now i REALLY hate myself

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    I should have met sarah on thurs for coffee but couldn't make it cos i wasn't well.I even emailed her to let her know.Imagine my shock when i read her blog,to find in it that i'd allegedly stood her up.That really upset me cos i am not the kind of person to stand anyone up like that.she went on about respecting peoples feelings and the like,but i DID respect her feelings cos i emailed her tuesday to say i wasn't coming cos i wasn't well but for some reason she did'nt get the email,and now she thinks i did'nt want to meet when i did.I just wish there was some way to make her understand how i feel.I really do like sarah and wanted to meet her so badly,but now i'm sure she hates me for what i've done.I'm filling up with tears just thinking about it.I'm feeling so sad i just feel like crying.