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  • 24 Jan 2019
    Hello Ladies - Galaxy Girl's annual post to wrap up 2018 and look ahead to 2019 - wow does time go by and Super wow, what a year 2018 was. I do not even know where to begin - At the start of 2018 I had one friend on facebook, a dear life-long friend who I did not have the nerve to tell my secret to. I had just told my doctor and therapist in 2017 and was now on hormones for 4 months at the start of that year - and things were certainly a changin' as it is said. More than physical it was emotional, even philosophical - I somehow had gained enormous confidence in myself and was quite out daily - nails were done, only women's clothes daily - even when encountering my parents ( that tale requires its own blog - it's weird ). I had gone to bed in Dec of 2017 with a single prayer - crying i asked for just one friend. Due to circumstances that science and probability cannot explain I stumbled across another tgirl and would you believe - she is in my graduating class and lived 3 blocks from me growing up! With now 2 friends on facebook and 1 who knows and 1 who does not, suddenly - before revealing myself a dozen or so high school friends requested friendship - I hesitantly said yes telling myself I want them to see my published books and maybe I can sell some. Deep down I knew this to be a lie. In my mind's eye I could see a table of a dozen of us there and only 2 know my secret - I couldn't deal with that and hated the lie - so best to do - read my last blog is it he letter I posted with pictures and the world has never been the same.  Friends have been enormously supportive, communicative, and we interact often - I even see my high school physics teacher at one or more restaurants monthly with conversations that last for hours on every topic imaginable - he is deeply caring, philosophical, intelligent and has the soul of a saint. My other friends have many similar tales of restaurants and such - this is a big thing to me - I'm totally out and they are there with me - great talks, hugs, conversations of jobs, kids, homes, pets, health, hopes and fears, and all other things too. One friend is a the dearest - she not only wanted to get together, she then asks 'so when is the coming out party' - which we organized at my parents house - can you believe it - my father even took pictures of me with my gal pals which we are the group that sees each other often. We went to restaurants, shopping, even have a cookathon at one of my friend's homes - note I have done of these things ever - I have not been to a restaurant in over 10 years for many reasons for example. My really close friend even bought me a dress ( after measuring me in a bathroom at one of our restaurant outings - teehee ). These friends have helped me mentally, emotionally, motivationally, and energy-wise beyond my imagination in more ways than I can even tell all of you here. My sister in law even whispered in my ear on Christmas Day - I have always wanted a sister - can you believe it??!! The year of 2018 I fully to my soul, my core, and my whole being I became and am Briana - the girl I have always been since age 5 and struggled with for over 40 years from that time until I came out to myself in 2012 and  began the progression to where I am today and ever moving forward. Last year was the quantum leap that solidified my whole being.  Now at the start of 2019 - Looking to a job - I have even applied to nearly 10 posted positions at 4 universities and guess what - as myself - Briana no less!! I have been and am on hormones for 1.3 years as of this writing and it certainly shows - the early photos long ago and now - I smile from ear to ear with sheer delight at all of the major and even minor changes - plus the overall total balance of my being - the serenity, harmony, overall sense of happiness and well-being that is through my whole person - I have no negative element in me at all - it is awesome. I have a number of friends from here on facebook - if you like - look me up and ask - that would be really cool.  This year has not only a job hunt and believe me success in the future but then on to other things - my therapist and another one for my letters for the operation and electrolysis and all things. Always reaching for the woman I am and living as the woman I am each and every moment of the day and in all years.  Always embracing great health, hope, harmony, and happiness that I often wish others. Always living as I have seen myself, the woman I am, Briana Purcell, the Galaxy Girl all my life.  Thank you for the time in reading this. Thank you Gender Society which I recommend often to others as I encounter them due to your support and the great people here that gave me the initial confidence I needed so long ago and has helped me arrive here and move ever forward. All the best to each of you in your journey. Note there are days I feel sad, blue, and there are some bumps in the road hither and tither but at the core I am always myself and you know what? That is all I need and the knowledge that the sun comes up again tomorrow. In the long run all the good will outweigh the bad because I only radiate positive vibes all the time.  I find myself in a state of happy self all the time - fully being the girl, the Galaxy Girl at that, has been the single most important thing in all of my life. Hugs, Briana Purcell : )
    79 Posted by Briana Purcell
