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  • 12 Jun 2011
    I phoned my GP on Thursday and she told me that she had got the referral back from the Psychiatrist, and read out the conclusion to me. (So far I’ve not received a copy)   She said that “By the appearance when presented, the subject is......” and I cant remember if the word was then “clearly” or “obviously, Transgendered” but she went on with, “so you need to research surgeons and find one to undertake the surgery. Its your money so you need to decide.”   Now thats what has confused the heck out of me, as the psychiatrist had told me that it wasn’t his place to diagnose me as Transsexual. When I then asked if that meant that I would need to be referred to a gender clinic like charring Cross, she said I could if I want to, but I didn’t need to as I have the diagnosis already. So there is my confusion! I was expecting a huge battle to convince the powers concerned that I know in my heart that I should be allowed to transition, so they should just get on with it, but it seems like one 45 minute assessment was enough to achieve that outcome already.   Did I just get from A to Z without hitting B through Y? As if being TS isn’t confusing enough LOL Maybe I should stop dying my hair blonde
    1745 Posted by Mandy Watts
  • I phoned my GP on Thursday and she told me that she had got the referral back from the Psychiatrist, and read out the conclusion to me. (So far I’ve not received a copy)   She said that “By the appearance when presented, the subject is......” and I cant remember if the word was then “clearly” or “obviously, Transgendered” but she went on with, “so you need to research surgeons and find one to undertake the surgery. Its your money so you need to decide.”   Now thats what has confused the heck out of me, as the psychiatrist had told me that it wasn’t his place to diagnose me as Transsexual. When I then asked if that meant that I would need to be referred to a gender clinic like charring Cross, she said I could if I want to, but I didn’t need to as I have the diagnosis already. So there is my confusion! I was expecting a huge battle to convince the powers concerned that I know in my heart that I should be allowed to transition, so they should just get on with it, but it seems like one 45 minute assessment was enough to achieve that outcome already.   Did I just get from A to Z without hitting B through Y? As if being TS isn’t confusing enough LOL Maybe I should stop dying my hair blonde
    Jun 12, 2011 1745
  • 26 May 2011
    Two and a half years or more of not blogging, and I only just found out I can still blog!!!!!  
    1469 Posted by Mandy Watts
  • Two and a half years or more of not blogging, and I only just found out I can still blog!!!!!  
    May 26, 2011 1469
  • 16 Oct 2008
    It would seem that my Quantity surveying skills are somewhat better than I thought. Not only did I run out of tape and boxes at the same time as I ran out of things to pack, the packed things filled the van to the brim, front to back. Having successfully relocated, with only one casualty, a slightly bent floor lamp, I am know a fully fledged resident of Bedford. :-) and I already have the council tax demand to prove it LOL.
    1603 Posted by Mandy Watts
  • It would seem that my Quantity surveying skills are somewhat better than I thought. Not only did I run out of tape and boxes at the same time as I ran out of things to pack, the packed things filled the van to the brim, front to back. Having successfully relocated, with only one casualty, a slightly bent floor lamp, I am know a fully fledged resident of Bedford. :-) and I already have the council tax demand to prove it LOL.
