A line crossed...

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  • I have been walking round smiling at myself today.Why? Because three years after my first visit to a therapist,I did something totally female,without any planning or forethought.Not much,just a simple act,but it meant a lot.
    Like most of us(I suspect),before venturing out,at least some though goes into what to wear and the associated make-up etc.and I was no exception,even though I have been full-time for 2 1/2 years.Just a trip to the local shop in jeans and top mode required some work,because I WOULD NOT go out without doing justice to my new gender.
    So what was different today? Got up late-well it is sunday-breakfasted,lazed around a bit and so on.Needed some cigarettes(no lectures please) and some other things,so off to the shop.Still in lazy mode.Jeans, t-shirt,trainers,and go.Normal routine for most of the women I know.Wrong! Usual check in mirror as I leave caused an immediate halt to proceedings.I found I COULD NOT go out the door looking like that,despite having done so on previous occasions.The clothes were fine,they're all womens anyway,but the hair and face-no way.
    Fifteen minutes later I was 'presentable'.
    Like I said,nothing much to shout about,but to me it was such a feminine reaction,after 'actng' so often,and thinking ahead for what seems so long,I just felt good about myself.
    There's hope for me yet :)
    Sue.X
    Sue. X Psychiatrists are like the eunuch in the harem. They know what transvestism is, they can describe it, they can demonstrate it, but they cant actually explain it!
      August 26, 2002 1:23 AM BST
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  • Good on you, Sue

    Hugs

    Sarah
      August 31, 2002 10:11 AM BST
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  • hope the rollercoaster isnt too rough now you got your decision from the doctors honey, and if i been a bit hard in mail and posts, forebearance may be the word needed to resume normal operational status. thanks for YOUR support to me.

    j.
    i admire your continuing determination.
    patience is a virtue, or is it simply a card game, and whos the dealer?
      October 13, 2002 6:37 PM BST
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  • Thanks Julie.All proceeding at usual rate-SLOWLY! So,to quote the old saw,I'll continue to 'hurry up and wait'.
    Hugs,Sue.XX
    Sue. X Psychiatrists are like the eunuch in the harem. They know what transvestism is, they can describe it, they can demonstrate it, but they cant actually explain it!
      October 13, 2002 8:20 PM BST
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