Work and ME ,an adjustment?

• Posted by Donna V November 17, 2013 #  #  #Work  #financial situation  1,104 views
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  Just a quick collection of thoughts .as in the next week I will make the arrangements and announcement at work that I am Transexual and will be transitioning , will be making the request to be addressed as Donna a female , change email ,passport etc..  After lots of stops and starts , the progression of being on Hormones for over a year , and getting my head and life around to have a degree of financial security [ as much as anyone can these days ] following 2 redundencies in the last 5 years ,and 3 job changes . There is only a way forward as Donna.  I have also a long term relationship which has changed over the last 5 years , since I told my partner  I was transexual . The upds downs , and heartache, and the fact that I have "held"back for the sake of compromise, sensitivity, consideration , giveing those others the time they need. ..all those things ...I HAVE DONE.  Its now I feel my life and those around me would be so much better to make these declarations. There are just silly little incidents happening now , in my present existence maintaining a dual existence , It really makes no sense for me to continue living and expressing myself as an ambiguity denying MYself a place in life.Better I make the move now . What will I say How will I say it? . People can now  look at my face and see I am female and a woman. I will just  arrange to speak to my close and immediate  work colleagues and in a way play it by Ear, but having all the info available. My conclusion is that the move to transition now will be a beneficial  adjustment to my personal and working live .It will be a resolution that I have to make ,they can understand this. There is also the internal conclusion I came to that I was really living a half life , and most people would see a that as a full lie, [ No typo], so better fess up and move on. The majority of people actually are informed well enough about Transgendered people, and I am confident that this is the case at my present employment.

  I actually dont have a fear about doing this now, in fact I have more fear about NOT being able to do this now due to some other circumstance. I am just too tired of not being able to control my own lif.

  I am going to stop NOW and take My lovely dog Zsuska for a walk before it rains[maybe].The BLOG is looking terribly Serious and maybe intense..so time to stop. Love to you all ..XX  Donna