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  • 11 Aug 2007
    For my first week in my new job, things went very well i must admit.Come monday morning there were a few nerves,but only to be expected what with me bein out of work for over 3 years. The people i work with are really nice & haven't treated me any differently to anyone else there. The work itself is quite easy really & every day this week has given me something different to do which is good. I do have a lot of data input to do so i've been given my own desk, Laptop, Printer & the like.....you could call it my own little office. The best bit is i got no-one watchin over my shoulder, i'm just left to get on with things which is just how i like it. Now i know this job's only for a short few month & there's no gaurantee that there'll be a permanent job at the end of my time but i'm gonna work my socks off so that they got no choice BUT to offer me F/T work. If i'm not lucky, i know i will get a damn good reference from them should i go after another job.Just to be treated & accepted as the same as everyone else & showing them that i can do the job as well as anybody else just makes me so proud of who i am & just how far i've come since going F/T in Jan of 2005." There aint NO stoppin this girl now"
    680 Posted by Anna-Marie Trindall
  • For my first week in my new job, things went very well i must admit.Come monday morning there were a few nerves,but only to be expected what with me bein out of work for over 3 years. The people i work with are really nice & haven't treated me any differently to anyone else there. The work itself is quite easy really & every day this week has given me something different to do which is good. I do have a lot of data input to do so i've been given my own desk, Laptop, Printer & the like.....you could call it my own little office. The best bit is i got no-one watchin over my shoulder, i'm just left to get on with things which is just how i like it. Now i know this job's only for a short few month & there's no gaurantee that there'll be a permanent job at the end of my time but i'm gonna work my socks off so that they got no choice BUT to offer me F/T work. If i'm not lucky, i know i will get a damn good reference from them should i go after another job.Just to be treated & accepted as the same as everyone else & showing them that i can do the job as well as anybody else just makes me so proud of who i am & just how far i've come since going F/T in Jan of 2005." There aint NO stoppin this girl now"
    Aug 11, 2007 680
  • 30 Jul 2007
    since late 2003 i've been out of work & i can tell you it has NOT been fun. I've lost count of the 100's of jobs i've been after only to get constantly knocked back for every one.Some of them did not even have the common decency to reply back....hell it dont take long to write a letter. BUT it looks like my luck's changing & for the better too, for the 1st time since i went F/T back in 2005. Last week i started a 3 month course to help me get back into proper work & its progressing very well. Part of the course involves actually going out to work for 3 months to see how you cope. Today,i went to such a place for an interview before starting. The Job i've gone for is mainly a clerical/secretarial one with a lot of computer work thrown in.Imagine me as a receptionist eh.....who'd have thought it hehehe. The peeps have told me there's no guarantee of a full-time job at the end of it so i'm planning on working my butt off so they have no option BUT to employ me full time. The thing i have missed most about not having work has been being able to get out.....like to the TW girls nights out, getting out for an evening here at home...& most importantly.."SHOPPING"..lol. But that may all be about to change & tis about time. "Nothing Ventured,nothing gained eh?....well summat like that!
    790 Posted by Anna-Marie Trindall
  • since late 2003 i've been out of work & i can tell you it has NOT been fun. I've lost count of the 100's of jobs i've been after only to get constantly knocked back for every one.Some of them did not even have the common decency to reply back....hell it dont take long to write a letter. BUT it looks like my luck's changing & for the better too, for the 1st time since i went F/T back in 2005. Last week i started a 3 month course to help me get back into proper work & its progressing very well. Part of the course involves actually going out to work for 3 months to see how you cope. Today,i went to such a place for an interview before starting. The Job i've gone for is mainly a clerical/secretarial one with a lot of computer work thrown in.Imagine me as a receptionist eh.....who'd have thought it hehehe. The peeps have told me there's no guarantee of a full-time job at the end of it so i'm planning on working my butt off so they have no option BUT to employ me full time. The thing i have missed most about not having work has been being able to get out.....like to the TW girls nights out, getting out for an evening here at home...& most importantly.."SHOPPING"..lol. But that may all be about to change & tis about time. "Nothing Ventured,nothing gained eh?....well summat like that!
