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  • 19 May 2008
    When Rachel first joined TWeb ‘she’ was inquiring, slightly nosey, a bit of a busy-body. As an occasional visitor to the Chat Room she tried to be engaging and entertaining, and to overcome her nerves. Perhaps it’s possible that she was a little false, not a true reflection of who she really was and of course who she really is. The thing is, it’s no longer appropriate to segregate her from me. Whilst Rachel was initially a veil from behind which I was able to communicate, she is now ever-present. I’ve adopted her and vice-versa. The consequence of this, is that she’s no longer a parody and has become a truer expression of myself. This, I think, is a positive thing. So when I dared to visit chat again, the quiet slightly reticent & nervous me didn’t really engage. Apologies to all of the girls who listened to my silence. I’m still trying to understand and learn, but every now and then I’m daunted by your femininity and your conviction. I look on in awe and with affection, listening and learning. But I do promise to gently open my mouth and contribute a little in the future. Rachel x
    589 Posted by Rachel de Blanc
  • When Rachel first joined TWeb ‘she’ was inquiring, slightly nosey, a bit of a busy-body. As an occasional visitor to the Chat Room she tried to be engaging and entertaining, and to overcome her nerves. Perhaps it’s possible that she was a little false, not a true reflection of who she really was and of course who she really is. The thing is, it’s no longer appropriate to segregate her from me. Whilst Rachel was initially a veil from behind which I was able to communicate, she is now ever-present. I’ve adopted her and vice-versa. The consequence of this, is that she’s no longer a parody and has become a truer expression of myself. This, I think, is a positive thing. So when I dared to visit chat again, the quiet slightly reticent & nervous me didn’t really engage. Apologies to all of the girls who listened to my silence. I’m still trying to understand and learn, but every now and then I’m daunted by your femininity and your conviction. I look on in awe and with affection, listening and learning. But I do promise to gently open my mouth and contribute a little in the future. Rachel x
    May 19, 2008 589
  • 16 May 2008
    Help! I can't see what I'm typing because it's white on a white background!
    657 Posted by Rachel de Blanc
  • Help! I can't see what I'm typing because it's white on a white background!
    May 16, 2008 657
  • 09 May 2008
    I'm entranced by the unbearable lightness of summer fabrics, the juxtaposition of romantic prints against exposed flesh, and the remarkable speed with which winter's monochromatic palette has been swept away. I find myself staring at beauty recently revealed, yearning for both the women I see and the clothes that they wear. If life was fair then society would have accelerated years ago and there might now be a world-wide acceptance that androgony was the norm and that hirsute classification was now ancient categorization. Then I could race to the shops and participate in the clamour for pattern, colour, shine and shimmer. Sadly, that's not the case, so Ophelia-like I drift away to sleep, bourne upon the swell of images that have flooded by during the day, dreaming of floating away with the tide.
    632 Posted by Rachel de Blanc
  • I'm entranced by the unbearable lightness of summer fabrics, the juxtaposition of romantic prints against exposed flesh, and the remarkable speed with which winter's monochromatic palette has been swept away. I find myself staring at beauty recently revealed, yearning for both the women I see and the clothes that they wear. If life was fair then society would have accelerated years ago and there might now be a world-wide acceptance that androgony was the norm and that hirsute classification was now ancient categorization. Then I could race to the shops and participate in the clamour for pattern, colour, shine and shimmer. Sadly, that's not the case, so Ophelia-like I drift away to sleep, bourne upon the swell of images that have flooded by during the day, dreaming of floating away with the tide.
    May 09, 2008 632
  • 01 May 2008
    I am quivering like a frightened puppy because I've added my photo on the site. Sorry it has taken so long this time around. How long it will be there I'm not sure.... But I am real enough.
    715 Posted by Rachel de Blanc
  • I am quivering like a frightened puppy because I've added my photo on the site. Sorry it has taken so long this time around. How long it will be there I'm not sure.... But I am real enough.