    Oct 16, 2008 1603
  • 26 Sep 2008
    or is it sum hippopotamus thats good at squares? If I knew, I might be able to work out if I have a big enough van or not.On the plus side, I seem to have run out of boxes at almost exactly the same time I've run out of things to put in them. How lucky was that LOLSo now I have a flat full of boxes, all stuffed to the gunnels, waiting to be loaded in to the van. Now I look at it out of the window, its a flippin big van after all, and maybe ill need a shank of rope or two, to stop it rolling about on the move LOLAnd so it is that the great packing fest of 2008 draws to an end. Tomorrow I have people arriving to help with the loading of the van, then its a 3 to 4 hour drive up to Bedford, before the great unpacking fest of 2008 begins LOLIts going to be the 3rd of October before I get a broadband connection turned on, so Ill be camping out at E-J's, hogging her connection next week
    1456 Posted by Mandy Watts
  • or is it sum hippopotamus thats good at squares? If I knew, I might be able to work out if I have a big enough van or not.On the plus side, I seem to have run out of boxes at almost exactly the same time I've run out of things to put in them. How lucky was that LOLSo now I have a flat full of boxes, all stuffed to the gunnels, waiting to be loaded in to the van. Now I look at it out of the window, its a flippin big van after all, and maybe ill need a shank of rope or two, to stop it rolling about on the move LOLAnd so it is that the great packing fest of 2008 draws to an end. Tomorrow I have people arriving to help with the loading of the van, then its a 3 to 4 hour drive up to Bedford, before the great unpacking fest of 2008 begins LOLIts going to be the 3rd of October before I get a broadband connection turned on, so Ill be camping out at E-J's, hogging her connection next week
    Sep 26, 2008 1456
  • 22 Sep 2008
    I started this year with no doubt at all, that the family business I have run for 14 years figured not in my future, but only in my present and past.Although I have worked in the business for 14 years, I realised I had made a big mistake after about 6 months, because of my brothers binge drinking. Earlier this year, after yet another run in with him one Monday morning, with him still drunk from a weekend of very heavy drinking, and a few hours short of the drunkenness giving way to a monster hangover, he picked another fight with me. I vowed then that this would be the year that I finally found a new job and got out. I have still to find a new job, but I am finally out of the family business because I could stand it no more. Friday was my last day, and after yet another argument with my drunken brother, I left the factory not with kind words of praise and gratitude for all the years of service ringing in my ears! No, sadly I left the factory on Friday with only one thought. "THANK GOD THATS OVER" and then, "Thank God I don't have to put up with that little shit anymore." Finally the family business exists not in my future, or even my present. Now it only exists in my past, and what a huge relief it is to know that. Even though its Monday now, I'm still fuming at him for deliberately starting another fight on my very last day in the factory.What a sad state of affairs it is when unemployment holds better prospects than continuing to work for the family business.
    1449 Posted by Mandy Watts
  • I started this year with no doubt at all, that the family business I have run for 14 years figured not in my future, but only in my present and past.Although I have worked in the business for 14 years, I realised I had made a big mistake after about 6 months, because of my brothers binge drinking. Earlier this year, after yet another run in with him one Monday morning, with him still drunk from a weekend of very heavy drinking, and a few hours short of the drunkenness giving way to a monster hangover, he picked another fight with me. I vowed then that this would be the year that I finally found a new job and got out. I have still to find a new job, but I am finally out of the family business because I could stand it no more. Friday was my last day, and after yet another argument with my drunken brother, I left the factory not with kind words of praise and gratitude for all the years of service ringing in my ears! No, sadly I left the factory on Friday with only one thought. "THANK GOD THATS OVER" and then, "Thank God I don't have to put up with that little shit anymore." Finally the family business exists not in my future, or even my present. Now it only exists in my past, and what a huge relief it is to know that. Even though its Monday now, I'm still fuming at him for deliberately starting another fight on my very last day in the factory.What a sad state of affairs it is when unemployment holds better prospects than continuing to work for the family business.
    Sep 22, 2008 1449
  • 16 Sep 2008
    On Monday morning I was in a good mood for a change. Seems like ages since I last had something to smile and laugh about, but its ok, it didn’t last.I learnt that as the factory was on short time, I would be spending my last two working days completely alone in the factory. This happened last week as well, but I had thought that after 14 years, I perhaps deserved slightly better this week?To say that I was disappointed would be an understatement. I felt utterly miserable.After 14 years building up the company, dragging it kicking and screaming into the 20th Century, just in time for the beginning of the 21st Century, having given up countless days off, sacrificed weekends, and spending half to one third of my time out o the country for the last 2 years without a single extra penny in wages, I had thought I deserved better than to be expected to slip away quietly, unnoticed, and unappreciated.My Co Director it seems is hiding away at our European factory, and really does want me to just disappear quietly in the night. Thankfully our accounts lady had already decided that that wasn't going to be the case, even if she had to come in unpaid, she would come in anyway. Someone else has decided that she is having none of it either, and will be joining us for a morning of cake eating, tea drinking, reminiscing and gossiping.FAB :-)