    Jul 30, 2007 790
  • 29 Jun 2007
    Well, i guess it had to come to an end sooner or later. I've just spent the bestest week i have EVER had with charllet. Last Weekendi waited for her train to arrive at Manchester Piccadilly & i have to say the nerves were gettin to me big-time as i'd not seen her since my BD bash in Mid Feb but i could have cried when i saw her appear from amongst the crowds of people. Sparkle was a great time for both of us cos we met loads of girls from TW inc some we'd never met in person before,although it seemed like one person really didn't want to talk but i was not gonna let THAT spoil things. The Journey back from Mancs was a nightmare cos every thing that could go wrong DID go wrong, as didnt get back home til gone 10:30. The rest of the week has been just great in more ways than one, as we've enjoyed each other's company more than ever before. I am NOT looking forward to tomorrow( sat) one bit cos i know what i'll be like when that train pulls away....in floods of tears, but then thats just me...soft & romantic at heart where my charllet's concerned. This week's just gone so bl**dy fast & i wanted it to last forever, but it's just one of those things. I know deep down in my heart that before long she'll be back where i know she's happiest & thats here with me. I'd give anything to have her here with me permanently....but a girl can dream can't she?
    685 Posted by Anna-Marie Trindall
  • Well, i guess it had to come to an end sooner or later. I've just spent the bestest week i have EVER had with charllet. Last Weekendi waited for her train to arrive at Manchester Piccadilly & i have to say the nerves were gettin to me big-time as i'd not seen her since my BD bash in Mid Feb but i could have cried when i saw her appear from amongst the crowds of people. Sparkle was a great time for both of us cos we met loads of girls from TW inc some we'd never met in person before,although it seemed like one person really didn't want to talk but i was not gonna let THAT spoil things. The Journey back from Mancs was a nightmare cos every thing that could go wrong DID go wrong, as didnt get back home til gone 10:30. The rest of the week has been just great in more ways than one, as we've enjoyed each other's company more than ever before. I am NOT looking forward to tomorrow( sat) one bit cos i know what i'll be like when that train pulls away....in floods of tears, but then thats just me...soft & romantic at heart where my charllet's concerned. This week's just gone so bl**dy fast & i wanted it to last forever, but it's just one of those things. I know deep down in my heart that before long she'll be back where i know she's happiest & thats here with me. I'd give anything to have her here with me permanently....but a girl can dream can't she?
    Jun 29, 2007 685
  • 16 Jun 2007
    I've Had to give up on my idea of becoming a counsellor specialising in TG issues but it's not for the lack of effort on my part, its just that there's no funding available to help get me started. I recieved a letter this morning from the head of the local PCT...only took him 4 weeks to reply. In it he says thanks for my enquiry, outlining my views about the support needed for peeps with TG issues. He goes on to say that " we have no additional funding available either within the NHS or other agencies". According to them,any of the counsellors they employ need to have full BACP Accreditation ( whatever that is). Now i got no chance of getting that if there's no funding available. Part of me feels that i've failed in getting the help/support the local TG community badly need in this area & to be honest i do feel rather sad that i've not achieved what i set out to.But i've given it my best shot & 100% effort,unforunately it just was not to be this time which is a shame but its just one of those things i guess.Oh well......C'est La vie ( or summat like that)
    726 Posted by Anna-Marie Trindall
  • I've Had to give up on my idea of becoming a counsellor specialising in TG issues but it's not for the lack of effort on my part, its just that there's no funding available to help get me started. I recieved a letter this morning from the head of the local PCT...only took him 4 weeks to reply. In it he says thanks for my enquiry, outlining my views about the support needed for peeps with TG issues. He goes on to say that " we have no additional funding available either within the NHS or other agencies". According to them,any of the counsellors they employ need to have full BACP Accreditation ( whatever that is). Now i got no chance of getting that if there's no funding available. Part of me feels that i've failed in getting the help/support the local TG community badly need in this area & to be honest i do feel rather sad that i've not achieved what i set out to.But i've given it my best shot & 100% effort,unforunately it just was not to be this time which is a shame but its just one of those things i guess.Oh well......C'est La vie ( or summat like that)
    Jun 16, 2007 726
  • 23 May 2007
