"We're gonna need a bigger boat"

So many eager sailors amongst us. This is good girls we all need to pull together. This thing is bigger than most people realise, there are lots of us out there, and I bet the majority of them are keeping their secret entirely to themselves. Took me over 30 years to tell anyone, and several more years before I came here and started being more, pro-active. I hate that word, one of my mangers in a previous job used to say it all the time, several times a day, cringe. Come to think of it he used to say we all need to pull together too, um, better watch those buzzwords, don't want to start sounding like him.

Actually I'm a bit frustrated today, I mean I really want to get sailing, feel the wind in my hair, but I've been tied to a desk all week. TFI Friday eh. How I'd love to just whizz off down to London tomorrow for tm night; it just feels like I ought to be there. Heart wrenching. It's not really logistically possible, let alone financially, but it's an opportunity to get out there into the real world and I'm missing it. It still feels like those opportunities are few and far between; I'm a bit out on a limb up here, when it comes to socialising with the girls. But it's not all gloom, as some of my sisters are prepared to travel north to meet up, which makes me feel all warm and glowy inside. Pippa is coming over next week for a girly night in, this is a first for me, not the girly night in of course - I've been doing those most nights for over 10 years, but this is the first time I will have anyone to share it with. I'm really looking forward to it. We can try each other's favourite dresses on, I'll cook something lovely for her and have a nice bottle of chilled chardonnay ready and generally make a fuss over her. In return she can paint my nails (she likes doing that & I love having it done), and just be there for girly chat. Oh, she can take some pics too, self-timers are so uninspiring. Her pics are more interesting than mine, hopefully she'll have some suggestions for sultry poses. So this weekend I must tidy the house; it’s all a bit of a mess, mainly due to being part-way through decorating. New shoes and jars of white spirit with dirty paintbrushes are not a good mix. And I must de-clutter the "dressing room" which is still in the same state as I described it in one of my early blogs, ie cluttered. Can’t let my dear sister see the house in this state – what will she think of me? So I’m feeling a bit like Cinderella in her rags today, lots of housework to do, and can’t go to the ball. Never mind, next week I will feel like a real princess.