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  • 20 Apr 2019
    Reposting a poem I wrote a few years ago about how I feel inside....
    71 Posted by Michelle Lynn
  • Reposting a poem I wrote a few years ago about how I feel inside....
    Apr 20, 2019 71
  • 20 Apr 2019
    Hi Everyone, I'm a former GS member, returning and hopefully reconnecting with old friends and acquaintances. Since my previous posts no longer exist, I thought it would be good to start with my story:  Like many of you here, I knew I was TG at early age (7) , but found it impossible to act upon it. I became very good at hiding who I was, but always had this storm raging inside me. There were the episodes of "borrowing" my mothers cloths and dressing up, but that was not a real help.  I also sometimes wondered if I was just trying to be Michelle as an elaborate way to masterbate and not a true reflection of my inner self. This doubt went away, as I realized that the storm inside me subsided and became a calm meadow or a peaceful pond. Any thought of masterbation while dressed, went away. My heart was telling me that I was most at peace as Michelle and it was my true feeling inside.     My social life has had few male friends in it. I simply didn't share the interests that guys enjoy. However, I've always had alot of female friends that I loved spending time with. Instead, music, cooking, photography, skating, computers, and writing became my interests. I still remember wanting so much to wear one of those cute skating skirts and just be me in the skating rink.   As I grew older, social pressure to conform grew bigger and bigger. So I suppressed Michelle and tried to adopt some of the male interests. I started to date women (as a male), but started to over compensate.  They became targets for sex, which caused me pain.  As I was making love as a male, inside, I imagined it was me as the girl. Then I met my future wife.   I fell for her, but didn't know what to do. We dated for 5 years and eventually got married. I buried Michelle even deeper and didn't tell my wife about Michelle until years later, when it became unbearable to keep my secret.   I handled revealing Michelle to her badly. I simply got dressed as Michelle one day and met her (as Michelle) when she got home. She was devastated. She moved out for about a week and then came back.came back.  She said she didn't want to see me as Michelle, but understood my issues.    A sort of detente was reached. I could be Michelle, but not to flaunt it in her face.   We also worked on the "Trust" issues of not having told her about that part of me in the first place.     Today, I work from my home office (as Michelle) and present as my male alter ego when my wife wants to do anything.  It's not ideal, as my original plan was to fully transition and live as the true me, but I love my wife.   So, Thats my story.   Linda T, I noticed you posting was from 2014.  What has happened since then?   Hugs, Michelle Lynn
    63 Posted by Michelle Lynn
  • Hi Everyone, I'm a former GS member, returning and hopefully reconnecting with old friends and acquaintances. Since my previous posts no longer exist, I thought it would be good to start with my story:  Like many of you here, I knew I was TG at early age (7) , but found it impossible to act upon it. I became very good at hiding who I was, but always had this storm raging inside me. There were the episodes of "borrowing" my mothers cloths and dressing up, but that was not a real help.  I also sometimes wondered if I was just trying to be Michelle as an elaborate way to masterbate and not a true reflection of my inner self. This doubt went away, as I realized that the storm inside me subsided and became a calm meadow or a peaceful pond. Any thought of masterbation while dressed, went away. My heart was telling me that I was most at peace as Michelle and it was my true feeling inside.     My social life has had few male friends in it. I simply didn't share the interests that guys enjoy. However, I've always had alot of female friends that I loved spending time with. Instead, music, cooking, photography, skating, computers, and writing became my interests. I still remember wanting so much to wear one of those cute skating skirts and just be me in the skating rink.   As I grew older, social pressure to conform grew bigger and bigger. So I suppressed Michelle and tried to adopt some of the male interests. I started to date women (as a male), but started to over compensate.  They became targets for sex, which caused me pain.  As I was making love as a male, inside, I imagined it was me as the girl. Then I met my future wife.   I fell for her, but didn't know what to do. We dated for 5 years and eventually got married. I buried Michelle even deeper and didn't tell my wife about Michelle until years later, when it became unbearable to keep my secret.   I handled revealing Michelle to her badly. I simply got dressed as Michelle one day and met her (as Michelle) when she got home. She was devastated. She moved out for about a week and then came back.came back.  She said she didn't want to see me as Michelle, but understood my issues.    A sort of detente was reached. I could be Michelle, but not to flaunt it in her face.   We also worked on the "Trust" issues of not having told her about that part of me in the first place.     Today, I work from my home office (as Michelle) and present as my male alter ego when my wife wants to do anything.  It's not ideal, as my original plan was to fully transition and live as the true me, but I love my wife.   So, Thats my story.   Linda T, I noticed you posting was from 2014.  What has happened since then?   Hugs, Michelle Lynn
    Apr 20, 2019 63
  • 29 Mar 2019
    Hello, it's been a little while since I last posted. I've recently been approved of getting T-shots from my endocrinologist, but I'm still having some doubts on whether they'll be helpful or not. For those who don't know, I have BDD (Body Dysmorphic Disorder) so I'm a little worried once I take these a part of me will think I look even uglier? I'm really hoping that's not the case, but is it really worth the risk and money? I just can't decide... Any advice would be greatly appreciated. In all honesty... I'd rather be an "ugly" male than an attractive female, but... I still worry about how I'll react to the results. 
