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  • 25 Jun 2004
    Today I'm editing those chapters I wrote so I can send them off to the publisher Monday morning.  That means a nice little paycheck.  What they don't know is that Meredith is working on it today!  Let's see here - a cute white lace bra (stuffed, of course), pretty bikini floral panties, tan pantyhose, short gray skirt, and ready to work!  Lord knows how much we need the money.  Plus, it will look great on my resume.  All I need to do now is FINALLY send my book to the publisher and see what they say.  I think it's good, and it's certainly original. Thank you all so much for your kind words.  I've made so many great friends here.  I think you are all fantastic.  I love you all so much.  It's so nice to finally have some friends who understand.  My best friend, who I often use as a job reference, makes funny jokes about it, although I did have to correct him once.  He gave a reference for me a few weeks ago and told me he mentioned how I look good in high heels.  "No, I look good in a miniskirt.  Get it straight!  I don't have heels!" I'm getting back to writing music.  I am working on two new songs: "Princess Mariette" and "Naked Nena's on the Pole." The song is based upon when Nena said she wanted to do a striptease while the Trannyweb band played (We're going to be called Naked Nena, by the way - is that what upon which we agreed?).  Everyone is mentioned in that piece.  When I have the lyrics perfected I'll post them. So far it's pretty funny stuff. Take care!  XXXOOO Meredith
    713 Posted by Meredith Newton
  • Today I'm editing those chapters I wrote so I can send them off to the publisher Monday morning.  That means a nice little paycheck.  What they don't know is that Meredith is working on it today!  Let's see here - a cute white lace bra (stuffed, of course), pretty bikini floral panties, tan pantyhose, short gray skirt, and ready to work!  Lord knows how much we need the money.  Plus, it will look great on my resume.  All I need to do now is FINALLY send my book to the publisher and see what they say.  I think it's good, and it's certainly original. Thank you all so much for your kind words.  I've made so many great friends here.  I think you are all fantastic.  I love you all so much.  It's so nice to finally have some friends who understand.  My best friend, who I often use as a job reference, makes funny jokes about it, although I did have to correct him once.  He gave a reference for me a few weeks ago and told me he mentioned how I look good in high heels.  "No, I look good in a miniskirt.  Get it straight!  I don't have heels!" I'm getting back to writing music.  I am working on two new songs: "Princess Mariette" and "Naked Nena's on the Pole." The song is based upon when Nena said she wanted to do a striptease while the Trannyweb band played (We're going to be called Naked Nena, by the way - is that what upon which we agreed?).  Everyone is mentioned in that piece.  When I have the lyrics perfected I'll post them. So far it's pretty funny stuff. Take care!  XXXOOO Meredith
    Jun 25, 2004 713
  • 17 Jun 2004
    With these huge financial problems I have - brought on by underemployment - it's a wonder I have anything at all.  It's been a while since I've dressed.  My kid has been home all week (her school year ended and the summer daycare hasn't started yet), so I certainly can't do it now. Sometimes I feel I have to be 100% drab in case my endless problems, including VERY high blood pressure, give me some sort of stroke or heart attack.  So, depending on the day, I might have to skip the lingerie under the drab.  I had some interesting dreams last night, including one with me somewhat dressed in front of people.  Part of the dream had me jogging through the basement area of a former temporary job, with my boobs bouncing up and down!  When I worked there I actually took some chances.  I took advantage of the gym there - I love to work out whenever I can (I still need to lose about ten pounds) - but had to be careful when changing in the locker room.  I would change out of my "work" panties and put on a pair of high cut to work out in.  Thankfully the locker area was very large and I had no problems changing in peace.   Thanks to all you who have been writing. Merdith
    883 Posted by Meredith Newton
  • With these huge financial problems I have - brought on by underemployment - it's a wonder I have anything at all.  It's been a while since I've dressed.  My kid has been home all week (her school year ended and the summer daycare hasn't started yet), so I certainly can't do it now. Sometimes I feel I have to be 100% drab in case my endless problems, including VERY high blood pressure, give me some sort of stroke or heart attack.  So, depending on the day, I might have to skip the lingerie under the drab.  I had some interesting dreams last night, including one with me somewhat dressed in front of people.  Part of the dream had me jogging through the basement area of a former temporary job, with my boobs bouncing up and down!  When I worked there I actually took some chances.  I took advantage of the gym there - I love to work out whenever I can (I still need to lose about ten pounds) - but had to be careful when changing in the locker room.  I would change out of my "work" panties and put on a pair of high cut to work out in.  Thankfully the locker area was very large and I had no problems changing in peace.   Thanks to all you who have been writing. Merdith
    Jun 17, 2004 883
  • 15 Jun 2004
    There is so much I want to say.  I am NOT GOING TO STOP.  This is me.  I have been in touch personally with some of you lately.  Thanks for making me feel human.
