and good food, (they are both very handy in the kitchen by the way),watched some ...

2008-09-22 12:12:31

So now we aren't allowed to moderate? Can someone please tell me the point of having mods then? I couldn't believe it when I read the thread that concerned this. It gives a licence for anyone to say what they like to any individual or TW as a whole and we are all just supposed to sit there and take ...

2008-09-21 09:50:45

Good Morning!!!Sorry that I haven't been posting anything in the forums, or evan adding a coment. But it's the meds I'm on. I seem to have no intrest in anything. Not happy or sad. I just don't care about anything. They give me time to get use to a dose than they raise it. I started at 50mgs than ...

We'll always have Paris

2008-09-17 14:55:00

My trip to Paris was wonderful.................for the most part. It was a lovely weekend with my wife and it's not often we get to enjoy each other's company with two small children around so we did make the most of it. Our hotel was next to the palace of Versailles so after negotiating the ...

Wonderful weekend

2008-09-17 02:50:31

Still getting my strength back from that great birthday weekend I had with Josie!First of all, thank you to all you who wished me a happy birthday. I appreciate it!My plane was pretty much on time getting to Denver. When I got tired of grading class papers on the plane I took to defacing the ...

Can't Sleep

2008-09-13 03:57:07

It's my fault I could hardly keep my eyes open at about 6 tonight so I made a cup of coffee. At least I don't have to get up early tomorrow.My shrink asked me when I want to start transition. I said NOW!! She said she wants to help me through it. She talks like it's a fact, we're doing it, no ifs ...

having faith

2008-09-12 22:06:06

I 'm still a wee bit sad that i Couldn't go to the funeral today, but my mum came round earlier this evening & she was telling me how things went.Apparently everything went fine, service was a nice one by all accounts There were quite a lot of people there which didn't really surprise me, but ...

Sad Day

2008-09-12 01:14:18

Today's not going to be the best day for me as my grandad's being buried today & i should be there but i won't be . its not because i dont want to be there, its just it'd be awkwad to say the least. You see, my immediate family know about me & they are totally fine with me......its the ...

Great party, and a weekend

2008-09-08 13:05:05

Thanks to all you who came to the chatroom wine and cheese party that me and Lilenne sponsored! It was a fun time, and the movie trivia quiz went great.In only a few days I go see Josie. We haven't seen each other since the end of June. This is my first real time off since the first time I ...

The things children say......

2008-09-05 08:02:40

It's my daughters 4th birthday today and so we're all excited here, although her party is actually going to be tomorrow since she had the first day of school term today as well! I would have hated that but she loves school so is happy. Anyway, last night I put her bed and went to close the door as ...

After the brief intermission.......

2008-09-04 13:55:10

Yesterday I met with my new doctor, and I must say I like him a LOT. He was totally cool about my being a TS, and is going to support me in transitioning. Plus, girls, if you're into men, he is quite good looking, too. He was such a nice guy.Although I have been previously cleared for HRT, ...

totally unbelievable

2008-09-02 21:43:29

Those of you who've read one of my previous blog posts will know, that at the end of july i had trouble with a local hotel who kicked up a stink about me using the ladies loos there. I had recently written to them to complain about the blatant discriminationory way they had treated me. I'd not ...

2008-09-01 17:14:13

It's about noon & I just woke up from a nap. It's been a long weekend & I injoyed it, but it's allmost over. I've found out that evan just knee-highs under your slacks in warm weather can feel very warm. But I couldn't take them off as I can't stand bare feet with my shoes on.I found out ...

Almost did it, and an anniversary

2008-09-01 12:53:11

The senior coordinator for my team at work had a barbeque yesterday at his house after work. I did go, although Josie could not be with me, and I had a nice time. A lot of my coworkers showed up, and we made the usual jokes. We are getting ready to shoot another movie for You Tube. My ...

More laser

2008-09-01 09:45:59

I've just come back from yet another laser session on my chest - ow! This time she turned the dial up a notch or two and it was nearly as painful as when I had my face zapped! Nearly. That used to really hurt, especially the upper lip. After a few more treatments I will then be getting my ...

Sad....

2008-08-28 21:26:26

Today has'nt been one of the best days for me. For weeks now, my grandfather has not been well at all & his GP gave him only 2 weeks to live. This morning i got the sad news that he'd passed away in his sleep this morning, fortunately my mum and dad were with him at the time which was good. ...

2008-08-28 18:20:03

Well, the summer holidays are nearly over and we had a mad time with the house full all the time. We've just got back from the UK where we spent some time with my wife's family and now it all seems very quiet at home, almost eerie. It's nice though to have some quiet time again. I hope I haven't ...

Back on track

2008-08-28 12:47:20

I finally made an appointment with a new doctor. I held off for a while because I did not know where I might be living. Now that I know I am staying here for another year, it was time to get back in to everything. My breathing problems have been getting better. I just need to get back on ...

2008-08-23 08:25:40

A very early morning hello to all the girls here. Woke up & couldn't get back to sleep. Had a real good week at work. Everyday things just seemed to run good. Well maybe not Thur. A clamp on one of the fixtures broke. A 30min repair normaly. There air controled & as I reached in to ...

More blood

2008-08-21 23:54:15

The bloodbath at the museum continues. This week two of my closest friends were fired. Okay, I will concede that they didn't exactly wow upper management with some of their antics, and yelling at the Director isn't a good way to show a good attitude, but, still, they did not deserve this. I ...

Jane in the box

2008-08-18 00:34:44

Yesterday my team at work had a little pizza party. We had it at the temporary exhibit "Smart House - Green and Wired," a so-called environmentally friendly home. It is an impressive home. What I loved so much, and they practically had to drag me out because of it, is the kitchen! ...

2008-08-16 11:12:17

Morning Ladies! My what a busy week I've had.Work has been hectic. We're starting to pick up again & the other person I work with went on vacation. So I had to cover it all alone which kept me running everyday. Wensday was real bad I never got one cell running before another one stopped.Saw my ...

Welcome to the Waltons

2008-08-12 13:29:34

At least, that's what it feels like here right now. Every summer my house if full of people since my children from the UK come over plus a couple of my neices visit too. We've had 8-9 of us sat down to dinner most evenings!! It's quiter now, most have returned to the UK and the rest go this ...

2008-08-10 09:45:45

Forgetting it's Sunday I woke up this morning & looked at the clock. Jumped out of bed at a run thinking I was late for work. I'm already in hot water for telling my boss what I thought of something he told me to do. I was suspended for a day. Was half dressed before it dawned on me. Threw my ...

Crabbiness

2008-08-08 13:09:32

With the exception of being in the chatroom here, I have not been in a good mood. A lot of things kept coming into my mind about current events, and the museum hasn't been helping much. I think they're advertising "Dumbass Day" every day for the past two weeks. Dumbasses get in 75% ...

Decisions

2008-08-05 12:52:49

That school in Iowa sent me a very cold, impersonal e-mail. All my suspicions about them were true - they had no intentions of giving me the job. I was brought in as a formality. I had doubts early on as they were not having me do a teaching demonstration, nor did they show any interest in ...

2008-08-03 10:20:39

Morning!!!Someone we called Chip, at work died last Sunday. He had a liver transplant about the same time I had my surgery. His liver was destroid by hepititus-c that had gone undetected for to long. His new liver never seemed to realy take, and then the hep-c came back. If they hadn't caught mine ...

Progressing........

2008-07-31 23:48:53

Things are progressing so fast i've not had time to breathe here. Earlier this week i went to see the CAB ( Citizens Advice Bureau) about the possibility of bringing a claim of discrimination against the hotel, manager & bouncer for they way they treated me. The CAB put me onto a solicitor, ...

La Dolce Vita

2008-07-31 17:31:29

Italy was fantastic, I had an amazing time and really didn’t want to come home. Italian men are outrageous, SO forward. I never went with any, but it wasn’t through lack of offers. I couldn’t quite believe it, and it seemed to be only me in our group that they all went for. Well ...

An interesting day in the hills........

2008-07-29 18:38:08

Since the weather has been so glorious lately I went for a little hike in the hills today. Nothing too strenuous, just a short 20km with a lunch stop at the end. It was a first for me in many ways though................I have these horrible musclely (is that a word??) arms which are the result of ...

Cylcling weekend & dentists....

2008-07-27 16:37:15

I've just got back from a weekend of outdoor eduction which this time involved cycling and camping. For once the weather was kind, although we did have a tremendous, but short lived, storm on Saturday night. It didn't affect us in any way at all and was actually a bit of fun!On getting back home ...

This girl will NOT be beaten.....

2008-07-26 21:40:11

This girl aint quitting without one hell of a fight.....believe me i have a few things i can do. Firstly, i know the MD of the company who owns the hotel & a few others. He just HATES bad publicity so pretty soon he's gonna be getting a formal letter of complaint about the manager of one of ...

Here we go again

2008-07-26 13:15:43

Here we go again, and in more than one way..................My kid stayed with me for almost three weeks while she attended science summer camps at the museum. While it was a lot of fun, I had to hide a lot. During her time here she had a part in a student movie. While shooting that film I ...

2008-07-26 09:06:10

Good Morning!!I've been quiet lately. I think it's the meds I'm taking. I just don't have much intrest in anything. I've been on anti-depressants before & there were allways side effects such as low energy or jitters. But these are more like a emotional numbness. Sure they block out sadness but ...

never EVER been so scared in all my life

2008-07-25 21:57:51

Had a better day t0day, but yesterday something happened whilst i was out and i have NEVER been as scared as i was......truly awful it was. I'd been out at our annual 2 day air-show & popped into a local hotel( the HATFIELD) to have a drink & use the ladies loos which i'd done several ...

From the shoulders up...............

2008-07-22 11:33:41

It seems that everything in that area is in for it this year. First the surgery on my eye, (which needs to be undertaken again), then the rhinoplasty, and then yesterday I had to have root canal work on my teeth. God that hurt!! I swear I have left imprints in the seat. It's the first time I've had ...

Two weeks to go!

2008-07-18 18:55:40

Until I finish work that is! Although they are paying me up until September anyway, I can live with that! So I guess I shall have a nice leisurely summer with my children who will all be here. I'm looking forward to that very much. This weekend we are (hopefully) trying out a new bassist for the ...

2008-07-14 19:08:45

Why do so many of us like kinky sex?According to research, sadomasochism is probably a behaviour we're born withVivienne Parry It's confession time. I am possibly the only journalist to have written simultaneously for the News of the World and the Journal of Molecular Biology (different features, ...

The 45 year old virgin

2008-07-14 16:47:58

Well, not any more… I finally did it. I shamelessly picked up a guy at Sparkle, old slapper that I am, dragged him back to my house and forced him to make love to me. Well actually, he seemed quite willing. It was extremely gorgeous. Words cannot express how good it felt so I probably ...

My wife's first shopping trip

2008-07-13 10:08:15

I had a lovely day out shopping yesterday with my wife, which is significant because it's actually the first time we have done this together. She is fine with me being out and about but has never had to stroll through the town and the shops with me before, like some of us, she had to work up the ...

2008-07-12 08:24:53

Not sure if it's late night or early morning. I took some codine for pain in my elbow before I went to bed. Only slept 2 hours & I'm wide awake. DUMB!I ran into an old girlfriend the other day we talked for a bit then she asked if I had time for lunch. We were talking about this & that ...

A change is as good as a rest.

2008-07-09 13:58:52

At least, that's what they say so I have decided to find another direction workwise. Oh by the way, the outcome of the recent complaint was unfounded and dismissed. Thankyou to those who offered their support with that, it was appreciated. Anyway, with that over and this having been a very bad year ...

2008-07-04 12:18:41

Good Morning & Happy 4th of July.Had my first session with a new shrink yesterday. My first day was realy Wensday but it was with a guy. I told him that this won't work as I didn't feel comfortable talking to a man. So I was switched to another shrink. She looks like she only just got out of ...

The splint comes off..................(cue scary music)

2008-07-02 19:25:40

I had my post op appointment with the clinic today (did I mention how lovely, and gorgeous, all the nurses there are)? Anyway, they removed the splint from my nose and the stitches from underneath...........and then gave me a mirror!!!!It was very exciting to look into the mirror and like what you ...

2008-07-01 08:03:20

After going back & reading what I wrote yesterday I told my doctor I was having trouble. He gave me Zoloft & a list of places I can look for a new shrink. The lady I was seeing about my gender issues liked playing head games so much I had to stop seeing her or I was going to knock the crap ...

Can't Keep Going Like This

2008-06-30 13:16:01

Off work again because of my stomach. I can't keep this up. I keep having thoughts of suicide about my job & money. If I don't stop getting hurt I will lose my job & I can't do that it's all I have

First time out

2008-06-30 13:06:32

I went out to Denver for the weekend for Josie's birthday, although the airlines did all they could to diminish my amount of time there. As I'm sure you all know, one of the things Josie does is work as a vet tech at a local animal hospital. They were having a party/dinner at Coor Field ...

Post op

2008-06-29 14:11:08

Hi all, firstly, thankyou to all those who commented on my last blog. I didn't get time to thank you individually as I like to for obvious reasons. Anyway.......how did the op go?Well, I was on the table for four hours and everything seems to have gone pretty well, no complications or anything like ...

2008-06-29 11:44:35

Good Morning!!I went on a dog hunt yesterday. There was an event at Freedom Hill called Petabalooza. I got there just after 10 & there were dogs everywhere. But as far as adobtable dogs there seemed to be all large ones. I asked about smaller dogs & was told they brought some but they went ...

2008-06-27 12:53:58

It seems as though I have some time off work again. So I am going to visit Mere. She's asked me to come see her about a dozen times & this looks like a good time. I know I can't just sit here for a week & she is a good friend.Maybe I'll get a chance to meet Jen, Mere's sister.

Maybe, maybe not

2008-06-23 22:35:22

The school decided to give the spot to someone else. The Dean called and left a BS message today. I really thought this time it would be mine. They misled me so much. The funny thing is this morning I was asked to sit on this special panel and represent my department while the message was ...

2008-06-21 08:36:29

A very early Saturday again.My trip is off. I couldn't get the time off work. Another person got hurt in a slip & fall at home & broke a couple of his ribs. So were allready short handed.But the bad news realy is a guy from work named Ray. A couple of months ago he had a stroke & realy ...

Feeling a little annoyed.

2008-06-20 13:47:31

It's great isn't it? Here I am just about to go for surgery which is going to lay me up for a little while and I hear that I am facing a 'works tribunal' as someone has made a complaint against me. I could really do without this right now. I don't have any issues with someone complaining, that is ...

on being human

2008-06-18 21:48:24

Humans are social animals. We search out those who are similar to us and we stay with them. Why do we do this? Because we are lonely. Because at the end of the day, each of us is alone in the universe. This loneliness is more than most of us can bear.This is one reason why I keep coming back to ...

7 days to go

2008-06-18 15:48:01

There's not really much for me to write about at the moment and I don't like to just prattle on endlessly, (although I usually do, lol). Anyway, I have only seven days to go now before I place myself on the operating table and I am really excited!!! The clinic phoned last night to give me my ...

2008-06-15 08:48:14

Hot & muggy thats been my week. Work has been awfull because of it. That & we are now starting at 4am. So I have to get up in the morning at 2:30. That was a hard adjustment.The heat hasen't been all bad. I now have a real reason for wearing my short skirts & the cute young girl ...

The Dutch.........and their caravans!!!

2008-06-09 20:57:18

Why is it that whenever I have to drive anywhere, but in particular, long distances, I have to constantly negotiate swarms of Dutchmen, (or women, or dutchpersons???), with their bloody caravans in tow!! I thought I escaped that curse when I left the UK but no, the dutch are as daft as the brits ...

2008-06-08 10:06:08

Sitting here listening to the thunder of a good storm. We've been getting some realy good storms the last few days. But it's also been very hot so the humidity comes with it. But I love my mornings. Sitting back with my coffee still wearing my gown. It's a very calm feeling.I'm in the Trib this ...

Computer miracle

2008-06-06 02:14:19

It would take a while to explain, but my laptop, with a little extra assistance, is back up and running, due to a student I taught just last term. I feel stupid for not asking him to take a look at it first. I might have saved a few bucks. Josie sent me an older laptop she wasn't using, but ...

Coming apart at the seams.

2008-06-05 10:11:51

I guess that feeling I had earlier was the precurser to coming apart at the seams. I can't cope and I feel some old defenses rising up to deal with the unthinkable, the unendurable idea of my friend being gone. this is someone that I have spent part of practically every day for the last four ...

Hitting Bottom?

2008-06-05 04:33:54

I thought, last week, that I had hit bottom. I smilled and said, well it's got to be all uphill from here. I was wrong. After surviving losing all my stored belongings, my life's possessions, in no small part to having someone else screw up and give me false information and leaving me with ...

2008-05-31 12:37:53

Well since word got out about what was on my camera I haven't spoken to anyone in my family. They don't answer the phone & won't return my calls. My nephew did call this morning to ask why I wasn't at my sisters 60th birthday party lastnight. Told him I didn't know about it.If being Karen has ...

Hiking and hair straighteners

2008-05-30 12:23:53

You can laugh! You would too if you saw me after a dousing of rain or recently out of the shower and my hair all over the place!This has become a real problem of late as my hair has got longer and thicker but I have found a solution..............an in car adaptor which allows you to plug everyday ...

Back very soon

2008-05-29 15:54:49

As I posted in the Forums, my computer problems should be solved very soon. Josie has a laptop she isn't using, and all I will do is put my hard drive into hers. That almost sounds sexual.A couple more people were fired at work, which really came as no surprise. While I feel they should not ...

happy.....

2008-05-28 22:07:10

OMG.....is it really april since i last blooged, better put that right hadn't i?. Well, nothins really changed since last time..i'm still doing the same old things like tryin to find work & saving hard for sparkle ( only 4 weeks away now). The work situation is gettin me down because wherever ...

2008-05-27 12:29:59

As part of my job I have to take people out on hikes, camps and Duke of Edinburgh expeditions etc and have been out on one or the other for the last ten days. In that time I walked around 100 miles which was pretty nice, if if half of that was in the rain.......urghh! And not a set of hair ...

2008-05-26 02:02:28

The perfect beer. Ice cold & smooth. The only thing is that it's my 7th one. I don't realy drink much anymore so I'm pretty messed up. Drunk is the word.I messed up realy bad at my sisters a couple of weeks ago. I took my camera & let someone use it. They started looking at the pix they ...

2008-05-25 10:46:26

Good Morning Ladies!!Thinking about helping Mere get a new laptop. I feel kind of guilty for making fun of her. I had no idea it was so bad. But I'm not sure I can afford it.My hours at work have changed again. But the reason is that the person that opens had the tip of his finger cut off in a QC ...

Not happy..........:(

2008-05-20 14:48:23

It's been nearly two weeks since my eye op and I am not a happy girl. To be fair the swelling is still present but in all honesty I can't see any difference whatsoever :( Bloody NHS!!! I have been in touch with the surgeon and have requested, no, demanded actually a meeting with them in June to ...

2008-05-19 11:04:25

We had a family get together yesterday. I dressed down more like drab so it went well. My nephew was there, I haven't seen him in a while. What I noticed was how much weight he lost. Allmost a hundred pounds. He realy looked good & says he feels a lot better than he use to. He's allways been a ...

Jim and my coming out more

2008-05-17 17:47:25

I have already posted a Forum thread about the death of my friend Jim. Today was his wake. There were about 12 of us from work. I will do all I can to keep his memory alive.Last night I came out to my friend Kelly. She was so cool about it. We're going shopping together sometime. She's ...

Katie Testing

2008-05-16 17:48:35

One of our girls says she can't post her blog entry so I'm just posting this to test the system.Hugs,Katie x

Using public loos................and not what you might think

2008-05-15 13:45:46

The problem I have been having these last six months is which ones to use when I am trying to be male. I wrote about that in a previous blog. Anyway, the problem has gotten worse (?) since now without any make up/boobs etc I still get odd looks when I step into the gents, so I try to use the ...

Electrolysis

2008-05-14 17:08:03

Today I did something quite radical. I had my first ever electrolysis session – not for hair removal but for vein removal. Having spent a long time in the sun and having drunk far too much in my lifetime, my face was covered with fine veins and “spider nevuses”. It was not a pretty ...

2008-05-13 22:02:55

They changed my hours at work. Again!! But at least now I'll have time to drink my coffee in the morning before I go in. I'll be doing a split shift. Last half of days & the first half of afternoons. Easy hours but I don't like them. Can't schedule appointments. Most places work from 9 to ...

Soon

2008-05-13 02:25:59

As soon as my schedule lightens up I'll finally be able to get back to seeing doctors for the transitioning.Things are still going good at the museum for now. Our hearts are still healing, but I have been noted and singled out at meeting for stepping up and solving problems. Both the museum ...

One down, one to go!

2008-05-10 17:45:34

Sugeries that is.I had to fly back to the UK last week for my eye operation, (really tiring on the arms that), and I'm please to say that everything seems to have gone very well. The surgeon was lovely and told me I had pretty eyes and she would do a good job to make them even prettier, aww, how ...

The FBT is here!!!

2008-05-07 18:40:17

I have spent the day answering TW emails, doing a little programming, a little writing and organising all kinds of stuff. This afternoon, I went to our local DIY store (B&Q) and bought the FBT (that's a rather large tent).I was amazed at the price because if we had hired a marquee of around ...

2008-05-06 01:51:08

That's about how I feel.I went back to work today. I'm happy about getting the money flowing again, but I just wish I could do it with out working. They did seem happy I was back though. I was not happy with the way they had let things go while I was out. They said they were to busy to keep up with ...

Just a quick line today...

2008-05-03 12:18:29

There's only time for a quick line today. I have soooo much work to do. I have to finish off the Tranny Tribune and a zillion other things. I know it's nearly two months away but I am already worrying about Sparkle. There an awful lot to organise and I'm worried that we won't have enough ...

Onwards and upwards...

2008-05-02 23:17:33

Good, and getting better all the time When you’re very young, you are always conscious of your age, that ‘and a half’ or ‘and three quarters’ are crucial and the next birthday is so far away. Then you hit your teens, and the extra year gets added so you can buy your first pack of ...

2008-04-29 19:29:37

Did my first rehab for my arm today. It feels good to be able to move it without pain. This doctor I saw last Thur isn't the same one I saw in Jan. I wish I had seen this one first. The first one took a very passive approch. He gave me a shot & said to rest it, than start doing some streatches. ...

The Switch

2008-04-29 14:21:31

I had to collect my family from the airport on sunday and as it was such a lovely day decided to wear a nice denim mini and expose my legs to the sun for the first time this year. (Well, I hate pale legs). I got there a little early and had a little lunch before going up on the terrase to watch the ...

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2008-04-28 11:46:14

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2008-04-26 14:17:49

After a long hot shower & 3 cups of coffee I'm starting to feel human again. But still hung over.About a week ago I was taking out trash & waved to a lady sitting on her porch. After I got back in she knocked on my door & gave me a bottle of spumanti. We introduced ourselves & ...

What's this? Katie blogging? How did that happen?

2008-04-25 22:07:52

With a little over two months to go to Sparkle, I am getting really, really, really excited about our small contribution. This will be my first Sparkle. Last year when I should have been there, I was in hospital having just had a heart attack so I am especially happy that I'm still around ...

2008-04-21 13:43:44

I just read a post from someone that said at the start she didn't understand the topic. She wasn't kidding. But I can understand her desire to help in some way. For that I commend her.I did some more painting here & got the bathroom done. I was afraid it wouldn't cover. The walls looked allmost ...

FFS is go for June!

2008-04-18 19:01:57

Despite being pretty tired tonight, I am extremely happy since I have just got back from the UK where I had a consultation with the surgeon who is going to give me a nice new feminine nose! After explaining the kind of thing I was looking for and showing him some examples, he discussed the ...

A picture paints a thousand words

2008-04-16 16:11:47

Phew! Just mowed the lawn, most exercise I’ve had for quite some time. It so needed doing though. Guess I’m getting my strength back. Things in general are getting back to normal, and I really seem to have very little to blog about. Life, though too boring to write down in any detail, ...

MY Shrink Lied

2008-04-16 14:01:31

When my shrink told me again that I was going to be able to start HRT she was only wanting to see how I would react. I feel as if she just likes pulling my strings to make me jump. I have no more appointments with her.

What a dilemma........

2008-04-15 13:20:45

My lovely wife, being such a wonderful person, knows what pain I am going through in not being able to transition fully, or even live full time. To be fair, she never signed up for this and I love her to bits and I don’t see my life without her. However, the other day she said, (in tears), that ...

stressed

2008-04-12 22:01:54

Just so you know, i haven't dropped off the face of the planet...just not had much to blog about until now. I've been busy accumulating things for when i go to sparkle in june......new frocks, shoes & the like. These things just gotta be done. The FUN part & part thats p*ssed me off most is ...

2008-04-12 15:31:38

Allmost noon but I have coffee coming.Still painting here. Put the under coat in the hall yesterday. It covered nicely so I'm calling that done. Just a plain flat white, but it's the hall who cares. So I'm starting the bathroom today & allready have some of the edging done.I have lots of time ...

Being very open

2008-04-09 01:51:46

I was switched over to the U-505 today. As usual, I had in my earrings. During some of my routine I make little jokes here and there at myself. While in the Petty Officers' quarters, right before I move the group into the Control Room, I say the following:"Now, before we go, first, I ...

Oww!!

2008-04-08 14:03:41

Laser again, yippee but ow! I have a stubborn area on my face which is still undergoing treatment and I am now getting it zapped twice in succession, twice the pain, hopefully twice the gain too! God the second one hurts!! Being a complete sucker for punishment, I immediately had a chest zapping ...

2008-04-08 11:10:32

A True StorieI went to get my hair cut yesterday. I pretty much go to the same place all the time. As I was heading for a chair the girl that was going to cut it said I allways wear the coolest shirts & wished her boyfriend would dress like me. I sat down & she asked me were I get my ...

Really coming out

2008-04-06 14:34:40

This week I will be calling my "new" doctor to schedule an appointment. I really miss my other doctor. She was not only a great doctor but also a very attractive black woman. I wish I could look like her!I came out to another co-worker last night. I was going to tell her last week ...

2008-04-05 16:40:34

So I know I'm making this move sound realy bad but it realy wasn't. I have my own home now not a rentel. My clothes no longer have to share space with the drap work clothes. I keep them in seperate rooms.There's a girl that lives next door that is so fine I love watching her walk out to her car. ...

Missed surgery!!!

2008-04-04 13:47:15

Arrrggghh!!! I received a letter yesterday asking if I could attend an appointment for surgery on my eye on the 26th March, but lacking the ability to time travel I called them to say I wouldn't make it!! Anyway, I now have a date in early May so it wasn't all bad. A little frustrating knowing it ...

2008-04-04 13:17:38

Ok so I finely have all my stuff at my new home. Now where do I put it. As I kept finding stuff for the kitchen I had do reorganize at least 4 times. My sister came over to help & just put things where she thought they should go. To me it was so scattered I had a hard time finding anything when ...

2008-04-02 22:04:19

Home from work, showerd & I ate. Now let me talk about moving. I hate it!!! I never want to do it again.I thought I'd get a head start by packing up a bunch of stuff early. But than I had to go through boxes to find somethings I still needed. Than theres all the stuff you'll know you still need ...

Back On The Net

2008-04-02 02:16:11

Was going to post something but Nortons was giving me a hard time of it. Now that I got it working it's time for bed.I'm just glad to be back here I've missed you all.

Strange weather

2008-04-01 13:22:56

I don't get it. Last week when I was busy hiking and camping there was snow everywhere and temperatures of -7. Great, I thought, I can get some skiing in next week. I even checked the ski slopes and all but two of them were operational. Marvellous!Wrong! Fast forward two days and the temperature ...

A proper gentleman......

2008-03-29 15:48:01

That's the only way I can describe Keith Adams. We met up yesterday while he was over in Germany so partly out of curiosity and his forum posts I wanted to try to meet him. I'm not going to go into any detail and bore you all with the day we had together, suffice to say that it was wonderful. We ...

Depression has lifted

2008-03-24 15:15:50

I just got done going through a bad period. The depression that affected me for a few weeks seems to be leaving. We are still in shock at work. Last week, me, Robyn and Robert all sat there at lunch with tears in our eyes. What used to be a sanctuary was so mercilessly taken from us. ...

2008-03-21 10:43:02

Will be off line tomorrow untill ???Since I have a week before moving in I'm going to paint. Who ever lived there before did the rooms in a gross dark green. I like my rooms to be light. If I ever feel the need to sit in the dark I can go sit in the basement. My sisters called & said thier ...

TA's, men and friendships

2008-03-19 19:50:23

I thought I would just write about our Keef and his thread about TA's. Personally, I think it was a pretty brave thing to do since he is leaving himself wide open for attack, which I will make sure doesn't happen!I am impressed to see that some of the men here are getting more involved, there is ...

2008-03-18 23:19:15

I got my condo & was going to start moving things today but it's raining so I'll wait untill tomorrow. I'm just going to take some boxes to get started. I was wanting to move in this weekend but I can't get my power on untill Monday. Than I can turn on my gas & water. Than I can move in. ...

A trannys prayer

2008-03-17 23:48:33

Oh lord, Please give me the serenity to accept that which I cannot change. The tenacity and courage to change the things I cannot acceptGive me the guile and fortitude to conceal succesfully the bodies of the people I killed today for pissing me off.Keep me mindful wonderrous god,, not to tread on ...

2008-03-15 12:35:00

Closing Monday on my new home.I have to get all the utillities turned on there & turned off here. I can start tacking small loads over in my car a couple boxes at a time. Like all my clothes. I'm getting a lot of offers from people at work to help move. Thier good people & I do like them ...

A Song

2008-03-14 02:16:17

Somewhere, over the rainbow way, up high, In the land, that i heard of once, once in a lulaby.Some, where over, the rainbow sky's, are blue, and the dreams, that you dare to dream, really do come true.Someday i'll wish upon a star, and wake up where the clouds are far behind me, Where troubles melt ...

Back to the grind

2008-03-13 12:47:45

Last weekend saw my official return to the music scene - our band’s first gig in 6 months, the long absence due of course to my trip to Thailand and recovery from SRS. I’d forgotten how much hard work it was, the following day my legs felt like stone, even though I got the guys to carry ...

2008-03-11 23:24:18

I GOT MY MORTGAGE!!!Yes Yes Yes!!! I own something again.I'll close early next week. I move in on the weekend.

Hiking to stay in shape

2008-03-11 15:28:50

I went for a little hike yesterday, nothing drastic, I just wanted to get out and put some mileage on my legs but before I knew it I had covered 25km! That isn't a huge distance by any standard but I was just suprised that I had gone so far without noticing, simply because it was a gorgeous day. ...

2008-03-11 14:19:25

MY life in a box!!I have been backing up some boxes of stuff so I can take my time. I've filled 9 boxes so far & it doesn't look as though I put a dent in it yet. I moved in here with next to nothing. This is a small apartment. Where did all this crap come from? I still haven't packed up the ...

2008-03-09 17:20:35

The word female comes from the Latin femella, the diminuative form of femina, meaning 'woman', which is not actually related to the word 'male.' The word was probably originally femella, meaning "young girl". In the late 14th century, the English spelling was altered so that the word ...

Choosing a movie

2008-03-09 05:54:13

The question of what movie they will watch together is a perennial question for couples. Tonight if find myself staring at the television schedule and trying to decide whether to watch DOOM or PRIDE AND PREJUDICE...an action flick or a historical romance. I've seen both before. It's ...

mrs in-betweeny

2008-03-09 00:08:05

I finally caught up with this programme, shown last Monday and brought to attention by Katie and Gillian. How wonderful to see a TG person portrayed positively in the media at last. Brendan / Emma is superb in the lead role - direct, emotionally mature, slim, sexy, and always in a dress or ...

2008-03-07 14:22:26

Be Patient My Ass!!!I am not able to be patient. I have OCD. So to wait for something kills me. In the 10yrs I've worked at where I am I have not once been late. In fact most days I'm at least 30min early. If a person picking me up is late I will never ask that person for another ride or I will do ...

Getting by

2008-03-07 04:12:23

I have been back to working out again, although nowhere near as much as I would prefer. The thing is, as I posted in the Forums, a long time back I bought a beautiful dress at the local resale shop without trying it on. It looked like the right size, and wasn't. I tried it on again last ...

Firsts

2008-03-06 22:54:52

Tomorrow's will be fun & here's why. I have recently discovered that there are a couple of ts girls living here in town & i'll be meeting them. Its all thanks to a TG friend who chats to these girls on msn. I had no idea there were other ts girls living here & the fact i'll be meeting 2 ...

2008-03-04 13:02:00

Am I blogging to much about things not tranny?My money came yesterday for the closing on the condo. It's been a long time since I held that much at once. When I was in buissness for myself it was a daily occurence. There's been a lot of changes in my life. Anyway, I but it in my checking I'd like ...

Minor cave-in in the Gender Mine

2008-03-04 05:48:57

Well, today I made a mistake. A gender-mistake. It's really not a problem, but it is significant. I identified myself as Wendy on the internet. In retrospect, I realized immediately that I should have used my "legal" name to avoid any possible future complications. What happened ...

Couldn't put this in the forums.

2008-03-02 12:57:50

THIS is TRUE: 24 February 2008 Copyright http://www.thisistrue.com-------------------------------------------------------------------------TELL IT TO THE JUDGE: Police in Manchester, N.H., were investigating an accident. The driver admitted he had been drinking at a local gay ...

Things are moving at least.

2008-03-01 21:16:08

Well, the trip to the UK was almost a waste of time. I thought they were going to operate on my eye but instead it was another consultation, exactly the same tests as before only this time at the eye hospital in Bristol and with a bunch of medical students sitting in. And me, looking pretty femme, ...

2008-02-29 11:48:54

Good Morning Girls!!Well March looks like a month of new things for me. I pick up a new car this morning. A 2008 Impala, funny but I'm doing it to get a cheeper payment, allmost a hundred buck a month cheeper. Which runs about evan with what I'll be paying more a month to get the condo.I can't stop ...

Joining Trannyweb can seriously affect your health

2008-02-23 19:26:07

For the better of course. It’s four years since I joined and look at me now, how things have changed. I can’t help wondering where I would be now if I hadn’t actively sought out other people like me, and found TW as a result. Would I by now have drunk myself to death in isolation ...

Just Bought a Condo

2008-02-23 15:31:59

The bank has excepted my offer. We'll do the closing in a couple of weeks.WOW!! I just spent a lot of money$$$

I survived the purge

2008-02-23 01:13:33

A short time back I mentioned how my entire department had to reapply, and reinterview, for our jobs. Just after I was promoted to full time, too. I found out today that I am being kept on. One of my coworkers, though, is being given the run around and told she has to wait until Tuesday ...

a lovely day

2008-02-22 23:41:28

I couldn't have wished for a better Birthday today.....the whole day has been truly amazing.Once i'd waded through the masses of cards this morning( well 8 anyway) i decided to hit the shops big-time. Bought 2 tops, a CD by Nickelback & a Webcam amongst other things. By the time i'd finished ...

2008-02-22 13:29:44

This has been a very busy week.But it looks like I've found the condo I want. It looks new inside & out built in 2002. One level ranch with a basement. It comes with all new appliances with the washer & dryer on the main floor so running up & down the stairs. A good size kitchen with ...

Eye surgery

2008-02-22 09:53:56

I've just had a letter today regarding some corrective surgery on one of my eyes, YIPPEE!! Finally I can get this problem sorted out. The only downside is that I have to fly to the UK again for Tuesday, having just been there last week!!! This is getting expensive! Anyway, the result will be well ...

Gender mining the brain

2008-02-18 18:20:36

Well, today has been a real surprise. Normally I find buried parts of myself after a day or weekend or week alone and en femme when I drop all the day to day "habits". Today I just got up early, baked myself a pizza, gamed a bit on the computer and then went back to my laptop to ...

Holidays

2008-02-18 14:22:11

My wife and I have decided that we are going to go on a girly holiday together. Not this year, (more's the pity) but next summer. This was actually my suggestion because I didn't want her to feel rushed into things. Anyway, we have picked a location and everything and she has already picked me up a ...

Meredith the Media Hog

2008-02-17 23:47:10

My new insurance just kicked in. What I need to do now is to make an appointment with my new doctor and get the ball re-rolling with transitioning. Fun stuff!My kid spent Friday night at my flat, and we did some running around Saturday. We had such a good time. It made me miss her all that ...

How many emails????

2008-02-17 17:34:47

I have just returned from a week's trip to the UK to find over 300 emails in my inbox!!!These of course need working through, and then there's the forums to catch up with and friends, and then the Chatroom later on................I'm sure the other hostesses know what I mean, we aren't exactly sat ...

2008-02-17 13:23:54

I love fresh ground coffee!The condo hunt goes slow. The realtor said he had some for me to look at so we went out yesterday. What a load of crap he showed me. All needed a lot of work before you could move in or were not what I wanted at all. One was real sweet but it was 1 bedroom. I want 2 so I ...

On target in '08

2008-02-14 21:38:37

YESSSS!!!! Had my first trip to the local GIC today. And it went even better than I could have hoped.Recently the PCT’s in Devon ‘amalgamated’, and it is now one, Devon something or other. (Excepting Plymouth and Torbay, who are unitary authorities, and self-governing). Which means there ...

2008-02-14 13:03:41

A need to spout off!!!!!!When I decided I wanted a new place to live I had a set amount of money I would spend a month. Well they keep trying to get me to commit to twice that. I getting very very pissed. They say that I have the money but it's not for them to spend it for me. I want to still have ...

Honey i'm BACK!!

2008-02-11 09:51:31

like the title says.....i'm back, albeit on limited time but thats all changing in the next week or so when my broadband connection becomes active. Then i will be back tae ma old self, chatting until the wee small hours just like i usually do. This is gonna benefit me in a big way, tis just a damn ...

2008-02-09 16:00:23

If you've been reading my blogs lately you know I've been very confused about what direction I want my life to go. On the one hand I'm very lonely & on the other I love being Karen. I don't know if I can live with the one & not the other. But something needs to change so I want to start ...

i'll be BACK

2008-02-08 11:26:17

I'm NOT a happy girl & here's why......between them BT & AOL have managedf to totally screw up my internet connection, i'm having to type this on a pc in the library which isn't an ideal situatuon. I've been onto both of them to try & rectify the problem.....things progressing VERY ...

2008-02-07 14:23:56

On my second cup & feeling better today.Thanks for the comments. But I ment what I said if I have to let Karen go to meet someone I can be with than so be it. I'm lonely & TW can not fill that void. It's a site with wonderfull people that I care about so much it's not funny. But words on a ...

Yes, 2008 is going to be a good year!

2008-02-05 12:34:50

A SECOND RED LETTER DAYI wrote once before about having a red letter day, when good news was received. As it turned out, it wasn't as good as I hoped at the time, and things did not go as expected. In fact they ended up down a cul-de-sac at Charing Cross Hospital.Anyone with even less to do than ...

never say die

2008-02-04 23:51:17

I have ordered another pair of shoes. These ones come from Alternative Footwear. They are court shoes, 5 inch heels, in black leather, and a rounded rather than a pointed toe. They should arrive in about a week's time. And I can hardly wait, because nothing makes me feel as feminine as a pair of ...

2008-02-04 14:05:49

I know I'm adding to this blog a lot lately but I feel a need to say this stuff.I go back to work today after 3weeks off. In that time not a thread of mens clothing has touched me & I don't want to wear any now. But I have to. I have to fit in evan though I don't. I'm not a man & I'm not ...

2008-02-01 09:52:53

Good Morning! This will be short.Back at the doctors yesterday about my elbow. He gave me a shot right where the pain is. He said it's put off unless they have to as you can only get 2 in a life time. But when I woke up this morning I had no pain at all. He gave me a list of ways to rahab it at ...

2008-01-31 12:15:40

Good Morning Girls!!Mandy's post about why some trannys dress the way they do got me to thinking about the way I've dressed over the years. Being so deep in the closet I didn't get to dress a lot & when I did I didn't have a lot of clothes to pick from. At first I wore my sisters clothes. I ...

More laser

2008-01-30 14:23:32

I had my 8th laser session yesterday and it's clear that I could still benefit from a couple more. But since only one specific area is being targeted now this has drastically reduced the cost, which in turn means I can begin treatment on my chest too. Wonderful! The first session isn't booked until ...

Girly holidays.........

2008-01-27 20:56:49

I had an interesting evening with my wife last night. Trying on various swimwear, one piece suits, bikinis etc. We were both suprised by how I actually managed to get away with wearing one, since we both thought 'no way'. Apparantly, I just look like an althletic woman, that's okay by me, I can ...

2008-01-25 18:39:03

The Lucky OneJust kidding! A few weeks ago I felt a twitch in my arm. No big deal I am 49. But it kept getting worse. Than one day last week I woke up with a lot of pain in my arm. I went to the doctor & he said it was tennis elbow. Told me to stay home from work to rest it, ice it 3 times a ...

2008-01-24 22:20:12

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Up and flying high again

2008-01-23 22:40:03

ON THE REBOUNDAmazing what a week can do, isn’t it? A politician once said a week is a long time in politics, and I feel that can be applied to many other things as well, me being one of them. After writing that stuff the other day and getting it out my system, much as you do talking out with ...

Here we go again

2008-01-22 00:02:39

Some changes going on............For the moment I am going to have to put HRT on hold. The reason for this is insurance. I just found out my benefits as a now full-time employee and need to find out if I can keep my current doctors or find a new one.The Dirty Bird is no more. The car hasn't ...

2008-01-20 11:30:16

Just a few thoughts this cold morning.I had to pick up a check from work Friday morning since it wasn't ready Thursday night. I wore a tunic under my coat thinking it didn't look to femm. I'm now out to the receptionest. Turns out she has the same top. She gave me a look up & down. Noted I was ...

Yet Again

2008-01-19 21:55:05

Well i suppose i should be used to the stupid NHS letting me down and messing me about by now but it still hurts when they say one thing but do another. i was supposed to be finally getting hormones and antiadrogens last Thursday but as usual they let me down and told me until my liver function is ...

WHY?

2008-01-18 01:44:59

WHY? Am I sitting here writing in the early hours when I should be asleep? Why do I still want a cigarette, when I know they will kill me? Why do my efforts at getting fitter end up with getting heavier? Why can’t I express myself artistically? Why can’t I sing, or play something, or dance? ...

It never gets any easier......

2008-01-17 22:57:27

I wish i could say i'm happy right now but if i'm honest i'm not happy at all. Charllet left to go home this morning after spending the last 9 days here with me, & i have to say we had a wonderful time as always. Just doing the normal everyday things while she was here gave us both a lot of ...

failure

2008-01-15 00:55:37

The dress was too small. I couldn't do the zip up. I thought I could get into a size 14, but obviously I can't. The shoes were lovely and beautifully made, but I couldn't stand up in them. The support for the heel was more vertical than horizontal. So, purchases = 2, wearable items = 0. ...

Hair - again

2008-01-14 13:00:14

What a tempting offer....................last night my wife offered to buy me any wig I wanted, money no object if I would not grow my hair any longer. It is a tempting offer I have to say but at the moment I have said 'no' because I like the idea of having my real hair. Still, if it doesn't work ...

Hair, my own

2008-01-13 20:45:41

I decided a few months ago to start growing my hair in order that I can get rid of my wig. I don't mind my wig, on the contrary, I really love it but I want to grow my own to that length and then I can just do what I want with it. However good a wig is, it is no substitute for your own hair. I'm ...

2008-01-12 22:43:04

I know it's 5pm but I just got home from work & I wanted a cup of coffee. I just bought a grinder & it taste so much better I've been drinking a lot more coffee.Work is realy slowing down We'll be done with our orders this week by Wensday. So I can't help to wonder why we needed to work ...

days in black satin

2008-01-10 23:17:55

I'm still waiting for the shoes to arrive. It's an anxious time as I don't have a tracking number and it could be any day. I told my friend Rachel about them and she expressed some doubts over whether I'd be able to walk at all in them. We shall see... Anyway, you can't have new shoes without ...

2007 in reflection

2008-01-09 15:29:24

So many girls here seem to be recounting their year so I thought I would add my last twelve months into the mix. It started well, with my wife becoming ever more accepting of me and was happy with me being out dressed, which once laser started included my first day time outing. Then we found out ...

The New Year

2008-01-06 13:49:41

Lilienne, it looks like that latest good luck charm you sent me has worked again. Since I already wrote about my job situation in the Forums, I won't rehash it here. It's just nice to know that my hard work is paying off. I might not be at the top of the world, I'm not at the bottom, ...

2008-01-06 12:47:09

Started back on anti-depressants just after Christmas. Starting to feel more normal again. I have been isolating myself in my apartment a lot lately. Feeling down is bad enough but feeling like that & being alone is worse. So I needed a kick in the ass. I wish I could afford to go see her more ...

Happy New Year, Happy New Me

2008-01-03 18:51:27

Christmas left me feeling slightly exhausted, and just when I thought I was getting my energy back I go out to a new year’s eve party, drink too much and spend the next 3 days (and counting) feeling totally wiped out again. I didn’t drink that much really, but I’m obviously not ...

2007-12-30 12:23:47

I don't injoy the holidays. Just Christmas realy.I'm allways alone & this time of year I feel it more than ever. This year was worse than in the past. My brother in-law called & told me not to come dressed as I did on Thanksgiving. Well I dress like that full time now so I made plans to ...

My Christmas

2007-12-27 23:51:02

Well, my christmas day could not havr gone any better than it did. I must admit to being a bit nervous as it was the 1st time i'd been home since going FT almost 3 years ago.I had'nt seen my brother phil for about 2 years so it was good to catch up with him after all this time & he treated me ...

Christmas pressies!!!!

2007-12-26 10:35:50

I think I had a wonderful end to the year. Firstly, my wife had her first 'outing' with me, which was lovely. Then on Christmas day, all of my pressies were femme, (or neutral, like books, cd's etc). This was fantastic of course, since I have even more clothes to wear out but more importantly, it ...

2007-12-26 01:20:08

My 2007 in BriefWell, it's been a very short one, mainly because it's been so busy. They say moving, divorce and changing jobs are the three most stressful things you can do, and I've done two of those this year.The move was damned hard work, and took all day to get it out of the flat, Kerry and ...

Female groups and communication

2007-12-25 15:18:45

From the Forums:RISE OF THE VIDEO GAME Level 5 - Discovery Channel - Dec 19, 2007 80% of female characters in MMO's are being played by "males". ***** I'm one of them. And it's not hard to do....just be yourself. I never told anyone I was female. If you don't make a specific ...

The next time out?

2007-12-21 17:01:46

Well, something must have been good for my wife the other day when she came out with me for the first time, since she has indicated that she wants to come out with me again in mid January when I am meeting up with a few local girls. As strange as it may seem I really don't like those meets much ...

More insanity

2007-12-21 01:01:21

Last week was my four year anniversary here at TW. Wow. As I've said before, it is amazing what life is like for me now as opposed to back then.I am going to utilize this vital contact Robyn Webb provided to me in order to make sure I can finally start my transitioning next year. I am ...

What's wrong with me?

2007-12-20 06:12:44

Something isn't right tonight. Someone did something that has caused a major disaster in my life. I should be really angry. I'm quite upset with the person. What they did hurt me. On the phone, however, I was not the one yelling, they were....and I still didn't blow up. It's not that ...

Christmas markets

2007-12-19 20:40:58

Where to start with this one..............Today was a very special day for me because it was the first time my wife had decided to come out with me. We visited the Christmas markets in a nearby town, did some shopping, (of course) and had a bite to eat. We were only out for a few hours but it was ...

last 2 weeks ish

2007-12-16 18:50:46

well wher to start hehe, it was fantastic to get out with the girls again and we had a really great weekend and i was not drunk at all lol well maybe alot but hey thats what celibrating is about hehe, Since then i have had my first day fully dressed at work which was very good and very nerve ...

Happy Birthday to me!!

2007-12-14 08:40:43

Yesterday was my birthday and I had a wonderful day. Being woken up with a nice cup tea is always a plus and then we spent the day in town, browsing the Christmas markets and shopping, it was lovely. I had already received a gorgeous pair of brown knee high boots for my birthday but then I had a ...

2007-12-13 13:24:47

Christmas is getting close & I still don't have any plans. I know we're getting together I just don't know what day yet. At work we get a week & a half off with pay & I was looking forward to it. Than yesterday they asked me to work the 26th,7th 8th & 9th. I didn't realy want to but ...

christmas hopes & dreams

2007-12-12 21:40:15

Christmas isn't that far away now....less than 2 weeks, but for me this year's going to be extra special for lots of reasons. Christmas 2006 wasn't a very nice one for me as i had to spend the big day on my own, due to the fact my dad wasn't ready to have me at his house fully femme which to be ...

Just another quickie

2007-12-11 04:10:19

So to speak...........I just uploaded some new shots in the Gallery. Don't get too ill when you see them.I am still busier than hell these days. This Saturday they are making me Point for the day, and not just for a specific exhibit. I will be in charge of the department. This is something ...

Dressed for the weekend

2007-12-09 20:22:59

Well, moving on from my last entry, I have just spent the best weekend with my wife EVER! Simply because she has accepted me dressed and so we spent Friday and Saturday just relaxing, watching DVD's and doing our nails, facemasks and so on. She even commented on how well I looked, (I don't think ...

Interesting turn of events

2007-12-02 20:20:29

Those of you who know me know that my partner, who is lovely and very supportive, has never wanted to see me dressed. Until last Friday.I got dressed up as usual and she 'suddenly' had no problem with seeing me that way, neither of us know why, maybe it is just that I have given her the time to ...

Time to say good bye

2007-12-01 17:34:20

Well Girls tis time to say good bye.To the past and to pretending to be a man because that’s what everyone i love wanted me to be even though they knew i was different, i have now told everyone who knows me about my TS and only a very few are ignoring me and they are not very important to me so i ...

Knocked Out My Front Teeth

2007-11-30 19:48:37

I was working on something at work when an airline broke. It flew up & hit me in the face braking 2 of my front teeth. The whole left side of my face is swollen & purple. I'm taking a lot of pain pills & sleeping as much as I can.It was no ones fault. The fitting must have been ...

The Big "O"

2007-11-28 18:17:15

I had to deliberate for a while as to whether or not I should post this in my blog as my Mum reads it, but this is my only record of my transition, my only diary, and I’m sure she won’t mind really, she’s not such a prude. Be warned though, mummy – this is a bit ...

Out to The World

2007-11-26 15:23:41

Work can wait a bit more, blog first.I've had a very intresting holliday. I had dinner out with a different family member everynight. I also went as Karen each time.We had some long talks, went out shopping & running other erronds. I don't come close to passing myself off so I got some odd ...

Why? Why? why?

2007-11-26 11:59:09

I've just got back online after being rather ill for a while and while I am so pleased to be here again, I am also disappointed in what I have read in some of the forums. Why are TV/TS issues still raging? It's quite simple, don't write anything that you KNOW is going to upset someone, ...

2007-11-23 11:57:07

ThanksGiving was different this year.I went to my nieces which is a hundred mile trip one way. About half way I could see snow on the ground in spots. There was one stretch where it was a little heavier & the sun popped out. The trees had no leaves & all the branches were pure white. It was ...

Sister Has been Sick

2007-11-20 23:15:32

In my last blog I said I was going to post a story in my forum. About a half hour later I got a call from my sisters partner she said she can't wake her up. She told me she looked fine was breathing good but no matter how hard she shook her she didn't wake up. I told her to call 911 & went to ...

2007-11-18 10:37:17

Way to early to be up on a Sunday!Only 3 more days working mornings, than I have a 4 day holiday, & after that I'm back on afternoons. They said if I liked days I could stay on it. When I told them I want to go back on afternoons the foreman got a bit tiffed. He said he could have me put on his ...

From the trenches

2007-11-15 02:23:05

I could write another whole blog about the museum, and how damn stupid people can be. I could also write about the funny stories. I have been putting insanely long hours at the museum. I did two Friday Snoozeums in a row, both were on the Zephyr, including the infamous night where I gave ...

First snow

2007-11-14 20:38:43

Hooray! We had our first snow today, I hope that bodes well for a good skiing season, unlike last year. I intend to get as much in as possible this winter and there are some okay slopes nearby, not particularly challenging but better than nothing. I haven't skiied en femme.....yet......but this ...

A Simple act of rememberance

2007-11-11 22:30:44

Like the title says, a simple act of rememberance but it means so much. I never used to attend our local service, but i now know that my grandfather was in WW2 & me inheriting the medals he won during the campaign in italy & North Africa. On Top of, having a cousin returning from a tour of duty in ...

2007-11-10 13:10:09

To early to be up on a Saterday morning.About got the new cell done at work. It was not easy as we kept having to move things in order to get it to work. The contractor was sent packing when we found a lot of his wiring was done wrong. The project is now more than 2 months over but should be ...

Really poorly..

2007-11-07 15:36:31

What a weekend....urgh! I had the migraine from hell which lasted four days and a touch of tonsilitis as well, what fun! Not! I spent the whole weekend in bed and didn't feel better until late yesterday. I'm on holiday, illness is for those times when you have to go to work!On the plus side I did ...

A truly remarkable experience

2007-11-01 18:43:32

I feel I ought to have blogged sooner, but I just haven’t had the energy. Some say SRS is a piece of cake, some say it wiped them out, I think maybe I’m about average, understandably tired, and lacking energy. Swollen, sore and most of the time in some discomfort. It’s much better ...

Halloween gig

2007-11-01 12:26:27

My band played a gig last night for the Chopper Club here, great fun it was too. To be honest, we weren't at our best because we had to play with a stand-in bassist but we still rocked!! We had lots of positive feedback and picked up a few more gigs while we were there so that was nice. One in ...

2007-10-28 10:08:40

Good morning from a suddenly very busy girl.Returned to work on thursday. Needed the money so I worked a turn around on saturday. I had 4 robots to program. No problem 1hr each. Except that when I got there in the morning none of the robots weren't ready yet for programing. The controler cabnets ...

a complete & utter Surprise..

2007-10-27 14:55:07

I've not been feeeling too happy as of late, what with not getting the job & a few other things so last sat nite i decided to have an evening at the pub as reward for all the work i'd put in to my course. Came home around midnight & as i walked into my porch i got the shock of my ...

I love being a parent!!!

2007-10-25 20:22:57

Yesterday, the 24th, my son was born..YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!He is soooooo cute, and I have been alternating between crying and smiling for the last 24 hours because I am so happy! If anyone thinks it's kind of weird that I have a new child....it isn't. It doesn't make me any less of a woman, maybe even ...

2007-10-25 13:09:16

Good morning!!I had my medical thingy done yesterday. It came out OK. But they woke me before they were done. Waking up with a tube stuck 2 foot up your ass is not a good feeling. Now it's a wait & see about pain. There is none right now. I have not had a day without pain in a long time.To ...

Night Out was great

2007-10-23 16:29:36

Hi y'all......This is a quick posting right now. I have to get ready to leave to go hang out with my kid today. I'm taking the train since my car is acting up again and I don't trust it out on the highway.Josie was able to use a vet conference to come here to Chicago for the event. We had a ...

Back home and mended

2007-10-22 13:13:01

Finally i'm home full time again and have got through what has been a very traumatic month. I think this last month has been one of the worst in my life and i'm not sure how i came through it to be here typing this.So for those who dont know on Saturday the 22nd of September i was beaten up by four ...

Another milestone?

2007-10-22 08:50:53

On Friday I was in the middle of getting dressed up when my wife came in to see if I wanted my hair styled, (my own hair that is), since it is now getting a reasonable length. Although I was kind of confused I agreed and she did a really good job too! I had never been out before without a wig so I ...

Just Me

2007-10-17 20:55:14

Well today's not been the best of days really cos my job's come to an end two days early cos the work's dried up. Its a shame as i wanted to see out the rest of my time there but it's not to be. The people i worked with really could not have been any more accepting of me than they were & i ...

Getting excited

2007-10-13 23:03:47

Next weekend is the Night Out. There will be some activities since there will be at least one attendee(!). At the very minimum I get to meet another TW sister in person. Robybn Webb put me in contact with someone who is quite prominent in the Chicago TG scene. I had a nice talk with her - ...

PC hacked

2007-10-13 18:13:23

Someone got controle of my pc & has been wrecking havoc to all sites I have passwords at. Including this one. Passwords have been changed at all my bill paying sites. Downloaded 52 songs from i-tunes & closed some accounts. I have been on the phone allday trying to get this fixed. Buit I ...

One down, one to go...

2007-10-12 18:27:15

Degrees that is, having just spent way too much free time studying when I could be..........well, doing anything more interesting really! Still, noone made me do this and I do enjoy learning so I am pleased with myself. Once the result is posted I shall be treating myself to something nice too. Of ...

Post-op Lucy

2007-10-11 06:36:12

I’m nearly a week out of hospital, feeling pretty good, everything seems to be going ok. I’m trying to conserve energy so I shall be brief for now and maybe go into more details when I get home and am more recovered. Surgeries seem to have gone well, just hoping to avoid any major ...

2007-10-10 13:34:51

The start of a wild week.Monday started off realy good. I needed new work shoes. I have been putting it off because of the money I don't have.Than I found a pair of my old work boots in the back of the closet. That made me happy. Than as I was on my way out to work a lot of the people that live in ...

Local girls

2007-10-07 08:29:30

I gave myself a break from my studies yesterday and had a night out with a group of local girls that I found here. We took over a local place and had an organised meet there rather than just going to a pub/restaurant or whatever. Everyone I met was very friendly, as you might expect, and I recieved ...

2007-10-06 13:49:14

Got my eviction notice.But I have 90 days to get out. Also it states that if I can show reason & get caught up I can stay. As long as I don't get behind again. In which case the notice takes effect at any time over the next 6 months. I've never seen one that said this before & I've been ...

Exams

2007-10-04 09:04:11

Well, next week I find out if three years of study have been worth it since I have my final exams. I am feeling confident though and looking forward to some closure on this degree.I was going to take a break for a few months before my next course for a different degrees starts but have instead ...

a REAL bad day!

2007-10-03 21:16:10

I Thougt today that i'd feel better about myself after yesterdays events but today was anythin BUT a good day. 1st off,some silly old bugger stood leering at me whilst waitin to get the bus to work, THEN i'd gone into town during my lunch hour & copped a volley of foul, crude abuse from 2 women ...

yet ANOTHER kick in the teeth & it hurts

2007-10-02 20:25:51

Just how many more kicks am i expected to take?. The Job i went after, i really did think i was in with a great chance of getting moved onto the next stage today, with the second interviews for those who got that far. There were 5 including me & we were called in one by one, to answer a few ...

trying to be hopeful

2007-09-28 21:40:52

I Have been doing well at work recently & am comin to the end of my 3 months trial. Nothin has yet been said if its going to become permanent, which is why i have applied for another job with them. Only this one has a bit more responsibilty attached too, it'll mean my job title will change ...

2007-09-28 12:50:57

So much confusion!Went in for a test yesterday & told my sexy doctor I wanted to go back to work. She said the surgen said I needed to wait a couple more weeks. But since I wasn't in any pain it would be ok. But than the surgen wouldn't fill out the paper I needed to get to get my sick pay. ...

FFS

2007-09-27 19:11:58

Okay, so I have decided what I want, or what I can afford at least, so all I need to do is finish saving the cash for the surgery, and of course the cost of staying in the US for a couple of weeks, hotels, meals etc. On the plus side I can get a pretty good price on a flight........oh who am I ...

2007-09-26 10:50:13

You know he's reaching for $!!!So I went to see the surgen yesterday to get a date for fixing my hernia. But he wants to do something else first & I have to wait a month before he can do it. I'm not sitting here that long off work just waiting. So if I can get ahold of the beautifull doctor ...

Plodding along

2007-09-26 00:09:06

Sure, I have a lot more new stories about the goings-on at the museum. One thing I am doing for sure is really getting them ready for the big announcement.A coworker Amanda was once doing her nails. When she finished she said "Who wants their nails done?" I put out my left hand and ...

I'M IN THAILAND!

2007-09-25 09:39:11

It's all going terribbly well so far, but then we've only just got here. Something's bound to go wrong soon... Going for my consultation with the good Dr soon, more details to follow. So glad to be here. xx

2007-09-24 10:40:47

Today is the day.I find out today if I have to move or not. I'm going to see if I can get what $ I need by claiming a hardship on my 401. My apartment manager wanted to start eviction last month when he thought I was going to be late. So evan if I get the money I don't know how long it will take ...

2007-09-22 12:06:20

Posting again.I know I've been posting a lot lately but it seems to help.First I want to say I'm sorry if my posting about debts has offened a friend. I don't want money to come between us. There are times that I think to much & start feeling sorry for myself. Selfpity is not a good trait & ...

A woman's work is… almost done actually

2007-09-22 00:54:55

Departure imminent, wow, starting to feel real now. Pip came up last week and we had a lovely walk up the valley where I used to live, one of my favourite places. Middle of nowhere really, we only saw one other walker who soon disappeared from our sight. Nice to get away from civilisation for a ...

Laser - no6

2007-09-21 11:31:14

Well, the good news is I had my 6th appoinment today, which was brilliant! Nothing left on the neck and cheeks, just the 'goatee' bit which is proving to be a little stubborn, nearly there though. The consultant thinks 2 more visits should do it, I tend to agree. Plus she agreed to do them at half ...

2007-09-21 10:18:42

Due to my current med problems the bank turned me down. When my sister called she said she could help. She came over lastnight & offered to give me $400 for my TV, 2 computers, & my stereo. Thats not enough to help me out of my spot & she won't sell them back to me later. My family has ...

Keli's comment

2007-09-19 13:11:01

Keli's comment about why don't I seek help from some of the programs offered.I do have a job & I can get short term disability which I have applied for. But you have to be off 8 days before it starts. I've been missing a lot of days while the docs tried to figger out what was wrong. But I ...

One down, two to go....nearly.

2007-09-19 07:32:46

I have just submitted my last assignment for one of my degrees I am studying for, I only have the final exam in October to worry about know, but I am feeling pretty confidant about it. I only have a couple of weeks of revision but it should be enough so I am feeling quite relaxed about the whole ...

2007-09-18 10:08:48

On my second cup & I can allready see straight.Am going to try the bank for a loan to get money. If I can get it, it will take a big weight off my mind. But not holding my breath.Time for a refill.OK now for the stuff that matters, my nails.I have been working on keeping them looking nicer. ...

My consultation

2007-09-14 18:46:00

I had my consultation today with a plastic surgeon, well, actually he was real and not plastic at all......Anyway, the good news is, they will undertake surgery on my eye, but the downside is I need to travel to the UK again for a second consultation and then a third time for the actual procedure. ...

2007-09-13 11:12:21

Living with fear.Is not a easy way to live. I am so worried about whats going on in my life that I can't think of anything alse. I have a hard knot in my stomoch that has kept me home for 3 days. No work means NO MONEY!!!The doctors won't treat it untill they know the cause. They know what, just ...