    98 Posted by Kris McKinley
  • Hello, it's been a little while since I last posted. I've recently been approved of getting T-shots from my endocrinologist, but I'm still having some doubts on whether they'll be helpful or not. For those who don't know, I have BDD (Body Dysmorphic Disorder) so I'm a little worried once I take these a part of me will think I look even uglier? I'm really hoping that's not the case, but is it really worth the risk and money? I just can't decide... Any advice would be greatly appreciated. In all honesty... I'd rather be an "ugly" male than an attractive female, but... I still worry about how I'll react to the results. 
    Mar 29, 2019 98
  • 24 Jan 2019
    Hello Ladies - Galaxy Girl's annual post to wrap up 2018 and look ahead to 2019 - wow does time go by and Super wow, what a year 2018 was. I do not even know where to begin - At the start of 2018 I had one friend on facebook, a dear life-long friend who I did not have the nerve to tell my secret to. I had just told my doctor and therapist in 2017 and was now on hormones for 4 months at the start of that year - and things were certainly a changin' as it is said. More than physical it was emotional, even philosophical - I somehow had gained enormous confidence in myself and was quite out daily - nails were done, only women's clothes daily - even when encountering my parents ( that tale requires its own blog - it's weird ). I had gone to bed in Dec of 2017 with a single prayer - crying i asked for just one friend. Due to circumstances that science and probability cannot explain I stumbled across another tgirl and would you believe - she is in my graduating class and lived 3 blocks from me growing up! With now 2 friends on facebook and 1 who knows and 1 who does not, suddenly - before revealing myself a dozen or so high school friends requested friendship - I hesitantly said yes telling myself I want them to see my published books and maybe I can sell some. Deep down I knew this to be a lie. In my mind's eye I could see a table of a dozen of us there and only 2 know my secret - I couldn't deal with that and hated the lie - so best to do - read my last blog is it he letter I posted with pictures and the world has never been the same.  Friends have been enormously supportive, communicative, and we interact often - I even see my high school physics teacher at one or more restaurants monthly with conversations that last for hours on every topic imaginable - he is deeply caring, philosophical, intelligent and has the soul of a saint. My other friends have many similar tales of restaurants and such - this is a big thing to me - I'm totally out and they are there with me - great talks, hugs, conversations of jobs, kids, homes, pets, health, hopes and fears, and all other things too. One friend is a the dearest - she not only wanted to get together, she then asks 'so when is the coming out party' - which we organized at my parents house - can you believe it - my father even took pictures of me with my gal pals which we are the group that sees each other often. We went to restaurants, shopping, even have a cookathon at one of my friend's homes - note I have done of these things ever - I have not been to a restaurant in over 10 years for many reasons for example. My really close friend even bought me a dress ( after measuring me in a bathroom at one of our restaurant outings - teehee ). These friends have helped me mentally, emotionally, motivationally, and energy-wise beyond my imagination in more ways than I can even tell all of you here. My sister in law even whispered in my ear on Christmas Day - I have always wanted a sister - can you believe it??!! The year of 2018 I fully to my soul, my core, and my whole being I became and am Briana - the girl I have always been since age 5 and struggled with for over 40 years from that time until I came out to myself in 2012 and  began the progression to where I am today and ever moving forward. Last year was the quantum leap that solidified my whole being.  Now at the start of 2019 - Looking to a job - I have even applied to nearly 10 posted positions at 4 universities and guess what - as myself - Briana no less!! I have been and am on hormones for 1.3 years as of this writing and it certainly shows - the early photos long ago and now - I smile from ear to ear with sheer delight at all of the major and even minor changes - plus the overall total balance of my being - the serenity, harmony, overall sense of happiness and well-being that is through my whole person - I have no negative element in me at all - it is awesome. I have a number of friends from here on facebook - if you like - look me up and ask - that would be really cool.  This year has not only a job hunt and believe me success in the future but then on to other things - my therapist and another one for my letters for the operation and electrolysis and all things. Always reaching for the woman I am and living as the woman I am each and every moment of the day and in all years.  