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  • 31 Mar 2009
    Until now, i never realised a poem had been written about me. Dont laugh but i do read it from time to time & especially the works of Robert Burns and i found this one which kinda made me smile...." The Gowden Locks Of Anna    Yestreen I had a pint o' wine,    A place where body saw na;    Yestreen lay on this breast o' mine    The gowden locks of Anna.    The hungry Jew in wilderness,    Rejoicing o'er his manna,    Was naething to my hinny bliss    Upon the lips of Anna.    Ye monarchs, take the East and West    Frae Indus to Savannah;    Gie me, within my straining grasp,    The melting form of Anna:    There I'll despise Imperial charms,    An Empress or Sultana,    While dying raptures in her arms    I give and take wi' Anna!    Awa, thou flaunting God of Day!    Awa, thou pale Diana!    Ilk Star, gae hide thy twinkling ray,    When I'm to meet my Anna!    Come, in thy raven plumage, Night,    (Sun, Moon, and Stars, withdrawn a';)    And bring an angel-pen to write    My transports with my Anna!    The Kirk an' State may join an' tell,    To do sic things I maunna:    The Kirk an' State may gae to hell,    And I'll gae to my Anna.    She is the sunshine o' my e'e,    To live but her I canna;    Had I on earth but wishes three,    The first should be my Anna." Lol xxxxxxx
    1729 Posted by Anna-Marie Trindall
  • Until now, i never realised a poem had been written about me. Dont laugh but i do read it from time to time & especially the works of Robert Burns and i found this one which kinda made me smile...." The Gowden Locks Of Anna    Yestreen I had a pint o' wine,    A place where body saw na;    Yestreen lay on this breast o' mine    The gowden locks of Anna.    The hungry Jew in wilderness,    Rejoicing o'er his manna,    Was naething to my hinny bliss    Upon the lips of Anna.    Ye monarchs, take the East and West    Frae Indus to Savannah;    Gie me, within my straining grasp,    The melting form of Anna:    There I'll despise Imperial charms,    An Empress or Sultana,    While dying raptures in her arms    I give and take wi' Anna!    Awa, thou flaunting God of Day!    Awa, thou pale Diana!    Ilk Star, gae hide thy twinkling ray,    When I'm to meet my Anna!    Come, in thy raven plumage, Night,    (Sun, Moon, and Stars, withdrawn a';)    And bring an angel-pen to write    My transports with my Anna!    The Kirk an' State may join an' tell,    To do sic things I maunna:    The Kirk an' State may gae to hell,    And I'll gae to my Anna.    She is the sunshine o' my e'e,    To live but her I canna;    Had I on earth but wishes three,    The first should be my Anna." Lol xxxxxxx
    Mar 31, 2009 1729
  • 08 Nov 2008
    OMG.....is it really that long since i blogged? Well, its not been too bad a period for me. On Tuesday, i had an appointment over at the Norwich GIC ( Gender Identity Clinic) with Dr Ted Olive, who i last saw here in Lowestoft back in April of 2006. This time he was accompanied by Barbara Ross who i'd never met before & got on very well with. I certainly gained a lot out of it & knowin that there IS somewhere closer to home is a great help to me, because its hard being stuck out here. But, in just under 4wks time i'm gonna be one very happy girl because my Charllet's coming to stay for a week & just before xmas too. I haven't seen her since mid-july & have missed her so much it hurts. Getting to see her so close to christmas is truly going to be the bestest prezzie EVER!!. There's been some news that everyone in town has been talking about. It even made the local and National news too. Last thursdsay a man was arrested at the train station & it turns out A) he was very drunk & B) he was ONLY carrying two improvised explosive devices ( Bombs) with him as well as certain literature too. He went before the magistrates here who BAILED him, despite him carrying all that stuff with him. I just thank god the MET re-arrested him immediately & he's now in custody facing major Charges relating to terrorism.  I Honestly never thought i'd see that kind of thing here, & thinking what could have happened had he not been caught....well it just doesnt bear thinking about does it?.