  • Hello Ladies - Galaxy Girl's annual post to wrap up 2018 and look ahead to 2019 - wow does time go by and Super wow, what a year 2018 was. I do not even know where to begin - At the start of 2018 I had one friend on facebook, a dear life-long friend who I did not have the nerve to tell my secret to. I had just told my doctor and therapist in 2017 and was now on hormones for 4 months at the start of that year - and things were certainly a changin' as it is said. More than physical it was emotional, even philosophical - I somehow had gained enormous confidence in myself and was quite out daily - nails were done, only women's clothes daily - even when encountering my parents ( that tale requires its own blog - it's weird ). I had gone to bed in Dec of 2017 with a single prayer - crying i asked for just one friend. Due to circumstances that science and probability cannot explain I stumbled across another tgirl and would you believe - she is in my graduating class and lived 3 blocks from me growing up! With now 2 friends on facebook and 1 who knows and 1 who does not, suddenly - before revealing myself a dozen or so high school friends requested friendship - I hesitantly said yes telling myself I want them to see my published books and maybe I can sell some. Deep down I knew this to be a lie. In my mind's eye I could see a table of a dozen of us there and only 2 know my secret - I couldn't deal with that and hated the lie - so best to do - read my last blog is it he letter I posted with pictures and the world has never been the same.  Friends have been enormously supportive, communicative, and we interact often - I even see my high school physics teacher at one or more restaurants monthly with conversations that last for hours on every topic imaginable - he is deeply caring, philosophical, intelligent and has the soul of a saint. My other friends have many similar tales of restaurants and such - this is a big thing to me - I'm totally out and they are there with me - great talks, hugs, conversations of jobs, kids, homes, pets, health, hopes and fears, and all other things too. One friend is a the dearest - she not only wanted to get together, she then asks 'so when is the coming out party' - which we organized at my parents house - can you believe it - my father even took pictures of me with my gal pals which we are the group that sees each other often. We went to restaurants, shopping, even have a cookathon at one of my friend's homes - note I have done of these things ever - I have not been to a restaurant in over 10 years for many reasons for example. My really close friend even bought me a dress ( after measuring me in a bathroom at one of our restaurant outings - teehee ). These friends have helped me mentally, emotionally, motivationally, and energy-wise beyond my imagination in more ways than I can even tell all of you here. My sister in law even whispered in my ear on Christmas Day - I have always wanted a sister - can you believe it??!! The year of 2018 I fully to my soul, my core, and my whole being I became and am Briana - the girl I have always been since age 5 and struggled with for over 40 years from that time until I came out to myself in 2012 and  began the progression to where I am today and ever moving forward. Last year was the quantum leap that solidified my whole being.  Now at the start of 2019 - Looking to a job - I have even applied to nearly 10 posted positions at 4 universities and guess what - as myself - Briana no less!! I have been and am on hormones for 1.3 years as of this writing and it certainly shows - the early photos long ago and now - I smile from ear to ear with sheer delight at all of the major and even minor changes - plus the overall total balance of my being - the serenity, harmony, overall sense of happiness and well-being that is through my whole person - I have no negative element in me at all - it is awesome. I have a number of friends from here on facebook - if you like - look me up and ask - that would be really cool.  This year has not only a job hunt and believe me success in the future but then on to other things - my therapist and another one for my letters for the operation and electrolysis and all things. Always reaching for the woman I am and living as the woman I am each and every moment of the day and in all years.  Always embracing great health, hope, harmony, and happiness that I often wish others. Always living as I have seen myself, the woman I am, Briana Purcell, the Galaxy Girl all my life.  Thank you for the time in reading this. Thank you Gender Society which I recommend often to others as I encounter them due to your support and the great people here that gave me the initial confidence I needed so long ago and has helped me arrive here and move ever forward. All the best to each of you in your journey. Note there are days I feel sad, blue, and there are some bumps in the road hither and tither but at the core I am always myself and you know what? That is all I need and the knowledge that the sun comes up again tomorrow. In the long run all the good will outweigh the bad because I only radiate positive vibes all the time.  I find myself in a state of happy self all the time - fully being the girl, the Galaxy Girl at that, has been the single most important thing in all of my life. Hugs, Briana Purcell : )
    Jan 24, 2019 79
  • 15 Jan 2019
    Its  been a  very  long  time  that I  ve  been here  on  site , chatted  or  written anything  So please  forgive me .  It s  known that  I  used  to  be  here on site a  lot  in the  past and  helped out where I  can .  As  Times  changed I  more  or  less stopped being  here as  my  life changed after the death  of  my  Father  in  2012 .  Now  again My  life  has  once  more  changed with  the recent  death  of  my  Mother  and  it was only  weeks away  from  Christmas . The  month  of  December was  not  good  one  for  me but I  do  have  some wonderful  support both  my  family and  now my  Gf  whom I 'm soon to marry in the year of  2019 .  Now  that  I  have  returned  to  GS  I  have  to  wonder  how many  of  my former  Sisters  here are  left or  remember me ? I  would  love to  hear  again  from some  that  do  know me and  I  d  like  to  Hi  to  Katie Glover   …..I'm  Back !!  … LOve  Karen Tea . 
