felling stuck.

• Posted by Lorelei S. May 27, 2013 866 views
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  for the longest tim i was stuck doing research about how i felt what i wanted to do, how i wanted to get there. i spent most of high school figureing it out, most of college trying to ignore it, and now i am accepting it and opening up following the path i want for me. i feel like ive again gotten stuck. i have things i want to change but i dont have the money to afford them, a poor girl from a small town i grew up with the ideal that everything should be repaid, and one must do ones best in order to provide for one's family. i have been taking this edeal to hear and have been going at this alone for so long, i have opened up much more than i ever thought posible. yet i think i have hit a brick wall, a brick wall of finacial and family obligations. it feels as if i cant get past this looming wall of frustration. if only i was born the way i wish i was. if only i could get a good job with decent health insurance and good pay. something nice to help out financially. then i might get some traction under my spining tires find a menuver to escape this stalemate. i want to be me.