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  • 08 May 2006
    What a weekend! I did manage to have a nice big row with what's-her-name.  I told her to shut up and that she can't have it both ways.  If my life is none of her business then she is to stop giving me orders, or making comments as to what I do.  Saturday she called me a pre-op freak. On top of it, she wants me to help her pay her gas bill.  Hmmm.....I haven't lived there since August 29, and it's my responsibility?  But I did get to see my daughter's footy match.  They tied 1-1. But the big news is that I went to a graduation party for that one former student, who looks as beautiful as ever.  She had the most delicious homecooked Mexican food.  I also met a lot of nice people.  Then these Mexican women were all over me.  My student's mother kept trying to convince me she was only 50.  Uh huh.  Honey, you were 50 when the Civil War was going on.  But she was a nice lady and even dragged me out onto the dance floor.  For a second there I thought she was going to rape me.  Then another woman kept hugging me and trying to convince me she wasn't drunk.  Hell, I was getting drunk off her breath alone. I was dragged up to do karaoke twice.  I thought all the songs were out of my vocal range, and when they explained they could lower the key I was stuck.  I first did "Let It Be" and even got a round of applause when I finished.  Then, this very pretty woman from Mexico City drags me up there to do a traditional Mexican song with her.  Two problems - 1. I don't speak Spanish; and 2. I didn't know the song.  On top of it all, I might see her again this Saturday.  Maybe.  That is, if she hasn't changed her mind already. I got to the party at 6:30 and didn't leave until almost 2.  I haven't had a night out like that in years, much less have so much fun.  I feel great. I rented a car and a motel room so I could make a real night out of it, something else that irked the wicked witch.  Apparently I'm not allowed to spend any of my own money on myself.  I did treat myself to a new outfit.  It's a black top with a burgundy skirt.  It's really cute.  Then, on the way back yesterday, I treated myself to a delicious surf and turf lunch. That's something else I haven't had in years (among other things!). I also had the chance to stop at the Hindu temple and spend some time at Sri Krishna's shrine.  I always get a lot of looks there at the temple because I don't exactly look the regular clientele (to use that phrase).  They're always polite to me, though. So, here I am, Monday morning, and still tired as hell!  I need another nap!
    599 Posted by Meredith Newton
  • What a weekend! I did manage to have a nice big row with what's-her-name.  I told her to shut up and that she can't have it both ways.  If my life is none of her business then she is to stop giving me orders, or making comments as to what I do.  Saturday she called me a pre-op freak. On top of it, she wants me to help her pay her gas bill.  Hmmm.....I haven't lived there since August 29, and it's my responsibility?  But I did get to see my daughter's footy match.  They tied 1-1. But the big news is that I went to a graduation party for that one former student, who looks as beautiful as ever.  She had the most delicious homecooked Mexican food.  I also met a lot of nice people.  Then these Mexican women were all over me.  My student's mother kept trying to convince me she was only 50.  Uh huh.  Honey, you were 50 when the Civil War was going on.  But she was a nice lady and even dragged me out onto the dance floor.  For a second there I thought she was going to rape me.  Then another woman kept hugging me and trying to convince me she wasn't drunk.  Hell, I was getting drunk off her breath alone. I was dragged up to do karaoke twice.  I thought all the songs were out of my vocal range, and when they explained they could lower the key I was stuck.  I first did "Let It Be" and even got a round of applause when I finished.  Then, this very pretty woman from Mexico City drags me up there to do a traditional Mexican song with her.  Two problems - 1. I don't speak Spanish; and 2. I didn't know the song.  On top of it all, I might see her again this Saturday.  Maybe.  That is, if she hasn't changed her mind already. I got to the party at 6:30 and didn't leave until almost 2.  I haven't had a night out like that in years, much less have so much fun.  I feel great. I rented a car and a motel room so I could make a real night out of it, something else that irked the wicked witch.  Apparently I'm not allowed to spend any of my own money on myself.  I did treat myself to a new outfit.  It's a black top with a burgundy skirt.  It's really cute.  Then, on the way back yesterday, I treated myself to a delicious surf and turf lunch. That's something else I haven't had in years (among other things!). I also had the chance to stop at the Hindu temple and spend some time at Sri Krishna's shrine.  I always get a lot of looks there at the temple because I don't exactly look the regular clientele (to use that phrase).  They're always polite to me, though. So, here I am, Monday morning, and still tired as hell!  I need another nap!
