Life Story

• Posted by Rachel de Blanc March 14, 2008 Filed in Society Girl's Personal Blogs 877 views
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  I have today sent an abbreviated life story to Dr Torres at Gendercare, because I'm keen to hear the opinions of a third-party specialist. So why have I done this and what do I want to learn?
  
  The truth is, I don't know.
  
  Writing and reflecting about my life and personal development provides some insight. Consciously placing times and dates against actions is interesting. I have dressed and been obsessed with femininity since an early age. I've also always been quiet, perhaps obsessive, a little shy, awkward in company. Writing here, contributing to this site, needing a reaction from Dr. Torres suggests that I might be an attention seeker, or perhaps that I need somebody to respond to this private person that I've never let out. Who knows?
  
  There's a risk that I might become pre-occupied with all this, that I might waste valuable time. But there's also a risk that if I don't pre-occupy myself with this, that I might regret it for the remainder of my life.
  
  How I wish that I could think about this with more clarity. That my gender issues were so pronounced that I had to act, was forced to be braver, or that they were so slight that they could be ignored. Problem is, they're neither, and I'm stuck.
  
  I'll let you know if a web-based analysis provides me with any comforts. But don't take my word for it, I'm no prototype, I'm just a tranny.
  
  Rachel