Strangers

• Posted by Wolfy E June 11, 2013 Filed in Society Girl's Personal Blogs #(Cold)(Lonely)(Worried)  1,148 views
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  It is not very often I come on to this site. I have  noticed for being one of the very few non chemically enhanced women on this site and having to deal with a love who changing even though there were things said to each other. I slowly stopped coming onto this site because no one really cares I have noticed this because I have posted a few blogs and rarely does any one message on them. It is sad that when some one is in pain that they are ignored because they are not like the rest of group.

   

  I joined this for Lorelie I joined this to have some one to speak to when I'm hurting and unable to speak to her. But its hard to stay strong when no one is there for me. I have been the strong one for many years for my family I can't do it any more. If it was not for Lorelie I would have died doing some thing I promised to her to never do again. There are days I come home and I'm ignored I feel that longing for metal to caress flesh it makes me want to let the blood flow from so long of being the one who holds every one up.

   

  As I write I feel that urge as tears stream down my face I can't help but want to either get scratched deep enough to let that pressure be released onto the floor. I won't be strong forever but the only one who will realise this is me...Maybe when it finally happens others will see my dead corpse  and ask why and my spirit will scream at them saying because I couldn't be strong forever.