    Well what can i say about tuesday other than it was a success from start to finish & i've never felt as good in a long time. I left home on the 06:40 train from lowestoft & arrived into London Liverpool streetaround 09:25. I grabbed the nearest taxi to get me across london to the clinic & it cost a bl**dy fortune but i got there in time for my 10:30 appt with Dr Lenihan. Every thnig i'd been told about her was true as she was really nice & put me right at ease. She even had another psych person sitting in with us & it didn't bother me in the slightest. Dr Lenihan went through all kinds of things with me...explaining certain procedures. The Upshot of things is that she's going to write a letter of endorsement which means i'll have no probs getting HRT & speech therapy on the NHS which is good. I must say that throughout my time there, i was treated with respect & dignity....made me feel good too. The Receptionist called for a cab to get me back to liverpool street in time to catch my train home. Goin Back,we passed a few of the major sights....london eye,chelsea flower show, Big Ben & Houses of parliament....good or what? Eventually got back to station around 12.15, which gave me time to get something to eat & drink. I sat in "The Wren"& had a drink or two cos i deserved it.....a rather cute barman served me too.I got the 13:38 train back home & everything was going well until we hit Ipswich when the damned train broke down & we were sat ages waitn for them to repair it which they did & was soon on our way again, eventually getting back into Lowestoft around 4.40 pm & only a few mins late too.I must say i felt knackered after the trip, but also elated too with knowin that very soon i'll get to start my treatments. The 4am start did'nt help....but c'est la vie. I called the most important girl in my life ( CHARLLET) and filled her in on how things went cos she'd been thinking about me all day. When i eventually DO start them, i been told it'll be either estradiol or the other one finasteride but i'm not 100% on that last one.Going down,i wasn't sure how things would pan out & i was a wee bit nervous but coming back i was a totally different girl in so much that i was just SO happy & for obvious reasons too . Things are now progressing in a way i never thought possible & that makes me one VERY happy girl indeed 
    649 Posted by Anna-Marie Trindall
  • Well what can i say about tuesday other than it was a success from start to finish & i've never felt as good in a long time. I left home on the 06:40 train from lowestoft & arrived into London Liverpool streetaround 09:25. I grabbed the nearest taxi to get me across london to the clinic & it cost a bl**dy fortune but i got there in time for my 10:30 appt with Dr Lenihan. Every thnig i'd been told about her was true as she was really nice & put me right at ease. She even had another psych person sitting in with us & it didn't bother me in the slightest. Dr Lenihan went through all kinds of things with me...explaining certain procedures. The Upshot of things is that she's going to write a letter of endorsement which means i'll have no probs getting HRT & speech therapy on the NHS which is good. I must say that throughout my time there, i was treated with respect & dignity....made me feel good too. The Receptionist called for a cab to get me back to liverpool street in time to catch my train home. Goin Back,we passed a few of the major sights....london eye,chelsea flower show, Big Ben & Houses of parliament....good or what? Eventually got back to station around 12.15, which gave me time to get something to eat & drink. I sat in "The Wren"& had a drink or two cos i deserved it.....a rather cute barman served me too.I got the 13:38 train back home & everything was going well until we hit Ipswich when the damned train broke down & we were sat ages waitn for them to repair it which they did & was soon on our way again, eventually getting back into Lowestoft around 4.40 pm & only a few mins late too.I must say i felt knackered after the trip, but also elated too with knowin that very soon i'll get to start my treatments. The 4am start did'nt help....but c'est la vie. I called the most important girl in my life ( CHARLLET) and filled her in on how things went cos she'd been thinking about me all day. When i eventually DO start them, i been told it'll be either estradiol or the other one finasteride but i'm not 100% on that last one.Going down,i wasn't sure how things would pan out & i was a wee bit nervous but coming back i was a totally different girl in so much that i was just SO happy & for obvious reasons too . Things are now progressing in a way i never thought possible & that makes me one VERY happy girl indeed 
    May 23, 2007 649
  • 13 May 2007
    Tomorrow, i'll have been here on TW exactly four years.....no big deal to some peeps but it IS to me cos since i've been here i have met & made so many good friends here. Ok since then lots have come & gone but more have come along in their place. When i first joined i gotta say i was a little unsure of myself & where i wanted to go with my life, but now i know just who i am & who i want to be. The very first person to speak to me here & welcome me to TW was none other than cerys conner & i have never ever forgotten that.it's somethin i'll always remember. The one thing i NEVER expected to find here was true love but i did & since we been together ( almost 18 months now) i can truly say i've NEVER loved anyone as much as i love my Charllet & i've never been so happy with the way my life's working out right now & i feel that's in no small way thanks to katie & TW. " I aint the same scared kid i used to be"....JBJ Lol & xxxxxxxxxx to ALL here at TW Anna-Marie