2007-09-12 10:25:06

Doctors & other things.I saw a doctor last Thur that is one of the most beautifull women I have ever seen. She's eastern, India, long brown hair almond brown eyes, soft features, & about 5 & a half feet tall. She was all smiles as we talked. But I was there to see her as a doctor so I ...

Meredith FAQs

2007-09-12 01:21:49

Lately I have been speaking to some of you newer members on the phone, communicating through e-mail, etc., and many of you have asked questions that I seem to have to address from time to time. No, this is not selfish self-promotion, but questions I encounter on a regular basis. Here we go ...

A nip and a tuck!

2007-09-10 14:12:48

I am flying to the UK again tomorrow for a consultation with a surgeon who will hopefully be undertaking some eye surgery for me, just some corrective surgery that is long overdue. Shame it is going to cost so much just to get there for a visit without any work being undertaken but they wouldn't ...

2007-09-08 09:52:51

Feeling much better this morning!Went to see a new doctor yesterday. There was a little mix up as they told me he had cancelled all his appointments. After about 15min they found another doc to see me. OMG she was beautifull & I do mean beautifull. I'm to have another test on the 27th of this ...

2007-09-07 12:22:21

Running a little late this morning.I like to drink a beer or 2 some days after work. Lastnight it became 7 beers. I feel awfull. Not doing that again for a long time.I've been trying to take better care of my nails. Filing them into shape & not clipping much. Well they started chipping on the ...

Newcastle - The final bit!

2007-09-05 14:29:53

So Saturday night I am still getting ready when the taxi arrived!!! Arrgghhh!!! Quickly finished off and ran out the door so we could collect Kayla on the way. We went to a place called ‘The Yard’ which was really great, nice atmosphere in there and not too busy so we could actually find a seat ...

Night out

2007-09-04 17:15:51

Do you ever get the feeling that no matter what you do, and try to do, or say, for that matter, you just can't please some people? Oh, well. Lord Krishna said I am responsible to action, but not entitled to the fruits of my action.Yep, last week, August 29, the anniversary. I re-read what I ...

Newcastle - Part Deux!!

2007-09-04 08:36:11

Saturday in Newcastle was cool, I put on my black combats and trainers (white and pink of course) and Justine Lucy and I jumped into my car and headed into the Metro Centre, which was great but sooooo big I just have to go back there and spend the whole day inside, so many shops, so little ...

What a month

2007-09-03 20:39:17

Quite an eventfull month, very busy at work and still looking like i will be for a few more weeks at least but my project is of the groung and running so thats a relief and allot stress out of the way. After coming home from Germany i was dissapionted that i did not manage to go out dressed and was ...

Newcastle

2007-09-01 11:48:43

So here I am in sunny Newcastle! Yes, it really is sunny here! I drove up yesterday to meet up with Justine and Lucy who are both fab, as those of you who have met them already now. We just spent the afernoon chatting and gossipping (as you do), and had some 'Lucy Gloop' for dinner. Kayla popped ...

2007-08-31 09:35:35

My rent is paid!!The money came from a suprising place. WORK! The big boss was on the floor yesterday & asked how I was doing, so I told him. Later he was back on the floor again. He slipped me an envelope he said will help a little. A check for $300. He told me to think of it as a small ...

2007-08-30 09:54:23

Should I stay or should I go.After my apartment manager said I had to be on time with the rent or he'd start eviction I panicked. My medical troubles have got me in a hole money wise. But by law he has to give me some time to get things together. So evan if I am evicted I won't be on the street. I ...

Anniversary of a nightmare

2007-08-30 01:31:30

Today is a rather interesting anniversary for me........It was two years ago today that I was forced out of my home, sent to a hospital for almost ten days, and then spending almost a full year living a nightmare. I lost my marriage, house, car, you name it, shunned by almost everyone, no place ...

Anniversary, helping, and complications

2007-08-27 01:07:03

As I posted in the blogs, me and Lexi just had our one year anniversary. While we spent it apart, we still exchanged cards and a romantic phone call. Some of y'all put us down at times but we hung in there. She is planning on coming up here next month. I cannot wait.Things were almost ...

Tranny bikers?

2007-08-26 21:15:33

Well, here I am in sunny England, and strangely enough, it is sunny! I decided to attend a motorcycle rally this weekend with an old friend who I have known for years. The trouble was, I really resented the 'maleness' of it all and it just wasn't me. It never was, but now I can't pretend any more ...

2007-08-26 10:23:14

Sunday morning & I can't sleep!I opened up the back of my hand at work reaching into a rack. 8 stiches but it never did hurt. I think I'm getting use to it as I get small cuts at least once a week.When I have a day coming & can anticipate getting all dressed up I look forward to it. But ...

Not much for talking

2007-08-24 00:34:43

We've been having a lot of violent storms here in the Chicago area. It is wild to watch the lightning over the lake.Anyhow, I am not much in the mood for any sort of talking. Right now about 99.99 percent of the human race has found some way to irritate me, so for now I am just crawling into my ...

2007-08-23 08:48:50

Had to go see my doctor again yesterday to go over the ultra-sound. Nothing showed up so he's passing me on to another doctor. My first meeting with him or her is Sep 7th. Untill we can find the cause I just have to put up with the pain.I was talking to one doctor on Mon & he had me lift my ...

Good News!

2007-08-20 20:46:38

I gotta admit i was nervous as HELL today, before my Appt with my GP, as i wasn't entirely sure how things would go.So when called for,i went in to see him. All i did was explain the situation to him.....about Ch X and the like, & he asked a few questions as he read Dr Lenihans letter.He then ...

2007-08-20 11:56:48

August?I didn't just turn off the air I closed the windows. Yesterday was both cold feeling & very wet. Felt like fall.Julie knocked on my door yesterday. I was wearing a long skirt set & said the hell with it. When I opened the door she walked in closed the door & started undressing. ...

a VERY big step..

2007-08-19 20:13:56

Tomorrow i should get the news i have been waiting so long for.....the ist prescription for my mones. I have an appt to see my GP tomorrow at 5pm and discuss things with him. he already has the letter from Dr Lenihan at Ch X saying that as fas as she's concerned, she's more than happy for me to ...

Damn it anyway

2007-08-19 14:28:27

A few days ago I was back to fighting with my ex, and then, as I posted in the Forums, I was angry with that friend for telling people about me without my knowledge or permission. I am not ashamed of who I am but he doesn't seem to realize that this is not his responsibility. The fact that his ...

Back to Square 1

2007-08-16 11:49:30

The test showed no gallstones. My symptoms are text book.I don't know what to do or think now.

2007-08-15 12:27:31

At the doctors again!Went to get my test results yesterday about the stones but they didn't turn out so I have to go back today & redo them. I just want to get this over with but it seems to go on & on.I was told that there is still no sign of the Hep-C. But!!! They found a second spot on ...

2007-08-15 09:03:09

My life has definately taken a turn for the better as far as my wife goes. Up until now, she has always stated that she doesn't want to see me dressed up because it would destroy her image of me. Sound familiar?She has, however, always been very supportive and allows Nikki to do her own thing, ...

Thankyou......

2007-08-13 09:44:24

How many of us (the none full timers that is) hate the thought of undressing again and reverting to drab? I know I hate it but circumstances are such that it is necessary for me to do. It really got me down recently, and I felt like abandoning everything and moving away and starting again, and if ...

2007-08-12 10:32:58

Adding on to what I started yesterday.After doing some research I found that the operation for removing my gallblader is a simple one. Only a one day stay at the hospital. I went to henryford.com & found the whole thing in simple terms I can understand. That realy helped to put my mind at ease. ...

Not bad for a first week

2007-08-11 21:28:58

For my first week in my new job, things went very well i must admit.Come monday morning there were a few nerves,but only to be expected what with me bein out of work for over 3 years. The people i work with are really nice & haven't treated me any differently to anyone else there. The work ...

Back

2007-08-11 20:15:27

Back from my holiday in Germany, we had a great week despite the weather which was not too good but it did not spoil the holiday as i went for a rest and to meet my friend Nikki which i did. the food was huge the wine was flowing nicely so i now need to go on a diet for 3 months lol, i would ...

2007-08-11 11:34:25

Still on my first cup so this may take me awhile.Back not to long ago I was in the hospital. The doctors told me it was a complication from the surgury I had. I passed that on to Mere & she passed that on to all of you. Well the doctors were wrong. They were only looking at one area insted of ...

Dropping hints

2007-08-08 00:21:36

As I mentioned in a Forum thread, I make comments on-board the U-505 about wearing heels. When working the CSI exhibit, and running the fingerprinting table, one of the activities we do is to show how to bring out latent prints. In our case we have the visitors rub the back of their heads to ...

Airport run

2007-08-06 07:17:59

One of my UK sisters flew over yesterday for a short holiday and for us to meet each other properly. So of course I said I would collect her from the airport which was a long way from the hotel. Airports are not for the timid types!Having parked the car and gone up in the elevator to the terminal, ...

Nobody Cares

2007-08-05 05:33:32

Well, I discovered that my new earring is highly visible. It moves and catches the light sending flashing red beams out in all directions. Despite this, nobody has commented on it, although I have gotten some glances off to the left side of my head. Nobody cares, really, but it sure makes me ...

I Blushed

2007-08-04 17:12:58

I was reading when my doorbell rang so I answerd it. It was a nieghbor lady came to tell me where we were at on getting security lights installed.As she was talking she started smiling. Then I saw her looking down. So I looked down & I realized my toenails are a very bright shiny purple. I ...

2007-08-02 11:13:17

There's a gg that lives down at the end apartment. She has been having trouble with someone trying to get into her apartment. Cut screens, cracked windows. Than it got worse. Someone slit her tires & her little kitten was taken when they did get the window open a few inches. Well it turns out ...

hunter or gatherer?

2007-07-30 22:15:00

Today I bought a dress in the Jaeger sale. Black (of course), linen, sleeveless, almost full-length, size 14, with a tasteful braided pattern round the hem. Buying it took me less than 5 minutes - and most of that was at the till. This time I knew exactly what I was looking for. This actual dress ...

A turn for the better

2007-07-30 21:34:11

since late 2003 i've been out of work & i can tell you it has NOT been fun. I've lost count of the 100's of jobs i've been after only to get constantly knocked back for every one.Some of them did not even have the common decency to reply back....hell it dont take long to write a letter. BUT it ...

Got shocked at work

2007-07-30 13:02:41

Was having trouble at work with a relay in one of the controllers. I unplugged it so I could change it out. My boss saw the plug on the floor & thought that was why it wasn't working, so he plugged it in. I don't remember getting shocked but I do remember getting up. They made me go to the ...

GP update

2007-07-29 15:22:36

Well i haven't posted for a couple of weeks so i guess their is quite allot to update. My GP will not treat me anymore due to me living outside the catchment area of the surgery, her board has said their can be no exceptions so i will have to register with another GP, that may be a blessing though ...

2007-07-29 12:25:09

Strong stuff today!!We were so busy installing all the electrical wiring that we had to let R program the robots into & out of the presses. Robot 3 (may she rest in peace) was killed. R is now looking for a new job. We replaced 3 with an older one from storage, re-programed & moved on. Well ...

Busy! busy! busy!

2007-07-29 11:11:53

The summer holidays are always a little manic for me. First, work is always very busy for the first few weeks since we are organising and running various activities for the kids to do. Plus I have my children from the UK over and this year a few of my nieces have come along too, so my house kind of ...

2007-07-26 10:43:03

I think this is a 3 cup morning!I got my extra work done & should have the new cell running today. Kept finding things that had to be changed or moved. Evan had to move a press back 6in. Lost half a day with that. But I still got time at home to read the new Harry Potter book. Had it preorderd ...

Decision time

2007-07-24 15:45:06

I know that I have already made the decision to move forward with being Mere full-time. What I need to do now is decide how to let those in my professional life know. Yes, I did write a letter over a year ago, and posted it in the Forums, but what I need to decide is exactly when to tell ...

2007-07-23 12:00:50

Coffee's not helping today.Having missed so much work I'm way behind. I have untill friday to get an order ready to ship. I'm only half done with programing the cell. Hope to get it done on wensday, proof it out on thursday morning & run it that night. It all depends on how many things have to ...

The summer.........finally!

2007-07-22 19:41:20

Well, the weather outside is gorgeous and it looks as though summer has finally made it. We're still getting some rain but the temperature has risen and I picked up a great tan last week mountain biking. This summer is going to be unlike any others though, because I get to meet several of my ...

Classic Psycho Ninja

2007-07-21 12:49:42

Within a few short days I managed to inflict a variety of injuries upon myself. Here they are:I did miss four days of work, with a trip to the doctor's office, because of a bad case of strep. I was able to make up some time, thanks to my understanding bosses. But that meant I was racing to ...

Sometimes little things are big things.

2007-07-21 09:01:15

Fourteen months ago, I got my ears pierced. It was a major emotional step for me, both in what I gave and what I received from the act. I have never regretted it. It has only been a positive experience. To this day, not a soul has commented on my earrings....not one. I was a little ...

More in a day or two

2007-07-19 18:31:02

Hi y'all,After a strenuous move, and endless days of work, I have finally been able to have my cable and internet connected at my new flat. And do I ever love it! It is so nice to be home in a matter of minutes after leaving work.I managed to inflict some interesting injuries on both legs ...

2007-07-18 12:01:10

Just random thoughts todayI start back to work tomorrow. The room stopped spinning on me. That's good but I've been Karen 24/7 for a week & a half. I'm not looking forward to putting on my heavy work clothes. I can't wear ladies jeans they are so much thinner that if I brushed the edge of a ...

Another week away...

2007-07-15 20:42:18

Next week I am away taking a group of schoolchildren mountain biking, yay! Staying in a very nice 5* hotel, all expensies paid etc and I get paid for doing this! God I love my job!I will miss my friends here again though, since there will be noone I can open up to and chat (I'm not out at work). I ...

2007-07-15 11:36:30

On my second cup of coffee so I can do this now.When I was at the doctor having my ears checked out I noticed he kept looing at the shirt I had on. If I had boobs I'd have been insulted or maybe not. I was wearing a white polo top ...

Hormone City

2007-07-13 20:42:47

Anyone have directions lol. keep trying the sat nav but get lost everytime, just when i think i have found the place along comes another road to travel another street to tred. I went to my GP yesterday because she summoned me and I thought my psychiatrist had at last said i was ready, but no as ...

2007-07-13 12:11:33

Getting fruityIn England, last year was the hottest year on record. This April was the hottest April on record. June was the wettest June on record. July also looks set to be the wettest July on record. I’d be happy if August was the most average August on record…Climate change? It’s ...

2007-07-12 12:10:38

I haven't worked this week because of an inner ear problem. As I sit here it feels as though I'm moving backwards. The doctor says theres a chip of some kind floating around inside causing it. All I can realy do for now is ...

Is it just me........?

2007-07-10 12:15:31

....or have the TA's that we get here become nicer? I used to dread getting PM'd by them since you imagine what they wanted, and I upset a few by telling what I thought about their offer!! However, they are a part of this site and I have no issues with that, especially now that there seems to be a ...

2007-07-07 14:08:00

So I've allready had my coffee, so what! I have to leave for work shortly & I feel like spouting off a little.We're tearing down another cell today, but we haven't finished setting up the first one yet. This is so stupid. I ...

2007-07-04 14:38:34

I decided to let my sister look. I was wearing black slacks & a white sleeveless polo shirt. She smiled but didn't say anything. We went through all the medical bills I've been getting & found a couple of ...

it's been long

2007-07-03 22:31:10

Yes, it's been longAnd yes, I still feel strongInto the half-lightAnother velvet morning for me!(The Verve)I'm back on Trannyweb. The long dying of the last three years is over. I am now looking to the future with confidence. Nothing has changed in my domestic circumstances. It must be an attitude ...

2007-07-02 12:11:01

I have been very saddened recently to hear that some of my best friends here are going through some difficult times. It is never easy and of course you always want to support your friends through a crisis but it is so difficult when you are not even in the same country!! Grrrr!I really wish I ...

had to end sooner or later......

2007-06-29 21:36:19

Well, i guess it had to come to an end sooner or later. I've just spent the bestest week i have EVER had with charllet. Last Weekendi waited for her train to arrive at Manchester Piccadilly & i have to say the nerves were gettin to me big-time as i'd not seen her since my BD bash in Mid Feb but i ...

work

2007-06-28 12:03:53

I have finally found the courage to get in touch with my companies HR department and told them of my TG and that i intend to transition. The responce has been nothing short of shocking they have been very understanding and supportive the head of HR has personally got involved. He emailed me last ...

2007-06-28 10:36:22

They spent more than 2 weeks putting the presses in at work. Now they want the robots in & all the wiring done by the end of next week. They called 4 of us in the office & gave us an open door for ...

marriage

2007-06-28 04:39:39

i just wanted to thank TW for my joey I met him here almost 4 years ago and on june 17th joe and i were wed in vegas at times he drives me nuts but he is the greatest and we would not have met if not for TW. i like to think it was destiny since it was the first time on tw for both of us and we ...

2007-06-26 10:37:22

Good Morning it's 6am I've got a cup of hot coffee & a smoke. Not a lot to say but I feel like saying something anyway.The city I live in does inspections of rental units to make sure the owners keep them ...

2007-06-25 12:30:34

Just a quick word about Sparkle…I arrived a couple of hours before my appointment with Dr Spiegel so Gillian and I had a quick wander round and a look to see who was on at the main stage before heading to the MMU, where I managed to see Dr Spiegel half an hour before my allotted time. It was all ...

2 slow 2 fast ? god knows

2007-06-24 21:43:56

I have not had a great week this week i have been a little down and in a world of my own due to there being so much on my mind at the mo. going to see my counsellor next week so i hope i can get some of this stuff out of my head and deal with it, just wish i could see her lots more than i do so i ...

2007-06-24 11:52:41

A little more about my trip to the hospital.At one time they had detached my small intestine from my colon. When it was reattached it left a narrow opening that causes a blockage. When ...

2007-06-22 11:18:47

By The Time We Got To SparkleWell, my plans for Sparkle have been twisting and turning like a twisty-turny thing. I reserved the date in our band diary but they went ahead and booked a gig anyway. I agreed to do it but asked if my stand-in for while I’m Thailand might be able to do it. He said he ...

2007-06-21 12:03:50

At work yesterday I some how tore open the new skin in my wound. I didn't evan know I did it untill I went upstairs & felt how stiff my shirt was over that area. It was a mess I had to go home to clean it up. I lost 4 months of new skin ...

Katie Glover

2007-06-20 07:39:28

Like the rest of you I have just heard the news that Katie is in hospital at the moment and has been there for about a week already. It looks as though she might be there for a little while longer yet as well, and will then need to recover at home. I would encourage all of you who are as grateful ...

2007-06-19 11:20:53

Just a quick one this morning.The doctor cleaned out my wound & it's less than half the size it was. Allmost closed over, only about an inch & a half to go. I don't need to use tape on it the gause will now stay on with out ...

2007-06-18 10:28:12

I think coffee is the only thing keeping me alive. Had one of those nights with out sleep. Glad I have doctors appointments. Although my shrink wants me to come in dressed. Not sure if I can do that. I did get ...

Going 2 slow

2007-06-17 22:10:55

I went to see the shrink last week and was quite dissapointed that he seemed to be uninterested in me or anything i had to say but i think now i have had time to mull it over that he was just playing games with me to try and see if he could upset or anger me, which he did but i had enough inner ...

Quick update

2007-06-17 13:28:41

Here it is, Father's Day, and I will be seeing my daughter after work. We're going out for ice cream. I may look drab on the outside, but, underneath....... I just got back from doing a paper in St. Paul. It was well received. I stayed in a dorm suite, which means there were two other people ...

one of them things i guess

2007-06-16 21:44:09

I've Had to give up on my idea of becoming a counsellor specialising in TG issues but it's not for the lack of effort on my part, its just that there's no funding available to help get me started. I recieved a letter this morning from the head of the local PCT...only took him 4 weeks to reply. In ...

2007-06-15 10:46:48

I was putting my clothes away yesterday when I was noticing that my drab clothes are just that, "drab". No nice colors, no divercity, no fun or life in them. No self expression at all.Than I was looking at ...

2007-06-11 10:02:05

Good Morning!Felt like yesterday was kind of waisted. I had planned to do a few things I needed to do than take a long bubble bath & sink myself in being Karen.My sister & some of her friends came by about 11am. We spent the whole day running about. My sister was trying to hook me up with ...

Holidays

2007-06-10 20:18:49

Well, I've just returned from Berchestgarten in Bavarian Alps in Germany and I have to say it was absolutely marvellous. The scenery was fantastic, right out of a travel guide and the people were friendly. Of course there was also lots of apfelstrudel to eat as well......It was a little strange not ...

Good Morning

2007-06-08 12:02:04

Sitting here in a top & skirt looking at the clock. Have to change & go to work soon. Boooo!!We started working longer hrs yesterday & added Saterday. We need to build a bank of parts. Will be taking out 2 cells & redoing them with updated tooling. New presses & robots. Also ...

2007-06-06 11:38:29

The Electric Kool-Aid Vaniqa TestI’ve been using Vaniqa now for 7 weeks, still too soon (hopefully) to see the full effects. The manufacturers say, "In as little as 4-6 weeks, you may find you're spending less time tweezing, waxing, shaving, bleaching, or using depilatories to manage your ...

God bless the outcasts

2007-06-06 02:31:29

Tonight I went and saw my daughter's third grade show. It was about an hour long, and these kids did a phenomenal job. NOT TO STEREOTYPE HERE, but her teacher, an openly gay man, does have theatre experiences and taught them quite a few showtunes to learn, including I Am What I Am from La ...

Hospital Bills $$$$

2007-06-05 14:45:40

Last year I was billed a total of about $200. So far this year I've been billed around $600. Last year I had 4 operations, long hospital stays, home nursing, boxes & boxes of medical supplies & more doctor visits than I ever want to do for the rest of my life.This year maybe 10% of that. ...

2007-06-04 14:18:19

Julie was just at the door. She realy believes this is just some perverted sex game I won't stop playing. She can not or will not except that theres another reason. She said using transgenderism is only an excuse so that we don't have to see what we realy are. Sick ass people.Way to many people ...

2007-06-04 12:26:20

The apartment manager called me this morning to tell me Julie is moving out bacause of the gay guy downstairs.I told him I'm not gay that I'm TS & told him the difference. He seemed allright with it. I told him I've been crossdressing the whole time I've been living here & explaned whats ...

What a difference a day makes

2007-06-04 05:30:10

It happens every time.I'm still amazed when it happens. I dress and more of Wendy comes out. Not just the parts that I "put away" when I go back to living my drab life. New bits that I have never seen/felt before. Sometimes it's dramatic. Sometimes it's an expansion of something ...

At Last

2007-06-03 21:14:52

Finally got my appointment to see a shrink on Tuesday and cant wait hope i can keep my cool and dont bite his head of . I suppose i still have issues with most so called medical profesionals from my teens when my GP gave me a hard time and told me i would grow out of my TG and to stop being a ...

Thats Done

2007-06-03 18:40:57

I was just sitting on my couch watching TV when julie knocked on the door, very loudly. I hurried & changed into shorts thern answerd. She was mad. She said she looked in before she knocked & saw me in my skirt. Then she told me if she ever sees me dressed again we're done forever. I would ...

Don't know where my life is going

2007-06-02 04:30:02

Now that I do know I am a TS & want to move on I can't. It seems that my friends & family don't want to talk to me anymore.This sucks! Yes I'm still having a hard time with depression. I try to pretend it isn't a factor but being alone all the time is letting me think to much, I don't ...

Long Summer Ahead

2007-06-01 01:30:48

Well we have a new robotic cell going up at work. The presses are going in now. When there done then we start the wiring & placing the robots. Sometime this month they want me to start working 12hr days 6 days a week. That could last a while. At least untill late fall.

Another year on...

2007-05-29 12:43:04

Okay, so I only blog about once a year. Sorry. Pressure of work girls.We have recently been working on the look of the blogs and continue to do so. I hope you like the new look. There will be more changes (for the better) to the blog pages in the coming days and weeks.Your web mistress ...

MD says No HRT for at least a year.

2007-05-27 12:35:38

When my shrink Ann sent my medical records to the MD that I was to see he called & said to try again next year. He never set an appointment. She's looking at other ways I can make myself more feminine. I told her it won't be the same that just looking the part isn't what I want. I'm done crying ...

well and truely out

2007-05-26 18:52:27

Well what a week!! How can so much change so quickly i dont now but it has, my son has been really great this week and he has finally accepted me and has even told his GF who has also been great. i have told the rest of my family apart form my mum who is 78 and fairly frail so i will not be telling ...

Charing Cross....pt 2

2007-05-23 21:14:27

Well what can i say about tuesday other than it was a success from start to finish & i've never felt as good in a long time. I left home on the 06:40 train from lowestoft & arrived into London Liverpool streetaround 09:25. I grabbed the nearest taxi to get me across london to the clinic ...

2007-05-22 19:00:44

Just got home. Yes she is going to let me move on to the next step. She is setting up my appointments. You'll hear more when I do.

Famous in my own stockings!

2007-05-22 10:20:26

It seems I am to become the subject of some more research by a university. During a discussion on significant changes in mid life, I nonchalantly mentioned that I love the fact that I am TG, I fully embrace it and have never been happier! What a reaction! I have since been bombarded with emails ...

We shall see

2007-05-21 00:01:14

Okay, I could regale you with more museum stories. Like how, on the U-505, I scared an old lady so bad her false teeth almost came out. If everyone gets up to the aft torpedo room fast enough I demonstrate some of the sounds on board the boat, like the dive bell. Let's just say she wasn't quite ...

Remembering What it Was Like

2007-05-20 12:26:28

It's funny the things we can remember at night in bed waiting to fall asleep. Like what it felt like to dress while growing up.Like the first time I dressed all out. I had tried on different things but my first time putting on everything & finely getting the zipper up on a dress. I was home ...

Getting there

2007-05-19 14:16:38

An up and down week as they usually are girls for most of us but I think it is a good part of being TG as it does make you stronger in the long run. The problems we all face day to day and just learn to cope with would completely faze most people but we keep bouncing back with a smile coz we have ...

Answering the door

2007-05-18 09:02:46

A funny thing happened today. I had been waiting for a parcel to arrive for a couple of days and kept missing the delivery so had a note to say they would try again this afternoon. Anyway, no work today so was dressed and doing some studying when the doorbell rang, argh!! I had a quick peek to see ...

Let Them See

2007-05-16 12:29:30

As I have the day off I'm already dressed as Karen. In my last blog I said I hated keeping the curtains closed in nice weather so I could dress. Well I'm not doing it anymore. If my neighbors don't want to see me then they shouldn't look. Thier all old anyway, I can beat them up. lolI've been ...

Result

2007-05-14 23:00:07

My son came this weekend and was ok if a little quiet, but that is to be expected and at least he came which is the important thing. My results came through and the clinic says that I am ok for meds when I have had some more counselling, so I can look forward to that and hope that it is soon. last ...

2007-05-14 15:18:13

DreamsNow here you go againYou say you want your freedomWell who am I to keep you downIts only right that you shouldPlay the way you feel it…So singeth Stevie Nicks in the song, "Dreams", from one of my favourite all-time albums – "Rumours".Robyn started a thread in the ...

That Time of Year Again

2007-05-14 10:52:38

Yes it's that time that I want to open my windows & let the sun & air in. But I also want to wear some skirts & tops I have.Weekends are the best time to let Karen out as I don't have a set time limit before work. I can be me, as long as I sit behind closed curtains. That bothers me. ...

4 yrs on.....& still Goin strong

2007-05-13 21:22:04

Tomorrow, i'll have been here on TW exactly four years.....no big deal to some peeps but it IS to me cos since i've been here i have met & made so many good friends here. Ok since then lots have come & gone but more have come along in their place. When i first joined i gotta say i was a little ...

My friend's happiness eludes her; I feel her pain...and a new fear.

2007-05-11 14:51:31

This is a forum post that I wanted to save as a blog as well. I need to remember this day, this feeling.****************************************As usual, something else, in this case the "Letter to yourself at 17" thread, has broken loose part of myself that was "stuck".My ...

Oh my God!!!!

2007-05-11 00:18:00

If you had any idea what happened today at the museum! It is on the gross side, and funny as hell. Since I am a lady, I will not recount what happened unless personally asked. No, it is nothing I did, but something I found...........yuck! Reminds me of something that happened when I worked at ...

2007-05-10 17:06:28

Deposit paid, flights booked, I’m on my way…You have to send payment in advance via bank transfer for Dr Suporn, so I did all that today. After filling in a lengthy form and waiting for it to be scrutinised I asked how much their charges were. Twenty quid they said. Bloody hell, it’s about 7 ...

Nothing New I Guess

2007-05-09 23:56:59

As I said in an earlier blog I have made the decision to transition. Well Mere called & said I have to stop flip flopping on this. But my god what a change of life this is. I've allways known that I wanted to be a girl. But I didn't know anything about it, didn't know who I was for sure.I told ...

Just a quickie

2007-05-08 19:33:10

Over the last few days I lost my internet connection.....aarrggh!! It was awful. Although it was temporary I was really upset about it as it meant that I had no contact with people I have come to call friends. It made me feel very alone and was like the bad old days when I was firmly rooted in the ...

not a good wk

2007-05-07 19:03:48

Not a good week really. My son found out and is not pleased to say the least but that’s my fault for not telling him in the first place and for forgetting to change my username on my pc as I do every Friday before he comes or did I forget for a reason? Don’t know if I subconsciously did ...

That Ends That

2007-05-05 12:50:12

The girl upstairs says I would have to stop dressing & through all Karens clothes away if I were to live with her. That's to bad.Lately I've been buying tops & pants. I wear them out anywhere. You can't realy tell there womens but I know it & if you look so could anyone. Soon I won't be ...

Need Help

2007-05-01 13:02:44

I may post this in the forums as well to get a wider responce.It's no secret I'm having money trouble right now. I've been sick & missed a lot of work. I still haven't paid my bills for april yet.I've been seeing the girl that lives upstairs on occasion. But just for a night here & there. ...

wk-?

2007-04-28 16:58:06

Another week gone, getting closer I hope to Wk1 of my trans, feeling a little nervous about mon 30th but at least my sis is coming along to hold my hand so to speak. I have upgraded my membership now so I can use the site to the full and use my TW email account, might get a few comments from a few ...

2007-04-28 13:04:01

QuickieThe Suporn Clinic have emailed me back (on a Saturday!) and provisionally booked me in for the end of September. As long as I pay the deposit within 30 days, I have a date!Five months and counting…Woo-hoo!xx

One year at TW

2007-04-26 20:33:26

Well, it's been a year since I joined this site and I have to say it has been great. Unfortunately after only about a week, due to ISP problems I was unable to get into chat for all that time but since changing providers in March, I've more than made up for it!! lolWhat that did give me the chance ...

2007-04-25 11:50:23

Like waiting for a busYou wait ages for a blog then 3 come along at once…I emailed the Suporn clinic on Monday to enquire about available dates for my SRS and tracheal shave, still waiting for a reply but I understand it normally takes a few days. I kind of thought that if I started making ...

Progress......at last

2007-04-23 21:33:22

In Oct/Dec of last year i was toying with the idea of training as a counsellor, to try & help those in our local community who are TG & need help/advice about certain matters. I gave it a lot of thought & had until things on hold indefinetly.....until NOW. Why the change of mind?..well mt ideas ...

2007-04-23 11:22:27

Blood from a stoneWell I just rang the gender clinic again requesting copies of my last 2 blood test results. Usual response – "Oh we don’t normally send them to patients…"Each time I’ve had the tests though the consultants have promised that they would arrange for them to be ...

On my Mind

2007-04-22 12:16:01

Got some sleep lastnight & don't feel so lost this morning. A hospital is a hard place to sleep in. With all the noise, lights & other things going on. My first day I was in observation. Boring but I had a TV & they put me in a corner so it would be quiet. The second day they admitted ...

2007-04-21 13:52:33

Shaping upI bought some pistachio nuts the other day, on the back of the packet it said, "Allergy advice – may contain traces of nuts". Well, Duhh. They’re nuts for Christ’s sake. You couldn’t make it up…My mum and her old mate, Gilly came over for dinner last night. We all got ...

wkly update

2007-04-21 12:46:51

Another week over and another step closer, got my appointment with a gender doctor and counsellor this week for mon 31st and can't wait for it, just hoping that my age or my Crohn's does not affect any treatment i can have. Not been able to talk to my sis much as her hubby is home for 5 days so i ...

Personal goal reached

2007-04-19 23:41:55

Okay, museum stuff.....On Tuesday I was in a professional development class. Easy stuff.Starting yesterday I began training on the U-505. As I mentioned before, our department handles the three BIG permanent exhibits, and lots of little temporary ones along the way. The U boat is the hardest ...

A bit sad..........

2007-04-18 13:15:38

I love Germany and all it has to offer but I can't help feeling a little sad about missing out on all the fun that occurs at the TW nights in Mancs, and of course, Sparkle. Being here just means that it becomes too expensive to make those trips especially at a time when I am paying for IPL ...

All Done With the Meds

2007-04-17 10:36:38

Finely after 6 months of never knowing how I'm gong to feel on weekends because of meds I was taking I'm done with them. My legs are like pin coushins from self injections & coverd with small rashes. That can know clear up with a little time. I had bought some tops that I ment to wear this ...

2007-04-17 00:28:24

LONDON TRAINBy Meredith Newton It’s my first time to come visit youI’m anxious, excited, a little scared tooWe’ve waited so long to get to this placeAnd soon we’ll be there face to face I look out of the plane window to the ground down belowKnowing I’ll be there soon ringing your ...

my sis

2007-04-16 17:03:50

well i came out to my sister yesterday and had a good talk today after she had chance to let it sink in. sue has been great about it and i am very supprised on how much she allready knows but then she is a nurse.i have allways been close to her and she told me off for not telling her years ago, the ...

What makes me the way I am? Pt II

2007-04-12 06:16:55

3. The brain modifies our behavior with pain and pleasure.I spent almost 10 years with almost daily severe headaches. Why? Because they treated my headaches initially with Codeine. My brain got to liking codeine. It liked it so much that, after a while, it gave me headaches to get me to take ...

Back in the saddle again

2007-04-12 00:17:19

My new laptop arrived yesterday, just as I hoped it would. I had a sure fire way for the UPS guy to show up - I got all dolled up, and, sure enough, the buzzer rang. This thing is a beauty!I could sit here and regale you with all sorts of stories about what is happening at the museum. There ...

Caught!!

2007-04-10 20:17:06

What a couple of days! First, I went to a barbeque with the other members of my band and because I had been en femme all week, had to seriously keep checking myself before I left the house to make sure I hadn’t forgotten to remove everything. As it was I had left a bracelet on but that was ok, ...

Almost back

2007-04-09 21:42:14

Hi girls,I should be back online on a regular basis within the next day or two. I was able to obtain a brand new laptop and just waiting for it to be delivered. I am hoping it arrives tomorrow - Tuesday - when I am home from work. I have a full day off and plan on using it for all sorts of ...

I believe

2007-04-09 15:58:54

My first entry Had a bad day yesterday was a bit down and feeling sorry for myself as you do, so i just spent the day on TW forums reading up and trying to find some tips, did'nt go on to chat though coz i was not in the mood to talk and would of just got ...

Last Day of the Weekend

2007-04-09 12:53:53

My best friend this weekend has been a box of tissue. I've carried it with me everywhere I went. I don't feel bad just this stuffy nose. I've had to blow it so many times it hurts.That also means I didn't realy dress this weekend. Except to bed, I feel naked without a gown on. Which is only right ...

A 4 Day Weekend

2007-04-07 08:48:28

Cool except my nose is so stopped up I can't use it at all. So other than a couple of erronds I'll be staying home.Only 2 more weeks of meds to go & I'll be done with that. Bout time!! Week 3 will be 6 pack. My first beer since Mere was here for New Year 2006. I bought some summer tops T's ...

One week en femme!

2007-04-04 19:29:33

Well, I have the house to myself this week and next since the family are away on visits, so I have been able to spend more time than usual (ie every night) dressed. Feels so good too. Next week gets even better since I am off work as well then and so will be spending the whole week en femme, it's ...

I am fine!

2007-04-02 23:43:44

Girls,I have computer woes these days. I am FINE! Really! I have so much to tell! I have been coming out more and more, I look too cute, too!KAREN BRAD - GO AHEAD AND TELL EVERYONE WHAT HAPPENED. Bitch.Lexi - I love you more than ever,

An Odd Week

2007-04-01 11:53:49

Things have been very busy at work. Which means a lot of trouble as my job is to fix problems of all kinds. Than Thur. & Fri were dead everything worked like it's supposed to. :)I think my high point came when the HR manager asked if I had a large number of female genes. It was because of a ...

FFS

2007-03-28 10:39:19

I have been considering having something done to feminise my features for some time now and have contacted various parties to obtain procedure and cost info and have just started getting some responses back in. I was so disappointed to find out it was a lot more expensive than I had anticipated. ...

Spring Has Come

2007-03-28 10:35:11

It's so nice to get these windows open & let some air in here after being closed up all winter. I haven't spotted any flowers yet but I'm sure I will soon. I look for those kind of things as I love the changing seasons. Seeing a new flower open realy does warm the hart. In the spring a mans ...

its ABOUT time

2007-03-26 21:15:14

well like the headline says its about time i heard from them again. After what's seemed like ages, i now have the letter confirming my 2nd Charing Cross appt on the 22nd May At 10:30. This time i have to see a Dr Lenihan & by all accounts she's supposed to be pretty good so i know i'll be ok ...

Nothing Special

2007-03-23 07:31:21

It's very early as I write this. 3:22am. I normaly start work at 9 but they said to come in at 5. So I am very tired right now. Big yawn!!Having to put so much lotion on my legs for the hives has gotten them very feeling very soft to the touch. I like that.The weekends here that means 2 1/2 days in ...

2007-03-20 11:22:41

Well I was going to tease Mere a little but it doesn't look like she cares. No fun in that then. She took all the fun right out of it.Bad Mere

A rare day off

2007-03-19 13:40:38

I'm just here for a moment. I am on campus using the computers there since my laptop is acting up again. It seems like everytime I get ahead something puts me right back.Last week I was in a really bad mood, and I was loving every minute of it. Then what does the museum go and do? I get my ...

Life Goes On

2007-03-19 11:20:19

I'm going back to work today. They want me to take a medical for the next 6 weeks umtill my meds are done. But I can't afford to I only get about half pay on disabilty.I was off last week because of the hives & in that time I never once put on drab clothes. I don't want to now, but I have ...

2007-03-13 16:49:41

Well heres something I never thought I'd get to say. "I'm wearing a short skirt because I have to".The back of my calves are coverd in hives. If I touch them they start to itch realy bad. I can't wear pants because of it. So I'm wearing a short skirt. I am a modest girl after all.It's ...

What makes me the way I am?

2007-03-12 08:57:01

Sunday, 11 March 2007I'm the kind of person who thrives on cognitive input. I want to know "Why is the sky blue?" If I can't know, I look at possibilities. This weekend I had three days alone, broken up by a migraine headache. Some interesting thoughts passed through my head. I ...

Girl about town

2007-03-11 11:59:58

Well, as some of you know, I finally took the plunge and went out in daylight for the first time. Previously, I have only been out in the dark, walks, drives, no contact with the public (apart from a concert but that doesn’t count), so this was a huge step for me. I decided not to pussy foot ...

Transamerica

2007-03-07 17:39:36

I just took a huge step today. I made an appointment with a gender clinic in Chicago. My endo wanted me to do this, and since I see him in a few weeks, I think I better get this started.This means I have to do a few things concerning my immediate life. Someone might wind up very hurt.But I am ...

Some Little Things

2007-03-07 11:06:52

Mere has been poking fun at me for over a year now because when she was here for a visit I couldn't find the train station downtown. Well we were talking as she was driving & she took a wrong turn & ended up having to pay a toll. The difference is she says she knew where she was giong or ...

Just a few more days

2007-03-05 23:21:38

I should have my DSL at home back up and running within the next day or two, so I will be returning here on a regular basis, like I always was.Lots of stuff to tell. More funny museum stories.Mum is okay after her minor stroke. Thanks for all your well wishes.Mere

Things That Could Make me Happy

2007-03-04 11:48:44

Finding love would have to be at the top of that list. As I guess it is for most people. But there are a few small things that could bring me momentary happiness.Finding I have a new pair of pantyhose everytime I open the top drawer. A bra that feels so good you want to wear it allday. $$$ Have a ...

All good things come to an end sometimes

2007-03-02 00:18:09

Well i'm sat here writing & tryin not to cry but not doin too well. Why?..cos my charllet is off home later today after spending a truly wonderful week here with me for my BD & gettin to meet lots more girls. I guess all good things soon have to end so i'nm tryin to put on a brave face ...

Birdhouse in your soul

2007-02-26 23:17:06

I love TMBGEverything is plodding along okay. I have managed my finances to the point where I am not panicking, although the other day I had about $1.02 to my name (after rent was paid). Despite all this, I am upbeat.I shaved my legs for the first time in a while. What made it tough was that ...

Something Still Missing

2007-02-26 12:54:30

I have allways thought that once I could dress as much as I wanted at home I would feel happy. And now I can & do. But now it seems there is more that I need.I have waited since I was 8 to do this. It's something I've dreamed of for as long as I can remember. Yet now it doesn't seem to be all ...

Hair removal 2

2007-02-26 12:06:28

Recently had my second appointment for IPL treatment and I have to say it is going very well. There is definately a big difference already and more importantly, it is giving me more and more confidence to out in the daytime. So I'm off on a shopping trip in a couple of weeks, it's going to be scary ...

what a PARTY!!!

2007-02-25 17:13:47

Well there's not much i can say about last night other than it was a truly memorable BD bash with lots of friends & ti couldn't have gone any betterThe w/e started in a truly amazing way cos my charllet shouldn't have been here until friday (23rd), but my doorbell rang at 10.20 pm & there ...

2007-02-25 01:53:47

There, but for the grace of the goddess, go IThe day after getting back from London I turn on the news to hear of a serious rail crash, amazingly it’s about a mile from where I live, as the crow flies. Had I stayed in London another day I would probably have been on the train behind the one that ...

To Let You Understand

2007-02-20 09:50:01

Yesterday I was talking aboput how my doctor was trying to back me into a corner. In my blog before that one I was saying I liked my doctor. Different doctors.

Here we go again

2007-02-19 23:02:19

I am not around much these days because my DSL at home was cut off due to non-payment. If all goes the way it has been lately, I should have zero dollars at the end of the week, with payday still a week off. I have to think of something, and quick.Still at the museum. I had to miss two days ...

tis been a mad few days

2007-02-19 21:47:04

Gotta say it's been bl**dy chaotic at my place right now, organisin everything for this comin weekend when i have my BD Bash on saturday. The ACTUAL day is this thurs (22nd) but planned things for the saturday cos more peeps will b able to come. What's making things all the more special for me is ...

Doctor Getting Bossy

2007-02-19 12:47:08

I just got a phone call from my doctor telling me I have to start seeing the shrink again or he would stop treatment of my hep-c. Anybody, ever, tries to put me into a corner they take thier lives into thier own hands. I will come out kicking & screeming. I told him ok we're done than & ...

My Closet is unlocked at least

2007-02-18 02:32:27

I just looked at Wendy's footlocker. A day or two ago I realized that I had not locked the padlock as I ALWAYS have in the past. It's still unlocked. Yet another indication that I've accepted myself and stopped living in fear. My clothes drying from two weekends ago are still hanging in the ...

2007-02-17 17:51:14

Moving (far too) Swiftly On So I am moving again! And once again, things are not exactly under my control. A little preparation time would have been nice, but as I usually squander such moments thinking about doing instead of actually doing, it would have been wasted on ...

Wendy's first Valentine's Day.

2007-02-16 05:55:48

First, I have to say how surprised I am now at my casual reaction to my housemates coming home and almost seeing Wendy's things. Part of me doesn't understand why I was not terrified when it actually happened. I was very Zen about it....and because of that I got the job done. Had I panicked I ...

Mending fences and moving on

2007-02-12 22:50:14

Hi girls, My DSL was cut because I have not been able to pay my phone bill. They get funny like that. Thankfully I have my cell. I get online whenever I can. I am on campus now and am openly accessing TW here in the faculty room. Let 'em think what they want. Financial woes are starting ...

Just Got Back From Doctors

2007-02-12 16:45:28

No he doesn't think operating is the answer. He did some trimming away of the old stuff & gave me some new type of gause to pack in it every morning. He says it should stimmulate new growth.I like this guy he's the first one that said operating is not the best answer.

Feels Good to Talk

2007-02-12 11:16:29

I have been seeing a shrink to help deal with the meds I take. Somehow I got started talking about being TG. Other than you girls here I don't realy have anyone I can talk to. I can't realy begin to say how realy good it feels to open up in person with someone. As beautiful as it was to find all of ...

2007-02-07 18:26:39

It never Rains but it Pours… Some one up there has definitely got it in for me! Every time I think I have got things sorted, something else goes down the proverbial pan.Though I have suspected for a couple of weeks, it was still a shock to arrive home a week ago last Friday to find my erstwhile ...

not very happy at ALL!!!!

2007-02-05 01:28:59

This aint a happy post cos i'm not in a happy mood & it safe to say i;m bloody livid &here's why. I' moderate here on TW & another site, & SOMEONE has emailed katie telling her about it & i'm NOT happy about it at all. My Guess is that its someone from here who also uses this ...

Shopping! What else!?

2007-02-03 17:00:41

Quick update to my last entry, s/o know's about and fully supports the upcoming weekend I hope to be having soon, so with that in mind we discussed the notion of daytime clothes, as many of mine are more suited to evenings. I have a couple of skirts that can be worn dressed up or fairly casual so ...

Taking My Life Back

2007-02-02 21:04:54

It seems to me that doctors have been in controle of my life for some time know. Right know they keep changing my meds around & I allways feel sick.At first it was constant sleep & upset stomach. Now I have jitters so bad I can't evan spell my name so that anyone could read it.Before I ...

And so it goes..........

2007-02-01 15:05:19

Until recently, I have not had the courage to go out in public dressed, not so much lacking in confidence, just wouldn't get away with it, too much maleness showing through. However, a little treatment here and there and an invitation has got my head spinning with the result that I came to the ...

Wendy's First Xmas and a new life.

2007-02-01 03:45:18

[sorry, I guess wing dings font was enabled...i could read it fine but it must have been all symbols to the rest of you...it should be fixed now]Well, Sundance outdid herself. She made it down twice in December. She brought Wendy girlstuff both times. Clothing and Jewelry. A BIG bag of ...

Concerns

2007-01-30 11:24:30

Well, while I was away skiing, my wife decided to do some research on TG/CD/TV/TS, and spent some time surfing the net to see where I fitted in. When we spoke on the phone, she was a little concerned about where this was all leading to. Understandably. We had a good chat about it on my return and I ...

Missed Chances

2007-01-29 14:40:10

When I was in my mid 20's my niece moved into the house next door. She is only 9 months younger than I am. She's also a lesbian. She worked at a bar in Detroit that was a well known gay bar. So I met a lot of her friends. Some CD's that were spending more time as women than as a men. I wanted to be ...

2007-01-28 20:05:52

Hair removal IIWell, had the first appointment for IPL treatment, and didn't quite know what to make of it. Initially, I couldn't detect any difference at all, and I pretty much expected this given that my shadow is very heavy and dark. However, after a few days, maybe a week, I did notice a ...

Only One Dream

2007-01-28 15:40:31

When I was 7 we were playing in my sisters room the first time I put a skirt on. I had put it on over my clothes we laughed & I took it off. But that put something in my head. I started thinking about how much nice girls clothes were than boys. I thought about it more & more untill I wanted to see ...

Ah, bien

2007-01-28 02:40:27

Just a quick check in……. First of all, it is good that Karen Brad is getting back on her feet, literally and figuratively. My finances keep going down further and further. Oh well. Been there before. I might have a plan to get out of it. Concern levels are rising, though. Work is ...

Back Sooner Than Expected

2007-01-26 16:04:49

When I left here it was because my doctor was pulling me out of work untill May. Having missed so much of last year I didn't have money to get by with this. I'm so deep in dept I'm living check to check. The only bill I could stop was my cable (internet & TV).Over the past 2 months I just kept ...

I'm being followed

2007-01-20 22:11:51

I took my daughter to see “Night at the Museum” this afternoon. A co-worker almost came with us. I must admit, the movie was cute. It had some forgettable moments, along with some predictable elements, but overall it was a nice time. There were some good laughs in it. Okay, now, who ...

Hair removal

2007-01-19 21:41:03

I've been waiting years for this.........My worst feature, even in drab, is my five o'clock shadow. Every morning I shave with the grain and then again against the grain, nice and smooth but I still look like Indiana Jones after three days in the desert!!!Anyway, a new company is offering hair ...

2007-01-17 15:39:18

New year, new me (or: It’s the end of the world as we know it)The Christmas and New Year celebrations continued to overrun as Pip paid me a visit, and we spent the weekend eating, drinking and being merry, like you do. Lovely to see him again, and Pippa actually, for the first time in quite a ...

Ik ben een lerares

2007-01-15 02:29:13

Is my life getting really interesting these days? That is an understatement……. First of all, girls, if there is anything you can do to help Karen Brad, please do so. Yesterday my sister and her hubby came by. They’re going back to Utah in a few days. They both know about me. My ...

i's still here.......

2007-01-14 22:17:15

Just thought i'd let ya know i aint disappeared off the face of the earth, tis just that nothin much has happened since i last blogged. Christmas was fun considerin there was just me to cook for & things went very well for me. NYE was an absolute scream cos i'd gone to my local to see in 2007, ...

Dear Diary

2007-01-14 15:55:10

I don’t believe it! Actually, there are a lot more than one ‘its’ I don’t believe. But the one that started this was the realisation that I’ve not written anything for so long. It’s not as though there has been that much going on to keep me distracted, if you can ...

Have to Leave for a Short While

2007-01-14 13:01:12

Having bin sick for as long as I have I've missed a lot of work. I can't pay my cable bill & I don't have a land line. So I'm turning off my internet & cable TV. Hopefully this will just be for a few months. I love you all & will miss you.

Christmas

2007-01-13 13:29:28

Had a great Christmas with the family, just myself, my wife and my children, (all four of them). My wife warned me to be careful how I opened presents in front of the children since some of them were femme! New underwear, a great top, even a femme coat for going out, I did very well and she is such ...

Got clinic?

2007-01-09 14:18:31

Now that I am back online I can keep in better touch. I have found a local gender clinic and am in the process of setting up an appointment with them. My endo is especially keen on working with one in order to make sure we are properly following the SOC (Standards of Care) in regards to my ...

Meredith the Miner

2007-01-08 01:20:29

Okay, back in the saddle again.......While it wasn’t all that expensive, getting the laptop fixed hurt financially. But it is nice to have it back. I can get back to work.The museum is coming along fine, but some of our hours are being cut these days. They should pick up again. The best ...

Test Results

2007-01-05 20:51:27

The doctor call to inform me that I do not have cancer. There is a cist but it is just that a cist. It has no qualities of a cancer. They want me to test every month to keep an eye on it.I am so relieved I can't begin to tell you.This also let me know I can not keep hidden who I am for much longer. ...

2007-01-05 01:44:41

Party, Party, Party!2007 is upon us. Just in case you hadn’t noticed…It’s been a fairly busy Christmas period for me, lots of parties and meals out and turkey and pudding and wine and general revelry, with a few gigs thrown in for good measure. I have another party to go to tomorrow night (oh ...

Be back very soon

2007-01-03 17:49:38

Hey all,This is just a quick message. I woke up Christmas morning to find my laptop crashed. I wasn't able to get it into any shop for a few days, and they should have it back by tomorrow (Thursday). So I have not died, fallen off the face of the earth, gone into exile, etc. I am posting ...

The New Year

2007-01-02 12:34:41

One of the worst years of my life is over. Sick from beginning to end. Starting off this year with talk of cancer (maybe).Well I laid in bed last night & I've come to a point that I know I don't want to spend the rest of my life as a man. If things don't look good I'm going to put away all of ...

Didn't get the test done.

2006-12-29 20:43:23

The doctor didn't send the paper work to the lab so they weren't able to do the test. I spent 18hrs prepping because I'm allergic to the dye they use in the catscan. The real bitch is that I had to take off my new panties & put on mens briefs so as not to be seen.Well I'm in a holding pattern ...

Stuck in the middle with you.

2006-12-27 15:49:09

I've not posted for a while. There is a reason. Fighting to get a job again, with my future in limbo, I put myself, as I often do, on hold. It's a self-deception, of course. Inside, the transgender volcano is just building up for another eruption of "self". This week it happened ...

what a year its been.....

2006-12-24 17:14:56

Well, here it is almost christmas & i'm kinda lookin forward to it even though it looks like there'll be just me for christmas dinner this year. I know its not an ideal situation but tis just one of those things. But WHAT a year 2006 has been for me in so many ways & a LOT of that is down ...

My holiday wish to you

2006-12-22 17:52:23

This is my holiday wish to you all:Be healthy and happy, and know how much I love you.I do love you all. I will always love you.I could sit here and recount all that has happened this past year. Lilienne, you were right. This was my year. 2006 was my year. I can’t believe what did happen. The ...

Allways Fighting

2006-12-21 12:28:33

My meds are giving me depression. So I got meds for that. They want me to see a shrink but the cost was to high. So my insurence waved the deductable & will pay 100%.Which turns out to be a good thing because the doctor called to tell me they found a growth in my liver. Is it cancer, they don't ...

Out and in front of around 15000 others

2006-12-19 11:27:08

I went to see Iron Maiden the other week at the Westphalenhalle in Dortmund. Brilliant show as always. The best part though was that I went out as me and not in Drab. I figured that everyone would be too excited and caught up in the gig to pay any attention to one person out of 15000. Guess I was ...

Good & Bad News

2006-12-18 19:05:58

I was just talking to the doctor & he says the treatment is working very well. But it is also having some side effects.The feeling of not being able to breath is caused by anemia. My mood swings & constant crying are also a part of the side effects. The feeling that life isn't worth living ...

2006-12-18 07:39:52

I just woke up feeling like I can't breath. I am, but it feels like I'm not getting any air. Now I'm afraid to lay back down cause as soon as I do the feeling comes back. This is very scary. I wish to god I wasn't so alone.

a truly SMASHING time.....

2006-12-16 21:39:21

Well....title says it all reallyI've just about got myself together after this morning after Charllet left me to make the LONG trip back up to cumnock After Spendin the most romantic week ever with me. She Arrived here in lowestoft at 8.40pm & we Got back to mine & had summat to eat before ...

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY

2006-12-15 01:19:12

Happy anniversary to me!Okay, while I am technically posting this on the 14th, in U.S. time, it is the 15th in Europe.It was three years ago today that I made the life saving choice and joined Trannyweb. What a difference three years has made. If anyone told me three years ago that I would be ...

Fun fun fun

2006-12-11 14:55:57

This is just a quick check-in. I actually have a few moments to sit and do nothing.I put in some insanely long hours at the museum. We are asked to work at least two night events each month, and I did two this week alone. On Thursday, which was bitterly cold, me and my friend Carla had little to do ...

A Difficult Weekend

2006-12-10 12:51:10

My meds have realy kicked my butt this weekend. I feel horrid. I'm cold, I'm hot, I'm shaking like a leaf. Every muscle & joint hurts. 4 & 1/2 more months of this yet to go.I made a comment in Gloria Glover's blog that I felt the same when she said she had lost intrest in this site. Well I ...

2006-12-07 11:42:10

Thay switched my meds from capsuls to tablets. Supposed to be the same but now I can't sleep. I was so tired at work yesterday they sent me home. The doctor is calling it lite depression. I call it shit. Haven't slept since Mon. I was sleeping 8 to 10 hrs a night. Not anymore. I see the doc ...

Won't be around much for a few days!

2006-12-06 14:44:57

My museum job is really hopping these days. This week I am working two night events, so I won’t be around much. I might work a third night event for my friend Kristen, but I am not sure if I need to be running myself so ragged. I could use the OT pay, though. You know you have a great job that is ...

2006-12-06 00:26:07

One ring to rule them all…Or one keyboard perhaps? My new keyboard arrived a day late, as I was slightly expecting. What I didn’t expect was for it to arrive slightly faulty. After paying so much this was a bit disappointing. Things went from bad to worse after sending it back, the replacement ...

a long & very Emotional Day

2006-12-04 21:07:11

Well i gotta say tis been one hell of day for so many different reasons.....but today began with me getting the 06:43 Train from lowestoft into London Liverpool Street, arriving at 9:35am & giving me time to get a cab for my journey to charing Cross( Claybrook Centre) so i could be in time ...

The Weekends Over

2006-12-04 11:21:15

Now I have to put on pants again. My meds have kept me in the apartment sleeping pretty much since Friday night. I have been wearing silks since I got home from work on Friday.I Don't Want To Wear Pants!!!But I don't think I can wear a skirt to work this morning.

nervous......you BET

2006-12-03 16:39:40

Nervous as hell.......you BET i am, cos i'm off down to london, to Charing Cross for my first appointment at the Gender Clinic & i would be telling porkies if i said i wasnt nervous cos i am. I am sure that once i get down there everything will be fine cos i have heard lots of good things ...

2006-12-02 11:41:15

It has been quite a week. At work they said I was going to lose my job if I was just late one time. 2 days later I was caught by a train on my way in & I just made it. I was called into the office & they had a plan so that if something did happen I won't lose my job. My start time was 9:30 ...

HOT off the press!

2006-11-30 12:30:55

Today in the post, i recieved the letter i'd been waitin so LONG for, From Charing Cross regarding my 1st Appt with Dr Lorimer. Originally i should've gone on the 11th but cos it was gonna be a prob getting down there for 9.30 i asked them if there was another one going & there is. Its this ...

my news....

2006-11-29 22:19:01

I thought it was about time i blogged again so here goes.....A few things have happened in the last few weeks to make me happy. I've had the new PC for a while & tis much better than the old one cos there's that much more i can do with it....& i can noe get into TW chat, which i've missed ...

Looking down the path

2006-11-28 20:34:41

Today I bought something that I have not had since the night of August 28, 2005. A bed of my own. I bought a futon (one that also doubles as a couch), and while I will not have the mattress portion until tomorrow (what’s one more night on the floor?), I am finally really putting my apartment ...

An Old Softy

2006-11-26 13:58:51

I aws having trouble sleeping lastnight so I got up & turned on the TV. The only thing I could find was the newer version of "The Parent Trap". Kids get to me hard. I bet I lost a gallon of water crying at thier hurt feelings. I hate movies with kids.The plan for yesterday was to have ...

I dreamed a dream

2006-11-26 13:24:37

Just a little update before the BIG update. On Tuesday I see the endo and find out what will happen with hormones.Like everyone else, I’m still in shock over Becca. She was teaching me Dutch, too.I had my follow-up meeting with the Associate Dean last week. He was impressed with my work. I was ...

Things I Think Of

2006-11-25 17:58:31

The video card in my pc went out. Though I'm still coverd by Dell they make you go through 500 things before they'll ok a new card. Allthough I tried to save everything that mattered I forgot to save my address book. Some of those I lost are girls that are no longer here. These will be hard to get ...

2006-11-20 11:43:10

SunbeamWhatever I have to blog about today is put on hold, as it all seems irrelevant after the sad loss of Rebecca. I’d read her blogs, replied to her posts in the forums, and spoke very briefly in the chat room. Like many others here, she made a big impact on me even after such brief contact.19 ...

I'm not sorry, I was having fun

2006-11-19 01:29:00

I have the smartest child in the world. I took my now-9 year old daughter on Friday to the King Tut exhibit at the Field Museum. She has already decided to be an Egyptologist when she grows up, so this was well worth the money. She astounded everyone in the exhibit with her extensive knowledge of ...

Odd Mood

2006-11-16 23:49:07

These new meds are taking a toll thats not so easy to see. For one I have no extra energy. I get up, go to work, come home, & want to just go to bed. At least 3 times I've taken the time to cook a dinner & than don't want to eat more than a few bites. My mind keep saying the hell with it ...

A new career move?

2006-11-15 03:00:42

I guess I am technically an actress now.My museum job started on Monday with over 8 hours of mind-numbingly boring orientation. The lunch was decent.I found out that I am one of the few non-actors in my department. That means when I interviewed/auditioned, I was really showing off my acting skills, ...

i will love you.....ALWAYS

2006-11-11 22:48:52

Yesterday, was a VERY special day for me in so many ways cos it was one year to the day that i met my Charllet(Lovebug) for the very first time.I must say i honestly NEVER thought i would find true love right here on TW but i have & to be honest i've never felt as happy as i do now, knowin a ...

2006-11-10 15:13:32

Waiting for GodotI’ve just bought a new keyboard and am sitting here waiting, hoping that it will be delivered today. They said it would, but what they say and what happens aren’t always the same. I’m on tenterhooks, as it’s a major purchase, one of the most expensive pieces of equipment ...

2006-11-10 01:01:56

Nothing at work has changed. Last Friday they told me to come in at 9:30, than called later to tell me to come in at 6. So Monday & Tuesday I started at 6. Than on Tuesday morning I was called into the office & told I was to come in at 5:30. But just before quiting time I was told to come ...

Another step begins

2006-11-09 17:13:47

Happy birthday to my little angel today! She is a full 9 years old! And straight into a convent by the time she is ten. Either that or I am investing in a shotgun. If she thinks she is ever going to date (which will be never), when those little boys come to the house to meet me I will be sitting at ...

Votes, makeup, addresses, and work

2006-11-07 16:43:09

Yes, I did vote today.I know, what is an Anarchist doing voting at all? It’s my little "f’ you" message to the Republican party. Make that as you will.I wanted to make sure I left an impression at the polling place. I was starting to get all dolled up, including my wig. As I mentioned ...

at LAST!

2006-11-06 23:04:03

Its took a while but at long last i'm back online. Today i got my new PC & tis bl**dy brill i can tell you. I've now got it up & running & i can't tell you just how happy i am. Dad brought it round for me & helped to set it up, & this was the VERY first time since going F/T, that he's seen me ...

Update

2006-11-04 10:08:03

Quick update on my PC Probs.... i have now acquired a new monitor( flat screen one too), but now windows is playin up but i have the means to cure the problem so all bein well i should be back online either later today or first thing tomorrow....& YES i have missed you all!

Finely Got My Meds

2006-11-04 10:05:52

Took my first shot yesterday for my Hep-c. I was told the side effects would start with in an hour. But after 3hrs I felt nothing. Then it hit, slowly at first, & came on strong. The chills first, teeth chattering chills. That lasted for about 4hrs. I had the heat up to 80 & sat under a ...

In loving memory

2006-11-03 19:02:16

For the past four years I go through this at this time........My eldest sister Lisa passed away just a few years ago. I just stood there and watched it happen. I couldn’t do anything to help. We had to pull the plug. No choice. And I just stood there.Lisa, I love you.

