Too busy

• Posted by Rachel de Blanc April 22, 2008 Filed in Society Girl's Personal Blogs 964 views
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  I've been busy busy busy at work recently, and so opportunities to drift and dream have been much reduced. Visits here have been less frequent, snatched and brief.
  
  TW is still here though, even if you haven't the time to visit, and that's reassuring. What isn't going away either - even though I'm juggling with work pressures, is the perpetual messages my brain issues. This gender thing isn't a passing phase brought on by anxiety or stress, exacerbated when I'm feeling down. It's a constant pulse, resonant, embodied. I've anticipated this point - when most aspects of my life are going well, when a smile is easier than a frown and the future is looking positive, because I've been keen to gauge whether my gender 'issues' abate when everything else is OK. But I'm pleased to say that they don't, of course. On the contrary, I feel more confident of who I am, of who I'd like to be and of what I need to do to be her.
  
  So if I'm not here and I'm too busy with other stuff, be reassured, I haven't gone away. But I think I'm probably still actually on my way.