    May 08, 2006 599
  • 04 May 2006
    Actually, I am in no mood to post anything, much less talk to the human race.  I'm just in a quiet mood, so there's no reason to panic (as some of you do when I disappear for days at a time). I'm just tired of a few things, like being lied to, led on, abandoned, etc.  That's just part of it. I saw the pulmonary specialist yesterday.  Next week I go into the hospital for a one-day procedure.  They're going into my lungs to see what the heck is exactly in there.  While this procedure is hardly uncommon, there are some dangers involved.  I don't care.  As long as the drugs they give me are good.  The doctor assured me they are.  He was also really cool when I told him about being transsexual.  I asked him to do SRS on me at the same time so I could cut a few years and thousands of dollars. I cannot proceed with transitioning until this is over with.  My doctor wants to know all this before sending me to the endo. Saturday I am finally taking a mental holiday.  I'm renting a car, and then first going to my kid's footy match.  From there I'll head out to Lemont, Illinois, and spend some time at the Hindu temple.  I need to reconnect with some things that are important to me.  At that point I'm checking into a motel in the Joliet area, then heading to a graduation party in Romeoville for a former student.  If anyone remembers from last year, this is the student other females at the school were jealous of and thinking that we were having some sort of affair.  No, we weren't.  We're just good friends.  Besides, she's married and I don't go there. So I'm posting this now because when I do retreat and walk away for a while some people get nervous.  Don't.
    594 Posted by Meredith Newton
  • Actually, I am in no mood to post anything, much less talk to the human race.  I'm just in a quiet mood, so there's no reason to panic (as some of you do when I disappear for days at a time). I'm just tired of a few things, like being lied to, led on, abandoned, etc.  That's just part of it. I saw the pulmonary specialist yesterday.  Next week I go into the hospital for a one-day procedure.  They're going into my lungs to see what the heck is exactly in there.  While this procedure is hardly uncommon, there are some dangers involved.  I don't care.  As long as the drugs they give me are good.  The doctor assured me they are.  He was also really cool when I told him about being transsexual.  I asked him to do SRS on me at the same time so I could cut a few years and thousands of dollars. I cannot proceed with transitioning until this is over with.  My doctor wants to know all this before sending me to the endo. Saturday I am finally taking a mental holiday.  I'm renting a car, and then first going to my kid's footy match.  From there I'll head out to Lemont, Illinois, and spend some time at the Hindu temple.  I need to reconnect with some things that are important to me.  At that point I'm checking into a motel in the Joliet area, then heading to a graduation party in Romeoville for a former student.  If anyone remembers from last year, this is the student other females at the school were jealous of and thinking that we were having some sort of affair.  No, we weren't.  We're just good friends.  Besides, she's married and I don't go there. So I'm posting this now because when I do retreat and walk away for a while some people get nervous.  Don't.
    May 04, 2006 594
  • 28 Apr 2006
    Had another great therapist session today.  We spent a little time discussing the miniskirts at Old Navy.  She's also been getting into a lot of questions and topics concerning what will happen when I start to transition.  As soon as this cough clears up, and I can wear certain items again, I'll be back to going to her in full femme.  Right now it's just wig and makeup.  Gosh, I love that woman!  She is the best! As for my Jazz Age book, there was some miscommunication between me and the publisher.  I can't pay the people as much as I originally thought I could, and a few of them bailed.  One person I thought was a friend.  I offered him two chapters - before I even advertised for authors - as a way of helping him pad his resume (Lord knows he needs it).  Now he bowed out.  No more offers from me.  He's on his own.  This would have been great for him. I finally joined the modern world and got my first cell phone.  I feel like a kid with a new toy.  My first real call - meaning, to someone other than what's-her-name to give her my number - was to a replacement author for the book.  Now all I have to do is wait for that all-exciting first call to me!  I need to get out more, don't I?  If I do I might get to meet Anneliese, or Ashley Tisdale, or Olesya Rulin (uh huh, yeah, right). Have a great weekend, all.  When I'm not with my daughter this weekend I'm chained to my laptop pounding out chapters.  It's so nice to have my inspiration back.  I owe so much of it to Michelle Lynn and her extreme generosity with this laptop.  Now that I have access to certain programs again I can't stop writing.  And that's a good thing.
