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  • 28 Sep 2010
    As fall and October get ready to make their appearance (already has where I live) there are so many things to consider! I already bought a pair of new fall boots that I managed to fall in last night in front of a bunch of people. I know what your thinking! The boots were not the four inch stiletto style. Still had a heel of course but not enough to go down!!!! Just a little sore in the body and very sore in the ego department! But girl friends it's almost the magical time of the year called Halloween! If you've got that fun Halloween story, feel free to share it here! I have mixed emotions about the day now. Since I'm out so much, I can't attend a party with friends. There is too much of a chance that they have seen me! But some of the bigger parties at venue's in the area are too much fun to pass up. I went to a big outdoor event last year and just kind of hung out and watched the crowd. I pretty much just went as female. No real costume. This year it might be fun to head out to one of the big straight clubs..haven't decided yet! Halloween was my first high heeled step out of the closet. It very much has a near and dear place in my heart! I dressed as a hooker years ago and went to a party with friends and ended up telling them it was more than a costume to me! Two rules, however-don't expect to win a contest unless you are dressed as a female character. (not just as a girl) Sarah Palen comes to mind. Rule two is don't expect to present easily as female! People are really looking at each other! Then again you may not want to on Halloween! Don't know what delicious trouble you could get into! Trick or Treat!
    912 Posted by Jessie Hart
  • As fall and October get ready to make their appearance (already has where I live) there are so many things to consider! I already bought a pair of new fall boots that I managed to fall in last night in front of a bunch of people. I know what your thinking! The boots were not the four inch stiletto style. Still had a heel of course but not enough to go down!!!! Just a little sore in the body and very sore in the ego department! But girl friends it's almost the magical time of the year called Halloween! If you've got that fun Halloween story, feel free to share it here! I have mixed emotions about the day now. Since I'm out so much, I can't attend a party with friends. There is too much of a chance that they have seen me! But some of the bigger parties at venue's in the area are too much fun to pass up. I went to a big outdoor event last year and just kind of hung out and watched the crowd. I pretty much just went as female. No real costume. This year it might be fun to head out to one of the big straight clubs..haven't decided yet! Halloween was my first high heeled step out of the closet. It very much has a near and dear place in my heart! I dressed as a hooker years ago and went to a party with friends and ended up telling them it was more than a costume to me! Two rules, however-don't expect to win a contest unless you are dressed as a female character. (not just as a girl) Sarah Palen comes to mind. Rule two is don't expect to present easily as female! People are really looking at each other! Then again you may not want to on Halloween! Don't know what delicious trouble you could get into! Trick or Treat!
    Sep 28, 2010 912
  • 26 Sep 2010
    To be or not to be; that is the question. I am everything and nothing – male/female, beautiful/ugly, shy/outgoing, saint/sinner, humble/egotistical and I’ve been known to be happy, sad and angry all at the same time. I am, and more importantly, I am not. Wish i was good enough to write it! The quote comes from a person called "Ophelia Rising" on the "Genderfork.Com" sight!
    1020 Posted by Jessie Hart
  • To be or not to be; that is the question. I am everything and nothing – male/female, beautiful/ugly, shy/outgoing, saint/sinner, humble/egotistical and I’ve been known to be happy, sad and angry all at the same time. I am, and more importantly, I am not. Wish i was good enough to write it! The quote comes from a person called "Ophelia Rising" on the "Genderfork.Com" sight!
    Sep 26, 2010 1020
  • 23 Sep 2010
    Wow! almost at the the 100 mark on the number of posts to my blog: http://cyrstiscondo-cyrsti.blogspot.com/all since May 20th!I did update my transgender book today!
    930 Posted by Jessie Hart
  • Wow! almost at the the 100 mark on the number of posts to my blog: http://cyrstiscondo-cyrsti.blogspot.com/all since May 20th!I did update my transgender book today!
