The internet is an amazing tool , it can also be a weapon. As for tool , it allows people to make friends without even meeting them. I allows people to communicate across the world , it allows places like this to exist. Without GS a lot of people would be forced to look for other places , most are not nice places to go. The only problem is , and I do see it as a problem , it is not the same as having a face to face talk. Talking face to face is a lot easier , you can see by their expressions if you are making a good situation bad or a bad situation worse.

As for a weapon! Some like to use it as one , some do but without realising it. That is where a problem can start. Once a situation gets out of control things like time difference can even cause a problem. Someone in a country far away can be hurting from the last thing you said or I said before either logs off.

One or the other has hours to think about it and the next day things are out of control.

Through something I started about a subject I hurt a very close friend here and maybe some others , that was never my intention. I do not hurt my friends face to face , but on the internet it can be very easy to do though. In the future as technology moves forward there will be a time when we will be able to see people we are talking to on the internet in our homes , as in a hologram. I wish it were here now. Imagine logging on and your friends hologram next to you. You could see how they are feeling , you would see facial expressions , you would be able to see tears. It is not here yet but it will come , I will sadly miss that. For now we have to do it the hard way.

This has been a hard time for me and a very good friend , I hurt her very bad , I will always admit to my mistakes and it was a big one. One good thing came out of it though , finally we are friends again but just with different ways and thoughts , we never lost that friendship it just went wrong. On the internet that was hard work to sort but we needed to sort it out. I did in more ways than one.

To say the past few months have been difficult for me would be a very big understatement.

Tommorow may be my last day here , I feel like a dieing battery. I am actually supposed to be at a friends birthday party right now , I just have not got the energy. When I woke up this morning I was looking forward to it. I opened my wardrobe doors looking for something to wear , a top caught my eye I bought in the sales at the end of  Janurary , it was one of those impulse buys I saw it liked it and bought it , size small , did it fit me? No it was to tight .Today it was to loose I had to use the ties at the back to make it stay up on me. I am wasting away and it is getting worse , for every pound I put on I seem to lose two.

I will be gone on Monday (don't all cheer at once) My doctor has arranged for me to see a specialist hundreds of miles from here. I do not want to leave a bad taste in others mouths just in case. I may even delete my account here tomorrow or early Monday morning just in case. . Forgive me for rambling on but , there is a moral to what I have just written.

Before you log off here each time , just make sure your friends are okay. It maybe to late tomorrow. My best wishes go to you all , Take care.

Julia.

The internet is a double edged sword.  The spitefull can use its anonimity to hurt others, but that's the way some are.  On the other hand I can log on to relatives in Australia via Skype and in a matter of seconds see and talk to them, which to someone of my age is still a minor miracle.  I wish it had been available when I was a teenager!

But I am not anonymous Heather! I am very well known. x

Julia, Julia,

Who could ever accuse you,

Of annonimity?

Well certainly not me!

You've inspired me to verse!

Now that hasn't happened for a while.

Julia you are so right about communication. There's so much more to it than can be expressed over the Internet, even with Skype or "FaceTime" or whatever else. You have expressed yourself very well. Now I'm going to try.

Right here right now, I'm sending you love and support.

Keep fighting and get well. No need to delete any accounts  : ) We need you back here.

Madeleine

Thank you Madeleine. I seriously think the doctors and myself are fighting a losing battle.

I never thought I would ever say this but I am all out of fight.

Take care and look after yourself.

Julia x

Sometimes believing you are coming out of it is half the battle to doing so. Keep believing.

Hugs,

Madeleine