Lucy in the sky

Yes, I'm feeling excited anticipation about Manchester, but there's more. After my first time out I added a post on the forum, Passing in Public - Passing is a Drug, as I was severely under the influence of that drug, or something very similar (not saying I passed though). The intoxication lasted for weeks, in fact never quite subsided, and now my next time out is drawing near I can feel the same high returning, like some sort of ongoing flashback. It's a natural high with no hangover and no adverse side-effects, and the big difference surely between this and any other drug is that this is something very real; something that really has improved your state of mind rather than just making you think so temporarily. In my case, it's a heightened state of consciousness, an increase in perception at least of myself, and a feeling of euphoria.

I think what all this means is, I'm happy. Was my life dull and miserable before all this? Well no not really, it had its moments, good and bad; I got by. But there was an underlying sadness that I was not altogether aware of. I was aware that I probably wasn't reaching my full potential in various ways, but mainly as far as my own peace of mind was concerned. Thing is though, then I had nothing to compare my life with and my feelings towards it; it was all on a level, only ever moving sideways.

Now I'm in ascent, like a star shining from within, illuminating the dimness of my former existence. I could have survived as I was, but I knew something needed to be improved. I had no idea how great that improvement would be, or that a few simple steps would effect it.

There may be a bit more polishing to do, but this diamond is sparkling