October 24, 2009 4:45 PM BST
''Stay in love with the woman you have been sharing your life with'' Probably the wisest things said in this thread, Give her time.
Natalie, the usual go for it, the dresses shoes etc, what a load of insensative rubish. Women marry MEN because they are men, they fall in love with that man, normally that man falls in love with that woman, trying to supress his/her GID, to live a normal life per se. The husband later on finds he can no longer supress his gender identity discomfort. That does'nt mean he/she can just basically throw everything away. there are feelings of guilt, dissapointment. the fear of being hated. the love and support from the wife over previous unrelated issues. Contrary to the go for it approach, some people give this serious consideration, some actually abandoning their imediate dreams and feelings to fullfill promises and comitments. You make it sound as tho one should just go ahead making out that wives are just leaches, I'm sure they put far more into a marriage than just bringing home the cash.
Think the first thing is to get a diagnosis, learn as much as you can about the various aspects of GID and transexulasim, so that if eventually you decide a continuation of life as a male is unbearable, then you can explain logically and in depth, what you are and how you feel. Hoping, that whilst you and the wife might part, it will be amicable with understanding and a feeling of love still being there. How will you feel, if eventually she meets another MAN?
One thing you will have to consider, if you don't transitiopn, will you resent it and basically subconciously blame her causing a rift in your relationship anyway? She will obviouly be devestated and feel you have lied to her, hiding things. Even if she comes to terms with your dressing, how far would she allow you to go, OUT, trips to the shops? how much will you be content with and will she be paranoid that you will eventually want to go all the way anyway?
Your own concience and needs will rule, Not the ''Go for it'' advocating idiots.
support and helpful advice is one thing, the ''go for it'' recruiters to boost the tranny army on the basis they did it there way is no solution.
xxXCristineXxxx
June 15, 2009 9:33 AM BST
Personally that situation has never applied to me, thankgod, But i know a few that have sacrificed their aims and dreams, to placate partners and honour comitments they have made, Many of them end up living a life of resentment, Others, their partners knowing about their husbands/partners dreams, live in fear and trepedation, wondering when the need will raise its ugly head again, becoming paranoid and resentful. Both not good for a lasting and loving relationship, a few have transitioned with their wives/partners help and stayed together, another one she supported her husband throught the transitioning process,
The wife then finding a new partner, which was then resented by the transitioning husband. Only you can know how supportive your partner will be. Taking into account wife children family etc, To be true to yourself, can sometimes be a very selfish thing.
I honestly don't know what I would have done if I had children, but for me that option was denied me anyway, Best of luck.
Hugs Cristine
June 15, 2009 9:40 AM BST
Not in your shoes as I'm not married. But what to do?
That can only be decided by you as each life is it's own. If you realy feel that you want to take it further I'd start with someone to talk with. Yes I mean a shrink.
June 16, 2009 3:00 AM BST
Rachel,
It brings me close to tears to read your questions. I know that there is unlikely to be any solution that will not contain some pain and loss. That is about the only guarantee I can make. Even in the best of circumstances and the acceptance of one's SO, there will be issues. The advice you have received in this thread is all good. You have to find your own path. You do not, however, have to do it alone. Try to get your head sorted first. Only then will you be ready to help your partner to deal with her issues. Eventually, it will probably need to all come out, no matter what course of action that you take. Best of luck to you and I hope for an optimal outcome to your quandry.
June 17, 2009 9:03 AM BST
Rachel,
There is nothing wrong with a little anxiety in situation that requires serious consideration. It makes us careful. What I'm trying to say is that these things are seldom an all or nothing case. How you handle it can only work within the limits of the other partner's issues with such things. I have an SO who sends gifts to "Wendy" and brings me boxes of clothes and fashion magazines every time she visits. She helped me study brain sex and gender for years before I discovered Wendy. She's quite learned about GLBT issues. She loves going out places with me because of who I have become. She totally accepts me. However, everything is not perfect in our relationship. What relationship is. Things changed. Open-minded, accepting...yes. Without her own issues? No, she has issues. It's important to prepare for these as it can make your case for acceptance far more likely. I know this means so much to you and sometimes it just grabs me deep inside when I empathize with my Sisters' situations. It's one reason I closed up and lost myself at a young age. That is MY issue, however. Just walk carefully and take the time necessary to do this right.
June 17, 2009 3:54 PM BST
Rachel, I know only too well of the dilema you face and you can seek all the advice you want here but it won't do you a bit of good, as there as those who think that you should do whatever it takes and then there are the others who say that you are not the only factor in this. Advice is great, but this everyone's situation is unique and only you are qualified to decide which path to take. Wouldn't it be so much easier to transition AND keep your partner? Sadly, that is a very rare occurance though there are a number here who have been able to do so.
You don't mention whether or not children are involved. If they are, than that puts even greater pressure on any decision taken as it will affect them for the rest of their lives. Even if you stay together adn transition, they can come under riducle because of a parents change of gender. We all remember what the playground is like, so bitchy at times.
If it is just the two of you, what are your partners thoughts on this? Are you married or not? That can have obvious financial implications if you separate, and for someone like me, moral ones too.
I am in a similar situation, but have made the difficult decision to try not to transition, (note the word 'try'), as having entered a marriage, and with children involved, I am obligated towards those commitments I made, and morally, I cannot walk away from them. But that's just me. I think I have a good balance that stops me going crazy but it's not easy by any means. However, I believe that what I have in my family is well worth the struggle.
As I said before, only you can choose what is best for you, but remember that when that decision is made, there is likely to be no going back so make sure you get it right.
Good luck.
Nikki
October 25, 2009 11:51 PM GMT
Bottom line first. Only you can decide what is right for your situation. And as has been mentioned above, this can range from doing nothing to going all the way.
I took the latter route, it being impossible to continue as I was. I was neither the man that got married or the father I should have been, and I was getting scared about the way I was treating my family.
Others have stayed put, put their own feelings and needs on the back burner, and continued with a 'normal' life.
Currently I am sitting next to my 15yr old son, chatting computers and watching television. He is staying with me for half term. I left the family home when he was 7 to transition and become full-time. I did so for his sake as much as anything else, to preempt any form of bullying or peer pressure, and we have remained close.
I am still in regular contact with my ex wife and have a reasonable relationship with the guy she now lives with. We all went on holiday together camping this summer.
The choice was damned hard, but was for me the best and only choice. Rebuilding relationships took a long time and a lot of effort, but the end result is I am happy, my lad is settled and accepting, and I still have my family, though with my ex as a friend rather than partner, and my mum is ok now, though she will never understand.
You must decide which way is best for you. Hopefully reading others stories will help you make that decision.
Sue. XX