feeling like i let my family down.
Here i am being whom i am as a embarrisment to my family.
Epecially to my father.
this is kind of strange be cause my dad came from a little country town in texas.
This man,a son of a plumber of a son of a plumber . was educated in a country school
Now who would of thought that this man would graduate at the head of his class..
And was selected valvictorian of his universitys graduation class
my first recall of one of my let downs for him was.
when i was elvauated at my elementrty school for having a learning disability.
it was evaluated that i was dyslexic and also had an attention span problem
SO special edu cation classes started
Yes im a member of the "short Bus" social group
ridicule and kidding was a daily thing at school.
Not be selected to play games was the norm
(kinda sound s like rUeDOLF the red nose rein deer)
so there came anger mis management in which i took out on myself...by self infliceted body damage ...
as a child i did have cross dressing issues ,which in creased at the puberty level but was caught by family member.
It was treated as one did a bed weter by hanging the items out the window for those to see
So it did go on but really deep into the closet ..purging and purging went on be caause i though it was some thing
that when i be come a full man i would grow out off
Later on 1980s
on pass the vietnam era and making me a man issues of the government
ON the request of my mom i tried college ,but i was so far be hind in my reading level.
Plus my attenion span was still bad be cause i was having a time dealing with the lecture sessions of classes
Now hands on no problem .like forensic or police sciences . got As and Bs
now in my life has come another dissapoint ment to the family
45 years late in my life(2007)i went to therapy for my cross dressing and other mental issues.
2015 i am still in therapy. but now know the WHY's of my circumstances
As of right now the thought of me being transgender was uprisen to fact.
but there is a sub facture now we are working on that make my delemia even more complex than be fore
some thing called disassociated indenity diorder
so now what the family going to think
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