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  • 17 Oct 2005
    Yes, I've used that tag line before...... I had to get out for a day.  On Saturday I went to my folks' house and stayed for the night.  The thing is, I felt like I had to get permission from my friend to do it, especially since he and my wife think my living there is a bad idea.  My folks didn't like their thinking that, especially my dad.  He made it clear to me to stand up to them and make my own decisions.  He said it was obvious that I was being beaten down.  I mentioned this before - a few weeks back my folks needed me to stay there alone to watch the house while they were away.  My friend and wife were dead against it, and my wife even threatened divorce if I did it. They felt I would relapse (thanks for the trust!).  My folks essentially told me what I've already been thinking, and saying, and that is they can make all the threats they like, but I am my own person.  I agree, and I have been very assertive.  I still get tired of lectures, especially about my problems in finding a job.  I told my friend I'd like to see him get something right now, and that my wife has been trying to get a new job for years and has been unsuccessful.  I am getting tired of it all.  If something doesn't change soon I will have to make some major decisions. Consequences are going to have to happen.  I need to decide my own.  I am definitely feeling my old strength coming back. My folks were watching this little white yapping dog from next door.  The thing barked at me constantly.  My mom said she really doesn't like men, to which I replied "I could change that."  She laughed. I didn't get to see my daughter Saturday because she had a birthday party to go to, and that was fine with me.  I don't want to interfere with her social life.  I wound up leaving the dungeon for my folks' anyway.  It was nice to be away and have some peace and quiet. So I'm out pounding the pavement again today.  I'm deliberately staying out later than usual because I do not want to meet with those Mormon dudes again (no offense to any Mormons out there). They're nice, but I don't want to be a Mormon.  I'm screwed up enough as it is to have to join a made-up religion.  Although, as I've said before, I got a certain pleasure out of telling them I thought I might be TS! On the plus side I've been getting more calls for interviews, I should have the Jazz Era book contract this week, and I start seeing a new shrink on Friday, which means eventual dialog with my wife.  Yet there is one thing missing from my life, and you all know what that is. I have no freedom to fully be Meredith. Keep your fingers crossed for me.  Let's hope this is a good week. Mere
    3058 Posted by Meredith Newton
  • 16 Oct 2009
    Here's some brief updates -Been in my new place for a month.  It's been working out fine, even though I have to get used to having a roommate again.  It's nice to be able to park right in front of where I live rather than blocks away.I go to Detroit next week to chair a panel at THE premier labor history conference.  My school is paying for it through their Faculty Development Fund.  Plus, I'll get to hang out with Karen Brad, something we haven't done in almost four years.I finally received copies of my book.  Look for an announcement about that soon.Me and Josie are doing just fine.  She really helped me out when I needed it.Getting new book proposals out there.  I hope to sign some contracts soon.I still don't have internet at my new place, so I get here when I can.The ex-wfe is being a bitch again.Mere
    2449 Posted by Meredith Newton
  • 17 Jul 2010
    I know I don't blog as much as I used to.  It's hard to do that working two full time gigs.Dad is doing fine.  Thanks for your well wishes.Josie is doing fine.  Thanks for your well wishes.More later!I hope you're doing fine.  Thank yourself for well wishes.
    2420 Posted by Meredith Newton
  • 23 Feb 2010
    I still don't have my internet access at home sorted out yet!  Anyhow, here are some quickies (so to speak):I am pretty much fully out at work.  In academia I am almost there.  I am waiting on some word concerning a possible full-time teaching job, so until that happens, and I might need to get a new doctor due to insurance reasons, HRT is once again put on hold.  Still, I am out and free.Me and Josie had a great time in New Mexico.AND - a major academic publisher in New York wants to offer me a 2-book contract!  The first will be published later this year.Okay, gotta run to class now.  More later.
    2377 Posted by Meredith Newton
Society Girl's Personal Blogs 847 views Mar 22, 2006
Time to move again

Things have taken another turn for the worse at my folks house.  Not about my being transsexual, though.  My dad is back to his 24/7 crankiness.  It's become so bad that my daughter doesn't want to come over to visit me there.  I think he's in the beginning stages of dementia, but my family, as usual, is denying it.

But not a day goes by now that he isn't bitching about my being there (my 17 year old nephew, too, although they took him in when my eldest sister died). I stay out of the house as much as possible. I'm really stepping up my efforts to get the hell out of there.  I'm actually looking into some rooms in the not-so-glamorous neighborhoods just to get the hell out.  Besides, I miss my privacy. I miss my life.

There's been this incredible surge of new hatred from the soon-to-be-ex.  I don't know why, although I suspect it might have to do with my getting my ears pierced.  She claims it's none of her business, yet she still likes to give me orders (which I never follow!).  She sure as hell didn't mind the money, or Chinese food, I gave her last Saturday.

What I've got to do now is see what I can afford in the way of an apartment.  I really don't want a roommate. Also, these classes end in May, so if I have to consider a possible loss of income.  I'm hoping to have other courses at that time, or some other gig, like if the editing job was to finally happen.

Oh well.  Back to the therapist on Friday.  I'm going to find out what we're doing next in tems of my transitioning.