The voice of experience

2006-11-01 17:11:00

Girls, here’s a little tip:When you go to leave an erotic voice mail message for your SO, it might be a good idea to remember that she might not be the only person to hear it.Whoops.

A Fight is Coming

2006-10-27 13:07:53

This may not bother some but it does me. I was watching TV this 20 something girl was wearing a awsome short red pleated skirt. One I would kill to be able to wear. OK ready for this? She was wearing it over blue jeans.This is a crime against all I believe in. A crime against nature. Against ...

France, lipstick, jobs and a microphone

2006-10-27 12:07:17

First, let me say how nice it was to see Mags back in the chatroom last night.Why won’t I ever learn? I’m still going around passing myself off as French. I’ve had a lot of French tourists on the boats lately and had some great opportunity to practice the language. They’ve been great with ...

Ease My Mind

2006-10-26 15:17:28

Since work held up my return I have no money to pay my rent with. I've been very worried about this & I finely got up the courage to call my landlord. He said since I've been here 5yrs & am a good tenit, not to worry about it I can catch up when I do get back to work. That takes a lot off ...

Getting ready to make some moves

2006-10-23 16:12:26

Peace to all.Several things going on. I had a great interview last week with an insurance company. I used to be a Compliance Analyst years ago and, until the full-time academic job happens, I might go back into it. If this company offers me the job I will take it. I’d be stupid not to take ...

2006-10-20 02:39:59

Work called they won't let me come back yet. They keep raising the bar as to what is good enough. Right now I just feel like giving up.

2006-10-19 15:54:30

Comfortably numb, or not…Gillian’s operation has gone without problems, so far at least. I had an email from her last night. She’s back on her feet and planning on having a brief look around the shops in a day or two. Subject to an internal examination by Dr Suporn today she will be, um, ...

2006-10-19 12:23:39

I bought 2 new loungers from Lane Bryant & a pair of fuzzy slippers. The best part of winter is being able to wear these kind of things at night while I watch TV. (sssoooo comfy).My mouse keeps going out on me, guess I'll buy a new one.As soon as my new meds arrive I'll begin dosing myself for ...

Starting to Feel Good Again

2006-10-15 11:49:02

I wasn't sure what if anything this rehab was doing for me. But yesterday I was able to walk longer than I have in a long time. That realy made me feel good. I started checking after that & I'm able to move my back & bend a lot better as well. Not nearly so stiff. This coming Friday I start ...

Who needs SRS? I have the boats!

2006-10-14 13:12:24

I turn your attention away from the drama to my repeated efforts to harm myself……..First of all, at work on the docks I was not paying attention to how I was closing this short, heavy iron gate at the dock steps and whacked myself in the ass. I now have this nice little bruise on my ...

ANOTHER big step

2006-10-10 21:22:01

Today i took one of the biggest steps i have ever taken since deciding to go FT...i have now LEGALLY changed my name to Anna-Marie & it feels so right....don't know why i didn't do it ages ago. Its all thanks to lucy, who emailed the things to me. I got them filled in,signed & witnessed cos ...

Working My Way Back

2006-10-10 04:55:21

Did my first rehab today. Did some testing first to see where I stood & I could barely do that. Have to restreach my joints before I do any weight training. Funny thing is some work much better than others. This is wierd I have more reach in my left shoulder than I do the right. So you would ...

Don't worry

2006-10-09 03:50:15

I said I was confused. Yes, in some ways.But in other I never felt so alive.I haven’t been chained to my word processor like I have been recently. Besides my two history books which will be released about one every two years, I am doing more.I am also a fiction writer. I have two books there. The ...

one happy girl

2006-10-07 21:21:30

Today i'm one VERY happy girl & here's why. Today, in the post i recieved a letter from charing cross stating what i already knew.....that my PCT had approved my funding for HRT. Now it truly DOES feel like things are progressing, albeit slowly but at least they are. I Do have one thing to ...

Lost weekend?

2006-10-07 13:12:07

I leave in a few minutes. Got visitation this morning, then I hit the docks later in the day.I have been doing a lot of writing lately. I have a complete book of fiction short stories and they needed to be re-entered. That’s been helping me keep my inspiration going.I still need to do the blood ...

Getting There

2006-10-06 23:42:23

I was at the docs today. He said I was ready for rehab. Since I've been sitting so much I can't move like I did. I'm so stiff. So this should help me to be able to do my job when I go back in 2 weeks. Yes 2 more weeks. I realy wanted to go back on Monday but he showed me just how not ready I am. So ...

2006-10-04 13:13:07

Sugar and SpiceAt 7:30 this morning, Thai time, my friend Gillian will have begun her SRS with the good Dr Suporn. I’m so excited for her, and ever so slightly wishing it was me there. Ironically me, Stephie and Laura (some of the local TS gang) and Natalie from Arran went out for a Thai meal ...

at LAST........

2006-10-02 20:18:28

This Mornin i got the news i'd been waitin months for & i am just so damned happy tis not true. I called my PCT to see whether or not they were goin to fund my course of Hormone treatment, as i'd called 2 months ago & nothin had been decided. I was told that, on thursday the PCT had faxed ...

Bad Day For Me

2006-10-01 11:13:52

First off I want to say I'm sorry to Anna. I did try to call but sprint still says code invalid. This after having international calling added to my service. When I called sprint I was told to use the operator at a cost of 7.95 per call just to dial out. The lady kept telling me it works better ...

ANOTHER car goes BABOOM....Wendy, again, does not.

2006-09-27 02:23:10

It looked like I would finally start work again. The company had called me back twice to encourage me to finish up the application process and to ask me if I had received another package they had sent. I left one clinic appointment and headed for the last task I needed to finish to be ready to ...

Another Day

2006-09-25 08:48:49

Anna & Tiina thank you for the birthday greetings. Tiina for those that don't know the name use to be a member here. We have stayed in touch after she left, she's a good friend.My sister called yesterday & asked if I've ever had a worse birthday because of the crap I'm going through. At ...

Friends Here at TW

2006-09-22 12:57:31

I guess Mere let it be known in the chat how down I've been lately. I'm finding it harder & harder to keep myself up. Well my phone started ringing. I got calles from Michelle Lynn, Gloria, Mere, I got to talk with MA(long pause to wipe tears..lol). It ment a lot after reaching out to my sister ...

missin my LOVEBUG

2006-09-21 08:37:54

well, if i can stop cryin for long enough then i'm gonna TRY & blog if nothin else. Charllet has just recently left on the long journey back to cumnock after spending 10 romantic days in lowestoft with me.....10 of the BESTEST days ever for the 2 of us. Her trip down was littered with delays at ...

One year later.......continued

2006-09-19 14:00:40

All I think about a lot these days is what it was like one year ago as compared to now. I was especially reminded of it as I had a therapist appointment, and her office is right by where I used to live with my friend. While I do talk to this friend on occasion, it is not very often these days. A ...

2006-09-19 06:57:56

Thought I was going back to work on Monday. But my doctor put a 5lb weight limit on what I can do so they wont let me work. In person he told me different but now says he wont change it.From day one he never did what he said he would do. He at first said he would reverse my ostomy in March. Than ...

another day

2006-09-18 15:21:26

Another day, another dressing opportunity... Last weekend the Cat went to Leicester on her own and had Saturday evening free as well. I came ready prepared with my clothes and make-up. And a new dress, the LBD from Marks & Spencer that Wanda recommended. It was really lovely to be ...

2006-09-16 14:25:31

I'm back home. I had gone to stay with my niece. My sister & her said they wanted to help me with the trouble I was having. I've been depressed wishing each day wonldn't evan start. I just saw no point in it. I know it has to do with my medical troubles, I'm just so tired. They made an ...

2006-09-15 11:29:22

British CitizenA mere two weeks after sending off my application, I have just received my new biometric passport, correct name, correct gender, and a picture that looks like me again. I looked at the new and the old passports together to compare, what a weird feeling, was that really me, a previous ...

Another Shopping trip.

2006-09-10 06:37:16

I've had two long weekends, in an 18 day stretch, where I was able to be en femme most of the time in a low-stress environment. Today I took of my shirt and skirt and slipped some jeans and a t shirt (one of Wendy's) over the panties, garterbelt and stockings that I had been wearing, some ...

Just So Much on My Mind

2006-09-10 04:59:23

My doctor gave me something to help me sleep. It worked lastnight I fell asleep about & slept thru the night. Tonight I took one about 10 & I'm still awake at 1. So I just took another.This site used to be a lot more fun for me than it is now. Forums use to be a lot more active, I'm not ...

First blog!

2006-09-09 19:20:37

Hi girlsWell, having never written a blog before I don't really know where to start so I'll give you a run down of my year since April when I joined TW. At that time I had also chosen to come out to my wife, my second one since the first left me over my cross-dressing, (or so she tells everyone). ...

I CAN'T STAND THIS ANYMORE I NEED SOME SLEEP.

2006-09-08 06:38:33

I'm getting about 2hrs a night. I'm going nuts. I don't know what to do. I tried drinking but that didn't work.Warm milk makes me sick, can't choke it down.If anyone can help me PLEASE do so.

I want HRT!!!!

2006-09-07 14:51:57

I need to get in to the lab and get my blood work done so the endo can prescribe the right hormones. I really appreciate listening to you girls who are so knowledgeable about all this. A special thanks to Bridgette, Ann and Lucy.Yes, I do walk around the apartment building as Mere. Maybe it ...

Everything as it Should Be

2006-09-06 10:14:40

Went to the docs yesterday. He says everything looks good to him. Then I told him about the itch I've had for the last 5 days. It's been driving me nuts I can't scratch the sutures. So he looked a little closer & said I have a yeast infection. Never thought I'd hear that about me. But if this ...

No news is good news......or so they say

2006-09-04 21:02:44

it's been about t2/3 months since i called Charing Cross to see what was happening regarding my appt with them & was told they were waiting for the OK from my local PCT before progressing. So i called the PCT today to see what the situation was and was pleasantly surprised with what i was told. ...

2006-09-02 14:40:05

MoondanceI’ve just discovered "free web-hosting" so by popular request I am now able to put up a link to a brief video clip of our band.It was taken on a phone-cam so the picture and sound aren’t great, and you can’t see much except the singer (the odd glimpse of me behind him, yes ...

Just Moving Along

2006-08-31 09:39:06

Had a scare yesterday morning. I was bending down to reach something when I felt a snap behind my sutures. Than PAIN like a hot knife. I just knew I screwed up bad. I called my doctor & left a messege but he never called back. Tried my sisters & got no answer. The only person I talked to ...

Me, one year later

2006-08-30 12:06:32

Here I am, one year later.At this time last year I was just thrown out of the house. I thought it was all over. It isn’t.I am so stiff this morning. On the one year anniversary of being thrown out I rented a van and got most of my stuff out of the house. The house I helped buy and pay for. I ...

2006-08-30 00:14:05

Eating, drinking, being merry, oh and working tooYep, it was an interesting weekend, as anticipated…The Caribbean party on Saturday was great fun, someone had gone to a lot of effort to set it all up, as did most of the guests with their fancy dress. We played in a marquee, scattered around were ...

Back Home

2006-08-27 09:54:58

This will be a short one.I had the operation Thur at noon. Was up walking that night. It went very well. It looks so great to not see an ostomy bag hanging on me. Fri I was walking in the hall & the doctor said I might be able to go home Mon if my insides wake up. Well they did that night.Than ...

little things mean a LOT

2006-08-26 20:10:50

OK it might not seem much to some people but it means a great deal to me. I had my mum call round earlier this evening to drop some things off which i needed. On her way out, she bumped into the New neighbours who were in the process of moving into one of the nearby flats, & they got talking ...

Waiting for next week

2006-08-24 13:32:25

Next week is a rather dubious anniversary, so be prepared for me to be a basket case. Or, worse then ever as a basket case.The tour gig is still good. I had my daughter down there a few days, and one of the captains let her drive the boat on two occasions.I started teaching a brand new course at ...

2006-08-22 22:28:28

Rock and roll weekendSo, Friday night our band played their second gig at Kendal’s most prestigious music pub – Bootleggers. I say prestigious because it is their policy to only book decent acts, so if you’re a rubbish band you won’t get on, or if you do, they won’t have you back! The ...

Getting Close

2006-08-22 12:41:53

When I got up this morning my ostomy was loose. I got out my stuff & starting changing it. Then it accured to me that this could be the last time I ever do that. It's been a long time coming 8 months. 8months of feeling like shit. I've been saying that it will be over on thursday. But when the ...

A little break

2006-08-20 12:51:02

Life continues as usual; Up until this week, it has been the well known get up, breakfast, travel, work, travel, tea, play with PC and chat here or on phone, shower and bed. Only to do it all over again the next day. Interspersed with a bit of shopping, bill paying and the odd stroll or cycle ...

Got MY test Done

2006-08-19 06:16:22

I got my test done Friday morning. I don't want to do that again. They stuck a tube in my behind & started pumping in dye. That reay is not a good feeling. Then told me I had to hold it in. AAARRRGGGHHH!!! They had me turning this way & that while they took xrays. Then they sat me up ...

i'm STILL here......

2006-08-18 19:16:47

Just in case you're all wondering.......NO i haven't done a runner, just not had much to blog about recently. Still not heard from charing cross so i called them & they said it'll be late oct/earlyNov before i hear. Oh well, i've waited 5 months so a few more months aint gonna hurt. Only other ...

Blossoming

2006-08-17 12:10:41

I should be sitting here depressed that I am not working at that full-time job. I’m not. Quite frankly, right now I don’t care. I find it funny that whenever a school, or a publisher, has a problem I’m the first one they call because they know I get the job done whereas their top person ...

Some Good News

2006-08-16 04:23:01

I saw my doctor today. I have 1 test on Friday then surgery next Thursday. I thought this test would be a snap untill I saw the word "enema". He says it's only a precaution to check for a leak. But if it helps me get rid of this bag they can look as deep as they want. Also I don't have to ...

2006-08-14 09:42:26

Another bad night. Thats all I have anymore. 1 hr of sleep. I'm starting to lose it. I bumped into my fan by the bedroom door, it will never work again. This has got to stop.

Ready to Scream

2006-08-13 04:43:43

If I don't get some sleep tonight I don't know what I'm going to do. I felt so tired so I went to bed only to just lay there again. It's like everything bothers me, the bandages, my shirt, the pillow. I feel like I'm ready to cry I'm just so tired of it.On the good side the money I was expecting ...

2006-08-11 12:16:36

I fell asleep for 2 whole hrs!!!!

2006-08-11 07:27:53

Allmost 3:30 in the morning & I can't get to sleep. This has been going on all week. When I do finely sleep it's only for 3 maybe 4 hrs. I started to go get some beer earlier I guess I should have. I don't know if I should go ahead & make some coffee & wait for the paper or try to go ...

I spoke too soon - but I did see the Endo

2006-08-09 17:35:08

The following is from an e-mail I just sent to a few of the girls here on TW:Well, girls, the worst has happened.The school pulled the spot. As I mentioned before, getting the job was dependent upon the arrival of my official transcripts. Mind you, when I was first hired by them back in the ...

Feeling Different

2006-08-09 12:24:13

Sorry my last post was so down. I don't like selfpity but that is how I was feeling at the time. When I'm like that I shouldn't post but I need to get it out somehow. Mere called soon after to talk. We both say whats on our minds & then talk about other things. I allways feel better afterwords. ...

Lost Faith

2006-08-08 17:27:10

Things are realy getting tuff money wise. I have bills I can't pay. May lose phone & cable. My family said money is coming but nothing came. A friend has said the samething but nothing came. I will never lend out money again. I did it when they were in need. Now I'm in need but I guess thats to ...

2006-08-06 12:41:40

By the time we got to Woodstock…Or Bowness-on-Windermere even. Last night we played on "The Glebe" at the edge of Lake Windermere for the Windermere Festival, nothing like Woodstock at all in fact, much more of a family affair, though for some reason there were a group of people there ...

2006-08-06 10:12:08

After 2 days of feeling like crap, not sleeping or eating. I remember when I felt this before. It's drug withdrawl. I stopped taking the pain meds 3 days ago. I did only use them as it said to but I was warned. It was very strong stuff. With my history I realy need to be carefull. I go back in the ...

progress.......sure looks like it

2006-08-04 21:38:10

It Finally looks like things ARE moving.......and its about time. I'd been gettin frustrated by the lack of progress in gettin an appt from charing cross, so i called them today & they were very helpful. The only hold up is that C x are waiting to hear from the PCT for approval of funding. Once ...

Will I teach?

2006-08-04 10:45:51

I was talking with Mike the head of HR at work yesterday. He wants me to come back to work as soon as I can after the next operation to instruct. We're having a large influx of new employees. To do my set-ups I have to know how to do the work at every station. If I do the instruction they won't ...

lipstick on the wineglass

2006-08-03 16:15:29

I decided to work at home today. It gave me the opportunity to dress for longer than usual. So I did. This time it was the full works, including make-up and Chanel No.5. And I'm sitting here in my perfumed state, all in black, nylon-clad legs and high heels too. It's a long time since I've dressed ...

Feeling Better

2006-08-03 09:39:09

I got the staples out & I feel much better. Pain is allmost gone now. Plus I can drive localy myself now. Problem is I don't have an extra cent to go anywhere.My sister brought me 2 big bags of her clothes to try on & the only thing that fit looks like it should go out with the ...

The nightmare is over

2006-08-01 13:46:23

Remember the song from the old telly show "Great American Hero?": Look what's happened to me/I can't believe it myself/Suddenly I'm upon top of the world/Should have been somebody elseAfter years of struggle, disappointment and heartbreak, I have finally achieved one of my life's goals - ...

2006-07-30 09:41:32

Sometimes people suprise you. At times my sisters act like they hate me & the next day their my best friends. Yesterday they showed up with food enough to fill my kitchen. They evan bought me smokes & they hate that. I'll admit sometimes I love them & sometimes I hate them. But their my ...

one in a million......

2006-07-28 21:45:52

OK OK......morelike one in 500,000 but still it was fun. You're probably wonderin just WHAT i'm on about here....so let me fill you in. yesterday & today in Lowestoft it was our annual 2-day air-show( planes & the like). it''s been going for 10 years & this was only the 2nd time i'd ...

2006-07-27 00:30:28

Phew, what a scorcher!We seem to have been well and truly back in heatwave mode here in England. Of course the weekend when we had an outdoor gig was bound to be the one weekend when it went cold and rained. We have another outdoor gig coming up a week on Saturday actually, so I guess that’s the ...

Scary Stuff

2006-07-26 13:00:46

Had a bit of a scare yesterday. My right leg swelled up & a part of my foot went numb. I called the doctor & he had me go straight in for test. They were looking for a blood clot. Good news is I didn't have one. The swelling was just water build up.I get tired of talking about this stuff ...

Another Day

2006-07-25 11:55:08

Had a bad day yesterday for pain. Just in one spot. The doctor said not to worry that it would pass & it did as I don't feel it this morning.I think the hardest part is trying to fill my time with out doing to much. TV gets old fast, I have a good stack of movies but it's also hard to just sit ...

good news!

2006-07-24 20:14:40

It seems like the last few months have been a real DRAG, but at last things are on the move. Back in april, i went to see dr olive about getting started on HRT & he said he'd refer me to charing cross.....that was months ago & i'd heard nothin so i called in to see his secretary to see why ...

Getting on with it all

2006-07-24 18:22:21

My new flat is starting to seem like a home more and more. I really don't have any furniture other than a few small items, most of which are courtesy of Jen Jen, but I'm still loving it. I went ahead and ordered digital cable and that is put in tomorrow morning. I have the day off, so it's ...

New Day

2006-07-22 14:04:16

Had a busy day yesterday. Got the pain meds I needed so some relief there. The nurse I expected to have a hard time with was forgiven the moment I took a look at her (wow). My sister took me shopping for some food stuff I can eat. About all food has a realy bad taste right now. Wish I could get ...

2006-07-21 10:22:44

It's 5:30 & I have to do my typing before I stiffen up.Started crying on the phone while talking with Mere. This is hard as I'm in a lot of pain & can barely move at times. I let it get to me sometimes. Having friends I can talk to Mere, Anna, & a few others I can call realy helps. My ...

Back Home

2006-07-20 11:43:04

Back home for now. Things went well but not as planned. It was when I woke up, my sister said I still had a bag hooked to me. I was shocked & angry. I went there to get rid of the bag. I guess I fell back asleep. When I woke again the surgeon was there & he explained that he could only try ...

Can my year get ANY better?

2006-07-13 20:37:09

For me already, 2006 has been a good year for meeting new people. I met Gloria,Robyn,Mags, Maryanne & Justine for the first time at sparkle a few weeks ago.....& i thought i couldn't top that but i did today because i met Joanne Lee for the very first time. I knew she was comin over but ...

2006-07-13 16:10:58

Who Stole May and June???‘Cos I don’t know where they went. Maybe having a new flatmate, new girlfriend, a short hospital stay (no, not that one yet L) and steadily improving (yes, I do mean getting better and better) family relationships would account for the loss of time. Plus I am seriously ...

Test is Done

2006-07-12 16:28:23

Had my test done this morning.(colonoscopy) It came back good. I'm cleared for surgery tomorrow morning at 6. Dr. Barkel said it would be basic but time consuming (3hrs).The test went very easy as I was asleep. No sooner did they give me a shot than I woke up & it was all doneStill not allowed ...

Adjustment period

2006-07-11 17:02:35

It is now official. I have been in my new apartment for almost a week now. I must admit, it feels so weird. This is my fourth place of residence since being kicked out last August (rehab, my friend, the folks, now this). It hasn't been easy, although I should feel better now that I am ...

2006-07-11 10:05:37

I did this yesterday but I don't see it. So I guess I have to do it again.Well I'm not typing all that again & no one realy wants to read this, for crying out loud what did I say that for.That was a lot easier than the first time.

2006-07-09 13:07:09

The English weather will not dampen our spirits…Good morning ladies (it’s morning for ME anyway, late night last night). Hope all you girls from this side of the pond are enjoying the very British summer weather we seem to be having at the moment, don’t despair, it’s going to be nice again ...

Counting Down

2006-07-09 10:52:41

I use direct deposit from work. But my last check was never deposited. Not a good time for this. I'll have to wait for tomorrow to track it down.I start prep in 2 days, test on wensday, surgery on thursday. Not sure how long I'll be in hospital. When they do something to your colon it kind of goes ...

i'm gonna live my life EVERYDAY.....

2006-07-05 21:32:16

This Version of a favourite song of mine, by Jon Bon Jovi kinda sums up my attitude to life & bein TS. All i try to do is live the life i want to & not to take flak from ANYONE for just trying to be myself. The song in question is "Everyday" & it goes summat like ...

Just trying to find what feels like home

2006-07-04 16:26:34

ONCE AGAIN there was a delay in getting my apartment. I've been getting paid, but the bank won't release the funds yet. I really thought that today - my first day off in almost a month - I'd be there, kicking back for once. It looks like I'm moving in tomorrow when I should supposedly be able ...

Tidbits

2006-07-02 13:16:51

I started watching Men In Black lastnight. When the name Rip Torn came up. If thats not just a stage name someone should have slapped his parents. I kept thinking of those old Beverly Hillbillys shows Elli was dating an actor they called Dash Riprock, or the Flintstones everybodys name is a type of ...

2006-06-30 12:05:34

A very bad day & night for me. It's been awhile since I've had any real trouble with my ostomy. Yesterday I had it come lose 3 times & when I woke up this morning it was just hanging on. There was no mess just a lot of panic that there would be. I am so ready to get rid of this thing. I ...

Getting Closer

2006-06-27 10:57:45

2 more weeks & I get this stuff off me. Having a hard time finding someone to take me to the hospital. Everyones to busy.I boxed up all my girly stuff except for my gowns. I've been sleeping in them for so long it didn't seem right to hide them. I will be getting out the other stuff after I get ...

MY sparkle......

2006-06-26 19:11:30

My sparkle started in the most unexpected of circumstances in that charllet was supposed to be comin to stop with me the Weds before sparkle....but she was here on the tues, & i had NO idea she'd planned it. So we spent weds & thurs together before headin off to catch the train to Mancs at ...

2006-06-26 11:33:10

Wall to wall trannies...Is how I would describe this year’s Sparkle event, at least on Saturday night when Pippa and I travelled to Manchester to join in the celebrations. There were loads of trannies there last year, but I was seriously impressed by how those numbers had risen this time. The ...

Almost outing myself

2006-06-22 13:26:50

Lately I've been getting a little too, well, "honest." Finally. First, in my Wednesday night class two weeks ago, I damn near talked about transgenderism from a personal point of view. We were discussing alternative American cultures and the GLBT issue came up. I described to them the ...

she's a-comin back

2006-06-19 20:27:11

In just 48 hrs, i will have back with me the Girl that i love so very very much indeed. I honestly never thought it would Be SO tough not havin charllet here but it has & i have Missed her so much it truly does hurt i can tell you. It seems an absolute AGE since she was last here with me( ...

2006-06-17 15:20:49

Voice of the soulHi Michelle, thanks for your sweet comment. About the voice training, no I haven’t had any yet, though that is something that the NHS will provide. I have to make an appointment with my GP in a few weeks to sort out my prescription and to see if he can refer me to a voice ...

Thinking At 6am

2006-06-17 10:20:10

It's early 6am. I found out coffee does taste better if you clean out the coffee maker. I'll have to do that again sometimeBitch Time!!! One of my neighbors asked if I signed for a package for a girl that has moved out. I told him no. He said she called fedex & they told her it was signed in ...

2006-06-16 01:29:54

Days become weeks, weeks become months…It’s late, I should be tucked up in bed by now. Oh well…An anniversary has passed almost without me noticing, so I thought I should at least get around to mentioning it. I’ve done a year full time. I guess it’s flown by. I stopped presenting as male ...

Lucky Ladie

2006-06-15 10:48:53

Twice while my sister was having minor surgery have they found first stage cancer.I got a call late last night from my brother in-law letting me know everything was fine. Than he told me about the cancer. The doctors said no other treatment will be needed. They are going to have another look at ...

30 Days

2006-06-14 13:07:39

That's how long untill my surgery. It's going to be very tight $ wise.I had enough time at work to put up what I needed but on Sat I got hit in the stomach. Someone took the bolts out of a guard & didn't put them back in right. I was setting up a cell when I pulled back on it to get it in ...

Meredith the Multi-Tasker

2006-06-12 16:34:49

Do you girls have any idea how difficult it is to watch World Cup matches and type at the same time?I should be handing over the security deposit on the apartment over the next day or two. I'm waiting for some money to come in.The tour gig has been incredible. I haven't been there a week yet ...

my w/end...(fun or what)

2006-06-11 20:58:59

I'm gonna get this down QUICK before i forget any of the details. Well......what can i say about the w/e except that i had a bl**dy great time. It started with me making a train journey from Lowestoft to Cambridge on Fri afternoon, getting there around 4.55pm. There to pick me up from the station ...

When you can't go back....go foward.

2006-06-11 12:46:47

Well, after two awful weeks in bed with the flu, I finally was strong enough to go out. Sundance needed to shop for food to supplement the awful hospital meals. We both needed to Shop.I started to get ready and decided not to wear my black trousers because I wanted them clean for job ...

I was Just Angry

2006-06-08 11:15:21

When I made that last post I was very angry. I acted with out thought. It was stupid but I can get that way at times.Everything that is Karen is boxed up & put away & will stay that way. I can't realy dress untill after I get out of hospital anyway. I have time to think about it for now. ...

a VERY scary incident.....

2006-06-07 20:04:17

I was having a lovely day today......until one paticularly scary incident put paid to all that. I'd been in the library to use one of their PC's to check my yahoo email when 2 peeps came in, saw me....& just started comin out with the most foul & obscene language which was directed at ...

Good Bye

2006-06-06 15:36:45

It's been awhile since coming here has made me feel good. I do love a lot of you girls & will miss you. But I don't feel a part of this anymore. Mostly it's just me. I haven't felt right for awhile now. I'm boxing up everything Karen & putting it away.Being TG doesn't feel good anymore. I ...

Could the nightmare be ending?

2006-06-05 19:08:51

I'll try to be as brief as possible today. I know what you're all thinking: Mere? That chatterbox?Is it possible the nightmare that has been my life for 10 months could be coming to an end?I will be talking to the apartment management company in a while about when I can move in. I can't ...

2006-06-05 12:06:05

Situation normal, all... not too bad actuallyI’m going to TRY to be brief, as a lot seems to have happened recently. A week is a long time in blogging…Charing Cross #2 went really well. As expected I was asked much the same as last time, as they have to have 2 opinions on everything, but with ...

My Thoughts

2006-06-02 12:25:29

I've beel looking around my place. It's been taken over by my med supplies. There all over the bathroom & a 1/4 of my bedroom. It'll be nice to get rid of them. I realy won't miss them.When they did the first operation they did a bi-opsy on my liver. But lost the results so I have to have it ...

in the south of france

2006-06-01 21:59:19

The Cat is in the south of France, with her family. She isn't getting any girly time, but apart from that it's not bad - blue skies, hot and sunny weather, the villa and the pool. And the alcohol too. Not far from here is the village of Beaumes-de-Venise, where they produce the most divine ...

I can't ever go back.

2006-05-30 05:37:33

I can't go back to the life I had before. Like Lucy said, its like being a Zombie. It's not being alive. Wherever I am headed, I can't ever go back to being Him. There really is nothing to go back to and I can't play the part any longer.If there was any doubt, this realization was driven ...

2006-05-29 22:06:09

The Dinner PartyI am reminded of the excellent play, "Abigail’s Party", but without the comedy. The realisation that it’s all going horribly wrong…. Wendy, in her latest blog has related an event in my life and my reaction to it, to her own feelings, perhaps at a similar turning ...

Don't panic

2006-05-29 13:57:23

Well, this has been an interested past week.First, I had a physical on Wednesday. The doctor cleared me and is now passing me on to the endo. Unfortunately, that person is at this particular clinic only twice a month and the first appointment I could get is in August. Still, it's a start. ...

Happiness is not without it's price.

2006-05-29 07:06:43

This blog is triggered by a post in Forums that I just finished. As often happens now, things rattle around in my brain until something I think or someone else says brings it all together. I've given up the struggle of playing "Quein es mas macho" all the time and making sure I do what ...

Good Things_Dumb Things_I do Both

2006-05-28 23:21:30

Lets start with the good. At least I think it is. Julie didn't walk off because of my legs. It's because of everything going on right now. I do have a lot of baggage. I'm not sure I'd want to start a relationship with all that I've got going on if I were her. In fact I know I wouldn't. When I was ...

on a HIGH!

2006-05-28 20:08:09

Tis Just a quick post this one, cos if i type it all in again i'll be here ALL night. It's Just to say that everything went very well on Thurs for me at that conference. I even Got up and told MY story about what its like to be TS & livin here in Lowestoft....& the response i got was BRILL ...

Being TG can be a source of happiness

2006-05-26 07:47:47

Went out again, on Wendnesday, with my ex, who will be referred to from now on as The Sundance Kid (or Sundance). This was her choice of a name and has a number of reference-meanings. I picked up another job application and we did some shopping. Found her some lovely buckskin flats that ...

Not Wanting to Be Karen Right Now

2006-05-26 00:20:26

I had talked about Julie before. The girl that lives upstairs.We have been getting along pretty good. We hadn't gotten around to sex or realy evan close yet still just getting to know each other. Yesterday was warm & sunny. I went out to sit on the porch & Julie came down to join me. She ...

Short One

2006-05-24 13:41:09

I just want to bitch about being off work so much. I mean once & awhiles great but not so much as this. I went & saw the doctor again yesterday & he pulled me out foe another week. The problem is I have a chest infection & he's worried that it may run down & infect my wound. I ...

The ears are the first thing to go...

2006-05-24 13:14:38

TUESDAY, 23 MAY 2006Did two things today. I joined the California chapter of TW USA..and...This morning is the first time the sun will rise on Wendy with pierced ears; my birthday present from my best friend Tuesday for my birthday Monday. Only 4mm 14K gold balls now, but in 6-8 weeks I can ...

Wendy Larsen - TWO YEARS - My Rebirth Day

2006-05-22 16:16:29

It's been a hard year, but not really because of being transgendered. In many ways that has been the best part of my life for the last year. Coming out was hard and wonderful and my life is much better for it. I'm more serene. I deal better with disasters. I'm a better person Wendy is ...

My necktie is asleep

2006-05-22 14:33:40

Just a quick one today. That means it will be less than 10,000 words.......I just had another person back out of the Jazz Age book, and this was another one for whom I was trying to do a favor. No more. You're on your own now. Besides, you've been getting on my nerves lately and I'm one ...

just HOW far i've come

2006-05-21 21:05:37

This is a sign of just how far i have progressed, and been "accepted" since i started living F/T. Earlier this week A friend who worked for Norfolk Mental Health( suffolk aint got one), asked me if i fancied attending a conference at our College of FE....of course i said yes. The Thing ...

what catherine did next

2006-05-21 15:19:32

I didn't go out in Manchester on Wednesday. I did publicise it and ask for company, but no-one volunteered (thanks anyway to those who said they would like to but couldn't make that date). I didn't want to go out alone so I left it. Anyway, I'm not going to feel sorry for myself. I want to keep ...

Making Friends

2006-05-21 11:59:47

Since I've been here I've met some very good people. Mere, Anna, Tiina, Gloria. It's a long list realy so if your one of the few dozen I left out don't take it bad, Please. Yesterday I got to meet Mariette. I've heard Mere talk of her as one of the first friends she made here. That she would ...

The Meredith School of Science

2006-05-19 01:54:03

Okay, some funny stuff tonight.....Earlier this evening I went to my daughter's school to see her science fair. Me Mum went with me, and let me tell ya, this was not a comfortable ride going in. I finally have everyone (including the wife) agreeing that it is time for me to live on my own. ...

What's going on

2006-05-17 14:56:48

Things went extremely wrong over the weekend. My weekend actually started off quite well. I had that procedure in the hospital, and can breathe again. I still have a cough from time to time and need to speak to the doctor about the biopsy results. I saw my daughter for lunch on Saturday, ...

2006-05-17 13:00:29

Finely got to see a doc about this cough. Had to find a new one as mine kept putting off my appointments. I was hoping for a woman but got a real young guy. I think he'd make a nice looking tranny. What with this other stuff going on he said we have to stop the cough now. To do that he put me on ...

May 2006

2006-05-13 09:20:58

My blog entries seem to get further apart. Sorry it's been seven months but I'm doing the work of six people right now so I have very little time.Trannyweb has undergone a lot of changes since last October. We've moved to a new server, had a software upgrade and a slightly new look (that's ...

2006-05-12 11:17:56

Lastnight was the first time in about 2 yrs I slept in drab.My apartment is basicly 2 rooms with a small kitchen & bath. If I had a bigger place I wouldn't realy mind my nephew being here. He feels bad about this to it's not what he intended. Turns out his sister invited him to come back here. ...

Good Bye to Karen, For Now

2006-05-11 12:17:24

Since my nephew has nowhere else to go I have to let him come stay here. When I was told yeterday I was very angry about it. But after talking with my sisters I can see it's the on;y place he can go for now. I can't leave him on the street, I've been there, it's hard. So when I got home from work ...

No news is good news......or so they say

2006-05-09 21:15:13

Well, tis time i blogged again cos i haven't done for a bit & to be honest nothing has really happened since the last time, still waiting to hear from charing X....guess i'll have to be patient a while longer won't i?. But i found this little ditty the other day so i thought i'd share it with ...

What To Do?

2006-05-09 15:35:43

My nephew is up from Fla. With no job & no place to call home realy. For now he's staying with his sister but she lives in the middle of nowhere. So the job hunt will not pan out. The only other place he can call is here as I live in the metro area. But I don't want him here. He's over 6 foot ...

2006-05-09 12:58:20

Drinks on the lawn We did our third gig on Saturday, another good one, the best so far in some ways. We were in a village hall (a decent sized one) out in the lake district, a place called Hawkshead. You’ve probably never heard of The Hawkshead Relish Company but that’s about the extent of ...

Just havin' fun

2006-05-08 14:31:58

What a weekend! I did manage to have a nice big row with what's-her-name. I told her to shut up and that she can't have it both ways. If my life is none of her business then she is to stop giving me orders, or making comments as to what I do. Saturday she called me a pre-op ...

Yucky Cold

2006-05-06 16:38:39

I came down with a cold a couple days ago. It's kicking my ass. My nose is just pouring like water & won't stop. I bet I've blown it 50 times untill it's sore as hell. I bought 3 different cold meds. Hope they work! I've been the only tech at work all week. It went pretty easy untill Thur. ...

KINKY BOOTS and Zankou Chicken

2006-05-05 05:31:07

What a great day out we had together. Shopping, window shopping, found a GREAT cosmetics store....professional level (Hollywood) makeup. Wonderful movie. KINKY BOOTS. Great, sympathetic and respectful human representation of a T girl and her life. She was the most well-adjusted person in the ...

Just being quiet

2006-05-04 16:21:00

Actually, I am in no mood to post anything, much less talk to the human race. I'm just in a quiet mood, so there's no reason to panic (as some of you do when I disappear for days at a time). I'm just tired of a few things, like being lied to, led on, abandoned, etc. That's just part of ...

Testing under fire

2006-05-03 04:08:51

The past couple of weeks were not fun. My gg friend and I had our first major row since I came out to her. It was like our old fights....but very different. We were tired. I was stressed to begin with. She got stressed. Neither had to do with each other.....but by evening we ended up ...

2006-05-02 13:20:51

Goldfish bowl Our second gig was a success, the first time I’ve performed in my home town as my real self. Felt a bit strange somehow, but I’m sure I’ll get used to it. It was probably just psychological, because of it being the first gig in Kendal, but somehow I had an intense feeling of ...

Just Thinking

2006-05-01 11:19:08

Talked to Mere lastnight about Brandy Rose. Mere asked if I could send a note letting her know we are here in support. So I went to members search & typed in her name & nothing came up. Brandy Rose is not her user name the same as Karen Brad isn't mine. To find me you have to put in ...

Just a quick note before the weekend

2006-04-28 17:28:02

Had another great therapist session today. We spent a little time discussing the miniskirts at Old Navy. She's also been getting into a lot of questions and topics concerning what will happen when I start to transition. As soon as this cough clears up, and I can wear certain items ...

Always.....

2006-04-26 21:36:11

These are just a few lines from a certain Song by Bon Jovi that means SO much to me,for obvious reasons, Just like a certain girl means SO MUCH to me too. "I will love you....ALWAYS & i'll be there forever and a day ..ALWAYS I'll be there til the stars don't shine Til the heavens burst ...

Like a rose

2006-04-25 15:25:58

Hi all. This morning is my kind of morning - cold, windy, and rainy! I love it! It doesn't do much for this damn coughing of mine, though. I had a great time with my daughter on Friday when I picked her up. We went all the way downtown to catch the commuter train, although we ...

2006-04-25 11:48:49

Lucy’s coming home Following the success of Lucy’s first public performance a few weeks ago, I have my second outing with the band this Friday, this time in my home town. I’m expecting to see a lot more familiar faces this time, some of who won’t have seen me yet in my new role. I should ...

Moving Forward?

2006-04-24 12:51:15

For some reason this thing I have keeps starting to bleed. Not much nothing to panick over health wise. But plenty to worry about my skirts & dresses. If I would have gotten any blood on them my friends in the UK would have heard my screams. I have come to the decision that when this stuff is ...

an ode to miss.....CMG

2006-04-23 23:22:44

"Your Eyes make me swoon Your lips make me stutter You've only to kiss me And my Hearts all a-flutter Just one look from you Puts Butterflies in my Tum & if all thats not enough you've got the sexiest bum" Now lets see if you can work ...

2006-04-23 19:00:17

March Madness, April Flowers Well, March ended in a most unexpected manner. Cliff was due to leave for Newcastle to see his latest ladyfriend, taking a day off work ‘sick’. I had been expecting him to go up there to live for the previous two weeks, ever since he arrived back with a car ...

The Weekend Off

2006-04-22 13:49:30

It might have only been a 4 day work week but it felt longer. Lot of problems & long hours. Tues, electrical rewired sensors on 3 different robots...Wed, started a new part never run before. I was told before we set it up that the programming was complete. WRONG!! So I went to the office & ...

I think I know now

2006-04-21 16:47:12

I think I figured out why I can't get rid of this damn cough. I think it's the black mold in my parents' house, like in the bathroom. The bathroom is clean, for the most part, it's just the shower that needs the work. I believe that's my problem since I do know I have an allergy ...

Outings

2006-04-19 22:43:01

The last time Catherine went out in public was in the village of Cranleigh in Surrey in August 2004. That's over 18 months ago. For various reasons the experiment has not been repeated. But Catherine has now repaired herself and is looking for opportunities to go out. The first of these will be in ...

hold ups for the rich

2006-04-19 22:38:50

Recently I needed a new pair of hold ups. Normally I get these in a supermarket like Sainsbury's. But I was in a department store (the Army & Navy on Victoria Street) and I thought I'd visit their hosiery department. Without much thought I picked up a pair of black hold ups by La Perla and headed ...

what it means to be brave

2006-04-19 22:31:27

I saw someone tonight who I think was transitioning. It was on the train going home. He was sitting further down the carriage. He was tall, with the long thin face of a man. His hair was long: thin and straight, below shoulder length, in the style of a 70s rock star. It was something of a shock to ...

Back To My Old Self

2006-04-18 00:44:33

I've just spent 4 days being Karen 100% of the time. Not so much in the way I dressed as it runs much deeper than that. I did spend a lot of time in my new skirts. I also spent time in sweats & t-shirts but as Karen. Now I go back to work tomorrow & the mask goes back up. Karen is who I ...

I am very grateful

2006-04-17 14:24:26

First of all, thanks to all of you who supported me this past week. I don't even want to start listing names because I'm afraid I'll leave someone off, and I don't want that. So many of you have done so much for me. Thank you. My mood is much better now, especially after ...

Meredith the Belligerent Psycho Ninja

2006-04-14 16:05:41

That's pretty much how I feel these days. The misanthropic side of my nature has really taken over, and if I never have to speak to another person again I'll be happy. I went out of my way to take care of my daughter the other day. She heard, through the door at my house, the huge ...

Answer to dumb riddle

2006-04-13 11:34:18

I love country music

one VERY happy girl!

2006-04-12 17:56:39

I'm one VERY happy girl tonight & i'll tell you for why. Today i had an Appt with Dr Olive to see about me starting hormones in the near future and i have to say i got on very well with him. Infact it really couldn't have gone any better than it did. My Appt was for 2.30, but i didn't get out ...

Medical situations!

2006-04-12 17:25:44

Let's see how self-centered and melodramatic I get in this post. Maybe someone will attack me again. I'm finally on spring break this week and really haven't done much. This damn cough won't go away so I went back in to the doctor. My chest x-rays apparently looked a little funny ...

so sad

2006-04-11 10:23:13

Why is it that parting is SUCH a hard thing to do when you love someone so much. I'm askin that cos since 7.51 am this morning i have been in a dreadful state. Why??....cos after a truly fantastic week together,Charllet ( my lovebug) left lowestoft to make the long trip back home to cumnock. Last ...

TX.....and the 10 days after!

2006-04-09 16:20:33

I Can't Believe how busy its been here, or i would have blogged sooner than i Have done. Last w/e was SUCH a blast i can tell you.I left lowestoft at one pm on the saturday afternoon for the trip down to London for TX. It was the first time i'd been to london since going F/T and i loved it i ...

Short One

2006-04-08 14:12:26

Well it's the weekend. I have a lot of new makeup & 3 new skirts. I also have a lot of cleaning to do. They sort of go together, don't they.LOL

A mental case with a very troubled life

2006-04-06 15:26:15

Okay, I should stop saying that phrase. It really doesn't bother me. I find it funny that the person who wrote it spent so much time here. While the management company approved me, I didn't get that apartment. Granted, I did look at it quite late in the month, so there's no ...

Taking Care

2006-04-05 04:06:54

Over the past few days I've been going to the dentest. I broke a crown (my front tooth). When I found out how much it would cost for just that one tooth I went into shock. After talking it over we decided to pull a couple others & go with a partial. Mistake!! It feels like I have a mouth full ...

Okay, now what?

2006-04-03 15:20:35

My crankines lately does not have to do with anyone giving me a hard time being TS. I just didn't want to deal with anyone outside the community. My misanthropic side really took over last week. I had my daughter for two nights last week and we had a ball! I did get mad at one ...

T minus 13 hrs & counting

2006-03-31 20:59:16

Like the title says.....time is ticking away. Tomorrow I'm off down to London For tx ut i'm not on my own this time as my lovebug(AKA miss charllet Gellar) will be with me. It'll be my second time but charllets first, so i'm gonna do everything i can to make it a memorable weekend for her. Last ...

Mad at the world

2006-03-29 23:35:19

I don't know why I'm posting this other to say I wish I could sever ties with practically everyone I know. Not my TW sisters, of course! I'm just in one of the worst moods I've been in for a long time. I was someplace today where I felt comfortable being TS, although I was in drab, yet ...

spring is in the air

2006-03-29 17:58:41

One thing you notice about women's clothes shops is that they tend to follow fashion trends. So if you see clothes shops full of dresses, you know that dresses must be back in fashion. So it seems in the boutiques on Victoria Street anyway. I went into Top Shop earlier and for once felt spoilt for ...

Am I Realy a TS

2006-03-29 13:47:08

I hate to say this but now I have to wonder if I realy do fit the mold for being a TS. SInce making the statement that I am a TS I can't stop thinking about it. First I'm not willing to give up the life I have now to change it. But I hate being a man. If I'm not willing to do what it ...

I Know For Sure

2006-03-28 16:45:53

After much thought & racking my brain I read something that hit me. I don't have to change who I am. Just be who I am. Simple isn't it. Where I go from here I don't know. Not sure I can turn my life upside down. I may do nothing just live with the fact. It realy is what I've been, not ...

2006-03-28 00:26:25

Ladies and Gentlemen! Lucy Diamond... It’s raining. Lots. It must be the rainy season. Well never mind the weather, what about my gig?! I did it, my first public performance as Lucy, and it all went rather well. The band have done a few weddings since they reformed last year but virtually the ...

We're all in this together.....

2006-03-27 14:50:40

Last Thursday and Friday night the Disney Channel showed High School Musical again. And I watched it both nights! That makes six times now, and I expect the soundtrack in the mail any time. It's actually the number one album in America! I have been trying to get along with my ...

I Feel Spent

2006-03-26 22:26:44

I wasn't going to write but I've had a realy crappy week. As I heal the shape of where I attach my little thing is changing. Making it hard to keep it on. I only worked 1 day because of it. I get so angry at it all I can do at times is cry. I broke my front tooth. It was a cap I've had for a long ...

????

2006-03-23 13:54:37

I am full of questions about myself. I have allways dressed up to help me feel more like a woman before. Now all I need is a little makeup & I'm good to go. I do still dress when I want to look the part. But to think of myself as a woman I no longer need to dress. I wonder if I ever needed ...

Time to move again

2006-03-22 14:51:40

Things have taken another turn for the worse at my folks house. Not about my being transsexual, though. My dad is back to his 24/7 crankiness. It's become so bad that my daughter doesn't want to come over to visit me there. I think he's in the beginning stages of dementia, ...

2006-03-22 02:24:51

This won’t hurt at all… Haven’t had much time to blog recently, I will be able to breathe again after Saturday, when it’s our first gig. There’s been lots of work to do, mainly learning 27 songs, which I think I’ve got the hang of now. I’ll be less nervous if I’m confident of the ...

Who's a clever girl - Update!

2006-03-21 21:16:43

Am i Happy or what!!!!....i found out today that the manuscript i'd been working on for months now is DEFINETLY going into print. We have all the Pics that we need & they are currently being inserted into the mass of text and should all be completed early next week. A copy will be printed off ...

Number Five

2006-03-20 15:33:42

I didn't notice until this morning that I am now #5 on the blog list. Wow. I can't possibly be that interesting! I finally got a paycheck on Friday! I feel like a millionaire. I did get to see my daughter on Saturday. We went to see The Shaggy Dog (it was okay). I ...

very happy INDEED

2006-03-20 12:40:22

I am one very happy girl this morning & i'll tell you why. A month or so back, i went to see my cousellor to seek her advice about getting started on hormones & she said she could see no reason why i couldn't start them. She Referred me to a psychiatrist that she knew of. I'd heard nothing ...

Wheres My Mind at Lately

2006-03-17 13:33:17

Over the past few days I've done somethings that are not realy me. It seems I'll be doing one thing but thinking about something different. With the outcome being not to good. Packed my wound & taped it all on upside down....Washed my phone in the laundry....Said yes to work this weekend when ...

a close call

2006-03-16 19:03:50

When you're a secret dresser, as I am, life tends to be a sequence of long empty days with the occasional thrill thrown in. I don't blog about it much because there are only so many times you can say "Nothing happened today". It's been a long time since I last went out dressed - over 18 months I ...

No cute titles today

2006-03-15 15:13:54

I couldn't think of a blog title. Oh well. Today I'm getting away from talking about this path of self-destruction I'm on and go into funny things that have been happening. Here's a small sampling of my life as of late: Almost assaulted on the Red Line. You know that ...

A simple twist of fate

2006-03-13 15:47:21

As I wrote in the Forums, I am now fully out to my family. I had a few drinks yesterday to help myself feel better. Stupid reason. My folks were not happy. I wasn't stewed, but it was obvious. Then, at dinner, through a torrent of tears, I told my dad that I am transsexual, ...

I'm Getting Better All the Time

2006-03-13 12:27:32

I borrowed a take from the beetles. I had about the best weekend I've had since getting home. I can still feel the attachment I have when I move it doesn't hurt. I thought I was in for a bad weekend. I over did things at work & realy wore myself out. But when I woke up Sat. I realy felt ...

i'm bbbaaaaaaccccccckkkk!

2006-03-13 11:32:17

well it took them long enough but BT have FINALLY re-connected me at last. The phone came back on about 2hrs ago, which also means i'm back on-line. I can't tell you how much i've missed not bein able to talk to certain peeps these last few days. But as of now, i am one VERY happy girl......tis ...

Coming out is a journey too, not just a milestone.

2006-03-12 16:03:18

Something wonderful has happened since I came out on New Year's Eve. Well, a lot of wonderful things have happened, but some of it I never dreamed of. Let me try to do this in a somewhat chronological manner, though much of the change overlaps individual incidents. It's been more like fireworks ...

2006-03-12 12:58:29

Keyboard players do it standing up Our band’s rehearsal today has been cancelled due to reports of polar bears roaming the countryside… It’s that kind of weather today, several inches of snow already, and we rehearse out in the wilds in a little village called Crossthwaite, population ...

takin the u-know what!

2006-03-12 10:42:23

As some of you know, i'm off-line at the moment cos my phone line's down & BT are taking bl**dy ages to get their fingers out of their a**es to repair it. I have been told that i will get compensation for every day my phone's off. But this will make you laugh cos all i'll get is £1 a ...

dont you just HATE it when that happens

2006-03-09 10:25:34

I'm not a Happy girl at the moment & i'll tell you why. Yesterday afternoon my phone line went dead & it aint been fixed yet. It means that at the moment i have no internet access at home.....or phone either. I have had to use the library PC to post this blog. Those of you who have my home ...

Weaker Than I Thought

2006-03-08 10:03:13

Started back to work Monday. Was tired & had a sore back after just a couple of hours. So far I've only stayed 6hrs each night. Realy can't do very much as bending is painfull. It's suprising how much we realy use our abs. I thought standing we'd use our backs more but I can realy feel it & ...

Tired on a Monday morning

2006-03-06 15:21:45

I had a bit of an emotional roller coaster of a weekend. My therapist appointment went great, as usual. I am going to stop using the men's room to change as I was almost caught on Friday. My shrink is letting me use one of the other offices to change in from now on. Then I went all ...

BAck to Work Allready

2006-03-04 16:03:48

I saw the doctor on Fri & he said he wants to wait 6 months now before the next surgery. First we were ctold 6 to 10 weeks. Then 3 months, now 6 months. I told him I can't wait that long I'll disabilaty will run out. He said how come I don't go back to work. He wrote me out a slip & I go ...

Good news.....

2006-03-03 22:18:42

At Last i had some good news today cos i had a phone call from my counsellor today. She's been on to a pyschotherapist she knows( on my behalf) to try and arrange an appointment for me to see Dr olive, with a view to getting me started on HRT. I'd heard nothing so i dropped a letter into the ...

Got the Right Fit

2006-03-02 11:15:03

Turns out Benson's has a free service to fit you with the right shaped device. I went in yesterday & an on staff nurse found a skin barrier that fits me perfect. It's long lasting & only has to be done once a week. It's far more comfortable, the other one was digging into me so bad I could ...

my "bird of paradise"

2006-03-01 20:47:24

Who'd have thought time would go so fast when you're enjoyin yourself eh? Well, its almost a year to the day since i left that first comment on charllets blog & just LOOK what has happened since that.From exchanging emails and phone calls and the like, and in the last 6 months ...

Six months now

2006-03-01 15:16:47

Tonight I'm going to see the movie "Transamerica" with me mum. I'll post a full review tomorrow. But the big question is how shall I dress? I can't very well have my dad see me. I'll probably just put some makeup on in the car. Despite the little hints my wife threw out to ...

Heeling & Feeling Better

2006-03-01 11:24:37

As far as that big wound is concerned the muscel is grown back just have to let the skin cover it & it will be done. Not long now. When I first came home it was 17in tall & 14in wide. Now it's 8/6. But I'm having trouble with my ostomy not staying on. I know the signs now so I can tell ...

The beat of a different drum

2006-02-27 19:37:30

That cold I had really wasn't all that bad. Not all that good, either. I'm just glad it's on its way out. My daughter is incredible. First, she is in second grade and now reads at a sixth grade level! She also had to have some teeth pulled Friday evening. I was told ...

2006-02-27 14:09:30

One strong heart, and one less so I really should be learning songs right now, not reading the forums and posting about my favourite artists, or writing blogs, but what the hell… Last week my dad had a heart attack, his second, and slightly more serious this time by all accounts, but he seems ...

All on Different Pages

2006-02-26 12:27:34

I guess Fri & Sat would be funny if if wasn't such a bitch. Lets start with Fri. I started getting low on my med supplies. So I called Benson's the supplier on Thur. The lady I talked to said I could come in on Fri to pick them up. So Fri morning I went in & the girl at the ...

Got Rid of The Tube

2006-02-23 16:08:07

I've had so many problems with the Med Vac that I called my doctor. She said I could use wet to dry packs. Thats just wet gause with dry taped over each other. Realy it's heeled in it just needs to heel over. The problem has been the nurses. They all do it different saying thats how they were ...

no news is good news......well summat like that

2006-02-21 21:48:40

It's been a few weeks since i last blogged but nothin much has changed. I STILL haven't had the letter from the psych regarding me starting hrt.....its been 3 weeks now. Will give him a few more days & then i'll contact my counsellor, who originally wrote to him on my behalf.OH.....and if you ...

Keep it down now, voices carry

2006-02-21 15:07:18

I didn't get to see my daughter last Saturday. She wasn't feeling good. So, in literally sub-zero temperatures I walked the 1 1/2 miles to the library to get online. I was glad to do it. As I wrote in the Forums, I truly thought for a few moments yesterday that my life was ...

City Councel Closing Detroit Zoo

2006-02-21 12:04:10

The city of detroit has no money to run the zoo. The zooalogical socity has mad a proposalto take over operations with a 4 million grant from the state. The council voted no saying it was racial. Now the zoo is in danger of closing for lack of funds. I'm sorry but I can't see where race would ...

2006-02-17 02:43:47

Two weeks on my wagon… And I’m still rollin’ along… Two whole weeks without a drop of alcohol, it must be doing me good. I certainly feel better for it. Can’t say I’ve missed it at all either. The band thing is looking very promising, the bass player brought me round a CD of songs ...

Welcome to my life

2006-02-16 21:14:03

It looks like any devastating storm has blown over. For now. We scrambled like hell earlier this week and were able to come up with some money. The fact that she hasn't called to bitch at me tells me it worked. The house is still ours. For now. Valentine's Day was terribly ...

Feeling Fed Up With Things

2006-02-15 15:26:02

I am just growing tired of my situation. I have a vac I have to care for 24/7. I have to strap it around my neck, wrap up the tube just to go to the bathroom or anytime I want to move. 3 times it has plugged up in the middle of the night & set off an alarm. Yesterday while squeezing ...

The next few days

2006-02-12 19:27:31

I got a call last week from a living history farm museum. I worked for one some years back. I would have enjoyed that more if the boss and manger weren't such a royal assholes. I interviewed with this other museum two years ago and didn't get the job. It came open ...

Just a Quick Note

2006-02-12 09:53:14

Sunday morning & I'm still at my apartment. My sisters friend never showed up to get me. Thats fine I realy don't miss having her little poodle glued to my leg. I like the dog but it has to sit with me, lay down with me & go out with me. I walked to the bank yesterday. Half mile ...

2006-02-11 00:52:49

Moving Swiftly On Or 'The Tale of the Garlic Sausage' A Warning to travellers As my friendly and faithful followers of my protracted pursuance of perfection are undoubtedly aware, today I finally had my first visit with a surgeon at Charing Cross. Deciding this time to be well ...

Getting a New Outlook

2006-02-09 13:46:43

While I was in the hospital I spent 2 weeks with out waking. My sister told me she was told my chances of waking up ever was less than 50%. I'm not sure if I realy needed to know that or not. Scared the jeebers out of me but has me thinking. While I slept I dreamed. In all of them I was wearing ...

Back in the saddle, sort of

2006-02-08 16:38:35

Hi all, Just have a minute here. First, I wish to express my sadness at the loss of our sister Briony. While I never met her in person, I am proud to say that I did know this wonderful person. We will miss her dearly. As I wrote, I found out at the last minute that I was ...

Things Starting to Bug Me

2006-02-07 12:28:43

I started to call this Whine Time. Since thats what I'm realy doing. I realy hate feeling selfpity. Thats why I haven't posted for a couple of days. I think what's bugging me the most is that I can't realy care for myself. I want to go home but I can barely lift the coffee pot. I can't pick ...

2006-02-07 01:53:13

A quick one before I go to bed… Blog, I mean, it will help me get to sleep quicker if I release the thoughts of the day in this way. Not that I have any specific thoughts. Gosh, this could be very short… Um… oh yeah, after appearing on BBC television TWO Sundays in a row, albeit briefly, ...

2006-02-05 21:58:13

Hello again. Well, Cliff and I took the trip to see the dreaded Dr B on Thursday. I'll let Cliff offer his unbiased opinion of the 'interview' first. In his own words, "A complete waste of ****ing time, and a complete waste of both my and the NHS' money. Dr Barrett is a total *ssh*le. What he had ...

Going underground

2006-02-05 19:29:24

I want nothing that society's got/I'm going underground. I just LOVE The Jam! Well, will wonders never cease? First I've received a huge flood of response for people who want to contribute to my Jazz Age book. I'll start looking over their resumes tomorrow. Second, I'm sure ...

2006-02-04 02:50:47

Join the club Wednesday night saw the first meeting of the Kendal and District T-girl Society. Actually no it didn’t, but it’s kind of getting that way… My new t-friend Stephie, from Kendal, has met another girl from a small town just a few miles away. Her name’s Gillian, lovely girl. ...

Started the Ball Rollin

2006-02-03 20:44:28

I've well & truly set things in motion now cos i went for my Appt today and i got on very well. Told my cousellor about wantin to start on HRT, and that i was seeking advice about it. She said that it would be one of two things i'd have to do to get started....and one of them i'm doin already ...

Happy Super Bowl Weekend

2006-02-03 15:44:58

No, I'm not a huge sports fan, but I will be watching the big game. I'm becoming quite adept at hanging up on what's-her-name. She flipped her wig yesterday because I was unable to get a car to pick up my daughter today, meaning she had to take a day off. There were valid ...

New nurse coming

2006-02-03 11:15:24

After packing my wound wrong everytime she came causing sores & pain. My sister called & told them not to send that same nurse again. Myself I plame the agency for sending someone with out training. Having a hard time eating. The doctor said that food would not taste good but I thought ...

a BIG day ahead....

2006-02-02 23:59:42

Like the title says.....big day ahead tomorrow for me. I've been thinking about this for a long time now & i'm finally gettin the chance to do it.I have an Appt with my consellor tomorrow.....nothin new there, but i'm going to see her about possibly starting HRT.Some girls have said yes go for ...

Home Nursing

2006-02-02 12:31:36

I have a nurse that comes in every other day. (6ft blond woman) But I think she's learning how to do some of this on me. The first day she couldn't get the vac hooked up to work, so she had to leave it open for the weekend. Her next visit she got it to work but left it up on top of my skin. Now I ...

It's my fault, of course

2006-02-01 15:34:01

Not too terribly much today...... I don't think that school is giving me those classes. But, if you read my last posting here, it wouldn't be a surprise. Quite frankly, I don't think these people have the brains to pick their nose, much less run a third rate community college (nothing ...

Just Keep Going

2006-01-31 11:23:10

I had some fluid that wasn't draining so the nurse hooked up some tubes to my belly. The tubes are attached to a vacuume & it's working well so far. As long as you don't mind listenting to it 24/7. I've pulled out the tube twice & had to open new ones. One was under my foot when I stood up ...

Last Part

2006-01-30 12:49:10

Once out of ICU I started getting better by leaps & bounds. I spoke to Meredith all most everyday & I got to speak to Wendy Larson on the phone for the first time. I was released to my sisters care on thur. Thats where I am now. I will stay here untill after the next operation to reverse ...

Hospital Part 2

2006-01-29 21:21:57

When I woke up I was in total confusion. I had no idea what was going on or what had happened. My brother-inlaw was there but I didn't know who he was at first. He started filling me in on what had happened. As I started filling in the blanks I was OK untill he told me they wern't sure if I was ...

2006-01-29 18:23:29

Mary’s Dance Who the fuck is Mary…? Actually, I’ve no idea, but I shall try to explain the title nevertheless. On my way back from Pip’s today I played an old tape I had found of an ex band, the recording made when I was 18/19, done in our own private (but very humble) recording studio ...

In the Hospital Part 1

2006-01-29 01:53:44

I went in on the 6th & was operated on that morning.When I woke up they told me I had to get out of bed as soon as possible. I felt so bad I didn't want to get up. I couldn't beleave how bloted I was. They said I would drain off the extra water when I started moving around.As the days went on ...

have a nice day!!

2006-01-28 01:16:08

I know nearly every day we all get our fair share of hassle, purely for being who we all want to be.People should realise that all we want to do is live our lives the way we see fit without prejudice from others. I found some lyrics by a certain mr Jon Bon Jovi that just about sums up my ...

Here we go again, Part Two Million

2006-01-25 18:50:34

What an interesting past week this has been. First, let's get the marriage nonsense out of the way. Me and what's-her-name were actually getting along pretty good. We didn't discuss the relationship, just other things. But due to financial problems - once again - I'm back to being ...

