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  • 22 Feb 2015
    Along  time ago  when I was  first  starting  out as a  "Cd" I oftan wondered  if there was such a place that had other cross dresses s  like  me. From the beginning  until  know  Ive  had no  support  and Ive  done what  I  can   alone. In 2008  I  had  been out  on the  internet  doing some  research  on differtnt  things  but  mostly about  "Crossdressing" by a  qurk of  fait  and  timming  I  came across this  site  called"Tranny Web".  It  had taken a  few  days  for  me to  get up the  nerve  to  join so  I did. It was  March 24 when I  joined  up  here  and I was  welcomed  by a  very  friendly  woman by the  name  of  "Nikki  Holms". At the  time  I was  very  impressed by  this person and it  made  me  feel that  I  had done the right thing. Gs  has  been  like a  seconed  home  to  me and Ive  made alot  of  friends  from  places  in this world that I  have  never  been. At  the  beggining  of  beeing aprt  of this  site  I  had some  doubts that I would be  here  long. my  reasion for this thinking  is  because of other sites  that i  had  been  on that did  nt  last  long  2  to 4  years and then  that s it. So  can you  understand  why  I  never thought Id still  be  on this site  this long. since  I joined  here  I  have this  "thing"  and a  expectation that someday  I would  get "THe  Boot" from here . I like  to  blog when I  can  and as some of  you  who  reads "My Blogs"  I dont  hide    nothing and I tell it  like I see things . over  the years  Ive  found  that  BS  dont work  here  So I wont  bother  with  trying to tell you any . All  my  blogs  comes from the  heart and I  ve all ways   been that way. I get  upset  sometimes by the things I see  here  on  Gs , but  mostly about the  useege  or  lack of     in the  "Chatroom"    .   I have  to  ask  All thoes  who  read  my  Blogs  this question?  Why  pay  for a  membership  if you just  going to be  stuck  in your  little world? why  not  use  something  you are  paying  for   like the  chatroom? the  best  way  Ive  found  to  meet  others  and  make  great  friends  who  I  call  "Sisters" here. Ive  heard this  from others that  "Bad " things  happen in the  chatroom ?   well  ive  used  this room since  08    and  nothing   Bad  has  eever  happened .Yea  i  ve  had prevoiuse members chew my  head  off  afew  times ,but you  know something  ?  I  needed  that  because  now  im  part of the  fabric  of this site .  So  I  urge  all you  "Newbies  " and  other  members  to  please  come  to the  chatroom  and be  part  of this wonderful family we  call "GS".
    1777 Posted by Karen Elena Tea
  • 02 Sep 2012
    I  resently   went   to  a  wedding  and  It  was  an  experince  that was  supposed  to  be  a  happy one not  for  just  the  groom and  bride  ,  but  me  as well .  i  had  made  a  promise  that I would  attend  and  that  I would  be  properly  dressed  "in drab "  for this  wedding .  The  wedding  was  for  someone who i  though  was  a  life  long  best  friend .  we  had  been  childhood  friends  since the age  of  6   and  kindergarden  classmates .  I  hold  "high regards " when it  comes  to  friends and  ive  never  taken it  lightly . When I was  13 ,    my  friend  moved  away  from  me   and  I thought  I  had  lost  him  forever !  but  at the age  of  17 ,  he  returned !  Over  the  years  we  had stayed  in  contact  off  and  on  til  he  returned  permenently  .  I  know  things  could  never  be  like they  was  when we  was  growiing  up ,  and  now   he  has  3  kids  of  his own .  During thoes  years  he was  away  from  me  ,  he  had  married  and  i was  not  told  of  his  wedding til  years  later.  I  was  informed  by  him  that  he  had  no  control  over the  invitations and therefore  I was  left  out .  So   I  excepted  his  explanation  and  I  had  told  him  "IF "   by chance   he was  to  marry  for the seconed  time I wished  to  be  part  of  it  . He  had  assured  me  that  Yes  since we was  friends  for 35 years  I would  be  part  of  it .    Well   today  I  attened  his  seconed  wedding  and  I  never  felt  so  "Out of  place  "  like that  befor . I  was  not  included   in the  "wedding  party  "   or was  it even  memtioned  to  me  at all  .  I was  more or  less  just another " Face  in the  crowd" and  over  dressed  .  All this  has  left  a  bad  feeling  in my  heart  for a  seconed  time .   I  know  I have  mentioned  here  about  beeing  in  hospital  for  bypass  suergery  2  years ago  , but  I  have  never  said  anything  about  my  time  there .  I  had  called  my  so  called  friend  5  days  about the  news  of  me  beeing in the  hospital .  After  I  had  explained  why  I was  there  and  asking  him  to  come  see me  befor  surgery  I  expected  him  to  attend.  What   happened  let  down  hard  for thoes  next 3 weeks and  even thoe  i faced  a  possibily  of  not  returning  from  surgery  I  expected  him there.  
