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I’m not out to my wife. Things are a bit tricky at home at present. I’m certain that now is not the right time to explain to her that I’m certainly a transvestite and maybe transsexual. However, I felt I needed to post a photograph on T Web because I didn’t feel I could hide from the community if I was benefiting from it.
So, I take a photo (about fifty actually) and delete, and delete etc. I settle on one, tweak it a bit - colours and contrast only, then post it. I’m worried, it looks like me! There’s little disguise, no wig, no dark glasses. If you knew me, you’d spot me.
I slowly get less anxious (complacent perhaps?) and some nice people say nice things. Then I get two direct hits from TA’s that surprise and disturb. These have encouraged me to say the following:
1. If I have previously not contributed to Threads about ‘aggressive’ TA’s or have failed to appreciate the tone of the threads, then I apologise. As the result of a new message received today I can now appreciate how a forward & invasive introduction feels.
2. In a small way, I now appreciate how women might feel when they are ‘hit upon’ by a Guy. I could look at this in a few ways I suppose. Either, I’ve taken another small, educative step towards learning about what it’s like to be a woman, so it’s a positive thing? Or, I’ve learnt a little more about how women feel when they’re ‘hit upon’ by a Guy, so feel a little remorse.
3. If I appear attractive upon my photograph, that’s because I was trying as hard as possible to present myself as a woman, knowing full well that as a transvestite I cannot honestly claim to physically or psychologically understand what that feels like, or compare to those girls who will be, are or have transitioned. Yes, I know, nobody judges here. But I just wanted to try and present and be accepted as a woman.
4. I can’t remember saying anywhere on my profile that I was keen to receive salacious messages from people I’ve never chatted to or heard of previously. If that wasn’t previously clear, could I therefore gently emphasise as follows: PLEASE DON’T BOTHER, I’M IN A RELATIONSHIP AND I LOVE HER!
So, now I’m thinking I shouldn’t have deleted all of those bad photos, because I’m telling you if I’d have used the majority of them I wouldn’t have this problem!
So, here-endeth my lesson in how to respond calmly to the approach of strangers. Glad I got that off my chest. Sadly, still flat. Thank you for listening.
Rachel x
