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Hello Family, ya you too Rhonda. lol
What a day. As I had decided I went en fem to see my shrink. She manages my anti depression med. I have been 'out' with her but she had never seen me enfem before. I wore some skinny jeans, a new blouse that is cut like some scrubs I have seen earrings, or course my purse and flats. About half way there I started feeling a pinching in the chest area. My first bra a push up front closure in pink had 'thrown' one of the underwires. OUCH. I was able to remove it in the bathroom. I will miss that bra it was a little small in the band with but it did it's job right up to the end. sigh
Anywho, I was a little late and the only remark I got from her was "you seem more comfortable in womans wear Rhonda" I replied that was saying the least. I thanked her for a referal to a clinician who had experience with trans issues. We were able to work out a system that so far had kept me taking more and more risks. The meetings were scheduled for only eight meetings and I miss her badly. She was such a sweet soul. Yet she inspired me to go further and further with each visit.
I was very comfortable appearing in public en fem. So instead of rushing home to change into my male clothes and continue on in stealth I decided to go down town have lunch and visit a few of my usual haunts. During the trip to the hospital I recieved several 'mamms" and a couple of babe remarks. Wow that was a first. I begun to wonder why I had let the chatter convince me that no one would accept me as a woman. what a great feeling.
After having visited the last 'haunt" a coffee shop. I ran into an old friend who I had come out to verbally but he had never seen me en fem. He recognised me immediately and seem genuinely glad to see me. I forgot that I was dressed as a woman when I hailed him. So we had a quite few minutes to catch up. And I asked him to take a picture of me on my phone cameral I would be glad to post it but. .
alas it is a first generation smart phone and I haven't figured out how to transfer file from phone to computer. sigh
I will be going back to college again for the fall session and I plan to try to stay in charactor through out the semester. After today's validating experience I don't think that I will have much trouble doing that.
My age might be a factor in that I am now a senior in appearance though with the HRT. I feel like I'm a teenager again. giggle.
People don't really pay much attention to anyone over the age of fifty unless they are stone knock outs. They just seem to accept the first impression. sigh
but that is ok too. I mean it works for me to be able to build my confidence.
I have begun an online 'affair' with a woman who knows who I am and is accepting.
Unfortunately she lives in New Jersey and I here in Oregon. But we're having quite a time of it. i mean the endearments seem to be flying each visit. giggle
it will due for the ttime being. I guess I am gay. I like women! it I am changing into presenting as a woman and like women. Who'd have thunk it. it seemes silly. but they never promised me a rose garden so the song says.
Well I just wanted to record the events of the day as I had promised to in my last entry.