Always embracing great health, hope, harmony, and happiness that I often wish others. Always living as I have seen myself, the woman I am, Briana Purcell, the Galaxy Girl all my life.  Thank you for the time in reading this. Thank you Gender Society which I recommend often to others as I encounter them due to your support and the great people here that gave me the initial confidence I needed so long ago and has helped me arrive here and move ever forward. All the best to each of you in your journey. Note there are days I feel sad, blue, and there are some bumps in the road hither and tither but at the core I am always myself and you know what? That is all I need and the knowledge that the sun comes up again tomorrow. In the long run all the good will outweigh the bad because I only radiate positive vibes all the time.  I find myself in a state of happy self all the time - fully being the girl, the Galaxy Girl at that, has been the single most important thing in all of my life. Hugs, Briana Purcell : )
    169 Posted by Briana Purcell
  • Hello Ladies - Galaxy Girl's annual post to wrap up 2018 and look ahead to 2019 - wow does time go by and Super wow, what a year 2018 was. I do not even know where to begin - At the start of 2018 I had one friend on facebook, a dear life-long friend who I did not have the nerve to tell my secret to. I had just told my doctor and therapist in 2017 and was now on hormones for 4 months at the start of that year - and things were certainly a changin' as it is said. More than physical it was emotional, even philosophical - I somehow had gained enormous confidence in myself and was quite out daily - nails were done, only women's clothes daily - even when encountering my parents ( that tale requires its own blog - it's weird ). I had gone to bed in Dec of 2017 with a single prayer - crying i asked for just one friend. Due to circumstances that science and probability cannot explain I stumbled across another tgirl and would you believe - she is in my graduating class and lived 3 blocks from me growing up! With now 2 friends on facebook and 1 who knows and 1 who does not, suddenly - before revealing myself a dozen or so high school friends requested friendship - I hesitantly said yes telling myself I want them to see my published books and maybe I can sell some. Deep down I knew this to be a lie. In my mind's eye I could see a table of a dozen of us there and only 2 know my secret - I couldn't deal with that and hated the lie - so best to do - read my last blog is it he letter I posted with pictures and the world has never been the same.  Friends have been enormously supportive, communicative, and we interact often - I even see my high school physics teacher at one or more restaurants monthly with conversations that last for hours on every topic imaginable - he is deeply caring, philosophical, intelligent and has the soul of a saint. My other friends have many similar tales of restaurants and such - this is a big thing to me - I'm totally out and they are there with me - great talks, hugs, conversations of jobs, kids, homes, pets, health, hopes and fears, and all other things too. One friend is a the dearest - she not only wanted to get together, she then asks 'so when is the coming out party' - which we organized at my parents house - can you believe it - my father even took pictures of me with my gal pals which we are the group that sees each other often. We went to restaurants, shopping, even have a cookathon at one of my friend's homes - note I have done of these things ever - I have not been to a restaurant in over 10 years for many reasons for example. My really close friend even bought me a dress ( after measuring me in a bathroom at one of our restaurant outings - teehee ). These friends have helped me mentally, emotionally, motivationally, and energy-wise beyond my imagination in more ways than I can even tell all of you here. My sister in law even whispered in my ear on Christmas Day - I have always wanted a sister - can you believe it??!! The year of 2018 I fully to my soul, my core, and my whole being I became and am Briana - the girl I have always been since age 5 and struggled with for over 40 years from that time until I came out to myself in 2012 and  began the progression to where I am today and ever moving forward. Last year was the quantum leap that solidified my whole being.  Now at the start of 2019 - Looking to a job - I have even applied to nearly 10 posted positions at 4 universities and guess what - as myself - Briana no less!! I have been and am on hormones for 1.3 years as of this writing and it certainly shows - the early photos long ago and now - I smile from ear to ear with sheer delight at all of the major and even minor changes - plus the overall total balance of my being - the serenity, harmony, overall sense of happiness and well-being that is through my whole person - I have no negative element in me at all - it is awesome. I have a number of friends from here on facebook - if you like - look me up and ask - that would be really cool.  