    13040 Posted by Anna-Marie Trindall
  • OMG.....is it really that long since i blogged? Well, its not been too bad a period for me. On Tuesday, i had an appointment over at the Norwich GIC ( Gender Identity Clinic) with Dr Ted Olive, who i last saw here in Lowestoft back in April of 2006. This time he was accompanied by Barbara Ross who i'd never met before & got on very well with. I certainly gained a lot out of it & knowin that there IS somewhere closer to home is a great help to me, because its hard being stuck out here. But, in just under 4wks time i'm gonna be one very happy girl because my Charllet's coming to stay for a week & just before xmas too. I haven't seen her since mid-july & have missed her so much it hurts. Getting to see her so close to christmas is truly going to be the bestest prezzie EVER!!. There's been some news that everyone in town has been talking about. It even made the local and National news too. Last thursdsay a man was arrested at the train station & it turns out A) he was very drunk & B) he was ONLY carrying two improvised explosive devices ( Bombs) with him as well as certain literature too. He went before the magistrates here who BAILED him, despite him carrying all that stuff with him. I just thank god the MET re-arrested him immediately & he's now in custody facing major Charges relating to terrorism.  I Honestly never thought i'd see that kind of thing here, & thinking what could have happened had he not been caught....well it just doesnt bear thinking about does it?.
    Nov 08, 2008 13040
  • 15 Oct 2008
    Had some news today that cheered me up in more ways than one. Months ago, i'd written to Dr Ted Olive, the Psych i saw when he was last practicing in Lowestoft back in July of 2006. I wrote to ask if he was accepting any new patients & if so, would it be possible for me to see him. Getting down to Charing Cross has become very expensive for me so i've been looking into somewhere closer to home which is why i contacted Dr Olive on the off chance he could see me. To be honest i'd forgotten about it when a letter arrived in the post for me this morning. It was indeed a letter from Dr Olive, apologising for not replying to my letter sooner....& offering me an Appointment to see  both him & Barbara Ross ( Gender Counsellor) in 3 wks time!This will make a lot of difference to me cost-wise because getting down to Ch X is costing me upwards of £140 just for a 30 min appt. Now it'll cost roughly half that ( Inc Travel there & back) & thats going to save me a fair bit of money. So as you can imagine i'm feeling pretty pleased with myself
    2059 Posted by Anna-Marie Trindall
  • Had some news today that cheered me up in more ways than one. Months ago, i'd written to Dr Ted Olive, the Psych i saw when he was last practicing in Lowestoft back in July of 2006. I wrote to ask if he was accepting any new patients & if so, would it be possible for me to see him. Getting down to Charing Cross has become very expensive for me so i've been looking into somewhere closer to home which is why i contacted Dr Olive on the off chance he could see me. To be honest i'd forgotten about it when a letter arrived in the post for me this morning. It was indeed a letter from Dr Olive, apologising for not replying to my letter sooner....& offering me an Appointment to see  both him & Barbara Ross ( Gender Counsellor) in 3 wks time!This will make a lot of difference to me cost-wise because getting down to Ch X is costing me upwards of £140 just for a 30 min appt. Now it'll cost roughly half that ( Inc Travel there & back) & thats going to save me a fair bit of money. So as you can imagine i'm feeling pretty pleased with myself
    Oct 15, 2008 2059
  • 14 Oct 2008
    Its not been the best of times for me, what with recent events. Coupled with that is the fact i haven't seen charllet since July.Since then, she's moved into her new home in Kilmarnock & settling in well. But last week, i got the news i'd been longing for....in just under 2 months she'll be back with me again & i just can't wait cos july seems like ages ago since i saw her last. Best thing for me will be getting to see her before christmas which will be the bestest prezzie ever!!. It also means i can give her her card & prezzie without having to rely on the post, which i'm still p*ssed off with cos i sent her a BD card in september in time for her BD only she never got it!!...Still, in 7/8 weeks i'll once again be a very happy girl indeed.
    1294 Posted by Anna-Marie Trindall
  • Its not been the best of times for me, what with recent events. Coupled with that is the fact i haven't seen charllet since July.Since then, she's moved into her new home in Kilmarnock & settling in well. But last week, i got the news i'd been longing for....in just under 2 months she'll be back with me again & i just can't wait cos july seems like ages ago since i saw her last. Best thing for me will be getting to see her before christmas which will be the bestest prezzie ever!!. It also means i can give her her card & prezzie without having to rely on the post, which i'm still p*ssed off with cos i sent her a BD card in september in time for her BD only she never got it!!...Still, in 7/8 weeks i'll once again be a very happy girl indeed.