2006-01-23 01:43:45

Can’t beat a good stake… There’s been something odd about this week that I just can’t put my finger on. For some reason since last Sunday I haven’t been able to get to sleep. Often I go to bed and lie awake for a while, maybe mulling over the day’s events or whatever, but all week ...

Why????

2006-01-19 15:18:37

why is it when there's something that you've waited so long for, that it's over so bl**dy quick. I'm sat here at my PC, cos i have literally cried non-stop since Charllet left this morning, after spending a truly romantic week here with me.....am i a soppy mare or what! The Week really could not ...

2006-01-17 01:55:36

It’s been a long time since I rock and rolled… I mean blogged, sorry dear blog I’ve been neglecting you. Christmas seems so far away it seems strange to be even talking about it, but I’d like to give this one a quick mention, for my own personal record. One or two differences to my ...

I know all there is to know about the crying game

2006-01-16 21:07:18

I watched that movie again today for the first time in ages. I love that movie. A VERY interesting weekend. On Saturday I took my daughter to see "Hoodwinked." It's essentially a take on Akira Kurosawa's classic film "Roshamon" whereby a crime is told from 4 different points of ...

2006-01-14 13:28:24

And Finally... With a great clashing of gears, and general grumbling from the mechanism of the NHS, thing move towards their eventual climax. YES, they have got their act together at last, thanks mainly to Laverne in the funds department. She managed almost singlehandedly to get all the ...

New song you've been waiting for

2006-01-12 17:40:35

HOLDING HANDS ALONE By Meredith Newton It was Christmas Eve I was all alone, a bottle of gin as my friend I thought of the life I’d lost And the one I’d found I’m not welcome in the first because of the other Just looking for a home My best friend turned her back on ...

tick.....tick....tick

2006-01-11 19:54:03

WEll....in little under 24 hours, i'll have charllet back where she belongs.....by my side. She's due to arrive here by train in lowestoft at 17:41, & i'll be there waitin to meet her. We both have been waiting so long for this.....well 2 months, and i for one cannot wait to ...

Just a quickie

2006-01-11 15:43:53

Maybe I shouldn't say "just a quickie." That's how I got pregnant. Wait, that wasn't a quickie. Never mind. Hopefully soon I'll start to post the lyrics to those songs I've been writing. Some of you have been asking for them. As soon as I can send them I will. ...

I'm Out

2006-01-08 08:52:28

Plan for 2006. Come out to select people in my life. Start going out in public en femme. Get out into my own place and see what happens when I spend a lot more time dressed and completely free to be naturally myself Time: 30 minutes after midnight, January 1st, 2006 - The right situation ...

Don't let nobody tell you your life is over

2006-01-05 17:53:31

I love "Into the Rush" by Aly and AJ..... I'm on a library computer here, so I have to be quick. Yes, I may be pregnant with Kendra's baby, but she's carrying my twins. We ought to be an interesting family once we're married. Tonight ought to be interesting. I'll be totally ...

Odd Thoughts

2006-01-05 12:53:01

Hospital will call today to tell me when & where to report to for surgery. I have so much to do before I go in tomorrow. I have to put all my Girl stuff away so it's not laying about. I've put a hold on mail & paper. I need a new robe, I have 2 one silk & one fluffy. But not one for a ...

Mere Is On Her way Home

2006-01-02 18:48:47

Just got back from the train station a little bit ago. Allready to quiet here. When I picked her up & first saw her I thought Nope won't pass. Then when I let her try on a wig it was like looking at a different person. She was standing in front of the mirror just looking at herself. I asked ...

Greetings from Detroit

2005-12-31 13:57:26

Hello all, Yes, it's been a while. I have little, or no computer access, so my time here on TW is extremely limited. I'm sorry for not keeping up with your blogs. I am here in Detroit, visiting Karen Brad for New Years. Wow, is this fun! I am sooooooo glad I came out ...

the white witch

2005-12-29 23:22:59

Went to see the latest family blockbuster, "The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe" with the family this week. Natural conversation afterwards: who's your favourite character? Kids are supposed to love Aslan the lion, and Lucy is the pick of the Pevensie children (what a smile), but it's really no ...

feeling good

2005-12-29 22:45:14

I had a bit more time today, so when the family went out I transformed myself into Catherine and this time with make-up. It's amazing what a difference being made up can make. My face looks so different (more girly) and I feel more complete. Catherine had given herself a new digital camera for ...

What a year.....first of many!

2005-12-29 20:54:19

Well it's soon come round again, who'd have thought that this time last year i was preparing to live F/T femme. It has certainly been an eventful year for me in several ways, but things could not have started off any worse than they did. In my old house i was very happy until, over a period of a ...

A Good Year Coming

2005-12-29 18:09:36

I think it will be. Yes I'm having surgery & I will have to take the meds for Hep-C. But thats just a part of life. It's not a good or a bad thing. It just is. I'm talking about Karen & my comfort level with being her. Last year I set impossable goals in where I wanted to be. But in fact ...

Happy new Year!!!

2005-12-28 21:30:53

I'd Just like to take the chance if i dont blog again before NYE, to wish everyone.....and i mean EVERYONE on t-web wherever you are around the world a very happy 2006. Hope the new year brings you all that you're looking for! Happy 2006 also, to a certain girl from cumnock, in scotland who i've ...

2005 was...

2005-12-26 19:06:43

a bit of a non-event in many respects. Lots of not-a-lot-happened, if that makes any sense. I know I did the Charing Cross thing, but that being the complete waste of time and effort it always is, doesn’t count as any more than a minor annoyance on the scale of things, Especially as nothing has ...

Happy Christmas?

2005-12-25 14:01:51

I don't realy injoy today. I love seeing how happy the kids in my family get. But it also reminds me that I don't have any of my own. I will not recieve a single gift today because I have no one in my life to give me one. Today tells me how alone I realy am. I will go to my sisters for dinner but ...

a VERY interesting night.......

2005-12-25 02:56:25

Well, i have had a very interesting night, as i had decided to attend the midnight mass/carol service at the church across the road from my house. I was rather nervous but i need not have been cos i was made to feel welcome which was nice. Whilst there i did say a prayer or too....one for ...

the return of wanda

2005-12-25 02:28:57

Wanda and I had a long conversation on the phone. She said she had done a lot of thinking. She was trying to work out what she had really wanted from our relationship when it started. What mattered most to her was the emotional intimacy and support. The physical side was great but it was only a ...

a VERY interesting day.......

2005-12-22 21:05:28

I had a rather interesting day yesterday. My friend caroline popped up on yahoo IM tuesday night to ask if i was up to anything on wednesday to which i replied no." i fancy comin over to see you" she said.....so she did. She arrived just after mid-day, and we had a coffee before heading into ...

Believe in me, believe

2005-12-21 18:40:12

Hi girls, Some holiday season. I didn't get the job. My mom has skin cancer. It's curable, but, still, she's not well. She doesn't need chemo, or, at least now she doesn't. I want to tell my dad. Me mum thinks he'll actually be more understanding than I think. I can't tell ...

2005-12-20 16:17:05

"No-one said it would be easy..." Indeed, and neither do I, but nothing's impossible. Anyway, today's blog... "I don’t understand it so I hate it". That’s not right is it? It’s a phobia, an irrational fear or dislike of something. My dad seems to be trans-phobic. I think the only solution ...

Outed At K-Mart

2005-12-18 15:16:09

This was very stupid of me. I went shopping for a few things. I put on an old pair of sweats. The waist band is a little streched out but they are very comfortable. I was wearing nylon briefs. My sweats kept sliding down, showing everyone my purple panties. Yes people did see them. There was ...

Ain't no angel gonna greet me

2005-12-18 01:13:13

It's just you and I my friend....... Anna-Marie and Karen have this uncanny ability to contact me when I'm feeling down, as if they know something is up. Sure, my one forum posting indicated something. But they still always seem to know. And Lilienne wrote to to cheer me up after ...

2005-12-15 17:37:23

Open your mind "Some things, however, do not change. I am not certain whether the acceptance and tolerance will ever change and if so, into which direction." Have to disagree with that sorry, and I’m confident in doing so because I see it every day. I believe it’s not so much society that ...

She's skating frozen chaos

2005-12-14 15:20:58

Obviously I'm back from my interview trip. It probably all went very well. The thing is I'm my own worst critic and focus on everything I wish I had done differently. I hope I made you all proud of me. I couldn't look at Lilienne's good luck charm since I had no internet ...

Time Off vs Work

2005-12-10 17:15:01

For X-mas we get a paid week off from work. Returning Jan 3rd. My hospital stay starts on the 6th. I want to have some time to myself before then. But work had 4 new robots brought it to replace some older ones plus 2 to add to a new job starting in Feb. The pay comes to triple time for that week . ...

the HAPPIEST girl in the whole world......

2005-12-10 12:48:22

Thought it was about time i blogged again cos i haven't since november..so here goes. Nothing much has happened since i last blogged, but it did this morning. I recieved my goodies from charllet, through the post this morning and when i opened the package....well, i was speechless!!(anyone who ...

Liberation Day is coming!

2005-12-08 18:28:40

Hi girls I have a bit of a hectic schedule coming up, so I probably won't be around much until next week. I have reached my limit here at the Dursely's (did I spell that right? I forgot). Yes, I do feel like Harry Potter living here. I talked to me mum and it looks like next ...

2005-12-08 14:31:19

If you see a shining star, follow it... Life plods on, as Christmas sneaks up quietly, ready to pounce. I really ought to do some shopping. I did try earlier this week, just thought I’d go out and see if anything caught my eye, it didn’t, but I did manage to buy some clothes for myself. ...

fun day

2005-12-06 16:49:12

I've been at home this afternoon, all alone. Catherine had an extended opportunity to come out and play. So here I am, back in black. I've concentrated on doing normal things (i.e. the sort of thing Mr X would do, except in a dress and high heels). I've even been out for a short walk under cover of ...

life after death

2005-12-05 23:14:00

Communication with Wanda continued on Sunday and Monday. She now accepts that it was right to end the relationship. There was no way we could have continued in the circumstances. We live 400 miles apart, each of us is married to someone else, and the intensity of our life together was just not ...

You should wear with pride the scars on your skin

2005-12-05 00:07:42

Okay, from which song does that title come? I had my daughter for another two nights this weekend. It was supposed to be just one, but, as usual, my friend couldn't get his act together. My wife was not pleased about that, although she did like how I got to spend so much time ...

so dear friends

2005-12-02 23:50:51

My relationship with Wanda is over. I was the one who ended it: she wanted to carry on. It was incredibly sad. It's hard to explain why, except that I was finding it impossible to isolate our relationship from the rest of my life and could no longer cope with the deception involved. We both knew ...

The Doctor & The Rockettes

2005-12-02 12:03:34

I saw the surgeon yesterday. We talked about all the risk factors & outcomes. Than set the date. Jan.6th. Could be 6 to 10 weeks before I'm back on my feet & able to work. She said it depends on the person. From there I went to see the rockettes. They realy are great. Of course they all ...

Meredith the Predatory Psycho Ninja

2005-11-28 16:37:58

We interrupt the bullshit that is Meredith's marital life with this breaking announcement. Meredith the Predatory Psycho Ninja is definitely getting all worked up at.....well.......work. Oh, dear, those girls at the theatre are so damn hot. On Thursday night I worked 5 - closing (about ...

anonymous

2005-11-27 11:34:21

Quote: I dont really want to pass judjment on you cos I have never met you in person but I have been following the "wanda" story and I cant help feeling a bit a bit uncomfortable about it..I get the distinct feeling that she has been groomed for your sexual pleasure over a period of time. and that ...

wanda

2005-11-26 00:08:53

Wanda and I met by arrangement in a northern city on Wednesday. She came to my hotel. I gave her the short black dress I'd bought for her. She tried it on. It was perfect: she looked fabulous. I went into the bathroom and got changed. At last I had a complete outfit. It was fulfilling to put ...

It's the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine

2005-11-24 16:21:01

Okay, I'm really not an REM fan (actually was sick of them for a while), but they used that song in Chicken Little, and I always did like it. My daughter just left. She got to spend an extra night. My friend was very late coming back last night. My wife called to see where she was and ...

What The Doctor Said

2005-11-23 13:58:13

Is that everything seems very clean & straight forward. There are 3 kinds of Hep-C. I have type 3. It is rarer & much easier to controle. Treatment will last 24 to 48 weeks. Depending what a biopsy shows. They use a probe to remove a small piece of your liver & you have to wait 3 to 4 ...

soon be back......

2005-11-23 12:22:02

Well it won't be long now til i can get into TW chat again and i can't tell you how happy i will be. I finally have my new PC installed and working now, AOL loaded onto it too as well as my yahoo messenger. All i have to do now is go to the java website and download the software i need to ...

2005-11-22 22:18:31

West End Girls Well, approximately 8 months after seeing my GP, yesterday I finally had my appointment at Charing Cross. Apparently that sort of wait is about normal, don’t you just love the NHS… Cut to the chase, it all went very well, at which I have to admit to being a little surprised; I ...

You'll go waltzing Matilda with me

2005-11-20 18:51:40

The song lyric from my last blog is from the great Tom Waits, a song called Invitation to the Blues. Today's is from Tom Traubert's Blues. Just some quick notes before things really heat up for me this week. On Friday, while at work, I got a call from one of the places with which I ...

Now I accept your invitation to the blues

2005-11-18 02:16:19

Okay, who wrote that song lyric? The prize is an all-expenses paid trip to the corner grocery store of your choice. We'll just nick something else from Kendra's place and hock it to pay for the prize. Yesterday was quite the interesting day. I went out to this place to ...

WHY?

2005-11-16 23:24:20

Do I bother going on. A couple of weeks ago, I was told by work that I was not moving to a certain other department, but to the third covered by our outsourcing call centre provider. Customer service I can do. Outgoing calls, emails, white (snail) mail I can do. But I ain't no sales person. Guess ...

tranny shopping

2005-11-15 22:46:12

I went to Doreen's in my lunch break today. It didn't seem as far as last time, although it was the same journey: 30 minutes on the Victoria Line followed by a brisk walk. The shop hadn't changed much. There was the same sprinkling of cheerful East End older women, and a man called Tim (aka Suki) ...

The greatest love of all.......

2005-11-15 12:37:59

Well i've stopped crying for the moment so here goes.... What a truly romantic weekend i have just had, startin on thursday when waiting for charllets train to arrive.I was rather nervous, stood waiting on the platform but need'nt have been. There were a few tears in my eyes when i first saw ...

APPLYING FOR MY HALO

2005-11-14 22:14:20

Because I must have the patience of a saint. Today's farce began at just after 2pm, when I was called in to the ultrasound scan room for them to complete the final inflation of my implants. It was not the same doctor as last time, but I thought that would not matter, he will know what he is ...

another day, another near miss

2005-11-13 22:58:11

I was dressed as Catherine this afternoon. Black dress, sheer black hosiery, and black stiletto heels, set off by a string of pearls. It's my look and I wouldn't have it any other way. My family had gone out and I knew I would have over an hour to myself, so I settled down for some tranny-suitable ...

P.S. to 9th November

2005-11-12 00:59:38

Two days after I had words with the administrators at Charing Cross, I received a letter. Nothing to do with the surgery, of course, but an appointment for 22nd December to see the shrink again. Oh joy. I phoned them today, got an answerphone, so relatively politely declined to make the trip three ...

Poison arrows to ruin your tomorrows

2005-11-10 01:08:39

Yep, still using those song lyrics............ I had one interview Monday morning, coming off of very little sleep. I didn't get back from my movie theatre job until midnight. I know it went well, yet I have a hard time getting a handle on how I was perceived. My job interview ...

All Good Things...

2005-11-09 22:41:36

Come to those who wait. Ha bl**dy Ha. It's a good thing I am a patient person. Thanks mainly to the hormones, I reckon. I'm sure I'm not the only person who really would like to get hold of some of the 'Red Tape' used by administrators, and have a lynching party. In August, as I mentioned ...

The Waiting Game

2005-11-09 13:42:01

This Doctor wanted to do his own test. So I have to wait 2 weeks to see him again. One thing for sure is that any meds will wait untill after I have surgery, as he doesn't want me to pause treatment after starting. He does seem like a good doctor. So I'll give him that & follow his instruction. ...

the search continues. . .

2005-11-08 23:40:20

. . .for the perfect little dress. You could hardly fail to notice that black is back in fashion. This was noted in the fashion press a few months ago, and high street shops have now caught on. Black is everywhere. It was amusing watching my local Marks & Spencer go from no black to serial black in ...

Feeling A Bit Down

2005-11-08 06:51:37

I go to the doctor tomorrow. I'll find out if the next 2yrs will be hell from the meds or normal. I was OK with it untill a little while ago. Sitting here by myself & I got to thinking. Thats not a good thing to do. Seems I've worked hard to get away from my past. I'm putting together ...

Lead me into temptation, girls

2005-11-07 20:20:15

I love Chumbawamba. I can't stop listening to their albums. See if you can pick out the song from which this blog title comes from. A very interesting week. I started that movie theatre job on Friday, working all the way through Sunday. I wasn't supposed to work Saturday ...

2005-11-06 14:22:32

Light the blue touchpaper and run like buggery… My bonfire party went with a bang, lots of bangs actually, and a few screeches and crackles and fizzes too, great fun. I had about 20 people turn up which is quite enough to make my house look full, so it was just right. Pip came and was chief ...

one week & counting......

2005-11-03 12:46:19

One week & counting......well that's what the title says anyway. This time next week i will be meeting the wonderful charllet for the very first time, and i simply cannot wait. I'm getting butterflies now so god knows what i will be like in a weeks time...i reckon charllet's feeling the ...

Hep C Update

2005-11-02 16:44:14

Just got home from doctor. Don't realy know much more than I did before I went. He did say that my enzyme levals are only 2 points above normal indicating very little if any liver damage. Than made me an appointment to see another doctor next week. So I'll find out more then. So I guess thats it ...

Doctor Called Back

2005-11-01 22:51:18

OK I have Hepatitis C Next is to go see him tomorror to find out what I can do about it. From here I go to google to find out all I can. Not so scared now. Not happy but not scared.

I Tested Positive! FOR WHAT!!

2005-11-01 19:37:09

The doctors office called & said I tested positive to come in as soon as possable. I called & they won't tell me what I tested positive for & the soonest I can go is tomorrow morning. This is just F...ing great now I get to be scared allnight wondering. I am so angry right now I could ...

2005-10-31 14:52:16

Overpaid, over-sexed, and over here Thus was described the American presence in England during the second world war. However last week saw the welcoming of two more GI’s (GID’s that is) to the shores of Blighty. I’m sure they deserve every cent they earn, they seemed well-behaved enough, ...

no other way

2005-10-31 00:12:29

Cathy's been away with the family, on holiday in Spain. Dressing opportunities were nil, but it was interesting to watch the Spanish women and shop windows. Nowadays I only have to look at a well-dressed women to wish myself into her clothes. In a truly free world, I know that I would dress most of ...

Interesting now

2005-10-30 15:38:27

What's that phrase - when it rains it pours? I mentioned before that I got calls for two great job interviews, both of which take place this week. Then, Thursday evening I got a call from a local movie theatre for an interview. I met with the dude on Friday night and he offered me ...

not again......

2005-10-29 10:28:46

I'm feeling pretty fed up at the moment and shall i tell you why? Well, i'd gone after a job recently at our local job centre and i was quite confident of getting it too. I had a letter in the post this morning saying..." you have been unsucessful.....", i couldn't believe it! This is the third ...

This girl will NOT be beaten.......

2005-10-28 20:31:11

Well....i'm certainly feeling a bit happier now i've had chance to calm down & take stock of my current situation. What has been so very touching for me is seeing all the lovely comments left on my last blog post. Thankyou so much girls, it's given me new,renewed hope for what lies ...

not happy

2005-10-28 09:50:22

Well i went....but it's not good news and i'm feeling pretty fed up about it. I called in to the college today to enquire about the course. Apparently it is going ahead BUT there's a Bl**dy big obstacle in my way. The course itsself will cost round £120, which is money i simply don't have. I ...

make or break!

2005-10-27 20:23:54

like the title says, tomorrow's gonna be an important one concerning my vision of setting up a TG support group in Lowestoft. I had a letter from the college today regarding the counselling course i'm trying to geton. I have been given a start date of 2nd Nov. There is ...

Some questions answered....sort of

2005-10-27 17:53:39

Hi, all No, I'm not going to discuss the current relationship with my wife (hopeful) or the BS environment under which I currently live (contemplating buying a gun). I will, however, mention that I have already picked out a lovely home where me and Anneliese will have our daily ...

2005-10-24 15:44:27

All aboard the Tranny Express! What a super night out Pippa and I had on Saturday. It was Pippa’s first outing for over a month so I think she was kind of looking forward to it. I picked her up from home and was knocked out by her revived rock chick look, she looked great, and since ...

An okay weekend

2005-10-24 15:20:43

The weekend was all right. Except for some time on Saturday, nothing to scream about. My friend once again started hammering away about my being TG, thinking I do it just for masturbation purposes. He sure has a fixation on that, and I told him so. What do I care? I do ...

Another lonely Friday night

2005-10-22 01:56:47

I'm writing again so soon because it's Friday night once more and I'm still not home yet. I guess I'm writing to relieve the loneliness. I sent out quite a few e-mails today to some of you. I'm just so alone. I miss my family. Met with the new therapist today. I like ...

Four months on...

2005-10-20 22:54:09

Okay, so I'm not the most prolific blogger. However, I have been very busy trying to run this community. It's becoming a more and more demanding job, even with help from my friends.A lot has happened in four months and the site has changed a great deal in that time. I will try to ...

funny old day......

2005-10-20 20:09:56

well today certainly has been a funny old day today. I had a letter from the job centre today....nothing strange there you might think , but it was addressed to Miss Anna-Marie trindall....the first time they've ever used my femme name to address me! But what should have been a good day has ...

Just going crazy again

2005-10-19 22:34:10

I can't believe my blog has now reached over 10,000 hits. Wow. To think an idiot like me can do something like that. Some decent news. Tomorrow I have another job interview. It's actually with Starbucks, that coffee company. It's really dangerous for me to work for them ...

2005-10-19 14:55:37

Isn’t modern science wonderful! It’s official, I’ve gone down from a size 14 (on top) to a size 12. Yesterday I was out shopping, one of my favourite hobbies, when I came across a lovely chunky pink sweater, just the thing I’d been looking for, but they only had it in a 14. The last few ...

Back to a normal life

2005-10-17 11:31:02

I go back to work today. I'm realy ready to get out of here.Except I'll have to start wearing pants again. Being off for 2 weeks ment I spent most of my time in nightgowns & dresses. Nothing grand just simple comfy clothes. Of course in Jan I go in for my surgery then I'll be off for 2 ...

the sweetest feeling ever......

2005-10-16 18:57:35

I honestly never expected to find true love right here on TW but i have....and i've never felt as happy as i do right now and it's all thanks to the gorgeous miss Charllet Gellar, who i love so dearly. i'd like to dedicate the following words to the love of my life,cos she means SO much ...

stormy weather

2005-10-14 15:43:55

Wanda and I have had a tempestuous month. As of today our relationship is still on. There have been some promising developments though. Wanda is now starting to see Catherine and Mr X (not my real name) as one person rather than two. She is overcoming her fear of what C might do to her relationship ...

so relieved...

2005-10-14 11:08:15

I'm so relieved to have heard from charllet today, cos she called me from the hospital to say that everything went well. She had the operation yesterday morning, and it was a success! All being well, she should be able to come home either later today or tomorrow depending on what the doc says. She ...

Surgery In Januray

2005-10-13 21:45:32

I talked to another surgen today. The one that did the testing on my colon. She agrees I should have it done. Myself I just want this over with. I'm tired of getting sick every few months. Theres pain & risk of it getting worse. So this is what I want, for it to end. It's a simple thing. ...

Lots of little things

2005-10-13 16:33:32

Hi all, The book on the Jazz Era is really starting to move forward. We're going to push the contract through right away, which means I'll get a nice LITTLE check in a few weeks. Only $500, but, hey, I love it. I got a little stipend from my one school last week because of my ...

worried.....

2005-10-12 19:34:51

I know i shouldn't be worried but i am very worried and i can't help it. Charllet should have been comin to see me next week but we'll have to re-arrange things, cos as i write she's on her way into hospital to prepare for a much-needed eye operation tomorrow to repair a ...

i've tried....

2005-10-12 11:37:10

Well as some of you already know, i had a job interview lined up for today. I have literally just come away from it,knowing that i have done my very best to get that job. All i can do is wait and see now and hope that i'm lucky. God knows i need cheering up in a big way cos yesterday i had some ...

2005-10-11 14:03:35

Legs, footwear, clothes, shopping, female relatives... Pip was up again this weekend, but no postcard this time, no pretty scenery or saucy seaside photos, sorry. Anyway it was lovely, lovely, lovely, as always; I was brought flowers, chocolate and lots of love, what more can a girl ask? We ...

From Psycho Ninja-Land

2005-10-11 13:40:19

Hi, all As I wrote in the Forum postings, I am back. I cannot, and will not, stay away. I should not have to refuse what I love so much. The weekend didn't start out well because I got a rejection message. Oh well. I did get to see my daughter on Friday and Saturday. ...

so VERY happy.

2005-10-07 11:33:54

Well...it seems like i have some good news at long last on the job front, as i have an interview for that job centre job i went after. It's next wednesday at 11.30..so fingers crossed that thnigs work out. Things just seem to be going from strength to strength, cos as some of you may already know i ...

More from the Psycho Ninja

2005-10-05 14:43:46

Yes, I'm coming back here more and more. Why should I give up something I love? Why should I give up the people I love? My friend asked my wife point blank a question a few days ago concerning our marriage. She made it clear that the door is open to talking soon, especially once ...

A Little More Clear

2005-10-05 00:20:39

Not being as full of anger & selfpity as I was yesterday when I left the hospital. I had to go back & pick up some things. I drove along Jefferson Ave which runs along Lake St Claire. It's not one of the great lakes but you can't see across. It was a realy nice day & I noticed how calm ...

Hospital Rerun?

2005-10-03 21:10:10

Starting to sound like a broken record? It's starting to feel like one to me. I just got out of the hospital for Diverticulites. Again! Was there for three days. This is the third time for the same thing. This time thier going to operate in a couple of monthes. Getting old sucks!!

True Feelings.....

2005-10-01 20:04:46

" Never saw the sun shinin so bright Never saw things Going so right Noticing the days Hurrying by when you're in love My how they fly" Dedicated to Miss Charllet gellar, a wonderful girl who i love dearly.....

INSPIRATION.......

2005-09-28 19:51:17

Rarely has song got to me and made me cry....but this one did! i bought the latest JBJ cd yesterday,and was listening to it when the song "welcome to wherever you are" came on and immediately it struck a chord with me. In particular ...

2005-09-26 15:11:50

Postcard from the Lakes Another one in fact, I believe I sent one to you all in January. Well here’s another from our recent jaunt around the Cumbrian fells and lakes, it wasn’t quite so nippy this time. Lovely day in fact, and rather warm for the end of September, so I’m glad we made the ...

Deleted

2005-09-26 14:19:56

I see I started another life story. I think I do that everytime I get drunk. Evan I'm tired of reading it & I don't want to finish it. Truth is I don't remember writing it, in fact I don't remember Friday night much at all. Wish I could forget Saturday I spent the day sick. But thank you ...

did it!....

2005-09-26 10:17:20

Well i did it!, i went to take the selection tests today for the job i'm going after. I Turned up this morning a tad nervous but when i went in i did'nt get a second glance, so i just sat down and waited for the tests to begin. I think i did very well but won't find out the results for a few weeks ...

Job Prospects

2005-09-21 19:57:33

I may well have had a bit of luck on the job front at at long last. Weeks ago i filled in an appilcation form for a job working in our local job centre..(don't laugh) , and i recieved a reply in thepost today,asking me to attend the selection tests which are ...

Just an update

2005-09-21 19:07:58

Hi all Times are still bad, but maybe there's some ray of hope in there. Last Wednesday was horrible. One interview turned out to be a bust, and then this one school that promised me a class gave it to someone else. Then I got the message that my wife wants to sell the house, unless ...

My BIG day!

2005-09-19 12:18:53

Well what can i say about saturday....well it was the most amazing day i've ever had, in more ways than one. That morning i wa so y nervous you'd have thought it was me that was gettin married! I suppose in a way i was edgy cos this was my First big social occasion.Anyway, i arrived at the church ...

Positive Outlook

2005-09-19 11:46:33

I'm in an office here in the hospital. They said I could use the pc since I'm up & the other guy in the room is still sleeping. The cancer has been removed & I go for other test soon. They will be looking from head to toe. But I feel good about the outcome. I love my sister but it ...

2005-09-18 01:26:11

As you can see, the second stage is now complete! There was still some difficulty getting the expansion to work, but after some persistence, work it did! Only one more to go - I'm really pleased with the results so far, and am looking forward to the next bit. Not without a little ...

kiss and make up

2005-09-17 22:59:12

As Tiina predicted, I made it up with Wanda. We both wanted to. Our conversation was filled with mutual apologies. The experience has left us wary of texting too much. I think we are closer as a result. Wanda will be in London next Friday and we will have a couple of hours alone together. We spoke ...

17 September 2005- Geeez, talk about some bad times.

2005-09-17 08:37:02

Well, have had some awful adventures since my last post. The surgery was terrifying. I lost my long time fear-blocking ability. I knew it was minor and was not dangerous, but they would be sticking long, nasty needles into the nerves of my foot to block the pain. I HATE ...

one happy....errrr try VERY happy girl..

2005-09-16 20:08:46

Thought it was about time i blogged again so here goes..... I have a BIG day ahead tomorrow, cos two good friends are gettin married...and guess who's been invited?Yep you got it...little old me!! Yet another first for me this year, the Most important event i've ever attended as it ...

bonzo goes to bitburg

2005-09-13 22:46:27

It's not been a good day for the course of true love. The Cat was mega depressed following the death and (yesterday) funeral of Sophie (not her true name), the same age as Cat, for a brief period 20 years ago the loveliest person in the world, and for the past 10 years rendered helpless by multiple ...

Goodbye

2005-09-07 18:43:32

To my dear sweet friends, It is with the heaviest of hearts that I must leave Trannyweb. The last 11 days have been a living hell for me. I was put out of the house, and then committed to a hospital where I stayed for 9 days. I just got out yesterday and still have to go back for outpatient ...

a church at war

2005-09-06 21:59:43

While on holiday in Scotland I read the book "A Church At War" by Stephen Bates, who is the religious affairs correspondent of the Guardian. Subtitled "Anglicans and Homosexuality", this is the story of how the Church of England managed to tear itself apart over the issue of same-sex clergy. Bates ...

A Day To Myself?

2005-09-06 14:14:21

I don't often get 2 days off in a row. This weekend I had 3. I spent Sat. running around doing errands, shopping & other stuff. Sunday I did my wash, cleaned apartment & car. Then spent the evening visiting friends & family. I set up Monday to be mine. Allday!! Monday morning. I took ...

the return of the native

2005-09-05 22:42:54

It's amazing what two weeks of enforced non-dressing in a house full of people can do for your girly desires. I didn't take my wardrobe to Scotland, although I could have used it as I found myself alone a few times. And the kilt is not an answer: first because I don't find kilts remotely feminine, ...

The most PERFECT day.....

2005-09-05 20:53:42

i've had one of THOSE days today....where everything has gone my way. I got some fantastic news regarding the project i am trying to get off the ground. Had a meeting today with some people and they've told me that they'll back me 100 %, and it looks very likely that i will ...

2005-09-05 12:34:47

Skinny Eddie Lizzard The family "situation" has been getting me down, it’s not really my problem but my mum has been in the firing line and she doesn’t deserve it. Other people’s problems often affect me more than my own, and because it’s my lovely mum that is suffering I feel it too. ...

Another Small Step

2005-09-03 00:05:54

Latest on the boobs. No, not the mistakes made, but the real thing :) Dear Dr has written to the radiology clinic, suggesting that they should be able to bring the date for the scan forward, due to the fact that 'she is lopsided, and needs to crack on' (unquote). He actually has quite a good sense ...

happiness....

2005-09-01 20:58:01

Who'd have thought that one blog comment left on a certain girl's blog would lead to some much needed happiness for me. We've been exchanging emails, phone calls, text messages and the like.I even posted a little something off to her, which she recieved today.I know for a fact it made ...

2005-09-01 18:50:19

Just say "No", or "maybe", well it depends... Ah dear, family problems, though rather amazingly this time they don’t directly involve me. Maybe I should be pleased, but I can’t be ‘cos it’s just not nice. I don’t wish to go into details though. Had a "difficult" email today, a little ...

Fear & Life

2005-09-01 14:34:15

I'm having a hard time getting in to see my doctor. I over slept the first time & he cancelled the next 2. I just set up an appointmemt for next week. This has been going on for a month now. I have a lump where I'm not supposed to have one. I'm not shaking in my shorts but it is a little scary ...

2005-08-31 16:03:16

Like waiting for a bus Last night turned out to be considerably more interesting than I had anticipated. Went out for a meal with mum and bruv and his partner, just down the local Indian (fantastic by the way), sorry Tiina I mentioned food again. We headed back towards mum’s house reaching the ...

2005-08-29 23:06:41

Living off the land, um, almost… Nice to see the return of good weather, it’s been a lovely day here. I walked into town to collect my car, having got a taxi home the other night. On the way I noticed some field mushrooms growing outside Kendal cricket club, just a few, but beauties so I ...

2005-08-29 00:55:21

Tired but happy Gosh am I tired. Another good night last night, and another couple of old friends were met. Went to mum’s first to meet her and Angie, and unknown to me, Jill, who was a replacement in a band I used to play with (there have been quite a few). Another lovely girl, and it was ...

Back Blogging

2005-08-28 14:18:12

Well it seems ages and it is since I last added sonme information to my blog. The main reason is that I have had very little time to be Tina in the past few months up until last Monday when I managed a whole day and managed to take some photos at the same time. One of them was probably the best I ...

2005-08-28 14:09:47

Yet Another Non-Event!!! Went up Thursday to the Gender Clinic at Charing Cross. May I just remind you, these visits are at their request, not out of any desire on my part to see them. This time it was Dr Lenihan again, the second time I have seen her. She was not impressed by the letter ...

2005-08-27 13:16:15

Concealed, but not hidden So, anyway, right, yeah. Um, last night, brilliant. (Can you tell I’ve been hanging out with rock musicians?) A few more people got to meet the real me last night. My brother is up again with his good lady, so we all went out to see the reincarnation of the last band ...

The little things

2005-08-26 15:41:07

Just a quick one before the weekend. Anna-Marie, hang in there. Just because some uptight bureaucratic a'hole doesn't know what he's doing does not mean you are a failure. You'll accomplish that goal. My school finally opened its downtown campus, so we're no longer holding class in ...

2005-08-26 13:09:46

No man's land Just been to the dentist, somewhat overdue for a check-up and I had a little chip on the corner of a tooth (I know, I know I should stop eating chips). I hadn’t informed them of my change of name, and at this stage decided not to, maybe next time. So I went just in baggy pants ...

thankyou all so much.....

2005-08-25 19:23:58

I can't thank all you girls enough for all your kind words at this time. Last night i was feeling pretty sad about things but having slept on it, i'm feeling a bit better and more hopeful about things. OK i've had a setback but i cannot and Will NOT Give up until every possibility has been looked ...

gutted!!

2005-08-24 20:16:32

I don't think i can feel any worse than i do right now. Today i recieved some bad news, and i still can't take it all in.I've been told that it's VERY unlikely now that i will get any funding/grants to help get my TG group off the ground and to top it off, the counselling course i'd got enrolled on ...

The Simple Pleasure

2005-08-24 13:58:45

I've been very busy lately & I haven't had time to realy dress. But some of the post I've been reading lately got me to thinking. Today I don't have to be at work untill 6pm. So I took the time to dress nice. I'd allmost forgotten how good it feels to completely submerge myself in womens ...

2005-08-22 22:44:12

You’ve got a friend ‘Twas a rather dull week last week. I avoided going out as much as possible due to a severe case of shaving rash. Little blemishes I can hide (I’m thinking of buying shares in L’oreal concealer), big lumps I cannot. Bloody testosterone, it’s poison, I hate it. I’m ...

More T-Girls to the rescue

2005-08-22 19:41:26

Hi. Yeah, I disappeared again. Sorry. When I'm down, or life just sucks in general, I tend to disappear. My wife came back from her trip a few hours late. We had storms here on Thursday, which of course affected the airports, and I tried to call her to make arrangements to pick her up. I ...

at last...GOOD news!

2005-08-18 20:52:41

At last.....some good news after all the crap i've had to cope with just recently. My plans have just taken a huge leap forward which makes me happy. Tomorrow i have an appt to see the mental health people...no i'm not nuts,anyone who says otherwise will get a slap!..No, the lady i see there has a ...

2005-08-18 15:40:56

Progress !!! Red for a red-letter day. I received two letters, to be precise, on Monday. One was less than good news, so I’ll do the bad newsL/good newsJ thing. The hospital where I’ve been for the top op, and who are supposed to be getting me in soonest for the top up, wrote ...

2005-08-18 00:11:38

Pennies from heaven (Re: last comments) You’re quite right Pippa, remarkably astute; we’ll make a psychologist out of you yet. Bunny is also right, I have no need to explain myself, but I did want to state the facts just in case one certain ex-wife should happen to visit again, as she was ...

i dont believe it....

2005-08-17 20:02:48

They say it never rains but it pours....what a true saying. i'd gone out for a quiet drink in mylocal last night and had only been there half an hour when someone started giving me troule by saying some pretty cruel things about me and when i asked her to stop....she went off on one big-time, ...

Notes To Self & Others

2005-08-17 12:15:17

My request for time off has been turned down. My birthday is the weekend after the Girls Night Out. So I get it off. Well they won't let me have 2 in a row. I told them I'd work on my birthday but they still say no because of contract. So no trip to Baltimore. When I picked up my car there was a ...

wanda lives

2005-08-15 22:01:13

I can't get her out of my head. Today we exchanged a few more emails before I eventually rang her up on leaving the office. It turns out we both miss each other. She sounded much happier than before. Even saying she thought we had both over-reacted to the situation we were in two weeks ago. Now she ...

VERY disappointed......

2005-08-15 20:21:11

Girls i can't tell you how disappointed and sad i am at the news i recieved today. It seems like those two thugs that threatened me with a hammer are going to get away with it! The police have taken..i=or tried to take statements but got nowhere. Some people that saw what happpened won't even ...

Life's cruel jokes

2005-08-15 13:22:51

I'm checking in a lot, but not posting much. You can already guess........ She's off on her latest business trip. Maybe it's for the best that we're not around each other. I've not been good. Here's a nice rundown: We have Caller-ID. A call came in from a pretty darn good school not far from ...

a time to self-indulge

2005-08-13 23:11:31

Saturday afternoon in southern England: the rains have come. A steady falling on our forlorn children's pool. I am alone. With true British grit, Mrs Cat has taken out the boys for a countryside hike. I'm here because I'm supposed to be doing some work. However, what I'm doing instead is walking ...

who's sorry now

2005-08-13 22:53:56

I finally got in touch with Wanda on Wednesday. I wasn't expecting her to be available, but she unexpectedly replied to a work email so I rang her up. Another long telephone call | over an hour, again | during which we ran through a whole range of emotions. She told me she had lost half a ...

2005-08-13 13:43:52

In response to an anonymous comment: Dear someone else’s ex-wife, Whatever happened between you and your ex-husband has nothing to do with me, and from the sound of it bears no resemblance to what happened between me and my wife. Since you clearly have no idea of what went on I don’t know ...

Not good

2005-08-11 12:40:49

As I just wrote in the Forums, I'm sorry if I scared anybody. I promise not to do anything stupid. I haven't heard a word from that school, so that job is obviously gone. I can't get a damn thing. Then, the other night I apparently did another one of my sleepwalking stunts. I woke up in the back ...

waitin....

2005-08-09 19:58:09

just a quick update on that unpleasant situation i faced last week. Those two thugs,father and son had been arrested and interviewed. they've since been bailed until the 15th when they have to go back to police station. meanwhile the police will be gathering all their evidence together ...

2005-08-09 12:32:18

Big brother is watching you Yep, today is the day when my big brother gets to meet Lucy for the first time. I say, "meet Lucy", I’m not sure whether that is totally appropriate really as I am not a different person, just I wear different clothes and he now knows me better than he did. I think ...

A few quick things

2005-08-08 13:11:46

Right now is totally crunch time when it comes to finances. It's absolutely sink or swim. I was feeling low about this on Friday and called Tressa. Once again she came through, even calling me a bitch (it was great!). Tressa always knows what to say. Robyn started a forum thread about Brandi ...

aftermath

2005-08-07 21:25:51

Wanda and I spoke on the telephone for an hour on Thursday. It was a difficult conversation. She was upset and confused. She did not understand how our relationship could have ended so abruptly. She didn't know what I wanted any more | if I even wanted to be friends with her. One thing she wanted ...

one year on...

2005-08-06 21:14:53

well who'd have thought that this time last year i was preparin to come "out" at tx? I can't believe that the time has gone so quick!. I have had quite a year,experiencing many things and meeting lots of new friends along the way....and feeling just about every emotion going. ...

One and a half additions :)

2005-08-06 12:33:48

More cheerful today. I can’t stay down for long, despite everything. I went for my first top –up on Thursday, after an odd and frustrating night. Sorry, no pictures yet. About 7pm Wednesday, loads of van turned up outside, from the Water board, and they started to dig. ...

2005-08-05 16:33:30

Big happy families So, as I mentioned in today’s good morning thread, my gran has just been round to meet the real Lucy for the first time. She wasn’t fazed a bit, just her sweet usual self. She pushed her tummy out and said she was jealous of my figure! She’s not the only one with a bit ...

shaken but NOT stirred....

2005-08-04 22:35:12

Girls, i'm not too bad now but earlier today i was subjected to some pretty vile verbal abuse which very nearly turned nasty.i'd been followed home by 2 kids, both giving me some nasty abuse...so i tried to ignore them as best i could. But in the end i'd had enough and ...

end of a dream

2005-08-03 21:01:05

Wanda and I went to Manchester yesterday. We travelled up from London in the afternoon, spent the evening in the Village, and spent the night in a nearby hotel. It was quite a liquid day. We started with vodka on the train, then polished off a bottle of Bolly in the hotel, then drank more vodka ...

Here we go again

2005-08-02 12:45:54

She got back fine from her trip, and the reunion was argument-free. I hope this can continue. I had a horrible night with insomnia. Too much to worry about. I got a call from a local community college requesting copies of my transcripts (a standard procedure). Apparently they want to give me some ...

2005-08-01 12:31:59

Getting there, slowly… If anyone were to ask me how my transition is going, that may well be the answer. I’ve heard many different descriptions of this "journey", ranging from "hell" to "blessed". Long and slow certainly seems to apply in most cases. However, some news: today I got a letter ...

If you're hurting, so am I

2005-08-01 01:09:23

Sarah, thank you. I literally broke into tears over what you sent to me. Any act of kindness is a great act of kindness. Sorry I've been away. The one interview I was supposed to have tomorrow (Monday) was killed because of funding. Me and this school just can't seem to get together! It was a bit ...

YET another first.....

2005-07-28 21:00:04

I've had a VERY interesting day today... and tomorrows gonna be fun too. You see, in lowestoft for the past 10 years we've held a 2 day air festival,with planes from all over the world comin. Not very girly i know but when you think that there'll have been upwards of 150,000 people in town over ...

2005-07-28 13:26:01

Please do not make assumptions as a punch in the face often offends. After the admittedly smug feeling I had when I received my driving license with my new name and girly photo, I was a little disappointed to receive today my vehicle registration document. The name is correct, and this time ...

2005-07-27 22:58:57

IF I DIDN'T LAUGH, I WOULD CRY Actually, I did a bit. This addition is in blue, because that is exactly the way I feel right now. I spoke to Charing Cross today, to confirm my new address, and to enquire why I had not heard from the surgery department yet. The first number I called was of course ...

calmer seas

2005-07-27 21:53:56

More discussions with Wanda today. She is feeling calmer now. She says she is thinking a lot about my crossdressing. By the time we go to Manchester next week, she will be ready to talk about it | or at least listen to me talking about it. But she doesn't feel ready to see my photos yet. She ...

2005-07-27 15:39:58

Relax, don’t do it… Hit me with those laser beams… I had my 4th IPL session yesterday. The last couple of times I dressed ambiguously, unisex they used to call it in the days when my mum owned a dress shop (I was SO disappointed when she decided to sell it). But yesterday I put on my very ...

I tried

2005-07-27 01:29:05

I tried to be nice, I tried to say that I was just wasn't myself and that I needed time alone. And I said there was a number of reasons for it. I said I was being solitary because I didn't want my friends here thinking I was ignoring them. I didn't attack anyone, and I thought I was just ...

women are complicated

2005-07-26 18:18:35

Wanda and I spent a lot of time talking and emailing yesterday. She established that I liked shopping for clothes - that's unusual in a man. I've continued to drop hints about my other self. She was intrigued at what I might be about to tell her. But I left it. I'm seeing her in Manchester next ...

Calling

2005-07-25 13:16:00

I never mentioned in my last blog how I was able to speak to some of the girls here a week ago. Anna-Marie was having another little soiree. She knew I couldn't call, but was willing to call me. I got to hear Chris (who, as I was told, was laying on the floor) call for more vodka. It was funny. I ...

a VERY clever girl....

2005-07-24 19:47:45

Is there nothing this girl can't turn her hand too....and do well! i have a few things on the go which are keeping me busy at the moment.I'm researching into some local history regarding WW1.Apparently there were 3 warships that were actually based in lowestoft from 1914 ...

Going out with the girls & other junk

2005-07-24 11:54:39

Will I? Yes!! But I realy do have a lot to do first. In Fla I didn't do my makeup or hair. The ladies did. I'm awfull with makeup. I just can't seem to get it right . So when I last used up what I had I didn't buy anymore. The only wig shop in my phone book says (in bold print) Women Only. I ...

2005-07-22 19:17:24

Down? Or Up? Decisions Decisions... Can't make up my mind. Not three bad either way. Anyway, saw the doctor on Thursday, and everything is healing well, despite my efforts. However, as he put in too much in the first go, he has put off the first expansion for two weeks. I'm only a ...

to tell or not to tell

2005-07-21 22:30:38

I think I'm going to tell someone about Catherine soon. The someone I have in mind is a work colleague, let's call her Wanda, who's become a close friend. We work on the same issues, but in different government departments and in different cities, so although we talk and email a lot, we rarely see ...

Subject? We don't need no stinking subject!

2005-07-19 13:05:38

Hi all, It seems the Forum explosions have died down. I know I got in a few good swipes at someone. While I am sorry if I came off as abrasive and confrontational, one thing I don't stand for is seeing my friends insulted like that. So, let's get back to our silliness, okay? Lord knows I excel in ...

BIG thankyou

2005-07-19 12:02:01

I'd just like to say a BIG thankyou to all( Mere,Rhia,michelle) who have backed me up when a certain person on TW started insulting me in the forums.Their remarks should be treated with complete and utter contempt as thats all they deserve.Nice to see i have friends here who will back me up. I only ...

2005-07-18 00:45:09

Firstly, thanks for all the comments and encouragement. The card welcoming the 'two new arrivals' (you know who you are) was great, and I had a good laugh over it. I have two points (pun intended) to make though: 1) The picture was not meant to be that big, I didn't know it would do that! The ...

my VERY girly weekend

2005-07-17 14:11:08

I'm sittin here now with my glass of wine feeling a bit sad....sad that everyones gone home,but alsohappy that we've(christina,clair and deanna) had a great time this weekend.well...friday night clair was thefirst to arrive followed an hour later by christina and deanna.got all the stuff infrom the ...

Lost Week

2005-07-17 11:37:03

I say that because it went by in a blur. They had me working days insted of my afternoons. So my times were all messed up. Our training class was a complete waist as management kept sticking thier noses in it. Since they know little or nothing about the other robotic cells they want to know all ...

2005-07-17 01:18:13

Found it (the picture programme). This is all me now.

2005-07-16 22:38:33

So Far SO Good J – The new look: Went into the hospital last Monday, the 4th. Arrived at 14.00, as requested, sat around ‘til 19.00 waiting for my bed to be cleared. L No way was I leaving, even if it meant chaining myself to the railings! As it happened, it never came to ...

2005-07-16 22:13:28

Frustration Compounded. I am moving. Albeit slowly, but I am. Or actually, I have by the time this hits the blog. Took two-three weeks over it, but I am now in. All has gone relatively smoothly, except the phone and my Internet. Told ...

2005-07-16 10:04:18

I love you more than chocolate itself I’m more than half-way through my choccies now, each one wrapped in a loving message, for extra sweetness, aww. I had to think about the one above, but yes it’s true, I do. Me and chocolate go back a long way but you have the edge babe, I love you, more ...

a pause for thought.....

2005-07-14 19:12:17

I've got LOTS planned for this coming weeekend but i want to start on a subdued note. As you are aware the whole of the UK ground to a halt for 2minutes silence in memory of those killed in thelondon bomb blasts a week ago. I felt it more today, as last week a VERY good friend of mine ...

Right here, right now

2005-07-11 17:23:52

Instead of my usual gloom and doom, some much nicer words here today. We had a very nice weekend, the best in a long time (no nookie, but, hey, still nice). She worked out of the house on Friday, and the whole three days not even so much as one argument. We almost had one because I made a stupid ...

2005-07-10 21:20:06

Life without love is like a tree without blossom or fruit I read that on a chocolate wrapper, it’s not going to take me long to eat the rest of them, mmm… So, today is our first anniversary, can you believe it? And Pippa’s been here all weekend to celebrate it with me, which we did in ...

quickie

2005-07-09 20:11:12

just thought id let you all know,especially you tiina and meredith that it seemed todays little drama was infact afalse alarmbut the police here weren't taking any chances which is understandable.The shopping centre did'nt re-open til at least 3 pm this afternoon...

cathy gets dressed

2005-07-09 18:51:27

For the full story see http://catherinewells.blogspot.com. There is a picture on TrannyPix in the Catherine 2005 album. This is the first picture of Catherine for over a year.

it's all happenin here

2005-07-09 09:56:20

we're havin fun in lowestoft at the moment and i'll tell you why. i'd gone to do a bit of shopping(girly of course) but when i tried to get into our shopping centre i saw lots of police there and the place was all taped off......apparently they've found a suspect bag and have cleared everyone out. ...

4am & I'm up

2005-07-09 09:14:04

I hate when I do this wake up in the middle of the night & can't go back to sleep. Dumbest thing I did this week. I tore the pocket on one of my work shirts. I need my pockets but don't know how to sew. IDEA, use a stapler. It's was fast, held good, & with the flap it didn't show. But I ...

Crunch time

2005-07-06 12:19:02

The other day Tiina posted a blog about a TW member and her spouse having an argument. That person was me. I have not been on good terms with my sister-in-law for months. Whenever she called, and I picked up, she was rude to me, barking an order for me to get my wife. I told my wife I didn't like ...

2005-07-04 14:46:50

Independence day The first email I opened this morning informed me that I had won £1,500,000 on the Swiss lottery. Yeah right, cos I never forget to buy my Swiss lotto tickets… Bastards. I sent it on to a scam-reporting site saying, "Please find these people and throw them in jail". I read ...

Seeing the DSO (first time)

2005-07-04 13:16:18

The DSO is the Detroit Symphony Orcestra. I've never seen them before because it's not my kind of music. But they do have a world class ranking. I saw them at Greenfield Village. Which is an american history museum. It's an outdoor museum containing the Right Brothers bicycle shop, Thomis ...

it's blogging but not as we know it

2005-07-03 21:43:17

Hello girls. You know, I do have things to say, but I find TrannyBlogger a bit limiting. All I can do is post one large block of text. No separate paragraphs. For a stylist this is no good at all. So I just wanted to tell you that the Life of Catherine is continuing on an open blog site (Blogger). ...

Need to Dress Less

2005-07-03 11:50:22

A few things got me thinking about this. 1> Gloria's revised thread "How Do I Live With What I Am" the fact is much better than I did before I found Tweb. I no longer obsess with it. I'm much more relaxed about being TG. Infact saying I'm TG helps me understand ...

You want to cut WHAT off?

2005-07-01 08:42:50

Hehe. Got your attention, did I? No, this is about other parts. Over the last year I have noticed a dramatic change in my body image and value system. Things about my body that did not bother me a bit or that I even saw as positive (some lovely scars that carried a macho image with them, for ...

a BIG day tomorrow......

2005-06-30 20:50:44

Tomorrow's gonna be a big day for me in so many ways. As you know,i've enrolled on a course to improve my job prospects and its going really well.All the staff cannot believe just how quickly i've settled in and been accepted by everyone else there.To be honest i've surprised myself too.Tomorrow ...

Meredith the Verbose Psycho Ninja

2005-06-30 13:16:17

Tressa called me the other day. While she knows there is a ban on my receiving calls from TG friends, she also knew it was a safe time to do so! She's in Memphis now (Tennessee, not that place in Egypt) and is doing quite well. She had some pretty good stories, especially about her visit to ...

2005-06-28 23:29:48

Sparkling lights So, Sparkle, it happened, woo hoo. I was proud to be there and be a small part of it all. Pip and I arrived mid-afternoon on Saturday, had a wander round and a coffee in Via Fosse whilst watching the world go by. A world apparently made up of mostly t-girls. I’ve never seen so ...

it's a start.....

2005-06-27 16:01:38

Today i started the course that will improve my job prospects no end.I have to say i was a tad nervoius...and still on a HIGH from the weekend(which i'll never forget) i needn't have been so nervous as i got on just fine with no probs at all.Iknowit's only for 13 weeks but if i can ...

my sparkle.....

2005-06-26 21:17:50

well what can i say about it....well simply bl**dy fantastic will dofor starters.Myw/end started when i left lowestoft fri morning to make the long trip up to manchester,which was fun in itself.Arrived piccadilly at 3.40 and promptly took a wrong turn tryin to find the international but i got ...

Gotta talk

2005-06-26 12:26:44

What do you do when the money for your future is gone. I had a very good sum of money coming when I get older. Now I'm told it's gone. Money has been coming out but nothing has been going in. They say it was bad stocks. It's not just me other people were living on it. Thier trouble is more ...

May I sit down here and learn today

2005-06-24 01:27:25

She left for her trip. Yes, it's part of her job. She is not a marriage counselor. She works in Child Support, and she obtained a grant as part of a federal Healthy Marriage program which promotes healthy families to produce good kids. So she had to attend this conference. I would have ...

Suspendid From Work

2005-06-23 15:36:10

It did it to me again no more bloogs

Big Mistakes

2005-06-21 15:46:46

Management got notice 6 months ago about new robots. But did nothing with info in fact it seems to have gone over their heads. First it's a different logic altogether so we can't write it. The new logic did come it was sitting in a drawer up front since Jan. We were supposed to go back to school ...

Time to decide

2005-06-20 12:52:02

Yesterday was supposed to be Father's Day. Supposed to be. It turned out to be the worst Father's Day anyone could imagine. The funny thing is Saturday night ended on a high note. I never liked Frank Sinatra, but we watched one of the local public TV stations broadcasting some concert he did back ...

a PERFECT day

2005-06-19 22:05:09

The title sums it all up i reckon...i did'nt fancy staying home on such a lovely day so i got myself out again for a nice long walk round a nearby park.it was nice as all the summer flowers were out and they looked lovely.Following this i took a wander down the main street through the old historic ...

2005-06-18 22:08:44

Oh Joy. This week I have been cordially invited to attend the gender clinic at the 'Hotel Charing Cross' in late August. Note, not the surgery, but the clinic, to see the psychiatrist. Again. though I was warned I would have to continue to see the shrinks, it still p*ss*d me off, as ...

my day

2005-06-18 18:15:13

it's been one hell of a warm day today so i decided to get myself out...and what a day i've had. After a slow stroll round town i called in at one of the cafe's and sat outside with a coffee and sat watching the woirld go by.The amount of people that said hello to me was amazing..made me feel ...

2005-06-16 14:55:29

Strawberry fields forever I hadn’t been up long this morning when the phone rang… "Hello?" "Hello can I speak to Fred please?" (Reluctantly:) "Er, speaking" "Oh hello it’s (name unclear) from the gender clinic" (Surprised pause) "Oh HELLO!" They’d just received my completed ...

only a week to go......

2005-06-15 20:53:15

There aint long to go now..one week to be precise til sparkle...and i can't wait.I've been saving since christmas and have amassed £220!..not bad when you consider i'm not working yet( hopefully notfor too much longer), i just have to choose a few outfits and i'll be happy. I have heard a ...

Blog Entry Take 2

2005-06-15 16:39:21

Ok I just put on a fresh pot of coffee. I'll do most of it again. As I said in this mornings post I found an error in a hospital bill I paid last March. The total bill was $610.40 I thought it odd insurance covers 90% of the 10% work pays 90% leaving me 1% of total bill. I called when I first got ...

Blog Gonit

2005-06-15 12:37:48

I just spent about a half hour writing a blog hit save & it said I had to log in again. Blog gone.

2005-06-14 23:00:32

Ripe strawberries ripe I was so proud of my first strawberry of the year I took a picture of it. It was as lovely, sweet and juicy as it was huge, so I thought I’d share it with you, the pic that is, I ate the strawberry all on my own. You can tell we’re not far from the Sellafield nuclear ...

Something interesting

2005-06-14 17:45:21

My kid is watching The Sound of Music right now for the first time. She loves it. Well, who doesn't? In my last blog I mentioned how that book came out in which I contributed two chapters. I just found out that the same publishing firm is looking for editors on another series. I got ahold of ...

2005-06-13 19:23:31

Zap! Had my second IPL session today. The power was turned up a couple of notches, and next time it will be on full whack, gulp. I have noticed a very slight slowing in growth since the first treatment, but not enough to really make any difference. Any amount of stubble is a problem, so it’s a ...

Heartbreak and hope

2005-06-13 01:43:37

I'm so ashamed to say this but I didn't get the job. Apparently economics won't allow it, so they went elsewhere. Although my wife didn't think it was a good idea for me to go there, anyway she still stood by me. Yet, it would have been nice. Back to square one. Yet, some things happened ...

2005-06-12 22:14:42

Sue. Hi all. Just been taking a couple more pictures, and I actually like this one. While playing, I also added some others to my profile and pix. The one of me laughing was taken when I wasn't ready. I was demonstrating how my boobs will look when they are 'done', exaggerating a ...

my girly shopping trip....

2005-06-11 20:47:21

I've had a VERY interesting day today. I had nothing much to do so i went shopping...another favourite girly pasttime i've picked up on.My nan,who'd passed away ages ago had left me some money inher will,.which was about £100.....so i decided to buy some things with some of the cash.We had a ...

2005-06-10 12:47:51

It's there if you want it Got up this morning to find a letter from Charing Cross gender clinic (The Claybrook Centre), not an appointment, just a questionnaire asking for basic details and confirmation that I do want an appointment to be made and that I promise I will turn up. Yes, I promise I ...

Robot Tech Not a Robot

2005-06-09 10:57:04

Monday 2hrs after we start work. Transformer blows complete loss of power. Edison says it can't send anyone out for at least 72hrs. We would be closing auto companies in north east states. Can't do that!! Worked untill 6am rewiring plant to generators. Hrs worked 17.5. Went home showerd, ...

painful or what!

2005-06-09 10:22:49

Today for the first time i tried waxing my legs in preparation for sparkle in 2 weeks time.I used those strips....god did it hurt!.It made my eyes water big-time but the end result felt great....just one of those things a has to go through to look good isn't it?All i need to do now is get my ...

painful or what!

2005-06-09 10:22:46

Piece of dirt - That is all I'm standing on today

2005-06-09 03:12:16

I love They Might Be Giants I went to that "open house" job interview after the phone interview. They had the pay range listed on the board. It was insulting low, and I would actually lose money by taking the job. I left before the BS indoctrination talk. Another BS talk. Shit. No wonder I can't ...

2005-06-09 02:49:21

Wow, I've grown. Computer now functioning-anyone beat 593 (true) errors and things in their system? Boob job now imminent (5th July), so loads more on that very soon. Expected letter from the other surgeon did not arrive this morning. Apparently, I have to go see the psychiatrist person again. ...

2005-06-06 13:11:07

It’s official… Changing your name by deed poll is surprisingly easy, you don’t even have to register it anywhere. It cost me £7.50 to download the appropriate legal document, which is basically a contract with yourself to (quote) "entirely renounce relinquish and abandon" (etc) your ...

The piano has been drinking, not me

2005-06-05 23:46:37

I really managed to find a way to f' up on Friday. I'm supposed to be laying off any booze whatsoever. Not just once, but twice on Friday my wife caught me with some wine. She refused to sleep with me that night, or last night. Well, does it matter? I haven't had any sex in months anyhow. But the ...

Just Talking

2005-06-02 16:00:57

When I got back to work I found they started a third shift. This was not supposed to effect me as they were to run the non-robotic cell. The idea was to bank parts for the 2 week shut down while we install new robots. But I have had to work late most nights while they run a couple racks of roofs ...

JUNE The Car goes BABOOM...Wendy does not.

2005-06-02 01:53:45

It's not like I didn't have enough problems in my life already. Most of them could be dealt with if I put out considerable effort. That is until this morning. I headed out to take care of the top item on my list. The rings blew on my engine. Power dropped and an incredible cloud of smoke ...

2005-05-31 13:36:05

Eating for two No I’m not pregnant. After I’d cooked my breakfast this morning I went to the cutlery drawer and took out two knives and two forks. There is only one of me though, which is probably a good thing for the rest of the population. It’s amazing how in just 2 days one can get used ...

my bank holiday

2005-05-30 13:56:22

I've had a fun day today....even if the heavens opened just as i got home. I took a slow walk into town and along the sea-front which was crowded. now i know i've said it millions of times before but i have never felt happier with things in general.I called in at one of the bars for a drink or ...

My feeble attempt at humor

2005-05-30 00:13:42

Apparently I made more than one of you stop and ask me about my possibly getting a divorce. No, things are not good at the moment. I was called a freak today once again. A few days ago Alexandra had that blog posting about going to Tunisia. I wrote in saying I'd love to go, wear a mini and ...

The waiting game begins again

2005-05-26 17:27:15

Okay, to keep it short about the interview.... My mom rented a car for me to take to the interview. The college is less than 200 miles away, so flying there is a stupid idea. It's quicker to drive. The scenery was nice, and the town was, too. I got to the hotel early but they let me take the room ...

the simple things in life

2005-05-25 13:51:00

I've never thought about things this way....until now. It's doing the everyday things that gives me most pleasure. like today for example i was out looking for paint for when i do up my place. I don't need it at the moment but it'll be handy to have when i need it. When i moved in last week i ...

