Do you want chips with that…?

No fried brain will do thanks…

Having spent the best part of an hour on the phone to my dad last night I did indeed feel like my brain was fried. I tried to send a couple of emails shortly afterwards which I’d normally whiz off in a few minutes, but found I was having real difficulty forming sentences. One can only do so much outpouring of emotions.

My dad hadn’t received the email I’d sent him the other week, but had rung my brother who somehow mentioned my "news". Reluctantly the news was dragged out of him, and I can’t blame him for that, in fact Dad told me what he’d said to extract said news and I would have done the same. Anyway big brother must have broken it reasonably gently, and didn’t give him all the details so there was still a lot for us to discuss. Before we spoke properly, I had finally succeeded in emailing the very long letter I had written, explaining things as best I could, with plenty more surprises in store. Dad was obviously shocked, a bit upset and is clearly not convinced this is a good idea. Yet.

Of course it’s only right that he should voice his concerns, and I would expect that, but I think he will continue to be my harshest critic for quite some time. Perhaps he always has been, is that what dads are for? Anyway, I don’t mind that, I can take criticism, in fact even if it’s not intended to be constructive I always try to view it that way. How else are you going to learn about yourself, or realise improvements? He’s a realist, so am I actually, but he doesn’t quite realise that. Hang on…

I know it will take some time to convince him all this is right for me, but I will never give up that fight. I’ve had to fight for a lot of things, and there is a lot more aggro in store, but there’s no way I can ever give in and go back to attempting to conform with society’s idea of normal.

So, a lot was said, and I shan’t go into details, my brain is still in the cooler, recovering. The main thing is, he is still talking, and seems to want to discuss things, which is positive. It could certainly have been a lot worse.