    Oct 14, 2008 1294
  • 03 Oct 2008
    I must admit to being a tad nervous with todays events but i need not have been because things couldn't have gone any better.......actually yes they could have because the weather was truly awful. Not really the weather for burying someone but what can you do. Waiting for things to get going, i was completely knocked for six when one of my uncles came up and shook me by the hand. He then gave me a figurine which was a great favorite of my grandads & its now in a prominent position on one of my units. Bear in mind this was the uncle who had previously been quite tactless in what he'd been saying.Stood at the graveside while the urn was lowered in & then i laid the flowers i had brought with me ( 2 white roses, 1 for each as it waa a joint grave with my nan ). I must say that i was made to feel very welcome & not once did i feel uncomfortable....which was good because this was the first time that ALL my dad's brothers & wives had seen me in the flesh, & it feels like they've understood who i am although i think it'll be a while before i'm fully accepted. Today was just the start in getting them to at least talk to me so they can kinda understand my feelings so things really only can get BETTER!!
    1120 Posted by Anna-Marie Trindall
  • I must admit to being a tad nervous with todays events but i need not have been because things couldn't have gone any better.......actually yes they could have because the weather was truly awful. Not really the weather for burying someone but what can you do. Waiting for things to get going, i was completely knocked for six when one of my uncles came up and shook me by the hand. He then gave me a figurine which was a great favorite of my grandads & its now in a prominent position on one of my units. Bear in mind this was the uncle who had previously been quite tactless in what he'd been saying.Stood at the graveside while the urn was lowered in & then i laid the flowers i had brought with me ( 2 white roses, 1 for each as it waa a joint grave with my nan ). I must say that i was made to feel very welcome & not once did i feel uncomfortable....which was good because this was the first time that ALL my dad's brothers & wives had seen me in the flesh, & it feels like they've understood who i am although i think it'll be a while before i'm fully accepted. Today was just the start in getting them to at least talk to me so they can kinda understand my feelings so things really only can get BETTER!!
    Oct 03, 2008 1120
  • 02 Oct 2008
    Tomorrow is going to be a very interesting day to say the least & i'm not sure how its going to go, because  we're FINALLY  getting round to burying my grandad. Its taken this long because the gravestone's had to be altered because its a joint plot( My Nan's buried there too) & the hole dug for the urn containing the ashes. I mean, how long can it take to dig a hole 18 inches square & 18n inches deep ffs!. This will be the very first time ANY of my Dad's Brothers & their wives will have seen me & i'm not sure how it will go because one of my dad's brothers is a bit of a hypocrite . One the one hand he says he has no problem with me....BUT on the other hand he says  if i turn up to any family thing as me then he'd be pretty peed off.Well tomorrow i'll be there & if he doesn't like it then tough on him, because i missed out before & i'm not missing out again. I've not forgiven them for leaving me out of the piece that went in the localpaper about the funeral......the ONLY member of the whole famliy that was'nt included & i tell you that really did hurt & i let them know in no uncertain terms   My Dad's said that come hell or high water i will be there to pay my respects. I'm attending the internernment,  NOT for the family but for my mum and dad who've backed me all the way in my decision to go.If they( family) dont like it then its they who have the problem & not me because i'm comfortable with who i am. I would be lying if i said i wasn't a wee bit nervous butn we'll just have to see how things go won't we?  
    1107 Posted by Anna-Marie Trindall
  • Tomorrow is going to be a very interesting day to say the least & i'm not sure how its going to go, because  we're FINALLY  getting round to burying my grandad. Its taken this long because the gravestone's had to be altered because its a joint plot( My Nan's buried there too) & the hole dug for the urn containing the ashes. I mean, how long can it take to dig a hole 18 inches square & 18n inches deep ffs!. This will be the very first time ANY of my Dad's Brothers & their wives will have seen me & i'm not sure how it will go because one of my dad's brothers is a bit of a hypocrite . One the one hand he says he has no problem with me....BUT on the other hand he says  if i turn up to any family thing as me then he'd be pretty peed off.Well tomorrow i'll be there & if he doesn't like it then tough on him, because i missed out before & i'm not missing out again. I've not forgiven them for leaving me out of the piece that went in the localpaper about the funeral......the ONLY member of the whole famliy that was'nt included & i tell you that really did hurt & i let them know in no uncertain terms   My Dad's said that come hell or high water i will be there to pay my respects. I'm attending the internernment,  NOT for the family but for my mum and dad who've backed me all the way in my decision to go.If they( family) dont like it then its they who have the problem & not me because i'm comfortable with who i am. I would be lying if i said i wasn't a wee bit nervous butn we'll just have to see how things go won't we?  