    719 Posted by Anna-Marie Trindall
  • Tomorrow, i'll have been here on TW exactly four years.....no big deal to some peeps but it IS to me cos since i've been here i have met & made so many good friends here. Ok since then lots have come & gone but more have come along in their place. When i first joined i gotta say i was a little unsure of myself & where i wanted to go with my life, but now i know just who i am & who i want to be. The very first person to speak to me here & welcome me to TW was none other than cerys conner & i have never ever forgotten that.it's somethin i'll always remember. The one thing i NEVER expected to find here was true love but i did & since we been together ( almost 18 months now) i can truly say i've NEVER loved anyone as much as i love my Charllet & i've never been so happy with the way my life's working out right now & i feel that's in no small way thanks to katie & TW. " I aint the same scared kid i used to be"....JBJ Lol & xxxxxxxxxx to ALL here at TW Anna-Marie
    May 13, 2007 719
  • 23 Apr 2007
    In Oct/Dec of last year i was toying with the idea of training as a counsellor, to try & help those in our local community who are TG & need help/advice about certain matters. I gave it a lot of thought & had until things on hold indefinetly.....until NOW. Why the change of mind?..well mt ideas are just THAT at the moment ideas, but wednesday could change all that as i have an appointment to see the people at NWES ( Norfolk & Waveney Enterprise Scheme, where i'm going to puy my ideas to them as i'm thinkin of becoming a self-employed counsellor. Now i KNOW this is only the first of many appts i have to see them,but like i've always said to myself.... " you won't know if things will work out if you don't at least try". It wont be easy but if i can get some good sound business advice & help then i truly feel deep inside that i can pull this off. Of course theres the chance it may not work in which case i can say at least i gave it my best shot...but this time i feel different about it, like i got this voice inside my head sayin, go on girl you can do this. I mean, we have help places all over town like samaritans & CAB but there is nowhere in town to go if you are TG or an SO &you need helpand guidance & if i can help just ONE girl or SO to feel better about themselves & to see that just cos a person is transgendered it doesn't automatically make them a child molester, rapist, freak etc.... which is what some sections of society think) then i'l feel i have succeeded . I have experienced a HELL of a lot since goin FT, some good some bad & helpin peeps purely by sharin my experiences with the, is something i've always wanted to do and NOW it looks like i'm going to my my chance to shine......wish me luck Girls! Anna-Marie XXXXXX
    717 Posted by Anna-Marie Trindall
  • In Oct/Dec of last year i was toying with the idea of training as a counsellor, to try & help those in our local community who are TG & need help/advice about certain matters. I gave it a lot of thought & had until things on hold indefinetly.....until NOW. Why the change of mind?..well mt ideas are just THAT at the moment ideas, but wednesday could change all that as i have an appointment to see the people at NWES ( Norfolk & Waveney Enterprise Scheme, where i'm going to puy my ideas to them as i'm thinkin of becoming a self-employed counsellor. Now i KNOW this is only the first of many appts i have to see them,but like i've always said to myself.... " you won't know if things will work out if you don't at least try". It wont be easy but if i can get some good sound business advice & help then i truly feel deep inside that i can pull this off. Of course theres the chance it may not work in which case i can say at least i gave it my best shot...but this time i feel different about it, like i got this voice inside my head sayin, go on girl you can do this. I mean, we have help places all over town like samaritans & CAB but there is nowhere in town to go if you are TG or an SO &you need helpand guidance & if i can help just ONE girl or SO to feel better about themselves & to see that just cos a person is transgendered it doesn't automatically make them a child molester, rapist, freak etc.... which is what some sections of society think) then i'l feel i have succeeded . I have experienced a HELL of a lot since goin FT, some good some bad & helpin peeps purely by sharin my experiences with the, is something i've always wanted to do and NOW it looks like i'm going to my my chance to shine......wish me luck Girls! Anna-Marie XXXXXX
    Apr 23, 2007 717
  • 26 Mar 2007
    well like the headline says its about time i heard from them again. After what's seemed like ages, i now have the letter confirming my 2nd Charing Cross appt on the 22nd May At 10:30. This time i have to see a Dr Lenihan & by all accounts she's supposed to be pretty good so  i know i'll be ok in that respect. Also, i'll be ok goin this time cos i know what to expect.When i went in December 06 for my 1st Appt, it was a case of me not being sure of what would happen & bein a little bit nervous i must admit but i needn't have been concerned at all which will all come in handy on the 22nd may...i HOPE! 