The Mad Month of MAY- Here we go again.

2005-05-24 16:51:50

Just a short note. As if the changes this month were not enough. As if Wendy's swift rise to dominance of Me was not surprising enough. As if my relationship with my boyfriend, Matt, (yes, I really do seem to have a boyfriend and since he has told some of you it's ok for me to now call him by ...

I dressed up

2005-05-24 16:14:23

While I was in Fla the ladies dressed me up friday & took me out to dinner. Evan with a full makeover theres no fooling anyone. I got some realy wierd looks but we were at a privet club so no one said anything. For 2 nights & 1 day I got to be 1 of the girls. It was something I will never ...

Be back in a day or two

2005-05-24 14:47:30

Hey girls, This is just a quick post. Gotta shower up, pack up, and then hit the road. I'm driving out to that college for the interview. I'm trying to keep everything in perspective and not get too worked up over anything. I won't be around for the next day or so. While I'm sure they have ...

2005-05-23 17:07:42

Some things are meant to grow Well I’ve just been for my first IPL laser hair removal session, nothing to write home about really, but hey a girl can blog can’t she. Didn’t take long, had some gel applied to my face then several bursts of the laser which felt like being touched very ...

Getting Back to Earth

2005-05-23 13:08:57

Had a great time in Fla. Went fishing everyday untill Thur. Fresh water fishing I got skunked. But Spending the mornings on the boat with my nephews was realy great. We all grew up together. Their only a couple years younger than me & we were allways close. Now I only see these 2 a couple times ...

I'm Home

2005-05-22 14:33:57

This will be a fast post. Had a good time [great time]. Got my fishing in & got to go out as Karen in full dress. I know you all want to hear about the fishing first. But I'll write about it later. I realy have to much to do right now. Guess that makes me a tease. LOL!!! But it was a trip ...

Wendy Larsen - ONE YEAR - My Rebirth Day

2005-05-22 01:24:54

This is it. A year ago today I sat in front of a Trannyweb page. Stopped. My eyes went wide. "Oh my god! I'm transgendered!" Just like that, my life changed. EVERYTHING made sense. A life I could never get to quite run right. A personality that was a constant struggle to maintain and keep ...

2005-05-21 10:47:31

Hello girls, My monthly report is starting to become bi-monthly. It's all down to time really (or lack of it). A lot has happened since my last entry on March 27th. We've been accepted into the folds of American Express (still not good enough for PayPal though) and we also added ...

2005-05-20 13:14:48

If it’s offered on a plate… I’ve had 2 professional makeovers in the last 2 days. At one point I had one girl doing my make up while another did my nails, while another attended to my hair. I have to admit I felt very pampered, and what’s more it didn’t cost me a penny, in fact they ...

Sorted

2005-05-20 10:59:31

Perhaps people would sometimes be wiser to do as I say and not as I do. I had a near-fatal disaster this month. The part of me that has run my life for most of it....ran into a situation that was "intolerable" (the details that made this seem intolerable are a long series of stories of crisis and ...

Crouching Tiger, Hidden Meredith, Part Two

2005-05-20 02:38:49

That was a subject line I used sometime last year. Or we could say "Crouching Tigger, Hidden Pooh." Girls, I don't want to go to sleep yet. So I looked over my blogs from last year. I especially read the ones praising Backstabber University. What a difference a year has made. But I also read over ...

Saturday, April 30th, 2005. Day of Decision-

2005-05-19 09:28:42

On this day I faced a crisis so deep, so emotional, that my future, and almost certainly my life, hung in the balance. In a rage, my lifelong male program almost carried out the ultimate act of testosterone madness. I was within a few minutes of shooting a maniac dead. It's hard to write this ...

Here I go again

2005-05-18 16:42:27

The past day or so I was feeling down again because of my professional job situation. I had that phone interview with that college last week and hadn't heard a word. By yesterday afternoon I was sure it was gone and that I was once again left without hope. They want to interview on campus next ...

i's back!!

2005-05-18 11:55:02

Hi s..just thought i'd let you all know that i got moved ok yesterday into my new place.I have the PC up and running so i'll be able to get back in touch with all of you.I was rather sad to leave the old place cos i had so many good times there but i am sure i'll have lots more here ...

just a quickie...

2005-05-17 08:12:42

I literally have half an hour before the removals people turn up and i just wanted to say that i'll be back on-line as soon as i get moved in and get the PC set up. I loves ya all!!

a funny old night....

2005-05-16 13:49:54

Well, what a laugh my saaturday night out turned out to be. I'd been invited to a do at my local so i got meself all done up and off i went.I got there about 8-30, hung my coat up and went to the bar for a drink before i began mingling so to speak. There was no end of people that came up and ...

Who knows

2005-05-16 13:13:26

Things could go any number of ways right now, including the marriage. I'm trying hard, yet still find it easy to goof up. I did spend some quality time with my daughter. Yesterday I bought the Sunday paper, as usual. In the job section was a big ad for Backstabber University. Apparently the other ...

spoilin meself

2005-05-14 15:51:13

Girls, i'm just in the process of pampering myself.....bath's ready, i'm even gonna do my nails once i come out.You're all probably wondering why i'm going to all the trouble( apart from it being a girl thing)so i'll tell you why.Tonight i have been invited to a good friend's engagement do....the ...

Vacation Finely Here!!!

2005-05-13 11:18:19

Yes!!! My plane leaves tomorrow afternoon. A week out from work when I'm not sick or hurt. Between last vac, & this one . I've been sick 3 times & hurt twice. I hope the next year is a lot more productive. The past couple of days have been both good & wierd. The good I went for a med, ...

One quick one

2005-05-13 02:25:35

Well, I've never really been quick (oh dear!), but here is a quickie (oh dear!). The phone interview was great. They were very personable people, and I made them laugh a few times. I'm wishing I had answered one or two questions better, but, then again, they have my resume so they know my fields ...

Out and About in London

2005-05-12 22:12:15

Well after the weekend meet with other Trannyweb Girls I think I ought to do as I was told and add to my blog. It is ages since I did so and I can only apologise. Well the weekend meet and the visit to Transmission. I like to be able to spend as much time as Tina when the occasion arises and ...

2005-05-12 13:25:10

Having now totally lost control of my computer at home, due to involuntary testing of most types of virus, some assorted software which likes me so downloaded itself, and a most persistent hijacker taking me to some rather dubious search sites, I have decided to wipe the lot and start again as ...

Maybe solutions

2005-05-12 03:44:00

Today I met with Alicia, the CD with whom Helen Boyd put me in touch. We met at a local coffee shop known for being TG friendly (well, Gay, Lesbian and Bi-friendly, too, but that's not the point). She's going to read my manuscript. She may also be teaching for that one school I've been at almost a ...

"out" ....again!

2005-05-11 14:19:33

I did something last night that i should have done ages ago and i'm so glad i did.I have someone who i'd been good friends since we were at school together in the mid to late 70's( god i'm showin my age now), and i hadn't seen him for over a year so i calledhim last night to tell him why he'd not ...

a good day that slowly got worse

2005-05-10 20:47:30

Today i went to look round my new home...and it looks good, plenty of space and the like.I should get the keys all being well this weekend.it's just a pity my current landlord is being such a tosser over this,still insisting that i'm out by the w/end. after this i went shoppin to get some things ...

Back to zero

2005-05-10 04:06:33

As I mentioned earlier, I told Backstabber University I would still honor my commitment to do that summer class. It was supposed to be U.S. History Since 1865, which means I use my research work. Not any more. I got a letter from the interim dean today. He's been interim for over 4 years now and ...

I came right back

2005-05-09 15:41:37

wasn,t gone long was I I realy do need you & the help you freely give

What to do

2005-05-09 14:36:04

I wanted to work this out myself but having trouble. This realy has nothing to do with my family. It's me. I can't stand the thought of living in this box behind closed curtains if I want to continue dressing. Do I have to sit in my own little world if I want to express how I feel or do I ...

Bye For Awhile

2005-05-06 04:47:57

I,m trying to be happy but I can't. The shits over, I'm mostly out of the closet with my family now. It seems I should feel good but I don't. I don't know now how I feel about being TG. Like it lost something or I did. I want you all to know I love you very much. But I have to sort things ...

a game of two halves...

2005-05-05 14:12:38

For the first time ever, i went to cast my vote in the election "en-femme", i was a tad nervous as i walked in but i need not have been as i was treated with courtesy and respect throughout. I bet i was 'nt the only tranny in lowestoft to vote today, and i enjoyed the experience. Just when i ...

Great. Another screw up

2005-05-05 03:14:43

Yep, I managed to really f' up these days. I'm surprised she hasn't put me out yet, and she would have every right to do so. No, I didn't cheat! I just screwed up on two fronts. And they were first class screw ups. I can't even bear to face them. Here's the interesting part - I have been ...

Their Gone

2005-05-04 15:46:23

The shrink said I am not a sexual pervert. Also said he can't lable me TG after just one session. Well that was not the answer my sister & brother-inlaw wanted. They wanted me to be a sick person so they could present it to the rest of the family. When they started calling around to other ...

2005-05-03 16:36:07

Sometimes it’s hard to be a woman... (Stand By Your Plan) Qualities one needs to transition: Patience, determination, self-assurance, emotional strength, empathy, and a high pain threshold. I’ve been told I’m a remarkably patient person, but I don’t really feel it. I don’t like ...

I only have a min or 2

2005-05-03 14:38:26

I've had people calling me a sick faggot all night.They went throu my apartment like a storm pulling out dresses all my underclothes. They kept saying it was for my own good. Thet act like this is a part of my drug addiction. I am going to see a shrink today. I hope he'll tell them I'm not sick.

My Last Blog??

2005-05-02 17:43:09

Could be. My family is very pissed. Not sure how much they know but I just got off phone. Their asking a lot of guestions. I don't know how to answer. I will be gone for at least 2 or 3 weeks. If I come back I'll talk then. Bye Karen I can not stop crying. I don't want to go.

Racism Sucks

2005-04-30 05:58:35

I went to pay my respects to Sandy with some people from work. When her family heard where we were from they asked which one was K. I said I was. I could see the anger on their faces. Then in a very loud voice one girl said "BUT YOUR WHITE" I guess Sandy had been talking about me at home. But I ...

how true....

2005-04-29 10:52:58

In response to the comment left by my good friend tiina on the previous post in my blog.I think she is quite right.what's happened has happened,time for me to draw a line under the whole thing and get on with life cos i have lots to look forward to. Don't worry cos i am not falling ...

how i'm doing

2005-04-28 21:32:44

Hi girls,thought i'd fill you in on how things are progressing.I have been offered another place cos the first one fell through.This one's in a bit better area(safer for me) and it's more modern too...only thing is i don't have much to look out on,unlike now.BVut i guess i'll get used to it.i could ...

Healing period

2005-04-28 03:19:23

The acceptance level at home has begun. She came back from her shrink yesterday a little irritated about it, but that's understandable. In fact, we made a joke about it today. I was making a reference to something and then said, "That makes me sound like a girl." Then I stopped and said "Wait, that ...

cat gets kit

2005-04-27 18:08:45

Well in the end I just had to go shopping, I mean it's a girl's right to go shopping isn't it? Not much mind you. Just a pair of heels, in black (evil 5-inch spikes), a pair of hold-ups, and some pale pink lipwear. If that was all I was wearing now I'd be indecent, but I've filled in the gaps with ...

As close as it will get

2005-04-25 01:53:16

We've reached an agreement here at home, thanks in part to her shrink. While she will never understand my being TG - which is understandable - she's willing to endure it on a "don't ask don't tell" sort of basis. We have some other issues to work out, and as long as those get resolved, my ...

2005-04-22 22:28:07

Truths, damn truths, and statistics I was just looking at my tally of forum posts. Now that old posts are archived I have 71 filed under "archive", which could be anything. The next highest scoring subject of more recent posts is Hormone City: 36, then General: 35, Coming Out: 20, Make up Tips: ...

Hey

2005-04-22 00:58:30

Not too much to say other than I'm dealing with the problems I've caused my family. Tomorrow my wife has another appointment with her therapist and she's bringing my daughter with her. Definitely the tension and (occasional) fighting has affected her, as to be expected. I feel like dirt ...

A Sudden Death

2005-04-21 15:22:10

The girl at work that caught me with makeup on my eyes died Tuesday night. She said she wasn't feeling good but she was a healthy looking girl. She had a heart attack. This caught us all by surprise. She worked in quality controll so we had to work together a lot. She find problems I fix them. We ...

happy.....VERY happy

2005-04-21 09:13:50

I went to see the housing people this morning about my new place,expecting to go and see it today,but i'll have to wait a little bit longer.Today was just to get the paperwork signed..then i'll get a letter saying that they have a duty to house me under the homeless act...Then i get one ...

2005-04-20 16:08:29

20th April 2004 A major date in the life of Lucy, in fact the date that Lucy first ventured into the big wide world, well, a small corner of it, in Scotland actually. Though I suppose Edinburgh is a fairly big corner, for Scotland. Anyway, the events of this date, a year ago today, were to set ...

2005-04-18 22:47:41

Be who you want to be That title is actually the latest slogan for Weightwatchers, so doesn’t apply to me in that sense, what with my sylph-like figure and all, but you can see where I’m coming from can’t you? T-girls everywhere should read, learn and inwardly digest this statement, it ...

I hate me

2005-04-18 17:07:22

Yesterday I hurt my kid accidentally. We were playing around and I picked her up, only to drop her a bit. She hit her head pretty hard. I feel like crap today. I really screwed up big time this weekend.

New Union Contract

2005-04-18 01:47:54

We are negotiating a new union contract at work. No I'm not a part of the commity. They pesented it to us at a meeting today. The company want to combine 2 classifications into 1. The techs & die setters. I'm second in seniority for techs. If we allow them to do this I end up on the ...

i love paris in the springtime

2005-04-15 22:43:45

The Cat is in Paris, with her family. Which means she is full of longing and desire, but low on opportunity. There is no prospect of dressing up, or even shopping for it. Instead all I can do is watch the Parisian women walking by, with their elegant clothes and their high stiletto heels. I am ...

Do you want to be a polyester bride?

2005-04-15 03:50:37

I love Liz Phair..... I can't believe how many hits my blog has. I haven't been saying much lately because there's not much than the usual. Her anger boiled over big time last Saturday and she literally shreiked at me. But I stood there and listened because she was getting it out. But I feel so ...

Persistence of Vision

2005-04-14 09:40:09

Luck? I'm writing a love letterfor you to woo some other."Some things are glimpsed by the soul and not the eye"I'm good at making horseshoesfrom broken mirrors. It is self-cancelling.So, spin the disc of the Thaumatropeand bird and cage appear together.We're two sides of the same coinAlways facing ...

not giving up

2005-04-13 19:10:18

i'm not giving up hope of finding somewhere else to live but there's some times really wonder if i'll get somewhere before the 9th may.I went to see the council housing people today and the news wasn't good...they STILL haven't found anywhere yet.I'm looking at private places but all the ones ...

there's hope for me yet

2005-04-12 20:21:14

Things may be looking up for me at last on the job front.Today i went to see abour a job in a local beauty parlour....yes you can all stop laughing hehe.I went in and the girls there were great,made me feel right at ease whilst i was there.It tuned out they'll let me know next week in which time i ...

It's A Monday

2005-04-12 04:47:26

Taking advice from Wendy & Nancy about makeup I was practicing. Trying not to make a mess of it & me. I'm blind as a bat without my glasses. But I have to take them off to do around my eyes. I took a few pics downloaded them, looked at them then deleted them. I wiped off lipstick & ...

2005-04-11 19:12:37

‘Gotta book in that makeover’ The effects of being a ‘druggie’ Many people ask what the effects of taking hormones are. I can only speak for the ones I have been prescribed, as I have not tried the ‘over the counter’, herbals &c. I have heard some can be ...

2005-04-09 19:42:13

Must get an airbrush !! THE BIT THAT BUGS US ALL Any guesses? No, higher than that. You have a dirty mind J I am talking about the beard. The one piece that shows. Unless you become a Muslim. (No offence intended). I have tried three of the most popular methods. Correct me if you ...

Hormones &c.

2005-04-08 23:32:04

This is the technical bit. I'll list the problem first: 1) GP's know sod all 2) Local specialists seem to know even less 3) To initiate anything you need a 'name' 4) Much time and effort needed to bring them all up to speed. You have to know it all to explain it to them. So that they can ...

I'm hanging on - and some major steps

2005-04-08 12:45:03

First let me say thank you to all of you for your kind words. I'm passing the stunned/sad stage, getting through the angry stage, and am now ready to ream out the chairman (in a polite, calm way), tell him to take his potential future part-time work and shove it, and then calmly leave. Girls, I am ...

2005-04-08 01:05:53

Don't fancy yours much Katie suggested I post a log of some sort, of my final year, so here it is. Also available in Transylvania. The day is nearly here. Well, the month anyway. And it's been along time coming! I'll start with a bit of background: 6yrs ago, I couldn't carry ...

2005-04-08 00:02:15

Two small steps for a woman… A couple of things today, a letter arrived asking me to make an appointment with the local psychiatrist as my referral had been accepted, so I did, and it’s a week on Monday. Not long to wait, not long to think about it, and not much time in which to panic! No, ...

Just a Few Things

2005-04-07 14:38:30

My little Tornado is turning out to be quite a friend at night when I get home. She's seems so happy to see me how could it not make me feel good. In the morning she waits for me to get up, then takes the bed & goes back to sleep. Not a morning dog. We've set up a space in the engineering ...

Under the big black sun

2005-04-05 15:09:48

I love that album I actually woke up yesterday feeling positive, even though I had insomnia the night which followed a little argument. But that's not the issue. Okay, here it is. I'm so embarrassed. My main school won't even interview me for the job. After all I've done for them. The students ...

what a night!!

2005-04-04 10:09:21

Girls i simply have to share this news with you all.I had one hell of a nighjt saturday...let me tell you about it.I'd spent most of saturday at home and i did'nt fancy stayin in so i got meself all done up and headed off to my local for a drink or three.It's the only place in town that i ...

as time goes by

2005-04-03 17:08:31

I had lunch in the week with my friend Catherine, or should that be my ex-friend Catherine. It was the first time we had met since a disastrous lunch over a year ago, where I came out to her and she reacted very negatively. That was a crushing experience and I haven’t come out to anyone since ...

March: Getting off the rollercoaster

2005-04-03 14:47:07

I still have some fairly significant issues to deal with in the TG aspects of my life. However, for the first time since last May, those parts of my life that are NOT about being TG are the most siginificant issues I have to deal with. Oh, I have emotional events that are important. My major ...

Thank you!

2005-04-02 14:01:23

I want to thank everyone for thier comments to my last blog. I don't know why I let things get to me like that. But I start feeling all this selfpity & I can't stand myself when I'm like that. Only one issue realy bothers me & I talked to a friend I'm going to dump it in her lap to see if I can ...

2005-04-01 22:07:52

What’s in a name My dad came round today and we had a long chat. He said he still didn’t really know what to say to me but he didn’t seem to be having too many problems there. All this is quite a shock and fairly incomprehensible to him, so I think the underlying thing is that he doesn’t ...

2005-03-31 17:07:52

Back on top After feeling somewhat dejected and out on a limb I woke up the next day feeling much better, as though my strength had returned. I feel I am at last in control of my own life and want to show how positive that is to those around me. But their feelings are really out of my control so ...

I'm still around

2005-03-31 13:39:42

Hi all, I know I have been very quiet lately. I've just not been in the mood for much. Easter weekend was all right, and almost disastrous. I'm supposed to lay off any booze but managed to find a way to have a little. In my overtired state, combined with the booze, I acted stupid. Not ...

an apology....

2005-03-31 08:58:58

It seems like my last post was ill judged going by two of the comments left by both cerys and shan,and to be fair they are both right in what they say.I just put down anything without giving any thought to the fact that what i was writing was complete and utter b****x. I have got a lot of things i ...

no news is good news......

2005-03-30 22:05:51

They say that no news is good news.....or something like that. i haven't heard a thing regarding the housing situation i'm in.i know there's still a few weeks before i have to move but i'm getting concerned that i won't have anywhere to move to when my time's up.i've been looking at private ...

How Could I Have Done That

2005-03-30 05:58:17

The past few nights as I laid in bed I would have a memory of a specific moment when I used drugs. The details will all come back. The people that were there, what was said, & what I was feeling at the time. If it would stop there I'd be fine. But my thoughts allways shift to the people I ...

2005-03-29 16:07:26

Please try to understand before one of us dies Despite the light-hearted Fawlty Towers title, I don’t know if I actually want to blog at the moment, but I have to do something to stop the tears so let’s give it a go. It’s been a difficult day, and I’ve only been up a few hours. I’ve ...

My monthly report...

2005-03-27 22:29:25

Sorry I don't get time to post in my blog more often. It's Easter Sunday and I've been sitting at this computer, answering people's queries, solving their problems, sending emails and working on our new navigation system since 9.30am. Now it's 10.30 pm and I'm very tired. I'm hoping ...

Feeling Better & Other Things

2005-03-24 14:59:29

Doctor gave me the OK to return to work next week. When I talked to the HR department I was told to come in early for a meeting. I'm on the new emegency action team. I was given this post because I wasn't there to say no. I was given first aid training for the same reason. I realy need to stop ...

Getting there

2005-03-23 19:42:03

As I wrote in a forum posting, I told my mother about my being TG. She was totally supportive of it, and also totally surprised. She had no idea at all. I guess I pull off the drab act quite well. Now what I want to do is finally get all dolled up and post my picture here. It's high time ...

2005-03-23 12:59:51

Do you want chips with that…? No fried brain will do thanks… Having spent the best part of an hour on the phone to my dad last night I did indeed feel like my brain was fried. I tried to send a couple of emails shortly afterwards which I’d normally whiz off in a few minutes, but found I ...

happier all round

2005-03-23 10:38:13

I've not been too happy with the way things have gone for me recently,but today with the first dose of spring sunshine i feel much happier inside. Yesterday, unknown to me i'd been out doing my usual thing and apparently my mum saw me and she said how much more confident i seemed as a ...

Why I've been gone.

2005-03-21 13:15:08

My exile lately is not because I don't love you all anymore. I just stayed away because I didn't want to bring any more nonsense here. I know you all say "That's what we're here for," and "you can talk to us anytime," but doesn't it get tiring to hear the same crap from me over and over? I just ...

a VERY interesting night

2005-03-21 10:34:24

I had a VERY interesting night on saturday! i'd decided to go out to my local pub for a drink cos i did'nt fancy staying in.I got meself all done up and off i went,getting there around 9-ish.Got me drink and pulled up a stool at the bar.I got all the usual but just shrugged them off cos i knew why ...

Sleepy Day

2005-03-19 11:00:07

Had a bad day yesterday all I could do was sleep. When I did wake up I was talking to Anna & allmost fell out of my chair. I signed off with out waiting for answer(sorry Anna). Went to hospital where they opend right lung. As more & more fluids came out I felt much better. Stayed untill ...

I'm still here

2005-03-18 03:54:57

Hi girls, I'm okay. I think maybe I should come out of hiding and join you all again. I'm just not all that talkative these days, which means a lot of people would be shocked. Apparently I'm quite verbose. I'm sorry if I haven't been saying much to any of you, especially those who really need ...

i need a hug

2005-03-17 23:10:50

it's hard to imagine things being any worse than they are....but that's just it...they arer.For starters there's all the trouble i have been having with kids chucking stones & bricks at my windows,which has scared me like FK.on top of that my landlords been a right tosser,blaming me ...

2005-03-17 22:36:32

Two down, one to go. I found out that my dad is away this week so he won’t get his shock-horror email until Monday at the earliest (…and breathe). I was a bit nervy about him receiving the news but less so now, maybe by Sunday I will be again, but perhaps not so bad. I know what I’m doing ...

Pneumonia

2005-03-17 13:20:48

I guess my system was a little weak from the other stuff. I went to doctor yesterday morning for cough keeping me up at night. I'll be off work till end of month. He gave me 3 different breathers 2 antibiotics & a nebulizer. I realy don't like missing the work. It's going to put me behind. 2 ...

From exile

2005-03-15 13:40:15

Hi girls, I hope to be back more full-time soon. Right now I need this little self-imposed exile in order to straighten things out. I'm holding on to hope. I'm just not myself these days, and that might actually be a good thing when you consider all the stupid stuff I've done lately, ...

2005-03-14 18:25:37

Lucy D-day Today I emailed the letters I have written to my dad and brother, tomorrow I’ll post a similar one to my stepsister. An attack on all fronts. I now have to play the waiting game for them to reply. If they ever want to speak to me again that is. Reading through the letters last night ...

Hair Remover

2005-03-14 00:32:03

When I tried shaving some of my chest hair it left the skin realy tender. So, I bought a lotion. Tested it on a small patch like it said, came out fine. Yesterday after work I spread it on my legs. At first they tingled, then burned. I jumped in the shower all the hair was still there. My legs were ...

Might be away for awhile

2005-03-13 14:07:54

Life does not like things to go good for me more than a day at a time. I'm facing yet another serious crisis, so I'll probably be gone for a little bit. Hopefully not more than a week. If I can pop in, I will. But right now I need to put things right, and the chances of that are ...

Class About Done (thank God)!!

2005-03-10 23:11:33

Except for getting up at 6am it was pretty easy. I did learn something I didn't know about entering values in file system. Realy letting the program do it for you. Figering out no one value is a lot of math but doing it 50 times in a program gets old. It's a big place dealing with all skilled ...

And I'm back

2005-03-10 17:56:04

I'll try to be brief. Knowing me, though, it ain't happening. Had a terrible night's sleep Sunday. Got up at 4:30 a.m. and jumped in the cab 20 minutes later. I was sooooo tired when I got to the airport. I slept a little on the plane to Atlanta. Then I had to drive about 2 ...

christina's visit...

2005-03-10 15:24:52

I have just spent a few days in the company of the best friend a girl could wish for.Christina came to stay with me for a few days.She arrived on the monday afternoon,and within an hour,she'd got all done up and we headed out to tesco to get something for tea.That was fun i can tell you,specially ...

2005-03-10 01:24:01

The unsent letter Today I wrote my dad "The letter", the one that tells him everything he needs to know about me but was afraid to ask. Well to be honest everything I have always been afraid to tell him. To say I am emotionally drained would be a serious understatement. I wrote from the heart, ...

Be back soon

2005-03-07 01:20:45

Hi girls. Yes, it's only for a few days. But this could be the biggest interview of my life. I'll be back on Wednesday. A lot of fights lately because of my being who I am. I heard some word I wish I never heard. It hurts. Anna-Marie and Tressa -I took a chance by ...

2005-03-06 03:47:54

A maid in the parlour, a whore in the kitchen, no hang on that's not right... It’s been a very, very, VERY long time since I had a dinner party, well I mean more than one friend round to dinner at any one time, but tonight I broke the deadlock. Ann, Chris and Liz came round, that’s my ...

March 5th

2005-03-06 01:37:35

Up at the top where it says subject. I couldn't think of one. Just Bullshit didn't seem right. But thats what it is I guess. I got new breast forms. I'm not going to tell you how they make me feel & other dumb stuff. I do like them though. Anyway, when I dressed to see how they would look, all ...

I Got Promoted

2005-03-03 06:25:29

After all the crap that went down Monday. The company CEO came in today. Now I've only seen him twice before. I was approached & told to go see him in the front office. There was another tech allready there from day-shift. He said the 2 of us have been selected for further training. A new ...

What's going on

2005-03-02 13:29:39

Hi all. Yes, I've been distant lately, and probably will be for a little while. But it's like that in general and not just here. But here's what has been going on. Financial troubles are not getting any better, and we may have to take a certain action to keep everything. I spoke to an ...

happier....i think

2005-03-01 10:07:41

I'm feeling a little happier today than i have been for a while.I guess i just let things get to me..what with all that's gone on with me.I have been to see our council housing people who were very helpful and i should hear from them in 10 days as to whether they've found somewhere suitable for me ...

I'm feeling so sad,all i want to do is cry..........

2005-02-28 11:28:14

It seems just recently that things for me have gone from good to bad....and from bad to Worse and i don't know why.Firstly i have had probs with kids chucking stones at my windows,cracking several of them.This culminated in them putting a brick through the window downstairs.It looks like i will now ...

Just Rambling

2005-02-28 00:52:16

When I came to TW today I was basic. I upgraded, annual insted of monthly. I said sometime back I didn't think I was being charged. So I got full membership free for 2 or 3 months. I'll send another check next week, make up for it. I went to new chat room. Clicked on regester. It's paypal. I will ...

2005-02-27 16:13:15

Testing the water I went to Mummy’s for dinner last night. Although she’s seen me dressed several times that was the first time I’d actually spent the whole evening there in Lucy mode. Always a chance she will have unexpected visitors but I wasn’t too bothered; I feel I can stop hiding ...

There are no promblems - only opportunities...

2005-02-27 14:54:39

Times have been very hard recently and they're getting harder. I'm not a depressive person (honest) and am normally bright and upbeat about most things. However, I can see from looking at the tone of my blog so far, that I've done nothing but moan and complain. Sorry. I think ...

This Next!

2005-02-26 19:00:37

I'm at the stage now, where I'm almost scared to check my email because every time I do there's another catastrophe waiting for me. The latest is this. Our other payment processor (Metacharge) have informed me that because of an administrative mistake, all of the subscriptions taken ...

Will wonders never cease?

2005-02-25 13:38:40

Okay, yesterday's blog bragged about my infamous bad moods. When those happen I just retreat and stay away from everyone because I don't want to take it out on them. But yesterday two things happened - One, I sent off the proposal for my hopefully second book. If all goes well it will be ...

Going to try harder

2005-02-24 14:55:42

I haven't been around much lately because of the way certain things are going. This past week alone has been a bit of a nightmare. First there was a major problem dealing with our bank account and proving we paid some bills, then my tire blew out on me the other day while driving fast down the ...

good news?

2005-02-24 10:13:44

Things seemed to be going from bad to worse for me what with being evicted in 2 months even though it's not my fault what's happened...but i may have some good news on the employment front as today i have an interview at a local business centre to see whether or not they can offer me ...

Just A couple of things

2005-02-23 15:49:48

Got some new lingerie yesterday. Came in three packages. Content lable was on outside. I think my mail lady knows as I've been buying to much. In fact I know she knows now. She left them in my screen door not at the mail drop. Bless Her ...

so unfair but what can i do?

2005-02-23 10:03:41

Just when i thought things were getting better for me,i go and get another set-back....only this one is a BLOODY big one.I've had probs with kids throwing stones at my windows over the past few weeks and the little buggers have cracked 4 of them.The flat downstairs had it's window broken right ...

It's been a January of Conflict and a February of Emotion

2005-02-23 07:53:53

I have to go back to December. In January my male-side twin completely revolted against the changes. Took over and would NOT even admit Wendy was real. Rationalized her out a dozen ways. Yet always admitted that we are TG. Cognitive dissonance. Emotion vs Logic. It was awful. We went back to ...

2005-02-22 15:40:08

That was the year that was February 22nd, the date I joined Trannyweb, one year ago. Oh how my life has changed already, but more importantly, oh how I intend to change my life even more, oh how I have taken control to determine my own direction, the one that is right for me. I often wonder how ...

i'm one happy girl

2005-02-22 10:14:01

I am one very happy girl today.....cos it's my BD and im gonna spoil myself rotten too.Later today i'm going to get my ears pierced and have my nails done too.After all a girl's gotta spoil herself on her BD hasn't she? Got loads of lovely cards and pressies too,and tonight i'm off to my local ...

Getting back up to speed

2005-02-21 20:17:48

Howdy, all.......some interesting days lately. As I wrote in a forum piece, I came out to my youngest sister as being Meredith. She was totally cool and supportive about it. I come from a large family, 6 kids, although there are only five of us left as my eldest sister died two years ...

HAPPY

2005-02-21 11:02:58

I've ed the 5,000 mark.....YEAH!!!!!!!!

one WILD night!!

2005-02-21 09:58:27

Well what can i say....except what a night!!...but lets start at the beginning shall we? I had a call from JJ to say could she come up on friday night and i said "yes,go for it" so she did.They did'nt get here until the early hours of saturday morning...just as well i was up then.We had a drink or ...

Thinking out loud

2005-02-20 16:41:57

Been getting emails from someone named Amber. She's a cd but asked what TW ment. I want to know how she got my address. The name that appears as senders my first name than -ureal. This person seems to know a bit about me. Only one person knows my first name, I don't think she would do this. So then ...

movin on....

2005-02-18 09:48:42

I've decided now to put a line under this whole sorry episode and get on with my life....but not before i called chrissy to tell her just how much she'd hurt me.I wanted her to hear me say it in person,not by some damned e-mail.This was something i just had to do before i could move on,now i have ...

New Shoes

2005-02-17 18:18:17

Quick chat before work. I just got 3 new pair of shoes. They ALL fit. Thanks Chris. It's been a good week so for. I got 2 nightgowns like my sisters use to wear when I was a kid. The long lacy nylon ones. One of the first things I ever put on. I need to stop I'm buying all the things I've wanted ...

thankyou so much.....

2005-02-17 09:54:29

As some of you probably know by now,i've had my heart broken again and am trying to deal with it the best way i can....by keeping a smile on my face.It's hard i can tell you but it is something i just have to do.I get times where i think.."what if??" but i try to block them out.I have to say what's ...

crying....

2005-02-16 09:43:36

I have had the news i was dreading last night....i've been dumped again...and by email too.That heartless cow chrissy has decided to get back with the wife,only she did'nt think to tell me until now.I am absolutely shattered cos i really thought we had something special together..how could i have ...

Triangulations

2005-02-15 14:54:18

The muse came back, a bit long sorry,applications for the post of editor currently being accepted i.The higher you climbthe more the ground looks likea map of itself.I'm keeping my eye in,once again trying to relatelife's tiniest murmurs withgreat themes and back again,in too straight a ...

Hi

2005-02-15 13:44:47

First of all, thanks to all of you for your support. My being TG right now is the least of the issues around the house. We're not divorcing, nor having a separation where we see other people (which we don't want anyway). It's a matter of me getting my head together, even if it requires my leaving ...

oh no...not again!

2005-02-15 10:18:47

I'm probably worrying about nothing here but i can't help it after the last time.I had chrissy at mine last friday night and she was planning to stay the night but went home cos she said she did'nt feel too good so i thought "fair enough" and she left mine about 11-ish,getting back to ipswich about ...

2005-02-14 15:29:40

A Valentine’s day message I was talking to my love, Pippa last night, as we do. As it turned midnight and valentine’s day was upon us the conversation turned towards our meeting, our friendship, our first night together, what the hell happened? It was something neither of us had really ...

Told Sis About Karen

2005-02-13 23:21:47

Looks like I was very scared about nothing. When I told her she smiled & said I liked holloween to much. She doesn't want to see Karen. Then she started talking like me & Karen are 2 people. I told her I'm allways Karen not just when I dress. Took 30min to convince her I'm not gay. We went back & ...

Whatever next?

2005-02-13 21:43:16

When I posted my last blog entry a week ago, I could have no idea that the coming days would bring us to our knees. It took about two and a half years to get our PayPal account and our membership software working in harmony. Eric and the gang in Canada have spent a huge amount of time on it ...

Hurt My Shoulder

2005-02-12 17:05:52

Pulled my shoulder out at work. Hurt like hell. They gave me codine for the pain but I'm a recovering addict so I don't like taking it. Been clean since aug. of 97. Tried putting on some hose but can't reach down with right arm. Dressing doesn't feel the same without them. Got my first wig what ...

Dig little digger

2005-02-10 23:42:38

I haven't done much here at TW the past few days. JJ noticed this some time back, and, of course, it's been said to me around the house. My emotions tend to be one of two - extremely happy or down and out. I'm actually both right now. A terrible little row yesterday and all the ground I've ...

She's22 Part 2

2005-02-10 16:53:48

Turns out she was using me to get back at someone else. I don't care for gossip so never knew they were going out. Told him if I knew I wouldn't have gone out with her. He said it's the way she is. Thats why he stopped seeing her. Oh well it's done. Karen

She's 22

2005-02-09 15:12:35

I'm 46, I was very flatterd when she said she wanted to go out. But I can't find anything we have in common. When I told her I was headed home she said she was coming with me. She did. That part I realy liked. She's making plans for this weekend. I don't want to go out with her. When I told her I ...

Here and there

2005-02-07 17:06:15

Haven't blogged for a while. Much to celebrate. And a lot to fear. I'm home today. I canceled my classes. I had a horrible night, and bad stomach cramps. It's probably all stress related. Financial matters are starting to come to the fore again and I'm really getting scared unless ...

not a nice feeling

2005-02-07 10:17:53

I was savouring what for me had been a wonderful weekend with the girl i love so much when things kicked off.For ages now i've had trouble with kids hanging around in the area outside my house and last night things got worse...a LOT worse.I'd been sitting watching the telly last night and ...

Promotion

2005-02-07 04:01:38

I moved up from (just a girl) to Lady in waiting. How did it happen. And I'm so happy. Thank you, Thank you. I feel all growd up. Bye Bye, Karen xxxooo

What? Two blog entries in two days?

2005-02-06 14:11:02

Thanks for your comments and ideas girls. I really don't think that TW should become a sex site for tranny admirers. I was only thinking of giving them a little more, perhaps in separate area. Of course that could also mean that we will have more of them hitting on us so maybe ...

2005-02-06 13:33:29

Now where were we…? My cousin, Tracy came for dinner last night. I’m very fond of her, we’re quite close though I don’t get to see her that often as she lives about an hour away, and is a busy girl. However this week one of our relatives moved into the area, which means that Tracy will ...

simply magic!

2005-02-06 11:16:25

I've just the most amazing few days i've ever had in my life,in the company of a lovely girl .Chrissy arrived around 8-25 on friday night,and she was every bit as i'd imagined.I opened a nice chilled bottle of dry white wine and we shared a few glasses whilst we sat .I was literally in tears ...

Then suddenly...

2005-02-05 15:30:18

Okay, so I don't write my blog as often as I should. I have been very busy though, galavanting around the world being a top tranny fashion model (I wish). Today I've posted some pics from my recent photo shoot in Sydney in a new TrannyPix gallery. I'm particularly pleased with them as ...

2005-02-05 13:44:47

I am here for a reason, not because I have nothing better to do… My apologies to Christina for posting on her blog by way of retaliation for being named and shamed for something I did not do. It was not my intention to argue about who the real Miss Spellings were, only to defend myself against ...

Friday Finely

2005-02-04 15:43:30

Not had a good week at work. One crisis after another. When you sell parts to the auto conpanys you can not miss a delivery or you face huge fines. Do it twice you can lose your contract. Insted of taking the time to fix things right we put band-aids on them. In their eyes if it's working you don't ...

not long to go now....

2005-02-04 10:00:51

There's not long to go now til my darling chrissy comes to stay with me for the weekend.....a few hours and she will be here.We've waited so long for this day and its upon us.God i've got butterflies in my stomach as i'm typin this...and the shakes too!! but once she's here i just know i'll be ...

I'm trying

2005-02-03 19:01:00

I haven't blogged for a few days because I really didn't, and maybe don't, have too much to say. Things are far, far better around the house, as I wrote a few days ago. I especially need to let go of things. When an apology has been made, I shouldn't feel the need to say it ...

one day less to go...

2005-02-01 10:21:36

I'm startin to get the shakes now cos there's not long to go now til chrissy comes to see me.I can't beleive how lucky i've been in meeting and falling in love with such a wonderful like her.For so long now i've wanted to have an LTR with another t-girl and now i have one i just can't believe it.We ...

Help with my pc

2005-01-31 15:30:52

In my e-mails there are addresses to open to confirm orders or whatever. But I can't. When I click on them nothing happens. I called dell & could not understand a word she said. As far as changing settings I realy don't know what I'm doing. I write ladder logic for plc's but that has nothing to do ...

Weekends Over

2005-01-31 03:47:54

After a shaky start it was pretty good. I haven't worn drab since fri afternoon. Kendra gave me her yahoo id. I didn't know what it was so I tried it as an e-mail, didn't work. So I put her name in google. It brought me to her blog here on tw. I kept looking around & found her web site & all the ...

Maybe I am somebody

2005-01-31 03:44:03

Girls, bear with me a moment I had a horrible week. Yesterday (Saturday) was nothing but terrible. I was so down and out, thinking everything was over. But you came to my rescue. Or, maybe I helped rescue myself. I spoke to two of you. I called Tressa, like I usually do. She, as ...

From Kat to Karen

2005-01-29 22:35:13

Do you like it. I do. Karen sounds more like me than kat. I'm 46 thats to old to be called kat anyway. Karen PS Kendra. In the pic you posted. It just dawned on me your not wearing a bra. FLUZZY!!

Im'not sick-Physically

2005-01-29 15:11:56

Doctor called I'm O.K. Your morning screams & jumps. I'm doing them all over my apartment. They feel pretty good. Know for the BIG issue this morning. When I called my sister her husband answerd. I could hear my niece Screaming in the backround. When R told Kat to be quiet I sort of went in shock. ...

Not Well Yet

2005-01-28 20:36:03

Have been feeling off past couple days. Work called this morning asked if I'd do some overtime. I went in but had to leave early because of pain. Went to doctor. She ran some test. Will know tomorrow. I realy am tired of getting sick. This is the third time in 6mon. Plus off & on for 5yrs. Talk ...

Thanks, but there's more

2005-01-28 14:37:55

Girls, thanks so much for your words of support. But you should know that I haven't been myself for quite a while now. I've let so many frustrations and heartaches get the best of me. I've been saying and doing things that I shouldn't. I have acted like an idiot more times than I care ...

Not Me Yet

2005-01-26 05:21:20

Meredith asked if my icon was realy me. THANK YOU!!! But no. I like playing around with photo editing. Not sure how I got started trying to make myself look like a woman. As time went on & a few thousand trys. I'm getting better at it. I've evan done some stuff for people at work. I only charge ...

Still playing waiting game

2005-01-26 01:38:27

I went and applied for that job in the UK today. I really don't think I'll get an interview. And not because I don't think I'm qualified. I'm actually seeing it from the school's point of view - how expensive will this be to not just interview, but to move me out there? Still, the ...

never happier

2005-01-25 15:53:54

I can honestly say that right now i've never felt happier than i have been now.And it's all down to the love of a VERY special girl who i hold so dear.Of course i'm taking about the lovely chrissy...who i love so much it's not true.I swear that someone sent me down an angel from heaven in the ...

2005-01-24 14:28:43

A postcard from the lakes Pippa my love, thank you for a perfect weekend, again. Your promptly written blog touched me deeply, you are so sweet and I am so glad to have met you, and well, it’s all very moving. I’m sure most of you out there will have read the afore mentioned blog, so ...

Slow Weekend. I Think?

2005-01-24 01:32:15

Got a foot of snow yesterday. I love looking at it through the window when I know I don't have to go out in it. I dressed myself up. Cleaned my apartment. I then got drunk off my ass. I didn't mean to when I started. But the more I drank the more I liked the idea. I lost track of a few hours. Woke ...

This dream is driving me insane

2005-01-23 17:30:09

Girls, again I apologize for starting off morning threads with a downer note. Tiina, thank you for what you wrote there - you all did cheer me up. But I also think it's high time I stop being self-centered and concentrate on the real issues. Okay, so I received two bad letters. I'll get over it and ...

And hold on to the dream

2005-01-22 13:12:31

Just when I was doing better, I received a rejection letter. I really thought they were going to talk to me. I was so upset. I felt like such a failure. But when I dropped my daughter off for a playdate I started to come around a little. She hasn't seen this other little girl since going to a ...

falling in love

2005-01-22 10:37:24

I'm so very happy this morning...want to know why?..well i have fallen in love with a wonderful t-girl i met here on TW,to which i owe so much.Her name's chrissy and we have been talking for a long time now.I have been there to support her cos she's had a tough time recently.I knew i was falling ...

Releved

2005-01-21 15:17:55

Finely herd from doctor. The polyp was non-cancerous. They told me not to worry like I was going to do anything but. Cancer seems to run in my family so it was scarry. I suprised my bosses at work by taking a 3 day weekend. To get evan they cancelled a week long seminar at the end of the month. ...

2005-01-21 14:20:09

Round in circles Just a quickie, while my nails dry (typing with a pen), for anyone who may be interested in the continuing saga with PayPal (when your card expires it could be you)… Still no sensible response from them; yesterday I got a mail saying, "On 01/18/05 I replied to the email ...

2005-01-20 13:02:18

If at first you don’t succeed… Although I’m now back to full membership without having to renew my subscription early, I still believe that PayPal’s automatic procedure of cancelling existing memberships with other websites just because card details need to be updated is completely ...

the new me!

2005-01-20 11:08:07

I have been using the names "maria-anna" for ages now,but now i feel it's time i changed them around cos they sound much better the other way round.So from now on girls i'll be calling myself "Anna-Maria" cos i think it's much more femme and girly!! don't you agree....

feelin on top of the world!

2005-01-20 10:55:30

I'm feelin on top of the world this morning....why i hear you ask?? It's because last night i had my first girly night out and it could not have gone much better than it did.I got meself all dressed up and off i went up to my local.The first time i walked straight past the place,but the second time ...

Change in plans, and maybe for the better

2005-01-19 23:42:24

I am dead tired. My wife had to do a one day trip downstate to complete this training required for her job. I essentially got up at 4:30 a.m. to make her breakfast and send her on her way. She rode down there with that idiot she works with but has to take Amtrak home. We'll pick her up at the ...

my first girly night out!

2005-01-19 15:09:47

I did'nt think things could get any better .....but they have! I'd called into my local pub to see a friend( the landlady) who'd asked me to come up for coffee cos she hadn't seen me for ages.So up i went for coffee and a good old fashioned girly chat...which was so much fun.I wasn't treated any ...

2005-01-19 14:04:59

Diamond on gold again Cerys you’re a cynic. Had my card not been due for renewal I would have been suspicious… Shan, yes I had contacted Katie to inform her of this strange occurrence, and she responded quickly, efficiently and courteously by reinstating my gold membership. Unlike PayPal ...

2005-01-18 23:20:13

No pals of mine I’m a little bit peeved today so I’m going to have a whinge, I don’t do it very often do I? This morning I got an email from PayPal saying that my credit card was due to expire so I should update my details or terrible things might happen. Conscientious and law-abiding ...

Just Tired

2005-01-18 13:52:18

Long weekend at work. What was supposed to be a simple job is being anything but. The part they want to run is so big my robots don't have space to move. These robots are like big arms fastend to the floor. They reach over pick up a part & move it from place to place. Trying to get clearence has ...

the last BIG hurdle

2005-01-17 15:22:30

Today,i've passed the last big test i have set myself to do since going F/T.as you know i'm currently not working at the moment..not through lack of effort on my part in looking for something.Today's the very first time i have signed on "en-femme"and it was such a buzz,me walking in there looking ...

Decisions, despair and delight

2005-01-17 00:14:57

As I wrote in the forum, I am contemplating coming out completely as being TG. It will have to be slow, for there is so much to consider, yet I feel the need to do it. It will be gradual. I will probably tell my mom first. My best (male) friend knows and is supportive. And he's a ...

Alone

2005-01-15 03:15:37

What's going on I'm the only person on this site. I haven't been able to log on since wed. I need my tranny fix. I have been trying to figer out how to ask some things. Stuff about myself that confuses me. I'm sure most of you know what I mean. Then I went to forum. WOW!! A lot of what I want to ...

My lovely day

2005-01-13 23:43:16

Today I had to go in for jury duty. About 100 people were there, and not one of us was called in to be on a panel! NOT ONE!!!!! What a waste of time! I actually wanted to get on a panel, and then get chosen for a trial, just to see what it was like. The real bad part of it ...

fun,fun,fun!!

2005-01-13 12:00:59

Have i just had fun or what!! As some know, i managed to get my piccy in our local paper..god knows how i did it but i did(yes i know i'm a tart chris,you're just jealous).Anyway i decided to try and get a copy of the pic,and was talking to clair last night when she suggested i call in at the ...

a BIG thankyou....

2005-01-13 10:11:27

I would just like to say a BIG thankyou to all you girls that have left comments on my previous post in my blog.It's so touching to know that so many girls think that much of me to leave such nice comments. I know i'm not perfect...but it's Nice to think i have such understanding friends ...

Got to dress

2005-01-13 01:21:48

Got tired of looking at new dresses hanging in closet. Took day off from work. Put on some hose & a dress. Been wearing them since early this morning. Feels nice. Took a long look at how I look. Need a lot of work if I want to pass. And I do. Thats something I wasn't sure of but I am now. I know I ...

2005-01-12 15:59:24

What you waitin’ for? So asketh Gwen Stefani, love that song. 2005 feels much the same as 2004 so far, give or take a digit, and my life seems much the same, but one should never expect miracles… As I mentioned, me, Pippa and Cerys met up at the village just after I got back from my family ...

i'm so happy....

2005-01-12 15:18:56

I had my big appointment today and it went even better than i'd ever dared to hope.I was nervous as hell as i walked up to the reception desk and told them who i'd come to see.I sat down in the wating room to be called and there were a few in but not many.Anyway i was called by rachel, and into her ...

Been very busy

2005-01-12 05:25:37

Haven't had a day off since the hollidays. I have 4 new dresses. I got to try them on & thats it. No chance to dress. Nothing to realy write about. Work, home, work, home. I've been reading blogs trying to get a feel for who's out there. I would realy like to make some online friends. I guess I ...

if it helps me....

2005-01-11 10:10:55

Tomorrow i have my appointment with the mental health practicioner that my GP referred me on to.I'm hoping very much that it will help me to better understand myself and why i feel the way i do when dressed.I think what will help me is the fact that the person i have to see is a GG,which i think ...

It's been a busy December

2005-01-11 03:33:08

coming soon, to a blog near you :-)

Meredith the Psycho

2005-01-11 02:24:39

Some of you wondered about the steak knife incident. Okay, here it is: One Sunday night my wife wasn't feeling well so I served her dinner in bed. I made a nice little steak dinner. When I was bringing the plates downstairs one of the steak knives fell onto the floor. Just as it hit the ...

I figured it out

2005-01-09 05:44:20

Girls, a few blogs back I mentioned how I dreamt I was fully dressed at my main school. I now remember where I saw that outfit. In the film "Better Off Dead" the actress Diane Franklin had on the outfit that crept into my dreams. What I would give to have it! Speaking of schools, that ...

Gotta Share!!

2005-01-08 06:18:21

I wasn't going to write. Crappy day at work, realy busy, lot of problems . I got home about 11:30 found a package in my door. I knew it was some dresses I orderd. When I looked there were 3. A crop neck,blue just above the knee. Not fancy just nice to wear. The second a blue & white smock. But the ...

Now that my rocks are out of the sink, what do I do next?

2005-01-07 04:16:19

Today marked the fourth straight day of being able to dress, the first time in a while. I'll be able to tomorrow as well. Like the Chuck Mangione song, "Feels So Good." She came home tonight a little earlier than expected, having been able to hop on an earlier flight. It was a warm ...

Tests Done

2005-01-06 19:04:08

I had it done because I've had 2 bowel infections in the past 6 months. They found 1 large pollop, removed it, & said the rest looked good. She doesn't think it was a cancer. Will let me know in a week when it comes back from the lab. She seemed sure so I ain't going to worry. Lifes been to good ...

britney article progress report

2005-01-05 23:24:58

No reply from Zoe Williams to my email. I wonder if I'll just appear in her next article. I had second thoughts about sending her my comments, seeing some of the forum comments, but what's done is done. Anyway I got home early today and had a short time dressed on my own. This is really something I ...

a walk outside

2005-01-05 23:22:55

Yesterday was the last day of the holiday. I found myself alone after lunch, so naturally I dressed up in all the girly clothes I have at the moment. These are all black. It’s not a complete outfit as I don’t have a dress, so I had to borrow Mrs Cat’s. I added some lipstick but otherwise ...

Got my rocks out of the sink, and femme for a third day

2005-01-05 18:39:06

I finally got my rocks out of the bathroom sink. Yes, those rocks.......... Gotta fix the toilet seat too. That's a totally different story. I swear, I'll destroy the world if given half a chance. It's a very snowy day today, with more to come. This is my third straight ...

Down Day

2005-01-05 17:01:48

Read Kriss's blog. I know how she feels. Your good people but to me your so far away. I would like to find a group in the same time line. A lot of you know each other, go to the same clubs, shop & so forth. It's hard not to feel like an outsider. But I'm glad your all out there. I need an ...

interesting news

2005-01-05 10:16:01

As some already know,i went to see my GP in december to see if there was anyone he knew of that could better help me understand myself and what it means to be TG.It was fun trying to explain to him the whole cd/tv/ts thing but i tried anyway.He said leave it with him and he'd get back to me in 2 ...

cathy is back!

2005-01-04 23:59:57

Large as life and twice as loud! I did some extended dressing today. I have quite a lot to say about it but it's late and I'll save it for tomorrow. Instead I have been reading and responding to a very interesting article about cross-dressing in today's Guardian. See the forum for ...

Home alone

2005-01-04 18:21:50

Well, I dropped her off at the airport this morning to go to that marriage conference required by her job. I did well and didn't moan about anything. Now I have the house to myself and can indulge in my dressing again, like I did yesterday. Yet I still feel left behind, but in ...

first of many....

2005-01-04 13:54:58

Today i did one of the most important things i've ever done "en femme".I had an appointment to see someone at my local CAB office,and boy was i nervous!!I'd been out before in public but never to somewhere like this.I did phone in advance just to see if it was ok.I told them that there had been a ...

It's been an Intense, Thanksgiving Weekend.

2005-01-04 06:35:00

I have left this too long, but I only decorated my Xmas Tree a day or two ago. Things continue to progress wonderfully in my life, but it required a lot of work from me in December. My car died 1/4 mile after I drove it the first time, but it's only a shorted alternator. Will try to get it ...

First Dress

2005-01-04 05:01:59

My first dress is here. I have more to learn about buying clothes. I can get it on & the fabric feels great. It's a bit small & clingy. I have a bit of a belly. O.k. maybe 2 or 3 bits. So it looks like I'm having a baby. I guess I'll send it back & wait for the next one. On the bright side it looks ...

all in the end is harvest

2005-01-03 23:40:08

Our Christmas break was overshadowed by the news this morning of my grandfather's death. He was 96. My grandmother had fallen out of bed and broken something, he called an ambulance for her, and when the medics arrived he fell down the stairs on the way to letting them in, and had a stroke. He ...

My rocks are in the sink

2005-01-03 04:55:30

No, not those rocks. Get your mind out of the gutter and let me explain.................. I was cleaning out my Zen fountain and forgot to put the stopper in the sink and a s***load of rocks went down the drain. I got most of them out, but there's still two or three rocks in there. With a ...

What A Week

2005-01-03 01:15:24

I joined the Trannyweb. I orderd my NEW dresses on line.(These will realy be mine.) I orderd 2 books on crossdressing, you know how to. I also orderd one from trannyshopping an e-book. I paid got the numbers I needed. It says there is nothing for me to download. I'm a little pissed. I'll bitch ...

here's hopin.....

2005-01-02 10:31:16

I Saw the new year in,but had to do it in drab..yuk!! i d it,but i still had a good time anyway..drunk too much but what the hell..it was NYE after all.On the stroke of midnight i raised a glass to all my sisters on TW all around the world,specially karen.Just after midnight i got the most ...

New Year

2005-01-01 04:46:22

Tiina your right it is just a start. Dressing up is something I've wanted to do for a long time. I started by putting on mt sisters clothes when I was in the 6th grade. Evan though I liked it so much I thought it was odd. I knew I could never let anyone know. Then a few months ago I was looking at ...

2004-12-31 23:04:09

New year, new computer, new life My computer has been on the blink since I last posted, just didn't want to start up. Got on briefly once or twice but it just froze up again. So today I bought a new computer, not too expensive,as far as computers go, but better than the last one I hope. It ...

A resolution

2004-12-31 14:03:26

Happy New Year to all my dear sisters! The past year, especially the past few weeks, have made me realize some things about myself. Talks with Tressa and Maria especially helped, as did many of the comments you girls have left for me. My one resolution is to deal with "The Demon," that ...

Oh Boy

2004-12-31 04:23:02

I've been working 12 hrs. a day. I'm a robot tech. We're installing 4 new robots at work. Have to have them up & running by Mon. But thats not why I'm here. I've orderd some dresses on line. They will be here soon. Before I can evan pretend I can look like a lady. What is the best way to get rid ...

dressed at last

2004-12-30 16:10:45

I've had almost no time on my own this Christmas. But at last the time has come. All my family have gone out for a long walk, and I'm dressed again. All in black, with pale pink lipstick. I can't begin to describe how wonderful it feels so I won't try. But to celebrate, I've recreated an album ...

Approaching the New Year

2004-12-30 13:37:05

While things are better at home, even after considering this past Monday's nasty row, things aren't the best with my in-laws right now. The thing is I really don't care at the moment! I know that sounds evil, but there is my side to these stories and I don't think they take my side seriously ...

Oh Boy!!

2004-12-30 02:58:43

I have been writing for allmost a week. I looked in the derectory I'm not in it. I don't care if people want to read it or not. But I was saying things I never said before. My desire to look & feel more like a woman is strong. I've ordered dresses of my own for the first time in ten years. I want ...

2004-12-28 12:45:05

Back in the pink I’ve been putting on the performance of male gender role for the last 5 days having spent Christmas with my family, although after a few glasses of wine I’m sure my performance slipped at times, and I became just that little bit more Lucy. So it was nice to get back home and ...

back at home

2004-12-27 23:16:13

My parents' home in Leicestershire is not a place for trannies. Not that they ever discuss it, but you know from their comments on everything else that they just wouldn't understand. No chance to log on to this site either. Add to this other family members who think grown men with long hair are ...

my year

2004-12-27 21:09:06

i may well not get to postanymore this year...but what a year its been for me in so many ways,starting when i met christina for the first time in march,followed by JJ,Nena and Fay in april.there has been somuch that has happened both good and bad(karen).but it has alsobeen the year where i finally ...

MY GIRLY SHOPPING TRIP

2004-12-27 20:59:37

TODAY FOR THE VERY FIRST TIME I HIT THE CHRISTMAS SALES "EN FEMME".... WHAT A BLAST THAT WAS!! BEING ABLE TO SHOP FOR GIRLY STUFF WAS SO MUCH FUN..EVEN THOUGH I GOT A FEW LOOKS BUT THAT DID`NT BOTHER ME IN THE SLIGHTEST.I JUST LOOKED AND FELT LIKE ANY NORMAL WOMAN WOULD AND I LOVED IT.I BOUGHT ...

Feeling better

2004-12-26 21:00:12

Christmas went well. My turkey was FANTASTIC!!!!!! So was my gravy (can anyone say "high cholesterol levels?"). However, I am extremely jealous of my kitchen, but on the holidays I do allow my in-laws to, well, invade it to do some cooking, like the sweet potatoes. The one ...

my girly christmas

2004-12-25 20:59:52

It seems like my friends have finally accepted me for who i am.Id gone out with them for a drink yesterday when a few of them asked if it was me they had seen out dressed,so i said yes it certainly was.Their reaction surprised me in as much as they said it did not bother them in the slightest me ...

My Christmas gift

2004-12-25 01:41:03

It's amazing what it takes to realize your life. I have learned that in less than 12 hours. Whether I maintain it is something else. My family - my wife and in-laws really - and all of you said something to me that made so much sense, and I want to use it all. I spoke with ...

On this Christmas eve

2004-12-24 05:24:31

FINALLY the computer problem at home is solved. This little thing is fantastic, and now I can, once again after months, chat from home! I love it! My Christmas eve day will start with a visit to my shrink. I just wish I could finally get rid of that little insecurity demon of ...

still not heard...

2004-12-23 09:57:31

As some of you know,i recently went to my GP to see whether he could refer me on to someone who could help me..cos i'm planning on going full-time next year.it's been nearly 3 wks and i've heard nothing.I just wish he'd get his finger out and get in touch with me..cos the waiting is driving ...

i want to be like a woman!

2004-12-23 00:08:03

I've spent an evening in the pub with the lads. It was very pleasant and not at all sexist. But I want to be like a woman! I want to dress in female clothes all the time and be accepted for what I am. I saw so many women in the pub who represented all I want to be: slim, sexy, feminine. One ...

In case I don't get a chance.....

2004-12-22 15:17:25

Everyone, in case I can't get back online before Saturday, I truly wish all of you the best and happiest of holidays. Lord knows you all deserve it. You will always be in my heart, and I will certainly drink a toast to you on Saturday. I might have to do it alone while cooking, ...

Meredith in hibernation

2004-12-21 15:28:25

With family coming in for the holidays, Mere will have to take a little vacation. I'm not thrilled about it. Well, maybe Mere will be there underneath. I tried going to Victoria's Secret to treat myself to a Christmas present but they didn't have what I wanted! I'd order it online ...

Report on my visit to London

2004-12-20 11:07:51

I managed to get away from work before 2:00pm and changed at the first motorway services. From then on I was Tina for the rest of the time. Unfortunately it took 6 hours to get to the hotel and I almost arrived late but having got there dressed i only had to freshen my make up and change into ...

no news is good news

2004-12-20 10:05:43

well nothing new has happened since last week.I've got all me christmas shoppin done..just gotta get some booze in then i'll be sorted out.I'm just takin it easy the rest of this week.I have to go out on friday lunch-time for a few drinks with some friends i used to work with...would'nt it be a ...

2004-12-17 01:57:02

Change of image Went for a haircut last night, how unexciting you all groan, well it was quite, as it was the first time I’ve had it done whilst dressed. My friends had said I could dress if I wanted, last time I went, but I didn’t, as I didn’t want to scare them too soon. They’d invited ...

Almost ready

2004-12-16 21:32:58

OK so I'm almost packed. Thanks for the comments from those who left them I am probably going for the second look the one I posted yesterday. Why is it when you pack you never seem to have enough space even though you are only taking the minimum amount of things. Any way I am going to be able ...

I've been so boring

2004-12-15 15:32:02

I won't be posting much these days until something more interesting happens. Still waiting on word from some schools about upcoming work. In the meantime I'm racing to get final grades done for this semester. I really can't wait for next term because I'll be doing my Asia class ...

sarah's visit

2004-12-15 13:04:22

I have to admit i was a tad nervous as i stood waiting for sarah's train to Arrive,we'd emailed and spoke to each other on the phone but this would be the first time that we'd actually met each other.Then when the train pulled in...the butterflies started!She recognised me almost instantly...mainly ...

happy...

2004-12-15 09:47:41

I'm Meeting my friend sarah from Norwich in just over half an hour...and i can't wait!! We've spoken on the phone,exchanged countless emails but this will be the first time we have met and i'm nervous as hell...hope she likes me... i'm sure she will!!....more to come L8R!