    65 Posted by Karen Tea
  • Its  been a  very  long  time  that I  ve  been here  on  site , chatted  or  written anything  So please  forgive me .  It s  known that  I  used  to  be  here on site a  lot  in the  past and  helped out where I  can .  As  Times  changed I  more  or  less stopped being  here as  my  life changed after the death  of  my  Father  in  2012 .  Now  again My  life  has  once  more  changed with  the recent  death  of  my  Mother  and  it was only  weeks away  from  Christmas . The  month  of  December was  not  good  one  for  me but I  do  have  some wonderful  support both  my  family and  now my  Gf  whom I 'm soon to marry in the year of  2019 .  Now  that  I  have  returned  to  GS  I  have  to  wonder  how many  of  my former  Sisters  here are  left or  remember me ? I  would  love to  hear  again  from some  that  do  know me and  I  d  like  to  Hi  to  Katie Glover   …..I'm  Back !!  … LOve  Karen Tea . 
    Jan 15, 2019 65
  • 11 Jan 2019
    Hello everyone, I don't know if you remember me since it's been so long lol. I'm glad to be back though! I'm still in the writing business! I'm working on some things now and my current project is about a recurring nightmare I recently had. It's about me visiting myself as a male teenager and basically, what happens is it's a parallel universe so everybody is completely different! I want to share this with the world, but the problem is... In the dream my female self and male self argue over who's life is better and who has it easier... I grew up in a very sexist household, unfortunately, but I also definitely had gender dysphoria. Since the age of 2, I tried to stand when urinating, wanted to be called "he", and even gave myself multiple UTI's from ignoring that part of my body time and time again wanting to believe I "should have a penis like dad". Still, my 2 selves arguing whose life is easier comes off as sexist it seems... Should I really share this nightmare? If I do, should I not call the character trans? I have a story in mind that includes a childhood like mine already so I really just want this story to be about the nightmare alone, but I see people commenting "This is not gender dysphoria, it's just sexism" when they see what it's about. Any advice? It feels good to be back and I don't mind skipping this piece of work if it isn't good.
    62 Posted by Kris McKinley
  • Hello everyone, I don't know if you remember me since it's been so long lol. I'm glad to be back though! I'm still in the writing business! I'm working on some things now and my current project is about a recurring nightmare I recently had. It's about me visiting myself as a male teenager and basically, what happens is it's a parallel universe so everybody is completely different! I want to share this with the world, but the problem is... In the dream my female self and male self argue over who's life is better and who has it easier... I grew up in a very sexist household, unfortunately, but I also definitely had gender dysphoria. Since the age of 2, I tried to stand when urinating, wanted to be called "he", and even gave myself multiple UTI's from ignoring that part of my body time and time again wanting to believe I "should have a penis like dad". Still, my 2 selves arguing whose life is easier comes off as sexist it seems... Should I really share this nightmare? If I do, should I not call the character trans? I have a story in mind that includes a childhood like mine already so I really just want this story to be about the nightmare alone, but I see people commenting "This is not gender dysphoria, it's just sexism" when they see what it's about. Any advice? It feels good to be back and I don't mind skipping this piece of work if it isn't good.