    Oct 02, 2008 1107
  • 12 Sep 2008
    I 'm still a wee bit sad that i Couldn't go to the funeral today, but my mum came round earlier this evening & she was telling me how things went.Apparently everything went fine, service was a nice one by all accounts There were quite a lot of people there which didn't really surprise me, but what DID surprise me was the  fact that so many peeps  were asking why i wasn't there. When my Mum told them the reasons behind it & why i wasn't there, they were genuinely appalled!!. They all said that i had every right to be there.It seems that my fears about people's attitudes towards me were totally unfounded which kind of surprised me , given a lot of the cr@p i've faced in the last few months.  One good thing to come out of all this is that my Cousin is getting married real soon & she told my mum to tell me that she'd like me to be there( good job she didnt ask me to be a bridesmaid...lol). Not just for the reception but the church service too, which i thought was nice of her to say. This one thing has proved to me that people's attitude, in particular  the wider family, have changed for the better. . However, i do still have one little problem.....what DO i wear to the wedding cos i have NOTHING to wear......hehehe 
    1078 Posted by Anna-Marie Trindall
  • I 'm still a wee bit sad that i Couldn't go to the funeral today, but my mum came round earlier this evening & she was telling me how things went.Apparently everything went fine, service was a nice one by all accounts There were quite a lot of people there which didn't really surprise me, but what DID surprise me was the  fact that so many peeps  were asking why i wasn't there. When my Mum told them the reasons behind it & why i wasn't there, they were genuinely appalled!!. They all said that i had every right to be there.It seems that my fears about people's attitudes towards me were totally unfounded which kind of surprised me , given a lot of the cr@p i've faced in the last few months.  One good thing to come out of all this is that my Cousin is getting married real soon & she told my mum to tell me that she'd like me to be there( good job she didnt ask me to be a bridesmaid...lol). Not just for the reception but the church service too, which i thought was nice of her to say. This one thing has proved to me that people's attitude, in particular  the wider family, have changed for the better. . However, i do still have one little problem.....what DO i wear to the wedding cos i have NOTHING to wear......hehehe 
    Sep 12, 2008 1078
  • 12 Sep 2008
    Today's not going to be the best day for me as my grandad's being buried today & i should be there but i won't be . its not because i dont want to be there, its just it'd be awkwad to say the least. You see, my immediate family know about me & they are totally fine with me......its the rest that are the problem.  The whole family will be there bar one......ME & that really hurts because it feels like i dont matter ( i know thats not the case, but its how i feel). My Grandad's relatives are of that age where this " kind" of thing wasn't talked about & the worry is that they might well be unpleasant towards me.  My Dad's gonna be under enough pressure because he's helping to carry the coffin & he's worried because he won't be able to keep an eye on me if things happpen.So, reluctantly i have decided not to go......i hope i NEVER have to make a choice like that again because i am his eldest grandchild & should be there, but because of what "Might" happen & what " Might be said" i am having to miss it. Believe me, that really does hurt  but what can i do under the cirumstances? I know that i will eventually get to pay my respects in my own way which i'm going to do, But it won't be the same as actually being there at the service today & that really is very sad..........
    1135 Posted by Anna-Marie Trindall
  • Today's not going to be the best day for me as my grandad's being buried today & i should be there but i won't be . its not because i dont want to be there, its just it'd be awkwad to say the least. You see, my immediate family know about me & they are totally fine with me......its the rest that are the problem.  The whole family will be there bar one......ME & that really hurts because it feels like i dont matter ( i know thats not the case, but its how i feel). My Grandad's relatives are of that age where this " kind" of thing wasn't talked about & the worry is that they might well be unpleasant towards me.  My Dad's gonna be under enough pressure because he's helping to carry the coffin & he's worried because he won't be able to keep an eye on me if things happpen.So, reluctantly i have decided not to go......i hope i NEVER have to make a choice like that again because i am his eldest grandchild & should be there, but because of what "Might" happen & what " Might be said" i am having to miss it. Believe me, that really does hurt  but what can i do under the cirumstances? I know that i will eventually get to pay my respects in my own way which i'm going to do, But it won't be the same as actually being there at the service today & that really is very sad..........