    745 Posted by Meredith Newton
  • There is so much I want to say.  I am NOT GOING TO STOP.  This is me.  I have been in touch personally with some of you lately.  Thanks for making me feel human.
    Jun 15, 2004 745
  • 10 Jun 2004
    I never really tried to understand why I'm a cd.  I do consider myself to be part of the tg community, obviously, but as to why - I don't care.  It's who I am.  But I cannot be fully out.  Being out would cause too many problems for other people, and they wouldn't deserve it.  As of right now four people know.  My wife is finally coming around more and more.  We haven't fought about it in weeks, but that is not to say it will never come up again.  My wife felt betrayed and lied to.  I can see her point.  She even called me a freak a few times, and later apologized.  I don't want her hurt.  I don't want anyone hurt, so the only place I can let go is here.
    727 Posted by Meredith Newton
  • I never really tried to understand why I'm a cd.  I do consider myself to be part of the tg community, obviously, but as to why - I don't care.  It's who I am.  But I cannot be fully out.  Being out would cause too many problems for other people, and they wouldn't deserve it.  As of right now four people know.  My wife is finally coming around more and more.  We haven't fought about it in weeks, but that is not to say it will never come up again.  My wife felt betrayed and lied to.  I can see her point.  She even called me a freak a few times, and later apologized.  I don't want her hurt.  I don't want anyone hurt, so the only place I can let go is here.
    Jun 10, 2004 727
  • 03 Jun 2004
    I moved back to the midwest after completing my doctoral coursework.  I was going to write my dissertation on that area and it made sense to just go home.  My and my gf broke up, and while we did have some sex, I was still somewhat deprived and made up for it a bit.  Then I became reacquainted with the woman who would become my wife. We somewhat knew each other before.  When we started dating it turned intense immediately.  With her I had more sex in one month than in the years I was with the other one. But I didn't tell her about my dressing.  I didn't do it until, as I said, just earlier this year.  We're working it out, and my being cd is less of an issue.  In fact, we've made one or two jokes about it.  But for that, and my various insecurities, she insisted I go to a psychologist. I have not stopped dressing, nor do I want to.  I do it at home whenever alone.  She doesn't know about Meredith right now, and she knows something about this website.  Right now, the less the better.  Thanks for letting me ramble.
    691 Posted by Meredith Newton
  • I moved back to the midwest after completing my doctoral coursework.  I was going to write my dissertation on that area and it made sense to just go home.  My and my gf broke up, and while we did have some sex, I was still somewhat deprived and made up for it a bit.  Then I became reacquainted with the woman who would become my wife. We somewhat knew each other before.  When we started dating it turned intense immediately.  With her I had more sex in one month than in the years I was with the other one. But I didn't tell her about my dressing.  I didn't do it until, as I said, just earlier this year.  We're working it out, and my being cd is less of an issue.  In fact, we've made one or two jokes about it.  But for that, and my various insecurities, she insisted I go to a psychologist. I have not stopped dressing, nor do I want to.  I do it at home whenever alone.  She doesn't know about Meredith right now, and she knows something about this website.  Right now, the less the better.  Thanks for letting me ramble.
    Jun 03, 2004 691
  • 03 Jun 2004
    My panty collection at home was eventually tossed out (sob!) because I feared getting caught too much. I broke up with one gf while working on my Master's, then hooked up with another who was doing the same thing. She was quite petite, so getting into one of her skirts was difficult, unless it had an elastic band.  We both moved out east to work on our doctorates.  We went to separate schools at first, but then she transferred to my area.  We did live together for a while.  This was more out of economic necessity than anything - she had that Catholic "I gotta save my virginity" bullshit for a while (I cured that!). Whenever she was away I "played dress up."  It was obviously at this time when I began to lose my fears and go forward with it more.  I was still closeted.
    759 Posted by Meredith Newton
  • My panty collection at home was eventually tossed out (sob!) because I feared getting caught too much. I broke up with one gf while working on my Master's, then hooked up with another who was doing the same thing. She was quite petite, so getting into one of her skirts was difficult, unless it had an elastic band.  We both moved out east to work on our doctorates.  We went to separate schools at first, but then she transferred to my area.  We did live together for a while.  This was more out of economic necessity than anything - she had that Catholic "I gotta save my virginity" bullshit for a while (I cured that!). Whenever she was away I "played dress up."  It was obviously at this time when I began to lose my fears and go forward with it more.  I was still closeted.