    Sep 23, 2010 930
  • 23 Sep 2010
    Aw-right girls. Start making fun of me now for either living in a cave OR introducing yet another new term-"Bi Gender". I saw it as a question on another blog. Of course I had to throw in my two cents worth! I am a "bi gender" person. It means to me that one day I can live as a girl and a guy the next. It takes a lot of work for me since I'm not an androgynous looking person. As a guy I've been able to run with the "alpha males" and as a girl I've been fairly good at moving through society with few problems. I shop, party and socialize mainly as a girl. None of this came easy and I would not recommend it to my worst enemy. On the other hand my girl side absolutely adores her girlfriends (real) and female communication, clothes etc. More importantly I do feel a deep satisfaction in my soul when I'm presenting female. Not enough, however to do it permanently. Bi gender should mean you can take the best of both genders and mold yourself into this wonderful person. Both of me have not perfected this! Yet I have had some truly outstanding moments in both genders. In a strange way, I've been blessed. When life gives you lemons-you make lemonade. When life gives you two genders to play with-you play!for more "stuff" visit: http://cyrstiscondo-cyrsti.blogspot.com/
    970 Posted by Jessie Hart
  • Aw-right girls. Start making fun of me now for either living in a cave OR introducing yet another new term-"Bi Gender". I saw it as a question on another blog. Of course I had to throw in my two cents worth! I am a "bi gender" person. It means to me that one day I can live as a girl and a guy the next. It takes a lot of work for me since I'm not an androgynous looking person. As a guy I've been able to run with the "alpha males" and as a girl I've been fairly good at moving through society with few problems. I shop, party and socialize mainly as a girl. None of this came easy and I would not recommend it to my worst enemy. On the other hand my girl side absolutely adores her girlfriends (real) and female communication, clothes etc. More importantly I do feel a deep satisfaction in my soul when I'm presenting female. Not enough, however to do it permanently. Bi gender should mean you can take the best of both genders and mold yourself into this wonderful person. Both of me have not perfected this! Yet I have had some truly outstanding moments in both genders. In a strange way, I've been blessed. When life gives you lemons-you make lemonade. When life gives you two genders to play with-you play!for more "stuff" visit: http://cyrstiscondo-cyrsti.blogspot.com/
    Sep 23, 2010 970
  • 18 Sep 2010
    For transgender folks like us, this question has burned a deep hole in our psyche. On one hand we hate one side of ourselves. On the other we can't wait to return to the other side. How many times have I written about the joy of feeling my long curls on my bare back and shoulders or the soft feel of a skirt on my freshly shaven legs. How exotic is it to throw back my shoulders and give my "girls" a little extra exposure in a soft slinky form fitting top. I will forever remember the looks I have had on occasion that I know saw me as female. I also remember the looks that didn't. The pointing, the whispering and yes-even the laughter. How many times have I wanted to go home and forget any of this insanity ever happened? But then there are times when friends of both genders approach me with questions about their opposite gender. Why do guys act a certain way? Why do women? They believe I should know, and I'm learning! The blessing is to have been added to several female circles and to learn a whole new form of communication. The secrets of genetic females aren't so earth shattering-their reactions to them are. Just one glance can say it all about a guy being an idiot. The curse is the amount of time it takes an individual to understand what is going on and how to make it a positive. Letting your female grow up and learn is a painful process! Just like with genetic females. The curse is sharing her with family and friends. Most men really don't want anything to do with you and women have a whole different of way of letting you be a part but not accepting you as a friend. Especially a spouse! During the course of history, transgendered people have been elevated to higher levels in certain societies. We just have to learn to elevate our inner selves in the meantime!
    1018 Posted by Jessie Hart
  • For transgender folks like us, this question has burned a deep hole in our psyche. On one hand we hate one side of ourselves. On the other we can't wait to return to the other side. How many times have I written about the joy of feeling my long curls on my bare back and shoulders or the soft feel of a skirt on my freshly shaven legs. How exotic is it to throw back my shoulders and give my "girls" a little extra exposure in a soft slinky form fitting top. I will forever remember the looks I have had on occasion that I know saw me as female. I also remember the looks that didn't. The pointing, the whispering and yes-even the laughter. How many times have I wanted to go home and forget any of this insanity ever happened? But then there are times when friends of both genders approach me with questions about their opposite gender. Why do guys act a certain way? Why do women? They believe I should know, and I'm learning! The blessing is to have been added to several female circles and to learn a whole new form of communication. The secrets of genetic females aren't so earth shattering-their reactions to them are. Just one glance can say it all about a guy being an idiot. The curse is the amount of time it takes an individual to understand what is going on and how to make it a positive. Letting your female grow up and learn is a painful process! Just like with genetic females. The curse is sharing her with family and friends. Most men really don't want anything to do with you and women have a whole different of way of letting you be a part but not accepting you as a friend. Especially a spouse! During the course of history, transgendered people have been elevated to higher levels in certain societies. We just have to learn to elevate our inner selves in the meantime!