    1727 Posted by Karen Elena Tea
  • 09 Oct 2013
    For the  longest  time  here  some of  my  GS sisters asume  that  I am just  any other  CD  here .  Well  I wanna  clairfy  that  Im NOT !   most  girls  here who  i ve  had the privlige to  know and  chat  with  have a  comon  goal  in mind .  that  goal  that  most  here have  it s to  transistion  with  use  or  help  of  HRT  and  later  on  have  SRS done . Well  I  have to  say  Im not  one  of thoes who  wants this . I hope some of you  dont  get  me  wrong  or  upset  by all this .  I  have  thoes  times  when I  oftan wonder  what I am I  doing here ??  I do enjoy  the  chats with of  of you  and I  love  hearing your story to understand why  you want to  be  come girls.  Im at a point  in life that Im  "unshure" of what to  do  next. My  life outside this site is so  diffent then the  one  i  lead here.  My  life  outside this site  is  no  bed  of  roses and I  have  taken  my  lumps  .  Ive  thought  about  it for a  very  long time  and from what  I  found out over  the years  here is  I  canT    transition.  I am trying  very  hard  to  move on  with  my life  as  painfull  as it  can be  . Latly  Ive  been trying to  focus  on a  part  of  my  life  thats never  got  much attention.  that  part  of  me  is  my  'love  life " dateing  is  all  new  to  me  and very  demanding .  So  ive  been  trying  hard  as  of  late  to  try and  fix this  problem . I  can  honestly  say  its  not easy trying to  make  not  jusy  my  own dreams come true but another  as well.
    1710 Posted by Karen Elena Tea
  • 16 Oct 2011
    I  ve  been  a  member  of this  site  since   March  of  2008, but  there s  not  too  many  here  that  know  my  story.   As  a  young  Canadian child  growing  up  in the  far  north  of  Northern  Ontario Canada .  the  sight of  a  CD  or  Gay, Les  is  not  very  comon  here .  My  comunity  does  have a  GLBT  chapter  here  , but  is  very  well  hid  in my  region.  I  first  started  to  dress  as  a  young  as  3  but  I was  like  most  kids  encouriged  not  to. Life for  me  has  not  been  a  bed  of  roses .   My  parents  separated  when  I  was  7  years  old  .  at the  age  of  12 , two  week  befor  by christmas  I was  admited  to  hospital  and  was  told  i  had  diebetes.  From  that  time  on  I  had  this  feeling  that  I  was  difernt .  I  never  really  had  many  friends and  thoes  i  knew in  school  treated  me  differnt . It  was not  till  i was  14  that  I  started  to  be  intersted  in  girls . it  was  also  then  I  somehow  felt  there  was  this  other  side  of  me  that  like  how  women looked  in  a  dress.  It  was  then  my  secret desire  for  women's  things  was  born . I was  not  til  I was  17  that  I started  to  collect  stuff  and  dumpster  dive  .  by the  time  I  reached  the  age  of  22  it  came to  me that  I  have  a sexual  problem .  up  until then  I  was  not  dressing  fully  but  i would  wear  somethings  from my  collection for  sexual  pleasur. It  was  at that  moment  in  my  life  that  I did  like  some  here  and  I  "purged" .  I  had  got  rid  of  most  of what  i  had  collected  and  even  burned  a  dress .  Over  a  5  years  I tried  to  live  a  normal  life , but it  only  fueled  my  disires to  dress  and  for  sexual pleasur.  So  at the  age  of 27  i started  back  on that  road  that  so many  of  us  girls  been  on .  I  had  to  start  off  again  almost  from  scratch replacing  things  that  i  had  given  away  or  burned .  I  was lucky  at the  time  that  I  could  fit  into  a  size  14  dress.  the  very  first  dress  i  wore  i  borrowed  it   (ok  stole  it )  from  my  mother's  closet .  I wore that  dress  when  i felt  the  need  to  be  me  for  2  and a half  years. I took  very  good  care  of  it  til  i  got  a  chance  in  2001 to  return it .  Til this  day  my  mother  never  knew  i  had  it  or  wore it .  In 2007  I  did  something  that  kinda  shocked  my  family,  I "came  out  " .  