December 12, 2006 10:16 PM GMT
Well Sara, you are not the only one to be found in the smoking area. Smoking being the barometer of my self-worth, my emotional crutch, a lonely girls only true friend. Still beautiful imaginings are a rule unto themselves. They drive us forward and compel us to pursue dreams that simply disappear into the ether. " The young have aspirations that never come to pass, the old have reminiscences of what never happened." I think a meadow is out of the question though being a hay-fever sufferer. I have my ways. Sometimes I'm happy, other times I am overwhelmed by dark thoughts. So which is the real me? I'm not a fake though. A fake is something that pertains to be what is isn't, and I have never done that. Never mind, blessed as I am , an incoherent thought, an ill-judged comment, an accident waiting to happen. Lots of interesting comments from everyone. All very positive, thankyou, thankyou,thankyou . . .
December 13, 2006 12:11 AM GMT
The smking area is possibly the best part of SCC. Whatever will we do next year when we have all quit smoking?
December 13, 2006 9:39 AM GMT
Robyn
Good question?????
December 10, 2006 1:42 AM GMT
I agree with Robyn. Your identity matters most.
That said, I often wonder whether I am a fake. I like to dress up in women's clothes from time to time. In secret. Does that make me a tranny? Does that make me a "girl" for the purposes of this site? What is feminine identity anyway?
I wish I knew why I wanted to dress up. Is it just an erotic sensation? Or a very deep desire to be like someone of the opposite sex? Earlier tonight I watched "The Thomas Crown Affair" and all my thoughts were for Faye Dunwaye: such long, slim legs, such a woman. So often I see women dressed as women and my desire is to be dressed the same way.
December 10, 2006 12:33 PM GMT
Your not faking, your learning. The hardest part of being yourself is knowing who you are. In our case thats made more difficult bt sharing both male & female traits.
Just follow your heart & be the person you feel yourself to be.
Theres nothing fake about that.
December 11, 2006 8:47 AM GMT
Interesting......I always feel I'm faking it by being my normal drab self since that isn't who I am. And yes, I am one of those people who married and had children before I was able to come to terms with who I was. Still married and very happy but I often wonder how it might have been had I resolved this earlier. As it stands now, I wouldn't have surgery because of my wife and children, although she knows that that is what I would have done had the opporunity presented itself.
Life is a compromise at times and I'm happy with the way my has turned out.
December 12, 2006 12:51 AM GMT
I always used to feel like a fake, and as such had little self-worth.
But I'm alright now, going full-time was a good move.
xx
December 13, 2006 2:04 AM GMT
“Whatever will we do next year when we have all quit smoking?”
Go fly with the pigs?
xx