    May 01, 2008 715
  • 27 Apr 2008
    My wife - who I'm afraid knows nothing about me (Rachel) unveiled a new pair of shoes yesterday that made me go green with envy. I understand that the Bible discourages you from covetting your neighbour's wife, but does is mention anywhere that you are allowed to covet your wife's Marni's?
    598 Posted by Rachel de Blanc
  • My wife - who I'm afraid knows nothing about me (Rachel) unveiled a new pair of shoes yesterday that made me go green with envy. I understand that the Bible discourages you from covetting your neighbour's wife, but does is mention anywhere that you are allowed to covet your wife's Marni's?
    Apr 27, 2008 598
  • 22 Apr 2008
    I've been busy busy busy at work recently, and so opportunities to drift and dream have been much reduced. Visits here have been less frequent, snatched and brief. TW is still here though, even if you haven't the time to visit, and that's reassuring. What isn't going away either - even though I'm juggling with work pressures, is the perpetual messages my brain issues. This gender thing isn't a passing phase brought on by anxiety or stress, exacerbated when I'm feeling down. It's a constant pulse, resonant, embodied. I've anticipated this point - when most aspects of my life are going well, when a smile is easier than a frown and the future is looking positive, because I've been keen to gauge whether my gender 'issues' abate when everything else is OK. But I'm pleased to say that they don't, of course. On the contrary, I feel more confident of who I am, of who I'd like to be and of what I need to do to be her. So if I'm not here and I'm too busy with other stuff, be reassured, I haven't gone away. But I think I'm probably still actually on my way.
    587 Posted by Rachel de Blanc
  • I've been busy busy busy at work recently, and so opportunities to drift and dream have been much reduced. Visits here have been less frequent, snatched and brief. TW is still here though, even if you haven't the time to visit, and that's reassuring. What isn't going away either - even though I'm juggling with work pressures, is the perpetual messages my brain issues. This gender thing isn't a passing phase brought on by anxiety or stress, exacerbated when I'm feeling down. It's a constant pulse, resonant, embodied. I've anticipated this point - when most aspects of my life are going well, when a smile is easier than a frown and the future is looking positive, because I've been keen to gauge whether my gender 'issues' abate when everything else is OK. But I'm pleased to say that they don't, of course. On the contrary, I feel more confident of who I am, of who I'd like to be and of what I need to do to be her. So if I'm not here and I'm too busy with other stuff, be reassured, I haven't gone away. But I think I'm probably still actually on my way.
    Apr 22, 2008 587
  • 11 Apr 2008
    I need to get a new photograph taken for the site, I disposed of my old photo but was confident that I had archived it upon a secure back-up. So secure, that I cannot find it for toffee.. I'm a bit worried that a photo my fall into the wrong eyes, but it don't think it's really fair that I should continue to make the contributions without saying hello properly. It feels like it lacks a bit of commitment. Glancing at recently viewed members photos, I recall the following. All unattributed of course. A loving and affectionate couple. The odd sultry maiden. Some confident, open women. The reassurance of a gregarious Goth. A few controlled and together Americans, and the odd funny one too. An intellectual. A fool. A 'ghost' caught in a flashlight's glare, and a willow-the-wisp in a garden. A few nervous smiles with curtains drawn, the occasional revealed thigh and confident pose. A come hither look, a how-dare-you glare and a copy-righted self portrait...! Yeh, right. Because just in case coming out as a transsexual isn't difficult enough, at some point things get really tricky when you attempt to steal the physical appearance of somebody else. Must remember to get a world-wide patent in place before I take that photograph.