    494 Posted by Meredith Newton
  • Had another great therapist session today.  We spent a little time discussing the miniskirts at Old Navy.  She's also been getting into a lot of questions and topics concerning what will happen when I start to transition.  As soon as this cough clears up, and I can wear certain items again, I'll be back to going to her in full femme.  Right now it's just wig and makeup.  Gosh, I love that woman!  She is the best! As for my Jazz Age book, there was some miscommunication between me and the publisher.  I can't pay the people as much as I originally thought I could, and a few of them bailed.  One person I thought was a friend.  I offered him two chapters - before I even advertised for authors - as a way of helping him pad his resume (Lord knows he needs it).  Now he bowed out.  No more offers from me.  He's on his own.  This would have been great for him. I finally joined the modern world and got my first cell phone.  I feel like a kid with a new toy.  My first real call - meaning, to someone other than what's-her-name to give her my number - was to a replacement author for the book.  Now all I have to do is wait for that all-exciting first call to me!  I need to get out more, don't I?  If I do I might get to meet Anneliese, or Ashley Tisdale, or Olesya Rulin (uh huh, yeah, right). Have a great weekend, all.  When I'm not with my daughter this weekend I'm chained to my laptop pounding out chapters.  It's so nice to have my inspiration back.  I owe so much of it to Michelle Lynn and her extreme generosity with this laptop.  Now that I have access to certain programs again I can't stop writing.  And that's a good thing.
    Apr 28, 2006 494
  • 25 Apr 2006
    Hi all. This morning is my kind of morning - cold, windy, and rainy!  I love it!  It doesn't do much for this damn coughing of mine, though. I had a great time with my daughter on Friday when I picked her up.  We went all the way downtown to catch the commuter train, although we could have easily caught one there in Oak Park.  She'd never been to a huge station like that before.  She milked me pretty good for food, treats, and two books.  Then we played Harry Potter going to the Hogwarts Express.  However, although High School Musical was on twice that night (featuring the future Mrs. Meredith Newton, Olesya Rulin), we watched only part of one showing.  We did so much in such a short period of time. My writer's block was finally cleared on Sunday.  Out of a minimum 5,000 words required for the introductory chapter I hammered out 2,500 in one afternoon. For some reason I'm feeling this sense of optimism and happiness that I haven't had in a long time.  Eight months, to be exact.  I've been delivering these incredible lectures at school (being modest here, aren't I?), although it's lost on most of them.  I've been writing like mad, and planning all my summer outfits for when I start getting better paychecks with the upcoming editor's job. But the big news for me is my medical condition. They ran some lab tests on me recently, and all my blood work came back within acceptable limits.  That was such a relief.  I thought that my liver would be blocking my move to HRT. Now it looks like that hurdle has been taken care of. My sister joined TW. Her name here is Jen Jen.  No blackmailing me about anything, okay?  I don't care how much you know!
    624 Posted by Meredith Newton
  • Hi all. This morning is my kind of morning - cold, windy, and rainy!  I love it!  It doesn't do much for this damn coughing of mine, though. I had a great time with my daughter on Friday when I picked her up.  We went all the way downtown to catch the commuter train, although we could have easily caught one there in Oak Park.  She'd never been to a huge station like that before.  She milked me pretty good for food, treats, and two books.  Then we played Harry Potter going to the Hogwarts Express.  However, although High School Musical was on twice that night (featuring the future Mrs. Meredith Newton, Olesya Rulin), we watched only part of one showing.  We did so much in such a short period of time. My writer's block was finally cleared on Sunday.  Out of a minimum 5,000 words required for the introductory chapter I hammered out 2,500 in one afternoon. For some reason I'm feeling this sense of optimism and happiness that I haven't had in a long time.  Eight months, to be exact.  I've been delivering these incredible lectures at school (being modest here, aren't I?), although it's lost on most of them.  I've been writing like mad, and planning all my summer outfits for when I start getting better paychecks with the upcoming editor's job. But the big news for me is my medical condition. They ran some lab tests on me recently, and all my blood work came back within acceptable limits.  That was such a relief.  I thought that my liver would be blocking my move to HRT. Now it looks like that hurdle has been taken care of. My sister joined TW. Her name here is Jen Jen.  No blackmailing me about anything, okay?  I don't care how much you know!
