Recent Entries

• Look before you leap, Mere

  by Meredith Newton October 18, 2004
  I feel somewhat dumb at the moment. I've been sending out some messages to many of you. While I did know of some "drama" going on between several of you here, I'm starting to wish I knew more in advance because, well, while my messages were of good will, looking back now they appear ill-timed. I fee...

• I hope you're all well

  by Meredith Newton October 16, 2004
  Nothing to comment on here, girls, other than I hope you're all enjoying yourselves this weekend. I am making a doctor's appointment.  Maybe there was a little death wish inside me, thinking if I was gone all would be better. But that can't be true.  I have too much to do while I'm he...

• Some serious problems

  by Meredith Newton October 15, 2004
  Girls, don't be surprised if I don't come back for a while because I'm put away. Maybe an asylum is the best place. First of all, I am choking again.  My asthma is coming back full force.  My breathing is more labored than ever.  She told me that if I don't make a doctor's appointment...

• An autumn day with many thoughts

  by Meredith Newton October 14, 2004
  I don't know why I love overcast, cool autumn days but I do.  There's this album (tape, really) that I reserve solely for this kind of day.  It's called "The Blurred Crusade" by The Church.  It's been a yearly ritual for me since I was, shall we say, much younger.  Okay, I was&nb...

• Getting the best of the demon

  by Meredith Newton October 13, 2004
  A quick blog here, girls There's this demon inside me.  It's a demon I go to a shrink to get rid of.  The demon wanted to win tonight.  It didn't.  I won.  I want this win streak to continue.  There's no reason it shouldn't.  I want to win.  If I don't win, I ...

• Trying not to get too excited

  by Meredith Newton October 12, 2004
  I'm by myself again tonight.  My wife had to go downstate for some stupid training and rode down with a co-worker, an absolute waste of mankind. I have no jealousies about that whatsoever because it was either ride down with Mr. Arrogant or waste a whole day on the train. But she'll be bac...

• Am I ever going to learn? Noooooooo!!!!!!

  by Meredith Newton October 11, 2004
  I just went ahead and made yet ANOTHER sports bet with my mother-in-law.  It's a double or nothing.  Let's put it this way - I'm behind as it is. This was, for the most part, a lovely weekend.  Yes, some problems popped up.  But many others were resolved.  I still hate mysel...

• Probably be away a few days

  by Meredith Newton October 8, 2004
  With the weekend coming up I most likely won't be around much.  Hell, since my computer won't let me chat it's not like I'm here much anyway.  I've missed so much over the past year since the laptop died.  The only time I can chat is when using other computers, and I don't have daily ...

• Here I go.....again

  by Meredith Newton October 6, 2004
  Things are a LOT better at home.  However, this Friday is our tenth anniversary, and I can't take her on a trip anywhere.  While we both agree that the trip can come later, I still feel bad that I'm so far off the mark from where I should be right now.  That failure feeling is creepin...

• Breathing problems returning, but feeling fine

  by Meredith Newton October 3, 2004
  The UK girls had their latest TM yesterday.  I hope it went fantastic. Anyway, to answer some questions - no, I don't like myself.  While I am very egotistical about my academic work, I hate me.  I AM NOT looking for compliments. You've all been wonderful to me.  While my shrink ...