    Sep 18, 2010 1018
  • 16 Sep 2010
    To many of you girls who are entrenched in your closet, or those who are tentatively stepping out-here is a story that I hope will help. Some of it is repeated in the "Handy Dandy" how to post (on My main Blog :http://cyrstiscondo-cyrsti.blogspot.com/ but please be patient with me. I'm more mature and we do things like repeat ourselves! Number one, when you shop-the great majority of clerks will love you! Especially "DeeDee" at Charming Charlie's in Dayton, Ohio. I've plugged the place before. It's just a great spot for accessorizing your wardrobe! Jewelry, bags, earrings and the such! I was in the store for about 5 minutes or so when she introduced herself and asked if I needed any help. I said "no" and then she said "are you (me) Rhoda?" Rhoda is "Rhoda Horse" and she is a beautiful blond performer in the Dayton, Ohio area. I said "I'm flattered, but I'm not and actually Rhoda and I are much different breeds of the same cat." Quickly, I explained. (I had serious shopping to do!) Rhoda does female to perform. I do female as a lifestyle. So, if you are ever around the "Greene" off of I-675 outside of Dayton look the store up and definately ask for DeeDee! Sales people such as DeeDee can offer you some great insight into your look and you offer them a respite from a all too often grumpy female clientele. Shopping as a girl is truly an occasion when you can use being transgendered to your benefit!
    903 Posted by Jessie Hart
  • To many of you girls who are entrenched in your closet, or those who are tentatively stepping out-here is a story that I hope will help. Some of it is repeated in the "Handy Dandy" how to post (on My main Blog :http://cyrstiscondo-cyrsti.blogspot.com/ but please be patient with me. I'm more mature and we do things like repeat ourselves! Number one, when you shop-the great majority of clerks will love you! Especially "DeeDee" at Charming Charlie's in Dayton, Ohio. I've plugged the place before. It's just a great spot for accessorizing your wardrobe! Jewelry, bags, earrings and the such! I was in the store for about 5 minutes or so when she introduced herself and asked if I needed any help. I said "no" and then she said "are you (me) Rhoda?" Rhoda is "Rhoda Horse" and she is a beautiful blond performer in the Dayton, Ohio area. I said "I'm flattered, but I'm not and actually Rhoda and I are much different breeds of the same cat." Quickly, I explained. (I had serious shopping to do!) Rhoda does female to perform. I do female as a lifestyle. So, if you are ever around the "Greene" off of I-675 outside of Dayton look the store up and definately ask for DeeDee! Sales people such as DeeDee can offer you some great insight into your look and you offer them a respite from a all too often grumpy female clientele. Shopping as a girl is truly an occasion when you can use being transgendered to your benefit!
    Sep 16, 2010 903
  • 13 Sep 2010
    You have it together, here comes another question! It's Saturday night and I went out after my Buckeyes posted a big win! I was going to a slightly upscale place so I was looking for a special outfit. After digging through the closet, I found this black shortish "flippy" skirt. I paired it with a white "T" under a black jacket. I loved it! I took off and went to my spot. As I walked through the main room to the bar, I thought "I shaved my legs for this?" Yes and it was fabulous. Freshly shaved bare legs brushing the skirt and I was in heaven. I also went blond (had to!) for the evening which is always kind of a reach. The blond does get more attention which is always not so good. I don't know if blond's really do have more fun but they get more attention! I found a seat at the bar and was watching my Reds struggle with the Pirates when a tallish black guy with dreads sat down next to me. Being black is not really a factor, just part of the story later. He was alone for about 10 minutes when his girlfriend showed up. I thought since she was there I wouldn't have to prepare for impromptu conversation. WRONG. Following another short time span, he turned to me and said "do people treat you differently?" I said "No-Why?" "Do people treat you differently because you a a big black guy with dreads?" He just laughed. He was actually very polite but had to ask a few more questions. The first question was one I should have printed on cards with an answer and my name! "Why do you dress as a female?" Because I want to, I love the feel of the experience, my soul tells me it's right and I can. The answer seemed to satisfy him and he only asked one more question (what was my given male name) before he turned back to his girl who was chatting with another woman next to her. My only disappointment was getting read by him. It wasn't the first and won't be the last. It really just drives me to work harder. Saturday I hoped I presented as good as I felt! Hopefully to the remainder of the patrons I did.