    Apr 25, 2006 624
  • 21 Apr 2006
    I think I figured out why I can't get rid of this damn cough.  I think it's the black mold in my parents' house, like in the bathroom.  The bathroom is clean, for the most part, it's just the shower that needs the work.  I believe that's my problem since I do know I have an allergy to mold.  I should have been well by now. This didn't occur to me until yesterday.  How's that for being smart? Lots of good stuff this week.  I finally had a really good talk with my wife (no reconciliation, nor did I ask for one), and gave her some more money (like I have any).  Last Saturday we actually got along quite well at my kid's soccer game, and my wife even offered (without complaining) to drop me off at the train station.  I also was given a great laptop, so now my writing has recommenced (thanks, hun!).  A bunch of my students are going to the department chair to demand I be brought back for future classes.  THEN, it looks like that editing job is a go after all!  And it might start just after my classes end, so that's fantastic news for me!  So for now I'm going to forgo the apartment search until I know for sure when that gig starts.  It would make more sense for me to look for a flat in that area, which happens to be quite nice. I already wrote about this in the Forums, but yesterday I had three separate incidents traveling to and from school.  Three times I had to get my little weapon ready to use.  Even if they do ask me back, unless I have a car, I will turn them down.  I can't put my life on the line like this. I had a great session with my therapist this morning.  I told her all the stuff going on with my wife.  But I also made it clear that I want to keep moving on.  I need to move forward, and I still want to begin my transitioning.  After all, there's no going back "home," and the marriage is over.  I now need to finally find my own home.  If this history editor gig happens soon, I'll finally have what I've been lacking for the past eight months.  Peace of mind.  Lilienne said this is the year I'm going to blossom.  I want to prove her right.
    543 Posted by Meredith Newton
  • I think I figured out why I can't get rid of this damn cough.  I think it's the black mold in my parents' house, like in the bathroom.  The bathroom is clean, for the most part, it's just the shower that needs the work.  I believe that's my problem since I do know I have an allergy to mold.  I should have been well by now. This didn't occur to me until yesterday.  How's that for being smart? Lots of good stuff this week.  I finally had a really good talk with my wife (no reconciliation, nor did I ask for one), and gave her some more money (like I have any).  Last Saturday we actually got along quite well at my kid's soccer game, and my wife even offered (without complaining) to drop me off at the train station.  I also was given a great laptop, so now my writing has recommenced (thanks, hun!).  A bunch of my students are going to the department chair to demand I be brought back for future classes.  THEN, it looks like that editing job is a go after all!  And it might start just after my classes end, so that's fantastic news for me!  So for now I'm going to forgo the apartment search until I know for sure when that gig starts.  It would make more sense for me to look for a flat in that area, which happens to be quite nice. I already wrote about this in the Forums, but yesterday I had three separate incidents traveling to and from school.  Three times I had to get my little weapon ready to use.  Even if they do ask me back, unless I have a car, I will turn them down.  I can't put my life on the line like this. I had a great session with my therapist this morning.  I told her all the stuff going on with my wife.  But I also made it clear that I want to keep moving on.  I need to move forward, and I still want to begin my transitioning.  After all, there's no going back "home," and the marriage is over.  I now need to finally find my own home.  If this history editor gig happens soon, I'll finally have what I've been lacking for the past eight months.  Peace of mind.  Lilienne said this is the year I'm going to blossom.  I want to prove her right.