    638 Posted by Rachel de Blanc
  • I need to get a new photograph taken for the site, I disposed of my old photo but was confident that I had archived it upon a secure back-up. So secure, that I cannot find it for toffee.. I'm a bit worried that a photo my fall into the wrong eyes, but it don't think it's really fair that I should continue to make the contributions without saying hello properly. It feels like it lacks a bit of commitment. Glancing at recently viewed members photos, I recall the following. All unattributed of course. A loving and affectionate couple. The odd sultry maiden. Some confident, open women. The reassurance of a gregarious Goth. A few controlled and together Americans, and the odd funny one too. An intellectual. A fool. A 'ghost' caught in a flashlight's glare, and a willow-the-wisp in a garden. A few nervous smiles with curtains drawn, the occasional revealed thigh and confident pose. A come hither look, a how-dare-you glare and a copy-righted self portrait...! Yeh, right. Because just in case coming out as a transsexual isn't difficult enough, at some point things get really tricky when you attempt to steal the physical appearance of somebody else. Must remember to get a world-wide patent in place before I take that photograph.
    Apr 11, 2008 638
  • 11 Apr 2008
    This is a difficult thing to stop, once you've started.. Slowly, surely, my desire - need, to express myself as a woman is gathering pace. I'd like to make a commitment to the process, to do something that cannot be undone. But I'm covert, a little lonely and a bit of a scaredy-cat. Nothing is going to happen immediately, but I can't stop it. I'm not trying to stop it.
    613 Posted by Rachel de Blanc
  • This is a difficult thing to stop, once you've started.. Slowly, surely, my desire - need, to express myself as a woman is gathering pace. I'd like to make a commitment to the process, to do something that cannot be undone. But I'm covert, a little lonely and a bit of a scaredy-cat. Nothing is going to happen immediately, but I can't stop it. I'm not trying to stop it.
    Apr 11, 2008 613
  • 01 Apr 2008
    Is it foolish to dream of femininity and spend time chasing that dream, if you are unable to initiate the first step? Is my time be better spent developing other aspects of my personality that could directly benefit others? Should I be so selfish? Or does this new month provide an opportunity to address my major weakness - is it time to be courageous and explain..? More likely I'll continue being as foolish in April, as I was in March.
    582 Posted by Rachel de Blanc
  • Is it foolish to dream of femininity and spend time chasing that dream, if you are unable to initiate the first step? Is my time be better spent developing other aspects of my personality that could directly benefit others? Should I be so selfish? Or does this new month provide an opportunity to address my major weakness - is it time to be courageous and explain..? More likely I'll continue being as foolish in April, as I was in March.
    Apr 01, 2008 582
  • 27 Mar 2008
    It strikes me that Blogging is a rather peculiar activity. Whilst Pepys might approve of any commitment to a written journal, I'm not certain that he'd score the content of some of them at all highly. This Blog is a case in point. I mean....why?! Future rules for adding to this Blog might be: 1. Consider whether I actually have anything to say prior to commencing. 2. Consider whether what I am thinking of saying is actually of any interest to anybody else. 3. Consider whether I should be spending my time doing something more useful. 4. Keep it short. 5. Write something of greater length and with more substance. 6. Be more frivolous. 7. Stray into serious waters. 8. Express yourself. 9. Don't reveal too much. 10. Entertain. 11. Inform. 12. Be current. 13. Remember - you're a woman. 14. Don't discriminate. 15. Tell the truth. 16. Remember you're not actually a woman but with a bit more application.. 17. Avoid lists. and 18. Don't start a blog if your Dinner's overcooking.
    618 Posted by Rachel de Blanc
  • It strikes me that Blogging is a rather peculiar activity. Whilst Pepys might approve of any commitment to a written journal, I'm not certain that he'd score the content of some of them at all highly. This Blog is a case in point. I mean....why?! Future rules for adding to this Blog might be: 1. Consider whether I actually have anything to say prior to commencing. 2. Consider whether what I am thinking of saying is actually of any interest to anybody else. 3. Consider whether I should be spending my time doing something more useful. 4. Keep it short. 5. Write something of greater length and with more substance. 6. Be more frivolous. 7. Stray into serious waters. 8. Express yourself. 9. Don't reveal too much. 10. Entertain. 11. Inform. 12. Be current. 13. Remember - you're a woman. 14. Don't discriminate. 15. Tell the truth. 16. Remember you're not actually a woman but with a bit more application.. 17. Avoid lists. and 18. Don't start a blog if your Dinner's overcooking.
    Mar 27, 2008 618