    Jan 11, 2019 62
  • 11 Jan 2019
    I know it’s automated, but the receipt of a Happy Birthday email from GenderSociety still feels lovely. Thank you and
    65 Posted by Rachel de Blanc
  • I know it’s automated, but the receipt of a Happy Birthday email from GenderSociety still feels lovely. Thank you and
    Jan 11, 2019 65
  • 09 Jan 2019
    Well, its been AGES since i was here ( 5yrs+) i think mainly as i lost my log in details and had to start again but i have these ones stored in a safe place now....my head lol.
    59 Posted by Anna Trindall
  • Well, its been AGES since i was here ( 5yrs+) i think mainly as i lost my log in details and had to start again but i have these ones stored in a safe place now....my head lol.
    Jan 09, 2019 59
  • 19 Dec 2018
    hey y'all! my bi-yearly blog! summer is over in South Carolina but it was a great year of surfing and sun. did well in a few surf contests in Florida; i met a bunch of girl surfers at last years contest and we all meet up at various contset venues in FL. so much fun! My job is so funny at times: i workin power tool dept, and if a guy is standing with me, customers always ask him, not me! lol! one of my co-workers says, "ask her, she knows more than any of us!" Contractor-types always try to trip me up, asking for a tool in it's slang name, like I would have no idea.
    136 Posted by robin w
  • By robin w
    hey y'all! my bi-yearly blog! summer is over in South Carolina but it was a great year of surfing and sun. did well in a few surf contests in Florida; i met a bunch of girl surfers at last years contest and we all meet up at various contset venues in FL. so much fun! My job is so funny at times: i workin power tool dept, and if a guy is standing with me, customers always ask him, not me! lol! one of my co-workers says, "ask her, she knows more than any of us!" Contractor-types always try to trip me up, asking for a tool in it's slang name, like I would have no idea.
    Dec 19, 2018 136
  • 28 Aug 2018
    Hey y'all! I do not recall if i mentioned this before, but justvabout a year ago (!), i was fired from my job at a well known mostly women's department store. Reason is not important, but i did post a few times how another TG woman, who did not pass at all, recognized that i was TG as well, and she became an appendage to me. So much so that co-workers who initially saw me as female, discovered i was TG. In short, it became a very unhappy place for me to work. So kind of a blessing in disguise, as my new job is so much easier on me as there is no question to my gender. Strange that when i lived in Massachusetts, i also worked at a woman's store, and half the women accepted me. But MA, northeast in general, is accepting of LGBTQ ppl, where in the South, i live in SC now, it is not so accepting. having an enlightened population is comforting. Here in South Carolina, I feel like I'm walking on eggs part of the time. But all in all, I'm a little happier.
    235 Posted by robin w
  • By robin w
    Hey y'all! I do not recall if i mentioned this before, but justvabout a year ago (!), i was fired from my job at a well known mostly women's department store. Reason is not important, but i did post a few times how another TG woman, who did not pass at all, recognized that i was TG as well, and she became an appendage to me. So much so that co-workers who initially saw me as female, discovered i was TG. In short, it became a very unhappy place for me to work. So kind of a blessing in disguise, as my new job is so much easier on me as there is no question to my gender. Strange that when i lived in Massachusetts, i also worked at a woman's store, and half the women accepted me. But MA, northeast in general, is accepting of LGBTQ ppl, where in the South, i live in SC now, it is not so accepting. having an enlightened population is comforting. Here in South Carolina, I feel like I'm walking on eggs part of the time. But all in all, I'm a little happier.