    Apr 21, 2006 543
  • 17 Apr 2006
    First of all, thanks to all of you who supported me this past week.  I don't even want to start listing names because I'm afraid I'll leave someone off, and I don't want that.  So many of you have done so much for me.  Thank you.  My mood is much better now, especially after having had a talk with Mum. As I wrote in the Forums, I am now fully out to my family.  Now I can really proceed with my life. My daughter had her first soccer game of the season on Saturday.  They lost 4-0. Oh well.  But me and my wife were cordial to each other.  It won't last. I am so grateful for something else - I have been vindicated!  For those of you who remember, Backstabber University really screwed me over last year by not even interviewing me for the full-time tenure track job.  I found out this past week that the person they hired over me is not only a complete and utter disaster, but he's leaving the school!  On top of it all, the school struck back at him by killing the spot.  It is so nice to see this happen!  Have a great week.  I'm home sick today.  Yuck.  It's a nice day and I can't enjoy it! Mere
    561 Posted by Meredith Newton
  • First of all, thanks to all of you who supported me this past week.  I don't even want to start listing names because I'm afraid I'll leave someone off, and I don't want that.  So many of you have done so much for me.  Thank you.  My mood is much better now, especially after having had a talk with Mum. As I wrote in the Forums, I am now fully out to my family.  Now I can really proceed with my life. My daughter had her first soccer game of the season on Saturday.  They lost 4-0. Oh well.  But me and my wife were cordial to each other.  It won't last. I am so grateful for something else - I have been vindicated!  For those of you who remember, Backstabber University really screwed me over last year by not even interviewing me for the full-time tenure track job.  I found out this past week that the person they hired over me is not only a complete and utter disaster, but he's leaving the school!  On top of it all, the school struck back at him by killing the spot.  It is so nice to see this happen!  Have a great week.  I'm home sick today.  Yuck.  It's a nice day and I can't enjoy it! Mere
    Apr 17, 2006 561
  • 14 Apr 2006
    That's pretty much how I feel these days.  The misanthropic side of my nature has really taken over, and if I never have to speak to another person again I'll be happy. I went out of my way to take care of my daughter the other day.  She heard, through the door at my house, the huge argument I had with my wife.  She also approached my wife about the divorce, and that we both might remarry, although with other people.  She asked me about it Wednesday.  She wound up being upset that night and having to go to the therapist yesterday. Naturally, it's all my fault. The wicked witch, once again, calls up my mother to complain about the crying, and some nightmare my kid had two weeks ago!  What really gets to me is that I wasn't even defended. Granted, mum was at work and couldn't say much, but couldn't even so much as one little sentence be said?  I am not to blame for everything.  Hell, last night I was asked to take the blame for something that really has nothing to do with me!  I can't get anyone to defend me over here, even when I'm right (which is more often than not). I want to just walk off and never see any of them again.  I am so angry. Thankfully I had a shrink appointment today.  I didn't go dressed, just my wig and makeup.  That woman is so cool.  She did help calm me down.  Especially after those two delicious coffees I had that really sent my heart racing! So if I'm not around much, I'm not doing anything stupid.  I'm just taking time alone because I do not want to fight with anyone, make snippy comments, or take out my anger on people (even if they do deserve it).  
    516 Posted by Meredith Newton
  • That's pretty much how I feel these days.  The misanthropic side of my nature has really taken over, and if I never have to speak to another person again I'll be happy. I went out of my way to take care of my daughter the other day.  She heard, through the door at my house, the huge argument I had with my wife.  She also approached my wife about the divorce, and that we both might remarry, although with other people.  She asked me about it Wednesday.  She wound up being upset that night and having to go to the therapist yesterday. Naturally, it's all my fault. The wicked witch, once again, calls up my mother to complain about the crying, and some nightmare my kid had two weeks ago!  What really gets to me is that I wasn't even defended. Granted, mum was at work and couldn't say much, but couldn't even so much as one little sentence be said?  I am not to blame for everything.  Hell, last night I was asked to take the blame for something that really has nothing to do with me!  I can't get anyone to defend me over here, even when I'm right (which is more often than not). I want to just walk off and never see any of them again.  I am so angry. Thankfully I had a shrink appointment today.  I didn't go dressed, just my wig and makeup.  That woman is so cool.  She did help calm me down.  Especially after those two delicious coffees I had that really sent my heart racing! So if I'm not around much, I'm not doing anything stupid.  I'm just taking time alone because I do not want to fight with anyone, make snippy comments, or take out my anger on people (even if they do deserve it).  
