Jumping back on the horse

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    It's been a couple of weeks since I last did an entry. Time to catch up again. So it's been an interesting couple of weeks. I've been doing eBay like a mad thing. I love the fact that all human life is there, or more to the point, the flotsam and jetsam of all human life. You can buy literally anything there. Weirdest thing I came across was women selling used tights, presumably to foot fetishists. I love the disclaimer they write "All goods are laundered before dispatch in order to fulfill e-Bay requirements" which you kind of know is a lie, or what's the point of buying "used " hosiery? It must be a real licence to print money though. Money for old rope even, or money for old hose, as it were. Think about it. Buy some cheap tights. Wear them a couple of days, sell them. I'm sure the purchaser isn't too discerning, not bothered if you're selling them Wolford or Happy Shopper, so it's not likely to cost much. Brilliant! Wish I'd thought of it. Female emancipation through hosiery! Now there's a phrase you don't hear often, given that the idea that hosiery and heels are said to be a modern version of foot binding by some critics!

    Anyway, the title of this entry is all about getting back to shopping for female clothes. It's such a stigma (a subject for a future blog I suspect). I know people in shops aren't bothered. I know people shopping don't really take notice, but still you feel that you are the centre of attention, and not in a good way. God knows, I'm no stranger to attention seeking. I do comedy, I'm an attention seeking whore, but the feeling of self-concsciousness in even looking at female clothes en drab  is immense, but I'm getting there. Thing is I mainly looked at clothes en femme when I dressed before and felt a whole lot less awkward that way. Shopping for frocks as a guy was so much more difficult even then. To extend the analogy of horseriding, I never got thrown off, but felt unsafe up there and while I could go for a slow plod along country lanes I would definitely not be able to play polo. But as I say, I'm getting there. I need to remember the phrase "They aren't women's clothes, they're mine!"

    That brings me back to e-Bay. You don't need to go shopping with e-Bay. See something you like, bargain, then use Paypal if you win. Strangely I don't mind my male name being on a package from some anonymous person in Kings Lynn or Bury, but I become a shrinking violet in Primark, Dotty P's or even the local Oxfam. Go figure!

    Otherwise, I've been trying to get myself more trimmed. I love going to the gym. I try and do a lot of stuff. I want to do a entire blog entry on T-girl fitness. It makes sense, you don't want male-pattern fat (males are mainly "apples" with fat round our tummies, whereas genetic girls are "pears" with fat about their bums and thighs), not to mention the fact that this body shape is more closely associated with all those nasties like heart disease, strokes, diabetes etc. We as T-girls don't want bulging muscles either, we want toned and slim bodies. So the thing to look at is stuff that women do: aerobics, bums and tums classes. Pilates is good too as it is about developing "core" stability, so concentrating on the tummy and more importantly the muscles that girdle the tummy which really pull the stomach in without defining the abs too much. I love aerobics. I've been doing it for years. You do dancey moves which feel great when they work, you get a great workout and I am usually the only man in the class (if only they knew LOL), but love to feel like "one of the girls" as you do when you are a regular (once they figure you're there to workout and not to ogle sweaty women in lycra that is LOL) Cardio is important, but avoid weights unless you do an aerobic session (lower weights, and lots of reps) for toning rather than bulking. Swimming is great, though can develop the shoulders and back a little too much if you do it too often. Cycling and running are good too

    This is all in phenotypical, genetic men though, not taking femme hormones and anti-androgens. Sisters on that journey add more factors to the equation, and  I'm not prepared to say anything about that without more research, but I will. Watch this space