    Sep 12, 2008 1135
  • 02 Sep 2008
    Those of you who've read one of my previous blog posts will know, that at the end of july i had trouble with a local hotel who kicked up a stink about me using the ladies loos there. I had recently written to them to complain about the blatant discriminationory way they had treated me. I'd not heard anythin for over 2 weeks, when a letter from them dropped onto my doormat. There's me thinkin it would be an apology for what happened......it was anything BUT!!some of the things this "person" had said just made me so angry.." However in my ignorance, a male irrespective of his beliefs, using the ladies toilets without consent isdeemed to be improper Conduct and i'm lead to believe it Could have potentially legal consequences in an era of concerns about paedophilia, you will accept  my reluctance in allowing you to do so"So what the SOB is sayin, not in so many words, is that he thinks i'm some kind of Paedo!!. He's also trying to say that because he didn't use the " correct vocabuulary", i was using it to my advantage. He also reckons that I should be the 1 apologising to HIM!!...yeah right.I've left the best bit til last......" I sincerely hope that you come to terms with your actions and finally realise that these events have not just affected you, but also parents, young children, me & the staff as well as the security"Thats typical of someone who wasn't even BORN here.He wasn't the one who was humiliated in public by being thrown out of the hotel & having his " hair" go flying..I WAS!. I was gonna take it further, but quite frankly this piece of s&%t isnt worth worrying about. However, there is one thing i am going to do & thats contact The Elizabeth hotels group, based in Ipswich. I'm gonna tell them all about this Managers behaviour which was blatant discrimination. I Bet they'd love to hear about that & if it gets this guy the sack then so be it. At least then, hopefully no-one else will have to go through what i had to.
    1166 Posted by Anna-Marie Trindall
  • Those of you who've read one of my previous blog posts will know, that at the end of july i had trouble with a local hotel who kicked up a stink about me using the ladies loos there. I had recently written to them to complain about the blatant discriminationory way they had treated me. I'd not heard anythin for over 2 weeks, when a letter from them dropped onto my doormat. There's me thinkin it would be an apology for what happened......it was anything BUT!!some of the things this "person" had said just made me so angry.." However in my ignorance, a male irrespective of his beliefs, using the ladies toilets without consent isdeemed to be improper Conduct and i'm lead to believe it Could have potentially legal consequences in an era of concerns about paedophilia, you will accept  my reluctance in allowing you to do so"So what the SOB is sayin, not in so many words, is that he thinks i'm some kind of Paedo!!. He's also trying to say that because he didn't use the " correct vocabuulary", i was using it to my advantage. He also reckons that I should be the 1 apologising to HIM!!...yeah right.I've left the best bit til last......" I sincerely hope that you come to terms with your actions and finally realise that these events have not just affected you, but also parents, young children, me & the staff as well as the security"Thats typical of someone who wasn't even BORN here.He wasn't the one who was humiliated in public by being thrown out of the hotel & having his " hair" go flying..I WAS!. I was gonna take it further, but quite frankly this piece of s&%t isnt worth worrying about. However, there is one thing i am going to do & thats contact The Elizabeth hotels group, based in Ipswich. I'm gonna tell them all about this Managers behaviour which was blatant discrimination. I Bet they'd love to hear about that & if it gets this guy the sack then so be it. At least then, hopefully no-one else will have to go through what i had to.
    Sep 02, 2008 1166
  • 28 Aug 2008
    Today has'nt been one of the best days for me. For weeks now, my grandfather has not been well at all & his GP gave him only 2 weeks to live. This morning i got the sad news that he'd passed away in his sleep this morning, fortunately my mum and dad were with him at the time which was good. It wasn't unexpected, but still a shock to hear about it. I'll not be going to the funeral ( not because i don't want to) but because it'll ease the pressure on my dad, because on the day he will help to carry the coffin into the church. But at least i will still get to pay my respects in my own way which i guess is better than not being able to. The next few days are gonna be tough for everyone, but if we all pull together then we'll get through it ok, & if i'm not myself then you'll all know why. 
    1112 Posted by Anna-Marie Trindall
  • Today has'nt been one of the best days for me. For weeks now, my grandfather has not been well at all & his GP gave him only 2 weeks to live. This morning i got the sad news that he'd passed away in his sleep this morning, fortunately my mum and dad were with him at the time which was good. It wasn't unexpected, but still a shock to hear about it. I'll not be going to the funeral ( not because i don't want to) but because it'll ease the pressure on my dad, because on the day he will help to carry the coffin into the church. But at least i will still get to pay my respects in my own way which i guess is better than not being able to. The next few days are gonna be tough for everyone, but if we all pull together then we'll get through it ok, & if i'm not myself then you'll all know why. 
    Aug 28, 2008 1112