What's in a name?

• Posted by Briana Lynn Rekowski July 25, 2013 1,363 views
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                               What's in a name?  7/24/13
  

  Friday will be one month since I came out to my sweeties son and everything has gone very well since then.  Prior to that, I came and went, as me, as I pleased, when he wasn't here, which was usually pretty regularly.  I have naturally gone out, and done fun things prior to including him, but had also done regular "life" things as well.  Running errands, grocery shopping, and stuff like that.  I am now at a point where I am having to build my confidence a little more.  Even with all the places I have been, and things I have done, living full time, except for work, is a much bigger step and brings some new fears.  I am doing pretty well, I would estimate that I have lived somewhere in the neighborhood of 3 to 4 hours total, in drab in this past month.  I think the hardest for me so far was the grocery store.  I have been there a bunch of times, but I never really thought about it being, just to run in and grab a few things.  This last time was a full blown, groceries for two weeks trip to the store.  I did pretty well I think, even had a bit of a coversation with the cashier about some of our stuff.
  

  
  

  In the past, when ever we were out, there was never a problem with pronouns, or names with the exception of the occasional slip, and there have been very few of those.  I could probably count them on one hand, with a finger or two left over, in the three or four years we have been going out.  It has been different around the house this past month though. It has been like, away from the house, use the correct name and pronouns, at home, use everything but.   Until today, today was a good day.  I heard "she" mulitiple times, and even my name, at home.  Austin still hasn't changed over, but this is all very new to him still, but I can't tell you how happy it made me to hear Lee, or Debbie if that's what you know her by, use my name at home.  It really wasn't an issue before because she always says "babe" at home anyway.  But this past month, now that there is a third person in conversations, everything has kind of gone south.  Today was a wonderfully fantastic day, and I made sure I let her know.  I'm sure Austin will come around too, and I don't want him to feel uncomfortable either.  Hopefully, he will get to a point where he will feel comfortable too, and I want him to be comfortable. 

  So......what's in a name?  To me, today.........extreme happiness!!!