This is somewhat funny

2004-12-14 15:15:12

Well, maybe to me it is. Last night that guy who does handyman work for us called to say he'd be popping by today. My wife was talking to him, and a joke was made that if he shows up and I have a girl over I'd have to share her. When she hung up we both started to laugh that it ...

what keeps me going

2004-12-13 19:28:19

As a secret dresser, I can't do a lot of things I'd like to do. I don't get any support from my family, my church, my work, or the rest of the world (if only they knew...) And sometimes the effort involved seems to outweigh completely the benefits. At these times I wish I had never thought of ...

Computer woes to an end?

2004-12-13 18:06:16

We were able to finally make a deal with someone to build us a new computer for practically nothing. So hopefully within the next week we'll be back fully online from home. That also means I'll be able to chat from home. I have to wait a few more days to see if that one school is going ...

lookin good....

2004-12-13 12:32:18

Things are looking very good for when i finally decide to go full-time from next year.I have been trying it out this month to see what the reaction to me would be..and it has been very good so far.i 've been out every day so far this month...and i can count the looks i've had on one hand!Although i ...

Have fun

2004-12-10 16:10:34

No whining or complaining today, no feeling sorry for myself, etc. When I get home I'm getting dressed, that's for sure, then grading the 5 million terms papers I have to read by Monday! Today I should know if I'm being brought in by that other school. I hope so. The income will ...

2004-12-10 15:13:21

A girl’s best friends A quick update on the week’s events, as far as I can remember them. After the formal dinner last week I had dinner on Sunday with my mum, brother and his girlfriend. I felt much more natural, more like myself, having decided that I wouldn’t try to be in bloke mode, ...

big steps.

2004-12-10 10:10:21

As some of you know,yesterday was a big day for me...i was going to see my GP to see whether he could help me to understand myself a bit better..me being TG and all.I had to go in drab which i d....cos it made me so uptight and nervous.I explained the situation to him,how it made me feel...even had ...

Latest Entry

2004-12-09 17:57:10

Well it is ages since I managed to find time to write here. Quite a lot has been happening but not necessarily for Tina. Still things are beginning to look up as I am due to meet up with Katie and Sarah in London on the 17th which means that I can be dressed on my birthday the 18th which ...

One nightmare down, many to go

2004-12-09 15:23:58

Got the car back yesterday. While it was a nightmare, some good came out of it. For instance, we're all caught up with the payments now because of a deal. The thing is, there was no need to take it if they would have waited a measly 12 hours. Yet my wife didn't want a public ...

another BIG step...

2004-12-09 10:21:40

I am taking yet more big steps today.This is something i've thought long and hard over but i'm going to do it anyway...i've decided to go full-time as maria from today.I have realised just how much happier i am this way.It makes me feel more relaxed and at ease with things.There have been ...

A new nightmare

2004-12-08 16:00:37

Girls, I may not be around much for a while. Last night they came and repossessed my car. I can probably get it back today, but it's been a living nightmare. Just when I thought things were turning around they went right back the other way. My wife was, naturally, very upset ...

what a trip!!

2004-12-08 15:01:46

What a trip i've just had!!! it could not really have gone any better than it did.I did "the bank" and i did'nt get the reaction i had expected.The cashier actually complimented me on how i looked and how i was passing.i literally stood there in a daze,scarcely able to believe what i was ...

my very first "girly" shopping trip.....

2004-12-08 13:35:56

I'm at it again after the BUZZ of my first trip out "en-femme" during the daytime yesterday..i'm havin my very first y shopping trip today...and i am loving it big-time!I am dressed similar to yesterday,the only difference being i have on a pale blue jacket instead of the pink one.I figured that if ...

Two nights in a row

2004-12-07 14:48:43

Two good nights sleep in a row. What is wrong? Plus, I didn't feel the need to have any sort of drink yesterday, no matter if it's one or a whole bottle. Still, not out of the woods yet. But I am feeling better. The little Christmas concert last night was cute. Those ...

2004-12-06 15:17:40

it's MY life....

2004-12-05 11:18:40

I'm feelin a little happier today but not much.I have to go round to my mum's for dinnner today,and for the first time ever..i'm not looking forward to it cos of whats gone on over the past few days.I'm not sure what to expect....or how things will go.One thing thats botherin me is that one of my ...

2004-12-04 21:47:40

Listen to your heart It’s surprising how simple things can be emotionally draining. I wonder if these things are actually affecting me more than they used to or if I’m just becoming more aware of them and the effect they have on me. I can see why people get screwed up without realising it. ...

screwed up!

2004-12-04 10:20:22

Thats the state of my head this morning,and i'll tell you why.Yesterday for the 5th day running i got out "en-femme"..and i enjoyed every minute of it,going in lots of shops and generally feelin good about myself.Then in the evening i had no end of probs...first my phone packed up in the middle of ...

friendship

2004-12-04 00:08:04

Why is is that people who you thought were good friends turn their backs on you,when they find out that you are TG?...i had just such a friend,fine at first but now he`s completely ignoring me as if i was`nt there at all! This really hurts cos we`ve been friends ever since i moved in next door 4 ...

Have fun this weekend

2004-12-03 14:49:37

Since I don't think I'll be back around until Monday (I hope not!) here's my weekend wishes for you. Today should be interesting. Tomorrow is a full day. Breakfast with Santa, then something at my kid's school, then friends of mine are having an open house. I was getting mad at ...

This might finally be the end

2004-12-02 14:30:11

There's been nothing but one problem after another these past few days. This morning we had a horrible fight. For only the second time in all our years of marriage did I remove my wedding ring and leave the house without it. While I'm hoping it will all settle down, it's finally looking ...

the cat goes shopping

2004-12-01 19:40:32

This is what I bought. From Ultimate Shoes: a pair of black stiletto court shoes, size 8, with 4.5 inch heels; and a pair of breast forms. From Doreen Fashions: a shoulder-length dark brown wig, straight hair, with highlights; a sleeveless black minidress; a black bra, pants, and holdups; and ...

better than sex???

2004-12-01 19:03:29

If you read my last two posts you`ll know what i`ve been up to.Well, i did it again today and it was an even bigger buzz! clair said last night its like a drug,going out "en-femme"....if it is then i`m addicted..i stepped out looking every inch the perfect business woman in my black pinstripe suit ...

Who knows?

2004-12-01 17:54:25

The interview today went okay. They were polite but they violated one of my biggest pet peeves. If you know my background and have reservations as to if it would fit in with the job, THEN DON'T INTERVIEW ME!!!!! They knew I have a PhD, lots of publications, etc., and it seemed to ...

2004-12-01 15:40:49

A design for life Pippa’s beaten me to it with her blog about the weekend’s events, so that will save me (or you) from some waffling, as is my wont. I must add though that for me it was one of the loveliest weekends ever. Pip and I had the best night in, cosy and romantic, and just very ...

It's been a long six months

2004-12-01 04:44:51

I'm not sure which feels better, dressing for the first time in 6 months, or finally being able to afford full membership. But both in the same week! I'm glad I didn't have to pick because I would have missed dressing again So much has changed for me since joining on May 22, ...

oops i did it again

2004-11-30 20:23:20

I got out again this afternoon..."en-femme" of course,and it felt even better than yesterday.a few people got a bit close but not one word was said.it made me feel so good knowing that i pass convincingly.Passed a bus queue and gave them something to look at...not a thing.good or what!All i can say ...

I hope to get this all resolved

2004-11-30 14:47:46

I won't go on about the usual BS today. I do have things to take care of, including preparing for that hot interview I have tomorrow. I better get something, and soon, because the school terms are about to end and I will need to bring in money. I just didn't think that I would actually ...

THE PERFECT PICK-ME-UP!

2004-11-29 18:54:12

I HAD NOT BEEN FEELING TOO HAPPY SO I DECIDED ON A DAY"EN-FEMME",SO I GOT MYSELF DRESSED AND DID THE USUAL GIRLY THINGS AROUND THE HOUSE.THIS AFTERNOON,I THOUGHT TO MYSELF...SHOULD I GO OUT?..SODIT I WILL! SO OFF I WENT..DETERMINED TO ENJOY MYSELF.I LEFT MINE AROUND 3-30 THIS AFTERNOON,IN MY BLACK ...

lonesome tranny

2004-11-27 20:13:23

The family went out for the day today, leaving me alone with a huge pile of office papers. This situation coincided with a huge desire to spend lots of time dressed. Unfortunately, I don't have any outfits. I decided to drive into Guildford in drab, in search of something to wear. I went into ...

Take away this ball and chain

2004-11-27 16:17:14

Wow, I love Social Distortion..... Still not well. She came with me to my shrink appointment yesterday. What I would give to be good. Today is a gloomy day here. I love it! Girls, I'll be okay. Thanks for your well wishes. I referred to myself as "Mere" yesterday a few ...

happier...i think

2004-11-27 10:05:44

I'm feelin a bit happpier than i was last night cos i had a few things on my mind that i needed to sort out.....a few glasses of wine....try a bottle of wine certainly helped cheer me up,and i got things sorted out as well.I'd been trynig to contact a few friends i made when i first joined TW over ...

annoyed!

2004-11-26 10:22:28

Why i hear you ask???..well, i've recently tried to get in touch with a few friends that i made when i first joined TW over a year ago now.I have sent umpteen emails and greetings..have i had any response...have i hell as like.I mean,there may well be a good reason why i have heard nothing from ...

switzerland and after

2004-11-24 19:04:03

As expected, I didn't manage to dress up during my short stay in Basel. If I'd had an outfit, though, I would have brought it with me and spent the evening en femme in my hotel room. I realised, too late, that even if you can't go out dressed, you can still have a lot of fun in your room. Look at ...

Suddenly there is hope

2004-11-24 15:21:16

Girls, I apologize for my behavior. Maria has to bear the brunt of this because I pester her constantly. And, JJ, I will never forget what you said to me that night. No, I don't want to pack it in. I'm too strong to give up. Yet sometimes I feel everyone would be ...

Spiraling out of control

2004-11-22 18:17:02

This was a horrid weekend. Once again I acted the total jerk, letting everything get to me - finances, insecurities, fear over losing everything - you name it. That means I barely slept last night and today is a marathon day for me. I have my two regular classes then a night ...

2004-11-21 17:30:25

Follow your heart Well I’m quite exhausted. On Wednesday I went to see one of the people who has recently found out my secret, in fact he’d invited me to dinner, so I put him straight on a few points and did my best to explain where I and others like me were coming from. He seemed genuinely ...

a big thankyou!!

2004-11-20 10:08:39

This is just a quickie to say a BIG-THANKYOU to all you s that have left such kind comments in my blog,it has really helped ease the pain of my nan passing away.She was buried yesterday,and i think we gave her a good send-off.The one thing that kept me going throughout the service,was all the kind ...

Have a great weekend

2004-11-19 17:34:28

I don't know if I'll be back until Monday. Had a good session with my shrink today, the first in 3 weeks. I do feel better. Now I gotta go home and put out some fires. I think it can be done. We're going to be alone tomorrow night and I can't wait! Maybe we'll do that ...

Who knows when I can post again?

2004-11-18 15:08:50

Hopefully our computer problems at home can be fixed soon. I hate having to wait so long to post anything, whether a blog or a forum comment. This morning I got to open the bathroom door while my wife was taking a shower. Seeing her through the glass, well, let's just say that if it wasn't "that ...

sad day

2004-11-18 11:27:20

Just in case some of you are wondering why i'll be rather sad tomorrow,i'll tell you...it's cos tomorrow my nan's being buried,and i might..have to say something at the service,but it isn't definate yet.One of the things that'll help me get through what's going to be a tough day,is remembering all ...

2004-11-18 02:47:03

Must we hurt others to stop ourselves hurting? The comments on my last blog, inspired me to write this one, I may comment on those comments either in order or at random, I don’t know, I make this stuff up as I go along. Situations can be a puzzle, sometimes we just know, sometimes we don’t and ...

Smart move there, Meredith

2004-11-17 18:41:15

I'm been hiding some information at home about some unpleasantness, hoping I could take care of it first. I might have to come clean. Lovely. But maybe it could help solve the situation. This is funny, though - Yesterday I did some laundry. I had to put this sheet in the dryer a little ...

Got one more minute here!

2004-11-16 14:38:22

Again, girls, I loved speaking with you. I felt like I was at the party! I toasted one or two glasses to you at home, although I should be laying off the sauce these days. Especially since I need to find some serious solutions to some serious problems, and fast. Friday I had a great day with ...

2004-11-16 12:21:06

Aftermath Maybe that stage hasn’t yet been reached, or maybe this is the start of a long process, which may go on for the rest of my life. Who knows what the repercussions of people in my home town finding out I’m transsexual will be… I’ve spoken to one of the people that has heard the ...

gettin harder

2004-11-16 11:47:49

why is it that i am finding it increasingly difficult to find work where i live? This might sound like a moan and in a way it is.This morning,for example i called in at all the local agencies i'm registered with....nothing!!,job Centre....nothing,even the local papers....nothing!! I am getting ...

another conversation

2004-11-15 22:30:20

I was driving Mrs Cat and the boys home tonight, on my way to a meeting. Mrs Cat asked when my next appointment with my GP was. I thought for a while and said I didn't know, it was some time away. She asked if I was going to tell him about my problem. —"What problem?" I asked (I have lots of ...

Got a quick minute here

2004-11-15 19:18:52

I thought I'd write a quick blog before my next class starts. I didn't sleep well again last night because I'm fretting over finances and not losing the house. There are solutions to the problem. I just don't want my wife hurt any more. I'm still dealing with my insecurity ...

Rockpools

2004-11-15 10:54:52

Then I was keyed into light in all it's brilliance that year I lived with a cameraI saw reflections everywhere. The half mirrors of shop-front glass. In frozen pools the long morning-early winterlong shadowsImpossible to catch without getting yourself in the frame. I saw the colour in everything ...

ONE WILD NIGHT!

2004-11-14 18:53:31

I HAVE JUST ABOUT RECOVERED FROM WHAT WAS ONE HELL OF A PARTY LAST NIGHT.CLAIR WAS FIRST TO ARRIVE AT MINE,GETTING HERE AT 2.30 PM...AND WE WERE EXPECTING THE OTHERS(CHRIS,FAY,JJ AND EMMA0 SOON AFTER BUT THEY DID`NT GET HERE TIL GONE 7.FORTUNATELY ALL THE FOOD HAD JUST COME OUT OF THE OVEN.I LAID ...

2004-11-14 18:14:56

Outed Somehow my secret seems to have got out. How the fuck did that happen? I don’t know. It’s the not knowing that’s the worst. Perhaps it shouldn’t matter how it got out, but I feel I need to know. My friend Ann rang me this morning to warn me of a rumour going round, at least amongst ...

one day to go!

2004-11-12 09:56:36

There's only one day to go...until i finally get to meet my good friend Sarah from norwich.We've been chatting via email for so long,it'll be nice to meet at long last.She's away in wales at the moment with "family business" but should be back late tonight.She has said if there is any problems then ...

hopeless at map-reading

2004-11-11 23:48:11

It's been a long day. I started off by addressing the Royal Institute of Navigation. My speech was met with thunderous applause, probably because it was much shorter than anyone else's. I was the last of five speakers in a marathon session and they all wanted a break. The other speeches were too ...

Here for just a second

2004-11-11 15:53:19

Life is kinda crazy, stressful, you name it, these days. My computer at home is still screwy, so I'm not around much. I acted the total fool the other day. I let my insecurities really get the best of me and I said a lot of REALLY STUPID things. I feel so bad about it. I ...

i can't wait!

2004-11-09 14:33:01

As some of you are aware,i'm throwing a party at my place this weekend and several of the s fromTW are comin...clair,chris,fay,emma,JJ and sarah too.Normally i would'nt get too excited about a party at mine...but this time i am big-time.It's all because i have got my good friend sarah coming ...

Panic to hope to panic again

2004-11-08 19:15:37

Some papers I have been dreading were delivered on Saturday. Now I have to act extremely fast to save everything. The birthday party went quite well, although we were so glad when all the girls went home the next day! I've been having negative feelings about my main school for a while. One ...

SO TOUCHING....

2004-11-08 18:58:47

HI GIRLS,I WOULD JUST LIKE TO SAY THANKYOU SO MUCH FOR ALL YOUR KIND WORDS AND COMMENTS AT A TIME LIKE TIHS.THIS IS JUST WHAT II JOINED T-WEB FOR,AND I HAVE NEVER ONCE REGRETTED IT AT ALL.I AM BEARING UP UNDER THE CIRCUMSTANCES,AND REALLY DO APPRECIATE YOU ALL BEING THERE FOR ME WHEN I NEED ...

2004-11-08 02:35:54

Well kneaded Having had a fairly uneventful week I toddled off to Pippa’s yesterday, and had the pleasure of sampling her dumplings, almost legendary in these parts, and yes I am talking dinner if you were wondering. Was lovely, traditional Lancashire fare and the lovely Pippa as hostess, what ...

SAD NEWS

2004-11-07 23:46:38

hi girls,i`m not feeling too happy and here`s why.earlier today my nan passed away,and as we are a pretty close knit family it has hit me quite hard although a few glasses(trebles)of rum have certainly helped to ease the shock of what`s happened.i am sorry if i don`t seem my usual happy self,but ...

Might not be around for a while

2004-11-04 16:32:28

Just got a second here..... Bad to worse to disastrous. Not unless I do something and quick. There may be options. My computer at home is still f'g up, so I might not be around much for a few days.

THANX !!

2004-11-03 22:48:30

I WOULD JUST LIKE TO SAY A BIG THANKYOU TO THREE PEOPLE FOR THE COMMENTS LEFT ABOUT THE LAST POST IN MY BLOG.I AM TAKING ABOUT YOU CERYS,CLAIR AND MERE..THANX SO MUCH.WHAT CERYS HAD TO SAY WAS CERTAINLY TRUE..IF YOU WANT CONSIDERATION FROM YOUR FAMILY THEN YOU HAVE TO SHOW SOME IN RETURN TOO.HOW ...

A little more calm, except for the f'g election

2004-11-03 18:06:58

George W. is back in. Great. F'g great. I think I'll shoot myself now. I'm a little more calm right now. I slept better last night, although at one point I did awake in a panic, with my heart racing. But there are some solutions to the problems. I can either fret ...

cathy come home

2004-11-02 23:35:41

I think I’ve been away for about three weeks now. Longer than ever before. Did anyone notice? Does anyone care? I don’t know. The climate at home is so hostile to dressing. I don’t want to go on about this but it’s real difficult. I’m trying to hold on to my dressing beliefs even ...

ONE VERY MIXED UP GIRL

2004-11-02 23:29:15

I HAVE JUST HAD THE MOST AWFUL PHONE CALL IMAGINABLE...AND I AM ACTUALLY IN TEARS AS I WRITE.EARLIER THIS EVENING I WENT OUT FOR A SHORT STROLL"EN-FEMME",JUST LIKE I ALWAYS DO.COMING BACK I PASSED A A GROUP OF PEOPLE AND ONE OF THEM RECOGNISED ME,SHOUTING "GET YOUR TITS OUT" AFTER ME.WORSE STILL,HE ...

Be back soon

2004-11-02 16:04:09

Hi all, My computer at home is - once again - having difficulties, so I've not been around much. Plus, I'm in an absolute panic these days over finances. I need a solution, and fast. On top of it all, other than lingerie under the drab, I can't dress! I've barely slept the last ...

first small steps

2004-11-01 20:22:01

I AM ONE VERY HAPPY GIRL,COS TODAY I GOT THE CHANCE TO DO WHAT I`D ALWAYS WANTED TO DO,AND THAT WAS TO GO OUT "EN-FEMME" IN DAYLIGHT.OK,IT WAS ONLY UP THE ROAD TO RE-DELIVER A FEW LETTERS THAT WERE`NT MINE,BUT AT LEAST IT WAS A START.I WAS A TAD NERVOUS AS I STEPPED OUT OF MY DOOR WEARING MY PINK ...

i's happy

2004-11-01 10:14:06

There's nothing much to say really,i am quite happy with the way things are at the moment.I'm havin a do at my place in just under 2 weeks and am trying to organise things for that.But i got some good news...well,good news for me anyway.My good friend sarah's comin too...and i am so happy.We've ...

2004-10-31 16:26:10

And on the seventh day God laid his feet on the back of the armchair and he sleepeth ‘til noon I was never especially fond of Sundays, probably because of work looming the next day, but at least it’s an excuse for a day of rest. Today has been good, in fact it’s been a good weekend, in fact ...

Sleep well

2004-10-29 04:10:51

If you haven't read my last blog, there was another surprise for me other than I won't be there for the next semester. There was another event there, and, OH GOSH, they forgot to tell me. I wrote the Academic Dean about the Spring term, and, oh, they forgot to tell me. I bent over backwards ...

a DaMN good day

2004-10-28 19:17:50

i`ve actually had a good day for a change today.first of all,the things i`d ordered off a website came,and with "maria trindall" on the parcel too...my first mail with my femme name on. I had ordered a pale pink twin set and a black skirt with silver flowers on.I have them on now and they are ...

Bad to worse

2004-10-28 14:35:16

Pity party again. The field trip with the ladies the other day went fantastic. I felt I really helped their understanding of history by taking them to that museum. They loved it. But life doesn't like me to be happy very long. Yesterday was okay for a while. My nighttime class had a whopping 50% ...

What a day

2004-10-27 15:50:45

Okay, marathon day today. And, on top of it, I am a standby juror for tomorrow. I'll find out this afternoon. While I normally wouldn't mind, I'm just not in the mood. Actually, I'm not much in the mood for anything. I got chewed out big time last night for screwing up the ...

Academia is fun

2004-10-26 11:07:51

Still in the stages of self-forgiveness. I really need to learn to let go and move past my mistakes. It's not easy. I'm still having some bad dreams and bad nights. I've been up for a while now, although, in all honesty, I got up early to see my wife off. She had to go all the way downstate ...

the new happier me

2004-10-25 09:24:29

As you know just recently i haven't been too happy what with certain things and certain people on my mind(as i posted previously),i have been talking to Meredith a lot and what she's said to me makes a hell of a lot of sense...just try and put it behind you,it's ok to be sad but pretty soon it's ...

How are you?

2004-10-25 01:11:46

How are you? Are you well? One of the students I asked to work with/for me as a research assistant is really into the project. Anything that will help her upcoming career is a joy to me. I wish I had these opportunities when I was that young. And now, to futher make my life busier than ...

The road to recovery

2004-10-24 12:47:22

After making a total ass out of myself Friday night, the road to forgiveness became shorter than expected. What I need to do is to forgive myself. I can't do that right now. Last night we watched "Van Helsing." "Van STUPID" is more like it. I was rooting for the bad guys! ...

I don't know what to think

2004-10-23 01:52:59

I spoke to Tressa and Maria today. I tried to call Mariette. Tonight was horrible. And this is not a cry for help. If I could right now, I would leave this world forever. I don't want help. I just want out. No more. I'm tougher than anyone, but I just want ...

Pippa is so right!

2004-10-22 17:45:15

To openly respond to Pippa's comments to my blog from yesterday, I agree with her. That's generally how I do my classes - I teach and use the board. I use videos and/or computers solely for illustration purposes. This one school, as I said, rams the technology aspect down our ...

a DAMN good friend

2004-10-22 14:00:45

I've not been feeling too happy cos i have a lot of things on my mind,but there's one friend here who always cheers me up with her kind words...even though she lives over 3,000 miles away in chicago.I mailed her today,basically telling her what was on my mind(sarah),and how i was feeling inside,cos ...

being there for someone

2004-10-22 09:59:23

Two good..and i mean GOOD friends have split up recently.To say i was shocked was an understatement when i heard,and i've tried to be there for both of them although it's been hard when i have things on my mind too..(sarah).I have spoken to both of them on different occasions,so in a way i can see ...

Meredith to the rescue! Well, maybe

2004-10-21 22:57:23

Well, this is interesting. Okay, that school I used to bitch about and then liked... I'm bitching again... As I mentioned before, my next class at that latest school started last night. It was at this VERY ritzy Chicago downtown hotel. They have a main campus out in the suburbs, but their off-site ...

Here come the marathon days again

2004-10-20 15:23:28

That latest school of mine is on this rolling schedule of intensive 5-week terms. My first one ended two weeks ago, and the next one starts tonight. So that means I won't be getting any sleep for over twelve hours from right now. The one good thing about today is my main school is off this ...

2004-10-19 19:09:31

Nights in pink satin Saturday, as most of you will be aware, was the night that Trans-mission returned to Manchester, so of course I was there, as were Pippa, Cerys and Shan. Was a great evening, my only disappointment being the music which was more like the stuff they play at the London ...

Trying to get my act together

2004-10-19 17:41:14

I'm tired again today. Which is odd when you consider I passed out last night still wearing my daytime shirt. I was able to dress for a while before that dude came by to paint. Then it was goodbye to Meredith for the day. I overworked myself yesterday and it made me a bit goofy. That's ...

things were getting better....but

2004-10-18 09:16:45

Just when i thought things were getting better,this happens.I should have spoken to my friend sarah on the phone saturday for the first time.I was just as nervous as she was.I sent a message sayin i'd be home from 11 am and to call then,i waited til 12.30 then came out to check my mail.It seems as ...

Look before you leap, Mere

2004-10-17 23:23:12

I feel somewhat dumb at the moment. I've been sending out some messages to many of you. While I did know of some "drama" going on between several of you here, I'm starting to wish I knew more in advance because, well, while my messages were of good will, looking back now they appear ill-timed. I ...

happier

2004-10-17 09:58:30

I'm feeling a bit happier this morning...unlike last night when i felt as though everybody was having a pop at me cos of what i am,and wanting to go out "en femme".When i said i did'nt care,i meant about what people say...not what they think.(which i do care about).I think my mum was more shocked ...

why do i feel so sad

2004-10-16 22:01:41

well i`ve just had about the worst weekend ever!! firstly my mum found out i had been going out "en femme"and we had aquite a row.i was called a few unpleasant names,and accused of being selfish and only thinking of myself.It felt like i was being accused of not considering the feelings of the rest ...

I hope you're all well

2004-10-16 01:29:14

Nothing to comment on here, girls, other than I hope you're all enjoying yourselves this weekend. I am making a doctor's appointment. Maybe there was a little death wish inside me, thinking if I was gone all would be better. But that can't be true. I have too much to do while I'm ...

thanx nena

2004-10-15 09:49:05

Well,a certain person was right,wasn't she? It was just before the august TM that nena said not to be nervous and you'll gain a lot of confidence from your first steps out "en femme" with others like you.I admit there were things i could have done a bit better but i'll know next ...

Some serious problems

2004-10-15 04:10:22

Girls, don't be surprised if I don't come back for a while because I'm put away. Maybe an asylum is the best place. First of all, I am choking again. My asthma is coming back full force. My breathing is more labored than ever. She told me that if I don't make a doctor's ...

2004-10-15 02:54:22

Reflections Well bugger me it’s late. Not just late in the evening or rather early in the morning, but late in the week; what I mean is, I had a lovely evening with a special friend on Sunday and I haven’t even mentioned it yet. Anyone who appreciates good writing or good people will by now ...

the little things in life

2004-10-14 22:41:30

I don't post much at the moment, because there's not much happening in my life. Tonight, however, I am dressed again. My little purchase today was a pair of black holdups in 7 denier. That's about the finest and clearest you can get. They are heavenly to wear. Just the most sensual feel on your ...

An autumn day with many thoughts

2004-10-14 19:24:09

I don't know why I love overcast, cool autumn days but I do. There's this album (tape, really) that I reserve solely for this kind of day. It's called "The Blurred Crusade" by The Church. It's been a yearly ritual for me since I was, shall we say, much younger. Okay, I ...

Getting the best of the demon

2004-10-13 01:56:06

A quick blog here, girls There's this demon inside me. It's a demon I go to a shrink to get rid of. The demon wanted to win tonight. It didn't. I won. I want this win streak to continue. There's no reason it shouldn't. I want to win. If I don't win, I ...

words from the heart

2004-10-12 10:22:20

" Never saw the sun Shinin so bright Never saw things going so right Noticing the days hurrying by when you're in love my how they fly"

Trying not to get too excited

2004-10-11 23:34:39

I'm by myself again tonight. My wife had to go downstate for some stupid training and rode down with a co-worker, an absolute waste of mankind. I have no jealousies about that whatsoever because it was either ride down with Mr. Arrogant or waste a whole day on the train. But she'll be ...

Am I ever going to learn? Noooooooo!!!!!!

2004-10-11 00:30:37

I just went ahead and made yet ANOTHER sports bet with my mother-in-law. It's a double or nothing. Let's put it this way - I'm behind as it is. This was, for the most part, a lovely weekend. Yes, some problems popped up. But many others were resolved. I still hate ...

a good day

2004-10-10 09:52:11

I'd planned on spending the entire day "en femme" cos i did'nt have to go out,so i got myself dressed,did my makeup and the like.I sat in front of the Telly to watch the england v wales match...football( boring game!) i'd been sat there for half an hour when the phne rang..it was mt brother who'd ...

2004-10-09 17:16:04

Girly nights galore Another pleasant week in the life of Lucy. Pippa came over after work on Tuesday and stopped until Wednesday afternoon, a brief visit but we made the most of it and it was lovely as always to have her here. I gave her lots of hugs. Tomorrow I’m going over to see Cerys, and ...

Probably be away a few days

2004-10-08 01:56:15

With the weekend coming up I most likely won't be around much. Hell, since my computer won't let me chat it's not like I'm here much anyway. I've missed so much over the past year since the laptop died. The only time I can chat is when using other computers, and I don't have daily ...

club cat

2004-10-07 23:07:33

Club Cat has reopened. Previous members will need to reapply, but this is just a formality. Catherine

dressed, drinking, watching goldfrapp

2004-10-07 22:52:36

Thursday nights are good for me, when I’m at home, because Mrs Cat works late. Inbetween the boys falling asleep about 11pm (too late), and Mrs Cat returning from the last train (12.30), is a dressing window. Well, I’m here at the window, and I’m dressed, in my usual outfit, by which I mean ...

things are looking good!

2004-10-07 10:23:17

At long last there may well be a change in my job situation! I went to a local agency for an interview,and things went very well.There were some cute girls working in the office..wish i could have been one of them,but i can't have everything.They let me loose on their system,which also uses ...

Here I go.....again

2004-10-06 00:28:19

Things are a LOT better at home. However, this Friday is our tenth anniversary, and I can't take her on a trip anywhere. While we both agree that the trip can come later, I still feel bad that I'm so far off the mark from where I should be right now. That failure feeling is ...

2004-10-05 09:27:24

Heavenly Body Moon-sized diamond found in space By Lucy Sherriff Published Wednesday 18th February 2004 14:56 GMT The biggest ever diamond has been found floating in space. The gem, estimated at close to 10 billion trillion trillion carats, is at the core of a dead star (BPM 37093) - a ...

Light at the end of the tunnel

2004-10-04 13:47:08

Just thought I'd break with the tradition of the monthly blog, just this time anyway. Trannyweb, my vocation, is now a two server affair. In web site terms that makes us big (when you consider that most websites share a server with hundreds of others. Only the likes of Google and ...

A Lancashire Summer

2004-10-04 10:22:39

Culverted beneath neat dormer bungalows The moss-bound brook leaps back to life In a dark-peat-soil, bush and creeper-filled gully, That was the hard edge, the cut-off where Nifty suburbia ended and the ancient wood began. She didn't mind children so she became a childminder The Five of us, two of ...

2004-10-03 14:40:50

Words and feelings I was recently involved in a forum debate, which digressed (as they do) onto the subject of definitions of transsexual and transgender. Those of us that took an interest and commented on this were on more than one occasion told off for getting caught up in unimportant issues or ...

Breathing problems returning, but feeling fine

2004-10-03 13:18:55

The UK girls had their latest TM yesterday. I hope it went fantastic. Anyway, to answer some questions - no, I don't like myself. While I am very egotistical about my academic work, I hate me. I AM NOT looking for compliments. You've all been wonderful to me. While my shrink ...

back to my usual happy self

2004-10-03 10:18:44

As you know, i wasn't feeling too happy about things in the last few days,what with my lack of success job-wise and all the other things i had going around my head.But to cheer myself up last nite(cos everyone was at TM's),i got myself all dressed up...short black dress,heels,makeup...etc.I ...

iwant to SCREAM!!

2004-10-01 12:55:50

I was having a good day today...at least i was until the mail came.The Jobs i was waiting to hear from all sent replies today,and they were all "thanks but....no thanks"..how damned y annoying is that.I kind of expected one knock-back,but three...it's more than i can take.I am getting really fed up ...

news

2004-10-01 09:39:07

Nothing seems to be going right for me at the moment on the job-front.I have been chasing around like crazy,trying to find something but i am having no luck at all.I've been knocked back for so many jobs,it's starting to get me down now.But i still have 3 i'm waiting to hear from.The law of ...

Losing my voice

2004-10-01 01:36:33

I think I'm talking too much in class tonight. Losing my voice. Nena had some good suggestions in the chatroom earlier about how to handle some of them. I wish I had done it! Still down about things at home. We said we want to work through it all. Nothing catastrophic happened, ...

I'm really trying to kill myself now!

2004-09-29 13:16:36

Before I left for classes this morning I had a leftover sloppy joe. Then, for my lunch, I had a bag of sweet tarts and a bottle of water. Maybe I am suicidal! Plus, I'm trying to give an exam, and this ravishing redhead has her blouse opened up. I need a drink! The fights at ...

Things could be looking up....

2004-09-29 12:56:45

Writing my blog seems to be very munch a monthly affair. We are still wrestling a bit with the new payment system although things seem to be setling down there. Andrew has made countless improvements and it seems to be working okay now. We did have a huge problem with the server. ...

dressing for pleasure

2004-09-27 22:22:28

Now I've got an outfit, I want to use it. I managed to be dressed for about an hour yesterday and about half an hour today. I just happened to be at home alone, so that's what I did. It's a simple pleasure, just walking around indoors in those lovely soft clingy fabrics, in a pair of heels that ...

Slowly getting there

2004-09-27 18:04:28

Hi all. I'm doing a bit better right now. I could use some more sleep and my head hurts a bit. When that happens, especially on a Monday, I get all melancholy and feel nothing but gloom and doom. My wife gave me a little talking to about taking better care of myself. I ...

2004-09-27 15:41:25

That was the week that was What a super week it was. 3 days and 3 nights with the lovely Pippa, a great deal of love and support from my friends, and finally plucking up the courage to tell my mum about me. Not only that, but her acceptance of me and my secret could not have been better. She was ...

Cell Division

2004-09-27 13:27:01

We're going through the motions. The two jaws of one zipper un-enmeshing and re-revealing as I disrobe you for one last time.Still, see us wound around each other Double-helix, mortar and block of life. Two snakes for Caduceus in one oath of encoding. And because I know there is another code hidden ...

Still breathless

2004-09-26 14:07:10

First, an apology: I know damn well you care about me, and for that I love you. I shouldn't have posted that blog but I was desperate. My typing was horrible! However, I am still having breathing problems and I hope I make it through the baptism I am attending today. I might ...

2004-09-26 11:56:22

Today’s the day Or is it? Oh I don’t know. My mum is coming for dinner tonight, as I mentioned the other day she will want to know what I’ve been doing all week. She always asks me what I’ve been up to anyway, and since I said I was too busy to have her to dinner this week no doubt she ...

Just in case I don't come back

2004-09-26 04:56:41

It's almost midnigt. I cannot breathe. Really. My asthma is about to kill me and everyone i ever met will be better off without me. shit. im choking. i love you all. i am typing while im chocking and nbody cares in case I DO not come back I love you

black is the new black

2004-09-25 21:25:38

I had some free time this afternoon, and I needed a new suit for work anyway, so I went into Guildford to shop. I went to M&S, this time in drab. It was business before pleasure so I quickly bought a regulation plain navy blue suit (the sort that Mrs Cat approves of). I spend hardly any time ...

2004-09-25 17:56:22

The song remains the same Oh dear. I started writing a blog last night but my eyes kept leaking. I tried to write about the last three days spent with Pippa, but began at the end for some reason; the image of her riding off into the sunset was still fixed in my mind. So I didn’t get very far ...

new friend

2004-09-25 09:21:59

I'm quite happy with myself just now....cos i've made yet another new friend on TW,after all it's what i joined for.I have seen her about the site but never contacted her...til she changed her piccy to one that's much more classy..just like her.Her name's fiona o'neill and she's a t-girl from ...

2004-09-24 20:13:57

Struggling to see through the tears so here's someone else's words I feel like a song without the wordsA man without a soulA bird without its wingsA heart without a homeI feel like a knight without a swordThe sky without the suncos you are the oneI feel like a ship beneath the wavesA child that ...

Out of sorts, yet ready to hope

2004-09-24 13:33:51

I am out of sorts today, for several reasons. Yesterday was my marathon day, so I'm whipped. But, also....... As I suspected in my last entry, things did get pretty tense the other day and pretty much remained that way through yesterday. I found out a little interesting tidbit and feel I was ...

Getting a handle on it

2004-09-22 17:35:51

In an hour I'll be making my way to the airport to pick up my wife. I have to have someone take over my 1:30 class. Things were really good until a little row last night. Both her and her sister were making accusations of my being insecure about this business trip she had to take ...

i just had to do it

2004-09-21 18:00:12

So, Cerys is a betting woman. Well the book is now closed. I decided I couldn’t stand it any longer and I went shopping on the way home from work. First I went to Honour and bought a pair of 4-inch stilettos in black leather, and a short golden brown bob. Then I picked up some black fishnet ...

2004-09-21 14:25:16

Dismiss the bugler, that wasn’t the last post Ok I lied it wasn’t my last post for a while. After I posted that my mum rang, I’d said a while ago that she must come to dinner some time so she was basically ringing to take me up on my offer. I put her off until the weekend, so naturally she ...

My perversion will get me fired, I just know it

2004-09-20 22:35:55

Oh dear. What a day. I dropped off my wife at the airport and did pretty good with the goodbye. Then I had the opportunity to pick up some cute satin bikinis on my way to campus. I'll wear one to my morning class tomorrow. The pink pair I had on today is actually ...

2004-09-20 18:08:53

This may be my last post for a while No it’s not one of those posts, you should all know me better than that by now. I just wanted to say that I will be busy for a few days so you may not see me, though I might pop in briefly, if we get bored. Hmmm? Pippa is now coming over tomorrow and staying ...

happiness

2004-09-20 09:17:24

I Recieved a totally unexpected but very welcome phone call on saturday night.I was havin a girly night in and had bathed and got myself all dressed up in my shortest black dress and heels,and done my makeup.I'd settled down in front of the TV with a bottle of wine for company...when the ...

Happiness

2004-09-19 15:33:17

For the first time in years I actually don't hate myself. Why? I don't deserve these feelings right now. This has been an incredible weekend. Our block party/sale was yesterday. We made a few bucks off of it. It was a gorgeous day outside and everyone was in a good ...

doing my bit for TW

2004-09-18 10:16:40

A while back now,i was talking to Alexandra and we were discussing ways in which we could help katie run TW.I got in contact with katie to see what else,if anything we could do to get some much-needed cash in the coffers.I got a reply from katie which i sent on to alex to see what she thought,but ...

Stress relief

2004-09-17 17:56:29

I'm sitting here dressed right now, the first I can do so much in a week. I have my little turquoise skirt on - the one with the slit on the side - and it's crawling up me, so I'm showing a lot of leg right now. Ah, the trampy look! A major source of my stress has been somewhat ...

job prospects

2004-09-17 10:03:04

For a good while now, i've been out of work...which has meant i've been able to spend a lot of time on TW,but things may be about to change.I've been after two jobs which i stand a fair chance of getting.One of them is working for a local holiday company(hoseasons)..if i get it ,it will mean ...

now i REALLY hate myself

2004-09-17 09:52:23

I should have met sarah on thurs for coffee but couldn't make it cos i wasn't well.I even emailed her to let her know.Imagine my shock when i read her blog,to find in it that i'd allegedly stood her up.That really upset me cos i am not the kind of person to stand anyone up like that.she went on ...

A Short Rotation

2004-09-17 07:57:45

In the marsh behind our house Where my father taught his dogs to jump over gullies, lies the cement boat. Dumped this far inland by floods that lugged it nearly a mile across the fields. I like to think of its dead-weight bobbing and pitching higher than the trees and hedges, swirling with the ...

2004-09-16 18:48:36

Auntie by optics Been a bit poorly for the last few days, thought I was coming down with flu at first, but it’s tonsillitis. This used to recur once or twice a year but I haven’t had it for a few years. I feel terrible, and unusually sorry for myself. My throat is sore, my head pounding, I ...

Was it a decent day?

2004-09-16 14:05:04

Not really. School was fine, but at home, well......let's just say someone (NOT me) was not in a good mood, woke up crabbing, didn't even say happy birthday until almost night, complained at dinnertime because I had some beer in the refrigerator (the nerve of me to enjoy one or two on my ...

Test Blog

2004-09-15 20:47:15

How do you work this darn thing?

A decent day?

2004-09-15 17:23:39

I'm showing them a movie on Hindu ascetics. Wild stuff. I love to see the looks on their faces as they see what some of these people do! Well, I'm a ripe old 42 today. I don't ask for gifts, but I do know I'll get some at dinner tonight. I can pretty much guess I won't be receiving any ...

i hate myself

2004-09-14 14:49:36

As some of you know, i should have been meeting sarah in norwich on thursday but now i can't go and i feel like s**t for letting her down.I haven't been too good recently,and i was really looking forward to seeing her as well,but i've been in bed for a few days with a bug i picked up and i was ...

party time....again!!

2004-09-14 10:05:08

It's about time i had another party at my place,or as christina put it..another -up!!(nice one chris).So it's all sorted out for the 20th November,just gotta save a few pennies so i can get plenty of stuff in.I know it's a way off yet but if i can get the same crowd over,then i'll be ...

Dear Lord, give me strength!

2004-09-13 18:25:54

I still get nervous whenever I go home after teaching, thinking there is going to be the worst news possible in my mailbox. I go through it everyday. But what's getting me going now is a student, a beautful black girl with big boobs and a VERY low cut top. Oh dear, how am I ever going ...

A Sunday night blessing

2004-09-13 00:06:36

It's 7:05 here where I live. Those of you acros the pond are asleep by now. I've had a lovely weekend. It feels nice to feel like a person again and not a failure. I haven't prepared my lectures for tomorrow because I know this stuff like the back of my hand and LOVE LOVE LOVE the ...

cathy keep fit campaign

2004-09-11 21:26:30

You know, a girl has to look her best. This means different things to different people. In my case, I need to lose about a stone in weight. I want to achieve that perfect flat tummy with curvy sides. Unfortunately, it’s not going to happen if I just keep on drinking vodka and eating cake. And ...

2004-09-10 22:10:23

Friday – curry, wine, nice dress, girly chat… 3 days of uninterrupted sun this week, the best weather we’ve had all year, and it’s nearly the middle of September. Winter will soon be setting in around these parts. Today it’s chucking it down, but never mind, I’ve gone a nice colour, ...

Tired but content

2004-09-10 18:09:49

Oh, what a day yesterday. I had my morning class, then home to prepare for my 4-hour night class at that newest school - you remember, the one I've been bitching about? The class is "Introduction to Popular American Culture," and what a great class it was last night!!! One of the ...

one thing leads to another

2004-09-09 22:37:59

With each day now, my desire to dress becomes stronger. It's not just the sight of all those girls in stilettos (though there were more today) – it must be something inside me trying to get out. Today I have been thinking a lot about dressing. Just imagining myself wearing the clothes I like to ...

not a good day

2004-09-09 20:35:44

i have not had a good day,although it started off ok.called in at my local for a long ,girly chat with dawn,the landlady who knows about maria..mainly cos i told her.we had a good long chat about all sorts of things.i then called in at the library to check my emails and log onto TW.i got in but ...

stilettos

2004-09-08 22:45:42

Today has been one of those days. Everywhere I turned, I saw girls in stilettos. The first was probably the best: walking out of Waterloo station in what must have been at least 5” high stilettos. And then there was the woman (a work colleague as it turned out) whom I followed from getting off ...

good news

2004-09-08 22:09:06

well, i`ve just been for a wander earlier.im gettin more confident every time i go out,even takin A stroll past my local pub....i wish i`d had the nerve to go in cos that would have turned a lot of heads.im very happy at the moment cos today i finally caught sarah in the chatroom today and we got ...

2004-09-08 00:54:46

Right the first time Bloody hell look at the time... I approached the supermarket checkout yesterday and there was a woman in front of me, with her kid climbing towards the end of the conveyor belt… She said, "You’ll have to get down now because this lady needs to put her basket down". She ...

CAN IT BE?!?!?!? DID IT FINALLY HAPPEN?!?!?

2004-09-07 18:40:45

Girls, I received a letter and contract today. The University Press of America wants to publish my book! I'm both elated and a bit wary of it. I have to get a pre-order of 100 copies, and I'm not teaching that many U.S. history courses where I could have them buy it. Still, ...

The Laws of Perspective

2004-09-07 08:26:32

Rococo and ravished.The architecture of seductionhas me cantilevered and hanging.This ancient floor stores up the sun's warmth, just to release itinto my bare feet.I feel every step. Like I am watchingmyself from behind and aboveI need to remember everything.Drifting in a column of crystal ...

I wish I could show you who I am

2004-09-07 01:27:42

Girls, All I do is bitch and moan here. You don't know me. I wish I could make anyone happy. My classes don't count. I wish I could meet all of you. I did reveal some negative sides to myself. I think it's time I just left the world. I'm rambling. I ...

at the still point

2004-09-06 21:25:08

Unlike some, I didn't get out dressed at the weekend. I've been trying to be good, to convince Mrs Cat that I'm basically a decent person despite my unconventional habits. It seemed to work in that relations are just about back to normal. I think I've survived the crisis. Last weekend remains a ...

2004-09-06 20:56:08

Let me take you by the hand… …and lead you through the streets of London. In a way that was the highlight of the weekend for me. Late on during Trans-mission night Pippa and I went for a walk outside. We walked for about half a mile until we came across a very drunk bloke on a street corner, ...

Fun

2004-09-06 02:06:15

Girls, I hope your TM turned out great. I haven't read any latest blogs, so I don't know the details. Today we went to a faculty bbq at that school I just started at (not the "training" school). It was a private party held by the director of humanities. My wife and daughter were ...

SURPRISE SURPRISE!!!

2004-09-05 20:20:07

i am very happy right now cos i now have the means to access trannyweb anytime i like now.which means i"ll be about the place a lot more.Now that really does make me happy.Ive not had too bad a weekend myself,should be hearin from sarah very soon about the possbility of meeting up for coffee and a ...

from hourglass to tube

2004-09-03 21:26:36

Mrs Cat is speaking to me again. We have had quite a civilised day. This brings to an end the most dismal week in our marriage so far. Of course, we haven't discussed the tricky subject of cross-dressing. But I feel the immediate crisis is over. Whatever the future brings, it must be better than ...

Back to Work

2004-09-03 19:46:57

Well the holiday is over and I have to go back to work. Went back yesterday and today. Nevert seems like I have had a holiday - ah well - back to the old grind with the occasional light spots when I can get out and be dressed. This weekend I have no chance so drab old me sitting here dreaming ...

Some good news for once?!?!? Can it be?

2004-09-02 23:57:59

Okay, leave the whining alone for now.... Yes, last night was the last night of "training," and it was actually somewhat interesting. I won't go into details, but rest assured I was my usual Anarchist self. Before anyone can teach a course for them they have to fill out a course approval ...

2004-09-02 19:30:30

All of a quiver Raped, burned and driven over a cliff, Cerys? Sounds like a quiet weekend to me. No, I’m sure we’ll be getting into much more trouble than that. The vodka is chilled, my nails are painted, and my clothes are ironed (choice of several outfits, still haven’t decided). Had to ...

i've done it!!!

2004-09-02 11:40:17

At long last i've done it!! i have finally got round to upgrading my membership to gold-quarterly,but not without it's problems either.I have to say a great big thankyou to katie for all the help she's given me in trying to upgrade.Now,i can finally start to put something back into TW for all the ...

Antrobus

2004-09-02 08:39:55

So, I figured I'd cheat a drenching by waiting for the rain to pass. Until I stole an acorn from a lush low-hanging oak, .. ...

blue moon

2004-09-01 19:39:31

Manchester is a lonely place,if you're on your own. I have been wandering round the city looking for something to do and finding frustration round every corner. I'm not dressed, so there's no point going to the Village. I would have gone to a classical music concert (yes: Catherine has her hidden ...

2004-09-01 18:35:23

Decisions, decisions… I’m not too disappointed about missing a night out tonight, apart from the fact that my concern for a friend overshadows any disappointment I may have had, I’m going out at the weekend anyway. And not half. For it is that time of the month again – TM London. Will be ...

gettin it off my chest!

2004-09-01 14:58:28

Just recently(yesterday to be precise) i posted something in the forum named " the moment".Now i admit i could have worded it a bit better,but then a certain person proceeded to tear it to shreds.In a way she was right..but she then more or less called me a fake and said that i only came out to ...

i'm very unhappy

2004-09-01 09:39:10

I'm not feelin very happy with myself today at all infact i'm close to tears.I posted a piece in the forum yesterday,entitled "the moment" where i explained how i "came out".I looked this morning to see that JJ had replied to my piece..now i'm not havin a go at her cos she was only being honest and ...

I might be gone for a few days

2004-09-01 02:39:46

Tomorrow is an incredibly long day. I have my two classes at one place, then the indoctrination, excuse me, "training" for the last night. But my new second school went great today. There might be some good opportunities there, and I was suprised to find out how many people knew ...

2004-08-31 20:56:24

Beam me up I had a night out planned in the Village tomorrow with Cathy, but due to unforeseen circumstances it has now been cancelled. As many of you know Cathy’s wife recently found the Wayout Tranny Guide lying around and confronted her with it, forcing Cathy into some on the spot damage ...

no girly dancing tomorrow

2004-08-31 19:24:20

It was another bad day at the office for our tranny heroine. Domestic relations continue to be difficult. In the circumstances I thought it best to cancel my girly night out in Manchester tomorrow. It wasn't the lack of clothes so much – with Lucy's help, I could have put an outfit together - ...

Must find a solution

2004-08-30 23:25:27

Classes went well today. They think I'm nuts. I read this love poem that was written in ancient Egypt where the woman talked about catching a fish and stroking it for her love. Now THAT is a fetish! But I was so homesick for some reason. I couldn't wait to get ...

the nightmare continues

2004-08-30 19:12:31

Another very difficult day. It's strange, my wife's mood seems to fluctuate between near-normal and desperately sad. We have hardly spoken to each other. She doesn't seem to want to talk about the issue, and I don't feel able to raise it with her yet. That's how it's been for all of our marriage ...

It's a long long road, from which there is no return

2004-08-29 23:15:53

Interestings days We had a garage sale yesterday. Not a success, but not a failure, either. We did make some money. God/Buddha/Krishna knows we need it. I guess overall it went well. The nicest lesbian couple bought one of my musical instruments. JJ, Cerys - COPYRIGHT YOUR ...

Update on the wekend

2004-08-29 17:32:28

Well have managed to spend most of the weekend dressed. Have updated my website with some of the latest pictures so you could go there to see them. On Friday evening my wife and I went out for a drive. I was all ready to go in top and trousers when she suggested that I should wear a skirt. So I ...

paranoid

2004-08-29 15:47:21

Sunday afternoon, and I'm sitting here on my own with my computer, listening to the mournful solo sax of John Surman. How appropriate. After church today I started to think about all those bags I'd binned last night. Was there anything in them that could have identified me? Not in the clothes or ...

discovered

2004-08-29 07:15:09

[This is in the Non-Supportive Wives and Girlfriends forum too.] It's early on a Sunday morning. I'm tired and I have a headache. I wouldn't normally be here now but I have to write about what happened last night. I was downstairs, looking at something innocent (for once) on the computer, while ...

more adventures of cathy

2004-08-28 16:30:40

Still dressed, I left the house and walked into the front garden. I can walk quite some way before I reach the road. There are houses either side and I could be seen from an unstairs bedroom, but I don't think I was. I did hear the voices of neighbours not far away. I've found I can walk on the ...

scary moment

2004-08-28 15:45:40

Just after lunch, my SO said she'd like to go up into the loft. She wanted to look out some clothes for her niece and nephew, that our boys had outgrown. I thought I'd better go with her. The loft is vast and dark, but she remembered where she'd left them. Soon she was surrounded by bags of ...

2004-08-27 17:20:12

Girly Heaven As promised, Pippa came up on Tuesday for 2 days and 2 nights of total girlyness. It’s been lovely, we’ve had such fun. She arrived about 9pm, having been working that day, so she needed to bathe and make herself beautiful when she arrived. I was already dressed and made up so I ...

Bank holiday

2004-08-27 15:04:26

Wow both kids away for an afternoon evening and morning - gues what I'll be doing. Will follow up later.

My face hurts

2004-08-27 02:28:05

Have you ever had a time when you cried so hard your face hurt? My face hurts I almost came out to my mom I am not a freak. I am not a bad person. I wouldn't wish my life on anyone. My face hurts

Crouching Tiger, Hidden Meredith

2004-08-26 12:59:10

All right, night 3 of the training. I was ready to debate! But I stopped myself. They weren't going to listen, so why bother? But I did bait them, like a tiger ready to pounce. In one of the STUPID group exercises I was called upon to explain my position. "As someone who does a ...

The Magpie Trap

2004-08-26 08:07:53

Through the open window a Magpie flew, unwelcome guest in a chic hotel. She held the space like she was ten times her size. Loaded the room with portent but this is a warning I shall not heed. In one half of the Magpie Trap they set one bird to call another On entering, the second bird ...

Still banging my head on the same brick wall

2004-08-25 19:15:21

My last bogger posting was ten days ago and today we are no closer to getting out technical problems sorted out that we were then. I'm at the end of my tether with that Canadians (programmers that is). They still have not installed the new chat room even though it's all paid for (including ...

avoid hangovers before dental treatment

2004-08-24 16:06:46

A difficult start to the day. It was bad enough having to endure a long session at the dentist with injections and drilling. Add to that a vodka-sized hangover from last night and you have the makings of a modern nightmare. I shall have to give up both alcohol and chocolate for ever. Or at least ...

Sorry I disappeared suddenly yesterday

2004-08-24 12:38:01

Yesterday, after I got back from school, we went over to the local library branch. I used their internet connection to type in the class e-mail addresses into my group lists. When I finally finished that I thought - taking a chance - to log into TW. Just as I was getting into the chatroom I was ...

what TW means to me

2004-08-24 09:42:40

Well actually it means a hell of a lot,cos when i first started dressin there was nowhere like TW for me to turn to.I discovered it purely by chance,and registered straght away.i only used to look in the forums,but then i discovered chat and i haven't looked back.I have made so many good friends ...

Updating My Website

2004-08-23 21:12:49

Well I've finally managed to get rund to updating my website. I've added some pics I took in Manchester and also just about what I wrote on my blog previously. Also I decided to add a new page of Video Clips of myself - vain old me - but at the moment this is in a testing stage so there is only ...

doreen fashions

2004-08-23 20:03:12

My first day back at work – over 200 emails to go through, but no meetings. So at lunchtime I took the tube to Walthamstow Central, walked down to Lea Bridge Road, and went into Doreen's. According to the website, this shop has been serving the transgender community for about 50 years. In other ...

And awaaaaaaayyyyyyyy we go!!!!

2004-08-23 01:50:38

Tomorrow starts the new autumn term at my main part-time school. I was at first a full time visiting assistant professor (temporary, that is) and they asked me to stay on. Then they had a full time slot, and I was first in line. The university president killed the job due to budget reasons. ...

2004-08-22 17:51:18

How to win friends and influence people (join Trannyweb) Had a lovely girly night in last night with Cerys, who I’d met last week at the Trannyweb get-together. We’d chatted quite a bit and exchanged emails, like you do, and I liked her style, witty and intelligent. So it was nice to finally ...

a black cat purrs

2004-08-22 15:07:41

Hello my feline friends. It's a cat's world here at home this Sunday afternoon. And I'll tell you why… We got home very quickly yesterday. Nearly 650 miles in just over 12 hours, with a couple of food stops. Time enough to unpack and get all the domestic stuff out of the way. This morning I ...

the perfect pick me up

2004-08-22 09:58:43

I've not been feelin too happy recently as you know,but last night i decided that i needed cheering up big time.So i had a long hot bath,took absolutely ages over my makeup and got meself all tarted up,and settled down with a bottle of wine all to myself.It was a hoot,specially as how one of ...

Manchester Night out Update

2004-08-21 16:49:00

Well it had been arranged and here I was on my way to Manchester to meet up with a number of other girls from Trannyweb. I was a little late booking and found that the hotel that they were all staying in was fully booked for the evening so I had to find somewhere else to stay. Luckily Julie, the ...

Looking a little grim for the home team

2004-08-21 13:13:50

Another row last night. Great. She came home cranky and it escalated from there. But at night it got worse. Part of it stems from my underemployment. No matter how hard I tried I could not get that elusive full-time spot ANYWHERE. Even the lowest of the low jobs I couldn't get. With my ...

feelin happier today

2004-08-21 09:14:42

I was'nt in the best of moods yesterday,as those of you who've read my latest post will gather.Yesterday i'd tried to contact Karen,who i'd been seeing for a few months until she dumped me.But all she did was put the phone down on me,which to a certain extent i was expectin,given what had ...

Learning to let go

2004-08-20 12:24:59

One of my problems is letting go of things, such as any fights or arguments that are dead and gone. There was a little one last night, and being TG is one of them. She wants me to tell her sister, which I do agree with. I wanted to before but never got the chance. Her best friend knows. In fact, I ...

homeward bound

2004-08-20 12:04:00

It may not be possible to close down my blog. Katie doesn't know how to do it, and apparently no-one's ever asked for it before. Catherine the Pioneer: her mission, to boldly go when no tranny has gone before. A few people were kind enough to say that they did actually read my blog from time to ...

havin a moan

2004-08-20 09:37:40

this might seem like i'm havin a moan and in a way i am. Whenever any of my friends here on TW are down and need cheerin up,i always try and be there for them to help them through their rough times.Last night i was feelin rather down and needed somebody there for me..but there was no-one!.All ...

Didn't keep my mouth shut, did I?

2004-08-19 12:35:43

First, let me say thanks to Mariette, Maria and Nena for the e-mail invites concerning the mobile phone messaging. I don't have a mobile phone, unfortunately, so I can't participate! Last night was night 2 of that damn training. It wasn't so bad (it wasn't so good, either). I did finally speak up ...

the silent swan

2004-08-19 09:44:18

No news, but I wanted to say that I find it unbearable to be so long away from home with zero dressing up and limited online opportunites. It's driving me mad. I would, however, like to thank Joni for keeping in touch by email. This blog attracts very few visitors these days (maybe as a writer I ...

All right, I'm a stuck up bitch

2004-08-17 22:58:02

Yeah, yeah, I'm a primadonna bitch. I am so grateful that school wants to use me, yet I bitch about having to be "trained." After over ten years of both full and part time teaching, tons of publications, a book to hopefully be published, well, here I go again. Sorry. It ...

We're dumbing down, dumb-de-dumb-dumb

2004-08-17 18:20:51

Well, now I feel so reaaaaaallllllyyyyy smart! I took those first online tutorials for that new school. You remember - I have to be certified and trained to teach there (I WON'T GO BACK INTO THAT COMPLAINING!). I scored 100% on the first two "tests." For the one dealing ...

Porthkerry

2004-08-17 09:45:22

Unfullfilled by stillness, unwilling to entertain silence he sits behind the slow misting windscreen and watches the pitching grey sea. The shipping forecast, blip .. blip .. blip. "That'll be pilot boat out of Penarth, off to meet the coal ship". Advising caution behind the ...

Just some little thoughts

2004-08-17 00:12:34

While times are tough, there's also reasons to smile. One of which is all of you. You have all been there for me. As I hope I am for you. I am still so giddy over speaking to Maria and Christina on Saturday. I saw the piccie of Chris, and she looked so beautiful! Maria said she's ...

clynelish

2004-08-16 21:21:07

Today I went north to Brora for a visit to the Clynelish Distillery. This is the only one in Sutherland, and there are only a few more northerly. I hadn't heard of it before. My tour guide was Lorraine, who works in the distillery shop and office. She was very knowledgeable. She was also smartly ...

2004-08-16 17:47:47

Pour yourself a drink, make yourself comfortable, this is a long one Monday, start of a new week, and nothing planned for 5 whole days. It’s been all go recently, and last week was great. I went shopping on Monday to get some bits and pieces for the Trannyweb bash on the Wednesday. Got ...

Happy happy happy, all the time

2004-08-15 16:30:37

Happy happy happy, all the time, shock treatment, I'm doing fine......I LOVE The Ramones! Saw them a few times, too. With the exception of a little row yesterday (all resolved), I'm smiling more right now. For starters, yesterday was Christina's birthday. I knew they were ...

Banging my head on a brick wall

2004-08-15 11:56:05

I sometimes feel as though I am banging my head on a brick wall. I'll be the first to admit that I'm not the most prolific blogger here and in fact my last update was on April 10th. I've just been looking at it and I'm amazed that I'm still working on the same things as I was then. Mainly ...

WHAT A PARTY!!

2004-08-15 11:41:29

We had one hell of a party last night,at my place for christina's BD! There was chris(of course) fay,clair anya, mandy and me.We should have had sarah too but she didn't come.There was plenty of food and booze too,clair brought enough to float a battleship!! I took over Julie's job of lookin after ...

and then there were eight

2004-08-14 17:54:11

It's now the second week of our holiday in Scotland. We have been joined by my wife's parents, brother-in-law and nephew. This changes the group dynamic considerably. Just having more people around makes it harder to get online for chatting or blogging or anything. We also have to be more ...

the village

2004-08-13 17:43:57

Last Saturday’s Guardian magazine had an article about the Village. This is, of course, the lively part of central Manchester which welcomes those of alternative lifestyles. The emergence of the Village in the past ten years is the reason Manchester is now regarded as the gay capital of the ...

Hiding under a rock

2004-08-13 16:58:08

I'm gonna hide under a rock for a while. This morning I wrote an apology to the one person with whom I had the fight yesterday. Around the house I've been forgiven. Still, I haven't hated myself as much as I do now for a long time. I'm going to stop unloading all this on you ...

Manchester Night Out

2004-08-13 13:01:45

Well Manchester night out has been and gone and I wan to go again! Julie did a great job organising the event and even though I was in a different hotel I really enjoyed myself. I think half the fun was having to walk backwards and forwards between hotels especially with the wolf whistle I ceived ...

Cushendall

2004-08-13 08:27:36

Me advocatus diaboli in the march snow. You on the pillion seat of my overloaded Honda. As we straightened a hairpin on the Cushendall road with that perfect balance of leaning in and being thrown out sideways. You decided, at that exact moment, to give up the priesthood. ...