This year has not only a job hunt and believe me success in the future but then on to other things - my therapist and another one for my letters for the operation and electrolysis and all things. Always reaching for the woman I am and living as the woman I am each and every moment of the day and in all years.  Always embracing great health, hope, harmony, and happiness that I often wish others. Always living as I have seen myself, the woman I am, Briana Purcell, the Galaxy Girl all my life.  Thank you for the time in reading this. Thank you Gender Society which I recommend often to others as I encounter them due to your support and the great people here that gave me the initial confidence I needed so long ago and has helped me arrive here and move ever forward. All the best to each of you in your journey. Note there are days I feel sad, blue, and there are some bumps in the road hither and tither but at the core I am always myself and you know what? That is all I need and the knowledge that the sun comes up again tomorrow. In the long run all the good will outweigh the bad because I only radiate positive vibes all the time.  I find myself in a state of happy self all the time - fully being the girl, the Galaxy Girl at that, has been the single most important thing in all of my life. Hugs, Briana Purcell : )
    Jan 24, 2019 169
  • 15 Jan 2019
    Its  been a  very  long  time  that I  ve  been here  on  site , chatted  or  written anything  So please  forgive me .  It s  known that  I  used  to  be  here on site a  lot  in the  past and  helped out where I  can .  As  Times  changed I  more  or  less stopped being  here as  my  life changed after the death  of  my  Father  in  2012 .  Now  again My  life  has  once  more  changed with  the recent  death  of  my  Mother  and  it was only  weeks away  from  Christmas . The  month  of  December was  not  good  one  for  me but I  do  have  some wonderful  support both  my  family and  now my  Gf  whom I 'm soon to marry in the year of  2019 .  Now  that  I  have  returned  to  GS  I  have  to  wonder  how many  of  my former  Sisters  here are  left or  remember me ? I  would  love to  hear  again  from some  that  do  know me and  I  d  like  to  Hi  to  Katie Glover   …..I'm  Back !!  … LOve  Karen Tea . 
    136 Posted by Karen Tea
  • Its  been a  very  long  time  that I  ve  been here  on  site , chatted  or  written anything  So please  forgive me .  It s  known that  I  used  to  be  here on site a  lot  in the  past and  helped out where I  can .  As  Times  changed I  more  or  less stopped being  here as  my  life changed after the death  of  my  Father  in  2012 .  Now  again My  life  has  once  more  changed with  the recent  death  of  my  Mother  and  it was only  weeks away  from  Christmas . The  month  of  December was  not  good  one  for  me but I  do  have  some wonderful  support both  my  family and  now my  Gf  whom I 'm soon to marry in the year of  2019 .  Now  that  I  have  returned  to  GS  I  have  to  wonder  how many  of  my former  Sisters  here are  left or  remember me ? I  would  love to  hear  again  from some  that  do  know me and  I  d  like  to  Hi  to  Katie Glover   …..I'm  Back !!  … LOve  Karen Tea . 
    Jan 15, 2019 136
  • 11 Jan 2019
    Hello everyone, I don't know if you remember me since it's been so long lol. I'm glad to be back though! I'm still in the writing business! I'm working on some things now and my current project is about a recurring nightmare I recently had. It's about me visiting myself as a male teenager and basically, what happens is it's a parallel universe so everybody is completely different! I want to share this with the world, but the problem is... In the dream my female self and male self argue over who's life is better and who has it easier... I grew up in a very sexist household, unfortunately, but I also definitely had gender dysphoria. Since the age of 2, I tried to stand when urinating, wanted to be called "he", and even gave myself multiple UTI's from ignoring that part of my body time and time again wanting to believe I "should have a penis like dad". Still, my 2 selves arguing whose life is easier comes off as sexist it seems... Should I really share this nightmare? If I do, should I not call the character trans? I have a story in mind that includes a childhood like mine already so I really just want this story to be about the nightmare alone, but I see people commenting "This is not gender dysphoria, it's just sexism" when they see what it's about. Any advice? It feels good to be back and I don't mind skipping this piece of work if it isn't good.
