first outing, in public!

• Posted by Stephie Hughes February 8, 2014 1,628 views
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  Hey girls, i have to share my day with you. it was such amazing fun.

   

  i had to work this morning, so woke up, and the usual humdrum of getting dressed, brekkie, cuppa tea, then emerging into the world as martin. nothing exciting happened at work, as per usual, just the slow slog of normality. 8am, 9am, 10am, 11am, yey one hour to go. finally 12 o'clock happened, week end time!!!

   

  i drive home, thinking as i went, hmm, what am i going to wear to today, what am i going to do?

  so i call my friend to see what he is up to, only to be greated by some one who sounds like the world is ending. Man flue!!!

  OK, so im on my own today. shower, shave, and then the ritual begins. i empty my drawers, and pull almost everything out of my wardrobe, hmm, cant decide.

  i decide on a pair of very fitting jeans, and a sexy blue top. and put my make up on. it was then i decided i was going to go out. its really stormy here, and there is no better place to be in a storm than right down by the sea (im just 200yards away from it hehe ),

  so, i put on my healed boots, and brush my wig, and im ready. i check my self in the mirror, yes, looking pretty good.

  then it dawns on me. no one here in my home town knows!! i live in a top floor flat, there are 5 other flats in my building, and 6 buildings in my row. its quite a walk to my car, nerves set in, so i sit back down and have a very berry tea.

  with out thinking, i just got up and left. walking to the car i passed about 10 people, not one funny look. id decided i was going to be looking for peoples reaction, i know sometimes paranoia can see things that arnt there, but at least i wont miss what is. but no, nothing. so far so good, may be just lucky, maybe people just wernt looking around much.

  got to the car, ****!! hardly ay fuel, nvm, theres a fuel station close by with card payment at the pumps, so wont have to talk to any one. so drive 3 miles only to find the storm has disrupted the systems, and its closed. this means talking to people. haha game time i decide.

  i manage to get to barnstaple, not very far only about 13 miles, and get to a filling station i use as martin quite a lot. i put some fuel in and walk into the shop. its very busy, but still no funny looks, i even have the door help open for me by a good looking man, he gave me a gorgeous smile as i walked past. ooo, i could get used to this

  then its my turn to be served. so i say to the lady pump 7, and 12.5gs of cutters choice. she looked extremely surprised, and looked at me questionally. i just smiled and said thank you. and left. no one else heard me talk only her, so again, no reaction from any one as i left.

  feeling really good and extremely happy, i drove to saunton and parked for a bit on the top of the cliff, and just sat, watching the sea, thinking.

   

  i carried on to croyde and decided to take a wander through the village, i was enjoying my new found freedom, and wanted to make the most of it. came into contact with a lot of people, no comunicating mind, just a smile and a whisper. i was so nice to just be normal, some one else walking down the road, not standing out, but blending in, looking normal. such a boost to my confidence.

   

  right now, i feel amazing, better than i think ive felt for so so long.

   

  i am off out again tomorrow, but im going with a good friend. shes not met Steph yet, not properly, so probably wont be doing it  again tomorrow, but today will stay with me, and will defo be doing it again next week end!! already, im so excited, i cant wait hehe. xx