Well i think as i worry less about passing i do so much better. The way i think is changing again. I consider myself first and formost a lesbian. If i was to do this any other way i would be further behind in my preparedness for life. This is just purely the way that i have things work in my head by the way and as I'm nuts dont think this is a norm.
On Australia day i walked into the the toilets of one of the places we went. As i walked in i was disgusted by the mess that people had made. There was a girl standing there looking in the mirror and she agve me a funny look and i thought she was going to say something bad. She asked me whats wrong, I just said i was disgusted by the state of the toilets. She laughed and told me that she had just thought "wow she looks angry" we had a good long chat. she told me she loved my top and that she needed to lose some more weight to look as good as me!
Now I could have given it away thinking like a tranny. Trying to defend my rights to be a woman or i could just get on with BEING a woman and get lovely coments about my taste in clothes from other women in the ladies!
Just my thoughts anyway. Feel free to say that I am nuts or disagree. I'm just sharing the way i think with you all.
To love what one has is to be resigned to never get what one wants.
Natalie Clifford Barney.