    Apr 14, 2006 516
  • 12 Apr 2006
    Let's see how self-centered and melodramatic I get in this post.  Maybe someone will attack me again. I'm finally on spring break this week and really haven't done much.  This damn cough won't go away so I went back in to the doctor.  My chest x-rays apparently looked a little funny and the doc mentioned a possible lung abnormality.  Back when I was in rehab last year the doctors thought they saw something funny in there as well but it turned out to be nothing.  The doctor also drew some bodily fluids (yuck!) for testing, and gave me a referral to see a Pulminary specialist.  We want this cleared up before I proceed with anything like HRT.  She doesn't see anything life threatening, mind you, she just wants to make sure all is fine.  Hey, that's her job! Sunday was another huge fight with the wife, and the amount of hateful things she said I believe set a new record.  But then this morning we chatted so nice.  She's telling me things about her professional life that she said she would never do with me again.  No, I don't think this means reconciliation, nor will I ask for one.  I do want to maintain a nice relationship with her, and am doing what I can to give her what little money I have. My family is starting to refer to me more and more in the female sense, including calling me "Mere" or "Meredith." What I need right now is just some time alone to get things done.  To all my TW sisters who have been supporting me lately, I thank you. This afternoon I get to see my daughter!  I have a couple of gifts for her.  I can't wait!
    563 Posted by Meredith Newton
  • Let's see how self-centered and melodramatic I get in this post.  Maybe someone will attack me again. I'm finally on spring break this week and really haven't done much.  This damn cough won't go away so I went back in to the doctor.  My chest x-rays apparently looked a little funny and the doc mentioned a possible lung abnormality.  Back when I was in rehab last year the doctors thought they saw something funny in there as well but it turned out to be nothing.  The doctor also drew some bodily fluids (yuck!) for testing, and gave me a referral to see a Pulminary specialist.  We want this cleared up before I proceed with anything like HRT.  She doesn't see anything life threatening, mind you, she just wants to make sure all is fine.  Hey, that's her job! Sunday was another huge fight with the wife, and the amount of hateful things she said I believe set a new record.  But then this morning we chatted so nice.  She's telling me things about her professional life that she said she would never do with me again.  No, I don't think this means reconciliation, nor will I ask for one.  I do want to maintain a nice relationship with her, and am doing what I can to give her what little money I have. My family is starting to refer to me more and more in the female sense, including calling me "Mere" or "Meredith." What I need right now is just some time alone to get things done.  To all my TW sisters who have been supporting me lately, I thank you. This afternoon I get to see my daughter!  I have a couple of gifts for her.  I can't wait!
    Apr 12, 2006 563
  • 06 Apr 2006
    Okay, I should stop saying that phrase.  It really doesn't bother me.  I find it funny that the person who wrote it spent so much time here. While the management company approved me, I didn't get that apartment.  Granted, I did look at it quite late in the month, so there's no surprise it was rented to someone who got their dibs in earlier.  The thing is when they do have something else open I'm already past their checks, so all I'd have to do is sign a lease.  I think that's good.  It gives me time to find a second job and really build up some cash over the next few weeks. As I wrote in the Forums, I have begun the medical process to transition.  Remember how cranky I was?  I didn't realize it until the other day but I had acute bronchitis.  When I was at the doctor's office on Tuesday I asked Dr. Harris about transitioning.  She's going to get to work on the referral for the endo, and I have a physical scheduled in a few weeks.  So the ball is rolling!  I did mention to Lilienne how my blood pressure was high, especially since I haven't been taking my medication.  Let's just say she "yelled" at me for it! Next week is finally Spring Break here at this school.  I can't wait.  I need the rest.  I also need the time to do some serious book writing as I have a deadline next month. Plus I'm going to use the time to get more work. Anyhow, I am so excited about the possibility of starting my transitioning soon.  That is, if I pass the medical tests.  There might be some concern with my liver.  Still, I have begun the process, and I do not want to turn back.