    1658 Posted by Mandy Watts
  • On Monday morning I was in a good mood for a change. Seems like ages since I last had something to smile and laugh about, but its ok, it didn’t last.I learnt that as the factory was on short time, I would be spending my last two working days completely alone in the factory. This happened last week as well, but I had thought that after 14 years, I perhaps deserved slightly better this week?To say that I was disappointed would be an understatement. I felt utterly miserable.After 14 years building up the company, dragging it kicking and screaming into the 20th Century, just in time for the beginning of the 21st Century, having given up countless days off, sacrificed weekends, and spending half to one third of my time out o the country for the last 2 years without a single extra penny in wages, I had thought I deserved better than to be expected to slip away quietly, unnoticed, and unappreciated.My Co Director it seems is hiding away at our European factory, and really does want me to just disappear quietly in the night. Thankfully our accounts lady had already decided that that wasn't going to be the case, even if she had to come in unpaid, she would come in anyway. Someone else has decided that she is having none of it either, and will be joining us for a morning of cake eating, tea drinking, reminiscing and gossiping.FAB :-)
    Sep 16, 2008 1658
  • 14 Sep 2008
    And so the great packing fest of 2008 has begun in earnest. My youngest has been fretting about how all his toys will get to Bedford. Ive tried explaining it, but as hes never moved yet, he cant quite see how it will happen, so I decided to start with the kids room. I had no idea they had so many many toys!!!! It took an hour and a half to get it emptied of all their stuff. Then suddenly it was filling the lounge, without a single square inch of carpet to be seen.It took a while to get them going, but by the end of Saturday, the boxes were filled, the bedroom was emptied, and the lounge was, well still filled with boxes to be honest. Being the sort to worry a lot, and having answered the worry about how long it would take to pack up all the kids stuff, I then set about worrying about the size of van that Im going to need. I had in mind a box Luton transit, but it was looking like an expense, and I had no idea if there would actually be enough space. I found one on the web somewhere that listed the cargo space, and its 4 meters by 2 meters by 2.2 meters high, so having measured it out in the lounge, and measured the large furniture items, its looking like plenty of space. The first price I could see on the web was 250 quid for a weekend!!!!!! Then I found a hire company just up the road from where I work now, and its only 150 quid ish, so I'll be on the phone first thing Monday. Lord how I hate packing and moving. And its only just started!!!!!!
    1745 Posted by Mandy Watts
  • And so the great packing fest of 2008 has begun in earnest. My youngest has been fretting about how all his toys will get to Bedford. Ive tried explaining it, but as hes never moved yet, he cant quite see how it will happen, so I decided to start with the kids room. I had no idea they had so many many toys!!!! It took an hour and a half to get it emptied of all their stuff. Then suddenly it was filling the lounge, without a single square inch of carpet to be seen.It took a while to get them going, but by the end of Saturday, the boxes were filled, the bedroom was emptied, and the lounge was, well still filled with boxes to be honest. Being the sort to worry a lot, and having answered the worry about how long it would take to pack up all the kids stuff, I then set about worrying about the size of van that Im going to need. I had in mind a box Luton transit, but it was looking like an expense, and I had no idea if there would actually be enough space. I found one on the web somewhere that listed the cargo space, and its 4 meters by 2 meters by 2.2 meters high, so having measured it out in the lounge, and measured the large furniture items, its looking like plenty of space. The first price I could see on the web was 250 quid for a weekend!!!!!! Then I found a hire company just up the road from where I work now, and its only 150 quid ish, so I'll be on the phone first thing Monday. Lord how I hate packing and moving. And its only just started!!!!!!
    Sep 14, 2008 1745
  • 11 Sep 2008
    I guess Its about time I updated my blog, as there is an awful lot going on at the moment, with lots coming up in the near future too.Right now I’m a week away from redundancy, which I have sort of engineered for my own advantage. It started off with a plan to relocate to Bedford, so that E-J and I could spend more time together like a proper couple. Its very hard for both of us being so far apart, and having to spend 3 weeks in 9 in Hungary is no joke either.There are other factors too, like the time I spend out of the country, working with a heavy binge drinker who has the memory span of a goldfish, and mood swings like you wouldn’t believe!!!!! But all in all, its about wanting to spend more time with E-J, so that we can be more like a couple in a proper relationship.Don’t get me wrong, its scary!! Very scary, because I don’t yet have a job to go to, and the economy is soooo far down the toilet, I may not find one any time soon. I know it sounds like madness, but we both really, really want this to happen, so I have engineered an exit strategy that will pay me a reasonable sum that should last a good few months. Being redundancy, it should also qualify me to get a few benefits to help spread the sum over a longer period of time too, so I have something like a year to find a new job. Who knows, we might even start a business together!So here I am, one week away from unemployment and two away from relocating to Bedford.
