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  • Diamond on gold again Cerys you’re a cynic. Had my card not been due for renewal I would have been suspicious… Shan, yes I had contacted Katie to inform her of this strange occurrence, and she responded quickly, efficiently and courteously by reinstating my gold membership. Unlike PayPal who res...
  • No pals of mine I’m a little bit peeved today so I’m going to have a whinge, I don’t do it very often do I? This morning I got an email from PayPal saying that my credit card was due to expire so I should update my details or terrible things might happen. Conscientious and law-abiding citizen that...
  • What you waitin’ for? So asketh Gwen Stefani, love that song. 2005 feels much the same as 2004 so far, give or take a digit, and my life seems much the same, but one should never expect miracles… As I mentioned, me, Pippa and Cerys met up at the village just after I got back from my family Chri...
  • New year, new computer, new life My computer has been on the blink since I last posted, just didn't want to start up. Got on briefly once or twice but it just froze up again. So today I bought a new computer, not too expensive,as far as computers go, but better than the last one I hope. It see...
  • Back in the pink I’ve been putting on the performance of male gender role for the last 5 days having spent Christmas with my family, although after a few glasses of wine I’m sure my performance slipped at times, and I became just that little bit more Lucy. So it was nice to get back home and put o...
  • Change of image Went for a haircut last night, how unexciting you all groan, well it was quite, as it was the first time I’ve had it done whilst dressed. My friends had said I could dress if I wanted, last time I went, but I didn’t, as I didn’t want to scare them too soon. They’d invited me and A...
  • A girl’s best friends A quick update on the week’s events, as far as I can remember them. After the formal dinner last week I had dinner on Sunday with my mum, brother and his girlfriend. I felt much more natural, more like myself, having decided that I wouldn’t try to be in bloke mode, though al...
  • Listen to your heart It’s surprising how simple things can be emotionally draining. I wonder if these things are actually affecting me more than they used to or if I’m just becoming more aware of them and the effect they have on me. I can see why people get screwed up without realising it. I’ve alw...
  • A design for life Pippa’s beaten me to it with her blog about the weekend’s events, so that will save me (or you) from some waffling, as is my wont. I must add though that for me it was one of the loveliest weekends ever. Pip and I had the best night in, cosy and romantic, and just very lovely, and...
  • Follow your heart Well I’m quite exhausted. On Wednesday I went to see one of the people who has recently found out my secret, in fact he’d invited me to dinner, so I put him straight on a few points and did my best to explain where I and others like me were coming from. He seemed genuinely interes...
  • Must we hurt others to stop ourselves hurting? The comments on my last blog, inspired me to write this one, I may comment on those comments either in order or at random, I don’t know, I make this stuff up as I go along. Situations can be a puzzle, sometimes we just know, sometimes we don’t and have...
  • Aftermath Maybe that stage hasn’t yet been reached, or maybe this is the start of a long process, which may go on for the rest of my life. Who knows what the repercussions of people in my home town finding out I’m transsexual will be… I’ve spoken to one of the people that has heard the rumour, some...