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I really have a difficult time when going to the mall so i tend to stay away from them. Its May and there are new fashions out for the warmer weather. If you are on the transgender spectrum which I suppose many who are on this site are, then you are looking at the women's fashions and wishing you could fit that. Many of us larger girls can tend to get depressed about not being able to wear those cute skirts and tops not to mention the sandals on my god the sandals. So how is that diet going? Not so good. I get so jealous of genetic girls and the choices that they get in fashions. So I end up taking home a new pair of shorts and two t-shirts. No new sandals no cute tops or skirts. Why couldn't I have just been born as a girl? We all ask ourselves that and think life would have been so much easier. But I guess there is no guarantee that it would have been. Would I have wished I were a guy? Statistics are against it due to the number of transmen vs transwomen. So what is it about Being female that is so alluring to us? Is it just the clothes? For me the answer is no. I want the whole lifestyle and experience. I believe that being female is more in line with who I really am and would have suited me better. I cannot deny that I am male because my body blatantly tells me that daily and of course I was raised as a boy. My mother used to tell me that I should have been a girl when I was little I guess because of my shyness and modesty and I would pick her flowers. I never can get her to tell me why she used to say that. I grew up feeling different, never dated until I was 18 never had sex until I was 27 and have never slept with anyone else and don't plan to. I am married with kids and plan on staying that way. But still there is the side of me that longs for life as a woman that never goes away and from what I have read of others with these issues...it never will.
