Decisions ......?

• Posted by Angela Louise September 30, 2013 1,539 views
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  We all have decisions to make every day.

  Some easier than others.

  But I've been presented with one that I'm just not quite sure what to do about it!

   

  First, a bit of background ..............

  I've been living in Dublin, Ireland, for a number of years now, and began my transition there, and about 5 years ago, went "full-time", along with my 'mones. So, everyone there knows me in both "personnas", having seen the changes in my life, and I've always been quite open to anyone who spoke to me about my journey, so my "being out" has never been a question to me.

  A few years ago, my health took a turn for the worse (heart attack/surgery, liver problems), so I was forced to stop the hormone treatment, and accept that I'd never be able to complete my journey, as, with all my health problems, I'd not get a surgeon to take me on. (see Blog entry "Life in Limbo").

  Since I also had to give up fulltime work, I had the opportunity to "choose" where I wanted to live, and as I'd always loved the sea-side, I got a house in a little sea-side town in Northern Ireland, with great views, and a lovely "village" community feeling to the place.

  Of course, to my new community, I was exactly who I said I was, and they knew nothing of my past "gender history".

  While it's quite possible, if not actually likely, that some, if not all, guessed that I might not be a GG, no-one actually has ever asked me, and, thankfully, I've always been treated with friendship and respect.

  Of course there are a few people that I have been open with, and they, also, have been brilliant with it!

  One of those has been every girl's "confessor" ................ the hairdresser!!!!   lol.

   

  And this brings me to the reason for the title here ....................

   

  Recently, she decided to look for bigger and better premises ....... she needs more space to extend her spa/beauty treatments side of the business, and, by chance, a large gents hairdressers just on the edge of the village had closed, and offered all the space and ease of conversion that she needed to transfer her business to it's premises.

  So, after much work going into it, she's just about ready to open, and get her "new" business up and running.

  As I said, she and her staff all know my "little secret" (how wouldn't they, with the amount of work they have to do to me !!! ??  lol ), and they thought, with the particular circumstances of the "change of gender" of the new premises, it might be quite good for someone who has "changed gender" to perform the official opening for them  ....... so they've invited ME to do it !!!

   

  It's lovely that they thought of it, and, to be honest, I'd love to do it, as it appeals to my rather "odd" sense of humour, but, the question I have to decide on is, OK .............. whilst the people in the village, and surrounding area may well have guessed, they've never actually known that I'm TG, and do I really want to take the chance of, possibly, spoiling a beautiful, restful life in the village, by announcing to one and all that I am, indeed, TG?

  It, hopefully, wouldn't make any difference, but .................. am I willing to take that risk ??

   

  Oh .................. decisions, decisions, decisions !!!        !!

   

  Angela.   x.