New frontiers and dreamlike states

• Posted by Faye Morrow February 24, 2013 Filed in Society Girl's Personal Blogs #  #hormones effects mtf  #personal development  1,545 views
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  As i enter my third week on hormones i started wondering about the effects they would have on me and my life. Now i know that hormones affect you in many wonderous ways. They help develop the female body you craved since you knew the difference berween boys and girls. You will change body shape gradually. Now i am a realist but i also harbour a major fanatisist in my soul. I would dream of taking a pill and in a few days, poof. a pink princess (or red hee hee) would emerge. We know this is not the truth but, hey come on, its still free to dream right? i closed my eyes the first night and my dream hands went to that box marked. 'Future Me.'

  Blessed now with a fairly ample bosum, tiny waist and soft, rounded hips and pert backside, that would be the envy of any hollywood siren, would adorn my new form. My body so rediant in feminine glory and sparkle that any day a talent agent picks me to star in a perfume ad. alas the realist in me puts those dreams in the box marked 'future WAG.'

  Anyway back to the effects of hormones. So far, as expected, i have noticed not many miraculous changes but i have noticed one or two that have been both pleasant and naturally benifical.

  First change: My skin already feels different. it is becoming softer. I rub my arms together when i feel cold and the skin feels warmer and like it has a feathery sheen. i can't describe it. Also it seems to be more radiant. The light seems to catch and reflect on my skin in a way it just didn't before. My chest is becoming softer as well. no i am not talking 'wonder' breast growth but as i wear the bras i wore, say a month ago, the feeling i am actually "wearing" a bra grows. i add my small 'chest enhancers' and i can see and feel my chest coming together. A small cleavage i hadn't noticed before. Now i have been taking herbal supplements for roughly a year so i have already sown the seeds. The harvest in the next 2 years i hope will give me the b cup i think i will have.

  As a result of my skin softening, shaving is becoming so much easier. i shaved my legs the day i started the hormones. i let the hairs grow for 10 days and although i had no noticeable shortening of length when i applied the razor i had finished shaving both legs in a few minutes. (i didn't time it but no where near the amount of time i usually take especially the thighs and unmentionable areas. i wasn't that into conducting a scientific experiment.) the skin felt smooth and soft. no cuts no rash or burn as i had suffered on 'Moneday, (it was a tuesday but i like the name, not to be confused with moanday which is when you...you get the picture girlsokay!) and i could feel fabrics differently. Things feel different. Everyday things i wear suddenly feel, well i can only explain it as eating a normal chocolate bar blindfold and you feel the texture on your throat as you swallow. then you eat some belgian chocolate, velvety chocolate. lets say a lindor moment. you tell the difference right. well wearing soft fabric, light fabric, heavy fabric. my hands, sorry my fingertips are more sensitive to texture and things are tangible, like velvety cotton. not dull like a normal dairy milk say. maybe i over-emphasise. Useless metaphors/comparrisons aside. i am becoming more sensitive and i feel in balance more so than at anytime of my life. Next mission is professional and social development but lets take things steady here.

  This is the second change. How i feel. The very thing i have been waiting for all my life, it seems is finally becoming real. I like this so far. Softer skin and feeling like a new person. Happier and more confident. I know over the velvety hills and the lip gloss rivers lie a few more testing and rocky paths but i feel it a being a woman. I don't regard myself as a man anymore. I accept maybe i am paying too much attention to what is happening to me but without introspection how am i to saviour the journey and what it means to me? i used to dress LIKE a woman before. Now i dress AS one because i finally start to feel as a woman. Any physical changes are a lovely bonus.