Recent Entries

• Still

  by Rachel de Blanc May 28, 2011
  This a little test to see how the super-dooper up-dated blog pages works, and it works very well. So let's see whether my brain and typing are as reliable and simple to access..   Hi everyone, anyone or no-one, I hope you're all OK.    This isn't going to be a lengthy expose of my...
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• Physical embodiment

  by Rachel de Blanc January 19, 2010
  I have recently attended a number of ante-natal classes with my wife and as a result I'm beginning to appreciate even more the physical differences between the sexes. When you begin to appreciate the mechanism and structure that is the uterus, the timing of hormonal releases that relax bone structur...

• At Last

  by Rachel de Blanc December 30, 2009
  Just prior to Christmas my wife confirmed that she was pregnant. Our joy is uncontrollable and we now look forward with greater optimism and with a wider perspective. But Rachel remains in the closet and a big dilemma. I know that I cannot take a miraculous pill that will stop me being transsexua...

• Healthy?

  by Rachel de Blanc December 7, 2009
  I’m reading through a contract for a new job. Neither it nor the Private Health Insurance document attached seeks confirmation of your Gender. Perhaps it should? I’m asked to confirm whether I have ever suffered from any ailments. Oh yes, I believe that I’m a woman trapped in a man’s body – is that...

• A Product of Time

  by Rachel de Blanc December 5, 2009
  I’ve been able to dress more recently. It’s been more than nice. En-femme I feel empowered, released, vibrant and relaxed. I’m not like this all of the time (same old same old..) I skulked out on Thursday wearing a bra (with padding), knickers, tights. It’s really tame I know, but for a cower...

• Looking me squarely in the eye

  by Rachel de Blanc November 25, 2009
  Recently, somebody used the word ‘wannabe’ within an ongoing thread. It was contained within a well-considered comment and used without malice, but for me it jumped out of the screen and struck me deftly on the jaw. That contribution – like the best on this site, was honest, without prejudice and fr...

• Free Spirit

  by Rachel de Blanc November 13, 2009
  I've recently vacated an office space and have temporarily returned to working from home. This gives me a certain every-day freedom, and I suspect that i will take all of the opportunities that it offers. But beyond this liberty is a return to employment, in a testosterone-fuelled (gender equal) pro...

• On a beautiful pea-green boat

  by Rachel de Blanc October 8, 2009
  A friend has departed this shores and now continues her voyage with the anchor pulled on board. Semaphore messages are received but she’s moving away towards the horizon and soon I’ll lose contact. She’d like me to reach out and communicate directly with her, but I’d have to stand on deck to do so, ...

• Golden Day

  by Rachel de Blanc September 25, 2009
  An early Autumn day of glorious sunshine washes over London like a Turner landscape. Raybans are deployed with intent to shield and arms are exposed with the intent to taunt. Male garments weigh a little heavy and masculinity feels dreary today. This is a moment to not to skimp, to slip on somethi...

• Thrice

  by Rachel de Blanc September 17, 2009
  The great diarists wrote daily - or suggested so. I suspect Pepys had the odd day off, the occasional morning when he thought ‘Oh sod it, I ain’t done nuthin’ in t’last 24 hours so I’ain’t gonna tell owt’, which gave his editor a holiday at least. I’m here again, for the third day running. My finge...