    1316 Posted by Mandy Watts
  • I guess Its about time I updated my blog, as there is an awful lot going on at the moment, with lots coming up in the near future too.Right now I’m a week away from redundancy, which I have sort of engineered for my own advantage. It started off with a plan to relocate to Bedford, so that E-J and I could spend more time together like a proper couple. Its very hard for both of us being so far apart, and having to spend 3 weeks in 9 in Hungary is no joke either.There are other factors too, like the time I spend out of the country, working with a heavy binge drinker who has the memory span of a goldfish, and mood swings like you wouldn’t believe!!!!! But all in all, its about wanting to spend more time with E-J, so that we can be more like a couple in a proper relationship.Don’t get me wrong, its scary!! Very scary, because I don’t yet have a job to go to, and the economy is soooo far down the toilet, I may not find one any time soon. I know it sounds like madness, but we both really, really want this to happen, so I have engineered an exit strategy that will pay me a reasonable sum that should last a good few months. Being redundancy, it should also qualify me to get a few benefits to help spread the sum over a longer period of time too, so I have something like a year to find a new job. Who knows, we might even start a business together!So here I am, one week away from unemployment and two away from relocating to Bedford.
    Sep 11, 2008 1316
  • 06 May 2008
    Only this time its Tuesday LOLI woke up this morning all alone in a big bed, miles away from where I want to be.We had another truly fab weekend together, but this weekend it was a national holiday, so we got to be together for an extra day.I arrived on Friday afternoon, a lot earlier than I was expecting too, due to a combination of bunking off work early and not a lot of traffic on the roads. That makes a change!!! After lots of hugs and kisses, and a lovely cup of tea, E-J had to go do a work visit. I wasnt complaining, coz I shouldnt have been there till she had finished it, so when her mum dropped off the lawn mower, I thought I would push it around a bit, to tidy up the garden, before she got home, closely followed by the boys. Saturday was a great day, we decided to get the tent out and check it over. We had offered it to Katie for the sparkle event, but we didnt really know if it was any good, because it hadnt seen the light of day for a long time. Luckily it was in great shape, and we got it up for an airing, and made some instructions on how to assemble it all, just before we found out that Katie had organised a marquee in stead LOL. No harm done tho, it needed to be checked over.Then it was time to get ready to head off to town. We had in mind calling on Coopers, the wig shop in Bromham road. Very nice place, very nice owner, and most definitely very tranny friendly. I got changed whilst E-J took the boys round to her mums for the night, and by the time she was back, I was in the garden trying to cool down LOL. So there we were, off to town, all dressed up, and out in daylight again. Fantastic :-)an hour and 225 quid later, and we were walking about in town. Into Savers for some indigestion tabs for Gran, but they had run out, so it was off to another cheap place, but they had none too, so we ended up in boots. The price had gone from 99p in savers, to £1.99 the £2.45 in Boots!!!!! Still, the assistant gave me a big warm smile, so I was happy. Then we needed some school stuff for one of the boys, so woollies was the next shop, and no problems there either, the assistant there was very happy and smiley too. I even had a short conversation with her. Lastly we popped into a little bag shop, and found a perfect little going out bag for E-J, before we headed off to the Barley Mow for something to eat. Then it was home to change and back to the Barley Mow for a fab night out. I had brought my red silk strapless dress to wear, but I hadn’t realised that I had gained a bit of weight, and it was killing me LOL. I only just managed to squeeze in, with a lot of help from E-J. The bodice is slightly boned, and one of the “bones” was jabbing me in a rib, which was uncomfortable in it self, but it was now so tight, I could hardly breath!!!! The weight gain comes from my having given up smoking recently, so Im not all that worried, but I am gonna get myself an exercise thingy soon, so I can stop the gain and maybe loose a bit too, so fingers crossed on that score.I think I vaguely remember staggering out of the pub about 3 am ish? so it was a totally fab night out, after a totally fab day out :-) Sunday was