Please forgive me

2004-08-12 23:49:48

Girls, today was not a good day. Okay, finances are in the toilet and I'm fighting to save all we have.....okay, f' that.. now, IT'S MEREDITH THE ASSHOLE!!!! At the school where we drop her off, there's this circular little thingy that cars drive around. Parking is not allowed there. Bu ...

world poker tour

2004-08-12 17:41:40

Last night I was watching the World Poker Tour on one of the digital channels in the cottage. The game was No Limit Hold Em. The stakes were high – a minimum opening bet of 100,000 USD – and the atmosphere was tense. Gradually the number of players reduced until in the end there were only two ...

I'm gonna take a shotgun to them, I swear

2004-08-12 13:19:00

I am so tired right now. Last night was the first of four training nights at my newest school. While I appreciate some of the sessions as a good orientation program, I truly wonder how well things will go. They made some unfair and unjust jabs at "traditional" education that I was very ...

2004-08-11 13:27:07

I'm surprised I'm even awake right now. I started to fall asleep around 8:30 last night, then woke up 3 hours later. It looked like another night of insomnia, so I moved again into the other room. Amazingly enough, I did get some sleep. I had nasty dreams, though. One ...

membership upgrade!

2004-08-11 10:45:46

At long last i'm going to be able to upgrade my membership from the basic one to gold-quarterly.It's something i've been wanting to do for so long,cos i've made so many good friends here..so at last i'll be able to put something back into TW for everything i've got out of it.I just have to decide ...

night out

2004-08-10 21:46:05

Well I am getting ready for the meeting in Manchester tomorrrow. I know it has been a long time since I added anything but I have been away on holiday after a hectic time at work.

anyone seen cathy?

2004-08-10 21:42:50

Despite appearances to the contrary, I am still on Planet Tranny. The reason for my silence is that I'm now on holiday, in a remote part of northern Scotland, with only my mobile to connect me to the outside world, so I can't contribute as much as I'd like. I'm here with my family in a ...

Resigned to who I am

2004-08-10 15:58:41

Things have quieted down. I don't think she apologized yet for calling me a freak. Her "explanation" is "You've called me worse." Great logic there, isn't it? But she is resigned to that I'm TG. It will never be accepted, or even really tolerated. I can deal with ...

Looking for direction

2004-08-09 13:50:23

I was debating whether to post this blog because I don't want to take away from the TM. The UK girls had such a good time at the TM on Saturday, so please read those blogs! I can't wait for the piccies. While I was out looking at school girl outfits, imagining being a tramp (as in my last ...

my TM's experience

2004-08-09 12:41:55

truly mind blowing is the only way to describe the best w/end i've ever had.It was so good to see JJ and nene again,as well as meet clair,kendra,emma and shan for the first time.i took ages to get ready,having to do my own makeup cos JJ was busy.Coming down in the lift,i was a tad nervous,but when ...

2004-08-08 23:07:42

Nadia wins Big Brother, Lucy wins Big Sister Well I did it, I told my friend Ann about me. Do I feel different? No not really, but I’m glad it’s out of the way. It wasn’t easy. We had a quick bite to eat and sat down in front of the telly, we both wanted to watch the final of Big Brother. It ...

With a special guest appearance by Meredith the Tramp

2004-08-07 19:50:38

You're all out right now. I hope you're having a great time. I drank a little toast to you a few moments ago. Today we were out in the morning doing shopping. We needed to pick up the uniform for my daughter's upcoming entrance into Catholic school. They had uniforms for all ages ...

Hey, I look cute right now - and HAVE FUN AT THE TM!!!!

2004-08-06 17:41:46

I always feel good after my sessions. The one thing about my shrink is that she has no problems with the TG community. She thinks it is good that I have someplace like TW here since I can't be open about it at home, or anywhere. At least not now. As much as I'd like that to ...

2004-08-06 13:15:19

Deep breaths Lucy... I went round to a friend's last night for a take-away and a dvd. (Minority Report, ok but a bit disappointing, the Chinese was yummy though). It's a girl I've known for many years and certainly my greatest female friend for just about as many. For some time though I feel ...

Coasting

2004-08-05 13:14:46

Aberaeron Shale October drizzle Dead cats Pub lock-in's Marcross Light sand Occasional rocks Summer Fresh bread Mumbles Mud cliffs July swelter Thermos coffee Padstow White sand Evening chill Champagne Passion Ardalanish Sharp rocks Geologists A broken dream Barry Island Blinding concrete ...

Now some funny stuff

2004-08-05 13:08:43

I talked about my band demotion again at home last night. My wife said "That happened a gazillion years ago, why is it bothering you now?" It really isn't. It was just a nasty incident that helped fuel my insecurities. But that's why I'm in therapy now. I'm really not ...

2 days 2 go!

2004-08-05 09:39:08

There's only 2 days to go until i get to do my very first TM.I'm feelin a wee bit nervous,but i know i'll be just fine once i get together with all the other s that are goin too.For some of them(like me)it'll be their first time so they're bound to be nervous.But what i'm lookin forward to most is ...

Just a few more things about me

2004-08-05 01:07:07

I've been blogging you all to death here. Sorry. Just indulge me here for a few more moments. I mentioned a few days ago about growing up in my asshole "brother's" shadow. When he went to high school and took up the french horn, my family decided I should be a musician too. Never mind ...

home on a hot day

2004-08-04 16:36:44

I was at home today, as I had some medical appointments this morning. I was planning to work this afternoon. As it happened, though, I got dressed. This time, like last time, it was the long linen summer dress. And black stilettos, and blonde hair. It's really too hot to wear fetish gear. I ...

A deliciously gloomy day! And a request!

2004-08-04 15:19:47

Today is overcast, a little breezy, some sprinkles. I love it! I wish we'd get a huge storm like we had last night (although Alex, in her latest blog, will disagree with me! LOVE YOU ALEX!!!). For some reason this puts me in a good mood. I'm also working on some academic duties ...

The honour is mine

2004-08-04 00:18:46

You're honoured to be my friend? I'm honoured to be your friend! I love you all. You're the best. Sometimes, to admit it, I get a few tears in my eyes thinking about you all and how much we mean to each other. Just to give each of you a hug and a kiss someday would really be ...

Some things you need to know about me

2004-08-03 01:03:38

Girls, I guess that movie really got to me. You need to know now, before I go any further with you, about a few things from my past. I've done some things of which I'm not very proud. On the other hand, I've been shit on more than a person has a right to. GOOD STUFF - Today my wife wanted me ...

2004-08-02 17:48:22

First time for everything Saturday night, back at the village, Rebecca’s first time out. I was dressed, I was out, I was with friends, and I was drinking vodka so I was quadrupley happy. Becky seemed happy too, in fact she did brilliantly as I knew she would. I think she wants to do it again so ...

Still crying, AND THAT SONG WON'T GO AWAY

2004-08-02 13:43:00

What can I do for you? All I do is take and never give back to any of you. Tressa must hate me by now because every time I'm sad I call her. Do I do anything for any of you? I need to count my blessings, of which there are many. You girls are part of that. I'm sorry if it seems as if I'm ...

Whoops, wrong lyric sequence

2004-08-02 02:12:17

I feel it in my fingers, I feel it in my toes...Still can't get it out of my mind What an idiot I am. It went to shit in a minute (NOT my fault). What I would give for that moment again. Oh, to feel alive. Am I really that much of an asshole?

Love is all around us, I feel it in my.....oh, bloody hell

2004-08-01 11:16:29

I cannot get that damn song out of my head. More on that in a moment. An interesting weekend. We spent a lot of time together on Friday. After my psychologist appointment I drove her out to this other suburban town where she had to attend a short meeting. Then we had a very nice lunch, and ...

on making the best of it

2004-07-31 21:29:19

I was hoping to write the headline "Catherine dresses in places that other trannies do not reach", but it was not to be. Freiburg is an unpromising place to go. There are no trannies and no tranny venues; the women don't wear the same clothes as me; and it's too hot to go out anyway. I did ...

only a week to go!!

2004-07-31 10:52:44

I'm feelin a lot happier now than i have been.Why i hear you ask??? well there's only one week to go until my very first TM and am i lookin forward to it or what!!.i'm gettin nervous already,but i'm sure i'll be fine once i'm on my way down to london.I am lookin forward to seein JJ,nena and fay ...

The waiting game continues

2004-07-29 13:14:41

Oh well, it doesn't look like that temp gig is going to happen. I could sure use it. But, I contacted another publisher with whom I corresponded two years ago. They liked my proposal back then but felt it needed better clarification, such as to whom the book is targeted. They were very valid, ...

Odometer

2004-07-28 14:53:55

One day I'll find myself driving the 732 miles (precisely) to scatter the ashes of my mother from the brittle cliffs at Ardnamurchan. So, why can't I spend the five minutes it would take to work out the distance between us now. (c.c 28/07/04 seems to be a lot of talk about ...

i need a hug

2004-07-28 11:38:23

i need cheering up right now cos i'm feelin a bit down.I shouldn't be really,afer the news that catherine is back with us but i am.I've been rushin around tryin to organise a BD party for christina,and everybody seems to be unavailable that w/end(14th aug) which is a shame.it looks like all we're ...

It's finally out the door

2004-07-27 17:58:42

After years of delay, I finally sent off my manuscript to the publisher. It's an academic work on the legal/political and labor history of Chicago. Essentially it's my revised dissertation. The publisher wants exclusive consideration. Whether that translates into ...

catherine 1, forces of darkness 0

2004-07-27 16:19:20

I've been thinking. What is the point of trading one kind of unhappiness for another? Dressing in secret has its downsides. On the other hand, not dressing is no fun at all. At least if you dress, you can enjoy yourself (most of the time). As soon as I was alone today, I went upstairs to have a ...

2004-07-27 13:00:43

New friends, old enemies My brother has been up to visit for the weekend, something which I don’t especially look forward to. It means I have to go out to the pub with him and pretend to be blokey, not my favourite pastime. Inevitably he always tells me I’ve been on my own too long and I ...

living for tomorrow

2004-07-26 21:00:00

I’m finding it very helpful to set out my thoughts each day and share them with others. It brings new insights. About telling my wife, for example. People have commented that it might not actually improve my situation. And it’s true that outing myself is not an excuse to go clubbing every ...

cathy hard to kill off

2004-07-25 21:44:44

Funny how I’m blogging more now that I’ve given up dressing. Actually I’ve “given up” in quite a different way from others. My giving up entails talking it through with others as much as possible, and not doing anything which I might regret if I stop giving up sometime in the future. In ...

Trying to look up

2004-07-25 12:41:30

While I'm still in a panic over financial matters, there is reason to hope. Things around home are pretty good for the moment. My daughter was gone all day yesterday for a friend's birthday. We used the chance to go see "I, Robot" (it was okay - not spectacular, but a good popcorn movie ...

die another day

2004-07-24 21:09:51

I’m supposed to have given up dressing and left the site. But here I am, revisiting the scene of the crime. What’s going on? First, I haven’t yet been able to go through with it completely. I haven’t got rid of any clothes. It would be such a painful thing to do, and what if I later ...

How do I repay you?

2004-07-24 11:14:55

Girls, One door shuts, one door opens. Okay, one school cut my class. But, that school I interviewed with last week wants to hire me! That's continuous work, part-time, and I'll be doing specialty courses in my field (legal/constitutional and labor history). I received the message ...

never say never again

2004-07-23 19:09:29

Day 2 of life without dressing. I wasn’t desperate today, because I managed to chat with friends from the site last night. They cheered me up and helped me to realise that this is not the end. I suppose nothing is final for as long as you live. Today we had a family day out at a well-known ...

Melting Pearls in Vinegar

2004-07-23 14:56:05

To lose your whole heart in San FranciscoThat would be careless, and a clichéBut what about the little piece of mine lostway back on the beach at Knockvollogen Or the five pieces I threw to the seals at Loch Na Keal Or the tiny fragments taken by six Dublin girls who sang to me from the back of a ...

Sorry for yesterday

2004-07-23 14:35:45

Hi girls, I realize I acted the fool yesterday with my last blog. I do truly feel sometimes that I bring things down, especially at home. My wife gave me a talking to about it, and she said the same as all of you. She especially said "Do you think your daughter wants to be known as the ...

august TM

2004-07-23 11:32:28

well there's only 2 weeks to go til TM and i'm gettin butterflies already cos i just can't wait.Just hearing everyone talking about it is giving me the most incredible buzz imaginable.I guess why i'm a bit nervous is cos it'll be my first evening out " en femme",but once i get there i'm sure i'll ...

Time to go away for a while

2004-07-22 22:41:37

Girls, I'm going to stay away for a few days, if not more. I'm tired of unloading all this on you. Today (Thursday) I got hit with three not nice items. Granted, one I expected, the other I was hoping would not happen, and the third was a total surprise. The one thing I somewhat ...

it feels like megadeath

2004-07-22 20:03:16

Day 1 of life as a non-tranny. So Catherine, how's it going? Well, I'm not one to overstate things, but I must say…it's not easy. In fact it feels like megadeath. All those lovely clothes will have to go. No more sensuous clinging fabrics. No more beauty. No more girly chat. Everything that's ...

requiem

2004-07-21 21:40:53

The end has come for Catherine. I can't stand this up-and-down life any longer. The pleasure I get from dressing doesn't compensate for the loneliness, the secrecy, the mental anguish. I'm going to hang up my frocks and revert to something less complicated. I feel that I've failed to establish ...

Oh dear!

2004-07-21 19:38:27

The doctor visit was fine. My blood pressure is at normal, thanks to the medications. But she was concerned with the blood tests concerning my liver and gall bladder, which might also be due to some of my medication. No major concern now, but I should probably have to lay off any booze at ...

2004-07-21 13:19:52

Another stroll by the canal - some gentle exorcise I met up with Pippa again on Saturday, we went to the village for a night out, following our quiet night in the week before. Pippa is a lovely girl, great company and fun to be with. I on the other hand am an outrageously flirty vodka fuelled ...

Lovely, f'g lovely capitalist America

2004-07-21 01:01:32

I don't know whether to cry today or feel stupid. Monday I went in to apply for what I thought would be a warehouse gig. One of the best non-academic jobs I ever had was in a warehouse years ago. It was fun and paid decent. I filled out the app, spoke with the manager briefly who described he was ...

my name is wells…catherine wells

2004-07-20 17:50:13

Another quiet day in the office. Quiet in that there aren't many people around – not otherwise quiet, as I seemed to spend all day preparing briefing for Prime Minister's Questions on the latest policy announcement in my area. So no chance to get any real work done! I left early as I knew I ...

I'll keep my head up

2004-07-19 13:46:59

I have tears in my eyes right now from all your messages of support. That's great - I have to go teach with red eyes! I didn't sleep the best and was pretty drowsy driving in. Not a good idea! I thank you all. The only way to get through this all is to roll up my ...

Thanks, and still crying

2004-07-18 23:34:19

I'm such a failure. I'm a jerk, an asshole, I can't do anything right. Thank you all for holding my hand. Someday I'll be somebody and make someone smile. I'm not fishing for compliments. I just need a hug and some reassurance (I have self-esteem problems). God/Buddha/Krishna ...

Sorry...

2004-07-18 04:00:41

Girls, my heart is shattered right now. Everything I hoped would happen today didn't. Girls, just hold my hand, that's all I ask. Would I would give not be be a failure. But you girls are the best. It's hard to type when you're crying.

Feeling better, and get ready for the hot stuff tomorrow!

2004-07-17 12:25:23

I'm feeling a bit better. It certainly looks like there might be a solution or two to my never-ending problems (hell, who doesn't have those?). My interview/presentation went fantastic. They had about 60 people there! Most were in business, only about two of us in the humanities. I ...

Too much stress

2004-07-16 17:08:29

Sorry to be a bummer here, girls, but my stress levels have been higher than ever these past two days. Just when I was feeling good, reality comes back with a scream. I'm trying to settle myself down and try to be positive. I have that interview/presentation tonight, so that's something ...

Flêche and Fledgling

2004-07-15 15:43:11

In flight, now we land to dance on swords. Hold it in your hand like it's a bird. My old fencing tutor used to say, Tight enough so it won't leave you, But not so tight that you might crush it. The whipping point, it cuts a million atoms with every fluid gesture, and defeats me again I am on ...

life returns to normal

2004-07-14 22:19:02

I've been feeling rather strange lately. Almost as if I don't want to dress any more. I've been waking up wishing life was simple and uncomplicated and I could just be male all the time. Then I wouldn't have to cope with the double life, the secret dressing, the dread of the knock on the ...

The story is "coming," but first.....

2004-07-14 19:39:04

Sorry to be like a little teasing tramp, but I will post the story (don't let me mention that I'm sitting here in just a shirt and panties). Just let me say that today is the first day in a while that I haven't been overly stressed and actually felt good. I have that interview Friday with a ...

2004-07-14 14:09:13

Angel of the North I often feel blogging helps me to work through my feelings and emotions. Since Friday my emotions have been too all over the place to even do that. It feels like I have been spinning plates on sticks and they are slowly coming to rest, all at different times. So many emotional ...

How hot can it be?

2004-07-13 15:43:34

When I post the story, do I have to tone it down, or be explicit as necessary?

Give me a few days

2004-07-11 18:50:16

Today I went and got some stuff to finally shave my legs. I can't wait to slip some hosiery on them. Anyhow, many of you are interested in that bedroom fantasy I just mentioned. Give me a few days and I'll post the whole story. I want to write it up properly (being that I write a lot ...

Here's a tease

2004-07-10 11:25:41

For those who commented on my last blog, whether here or through my e-mail, let's just say that the outfit I had on in that last blog leads to an incredibly hot time in bed.

sally's visit

2004-07-10 09:57:40

i got something lined up for next wednesday that'll cheer me up no end after all that's gone on recently.A while back,a good friend of mine on TW,sally love dropped into chat one day.I hadn't seen her for ages,and we had a good,long chat about all sorts of things.We got round to talking about ...

Back to fantasies

2004-07-09 20:22:37

Right now I have on my new cute red short skirt - which keeps creeping up my legs - red silk blouse, sexy lingerie, tan pantyhose....Oh my. My trampy side is coming back out. Oh, my, the thoughts running through my head right now.

A few notes on my first blogs

2004-07-09 20:05:33

I went back and reread my first blogs - bad grammar and all (I'm VERY picky about grammar). It seems as if what I had was more of a panty fetish by reading those entries. It wasn't. This, like for all of you, is a lifestyle. It's how I am. It's just that for a young cd, ...

2004-07-09 11:20:43

Sisterly gatherings Thanks once again for your sweet comments girls; heart-warming. Your first time out eh Jane? I'll have a bucket of water at the ready, but a large cold vodka and coke will probably be more appropriate. It really makes me happy to see girls venturing out for the first time, it's ...

i’m cathy, fly me

2004-07-09 10:38:56

This comes to you from somewhere over the Atlantic on the long return flight to London. Most of the people around me are asleep. Maybe I should be asleep too, but my body has no idea what the real time is. I was just getting used to Eastern Standard Time when it was time to go home again. I think ...

Trying to relax

2004-07-08 17:47:37

I don't think I slept all that much in the hospital yesterday. Then I had running around to do all morning. I can't take this stress I'm having over finances. I'm so sick of not being able to give my family what they deserve. I do, however, have an interview next week with a school ...

A request to my Euro girls

2004-07-08 17:41:26

Girls, my kid is a HUGE Harry Potter fan. My wife found some things on E-bay through British sellers. We think there might be HP licensed merchandise (and not necessarily from the movies, but from the author herself) over there that we don't get here in the States. For instance, there's this ...

2004-07-08 11:12:21

Sisterly love Wednesdays, I've warned you about those. It's the woe factor. Well I missed the last tm but of course I'm glad to hear that everyone enjoyed themselves. I ended up having a pleasant evening in with my make-up box and a long chat with Pippa. We always have a good chat, she tells me ...

Drab, drab, drab

2004-07-08 00:25:55

I leave for the hospital in a few minutes. My doctor wants me to do a sleep study since I might possibly have a disorder there. I can't take the pill that helps me relax for sleep, either. What sucks more than anything is that I have to be totally drab! I can get away with wearing my ...

2004-07-07 16:47:43

Bought a loaf of bread, some milk. Swept the kitchen floor, did the ironing.

2004-07-06 17:23:14

Kicking back Wow, over 1000 hits on my blog, who is reading this nonsense? Must be the masochists amongst us, the ones who like a good verbal kicking. Apropos, I’ve been chatting to Cerys recently trying to encourage her to go out again after a long time away from it, she was understandably ...

american beauty

2004-07-06 00:10:57

Monday. I'm in Tampa, Florida, I'm dressed. I'm wearing my new pink skirt and pink top. This is the first time dressed since last Thursday and I certainly need it! It took me about 12 hours to get here from London. I had to change planes in New York. And getting through security takes an age. ...

my old self

2004-07-05 10:03:36

Well it looks like i'm back to my old self again after the episode with Karen.At the time i was gutted,but the advice i had from one person the other day really has helped me a lot.aussie mick just said that the best thing i can do is put it all behind me and move on,which is what i am doing.I have ...

T-GIRLS TO THE RESCUE!

2004-07-04 12:44:54

You are all so great friends. I thank each and every one of you for your sisterhood. Right now I need to thank Christina, Nena and Tressa for this past week. Christina: I'm surprised our shoulders haven't shriveled up from us crying on each other. Tressa: On Thursday I was wearing this ...

2004-07-02 17:57:22

"We're gonna need a bigger boat" So many eager sailors amongst us. This is good girls we all need to pull together. This thing is bigger than most people realise, there are lots of us out there, and I bet the majority of them are keeping their secret entirely to themselves. Took me over 30 years ...

My dream had the wrong dress

2004-07-01 23:32:16

Shoot, in my dream, Christina was all decked out in black, not like in the pics. SORRY!

think pink

2004-07-01 16:56:35

Thursday. I was home alone today, for the second week running. Last week I went to a dressing service in Camberley. I was made to look beautiful, though I couldn't have any pictures and I couldn't go out. Today it was different. I decided to go out dressed and go shopping: partly to buy an outfit ...

My fantastic Tranny dream!

2004-07-01 13:34:47

I just must write this down, instead moaning about the BS in my life (I'll stop that, okay?). First, let me just mention how much I love all of you, so if I leave out someone's name here, please do not be offended. I miss the cyber fun in the evenings, and playing with my girls like Tina ...

Why I'm not around much, especially at night

2004-06-30 13:45:09

My computer situation at home, like so many other things in my life, really sucks. The one computer we use is about 2000 years old and the software won't let me see what's happening in the chatrooms. A laptop was given to us, and now it needs $500 worth of new hardware. Hell, for ...

I'm so up and down, and I love what's not allowed

2004-06-28 19:06:56

Things have gone back to garbage. We had a HUGE fight last night. I really didn't start it, but I sure acted the fool and got my digs in. For the first time in a while my being TG came up. It wasn't the cause of the fight, nor did we necessarily argue about it. Still, ...

2004-06-28 17:27:55

The Good Ship Lucy Sometimes you don't realise that change is needed until the change has already occurred. I've had one or two unexpected changes for the better in the past, as I've allowed myself to be washed along the stream of life, hitting the occasional rock and bouncing off in a different ...

Nope, no heels right now

2004-06-27 16:46:51

Sorry, girls, but I really don't have any heels, or girl shoes. I'm actually afraid of high heels. I truly am a klutz. My coordination is awful and I'm always injuring myself. I once even managed to kick a steak knife into my own foot! (That's a story that I'll post ...

things are lookin up at last

2004-06-27 11:16:17

Well as you all know i've recently had some very sad news,which i'm slowly gettin sorted out in my head.But things are changin for the better cos in 2 weeks i'm gonna meet up with my good friend sally,In august i'm doing my very first TM which i'm really lookin forward to,and the week after i'm ...

hopes and dreams

2004-06-26 20:16:07

I've been wondering why I spend so much time online at this site. On the surface, it's an odd thing to do, considering how little time I can spend actually dressed. The answer is partly that dressing as a woman touches something deep inside, and I think about it a great deal. So it's natural to ...

addicted

2004-06-25 19:27:45

It's got to the stage where if I don't dress regularly, ideally daily, I start to feel on edge. I have difficulty seeing beyond the next change of clothes. Yes, I am now addicted to dressing. Only when I give in, like now, do I feel completely myself. I'm wearing my long summer dress today. It's ...

Whoops, almost busted

2004-06-25 17:51:34

Just as I was really settling in for an afternoon of Meredith, someone comes over. This guy, who is the husband of one of my wife's coworkers, does handyman chores for us. I can't do these things - put a power tool in my hand and I'll kill myself somehow. Anyhow, he just came by ...

I'm such a tramp sometimes

2004-06-25 17:24:27

Sitting here like this in my miniskirt feels soooooooooo nice. But I really need to sit more ladylike. I'm sitting back in the chair with my legs somewhat spread, which means anyone could get a clean view right up my skirt. At least I'm wearing panties. Oh well.

Dressed right now and loving it

2004-06-25 17:21:26

Today I'm editing those chapters I wrote so I can send them off to the publisher Monday morning. That means a nice little paycheck. What they don't know is that Meredith is working on it today! Let's see here - a cute white lace bra (stuffed, of course), pretty bikini floral ...

2004-06-24 22:09:57

I can't believe it is more than a month since I last wrote in here. Well not much has happened apart from a lot of boring work and not enough time being dressed. Actually I did manage some time dressed last Friday when I tried out some of the things I had managed to acquire from Ebay. I really ...

another dressing service

2004-06-24 17:29:39

I was at home alone today. I arranged it some time ago and I knew that my tranny self would come out to play. My first thought was to dress and go out shopping locally. But in the end I decided to try out another dressing service. A girl I was chatting to recently suggested Visions in Camberley, ...

2004-06-23 11:15:10

Some names have been changed to protect identity Regular readers to this column will know that outside T-web I have only one friend (Paul) who knows how I really am. Or at least so I thought. Recently he told me that he’d told someone else (William) about me when I’d first told him. This was ...

2004-06-22 11:22:59

Breaking barriers I got 3 pairs of new shoes last night! I'd hoped they would arrive last week in time for Tm as I could have done with some dancing shoes, but never mind, my old pair held out. Mind you I'm having to send one lot of shoes back as they sent me two left feet, are they trying to tell ...

my broken heart

2004-06-22 08:40:50

today i recieved the worst news i could have wished for.I have had my heart well and truly broken,and i'm devastated.All i'd done is phone round a few places trying to find out where karen was cos i was worried about her,having not heard from her for weeks.I phoned where she worked,she found out ...

2004-06-21 11:11:38

Sisters, daughters, and one big happy family I loved Saturday night, from start to finish. Trans-mission in Manchester was packed, even more people than there were at the London event 2 weeks ago. It's so great to walk into a room full of girls who all have something very important in common, they ...

Karen!

2004-06-20 10:36:27

At long last i've finally found out where Karen is,although why she did'nt say where she was the first time is puzzling to say the least,cos i thought we were supposed to be in love.I recieved an email from her today,saying she was staying with friends in Inverness.She's got to go into ...

royal ascot

2004-06-17 22:46:11

One of the annual events in the Society calendar is the week of racing at Royal Ascot. The racecourse is on a suburban line from Waterloo. Which means that every morning this week, on arriving at Waterloo, I've seen a much larger collection of frocks than usual. Lots of pastel shades, some bright ...

Too much stress

2004-06-17 13:10:32

With these huge financial problems I have - brought on by underemployment - it's a wonder I have anything at all. It's been a while since I've dressed. My kid has been home all week (her school year ended and the summer daycare hasn't started yet), so I certainly can't do it now. ...

august's TM

2004-06-17 10:12:31

at long last i'm going to realise a dream of mine,which is to finally get to go to TM in august.It'll be my first time ever that i've been and i am soooo looking forward to going and meeting all of you.got me cash all saved up,ready for one wild night of fun &games.it's gonna be a ...

2004-06-16 16:38:17

Questions of science, science and progress, do not speak as loud as my heart At work again. Just dealt with a man who all the time looked to one side of me, and paused 10 seconds before each sentence, which seemed like an eternity, and was slightly unnerving. You do meet some strange people in ...

i need a hug....a BIG HUG!!!

2004-06-16 09:04:20

If ever i needed me friends it's now,cos last night i had the most dreadful news i could have imagined and i'm in a real mess inside.I got a message from karen last night at 7-45,to say that she wasn't coming after all cos of her knee.I was absolutely devastated,she left it so late to tell me.I'd ...

Thanks, again

2004-06-15 15:43:42

There is so much I want to say. I am NOT GOING TO STOP. This is me. I have been in touch personally with some of you lately. Thanks for making me feel human.

2004-06-15 11:16:29

Two feet firmly on the pavement Trans-mission approaches once more, seems like only 10 minutes since the last one. Well, 10 days to be precise. Just in case anyone out there doesn’t know, Trans-mission is a once monthly club event held in London, organized especially for girls like us. Isn’t ...

an apology

2004-06-15 09:36:59

I just wanted to say sorry for the hurt I've caused to other people by the negative remarks in my blogs over recent months. I've always had a tendency to self-destruct and now it seems I have a talent for being destructive towards others as well. It's connected with my mental state. I have been ...

follow you follow me

2004-06-14 17:55:10

It's Monday, early evening. My work is much less busy than it was. So it's easier to get home early. And easier to dress when I do. Like now: grey sleeveless top, grey denim mini, dark grey legware, black stilettos, blonde hair. I don't know, I just feel different, better, more complete, when I'm ...

hot off the press!!

2004-06-14 10:38:52

ladies i've just had the most wonderful news.Yesterday i recieved an email from karen saying she wasn't coming this week and i was gutted.Last night i had a phone call from her to say that she's coming after all!!.She's gong to the doc's today to get something to ease the pain(cos in 3 weeks she's ...

all dressed up and nowhere to go

2004-06-13 15:50:46

I have a spare hour or so this afternoon, which is long enough for me switch into girly mode. I'm dressed as in my current icon: girly dress, blonde hair, black stilettos. It makes me feel very feminine. I've been able to wander round the house, and step outside the front door, and now I'm here at ...

thankyou so much ladies

2004-06-13 11:47:41

I gotta say a big thankyou to all you ladies for cheering me up this morning after the bad news i recieved earlier today.i was crying when i read the nwes so decided to come straight here to talk to you all and try to stop meself from crying...again.It really cheered me up a lot.Thanks to ...

the worst news possible

2004-06-13 09:57:12

I just got the worst possible news today,and i'm actually cryin as i write this.My karen's not coming next week,she's gotta go into hospital for a knee op.which means she can't come after all(wipes tears from eyes).i was SO looking forward to it as well,and now i'm absolutely gutted.I'll just have ...

feeling rather low

2004-06-12 09:52:09

i'm feeling rather low at the moment,just havin one of those days.What started it off was hearing about everyone's plans for TM in manchester next weekend.Hearing about outfits,hotels,whos going with who and the like has made me a little bit jealous to say the least.I would love to go,but living ...

2004-06-11 16:41:23

A step in the right direction Virtually every day at work it seems to get to a certain time in the morning when there is a quiet lull, my mind becomes free to think about the more meaningful things in my life, and I have an overwhelming desire to chat with my girlfriends. It's probably a good job ...

an overwhelming desire

2004-06-10 18:18:05

Sometimes the desire to dress can be overwhelming – especially when you've been deprived of the pleasure for ages. The desire hit me today and I found it hard to think of anything else. It's a good thing my work colleagues can't see inside my head! I made a real effort to get away early and ...

I guess there's so much more

2004-06-10 14:30:45

I never really tried to understand why I'm a cd. I do consider myself to be part of the tg community, obviously, but as to why - I don't care. It's who I am. But I cannot be fully out. Being out would cause too many problems for other people, and they wouldn't deserve ...

2004-06-10 11:19:57

The Village People I'm blogging today more to stay awake at work than anything else, haven't got anything particular in mind that I want to say, but then do I ever? The next exciting thing I have to look forward to is the Trans-mission second birthday party in Manchester. It'll be my second ...

dreaming of a tranny life

2004-06-09 18:25:42

I was on holiday last week, in north Wales, with my family. I had to put my tranny life into hibernation. I didn't miss it as much as I was expecting to, but then we were quite fully occupied anyway. The holiday showed me that my tranny desires are externally driven to some extent. When I see a ...

karen's coming

2004-06-09 12:11:30

i've got some good news to share with you all.At long last it looks like karen is coming down to see me,and i'm just so happy i want to share it with you all.All this waiting has finally paid off!!!. when she comes it means we can get some nice new piccies taken of us together,and some of me ...

2004-06-08 19:25:51

Everybody needs a chance to grow If you haven't been to Trans-mission there is only one word I have to say to you - "Go!" It was great. As soon as I walked through the door I felt at home, and could see everybody else was as happy to be there as I was. But lets start at the beginning; it's ...

i know what i like (in your wardrobe)

2004-06-04 21:45:58

In "The Lazy Crossdresser", Charles Anders devotes a few pages to the issue of how to come out to your partner. He recommends a staged approach whereby you would break it her gently in your male clothes, since the shock of seeing you in female clothes at the same time might be too much for her. ...

2004-06-03 14:57:59

I moved back to the midwest after completing my doctoral coursework. I was going to write my dissertation on that area and it made sense to just go home. My and my gf broke up, and while we did have some sex, I was still somewhat deprived and made up for it a bit. Then I became ...

More background

2004-06-03 14:32:53

My panty collection at home was eventually tossed out (sob!) because I feared getting caught too much. I broke up with one gf while working on my Master's, then hooked up with another who was doing the same thing. She was quite petite, so getting into one of her skirts was difficult, unless it had ...

Background

2004-06-03 13:42:36

Like so many others, I wanted to dress when I was very young. Panties were probably my first "love," but I certainly liked looking at skirts and dresses, too. The shorter the better! I come from a large family - 6 children (one now deceased) - most of whom were girls. I ...

2004-06-03 11:22:24

Thursday's child has far to go I remember wondering as a child, why was the daughter from the Addam's family called Wednesday? It seemed a harmless name, I mean, Pug, Fester - urgh. But of course if she was born on a Wednesday she'd be full of woe wouldn't she, which would figure. Do they have ...

2004-06-02 11:20:27

Wednesday's child is full of woe What day is it today? Wednesday. Never could get the hang of Wednesdays. Still that means it’s Thursday tomorrow and Friday the day after that. Sorry girls, I haven’t started blogging for Sesame Street, I know you know the days of the week, but my mind is fixed ...

with a little help from my friends

2004-05-28 21:25:04

I thought I'd better post again before I went, since yesterday's entry was so bleak. I'm feeling better now. Much of the credit goes to a couple of girls who made themselves available for a long and sometimes painful chat last night. By the end of it they'd managed to pull me out of the pit. Thank ...

2004-05-28 11:46:50

Life is an open book I've mentioned in the past how I've found that writing things down seems to help me, in a way that is quite hard to explain really, so I won't try and explain it you'll just have to take my word that it really does. I guess though, that I don't get enough opportunities to ...

2004-05-27 11:52:29

Made up for the night Making arrangements for my nights out makes me feel like they’re getting closer, which they are every day I guess, but booking hotels and enquiring about makeovers gets me all excited. Yes, makeovers - that will be a new experience for me, and a much needed one too. I try ...

going away

2004-05-27 08:38:24

Next week, I'm going away with my family on holiday. We've rented a cottage in north Wales, near Caernarfon, near the sea, just outside Snowdonia. We're looking forward to it as all of us are in need of some rest. However, the cottage doesn't have a telephone, so there's no internet connection ...

Thanks

2004-05-26 14:14:13

It's been almost six months since I came out to my wife as being cd. I would have come out some time, but it was joining Trannyweb that gave me the courage. I actually thought she knew for a few years, and as long as she didn't see it, then it didn't exist. Then, back in December, ...

2004-05-25 16:32:24

Help is at Hand I went in the chatroom yesterday evening to find a young girl receiving some very supportive comments from all the other girls. 18 years young to be precise, and she'd told her parents that she was ts. I offered my support as well; the feeling of really wanting to help people like ...

cathy rides out

2004-05-24 21:14:48

I was working from home today, and this time I was all alone. As it happens, I finished early, and then I saw it was a lovely day outside, and I thought, I'll get dressed and go out. Upstairs to strip off, and put on some lingerie, then into the bathroom for my make-up. This time it was easier ...

2004-05-24 11:21:54

Friends and Shopping It’s nice to be making so many new friends here, I may have only met two of them so far but that will change in a couple of weeks when I go to Transmission, looks like there’s going to be loads of us there. What’s really nice of course is the fact that all these friends ...

a day of negatives

2004-05-23 20:51:43

Sunday afternoon, and I'm alone again. Wife and two boys gone out for a walk with her parents. I could dress again. For some reason I don't, and it's just as well because after about half an hour, the doorbell rings, and it's my wife with our younger son who's not feeling well. This happened ...

dressing pleasures

2004-05-22 17:18:48

I wasn't expecting any dressing chances for a while, but one came along today. We went to a lunch party with my wife's parents and relations, and they all decided to go out for the afternoon, leaving me to walk the short distance home. I went straight into the loft and brought out my suitcase. ...

Latest update

2004-05-22 16:27:21

Well not much happening at the moment apart from the fact that I am unable to dress at the moment but am still lookinig in on Trannyweb and adding to the forums. Made a website on Trannyweb as well and have email there too. Just to use the facilities.

2004-05-20 22:15:47

A Stroll By The Canal Off work this week, and it’s been reasonably hectic so far, which is why I haven’t got round to blogging recently. Of course the highlight of the week was Tuesday in Manchester, out with Cathy & Pippa. I’m sure most of you will have seen the pics and read the ...

manchester 1

2004-05-19 19:42:31

The Rembrandt Hotel stands on the corner of Sackville Street and Canal Street. This is the centre of the Village, home to Manchester's gay and lesbian community, and also a happening place for anyone young and hip. The business here is eating, drinking, dancing and talking, or just watching the ...

manchester 2

2004-05-19 19:39:51

We went to Napoleon's, but found it shut up and dark: closed on Tuesdays, the noticeboard said. Cruz 101, later in the evening, was also closed. Tuesday was obviously not tranny night in the Village. But we did get into the Hollywood Bar, home of Northern Concord on a Wednesday evening. This is ...

things in general

2004-05-18 10:31:03

well after all thats gone on,things finally seem to be going my way.i've got me family slowly getting used to the idea that maria's going to be around for good now,which makes me happy.i am now comfortable with who i am and what i want to be.even i'm not dressed i feel at ease with myself.Even when ...

the shopping trip that wasn't

2004-05-17 20:54:06

Today's shopping trip didn't work out quite as intended. At lunchtime I caught the bus to Waterloo and walked down the road to Lower Marsh, to the Honour store. This was my first lunch-time trip there and it was much busier than usual. Staff and customers everywhere. I spent some time looking ...

the bruised and bleeding

2004-05-16 16:10:56

2,000 years ago in Israel, women did not have the status of citizens. Jewish law forbade a man speaking to a woman in public. Some of the Jewish religious leaders took this a stage further and tried not even to look at a woman in public. In order to do this, they would walk around with their heads ...

big news!!

2004-05-16 10:32:28

Well there has been a major development!! the rest of my family asked to see me dressed as maria.I was a little reluctant at first but then i thought" what the hell", and agreed to their request.I dressed rather plainly in a sleeveless pink dress,white undies,cardi and white 3" heels.Their ...

fetish fabrics

2004-05-15 16:41:47

How many leather mini-skirts does a girl need? I have two. Both are size 14, but whereas one is comfortable, the other is aspirational. I had a third one, but it was simply too small so I gave it away. You might think that two leather mini-skirts is excessive when your whole wardrobe has to fit ...

heterosexual cross-dressers

2004-05-14 21:29:20

And finally (though not in the book: it's the middle chapter), heterosexual cross-dressers. Amy Bloom starts with the observation that cross-dressers are not generally popular: they are different, but they are not gay, they are not drag queens (men who dress as women for a living), and they are ...

2004-05-14 11:33:02

Lucy in the sky Yes, I'm feeling excited anticipation about Manchester, but there's more. After my first time out I added a post on the forum, Passing in Public - Passing is a Drug, as I was severely under the influence of that drug, or something very similar (not saying I passed though). The ...

hermaphrodites with attitude

2004-05-13 23:09:33

The third chapter in Amy Bloom's book is called "Hermaphrodites with Attitude", after an organisation campaigning on their behalf which is now called the Inter-sex Society of North America. Hermaphrodites are born with the physical characteristics of both male and female: typically in their sexual ...

2004-05-13 11:24:33

In your place, or mine I mentioned my recurring dreams again yesterday, and there I go again today, they’re starting to recur as often as they did when I was 4. Sorry about that, I am known for repeating myself, something I get from my mother, not the only thing I expect… yes, digressing too. ...

more news

2004-05-13 10:13:08

well since yesterday,there's been a development.my family are slowly coming round to the idea of me as maria.But the really good bit is,my brother is now on my side! we'd gone out last night for a few beers and got plastered.I explained things to him about how dressing as maria makes me feel and he ...

female-to-male transsexuals

2004-05-12 21:42:57

I've been reading one of the books I bought in America – "Normal" by Amy Bloom. Despite the title, this is not a book about normality, whatever that means, but about three groups of people that society regards as very far from normal: female-to-male transsexuals; heterosexual cross-dressers; and ...

2004-05-12 17:04:27

In my place Last night I was chatting to Emma, who I’ll be meeting up with when I go to London for Tramsmission in June. We’re going to make a girly weekend of it – go out for a drink on Friday, do some shopping on Saturday then tm that evening. Sadly I’ll have to drive back on Sunday, but ...

Update

2004-05-12 17:00:29

Updated my membership but am having trouble using tranny mail and especially making a website it says I have no space available - If you read this Katie get back to me please.

one life

2004-05-12 11:57:41

well i watched " one -life" on bbc 1 in the uk last night.whilst i found it interesting,there were a few bits that were'nt.I phoned me mum to see if she'd seen it and she had,and we ended up having a blazing row over me dressing.She reckons i'm selfish and self centred for only thinking about ...

2004-05-11 16:39:45

And the Lord said unto Lucy, "Rise, for you are healed…" 7 days and counting… One day going out dressed will be just a normal thing to do, it will feel natural and I won’t get butterflies thinking about it. I’d really like to be full-time, but need a change of circumstance or two for that ...

kim is back

2004-05-09 10:54:05

i got a nice surprise yesterday to find that my old friend kim is back in town!! those fo you who know kim,also know that she's had BIG probs recently,resulting in her coming off trannyweb for a while.But now she's back, larger than life. i was stunned to see her back in the chatroom ...

a lovely surprise

2004-05-09 09:33:51

i was feeling a bit down yesterday cos i was missing my karen,but i soon cheered up when i found what she'd sent me.She's finally got the wedding dress from ebay and she'd sent me lots of pics of her in it.She'd also got all the things to go with it as well.She looked stunning in that dress,the ...

the trannyweb show: part 1

2004-05-07 21:37:49

This was the day the circus came to town. It started quietly for me, with a series of meetings in federal offices. I had to wear my suit to those. Cindy and Tressa were able to dress from the start. They had a quiet but very nice day wandering round The Mall, taking lots of photos, and sitting in ...

the trannyweb show: part 2

2004-05-07 21:36:37

The first intimation was the sign on the door: women not admitted unless accompanied by a gentleman. Since Cindy, Tressa and I were on our own, I was a little surprised that they let us in. However, Cindy explained to me that she was accompanying herself. And that seemed to be a complete ...

My web site

2004-05-07 19:56:06

Finally managed to write about the weekend away and added some pictures to my website. Anyone wanting to visit can do so by following the link below. The story is called london 1, 2 and 3 http://www.tinas-place.co.uk

2004-05-07 16:40:15

All the World's a Stage Ten days until my next night out, only the second in Lucy's history. But things are looking up, there will be at least 3 nights out in the next month or so, possibly 4, but as all of them involve a fair bit of travelling and hotel expenses then 3 might have to do. My first ...

2004-05-06 17:49:47

A statistician adds to the equation The law of averages states that it's only a matter of time before I get found out. For the purposes of this thesis we shall ignore the chaos theory, which would only serve to confuse the issue, and which can easily be proven by the state of my bedroom at the ...

fragile in washington

2004-05-06 13:21:27

No, not emotionally fragile - the other sort of fragile, that's linked to excessive vodka consumption. I see that neither Cindy nor Tressa has surfaced yet… I was late getting here because of the heavy traffic from the airport. When I got to my room I unpacked my suitcase and thought, What have ...

surprise package

2004-05-06 11:33:02

well, i got a surprise package coming my way from karen.She was telling me she was going to have a chuck out,to make space for more stuff.So i said anything you don't want then send it to me,so she is.One of the things she's sending me is her maids outfit cos she doesn't wear it anymore,and a n ...

2004-05-05 16:37:02

An amateur psychologist speaks Putting your thoughts down in writing can be surprisingly satisfying, I often find it has a cathartic effect. It occurred to me once that if I were to get run over by a bus, or similar tragic accident were to happen (not that I worry about these things), my parents ...

cathy hits LA

2004-05-05 13:43:37

When I woke up on Tuesday morning, I wasn't sure I felt strong enough to go out dressed in LA. I've never been here before, I don't know where anything is, and I'm on my own. I did try quite hard to find some tranny company - and almost succeeded - but it was not to be. So when the evening came, ...

2004-05-04 18:29:42

Life in Lucyland - the story so far I suppose I joined this site mainly to talk to people who I could share my thoughts and emotions with; having felt somewhat isolated all my life, and living for the last 10 years on my own, fortunately able to dress as I please, but never having met anyone in ...

waiting for the day

2004-05-04 05:07:51

Another day comes to an end. And this is the best part of it - sitting here dressed, logged on to TrannyWeb. Tonight I'm wearing the black lycra minidress, which not surprisingly goes well with the black leather jacket. And I'm blonde, and I'm wearing a pearl necklace. Do pearls go with a leather ...

the long and winding flight

2004-05-03 12:46:47

I once saw an American film, called I think “The Reluctant Traveller”, on the theme of the eternal triangle, with one man and two women. The man had to travel abroad frequently, but he didn’t like travelling very much and he didn’t like carting heavy luggage around. So his approach was ...

retail therapy

2004-05-01 19:34:22

Hours of shopping frustration came to an end this afternoon, when I finally found a jacket to complete my outfit. It’s black (of course), and it’s made of leather. It has a front zip and two girly side pockets. The cut is feminine and it’s medium-short in length – that is, the jacket hem ...

an unexpected surprise

2004-04-30 09:31:00

well ladies there's been a development in my relationship with karen.Originally she was going to come down when i threw a party for christina's BD. Well,she's still coming then,but she's going to be paying me a visit in a month or so.Then we can get to know each other better.I can't wait to look ...

the lark ascending

2004-04-28 19:37:27

I am really grateful to all those girls who left supportive messages in response to my last entry. I know there are no easy answers, but it’s a great help to know that people care. When I last posted I had a strong sense of futility. A sense of, why am I doing all this anyway? I think I’ve ...

karen's coming

2004-04-27 15:17:06

well i have just spoken to the love of my life and she's coming down to see us all in august at christina's BD do.then i can show her off to all you s that are coming.You can then see the lovely lady i've fallen in love with,and the one who's captured my heart.these next months cannot go soon ...

maria's in love

2004-04-27 14:02:57

well this just has to go in.a week ago i met a lovely lady here on trannyweb.Her name is karen.We got a lot,and realised that we both had feelings for each other but were'nt sure how to express them.Over the last week karen had sent me loads of pics of her and it was then that i realised ...

2004-04-26 16:23:32

Had a fantastic weekend and met Katie, Lynne, Sarah and Sarah's gf Norma. Had a great evening which included a trip to the Way Out Club and dancing - what a late night that was. Lynne and I went to the British Museum on the Sunday and had quite an interesting time - first time either of us ...

sow the wind and reap the whirlwind

2004-04-24 18:34:14

Going out dressed in public is the highlight of the tranny life. It’s interesting that different girls react to it in different ways. After Edinburgh, Lucy was on a high for several days (and she might still be there). She lives alone and dresses at home every day after work, so taking herself ...

interesting chat

2004-04-24 10:01:43

well i have just had a rather interesting conversation with my good friend cerys,and it was a bit steamy to say the least !.i am trying to get her to come up in august when christina's BD is,so she can meet us all and have a right good time too.there may be something that happens that will ...

Off to London

2004-04-23 23:06:33

Well it is Just Saturday and soon I'll be off to London to meet some of the other girls - quite looking forward to it but am also quite nervous. Will report back when I get back on Sunday.

2004-04-22 22:28:06

Well I've finally decided what I'm going to take with me to the meeting in London. As both my kids are at home tomorrow night I have taken the opportunity to sort out what I am taking and pack the things which won't spoil. This means less to do on Saturday morning before I begin the trip down the ...

edinburgh 1: preparation

2004-04-21 20:22:48

The past few days have been so busy that I haven’t had much time to think about dressing and going out. It meant that instead of dwelling on the huge significance of my first public appearance as a girl, I had to treat as just another event in a crowded diary. Maybe that was just as well. In an ...

edinburgh 2: facing the public

2004-04-21 20:21:58

There must be something about your very first appearance dressed in public. For me, the time to take a deep breath was just before walking into the hotel reception area and being seen for the first time. There were several people dotted around. I looked straight ahead as we crossed the floor and ...

edinburgh 3: endgame

2004-04-21 20:16:47

We walked west along Princes Street, away from Edinburgh’s “pink triangle”. This was the only time we were walking long enough for my shoes to hurt. Eventually Lucy turned into one of the side streets to find a place she’d discovered in Rose Street Lane North earlier in the day – and one ...

christina's birthday

2004-04-20 17:28:52

well, after the success we had last weekend,i've now got another party planned for the 14th august cos it's christina's birthday and we're throwing a party for her.the usual lot will be there(chris,fay(GF),julie,nena,maria,kat and possibly mandy and cerys) we gonna try and top the last one which i ...

Boredom

2004-04-20 16:51:30

Tuesday and not a lot to report. Really boring - work is 'ok' - not a lot happening - just waiting for the weekend. Blast - I broke a nail today - Really interesting isn't it??

2004-04-18 11:44:01

well,last night was an absolute blast!! julie,nena,chris and her GF were at mine thisw/end and did we have one hell of a night?? you bet we did. I don't think i've ever had a night like it.julie and nena were crazy(in the nicest possible way!!),and i think i got on ok with chris's GF which was what ...

Getting ready

2004-04-17 16:12:41

Getting ready for the night out in London. Been out and bought a couple of things - look out for them next week. The fit great and I feel really good in them - as you can tell I'm dressed at the moment but no pics at the moment as I've misplaced my camera - can only do pics from webcam - not as ...

Big Step

2004-04-16 19:17:24

Well I've been and gone and done it - I've booked for the Trannyweb Night out in London next weekend - looks like I may manage to meet some of the girls and GET OUT - that could be good but still nervous.

2004-04-15 09:02:24

well ladies,thats another big step i've taken.I'd gone to my local pub last night for a few beers,and got talking to the landlady(who i'd known for years).The subject of men who dress as women came up,so i said to her"well i do that too".Her reaction was great,she was'nt shocked at all.So i told ...

i'm dressed, i'm human

2004-04-13 15:33:42

And finally! This afternoon my wife and two boys went out for a walk, I stayed behind, and this time I was on my own. I didn't have time to get made up, but it was enough just to strip off and slip into something more sexy. Short black cocktail dress, shiny black holdups, black stilettos, and ...

so frustrating

2004-04-11 15:11:38

It’s the Easter holiday. This is the first long break from work since I started dressing actively at the end of last year. You would think this provided more opportunities to dress and explore my feminine side. Quite the reverse. My family are all here, all the time. For the first two days ...

Billing, Cover Girls, Blushes & Katie's Shop

2004-04-10 18:27:00

The new billing system is proving to be a real headache. We just about had it working when Andrew and Eric went off for the Easter break. Then I discovered that it doesn't work properly and they won't be back at their desks to help until next Tuesday! Boo-hiss! The Cover ...

make-up for beginners

2004-04-08 19:43:56

I had some more time at home today, so I thought I'd have a first go at making myself up. I got dressed, spread out my cosmetics collection on the table, found a mirror, and got started. I did it all from memory without looking at a book or CD – not because I didn't need them, but I wanted to ...

the girl in the mirror

2004-04-06 21:06:06

This afternoon I went back to Pandora’s for a make-up lesson. I have a book and some tools and some products, but I thought it would help to get some expert advice and practical tuition as well. I took my shirt off and draped a gown round my shoulders. Pandora sat me down in a large chair ...

Coming together

2004-04-06 08:47:20

All the new ideas and software we've thought of and bought respectively are starting to come together now. This site is huge and I don't mind saying that it is very hard work maintaining it. We still have problems with the billing system. Andrew (Eric's colleague) installed the new ...

a day of desiring

2004-04-03 21:28:02

This entry is not about dressing. Instead, it's about not dressing. My parents are here for the weekend. Now there are various positives about that, but it's also true to say that we don't have much common ground apart from being family. In particular, we have opposing views on the value of ...

Update

2004-04-02 19:43:35

Now officially on Holiday - Yipee!! - Also partial solving of picture problems on the blogger - hopefully it will get better - Just recovering from a few alcoholic beverages - hic. I'm on holiday

always moving forward

2004-04-01 23:00:03

After last weekend's fright, I knew I had to adapt my dressing habits. Staying at home at the weekend is just too much of a risk, and I don't like the problems it causes for family life. Is there room in my life for both a family and a serious cross-dressing experience? I still hope so. So what ...

Pictures ???

2004-04-01 22:24:24

I think I've found a way for people to see my pictures in the blogger. The only problem is that I have to have them already on line and can't upload them to Trannyweb. Luckily I have a few pictures on my website so hopefully people will be able to see the picture below. If not let me know.

Pictures ???

2004-04-01 22:19:10

Monday's update

2004-03-29 18:24:23

Nothing much to report - got another meeting to go to so not dressed - perhaps sometime later this week. Can you see the picture?

2004-03-29 10:14:21

i'm one very happy right now.why you ask? well i recently made contact with someone i had'nt spoken to for ages(tressa).There is'nt a day goes by where i don't think about her,cos she's been through a hell of a lot and i've always been there for her.Tressa really is a lovely person to know and ...

2004-03-29 10:09:23

i'm getting more confident every time i go out.earlier i went out in a smart black suit,white blouse and 3"heels for a short trip into town to go to the bank and do a little bit of shopping.i was'nt "read",which pleased me cos i must look convincing.But what sent my confidence soaring happened as i ...

2004-03-29 10:03:31

well it had to happen sooner or later.i'd gone to put the rubbish out dressed in my white top,black miniskirt and 3"heels and bumped into the next door neighbour.I don't know who was more surprised,him or me.But you should have seen the look on his face,it was priceless!

Back at last

2004-03-28 18:47:09

Having finished a hectic two weeks I am now able to relax a little and get back to looking at what is happening around and about. Still not able to dress but what they hey

discovery

2004-03-27 22:20:57

It’s getting harder to dress at home. My preferred time is at the weekend, in the afternoon, when my family go out for a walk. I stay behind, because it gives me a good hour or more to dress and spend time on this site. Recently, though, my wife has become more unhappy about me not joining them ...

2004-03-27 13:09:26

well we got one hell of a party planned for the weekend of april 17th. a few of the s are coming up to see me. There's going to be julie,nena and the lovely christina coming.I'll make sure we have enough drink in,after all we dont want nena running out of drink do we? i can hardly wait for it ...

2004-03-25 10:31:29

well yesterday was certainly a hoot cos i'd made my second trip out in daylight as maria. dressed in a white blouse and black smart suit with my 3"heels.i felt soooo good as i wandered round town en femme,even going into a shop to purchase a few y things.One or two people did ...

dog day afternoon

2004-03-24 19:18:57

I think we all know the feeling - it's the middle of the week, you're stuck in the office, you're supposed to be concentrating on the job, but your mind is a million miles away. Thinking, what shall I wear tonight? Or, why have I not been able to dress for the past 17 days? Or, Is there anything ...

Just an Update

2004-03-22 16:31:56

Have been very busy recently - not dressing unfortunately but have been out eveery night for the past fortnight and will be for the next week - this is just an update for those who are interested enough to look at my boring blog.

wandering star

2004-03-20 11:29:22

It's been a while since the last entry. What happened? Well, it was a busy week, and I had more emotional ups and downs than usual. Some family members have been unwell. I managed to get dressed only once, on Wednesday I think. I wanted more of that but the opportunities just weren't there. I ...

2004-03-17 11:13:16

yesterday was the best day of my life i must admit.I finally got to meet the lovely christina for the first time.She arrived at mine just after 9-40 am.After a cuppa i showed her round town,then we spent the entire afternoon dressed, and had the longest y chat i've ever had. I did get a bit ...

Just another day

2004-03-15 23:46:28

Well just thought I would add some infor for those f us who are interested. No opportunity to dress - wish I could make it to the night out but no way at the moment - very busy and so can't make it - never mind - some other time hopefully.

TrannyBlogger Help Pages

2004-03-15 12:18:01

Tina B has very kindly written some help pages for the 'My Blog' and 'Post a new Message' pages which have now been put in place. I'll try to add to them as and when I get time. I don't know what the problem was with the photo upload page but it seems to be working okay now as you can see ...

Test message from Katie

2004-03-15 11:27:40

Here is a test message with a hyperlink to http://gendersociety.com. That works for me! Here's a photo of Britney... She's a babe!

2004-03-15 11:17:47

one day to go!!!.tomorrow christina will be here with me. i had an email from her today and she cannot wait to meet me,she said.We're going to have a ball!!.i'll show her round and do some shopping in the morning and then afternoon will be spent dressing.Ive finally settled on what i'm gonig to ...

wet sunday

2004-03-14 15:20:48

Here in England it's a wet Sunday afternoon. Too wet for most people to go out. But not my dear wife, bless her, and our two boys. Which leaves me here at home, dressed again. I haven't been able to dress much recently. I managed half an hour on Friday and a short visit to the chatrom. Before ...

2004-03-13 09:30:48

had another chat yesterday with my very good friend Alexandra,about all sorts of y things.Must arrange when i'm going to call her again.She's quite a is our alex.She's one very Y,very CLASSY girl and i like her a lot!

2004-03-13 09:24:52

things just seem to be getting better and better at the moment.On tuesday,Christina's coming up from oxford to spend the day with me,and i just cannot wait!. She'll be the first t-girl i've actually met face-to face.I suppose in her, i see a little of myself and how i was when i first started ...

the calm after the storm

2004-03-10 18:34:20

Life is very quiet at the moment. It seems a good time to look back on an eventful week. I suspect we all find it hard being tranny, and it can be very hard sometimes – as I realised when I faced up to the reality of my double life. I reacted in an extreme way. I stormed, I cried, I stamped my ...

2004-03-10 09:45:32

what a day,yesterday was. I phoned my good friend alex for the first time.I'd often laid awake in bed at night wondering what she sounded like. I was so nervous as i picked up the phone and dialled her number,but i need not have been because everything was fine.I was so glad to hear her voice ...

strange kind of woman

2004-03-08 23:22:52

A strange kind of day, for a strange kind of woman (that's what I am). I was working at home today, and mostly alone. So I started off with the black cocktail dress, my blonde hair and some holdups. I was dressed long enough to try on all my footwear in turn. The boots are definitely the most ...

a girl is reborn

2004-03-07 23:50:07

Sunday evening… I went back into the chatroom tonight, for my first proper session in a week, and I had a great time. OK, I may have talked more than anyone else, but it was nice to interact. Earlier today I managed to dress again. It's more of an undertaking now as I have to go up into the ...

Still trying

2004-03-07 17:56:00

No chances to dress this week so am trying to do job I said I would for Katie but not going as well as I would have hoped - this page is fairly simple but Manage images I cannot get to work. Will have to wait and see. This should be a picture of me but even though I can see it I bet you ...

taking the chances

2004-03-06 11:28:02

It's Saturday morning here. My family have gone out, long enough for me to dress. So I thought I'd try on some new clothes. I've done quite a lot of shopping recently. On Tuesday I bought a gorgeous white dress with black edging, in Whistles - but it didn't fit. My first ever been there, done ...

cathy come home

2004-03-05 06:39:40

I feel as though I’ve been away on a journey. I’ve been thinking about some very basic but also important things: who is Cathy? what is she doing on this site? is she going to live or die? Well, Cathy is my female self. She’s been sleeping for many years, but just before Christmas something ...

Trying to get the thing to work

2004-03-04 21:38:08

Trying to write help pages when thigs don't seem to work is a real bind - I am trying to get a picture on this blog but can I - no - will keep on trying. Now I can see this picture but I bet others can't - Let me know if you can!

this page

2004-03-02 23:28:50

Working on a help file for these pages - taking some time as I am quite busy both at work and socially at rhe moment - will probably get it finished by the weekend.

massive trauma

2004-03-01 22:57:04

In the chatroom tonight, the talk got round to telling your wife about your being a tranny. Some had. I said it was still secret. I couldn’t tell my wife because she would be devastated. And then the dam broke. Questions and comments flew past. Telling your wife is better than 13 years of lies. ...

lazing on a sunday afternoon

2004-02-29 17:55:15

This weekend seems defined by trannylife like none before. Saturday and Sunday afternoon both dressed, and feeling so sexy. The evenings online, chatting to one or more. There seems a lot of time to be like this... but all these hours I would previously have spent doing something else. What was ...

change of a dress

2004-02-28 16:21:52

I'm dressed and I'm so happy! It's Saturday afternoon, the family have gone out for a walk and I'm here alone with my computer. Today I thought I would wear my other dress. It's probably more girly than the lycra minidress. It's rather like a cocktail dress, though some inches shorter than these ...

friday once more

2004-02-27 23:47:21

It's Friday once again and I am so happy that the weekend is here. I usually have more time to dress at the weekend. Generally in the afternoon, when I'm home alone. I think I'm on this site for about two or three hours a day. Mostly late evening, in the chatroom. It's the best way of meeting ...

Will the messenger be installed?

2004-02-27 15:32:43

There always seems to be a lot of work to do on the TrannyWeb site and never enough money to pay for it. Today we are having our new Instant Messaging system installed and possibly our new chat room software too. I'm very excited by the prospect. I really think that the messenger will ...

dressed and happy

2004-02-26 19:31:00

It's Thursday, early evening. I came home early today for a medical appointment. I've been home alone for the past two hours and dressed for all that time. I can't explain why this works, but when I'm dressed I feel so much more complete and happy and normal and fulfilled and right and sexy and ...

