July 17, 2008 7:30 PM BST
Hi WynonnaRose,
I've read your other posts here in the Forums, but didn't reply to any of them, so far, as the other girls were giving you good, solid and considered advice, so, really, I had nothing new or different to add.
However, I have to re-iterate what's already been said in another thread, that this "situation" re: bras bring up again.
You have to take control of your own life !
If your girlfriend is SO anti your dressing, outs you to everybody without your permission, belittles you, and "steals" your clothes, and other things, you have to ask yourself, "Is this who I want to spend my life with?"
An honest search of your own thoughts and feelings may well be the best thing you can do for yourself, at present.
If you can't, or won't, take control of your own life, you'll find it increasingly difficult to do anything for yourself, be it "dressing" or anything else.
Is your relationship with your girlfriend more important to you than your own happiness?
I don't want or mean to be "hard", but sometimes difficult situations have to be faced. Maybe, that is what's required here.
If I've been harsh, i apologise, but my comments are made with the best of intentions ............... your happiness!
Hugs,
Angela. xx.
July 17, 2008 8:13 PM BST
Angela.
Yes I do have some hard decisions to me i my life as to my personal relationship. I have left several time with intent to stay gone but my gf likes to play the guilt game a lot and I just keep falling for it. I guess my heart is too big for its own good. I do not think you are being at all harsh in your statements to me. I think you are being yourself and I think you are giving good advice. I think my problem is I fear being alone and lonely and I just feel I don't want to go through my life in transition alone with no support or not influence from another female. I have been told though many times Angela that to be a success story in transition as a TS one must never attempt to transition with a gg in your life especially one who doesn't accept nor approve of it. I know I don't need validation or acceptance nor approval as this is my own life but I'd like to at least know I have someone on my side going through this important journey in my life. I am for the most part upset with her outing me everywhere she goes to people she meets. I have talked to her about it many times but I can't stop her from talking about me to others. Many times she does it when I am not there and for the most part it is all done behind my back. The reason I even know about it is because she brings it up to me that she has been telling others about my being the way I am and wanting what I want for my life. I think she does is to make me fearful on purpose of coming out publicly and to keep me from dressing femme and going out in public. I think she also is jealous and sees me as a threat because she knows I look better than her when dressed out in femme mode.
July 17, 2008 8:56 PM BST
WynonnaRose,
"I have been told though many times Angela that to be a success in transition as a TS one must never attempt to transition with a GG in your life"
WHO THE H*LL TOLD YOU THAT PILE OF SH*T !!!!!
I've never heard such a piece of rubbish !!
Whoever told you has absolutely NO idea what they're talking about !!
If you read a lot of posts here, you'll quickly realise that quite a number of us here are in very happy, long term relationships/marriages.
Please STOP listening to those who know nothing about what you're going through.
Your girlfriends attitude and behaviour is doing you "no favours" either!
We here can't tell you what to do, and we'd never try to, but, have a close look at what's going on around you, and decide if that's what you really want.
Hugs,
Angela. xx.
July 17, 2008 10:40 PM BST
WynonnaRose, hon--
Angela's right.
"I have been told though many times Angela that to be a success in transition as a TS one must never attempt to transition with a GG in your life"
That is a load of crap, dear. While I have no intentions--right now--of "finishing" (i.e., SRS) my transition, I have gone really far with the GG I married. I don't mind living as a Non-op MtF; I live mostly as a woman and am quite well adjusted. Having my SO to bounce things off of is a blessing, not a curse.
"Please STOP listening to those who know nothing about what you're going through. Your girlfriends attitude and behaviour is doing you 'no favours' either!"
is just a blunt way of saying
"...your GG GF is holding you back. Since you are not married, and since she is so worried about how she is perceived...perhaps you need to examine that relationship. Your own mental health is important, and as a TS you need to take a certain amount of care of yourself. (It is different when you are married, as I am.)"
You're not alone anymore, dear. While we are not there physically, there are some 23,000+ of us here online. There are real-time support groups in or near your area, I am sure.
Go buy a new bra, and don't let her near it. Don't even let on you have it.
And let's get you securely on your journey toward womanhood. By joining Trannyweb, you've joined us on our journey!
Luv 'n hugs,
Mina Sakura