a late start of course, and we got the “are you on the way to collect us yet” phone call from the boys. That was at 11 30 and the answer was yes! Just as soon as we’re dressed LOL. Int that bloody awful of us!!!!!!!!!! The boys are great tho, and they do get spoilt rotten the rest of the time im there, so we int completely heartless :-)Once we had collected them, it was back into town so they could spend their pocket money in the Warhammer shop. Its a futuristic battle thing apparently, and they are well into it, so me and E-J went shopping again, and I got a couple of skirts and some new tops too, all summery for our next day out :-).Then we had a smashing BBQ! Mandy has been looking forward to one of E-J’s famous BBQ’s for ages and ages, and finally got her wish :-) Thanx lovey xxxxxxWe did manage to squeeze in a trip to Stanwick Lakes on Monday. Its a former quarry thats now a nature park, with a super adventure playground, assault course, walks and bike rides. One day soon, we will go back and hire some bikes :-) Being Monday meant only one thing though. We both had heavy hearts, knowing that in a few short hours it would all be over, and I would be on my way home once more. A fantastic weekend, but over all to soon. The more I think about it, the more I think “I hope its the last “weekend” and the first full time living in Bedford” All I need is a job offer, and Im out of Poole and up to Bedford within 4 weeks. That day cannot come soon enough for either of us.Thank you, thank you thank you babes for a lovely lovely weekend xxxxxxxx wub wub
    1748 Posted by Mandy Watts
  • Only this time its Tuesday LOLI woke up this morning all alone in a big bed, miles away from where I want to be.We had another truly fab weekend together, but this weekend it was a national holiday, so we got to be together for an extra day.I arrived on Friday afternoon, a lot earlier than I was expecting too, due to a combination of bunking off work early and not a lot of traffic on the roads. That makes a change!!! After lots of hugs and kisses, and a lovely cup of tea, E-J had to go do a work visit. I wasnt complaining, coz I shouldnt have been there till she had finished it, so when her mum dropped off the lawn mower, I thought I would push it around a bit, to tidy up the garden, before she got home, closely followed by the boys. Saturday was a great day, we decided to get the tent out and check it over. We had offered it to Katie for the sparkle event, but we didnt really know if it was any good, because it hadnt seen the light of day for a long time. Luckily it was in great shape, and we got it up for an airing, and made some instructions on how to assemble it all, just before we found out that Katie had organised a marquee in stead LOL. No harm done tho, it needed to be checked over.Then it was time to get ready to head off to town. We had in mind calling on Coopers, the wig shop in Bromham road. Very nice place, very nice owner, and most definitely very tranny friendly. I got changed whilst E-J took the boys round to her mums for the night, and by the time she was back, I was in the garden trying to cool down LOL. So there we were, off to town, all dressed up, and out in daylight again. Fantastic :-)an hour and 225 quid later, and we were walking about in town. Into Savers for some indigestion tabs for Gran, but they had run out, so it was off to another cheap place, but they had none too, so we ended up in boots. The price had gone from 99p in savers, to £1.99 the £2.45 in Boots!!!!! Still, the assistant gave me a big warm smile, so I was happy. Then we needed some school stuff for one of the boys, so woollies was the next shop, and no problems there either, the assistant there was very happy and smiley too. I even had a short conversation with her. Lastly we popped into a little bag shop, and found a perfect little going out bag for E-J, before we headed off to the Barley Mow for something to eat. Then it was home to change and back to the Barley Mow for a fab night out. I had brought my red silk strapless dress to wear, but I hadn’t realised that I had gained a bit of weight, and it was killing me LOL. I only just managed to squeeze in, with a lot of help from E-J. The bodice is slightly boned, and one of the “bones” was jabbing me in a rib, which was uncomfortable in it self, but it was now so tight, I could hardly breath!!!! The weight gain comes from my having given up smoking recently, so Im not all that worried, but I am gonna get myself an exercise thingy soon, so I can stop the gain and maybe loose a bit too, so fingers crossed on that score.I think I vaguely remember staggering out of the pub about 3 am