    479 Posted by Meredith Newton
  • Okay, I should stop saying that phrase.  It really doesn't bother me.  I find it funny that the person who wrote it spent so much time here. While the management company approved me, I didn't get that apartment.  Granted, I did look at it quite late in the month, so there's no surprise it was rented to someone who got their dibs in earlier.  The thing is when they do have something else open I'm already past their checks, so all I'd have to do is sign a lease.  I think that's good.  It gives me time to find a second job and really build up some cash over the next few weeks. As I wrote in the Forums, I have begun the medical process to transition.  Remember how cranky I was?  I didn't realize it until the other day but I had acute bronchitis.  When I was at the doctor's office on Tuesday I asked Dr. Harris about transitioning.  She's going to get to work on the referral for the endo, and I have a physical scheduled in a few weeks.  So the ball is rolling!  I did mention to Lilienne how my blood pressure was high, especially since I haven't been taking my medication.  Let's just say she "yelled" at me for it! Next week is finally Spring Break here at this school.  I can't wait.  I need the rest.  I also need the time to do some serious book writing as I have a deadline next month. Plus I'm going to use the time to get more work. Anyhow, I am so excited about the possibility of starting my transitioning soon.  That is, if I pass the medical tests.  There might be some concern with my liver.  Still, I have begun the process, and I do not want to turn back.
    Apr 06, 2006 479
  • 03 Apr 2006
    My crankines lately does not have to do with anyone giving me a hard time being TS.  I just didn't want to deal with anyone outside the community.  My misanthropic side really took over last week. I had my daughter for two nights last week and we had a ball!  I did get mad at one point.  Me mum and sister took her shopping.  When they came back she started opening all the toy boxes.  I told her not to open everything because I didn't want her to lose any of the small pieces, and to save some things for home.  My parental authority was overruled as they let her rip open pretty much everything. I felt I was disrespected.  I also didn't like being told not to ask her any questions while we were stretching out at night. We were watching a movie and I would ask her things about what we were seeing.  It's amazing how many rules I have to follow. This morning is chilly, windy, and rainy.  While I love that in a Monday morning, I didn't love the trains being late. I got in to work about an hour later than usual.  I picked up my check and received a massive shock.  It was barely half of what I was expecting. Now what?  I needed to give my wife some money, and this apartment thing is over my head.  Now I'm hoping I get turned down so as to get my $500 back.  I need it desperately.  I didn't expect this crap.  I need to raise some cash, and immediately. Then again, according to what someone e-mailed to Katie, the blogs are filled with "mental cases with very troubled lives."  Okay, fine.
    612 Posted by Meredith Newton
  • My crankines lately does not have to do with anyone giving me a hard time being TS.  I just didn't want to deal with anyone outside the community.  My misanthropic side really took over last week. I had my daughter for two nights last week and we had a ball!  I did get mad at one point.  Me mum and sister took her shopping.  When they came back she started opening all the toy boxes.  I told her not to open everything because I didn't want her to lose any of the small pieces, and to save some things for home.  My parental authority was overruled as they let her rip open pretty much everything. I felt I was disrespected.  I also didn't like being told not to ask her any questions while we were stretching out at night. We were watching a movie and I would ask her things about what we were seeing.  It's amazing how many rules I have to follow. This morning is chilly, windy, and rainy.  While I love that in a Monday morning, I didn't love the trains being late. I got in to work about an hour later than usual.  I picked up my check and received a massive shock.  It was barely half of what I was expecting. Now what?  I needed to give my wife some money, and this apartment thing is over my head.  Now I'm hoping I get turned down so as to get my $500 back.  I need it desperately.  I didn't expect this crap.  I need to raise some cash, and immediately. Then again, according to what someone e-mailed to Katie, the blogs are filled with "mental cases with very troubled lives."  Okay, fine.
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