Another Day

2004-02-26 18:13:33

Well after the excitement of last week this week seems to be nothing - apart from running about like someone demented at work - everything is generally mundane wiht not a lot to comment about. Still keeping on looking at Forums and also dropping in on the chat room.

midweek blues

2004-02-25 22:41:16

The trouble with Wednesday is that last weekend is a distant memory and next weekend is too far off to think about. Why is there so much work to do? It's really interfering with my dressing. I've reached the stage of wanting more outfits to wear. As soon as I get a free afternoon, I'm going up to ...

ballrooms of mars

2004-02-25 21:06:02

This blog is dedicated to the song “Ballrooms of Mars” by T-Rex. It features on the album “The Slider” which was released in 1972. Although it’s not a tranny song as such, it’s been speaking to me quite a lot recently. It’s hard to say what the song is about, just as it’s hard to ...

feeling unsure

2004-02-24 18:39:02

It's Tuesday, early evening, and I'm home first from work. Which means I'm here online, and I'm dressed. That feels great. But I've been thinking quite a lot lately about where all this is leading. I'm currently living in a state of heightened awareness and emotional intensity. All my spare time ...

midnight rambler

2004-02-24 04:24:45

I can't sleep. I don't know what it is, maybe Trannyweb has taken over my life! Here in the UK it's approximately 4.00am. There aren't many girls online, and certainly no other Brits. I took a positive step today by arranging a make-up lesson at The Boudoir with Miss Jodie Lynn. Jodie is famous, ...

TrannyBlogger

2004-02-23 19:09:46

I have just sent Katie the following information It is here if anyone else wants to read it. Some more info about Trannyblogger to go with the piece already on the forums which I’ve included. When you first click on Trannyblogger in the menu at the top you are taken to your own blog which is set ...

anonymous, north london

2004-02-23 13:37:48

This is a new experience for me - logging on from an internet cafe on the Holloway Road in north London. I was speaking at a conference this morning and now I'm on my way back to the office. I'm not normally online at this time so it's good to see some other girls using the site that I haven't ...

it's been a while

2004-02-22 23:46:13

Last Thursday was quite an event. I had to make good use of my time at home alone, so I had an all-nighter online with Trannyweb (and a few other sites too, which are too sensitive to be disclosed even to you, dear blog). Needless to say Friday was a write-off, but I did manage to co-ordinate my ...

How to put a pic in the blog

2004-02-22 23:23:44

Others can't see pics you copy from your hard drive directly inot the blog even though you can. To over come this put the pic into Manage Image area and copy and then paste it in as I have with this one - I hope

Trying something

2004-02-22 15:24:46

I am trying to add a pic of how I spent most of yesterday. If you can see it or not then please let me know by leaving a comment.

The day after the day before

2004-02-22 15:17:46

Well had an excellent day yesterday - spent a good deal of it dressed - took quite a few pics and have spent most of today putting them together in a new gallery on my website. http://www.tinas-place.co.uk I hope anyone looking in on this enjoys looking at them as much as I have putting them ...

2004-02-22 12:29:34

i'm one very happy today!!,why? because i've heard from cerys at last!!.i've not spoken to her since october last year.i reallly thought i'd lost her forever, but now she's back!!

Being Tina

2004-02-20 20:37:05

Well today I've actually managed to be Tina for 10 hours. - a record in recent months. Soon I'm going to have to go back to being drab but just for a while I can be Tina and everyting is alright with the world. Who would think that something so simple would be so satisfying. Sitting here dressed in ...

we're back...

2004-02-20 02:30:58

...and this time it's personal! hello blog! It must be around 2.30am and I'm still up, and dressed. This is going to be an all-nighter I think. Tomorrow can take care of itself! I'm playing my girly choice of loud music (AC/DC) which I wouldn't normally do at this time of night. I was concerned ...

home alone 2

2004-02-20 00:03:47

Tonight was special. I got home about 10pm. I am alone here overnight, for the first time ever - my family have driven off to the Cotswolds for a short break and I'm joining them tomorrow morning. Which means I can dress at home late at night without fear of interruption. So tonight I stripped ...

Quick update

2004-02-19 00:22:25

Went away for the wekend and have had no time to dress since. Still looking in ad adding my pieces to the forums and the chatroo but at the moment I am unable to dress and so feeling a little frustrated. Perhaps later on in the week or the weeekend who knows.

quiet day

2004-02-18 21:44:06

A quiet day today, after yesterday's emotional ups and downs. I feel calmer and better. I didn't manage to dress today, but I wanted to. All the time I wanted to. Now every time I see a well-dressed (= skirt / dress and heels) GG walking around in London, I feel a stab of pain that it's not me ...

2004-02-18 10:51:20

had a rather steamy sessionwith alex and jenny yesterday.it was amazing!!

not loving it

2004-02-17 19:14:04

Came home early again today, got dressed and went online. I had a tranny setback at lunch. I've posted on the forum but basically the first person I came out to, some weeks ago, reacted in a negative way today and left me almost crying. But being girly is still one of the most important things ...

loving it

2004-02-17 08:07:35

Tranny life seems to have stepped up a gear in the last few days. So much more time alone at home (and dressed), making good use of every spare moment. Like now, Tuesday morning and about half an hour before going to work. I started a new Trannyclub (called Club Cat) for me and my friends. Open ...

tranny hangover

2004-02-15 16:10:09

In the film "School of Rock", Jack Black is an unemployed rock musician who takes a job as a supply teacher at an upmarket school. His first conversation on meeting his class of 10 year olds goes like this- Jack Black: I have a hangover. Does anyone know what a hangover is? Schoolboy: Does it mean ...

Another Sunday - another workday

2004-02-15 12:08:23

I'm not moaning - honest! Although there is a lot of red tape and mundane stuff to do, I actually love running Trannyweb for my girls. I do wish that we could have a bug free society though, so we could concentrate on the business of being girly. Some things to do this week - we must ...

home alone

2004-02-14 17:17:04

It's Saturday afternoon and I have the rare pleasure of being home alone for several hours. I got dressed at the earliest opportunity. Then I set up the camera and tripod and took some pictures of myself, which I'm now trying to add to my pix on site. Since then I've been browsing the Trannyweb ...

2004-02-14 10:17:59

got some rather sad news about a close friend of mine(kim). i knew she was off on holiday to Rio but what i did'nt know was that she was'nt coming back!!. and i'm gutted!!

late junction

2004-02-14 01:12:21

It's very late on Friday night. I'm blogging now because I haven't been able to earlier. It's been a long day. What have I done today that's of tranny interest? I went to a fetish clothes shop - Honour, near Waterloo station, which is where I go to get the train home. I bought a wig, and my ...

who's ready for adventure?

2004-02-12 22:47:06

It's Thursday. I got dressed again tonight - the third time this week. All very pleasant but I need to do more. If I can, I want to go shopping tomorrow and build up my outfit. Then on Saturday I'm expecting to be alone for several hours. A chance to be dressed for longer and just get used to ...

just an update

2004-02-12 18:46:05

Managing to be dressed for a short time this evening - not going the whole hog with corset etc but am enjoyong just being dressed for a short period. Will try to add apic in a while. mmmm Not a fantastic pic but .....

dressed in my best

2004-02-11 19:12:26

It's Wednesday evening and once again I have some time at home before the family arrive. I'm dressed as before, all in black, with this uncomfortable corset and these hard-to-walk-in shoes. Still, my figure looks the right shape (around the waist anyway), my shoes look dead sexy, and the nylon on ...

Monday blues

2004-02-09 22:08:28

It's the start of the week. I've got lots of work to do. And all this work interferes with my time online. It's not fair! Still I managed to get home early today and get dressed. I'm now much quicker at lacing myself up in a corset. It may feel uncomfortable but it's so erotic! As it happens I ...

birthday girl

2004-02-08 22:29:41

It was my birthday day and we had lots of family round. So, a quiet day for the tranny in me. I missed not being able to log on to the site until now. Last night was another long session in the chatroom. I'm pushing back the boundaries of what I'm (virtually) prepared to do - or have done to me. ...

shiny legs

2004-02-07 21:36:25

My third post of the day... just to say that I took a picture of my legs, since I like them so much. I would post it here but I still don't know how to get pictures into a blog. So you'll have to visit my Trannypix instead. Catherine

hourglass

2004-02-07 15:29:30

It's Saturday afternoon, I have a short time on my own with the computer and my growing girly wardrobe. Today I am wearing the corset I bought yesterday. Having pulled hard on the laces I've reduced my waist to 28 inches. I can still breathe - just! The corset pushes out my hips and bust so I have ...

straight jacket

2004-02-07 01:31:50

Didn't have much time to do anything on Friday, but I did go out and buy the 11th Tranny Guide and also a corset to help me get that hourglass figure. Work has been so busy. But tomorrow (Saturday) should give me an opportunity to dress and also spend some time on the site. Catherine

images

2004-02-05 17:03:46

Having read the forums I thought I'd try to place an image in the blog. I don't know whether this is going to work or not. If it does, great. If not, expect howls of ....'Katie!" Catherine

secret legware

2004-02-05 16:38:30

Another day of unfulfilled longing. I feel more and more that I want to dress as a woman all the time. But I can't even get out to the shops to buy some basic items. However, I did buy a pair of hold-ups (black, 10 denier) in the supermarket today, and I'm wearing them now under my suit trousers ...

a day in the trannylife

2004-02-04 22:37:09

This was a quiet day. I so much wanted to go shopping - I'm working myself up to go to Doreen Fashions - but I had too much work to do and too many meetings to attend. So I was confined to thinking. Thinking about shoes, and wigs, and makeup. Thinking and waiting for the time to come. I feel ...

Shoes Arrived

2004-02-04 18:39:44

The shoes arrived today - one pair to replace a pair I have worn out and another to add to the collection. Jacky at Hayway Shoes said it would be 7-10 days but it was 3 days - excellent service. I would definitely recommend a visit to www.haywayshoes.co.uk to anyone wanting good looking shoes ...

2004-02-04 10:38:37

spolied myself today and bought domething i said i'd never buy and that was a gorgeous pvc skirt and ot only cost me £15-00 cos it was in a sale!!

the desire grows

2004-02-03 19:16:13

Sometimes the desire to cross-dress is almost uncontrollable. I look at real women much more closely now. I look at their makeup, their hairstyle, their beautiful features, their dresses, their skirts, their legs and their shoes. I see so many more beautiful women than I used to. And I whimper ...

Working hard

2004-02-03 17:31:45

Missed out on Sunday - Family around and Monday - work and then a committee meeting in the evenign - by the time I came to sit at a computer I didn't feel like pouring out my soul to the world. Still waiting for new shoes to arrive - when they do I will post some pics I think - don't know when I'll ...

big step forward

2004-02-02 22:45:20

Today I came out to one of my friends at work. This is the first time I've told anyone who knows me about my girly side. It made for an extremely memorable lunch engagement! She took it well and it was important for me to tell her. I won't say more about it here because I've posted the full story ...

back in black

2004-02-01 23:33:52

Sunday afternoon, and a few more hours on my own. So it was back into a little black number with holdups and high heels. I do find the heels easier to walk in every time I try. But the holdups are rather delicate - 7 denier doesn't last very long and I'll have to go out and get another pair. I ...

2004-02-01 11:28:43

in the groove

2004-01-31 22:15:33

A quiet day, no dressing, but lots of thinking about it. I posted another four "party girl" pix from the recent photoshoot. I've come so far so quickly over the past month that it's hard to know what to do next. I think probably another transformation, this time focusing on makeup and time spent ...

Damp Day

2004-01-31 12:43:09

Well I'm sitting here in the dry but it is puoring down outside. No chances to dress today but have received my new shoes from Hay way - nothing spectacular but their service is excellent.

I love it when a plan comes together

2004-01-31 12:03:37

It's Saturday morning and I really feel that things are starting to come together now. Eric has fixed the Who's Online problem and has promised to get back to me with a date for installing the new chat room. We've also discovered a new messenger system which will be much better than the one ...

Site is having problems

2004-01-30 23:10:30

I get an error message each time I try and open a window - apart fron Trannychat - must be a software problem as I have no problem with other pages.

another day

2004-01-30 22:48:27

I was at home earlier today and had about half on hour on my own. So it was a great pleasure to quickly get dressed and wander round the house. I wore my favourite figure-hugging black lycra minidress, a pair of 7-denier black hold-ups (virtually transparent), and my 5-inch heels. These are easier ...

2004-01-29 23:44:54

I like this blogging feature. It gives you a chance to stretch your legs, if you know what I mean, and express yourself more fully than the forums or chatroom allow. And I like the idea of a permanent record of my own ramblings... Today has been really cold. I didn't manage to dress. But I have ...

Loadsa bugs

2004-01-29 10:51:01

Gosh, is it Thursday already? Doesn't time fly when you're having fun. Here's the update - The best brains on the planet have deduced that the reason our server was crashing every 6 - 8 hours was because it was running out of memory, which in turn was caused by our move to Mod_PERL, which ...

Snow

2004-01-28 23:46:52

It snowed last night and this morning - travelling to work was fun took ages longer than usual - only had 1" here but it caused chaos - why is it that many places in the world manage to survive and even thrive on masses more snow than we have but hee everthing stops for even the tiniest ...

Monday, Monday, so good to me...

2004-01-26 17:43:00

Today Eric is monitoring the server with some Linux thing called TOP, which means nothing to me. If things start to turn turtle, it should give him an idea as to what the problem is. I've been busy working on the new Trannyweb navigation system. We already have so too many features to ...

depressed not dressed

2004-01-26 16:20:26

Well another day at work over - still lots to do. Don't know when I will be able to dress again - you know this could become very depressing - come on Tina buck up - things are never as bad as they seem. Updated my website and emailed everyone who has signed my guestbook to tell them of the update ...

Sunday Software Blues

2004-01-25 13:09:35

Yesterday was a very frustrating day with the server going down about four times, once for about two hours. The Canadians are off till nine o'clock on Monday morning (that's 3pm here) so I can't get any help from them. The hosting company want to charge me $150 an hour to look at the server ...

Website update

2004-01-25 12:18:13

Eventually managed to update my website. Added Gallery 34 - my how those pictures keep[ growing - very pleased with picture Jan04-11.jpg. Emailed all those who have signed my guestbook to let them know I've updated the site. Is it possible to put pics on here I wonder - Lets try. Wow can do it - ...

2004-01-25 06:05:02

What, no smilies???

Blog Test

2004-01-25 06:02:34

That Glover woman wants me to test the new blog page, so here I am. :) Test Test Testing... Test Test O.K, let's see how this looks.

an update

2004-01-24 18:09:46

wow managing to spend time dressed again am just about to eat a meal enfemme and then spend the eveningwill update later

Dressing

2004-01-24 00:56:01

Well managed to spens a fw hours dressed this evening. Nothing special dressed and then sat around watched TV and then went on tranny web. Met some old friends and had a good chat. It was nice to be able to dress for a change. Unfotunately it was not for very long but beggers can't be choosers. A ...

2004-01-23 17:28:36

OK Friday and the weekend - Hopefully I should be able to get some time to be me this weekend - will keep you informed.

Accounts day

2004-01-23 16:50:50

Today has mostly been an accounts day while I wait for various people to come back to me with news of the server problem, which caused it to fall over every seven or eight hours. Eric, our programmer in Canada, seems to think it's a network problem at the hosting company and not caused by ...

Today

2004-01-22 17:06:21

Have been having trouble logging on to Trannyweb. Got a really nice message from Katie appologising and hoping that everthing was now working. Allowed me to try blogging which I am now doing. Will be interesting to see what happens in the future.

New

2004-01-22 16:52:39

Hi just a test to see how blog works - will chat lter after this message

Major announcement soon!

2010-08-20 21:42:27

Within the next few days I will be making (hopefully) a major announcement. I wish it concerned transitioning or Josie, but it will be about something else, and this means career-wise!

Deep depression

2010-05-16 22:50:31

I'll blog more later. Josie was here this week and we had a fantastic time. I was finally able to take her to some Chicago places that we never had time for in the past. She got to hear my special labor law presentation, something I know every girl dreams about!More later.

Rough week

2008-11-20 14:09:33

Finances went from bad to worse. It's going to be tough for the next few weeks. For the first time in a long time my account is in negative numbers! But, I have food in the house, and enough gas in the car to get to work. I get paid tomorrow, and already a big chunk of that is gone. But, ...

Groningen

2008-01-20 20:41:29

Hmmmm, what can I put in here that isn't going to be in the official version? Heh, heh,heh. No, I can't add anything really. It was a wonderful weekend, Carren and Dani were great hosts as well as being lovely people and Karen was a lovely girl too, really nice company. So I don't have any dirt to ...

Just Random Thoughts

2007-12-22 14:31:02

Christmas holidays have started.I bought a coat on line from Woman Within. It's supposed to be red but it's a dark pink, with pink buttons. I can't wear that anywhere. To flashy. Which is a shame it fits perfect. Had our party at work yesterday. I was given a ten year certificate & an order ...

2007-11-03 11:31:23

Good MorningI've picked up a cold over the last few days. I don't realy feel bad I just hate the stuffy nose.I've been working a lot of hours but getting very little done. The contractor has lock-outs on all the power sources so no one can mess with it when he's not there. 3 out of 5 days I went in ...

One week to go…

2007-09-16 13:32:36

…before I fly to Thailand. Less than 2 more weeks of being a man. Obviously I’m not really a man, I never have been, but I will be finally losing those parts that define me as male, at least as far as the doctor who signed my birth certificate was concerned. Easy mistake to make I ...

who's a clever girl then?

2006-03-16 21:39:01

Me.....thats who's a clever girl!. Why, i hear you ask? well let me tell you.I have been doing some voluntary work seein as how i've No Job.For months now i have been involved with a Group Looking into the history of my own home town, Lowestoft. For weeks now, i have been working on a manuscript ...

Ode to Miss charllet Michelle Gellar.......

2006-01-07 21:14:43

Well, i thought it was about time i blogged again so here goes. Nothin much has changed since last time, except that in under a week charllet will be again makin the long trip down from scotland to spend a few days with me and i tell ya i CANNOT wait as i've missed her so much.....she's been just ...

I'm carrying Kendra's baby

2006-01-02 13:58:33

Yes, you read that right. She corrupted me. Now that I'm pregnant we have to get married. Although this is a sad morning, I'm still going to remain upbeat. I'll be leaving Karen Brad's in about 2 hours. This has been the best weekend. For the first time ever I could ...

2005-11-28 17:13:59

Buggeration My mum used to say, "botheration", but when she was really cross, it would become "buggeration". Buggeration. It’s all swings & roundabouts. The odd slippery slide here and there too. So, last night I was on my way out to my local to meet my mum and her friend and see the ...

2005-09-12 00:41:57

Out and about, with bells on Just like last weekend, I went out on Friday and Sunday again. This Friday was Kendal’s annual carnival, the "Torchlight Procession", to which I haven’t been for quite a few years, probably the last time was when our band played at the Town Hall dance afterwards. ...

2005-06-27 10:25:21

Sue Peter Something slightly different today. Son sent me his photo, so put that in above.There are rumours he looks like me, but he certainly doesn't take after me in other ways. And having just spent the weekend with my ex, Cathy, and her other half, who happens to ...

Old Habitats, Old Habits, and Serenity

2005-06-25 23:13:10

I have spent a lot of time around 12-Step Programs as a nurse in Chemical Dependency programs. This week, two lessons I learned there came back to me. LESSON ONE: THE SERENITY PRAYER God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to ...

2005-03-25 19:34:08

Be still my beating heart Pip couldn’t have visited at a better time. Turning people’s worlds upside-down is quite exhausting, and for a few precious hours the mad world spinning around me seemed to stop turning. Time standing still, nothing else matters, just me and my sweet, my friend, my ...

Lots to do!

2005-03-03 13:34:48

My "second" school wanted to know why I wasn't able to take this training to do special types of on-line courses. They're really hot for me to teach these other history courses. At this rate I might almost be full-time with them, although I won't officially be recognized as such. What I ...

Happy anniversary

2004-12-16 23:39:45

It was one year ago yesterday that I joined TW. Hopefully after the first of the year I can FINALLY be a full member. But what a year it's been! I won't go into my usual whining today, I promise! The first friends I made here were Nena and Mariette. I remember last ...

Upcoming London Trip

2004-12-15 22:56:22

Well I'm geting a little excited about meeeting katie, Sarah and Maryanne on Friday. I will be laeving a little earlier that I thought so I should have no problem changing on the way there and arriving dressed. I'm still wondering what o wear for the evening - any comments would be greatly ...

i've finally cracked it!

2004-12-07 13:46:15

At long last,something i have been wanting to do for so long i have finally achieved..going out "en-femme" during the day.I just cannot describe the feelings i'm getting right now.First,i had a parcel to drop off in the post office...that was fun standing in the queue waiting to be served,whilst ...

happier.....methinks

2004-12-06 10:13:59

I'm feelin a bit happier this morning,cos all my fears about yesterday were unfounded.I went to me mums for dinner....and it was just like a normal day,surprising what with all that's gone on.Got spoiled as usual(surprising when you consider i'd been a right a**hole to her).It's time i started ...

twist and shout

2004-11-04 23:36:59

Thursday night. I’m at home, and for the next hour or so I’m the only person here who’s awake. I am now dressed, not in my clothes because I haven’t got any at the moment, but in some belonging to my wife. Naturally, the outfit is all black. I feel good about being dressed. I’m pleased ...

The morning after

2004-10-23 14:03:09

Today is cold and rainy. What a cliche. It matches my mood. It's 9 a.m. and I decided to start drinking wine. I wish I was drunk last night when all this came to pass. That way I'd at least have a lame excuse for my sorry existence. I'm also deciding what to do about myself. Too ...

my special friend!!

2004-10-04 09:17:58

I've not been very happy recently,what with the job situation...and my love life(morelike the lack of it),but being on TW has helped me a lot,as has the friendship of one particular girl who's not having things all her own way at the moment too.She's always there for me whatever....when i'm feeling ...

on not dressing

2004-09-20 22:03:35

It's a strange feeling, being without any female clothes. Almost like going back to square one: life before dressing. There's nothing here for my wife to discover. Life is almost normal, in the way it used to be. I can get on with my life and do all the things I gave up doing when my passion for ...

a gem from me

2004-08-31 09:00:15

"Never saw the sun shinin so bright never saw things going so right noticing the days hurryin by when you're in love my how they fly nothing but bluebirds all day long"

the roar of the ocean

2004-08-11 21:40:11

A long walk by the sea calms me down. It must be the vastness of the ocean, the crash of the waves on the shore, the constant roar of the tide. It puts my anxieties into perspective. My emotions come and go, but the sea is always there and always will be there. Today we walked along the Dornoch ...

I guess I should learn

2004-07-22 14:09:58

I really don't drink every day, maybe on the weekends if anything, so I guess going without until I know for sure is fine. My diet needs to improve. I was doing good for a while with healthier eating. I thought my wife was uncaring about it yesterday, and even lecturing ...

Beneath the Ice

2004-07-18 18:44:39

Scorching summers came and went but The pond in the corner of Mason's field stayed frozen over, for twenty years. Lying on a ladder he taps the thickening ice. Unimpressed, the man from the university said there was an explanation, obviously. And promised to return in the morning, with a ...

not waving but drowning

2004-04-25 21:47:39

It’s amazing how one’s views can change in a short time. What you once feared, you come to love. What was once the dearest thing comes to mean very little. There may be no obvious reason for this. I can see this happening to me in relation to this site and this community. I’m not blaming ...

going out

2004-04-14 21:59:57

I'm getting my social life sorted. I now have a couple of engagements here in the UK. First, on Tuesday 20 April, a night in Edinburgh. For this one I'm being joined by Lucy from somewhere in north-west England. We're going to have a meal out dressed and go to a club, somewhere in the pink ...

2004-04-06 10:32:58

well at long last i've finally had the courage to "come out" without fear of rejection.last night i told a very close friend about what i do,and he was great about it.said it does'nt bother him one bit what i do,i am still his mate. I can't tell you how relieved i was to hear him say that,cos ...

White Rabbits !

2004-03-01 13:58:53

Hooray, it's March! White Rabbits!!! It was a very busy weekend here at TW (yes, I do work seven days a week)! Eric managed to get the new chat room software installed by the time he went homeon Friday. I spent most of Saturday configuring it. I also wrote a 'Frequently Asked ...

Progressing nicely...

2010-06-24 16:34:24

and thanks to all the well-wishers.Have decided my other birthday will be the 3rd June, op day.All is going well, have been at my home all this week with my son to ensure I don't do too much, such as trying to lift the shopping.Went swimming yesterday - nice to not have to be careful about being ...

Piece of cake!

2010-06-04 10:07:58

What I wouldn't give for slice. Chocolate, naturally!Ok, finally went down to theatre about 6.15pm. was back in room by just after 9pm. I vaguely remember being my usually post-op self in the rcovery room - thorougly obnoxious until the initial effects of the anasthesia wore off, and demanding ...

News

2007-05-22 10:56:52

My shrink wants me to come see her today about my HRT. The message I got sounded pretty upbeat so I hope it's good news.

painful or what!

2005-06-09 10:22:46

2005-05-15 12:14:06

Mr Plow The last few weeks I have been getting into gardening, something I have always avoided, wherever possible. My wife used to be in charge of the garden, occasionally pointing to a spot and telling me to dig, so I never found it much fun. After she’d gone I didn’t touch the garden for ...

Or would you take me home

2005-01-27 04:49:19

Please....I am not looking for compliments I think that one school is messed up and I won't be there. Yet, the other one had an emergency and, as usual, asked me to bail them out. So why did I act the fool tonight. The problems here aren't all my fault. Yet, well, we'll get past ...

A new hope?

2004-12-06 19:17:18

What a weekend. As for my current state of mind, I had two breakthroughs over the weekend regarding my insecurities. I came to some realizations and now I can really move forward. That means I'll stop making stupid comments at my wife about some things that only hurt her feelings. ...

2007-06-30 16:05:31

I have tomorrow off from work. I had planned to do some shopping & cleaning up. I have my clothes picked out. Karen does that but K just grabs whats ever in sight. Wierd ain't it.Anyway my sister called to say she's ...

transvestite for use cheshire

2009-03-31 16:23:37

Hello philip,We have just made your Trannywebblog space so now you can blog! This message is posted automatically by our system. After your first post, you may delete this message. The URL of your Blogging (Blog Editting) page is :http://gendersociety.com/community/blog/penny12/admin.html and the ...

Step Three

2009-03-05 00:46:50

Well hello everyone. I know a little bit since I’ve written but as I mentioned I have not been feeling that entire well. Still having the headaches, but have found a doctor and doing a few tests, though I suspect its stress related, but just getting checked out to make sure.Since I last posted I ...

bondage fun sub / dom Liverpool or contributions

2009-02-16 09:06:24

Hi names Chris from Liverpool and have a couple of bondage and fetish websites online featuring mostly sub / dom t girls from England. I also do free promotions and contributions so any t girl who want any publicity and postings please feel free to contact me webmaster@trussedup.comAny bondage ...

I am Rochelle, hear me ramble!

2008-11-29 14:53:34

I'd like to introduce myself. I'm new to the site and am for the first time in my life "discussing" my dressing. And for that matter myself. My name is Rochelle and words cannot describe how good it feels to say that! It’s funny I didn’t fully realize she was in me, though I suspect ...

Feeding Frenzy

2008-10-18 00:56:41

Back again. Did you miss me? I've had an exciting time since my last entry. The eBay feeding frenzy really took hold and I've now got a small wardrobe of stuff in just a short time, not counting the stuff I bought earlier in the year. I bought this when I wanted to start dressing up again but that ...

Dating Again

2008-08-29 02:19:51

Well girls, i am back out dating again. I took some time off for family and personal reasons. So I am headed to Taylor Mi next week, Wed Sept 3rd for some girl shopping, dinner with a date and then perhaps go to Gigi's bar in Detroit for drinks and enjoyment. Feels good to be back out as ...

New to transgender Introduction

2008-08-26 04:46:40

Hello, I am actually just coming out of my closet and starting to be honest with myself about my desires to be more feminine and female in appearance. I have done many small things over the years like wear girls socks, polish my toenails (almost always painted now), wear women's shoes, boots. I ...

My Declaration to live!

2008-07-07 07:10:00

Friday April 10, 2009, 7:15amToday and each new day is the first day of the rest of my life.Glib?True!!!What I will pursue:1) seeing inventions to fruitation or compost. 2)get a job as an assistant property manager, with goal of becoming a regional or lead property manager and then own my own ...

Andrea's Blog

2008-06-25 16:25:51

Hi girls and anyone else reading this blog.I have decided that I shall start off this blog with a few entries telling of my history and then I'll probably use it to let you all know about the events of my life.So what is Andrea? Well I'm glad you asked me that - lol. I did wonder if I was TG ...

The mad ramblings of a lunatic

2008-06-12 22:14:02

I will never understand why im so frequently so negative, i know that positive thought can make even the worst situation bareable, but hey, i guess its just a part of life. Ive finally made the first small step (at last) and cant wait to take the next steps, but patience is a virtue. I want to go ...

My first post.

2008-04-18 00:36:47

Hello world. Let me start by saying these past two months have been a little unbelievable for me. You see, I've always been extrememly introverted and never do or say anyting to upset anyone. So, back when I started crossdressing, I hid it from everyone thinking there must be something ...

Nicola's birthday

2008-02-28 11:27:01

So, this is 'blogging' is it? ok, I'll give it a go.I think I'll need to set some rules:1) Total honesty. Today is the day that Nicky is born and she is not going to feel the need to lie about anything she says, does or feels here. I know that my picture is not of me. It's how I feel that I look ...

scary

2007-12-20 21:08:46

Had a scary experience last evening. My bride and I were (temporarily) locked out of our own house. Somehow the lock on the doorknob was turned and when the door was closed it locked. We were sitting on the patio enjoying an alcoholic beverage and sharing a fine cigar. My wife got up from her chair ...

Angela's "Black Dog" Blog.

2007-11-21 16:18:44

Hello Angela,We have just made your blog space, now you can blog!This message is posted automatically by our system. After your first post, you may delete this message.The URL of your Blogging (Blog Editting) page is :http://gendersociety.com/community/blog/angelalouise/admin.html and the URL of ...

Days Out Dressed

2007-08-26 16:36:00

Well I've only just got round to posting my walk out in London in June 07. I arrived at the hotel about 6ish and immediately after checking in began to defuzz and put on my make up.It took me about 2 hours to get ready. I wore a long (calf length) blue skirt along with short sleeved white teeshirt ...

me again.

2007-03-11 06:09:00

Well, had an interesting day yesterday. Had a nice little girly chat with Kate, who I met in the chat room, she seems a lovely tgirl. Could believe how nice it felt chatting away in feminine mode, though it still felt naughty!! LOL.As im a closet crossdresser, i unfortunatley didnt have my ...

Pictures

2007-01-21 03:11:55

Trying to get my pictures to trabsfer over to here has been frustrating. I'll try again later after dinner.P.

Hello!

2006-11-01 16:59:25

HELLOOOOO!!!!!My name is Danni, I am new here! just thought that I would say hi to anyone who is reading. I don't know how much I will use the space, but I can only try!Just to give anyone (probably not!) who is interested a bit of background, I am 31, live in Bournemouth in the UK, and I am a very ...

Racheal's next night out

2006-10-22 22:55:33

Hello out there. First time as a blogger I'm afraid, so you'll have to bare with me a little while. As you've almost certainly guessed, my favourite pass time is dressing as an outragiously trashy woman (mainly from hotels) and meeting really nice people in pubs, clubs bars and other hotels. ...

where in Toronto??

2006-10-15 12:49:03

Hi all Im a 38 yr old admirier from the UK coming to Toronto probably 2nd week of nov - can anyone tell me good tranny clubs and bars? to go to?Hello Dan,We have just made your blog space, now you can blog!This message is posted automatically by our system. After your first post, you may delete ...

REGRET FOR COCCINELLE

2006-10-03 14:24:05

COCCINELLE (1931 - 2006)Coccinelle, first mediatized transexual in the world, singer and actress, died on Monday evening (october 11,2006) in Marseilles at the 75 years age. She was, since her operation in 1958 , pionniére and icon of the transgender cause. She was Hospitalized since the end of ...

My First Blog

2006-09-30 03:23:12

Hi Girls, Well, first off, I have to say that I'm really happy I found this site and so many warm and friendly people. Knowing that there's a place for serious discussion on my/our gender issues really is encouraging. It makes me see that I'm not alone, and just knowing you're all here makes ...

One...

2006-09-28 22:44:44

Hello everyone,This is my first blog entry...Usually these blog things get me BANNED from sites like this, but I am going to be nice and try not to let it get me into any trouble...

TS Male Escort 4 You

2006-06-12 20:55:33

Hello Lady's&GentlemenI'm an attractive, pre operative Transsexual, available for intimate, sensual afternoons, evenings, and dinner dates in Xxxxx. I'm able to hold an intelligent conversation over dinner, but have a seriously wicked side in the bedroom. And 7 inches of fun in my panties. ...

Am I a girl?

2006-06-12 05:42:51

I am so fustrated about my gender. I am definity a closet crossdress and not coming out yet. How to overcome this? I am so fuzzy headed.

Welcome Jan To TrannyBlogger!

2006-05-16 19:50:02

Hello this is Jan, I'm trying this blog space for the 1st time! I live in NYS in the US and have been involved with a local support group north of NYC. I am happily married and wife knows but doesn't participate. I get out once or twice a month.

Whoa... that was fast

2006-05-14 03:04:41

A couple of clicks and the next thing I know I'm writing my very first blog. Hmm, never had the inspiration before. But somehow, this seems like as good a time as any. So here goes. Let's see what happens...

I'm singin' in the rain.....

2006-05-12 18:23:01

Ah, if it were November, I'd be singing "November Rain" by Guns 'n Roses. Still raining here. Baseball was cancelled last night and probably will be tomorrow too because of the field conditions, but hockey goes on and on. Anyone in the States and Canada watching the Stanley Cup ...

geting over it and starting fresh

2006-05-12 00:20:31

I am feeling much better today, as i have finally sotten over the hell of the last wek i used a mud musk with my room mate last night and we had a good time. We are getting on quite well even if she is talking about me to just about everyone, but as long as she dose not talk to the donkeys in ...

Technology hates me

2006-04-24 14:27:38

Okay, I've never done a blog before. I'm just curious to see if I'm going to screw this up since it has to do with computers. I can't get into the chat room and don't have the energy right now to fight with this electronic beast to force it to let me in. I really want ...

My first Blog

2006-02-27 04:59:25

Ok, so I've been out to my wife for 13 months now and I've just became a full member today. I'm not sure what has taken me so long to join, but I've finially got around to it. I'm transgender. It's taken me over 33 years to come to terms with that and accept it and another year to come out to ...

Making big decisions

2006-02-20 20:16:49

Well. we've finally made the decision to open our own erotic web site. My wife, Plush and I have decided to go ahead and put our sex life online for the whole world to see. Well, membership will be required. I'd rather not charge but since transitioning I've needed to find a new source of income. ...

Questions For Trannyweb

2005-12-31 01:32:25

I have been researching Gender Dysphoria as it relates to Biology and Religion. I have read some of the letters written by transsexuals about their tortured existences, and I must say that it all makes me very sad. Most ...

Visit to the beauticians

2005-12-17 11:55:06

Having just returned from an overseas trip visiting family I was able to go to the beauticians yesterday to have all my dastardly hair removed. Isn't it wonderful to feel smooth again. I had legs, chest and eyebrows done as usual and a Brazilian too. I won't lie, it hurts like hell but ...

Welcome To My TrannyBlogger!

2005-12-04 18:10:57

Hello sinux, HELP What can I do, Im in Lyon Frnance and Im searching for Trans, Im a Young Mexican student wating for you

testing the water for the sound of inevitability

2005-10-20 21:39:23

Ok, I'm back and ready to write..... Been looking a touch more closely at finger ratio's (OK I know I'm obsessed.....please bear with me!) I think this might be pretty powerful stuff. My own investgations, limited as they are, have looked at some fingers of friends and others. and the girls ...

A new day!

2005-10-11 17:29:02

That is a bit of a turn up! When I got back my face was quite sore still and especially with the sites of all those jabs. Waking up this morning the pain had gone completely. I've had that tooth ache for about 6 weeks and it was wearing to say the least.The only thing one could say is ...

Bloody Frogs!

2005-10-05 08:53:54

To say I am somewhat angry is a little bit of an understatement right now. As you may or may not be aware there was a transport strike here in France yesterday, something to do with the unions needing another coffee break probably, which brought the public transport network to a halt. Now I had ...

Abduction!

2005-09-18 20:26:58

Destination Oxford For Americans & Other Aliens Oxford: A place, its somewhere and one of these days I'll work out where, least I will if the buggers stop moving the roads around when my back is turned.Quantum: Latin for "Add another zero" Back home after another weekend, a weekend of two ...

Dawna Marie's Place

2005-08-16 09:23:17

Hi Gurls! I'm new to blogging! Hope to hear from my "sisters"

Death

2005-06-24 04:11:05

You are right I have writen alot about Death. From time to time I feel like dying and it has crossed my mind to kill myself but I am weak. I am not man enough to do it. It is the easy way out yet it takes a lot of strength to do it, more than I have. I do fear that one day I will do it out of anger ...

Bunny Slippers

2005-06-16 14:54:33

Hello, all! Greetings from the girl who's prized bunny slippers were destroyed by a 120 lb. German Shepard. No, I wasn't attacked by the neighbor's dog, the mangy little cretin is my own. Of course, whe he does such things, that is when I call him my "wife's dog." MY dog would ...

Sunday night out!

2005-05-17 10:00:41

Hi Girls! I had a great time at TW girls night out. But this is about sunday. I went out to the Mid Town Yacht Club for dinner about 6pm and had a wonderful meal, scallops over salad! Then walked about 4 blocks up to the Hippo for a drink. It was pretty dead in there so I went across the ...

strange days ahead

2005-04-07 16:18:01

k.. some excellent news and some the implications of are best described as 'interesting'. good stuff first, not only does it turn out there actually is a TG club in Derby, but i've actually found someone who knows about it. going with them this friday, can't wait. partly cus the club is a good ...

WHY NOT?

2005-02-22 23:17:07

Well lucy and Cerys have both covered saturday night so I am not blogging to tell you about that ... its just a Ickle thought that came to me today...you know the kind ?... when something goes "bing!" in your head and you wonder why the rest of the worls hasn't realised the blindingly ...

dressing alone

2005-02-01 01:36:35

On February 5, 2003, I decided I wanted to dress as a woman every day. So I did, and I have. It meant the end of my relationship with Delia—at least as it was. She moved out in early January of this year—less than a year later. Well as sad as that is, it is not ...

Going Out

2005-01-23 03:48:09

I've had a few chances to go out while I have been in Houston, but I must admit I have not pursued them as diligently as I have wanted to. Partly it is because I feel so unattractive. I lack experience in making myself look presentable, so I use that as an excuse not to do anything. Perhaps I ...

Dreadlocks

2004-12-27 23:49:05

I get to play hair dresser today as now Phil wants ME to give him dreadies. I told him I would be able to plait his hair but dreads might just be a little beyond what I can do. He insists that I give it ago and told me about a website dedicated to dreads that also give you a step by step on how to ...

nothing much really

2004-12-19 23:39:17

well its nearly christmas again, and i have to say that, each year it gets worse for me. i used to love all the hype and excitement, but the last few years i never have the money to buy the pressies i would like and it depresses me. i am feeling very low rite now and could do with a bloody good ...

Christmas is Cancelled

2004-12-16 14:57:58

OK its official I hate Christmas!! Why? Well this makes 3 out of the last 4 years when I will have had to work both Christmas and New Year so I have a touch of the Scrooge about me right now. Bah Humbug!!! So whilst you are ripping open presents, drinking too much and stuffing yourselves silly ...

Another great weekend

2004-11-29 09:22:53

Hi all, yep yet another great weekend this time it was a bit more calm, but hectic all the same. Myself and Suzy and littlen went up to my parents house for the weekend and also i was seeing my kids on sunday, so we got to my parents house and it was kettle time. My dad ...

first blog since hand opperation

2004-11-14 21:17:32

Well I'm just getting the use of my hand back,It's funny but to get my stockings on one handed I had to leave them clipped on to my suspender belt and carefully put them on like a pair of tights lol.Any one watching would have wet themselves and the same went for putting a bra on,leave it clipped ...

My first Blog Site! Wow!

2004-11-01 06:06:05

Hi all, This is my first blog message and I can't possibly imagine anyone bothering to take the time to look this up much less take the time to read it, except me. So, I'm just playing with the equipment. But, hey, I've always enjoyed that anyway. Just in case this catches ...

Summer - Love it and Hate it

2004-07-19 12:18:59

Summer is here and the girl wants out! Out to top up the tan, to feel the sun on her face and to show off her legs in her new summer skirts. But, and its a big one, the weather is so yuck at the moment (hot and humid) that the desire to go out has been melted out of me. There's nothing ...

writers block

2004-06-18 11:54:33

hmmmmm........

BLOGGING VIRGIN !

2004-04-23 23:44:02

I have had this blog space for a while now and never used it up until now because i didnt feel i had anything to write about and i reconed that writing about TM nite out would just be a repetition of what others had written. However ,i realise now that people Are realy interested in ones thoughts ...

Elisapeth Anne's first blog attempt

2004-04-08 20:12:38

I am Elisapeth Anne.I don't have a story to tell yet and havn't met any other bloggers..but you have to start somewhere. I am male to female crossdresser who is looking for gurlfriends and mature men to chat with and become friends with. I am currently closeted but if I make friends I can come out ...

The Photoshoot

2004-02-25 07:53:30

Hi. Well this is my fisrt go at blogging so who knows what shape this will take. No quite sure myself! Well a few words about me. I have now been dressing for 3 years and love to try to experiment with different looks and just love to have my photo taken. In the closet so my secret is know ...

This Weeks Great Archivements

2004-02-24 18:26:53

I was very proud of Myself yesterday for finishing a jigsaw puzzle in only two months; after all, the box said 2-5 years.

First Blog Tryout

2004-02-02 02:18:17

Hi All, This is the first blog I have ever entered anything into. I guess we just speak about whats going on, etc. All I know is that I hope it warms up soon. But I guess with the warmup we are suppose to get an ice storm Tuesday Morning. Boy, I really need to get out, but with ...

Heels

2004-02-01 08:43:34

Talk about ironic! Just recently some research here in the UK discovered that us walking around, looking mega-great in ultra high heels does not damage our knees at all. So what happens? Last Saturday I had a pair of good old flattie slippers on and my left knee just "went" without any ...

Website redirect

2004-02-01 02:22:25

Hello. I am Heather Harrison, a pre-op male-to-female transsexual living full time as a woman in Salt Lake City, Utah. I have a substantial website located at the following URL: http://gendersociety.com/membersites/personal/heatherh/ This is where I collect articles on my thoughts and feelings, ...

The Early Days

2004-01-31 06:27:26

The early years..... My earliest memory of dressing goes back to when I was between the ages of 3 to 4 years old (Just a few years ago)! I am the oldest of three sons that were born to my mother and father and the only one with these desires all my life. After my father went off ...

Welcome To BAC Blogger!

2004-01-20 18:47:46

Dear pickup, We have just made your blog space, now you can blog! This message is posted automatically by our system. After your first post, you may delete this message. The URL of your Blogging (Blog Editting) page is : http://gendersociety.com/community/blog/pickup/admin.html and the URL of your ...

Happier today

2010-11-29 13:49:03

Happier today - spent the weekend with my wife doing jobs to get the nursery ready for baby number three and had time to think and just be while wielding the paint roller!After more then 25 years I've realised that whatever I do my transgendered self is always going to part of my life, something I ...

Still The Same

2010-11-29 02:50:49

I have tried to repress/supress all of my TG tendencies yet again only to again have to face that here I am and still the same person and my desires have not changed. My wife stated that if I chose to continue to take hormones she would have to leave. So you can guess what I did. I still deal ...

What do women really think of your crossdressing fantasies?

2010-11-27 22:42:45

The majority of women think its strange. Yes, its true. But is it really that strange? Lets explore this further shall we? Maybe your idea of a perfect day off is to slip into some silky lingerie and a dress, paint your nails, and read a hairstyle magazine. Is that strange? Absolutely ...

Lucy's Life

2010-11-27 00:32:50

I've often wondered about blogging my story but never had the belief that anyone would be interested but after today, and some messages from some wonderful people I thought I'd give it a go so here is "Lucy's Life"What follows is a post I put in the Forums today. the response I got made ...

:-)

2010-11-15 11:34:28

Hi my names Beth and i am in my final year at university, my studies surround the issues of gender, specifying directly on transgender men and women this year. i was just wondering if you were ok with talking to me about your gender transition and feelings in general. i apologise if i have come ...

Too Far From Home?

2010-10-24 04:48:32

This post is actually a rewrite from a summer time piece. It reflects how life is an ever changing process.The first time I heard "Bob Seger's Hollywood Nights", I knew exactly how he felt. The lyrics: "He knew right then he was too far from home. He was too far from home." ...

Full Circle

2010-10-24 01:40:29

I enjoyed a special week this week. I went out on my first date ever with a guy. As I've written a number of times, as recently as a year ago I really didn't want much part of it. The change in thinking has been gradual. When I did attract positive male attention, I accepted it as ...

A Birthday with a Twist!!!

2010-10-21 02:45:26

years ago I decided that when my birthday comes around, I’ll not make a big deal about it but continue to be 39 and be done with it! This year however, I am giddy inside from the realization that it is the 1st Birthday where Michelle is out to everyone except the people at Work! My wife, ...

2010-10-18 05:14:27

editstatsdeletesuggest links closeLoading ...Transgender Survival Guide My Life As A Girl. Part 88Here is one many personal looks into the funny and not so funny life on the gender divide! Enjoy! It may be time to soften your look when-a little girl looks at me and says to Mom ...

It's a Wonderful Life?

2010-10-09 14:48:06

Unless you live in a cave, or with me in a box under a bridge-you probably haven't missed the transgender news in several areas. Transgender youth are making headlines as homecoming queens or kings in their chosen gender. The latest story comes out of Texas where transgender student ...

Are You Your Mama's Daughter?

2010-10-07 18:32:20

Yes girlfriends, I'm talking about us. Some Mom's really wanted a daughter and dressed some of us as girls. Some Mom's may have found it interesting to relate to us on some level as a girl and let us in on a little makeup or clothes. Other Mom's may have shut us out all together. All of the ...

Paranoia

2010-10-07 02:31:42

On occasion (believe it or not) the old noggin goes on blank mode. Do I want to write about the same old happenings? The agony of defeat when I don't present correctly-or the thrill of victory when I do? NO! How about some good old fashioned paranoia. As Crosby, Still's and Nash would say ...

Oh No She Didn't!

2010-10-03 05:12:01

Really? "Cassandra Cass" pictured here is a star in San Fransisco and recently has been added to Showtime TV's new midnight show "Wild Things". This "Wild Thing" was born "Casey" in Des Moines, Iowa 32 years ago and has reportedly spent 150 ...

How to Update!

2010-10-02 03:20:29

This is the latest excerpt from my "transgender "How to" Guide.At times the whole deal will seem insurmountable, but if you really want to be mistaken for a girl-you have to get out and learn! Along the way you will have to learn about learning to use a passable voice, rest ...

Can You Ever Go Home?

2010-09-30 05:28:29

If I can quote "Bob Seger's Hollywood Nights" tune-"he knew right then he was too far from home. He was too far from home." Then relate it to losing your male identity, I would. Wait! I just did! The reason I did quote the song (basically about a beautiful California ...

Yay! It's Fall!!!!

2010-09-28 13:19:48

As fall and October get ready to make their appearance (already has where I live) there are so many things to consider! I already bought a pair of new fall boots that I managed to fall in last night in front of a bunch of people. I know what your thinking! The boots were not the four inch ...

Fear of Success?

2010-09-28 02:02:39

Recently, I've noticed that the closer I begin to get to some of my goals, particularly my weight goals, I keep on expecting something to happen to trip me up. Like eating until my new tummy expands to the point where my operation is irrelevant. Also, I seem to be unintentionally intentionally ...

Wish I wrote this!

2010-09-26 15:20:09

To be or not to be; that is the question. I am everything and nothing – male/female, beautiful/ugly, shy/outgoing, saint/sinner, humble/egotistical and I’ve been known to be happy, sad and angry all at the same time. I am, and more importantly, I am not. Wish i was good enough to write ...

2010-09-26 07:54:18

Trans phobic attack by a wheelchair user!!!! "TRUE" While shopping in Tesco Express In Whitstable I was the victim of homophobic slurs "Your a cute tranny ect" by a disabled persons carer . I replied " You want a smack in the head" and walked away . The wheelchair user ...

A Century????

2010-09-23 15:17:41

Wow! almost at the the 100 mark on the number of posts to my blog: http://cyrstiscondo-cyrsti.blogspot.com/all since May 20th!I did update my transgender book today!

Heels that fit!

2010-09-23 13:04:24

Now I'm someone who's pretty scared of the Big Wide World even at my most confident so going into a shoe-shop ain't gonna happen. Still Sue at Lacies in Folkestone helped me out online to find a really nice pair of heeled sandals. They're comfortable, they fit and they feel wicked.I've been ...

What??? Another New Term???AAAAGH!

2010-09-23 05:36:48

Aw-right girls. Start making fun of me now for either living in a cave OR introducing yet another new term-"Bi Gender". I saw it as a question on another blog. Of course I had to throw in my two cents worth! I am a "bi gender" person. It means to me that one day I can live as ...

Meeting

2010-09-22 16:43:10

- Hi! - Hi! Are you back?- Yes, sorry for kept you waiting- Its allright, you're always welcome... Are you allright?- Yes, and no. Right now Im fine, but soon it wont. You know how it is.- Yes, I do... But forget tomorrow. This moment right now is the only time in your life you'll have this very ...

Very Short Visit

2010-09-20 17:05:22

I heard the dreaded words at the doctor's today. More tests are needed. It looks like I might just be okay, but I don't want to count my chickens yet.Z

Anticipation is making me wait

2010-09-20 13:59:02

Just sitting here, two hours before my doctor's appointment. I'm fucking petrified. I know they remove parts of lungs for lung cancer. I know they remove part of the liver for liver cancer. Will they remove my ass if I have ass cancer? HAHAHAHAHA!!!! Gallows humor. If I don't laugh, I'll never be ...

Monday

2010-09-19 06:16:07

I haven't wanted to talk about this much, but i go to the doctor on Monday to find out if I have onset colon cancer. It would be appreciated if ya'll send me some good vibes on Monday. If you see me in the chat room, please don't bring it up. Thanks everyone.Z

Drama, Drama, Drama

2010-09-18 13:31:43

So, normally I don't post one day after another, but this just made me throw up my hands. My best friend is MUCH younger than I am. I think we are good friends because she is far more mature than a 25 year old is supposed to be and I'm much more immature than a 44 year old is supposed to be. ...

The death of my blog was greatly exaggerated

2010-09-18 06:07:37

Hello, dear readers. Well, even though I haven't posted in quite a while, not much has been going on with me. I've been slowly, glacially losing weight, been going to the gym like it's my job and that's about it. Well, that's actually not it. I've been trying to give the fellas another try, ...

Transgender-A Blessing OR A Curse?

2010-09-18 03:45:29

For transgender folks like us, this question has burned a deep hole in our psyche. On one hand we hate one side of ourselves. On the other we can't wait to return to the other side. How many times have I written about the joy of feeling my long curls on my bare back and shoulders or the soft ...

A Shopping Fool!

2010-09-16 04:31:07

To many of you girls who are entrenched in your closet, or those who are tentatively stepping out-here is a story that I hope will help. Some of it is repeated in the "Handy Dandy" how to post (on My main Blog :http://cyrstiscondo-cyrsti.blogspot.com/ but please be patient with me. ...

A bit disappointed

2010-09-15 19:28:14

I'd been waiting for this pair of heels for nearly a month. First they were out of stock then the owners went on holiday. Eventually they arrived, I took them from te box only to find that they wouldn't even squeeze onto my foot. I'd checked sizes and what the ladies had said on the forums ...

The Laughter

2010-09-15 16:10:37

She slowly turned her head and lookeddeep into his eyes. The smile on his face was pure. Its funny how the lack of knowledge can make a person react in one way but if he knew the secret, he would react in another. But she enjoyd the moment as it was, cause at this very moment, there was no need to ...

Just When You Thought...

2010-09-13 15:05:59

You have it together, here comes another question! It's Saturday night and I went out after my Buckeyes posted a big win! I was going to a slightly upscale place so I was looking for a special outfit. After digging through the closet, I found this black shortish "flippy" skirt. I ...

Growing pains

2010-09-12 17:24:57

Andrea's around more and more nowadays...as soon as I get home on weekdays I change from my work clothes and into a skirt and blouse, maybe just panties if it's warm. I quite often make up my face...seeing someone who has always wanted to come out and play. It's quite subtle, very relaxing and ...

Trapped?

2010-09-09 16:42:25

"Trapped in a man's body" is a phrase that has received a lot of attention over the years in the transgender community. During the past week and a half I've been trapped in that body.(I have a brutal work schedule and have not been able to play) But have I really been trapped in that ...

New "How TO" Post

2010-09-07 15:07:40

The first installment of my transgender "how to" page is up in it's own room! Been wanting to do it for awhile! I hope in the future to make it a feature you can add to! Thanks girl friends!Read it here: http://cyrstiscondo-cyrsti.blogspot.com/

Reasons To Be Cheerful - Part Five

2010-09-06 20:28:32

After a none-too-comfortable few days of a summer cold, I'm happy to say that I'm once again uncongested and have caught up with my sleep. My emotional balance also seems to be back on an even keel, which ...

Yet Another Transgender

2010-09-06 15:00:10

First off, there are many guides that will help you become the best transgendered girl you can become. All of these transgendered help guides have something in common. They all may not mean a thing to you! Including this one. On the other hand (or high heel) a guide could mean everything- but ...

Satin crossdresser is interested in meeting others

2010-09-05 13:09:14

I am new here and would like to meet others with interest in crossdressing in satin. Please contact me if you are of athletic build, slim and interested. Check out my profile please. I would love to chat with you at shawna9939@aol.com.

This Halloween for sure,right?

2010-09-04 10:34:30

This post is not for you brave souls that get all dressed up and go to bars, clubs, parties, and maybe grocery shopping. This is for the secret sissies. The shy boys. The ones that say: “If only I was brave enough.” I want you to start thinking about Halloween. Yes, its not for a while, but ...

For Crying Out Loud

2010-08-30 23:55:37

Despite the pleasant late summer weather we've been enjoying lately, I contrived somehow to catch a cold this week. I don't often get them, which is just as well, because they always go straight for my sinuses, and for three or four days lying down is painful, so I don't get much in the way of ...

2010-08-30 03:02:45

A mirror picture. Doesn't every one have one? From a party.

A Picture's Worth A....

2010-08-29 17:17:42

A thousand words? Or is the image a look into your soul?Can't answer either.I have noticed many pix of transgendered people do show a profound happiness or sadness. Normally, there is no in between. When I post a new picture on my flickr photo site I get several comments and connections. I ...

Bolton

2010-08-27 21:23:12

So I arrived here in rain-swept Bolton, took my son out for dinner, only to find that he's allergic to the pine nuts coating his sea-bass. :-( Not one of my better ideas to suggest he try the fish! Happily he figured it out before he ate too much. Sigh - just realised that even now he's 21 we ...

"Washington" a Failed Career Opportunity

2010-08-26 15:52:29

I won't tell you how many years ago this occurred . Only that I had a decidedly better figure!It was "back in the day" when a Halloween party was a rare coming out event.I believe as a transgendered person you can only do one party with the same people before they start to gossip. If you ...

Sorry Girls!

2010-08-26 06:03:53

Still haven't delivered on the promise to provide a quick link to my main blog.http://cyrstiscondo-cyrsti.blogspot.comThere is a lot of extra content there like pix and some quick excerpts on a book I'm trying to write!Thanks for your patience!Luv ya all!Cyrsti

Are You on the "Transdar" Screen?

2010-08-26 05:28:44

If you've ever heard of "gaydar" (intuitively feeling someone is gay), "transdar" is the same. Forget flamboyant males and ultra masculine women. (Nothing wrong with either) Transdar occurs when you see a person that almost looks 100 % female-but is not quite.I've been ...

Two days to go...

2010-08-24 18:05:16

...until I'm off to Bolton.I know Bolton doesn't initially appear to be the epicentre of the world but that's where my son lives so I'm driving up to spend a little time with him. I don't often take holidays so this will be a treat for us both...at least he SAYS he's looking forward to it...I ...

2010-08-23 19:22:21

Six sessions of laser treatment now complete, and the areas that still haven't been completely cleared are, paradoxically, much more noticeable in their splendid isolation. This last session was something of a 'mop-up', targetting the die-hard patches with a higher dose of laser and by golly, did ...

Back In Style!

2010-08-22 14:49:19

Although the great majority of girls in the transgendered community never put their pantyhose away-or did it grudgingly- they are making a comeback. Apparently, according to a story in the London Daily Express, skintone pantyhose are coming back into fashion. And guess who is at the ...

Tidying up

2010-08-22 10:45:20

Sunday is always a "doing day". I know it should be a day of rest but that's normally what happens with my Saturdays; work is fairly tough so I'm pretty well whacked by the time it gets to the weekend. Still, at 47 I figure that I can probably expect to have a little less energy than ...

You Lookin at ME?

2010-08-21 15:08:46

We have covered a lot of gender communication basics here recently. It's a forgone conclusion that women listen better. Females also utilize sight and touch better than males. But what about that damn scowl pasted permanently on male faces? Women smile more? Why? If you asked my Dad why, he ...

Con Job

2010-08-20 03:37:22

Relax! It's just me I'm conning. A couple nights ago I had one of those heavenly evenings wherever everything seemed to be going right. I'm usually so insecure of how I look (the whole process). My first stop, I played some trivia and ate an appetizer. On my way out I stopped in the ...

Hey!! Some good news!!

2010-08-18 08:04:47

I have good news!! YAY!! Okay, so, my weight has been plateaued in the mid-upper 270's for wayyyyyy too long. Just as I was about to dismantle my scale, my weight dropped almost nine pounds overnight. It's been a trend with me, plateau for a while, then drop. I think it must have something to do ...

Four past Midnight

2010-08-17 03:17:25

It's been a while since I woke up at this time of the morning. You can always tell what time it is around here by the sound of the traffic in the road outside. Not sure what disturbed me; not that I've ever been great at sleeping, but I had some weird dreams...I'm sure someone could figure out ...

You are now leaving the comfort zone

2010-08-16 20:41:55

Back to work today, after two weeks holiday. It's been a really enjoyable fortnight, spent pretty much totally en femme. The exception was last Tuesday, when I went to my parents' home for dinner, and a ...

Dammit!

2010-08-15 16:09:25

Shannel Just when I think I am this beautiful creature with the perfect clothes and make up...I see this shot of "Shannel" from "RuPauls' Drag Race" TV Show. Oh well, probably nobody likes her! Lets see now. Where's that new foundation I just bought!

Shopping

2010-08-15 15:54:21

Gone are the days when the only shops that opened on a Sunday were the ones that sold newspapers. Now I can shop from my desk and I must admit to being grateful for it.As Andrea I don't get out at all; she's kinda mousey and timid...even more reclusive than Andy is. I have, however, bought a ...

Starting out...

2010-08-14 16:34:51

I was thinking that, as well as being a cross-dresser, I would also like to write about it - or rather a few realted thoughts and things. Words have always been powerful and they're a good outlet for feelings and thoughts. I thought about blogging on my website but Andrea and Andy are quite ...

Is the Grass Really Greener?

2010-08-14 16:10:52

For years I've lived in a world where I felt the female gender had an advantage. After all girls are supposed to be the more intuitive gender. Guys are fairly straight forward critters and women know the game! During the last week, I've started to rethink my thoughts. Last Sunday night one of ...

Not a good time

2010-08-14 14:53:44

I've had a rough couple of weeks. I get upset. Really easily. I'm getting over the incident with the Neanderthal who called me as many names as he could. I'm lonely. I talk about it sometimes. The thing is that I'm just not a bar person. Plus, even though it's not too likely to happen, I worry ...

Would Lola Like It Hot?

2010-08-12 17:11:08

I'm sure you've heard of the "Kinks" song "Lola" or have seen the "Billy Wilder" comedy classic "Some Like It Hot". Recently I've been able to combine the two. First and foremost, I'm very much out on Al Gore's Internet.. I'm on Yahoo, Facebook, Flickr ...

Luv ya!

2010-08-11 12:45:42

Just a quick note thanking a couple people in my life who have helped to make this all a lot more liveable. "Mikikitty" a life time soul mate who I actually only met last winter. Also "D" who I see on occasion. She never fails to light up my life.Â These two are the ...

Do Clothes make the?

2010-08-11 12:30:47

As we finished one of her great home made dinners, one of my close genetic female friends decided she had had enough of her bra for the day and took it off under her shirt. The conversation then turned to how comfortable my bra was and what part do my clothes play when I'm presenting as a ...

Gender Worship

2010-08-11 12:28:30

This morning I was doing one of my least favorite tasks, buying new work shoes for my guy self. Of course as I walked into the store I passed an attractive woman. She was well put together with a knee length summer skirt , tan top, sandals and light red curly hair.Â I really wanted to ...

Form ever follows function?

2010-08-09 20:25:57

In a current forum thread, Melody raises the interesting question of whether transwomen ever imagine themselves breastfeeding their baby. When I read the posting, it reminded me of some events from earlier in ...

2010-08-08 20:53:44

As I strolled the street and watched the children who cheered "Hello" and afterwards started laughing (not for mean reasons) I kinda realised that humor is the oddest thing. Apperantly the word "Hello" and the fact that they talked to a stranger, seemed absolutely crackers. ...

2010-08-08 17:15:48

"The Bitches...they look pretty awesome!" Check out the girl checking out the "girls" at a womanless beauty pageant and what she might be thinking.

A Woman's Perogative?

2010-08-08 16:56:30

To change her mind? How about her look?About two weeks ago I settled into a new look. My new hair color is almost black (very dark) and shorter and straighter than I've worn in a while.I'm fortunate to know a couple hairdresser/beauticians who lend me their advice. One told me to ...

Media of One!

2010-08-08 16:05:00

Recently Gladd released it's ratings of gay, lesbian and transgendered television shows and networks: MTV, CW Top GLAAD 2009-2010 TV RatingsAll public scrutiny of the media is good and some day the stereotype of the demented crossdresser/transvestite may be behind us. In the meantime each of us ...

Jewelry Fashionistas!

2010-08-05 20:28:17

One of the malls in the area just opened a store called "Charming Charlies" Of course I had to check it out.Â My window shopping indicated it was a wonderful store full of purses and jewelery and other accessories. I couldn't wait for it to open!I was able to shop it yesterday ...

Right Time-Right Place-Right Mirror!

2010-08-05 20:21:22

Returned home yesterday from an extended weekend mini trip and I had time to head out to my favorite Tuesday night spot. Cool!Tossed on a predetermined outfit (often the best kind) and headed out the door . With me over thinking is over rated!Arrived in time to get the last seat which I was ...

hello 2010 from Nathan

2010-08-03 20:45:19

It appears that life has changed since the last blog. I have visited the therapist a few times and I am trying to figure out work. I meet with a lady August 4th to figure things out by a 4 hour test I get to take as a start. and then go from there. I get help from vocational rehabilation due ...

Reasons To Be Cheerful - Part Four

2010-08-02 20:57:55