    723 Posted by Anna-Marie Trindall
  • well like the headline says its about time i heard from them again. After what's seemed like ages, i now have the letter confirming my 2nd Charing Cross appt on the 22nd May At 10:30. This time i have to see a Dr Lenihan & by all accounts she's supposed to be pretty good so  i know i'll be ok in that respect. Also, i'll be ok goin this time cos i know what to expect.When i went in December 06 for my 1st Appt, it was a case of me not being sure of what would happen & bein a little bit nervous i must admit but i needn't have been concerned at all which will all come in handy on the 22nd may...i HOPE! 
    Mar 26, 2007 723
  • 02 Mar 2007
    Well i'm sat here writing & tryin not to cry but not doin too well. Why?..cos my charllet is off home later today after spending a truly wonderful week here with me for my BD & gettin to meet lots more girls. I guess all good things  soon have to end so i'nm tryin to put on a brave face but tis not easy i can tell you. I hope i can keep myself together later when i see her onto her train but i reckon.....ooops sorry i KNOW the floodgates will open once more. Soppy i know but i can't help it cos at long last i truly have found the Girl who i want to spend the rest of my life with & i've NEVER been so Happy.
    816 Posted by Anna-Marie Trindall
  • Well i'm sat here writing & tryin not to cry but not doin too well. Why?..cos my charllet is off home later today after spending a truly wonderful week here with me for my BD & gettin to meet lots more girls. I guess all good things  soon have to end so i'nm tryin to put on a brave face but tis not easy i can tell you. I hope i can keep myself together later when i see her onto her train but i reckon.....ooops sorry i KNOW the floodgates will open once more. Soppy i know but i can't help it cos at long last i truly have found the Girl who i want to spend the rest of my life with & i've NEVER been so Happy.
    Mar 02, 2007 816
  • 25 Feb 2007
    Well there's not much i can say about last night other than it was a truly memorable BD bash with lots of friends & ti couldn't have gone any betterThe w/e started in a truly amazing way cos my charllet shouldn't have been here until friday (23rd), but my doorbell rang at  10.20 pm & there she was stood at my front door.it's the only time i've EVER been rendered speechless! Anyway, she was here on my actual birthday(22nd) & that really meant so very much to this girl. Spent most of friday gettin the place re-arranged for my party the following day & it meant shifting things Around & shoving things in cupboards but we got there. That Evenin was spent fine tuning things & waiting for christina & clair to arrive, which they did around midnight. Eventually we crashed out at about 2am saturday morning & didn't wake til gone 10 am....all of us EXCEPT clair who didn't stir til MID DAY!! by then myself & chris had decorated the place & it did look good. Then her & clair diasppeared off to asda for more supplies whilst i started cooking things for the evening & was tied to the oven for 2 hrs( not literally TIED to the oven).I must admit by the time i'd finished cooking, i felt as though i'd put on a good spread. Waitin for guests to arrive was FUN cos 2 of them, Caz & Lexie managed to get lost & i ended up having to guide them here over the phone! Then 003 1/2 turned up & then everbody was here. With it bein my BD i chose something very classy to wear....my purple velvet dress & new black heels.The Evening went very well as there was plenty of food & alcohol to go round...WELL a girls gotta be prepared in her BD hasn't she?The games were a hoot..."tranny" pass the parcel & i lost count of how many times i had to unwrap it, the other game was a product of christina's decidely warped sense of humour....only kiddin hun!. More food & wine followed until by 1am it was time for 4 of my guests( Denise, Fiona,Lexie & Cherry) to get off home, so after they'd gone those who were left just sat nattering amongst themselves but by 3AM we'd had enough & literally  dropped into bed..trust ME to do it fully dressed!Woke around 9.30 & stuck kettle on to make the tea while christina & caroline cooked brekkie which went down a treat after last nights booze comsumption. More tea & talk followed whilst me & charllet tried gettin the place back to