    Jun 03, 2004 759
  • 03 Jun 2004
    Like so many others, I wanted to dress when I was very young.  Panties were probably my first "love," but I certainly liked looking at skirts and dresses, too.  The shorter the better!  I come from a large family - 6 children (one now deceased) - most of whom were girls.  I didn't identify with them, though.  My feminine side comes from outside.  My childhood was anything but pleasant (who's wasn't?), and my first two years of high school were a living hell.  Well, looking at the cheerleaders was great.  I don't know what I wanted more - to screw them or try on their outfits.  During those years all my desires were kept inside.  I had nowhere to turn to, and certainly knew nobody else who felt that way.  Any dressing I did was quick, using someone else's clothes.  I didn't have the courage to buy my own for the longest time. In college I began to go deeper into my cd side.  Like a lot of other college men, taking a girl's panties was hardly unusual, but that's how I first amassed a nice collection. Not nice - I know.  When I moved back home after graduation, I had to keep them so well hidden because a VERY vindicative younger sister would have exposed me in a heartbeat.  As I began graduate school I embraced my feminine side more and more.  Going shopping with my gf was great.  I got to go through the women's departments and learn a few things about sizes.  Also, virtually all of my gf's had big boobs, so bras became another desire.  I didn't have the courage to buy my own lingerie until I was in grad school, and was I ever nervous!  My first skirt was this sexy gray mini - I still wear it and mention it from time to time. Anyhow, that's all I have time for now.  Take care. Meredith
    738 Posted by Meredith Newton
  • Like so many others, I wanted to dress when I was very young.  Panties were probably my first "love," but I certainly liked looking at skirts and dresses, too.  The shorter the better!  I come from a large family - 6 children (one now deceased) - most of whom were girls.  I didn't identify with them, though.  My feminine side comes from outside.  My childhood was anything but pleasant (who's wasn't?), and my first two years of high school were a living hell.  Well, looking at the cheerleaders was great.  I don't know what I wanted more - to screw them or try on their outfits.  During those years all my desires were kept inside.  I had nowhere to turn to, and certainly knew nobody else who felt that way.  Any dressing I did was quick, using someone else's clothes.  I didn't have the courage to buy my own for the longest time. In college I began to go deeper into my cd side.  Like a lot of other college men, taking a girl's panties was hardly unusual, but that's how I first amassed a nice collection. Not nice - I know.  When I moved back home after graduation, I had to keep them so well hidden because a VERY vindicative younger sister would have exposed me in a heartbeat.  As I began graduate school I embraced my feminine side more and more.  Going shopping with my gf was great.  I got to go through the women's departments and learn a few things about sizes.  Also, virtually all of my gf's had big boobs, so bras became another desire.  I didn't have the courage to buy my own lingerie until I was in grad school, and was I ever nervous!  My first skirt was this sexy gray mini - I still wear it and mention it from time to time. Anyhow, that's all I have time for now.  Take care. Meredith
    Jun 03, 2004 738
  • 26 May 2004
    It's been almost six months since I came out to my wife as being cd.  I would have come out some time, but it was joining Trannyweb that gave me the courage.  I actually thought she knew for a few years, and as long as she didn't see it, then it didn't exist.  Then, back in December, she found one of my miniskirts.  She thought I might have been having an affair. Finally, in January, I told her.  One of the things she insisted on was my seeing a psychologist, which I've been doing.  The shrink has been supportive of it. Life has been quite tough over all for a while now.  I can't say how much I owe you for being beside me.  When I have more time I'll tell more of my story.  Take care. Meredith
    757 Posted by Meredith Newton
  • It's been almost six months since I came out to my wife as being cd.  I would have come out some time, but it was joining Trannyweb that gave me the courage.  I actually thought she knew for a few years, and as long as she didn't see it, then it didn't exist.  Then, back in December, she found one of my miniskirts.  She thought I might have been having an affair. Finally, in January, I told her.  One of the things she insisted on was my seeing a psychologist, which I've been doing.  The shrink has been supportive of it. Life has been quite tough over all for a while now.  I can't say how much I owe you for being beside me.  When I have more time I'll tell more of my story.  Take care. Meredith
    May 26, 2004 757
  • 20 Aug 2010
    Within the next few days I will be making (hopefully) a major announcement.  I wish it concerned transitioning or Josie, but it will be about something else, and this means career-wise!
    1574 Posted by Meredith Newton
  • Within the next few days I will be making (hopefully) a major announcement.  I wish it concerned transitioning or Josie, but it will be about something else, and this means career-wise!
    Aug 20, 2010 1574
  • 16 May 2010
    I'll blog more later.  Josie was here this week and we had a fantastic time.  I was finally able to take her to some Chicago places that we never had time for in the past.  She got to hear my special labor law presentation, something I know every girl dreams about!More later.
    1861 Posted by Meredith Newton
  • I'll blog more later.  Josie was here this week and we had a fantastic time.  I was finally able to take her to some Chicago places that we never had time for in the past.  She got to hear my special labor law presentation, something I know every girl dreams about!More later.
    May 16, 2010 1861