I have found myself as of late at odds with thoes here i love and with thoes around me. like everyone that comes to this site I am not all that differnt when it comes to beeing stressed or pressured. we all at times get cault up in other members lives as well as our own. I admit I do try to help thoes here seaking advise on issuse . today i had a chance to be alone with my issues deep in the wilderness of Northarn Ontario. I found myself standing out on a dock in a very deep lake looking down trying to see bottom. what did I see you ask ?? On a sunny day It was a refection of a person . who waas this person ?? I know I should say it was me , but it was Not !! It was the person that has been here and has been falling out of touch with thoes I care about . being a person that grew up in rural country then moved in to the city. i sometimes forget where I came from and who I am . today i had spent a few hours on my own at a northern lake amungs some very tall white and red pine trees . thers alot of gray ganite stone there as well and is at times very quet . it is places like this that reminds me of how busy life can be and how we can loose focus. Ive though about the person i seen in that refection and I did nt like who they where and what they had become. i seen a person that had alot of innner emoinal pain and anger cause by a relationship that went wrong. I speek for myself cause Im someone that never been in this kind of inner pain befor. i too am like a "Black bear" that never found him or her self cault in a trap and dont know what to do . As we are caught we like bears "lash out " at who ever what ever is near . we hurt thoes that try to help and in the end we feel bad. this reflection has helped me see there is a problem and it all so showed me that I should "dressed ....lol "
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