normal. Then by 11.30 it was time for caroline to get off home back to Royston, so i saw her off & an hour or so christina & clair had to go home cos they had an even longer trip home. Stood in my living room after everybody had gone home, my head was quite literally in a spin but after some black coffee i was ok to get on with the mammoth task of the kitchen which looked like a BOMB had been dropped in there. Once i got cracking it didn't take that long to do which was a relief. That done, i say myself down & had a drink & had time to gather my thoughts. The fact that friends came from far & wide just to be here with me on my very special night was so touching & infact it brought tears to my eyes so it did. They are all such wonderful friends & i must say i'm SO very lucky to have them cos they's the kind of peeps that would do anything for anybody & there arent many peeps like that around are there?lol xxxxxxxxxxxx Anna-Marie ( 40....& one VERY happy girl) 
    817 Posted by Anna-Marie Trindall
  • Well there's not much i can say about last night other than it was a truly memorable BD bash with lots of friends & ti couldn't have gone any betterThe w/e started in a truly amazing way cos my charllet shouldn't have been here until friday (23rd), but my doorbell rang at  10.20 pm & there she was stood at my front door.it's the only time i've EVER been rendered speechless! Anyway, she was here on my actual birthday(22nd) & that really meant so very much to this girl. Spent most of friday gettin the place re-arranged for my party the following day & it meant shifting things Around & shoving things in cupboards but we got there. That Evenin was spent fine tuning things & waiting for christina & clair to arrive, which they did around midnight. Eventually we crashed out at about 2am saturday morning & didn't wake til gone 10 am....all of us EXCEPT clair who didn't stir til MID DAY!! by then myself & chris had decorated the place & it did look good. Then her & clair diasppeared off to asda for more supplies whilst i started cooking things for the evening & was tied to the oven for 2 hrs( not literally TIED to the oven).I must admit by the time i'd finished cooking, i felt as though i'd put on a good spread. Waitin for guests to arrive was FUN cos 2 of them, Caz & Lexie managed to get lost & i ended up having to guide them here over the phone! Then 003 1/2 turned up & then everbody was here. With it bein my BD i chose something very classy to wear....my purple velvet dress & new black heels.The Evening went very well as there was plenty of food & alcohol to go round...WELL a girls gotta be prepared in her BD hasn't she?The games were a hoot..."tranny" pass the parcel & i lost count of how many times i had to unwrap it, the other game was a product of christina's decidely warped sense of humour....only kiddin hun!. More food & wine followed until by 1am it was time for 4 of my guests( Denise, Fiona,Lexie & Cherry) to get off home, so after they'd gone those who were left just sat nattering amongst themselves but by 3AM we'd had enough & literally  dropped into bed..trust ME to do it fully dressed!Woke around 9.30 & stuck kettle on to make the tea while christina & caroline cooked brekkie which went down a treat after last nights booze comsumption. More tea & talk followed whilst me & charllet tried gettin the place back to normal. Then by 11.30 it was time for caroline to get off home back to Royston, so i saw her off & an hour or so christina & clair had to go home cos they had an even longer trip home. Stood in my living room after everybody had gone home, my head was quite literally in a spin but after some black coffee i was ok to get on with the mammoth task of the kitchen which looked like a BOMB had been dropped in there. Once i got cracking it didn't take that long to do which was a relief. That done, i say myself down & had a drink & had time to gather my thoughts. The fact that friends came from far & wide just to be here with me on my very special night was so touching & infact it brought tears to my eyes so it did. They are all such wonderful friends & i must say i'm SO very lucky to have them cos they's the kind of peeps that would do anything for anybody & there arent many peeps like that around are there?lol xxxxxxxxxxxx Anna-Marie ( 40....& one VERY happy girl) 
    Feb 25, 2007 817