    963 Posted by Jessie Hart
  • You have it together, here comes another question! It's Saturday night and I went out after my Buckeyes posted a big win! I was going to a slightly upscale place so I was looking for a special outfit. After digging through the closet, I found this black shortish "flippy" skirt. I paired it with a white "T" under a black jacket. I loved it! I took off and went to my spot. As I walked through the main room to the bar, I thought "I shaved my legs for this?" Yes and it was fabulous. Freshly shaved bare legs brushing the skirt and I was in heaven. I also went blond (had to!) for the evening which is always kind of a reach. The blond does get more attention which is always not so good. I don't know if blond's really do have more fun but they get more attention! I found a seat at the bar and was watching my Reds struggle with the Pirates when a tallish black guy with dreads sat down next to me. Being black is not really a factor, just part of the story later. He was alone for about 10 minutes when his girlfriend showed up. I thought since she was there I wouldn't have to prepare for impromptu conversation. WRONG. Following another short time span, he turned to me and said "do people treat you differently?" I said "No-Why?" "Do people treat you differently because you a a big black guy with dreads?" He just laughed. He was actually very polite but had to ask a few more questions. The first question was one I should have printed on cards with an answer and my name! "Why do you dress as a female?" Because I want to, I love the feel of the experience, my soul tells me it's right and I can. The answer seemed to satisfy him and he only asked one more question (what was my given male name) before he turned back to his girl who was chatting with another woman next to her. My only disappointment was getting read by him. It wasn't the first and won't be the last. It really just drives me to work harder. Saturday I hoped I presented as good as I felt! Hopefully to the remainder of the patrons I did.
    Sep 13, 2010 963
  • 09 Sep 2010
    "Trapped in a man's body" is a phrase that has received a lot of attention over the years in the transgender community. During the past week and a half I've been trapped in that body.(I have a brutal work schedule and have not been able to play) But have I really been trapped in that body at all? That body has treated me well over the years. It has been blessed with excellent health and some questionable intelligence. More importantly that body has allowed Cyrsti to be a kept woman. It still earns the income for her existence. That body has also provided the basics to go out in the world as a female. It has had the basics to jump the gender barrier. Drawbacks? Sure! The size that allowed some athletic action and less bullying as a youth had it's benefits. Now the bigger wrists and broader back are not so useful. However, as age increases I'm experiencing a natural hormone replacement therapy. The once dark body hair has grayed and thinned considerably. Leg hair is easier to keep under control and beard cover is much easier. In addition, my skin is softening noticeably. The biggest drawback are breasts. If a genie jumped out of a bottle and granted me 3 requests-breasts would be very high up the list. In the future a full time girl existence is very possible. I can't put that body through all the surgery but I would put it through breast enhancement. I just want the sensuality! Well, it's obvious you can't have your cake and eat it too. The calories just go to your hips! But as the "Rolling Stones" once sang-"You don't always get what you want, but sometimes you get what you need." That body has given me that. I guess I was never trapped in it anyhow!
    955 Posted by Jessie Hart
  • "Trapped in a man's body" is a phrase that has received a lot of attention over the years in the transgender community. During the past week and a half I've been trapped in that body.(I have a brutal work schedule and have not been able to play) But have I really been trapped in that body at all? That body has treated me well over the years. It has been blessed with excellent health and some questionable intelligence. More importantly that body has allowed Cyrsti to be a kept woman. It still earns the income for her existence. That body has also provided the basics to go out in the world as a female. It has had the basics to jump the gender barrier. Drawbacks? Sure! The size that allowed some athletic action and less bullying as a youth had it's benefits. Now the bigger wrists and broader back are not so useful. However, as age increases I'm experiencing a natural hormone replacement therapy. The once dark body hair has grayed and thinned considerably. Leg hair is easier to keep under control and beard cover is much easier. In addition, my skin is softening noticeably. The biggest drawback are breasts. If a genie jumped out of a bottle and granted me 3 requests-breasts would be very high up the list. In the future a full time girl existence is very possible. I can't put that body through all the surgery but I would put it through breast enhancement. I just want the sensuality! Well, it's obvious you can't have your cake and eat it too. The calories just go to your hips! But as the "Rolling Stones" once sang-"You don't always get what you want, but sometimes you get what you need." That body has given me that. I guess I was never trapped in it anyhow!
