Chicken or Egg?

• Posted by Rachel de Blanc July 15, 2008 Filed in Society Girl's Personal Blogs 1,014 views
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  I am a transvestite maybe a transsexual, with a desire to be a woman. But was I first a boy then I became a man.
  
  The need to express my femininity has fluctuated over time, but has never entirely disappeared. If I am low, or a little lost it is a comfort, an escape.
  
  I have always embraced the fantasy of transformation yet I am wholly reliable and dependable.
  
  I take calculated risks and I never act rashly, but I would take female hormones tomorrow.
  
  I am open and honest but I have not spoken to my wife or family about this.
  
  I sometimes think that I am failing as a man because of my desire to be a woman.
  
  I wish I was not a transvestite although I think I could be a strong woman.
  
  I am sometimes saddened by images of those who aspire to be accepted as a woman, and feel empathy with their dreams.
  
  I’m sometimes uncertain why I visit here, but visits here make things feel more certain.