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Posted by Anna-Marie Trindall
September 1, 2004
Filed in Society Girl's Personal Blogs
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I'm not feelin very happy with myself today at all infact i'm close to tears.I posted a piece in the forum yesterday,entitled "the moment" where i explained how i "came out".I looked this morning to see that JJ had replied to my piece..now i'm not havin a go at her cos she was only being honest and upfront about what she read.But i get the feeling she diodn't like what i wrote.In a way i could have given it a lot more thought than i did, i should have put that TM's was my first time out dressed with others like me and not my first time out dressed anywhere.My family were against what i was doing at first but now they're ok with it.So if you read this JJ i'm "out" cos i want to be..not cos i'm tryin to save face in front of others.I know being TG is far from an easy life,cos i've had things said to me while i've been out like weirdo,pervert,fkin tranny..i might laugh them off but deep down inside they really do hurt.But the worst bit for me is the thought that through my thoughtless post,the hopes and dreams of many a TG here will have been crushed.This really was not my intention at all,so if i have offended anyone then i'll hold my hands up and apologise,cos the last thing i wanted to do was make things difficult for anyone..."I AM SO SORRY" . I really ought to give my posts more thought before posting them,instead of just putting it down any old way.Maybe Karen was right after all when she dumped me..i'm a thoughtless person who's not worth bothering with.I am feeling so sad at the moment(excuse me while i wipe a tear from my eye). I am not the kind of person to go round upsettin everyone..there are sometimes i just don't think about what i'm sayin.Maybe i should stop posting in the forums,that way nobody will get upset by what i write.I'm so sorry all, but i'm in tears right now and need a big hug.