    Sep 09, 2010 955
  • 07 Sep 2010
    The first installment of my transgender "how to" page is up in it's own room! Been wanting to do it for awhile! I hope in the future to make it a feature you can add to! Thanks girl friends!Read it here: http://cyrstiscondo-cyrsti.blogspot.com/
    992 Posted by Jessie Hart
  • The first installment of my transgender "how to" page is up in it's own room! Been wanting to do it for awhile! I hope in the future to make it a feature you can add to! Thanks girl friends!Read it here: http://cyrstiscondo-cyrsti.blogspot.com/
    Sep 07, 2010 992
  • 06 Sep 2010
    First off, there are many guides that will help you become the best transgendered girl you can become. All of these transgendered help guides have something in common. They all may not mean a thing to you! Including this one. On the other hand (or high heel) a guide could mean everything- but it is just a guide. Keep in mind we all have certain physical traits that lend themselves naturally to making us more attractive women. Yes, even you have them. You have to find them! A smart genetic female or transgendered girl knows and works with her characteristics. I'm sure you've all seen the average looking female work wonders with her looks if she knows what she is doing. Being transgendered, we have to do that and more! If you are a novice or experienced woman maybe I can help! I've made so many mistakes! Number 1.- Find your inner girl! In many cases-not an easy task for a transgender girl. We spend much of out lives trying to suppress our inner girl and really don't know much about her. Three different examples of inner girls can be found on this blog. One of course, is me and the other two examples are women whose blogs I follow and respect. I knew for years my inner girl was a party woman. She liked sitting at the bar with the girls or guys with long curly hair jeans and boots. That's who she was and is. If the makeup is a little much or the top is a little too tight or low cut..so be it! Never accuse her of being a lady...always a woman! Now lets look at "Stana". She writes a fabulous blog called "Femulate" You can link to it here. Stana is a "dressed to the nines" professional lady. She is as different to me as night and day. She does represent a whole different spectrum and most importantly she knows who she is. Somewhere in the middle could be "Janie". She seems to be in the process of finding and enjoying her inner girl. She is a fabulous writer and comes up with great insights. You can on occasion feel her joy in her pictures and it's great. You can link to her site here too. When you find who you are as a transgendered girl, that inner girl will help you get to where you want to go. Number 2.- The number one mistake that we make is that looks are everything. Note* I will be moving this article to it's own page on the blog. My goal is to have it be long and involved and interactive!See it at: http://cyrstiscondo-cyrsti.blogspot.com/
    947 Posted by Jessie Hart
  • First off, there are many guides that will help you become the best transgendered girl you can become. All of these transgendered help guides have something in common. They all may not mean a thing to you! Including this one. On the other hand (or high heel) a guide could mean everything- but it is just a guide. Keep in mind we all have certain physical traits that lend themselves naturally to making us more attractive women. Yes, even you have them. You have to find them! A smart genetic female or transgendered girl knows and works with her characteristics. I'm sure you've all seen the average looking female work wonders with her looks if she knows what she is doing. Being transgendered, we have to do that and more! If you are a novice or experienced woman maybe I can help! I've made so many mistakes! Number 1.- Find your inner girl! In many cases-not an easy task for a transgender girl. We spend much of out lives trying to suppress our inner girl and really don't know much about her. Three different examples of inner girls can be found on this blog. One of course, is me and the other two examples are women whose blogs I follow and respect. I knew for years my inner girl was a party woman. She liked sitting at the bar with the girls or guys with long curly hair jeans and boots. That's who she was and is. If the makeup is a little much or the top is a little too tight or low cut..so be it! Never accuse her of being a lady...always a woman! Now lets look at "Stana". She writes a fabulous blog called "Femulate" You can link to it here. Stana is a "dressed to the nines" professional lady. She is as different to me as night and day. She does represent a whole different spectrum and most importantly she knows who she is. Somewhere in the middle could be "Janie". She seems to be in the process of finding and enjoying her inner girl. She is a fabulous writer and comes up with great insights. You can on occasion feel her joy in her pictures and it's great. You can link to her site here too. When you find who you are as a transgendered girl, that inner girl will help you get to where you want to go. Number 2.- The number one mistake that we make is that looks are everything. Note* I will be moving this article to it's own page on the blog. My goal is to have it be long and involved and interactive!See it at: http://cyrstiscondo-cyrsti.blogspot.com/
    Sep 06, 2010 947