I  had  kept  this  secet  from  all  my  family  for  a  very  long  time  and  well  hid .  I  first  told  a  relitive  about  it  and  she  said  , when  it  feels  right  i should  tell  my  family.   I think the  hardest  thing  for  a  CD like  me  to  do  was  tell  my  parents .  Since  I live  at  home  with  my  mom  she  was  the first  one  i  really  had  to  worry  about.  the  thought  of  telling  her  was  painfull  and  very  dificult  for  me.  Telling her  face  to  face  was  out  for  me . so  i  came  up  with  a  plan  to  tell her  in my  own way  all about  it .  So  I  sat i down  one  night  and  wrote  her  a 3  page  letter . In it  i  explained  what  I  was  up to  and  that  i was  not  gay .  It  took  me  sometime  to  gather  up the  courige to  give  her  that  letter.  then  one day  I  was  leaving  for  a  early morning  long  day  trip . I left that  letter  for  her  on the  kitchen  table .  when  I  retured  she  told  me  about  reading  it  and  she  was  not  mad  or  upset  with me , only  requested  that  i  give  her  some time  to  deal  with  it .  So   I  did  and  in  a  few  months she  came  to  me  and said .  If you  chose  to dress  this way  I can  not  stop you . At this  time  Im unshure  if  my  father knows  and  I  have  full support  from  my  brother  who is  5  years  younger than me. Up  until  2009  things  was  great  for  me . then  during  the  end  of  summer  I  had  stepped  on  something  in the  lake  water and  it  cut  the  bottom  of  my right  foot just  below  my  toes. At  that  time  i did  nt think  it was  nothing  to worry  about  til  one  night I  seen there  was  a  "red" line  that  was going  up my  leg  from  my  foot. I was  admited  to  hospital and  my  wound  was  debried . a small  hole  was  forming  and  over  a  few  months  it was  getting  bigger.  there  was  an  infection  in  my  third  toe  and  again  befor  christmas of  2009  I was  admited . this  time  I was  given  an  option to  remove the  infected  toe  or  risk  loosing  my  foot .  It  was  during that  time  I  ran  into  another  unforseen problem after  sugery.  I  had  devloped  water  on  my  lungs  and  it  was  to the  point that  they  thought  i  may  be  going  into  conjstive  heart  failure.  but  after a  CT scan  it  was  found  it  was  water on the  lungs.
    1623 Posted by Karen Elena Tea
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"My biggest dream " may come true
Ever since I was 15 years old I oftan dreamed about beeing married . as a teenager in high school I did like most kids and daydreamed alot about things i wanted to do or places I wanted to visit . Out of all the daydreaming I did then I mostly thought about one thing and that was to be married to a wonderful person . I would spend hours sometimes thinking about where i would like to have my wedding eather in a church or outside somewhere speacial. Oneday I got the idea to hold my wedding "At sea " but after thinking about all who would be attending it would be very costly ,So I came up with a better solution. My solution to the problem was easy because of where I was that day I thought of it . I had been to our local warf where we have this tour boat and its been known to host weddings befor . So this was my idea to be married on boad "The Chief Commanda II " at sea but in fact in the middle of a our lake Nippissing . For the longest time since i was 15 this was just what some call "a pipe" dream and I thought that day may never come . Well Im now 42 and Im happy to say that my biggest dream in life is about to come true for me. at one point i had lost all hope in finding that someone for me and I assumed that most likely I would die alone . I beleave in dreams and ive never totaly lost faith in them and i can t beleave ill be marrieing the most wonderful person in the world !! I dedicate this blogg to my darling "Elena " I love you !!


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