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You know there are some things you NEVER forget.
As a child, I got 'picked on' a lot. I was always the object of some ridicule.
When you get older, you work to find a way to not be the object of ridicule. But it isn't always that easy. Sometimes you have to put it behind you.
When I went with a bunch of friends to a 'convention' I found myself getting laughed at...again. I wondered why am I doing this to myself? It didn't seem to make much sense.
As I looked at myself, I asked the same age-old questions. What was I doing? Why am I doing this? What do I hope to achieve?
After sitting on a stool with a wonderful woman who wanted nothing more than to make ME look amazing, I realized that I was wallowing in self-pity and self-ignorance. I am not *quite* ready to make the great "breakout" but I see things differently too.
Shaunda (my makeup artist) never blinked an eye at me. She just made suggestions and I told her to practice her art. I was never so pampered in all my life. I went out afterwards to dinner and I felt the glow of being *me* and being happy.
Happiness has been elusive since then, but the way I was treated made me feel superb. It's not like I have not found opportunities to feel happy since, but the amazing feeling of being pampered is not to be missed. Every girl should feel this way!
I have found that girls who cast aside the thoughts of your gender and want to make YOU look (and feel) beautiful are the LEAST subjective, the LEAST opinionated and the LEAST judgemental. They instead ask "what sort of foundation do you want to wear?" or "do you like this mascara?" I love having a makeover! 
I remember feeling alone as a child, friends were few and far between. My best friend lived miles away. But, now I have friends who are eager to see me, eager to practice on a willing "model" and sit and talk to me about whatever comes to mind.
Elephants never forget but maybe a girl can learn to apply wisdom to learn not everything is worth remembering!
