getting caught up

• Posted by Lorelei S. March 6, 2013 1,159 views
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  i am an almost 23 year old, so far cross-dresser, who lives in the basement of my moms home where i tend to hide my true self from my family. i live in secrecy because when i do come out, in a way, to test the waters if you will, my family makes me feel like crap for doing it. i have gotten some very nice comments from them as well my mother is envious of the shape of my lips and my legs. i have been dressing up ever since i was very young. i have been asked some interestion questions recently, like how far i would like to go with cross dressing and posibly beyond. i kinda dodged the question with the answer, asking me those questions is like asking a six year old if they would enjoy sex, they dont know about it so they cant answer properly. i think i did well at keeping it secret but now i feel i should come to terms with what i am and figure out just how deep this runs. i have read some accounts of transgendered people who have written about why they chose to go through with it, how they went about it, what they went through and what they felt along the way. i have noticed a few similarities between the acounts ive read through. knowledge of them being different from a young age, cross dressing, enjoying 'pretty' things, and a strong dislike of their own penis, strong enough to make them want to have it changed. well when i add in my own comparision the only thing that does not match up is the strong dislike for my penis, although i cant say that i am particularly fond of it either. i guess i just need to get more information and talk to someone who can actually interact with me and ask questions, the kind that will make me think, guide me along experiments that might give me some insite into how deep my cross dressing stems.