ish? so it was a totally fab night out, after a totally fab day out :-) Sunday was a late start of course, and we got the “are you on the way to collect us yet” phone call from the boys. That was at 11 30 and the answer was yes! Just as soon as we’re dressed LOL. Int that bloody awful of us!!!!!!!!!! The boys are great tho, and they do get spoilt rotten the rest of the time im there, so we int completely heartless :-)Once we had collected them, it was back into town so they could spend their pocket money in the Warhammer shop. Its a futuristic battle thing apparently, and they are well into it, so me and E-J went shopping again, and I got a couple of skirts and some new tops too, all summery for our next day out :-).Then we had a smashing BBQ! Mandy has been looking forward to one of E-J’s famous BBQ’s for ages and ages, and finally got her wish :-) Thanx lovey xxxxxxWe did manage to squeeze in a trip to Stanwick Lakes on Monday. Its a former quarry thats now a nature park, with a super adventure playground, assault course, walks and bike rides. One day soon, we will go back and hire some bikes :-) Being Monday meant only one thing though. We both had heavy hearts, knowing that in a few short hours it would all be over, and I would be on my way home once more. A fantastic weekend, but over all to soon. The more I think about it, the more I think “I hope its the last “weekend” and the first full time living in Bedford” All I need is a job offer, and Im out of Poole and up to Bedford within 4 weeks. That day cannot come soon enough for either of us.Thank you, thank you thank you babes for a lovely lovely weekend xxxxxxxx wub wub
    May 06, 2008 1748
  • 01 May 2008
    On Thursday last week, I am on my way into work when I suddenly realise I have forgotten my phone. This isnt a complete disaster as it doesnt go off much, but I do know that E-J will have sent me a good morning text, and Im not able to reply, so shes gonna start fretting soon. As it happens I have just got a new phone, and I have not yet given up on my old one. Ok, to be more honest, I havent told everyone yet so I need it for my contacts LOL. Luckily I have said phone in my bag :-) Unfortunately, the battery is almost completely flat, but i did manage to look up her mobile number, and tap out a text too. Just after I hit the send button tho, the screen went blank, so I hadn't the faintest idea if the text went or not, so I phoned E-J from my desk phone instead. :-)The great news is that E-J has found two adds in the local paper and she has posted them down to me.That I was expecting, the other package that arrived as well, I wasnt expecting LOL It was a small brown heavy duty envelope, that was well done up with tape. It was so well done up with tape, I had to take some scissors to it to get it open. I was careful tho, because it was a bit qsuishy, like there was some clothing in it, but it was stiff too, and it tinckled when I shook it too :)Inside was a lovely card, a pair of very pink knix, a pen, some earrings, a necklace, a bangle, a pair of pink socks and......so much more. What a lovely lovely surprise :) thank you my sweetheart wub
    1478 Posted by Mandy Watts
  • On Thursday last week, I am on my way into work when I suddenly realise I have forgotten my phone. This isnt a complete disaster as it doesnt go off much, but I do know that E-J will have sent me a good morning text, and Im not able to reply, so shes gonna start fretting soon. As it happens I have just got a new phone, and I have not yet given up on my old one. Ok, to be more honest, I havent told everyone yet so I need it for my contacts LOL. Luckily I have said phone in my bag :-) Unfortunately, the battery is almost completely flat, but i did manage to look up her mobile number, and tap out a text too. Just after I hit the send button tho, the screen went blank, so I hadn't the faintest idea if the text went or not, so I phoned E-J from my desk phone instead. :-)The great news is that E-J has found two adds in the local paper and she has posted them down to me.That I was expecting, the other package that arrived as well, I wasnt expecting LOL It was a small brown heavy duty envelope, that was well done up with tape. It was so well done up with tape, I had to take some scissors to it to get it open. I was careful tho, because it was a bit qsuishy, like there was some clothing in it, but it was stiff too, and it tinckled when I shook it too :)Inside was a lovely card, a pair of very pink knix, a pen, some earrings, a necklace, a bangle, a pair of pink socks and......so much more. What a lovely lovely surprise :) thank you my sweetheart wub
    May 01, 2008 1478