    123 Posted by Kris McKinley
  • Hello everyone, I don't know if you remember me since it's been so long lol. I'm glad to be back though! I'm still in the writing business! I'm working on some things now and my current project is about a recurring nightmare I recently had. It's about me visiting myself as a male teenager and basically, what happens is it's a parallel universe so everybody is completely different! I want to share this with the world, but the problem is... In the dream my female self and male self argue over who's life is better and who has it easier... I grew up in a very sexist household, unfortunately, but I also definitely had gender dysphoria. Since the age of 2, I tried to stand when urinating, wanted to be called "he", and even gave myself multiple UTI's from ignoring that part of my body time and time again wanting to believe I "should have a penis like dad". Still, my 2 selves arguing whose life is easier comes off as sexist it seems... Should I really share this nightmare? If I do, should I not call the character trans? I have a story in mind that includes a childhood like mine already so I really just want this story to be about the nightmare alone, but I see people commenting "This is not gender dysphoria, it's just sexism" when they see what it's about. Any advice? It feels good to be back and I don't mind skipping this piece of work if it isn't good.
    Jan 11, 2019 123
  • 11 Jan 2019
    I know it’s automated, but the receipt of a Happy Birthday email from GenderSociety still feels lovely. Thank you and
    137 Posted by Rachel de Blanc
  • I know it’s automated, but the receipt of a Happy Birthday email from GenderSociety still feels lovely. Thank you and
    Jan 11, 2019 137
  • 09 Jan 2019
    Well, its been AGES since i was here ( 5yrs+) i think mainly as i lost my log in details and had to start again but i have these ones stored in a safe place now....my head lol.
    121 Posted by Anna Trindall
  • Well, its been AGES since i was here ( 5yrs+) i think mainly as i lost my log in details and had to start again but i have these ones stored in a safe place now....my head lol.
    Jan 09, 2019 121
  • 19 Dec 2018
    hey y'all! my bi-yearly blog! summer is over in South Carolina but it was a great year of surfing and sun. did well in a few surf contests in Florida; i met a bunch of girl surfers at last years contest and we all meet up at various contset venues in FL. so much fun! My job is so funny at times: i workin power tool dept, and if a guy is standing with me, customers always ask him, not me! lol! one of my co-workers says, "ask her, she knows more than any of us!" Contractor-types always try to trip me up, asking for a tool in it's slang name, like I would have no idea.
    197 Posted by robin w
  • By robin w
    hey y'all! my bi-yearly blog! summer is over in South Carolina but it was a great year of surfing and sun. did well in a few surf contests in Florida; i met a bunch of girl surfers at last years contest and we all meet up at various contset venues in FL. so much fun! My job is so funny at times: i workin power tool dept, and if a guy is standing with me, customers always ask him, not me! lol! one of my co-workers says, "ask her, she knows more than any of us!" Contractor-types always try to trip me up, asking for a tool in it's slang name, like I would have no idea.
    Dec 19, 2018 197
  • 28 Aug 2018
    Hey y'all! I do not recall if i mentioned this before, but justvabout a year ago (!), i was fired from my job at a well known mostly women's department store. Reason is not important, but i did post a few times how another TG woman, who did not pass at all, recognized that i was TG as well, and she became an appendage to me. So much so that co-workers who initially saw me as female, discovered i was TG. In short, it became a very unhappy place for me to work. So kind of a blessing in disguise, as my new job is so much easier on me as there is no question to my gender. Strange that when i lived in Massachusetts, i also worked at a woman's store, and half the women accepted me. But MA, northeast in general, is accepting of LGBTQ ppl, where in the South, i live in SC now, it is not so accepting. having an enlightened population is comforting. Here in South Carolina, I feel like I'm walking on eggs part of the time. But all in all, I'm a little happier.
    295 Posted by robin w
  • By robin w
    Hey y'all! I do not recall if i mentioned this before, but justvabout a year ago (!), i was fired from my job at a well known mostly women's department store. Reason is not important, but i did post a few times how another TG woman, who did not pass at all, recognized that i was TG as well, and she became an appendage to me. So much so that co-workers who initially saw me as female, discovered i was TG. In short, it became a very unhappy place for me to work. So kind of a blessing in disguise, as my new job is so much easier on me as there is no question to my gender. Strange that when i lived in Massachusetts, i also worked at a woman's store, and half the women accepted me. But MA, northeast in general, is accepting of LGBTQ ppl, where in the South, i live in SC now, it is not so accepting. having an enlightened population is comforting. Here in South Carolina, I feel like I'm walking on eggs part of the time. But all in all, I'm a little happier.
    Aug 28, 2018 295