    Aug 28, 2018 235
  • 16 Aug 2018
    Hey Tomorrow we move home. I am surrounded by the clutter of life. The wardrobes that I have hidden within are now dismantled, gone. The attic is empty and devoid of carefully packaged garment boxes. Nooks and crannies capable of discretion are exposed and swept bare. The tiled bathroom remains, the place where the relaxed and released expression of a woman has been displayed most graphically. The ceramic counterpane of a softer self. Miss will miss this place. It was here that I first photographed and dared share Rachel with others, from here that I first opened up and understood what I am. As I haven't walked out fully dressed ever, there is anxiety, frustration and loneliness here too. Time to go now. Rachel x
    203 Posted by Rachel de Blanc
  • Hey Tomorrow we move home. I am surrounded by the clutter of life. The wardrobes that I have hidden within are now dismantled, gone. The attic is empty and devoid of carefully packaged garment boxes. Nooks and crannies capable of discretion are exposed and swept bare. The tiled bathroom remains, the place where the relaxed and released expression of a woman has been displayed most graphically. The ceramic counterpane of a softer self. Miss will miss this place. It was here that I first photographed and dared share Rachel with others, from here that I first opened up and understood what I am. As I haven't walked out fully dressed ever, there is anxiety, frustration and loneliness here too. Time to go now. Rachel x
    Aug 16, 2018 203
  • 31 May 2018
    as an infrequent visitor to GS these months, i have some final thoughts on bottom surgery. mostly for those transitioning late in life, like me. ill hang around a bit longer if y'all have questions or comments. this may be my last post. while transitioning, before surgery, i met a 19 yo mtf transitioning. i was quite jealous bc she was going to experience most of what i did not, transitioning at an early age. she was/is quite beautiful, and have kind of lost contact with her, despite having mutual friends. She will go thru her twenties with so much to learn, and become a woman. anyway, and maybe this has a lot to do with my anxiety and depression, but i dont really really feel like a female, mostly like an imposter. i am a trans-female to be accurate. somewhere inbetween, with a foot in neither manhood nor womanhood. there is a yoga practice coming up where the movement is slow, and each woman is sketched by a female artist who "emphasizes the beauty of the female form." i am too scared to go to this, as i fear she will notice i am not very female in form. just a thin, straight body. with largish shoulders. so i wont go. just try to becrealistic on how you may feel after this surgery. i hated my male tackle, and was excited to get rid of its horribleness. but now i wonder if it was all necessary. just think about it before you decide. think about it a lot. best, robin
    374 Posted by robin w
  • By robin w
    as an infrequent visitor to GS these months, i have some final thoughts on bottom surgery. mostly for those transitioning late in life, like me. ill hang around a bit longer if y'all have questions or comments. this may be my last post. while transitioning, before surgery, i met a 19 yo mtf transitioning. i was quite jealous bc she was going to experience most of what i did not, transitioning at an early age. she was/is quite beautiful, and have kind of lost contact with her, despite having mutual friends. She will go thru her twenties with so much to learn, and become a woman. anyway, and maybe this has a lot to do with my anxiety and depression, but i dont really really feel like a female, mostly like an imposter. i am a trans-female to be accurate. somewhere inbetween, with a foot in neither manhood nor womanhood. there is a yoga practice coming up where the movement is slow, and each woman is sketched by a female artist who "emphasizes the beauty of the female form." i am too scared to go to this, as i fear she will notice i am not very female in form. just a thin, straight body. with largish shoulders. so i wont go. just try to becrealistic on how you may feel after this surgery. i hated my male tackle, and was excited to get rid of its horribleness. but now i wonder if it was all necessary. just think about it before you decide. think about it a lot. best, robin
    May 31, 2018 374
  • 29 May 2018
    Hello Ladies - This is the most monumental post I have ever had! I came out in a big way - I posted the following post on my facebook, which has been under my birth name as it had to for many complicated reasons ( and probably won't be for much longer I suspect ).  Nevertheless, here it is : I’ll begin with Hello. This is a conversation I have reflected on for the past 5 years. It is about a secret I have held for more than 40 years prior to that time – even longer than I have known all of you and even before I lived here where we went to school together. I suspect many of us have a side to ourselves that is relatively secret, private, et al. I am fortunate in one respect I have only one thing in my ‘closet’ per se ( which I have called the bubble for more years than I can count ).Somewhere between the ages of 7 and 10 I made a private vow over this secret, the rule, as I called it – ‘never speak of this, never write of this, ever’. It held fast for nearly 40 years.On that day, when I came out, it was like any other but many of the external pressures were non-existent in my life – I only had me to look at in the mirror for the first time. I will reintroduce myself so as to avoid any more inquisitive looks or boredom – honestly I do drag on a bit.Hello, may name is Briana Purcell. I am a transgender woman. I have seen myself as a girl since the age of 5. It is something I denied, lied, and ran from for decades. It was easy actually. In life we have only two critical questions to contemplate and act on : 1) Who am I? and 2) What do I do? I chose to mostly focus on question 2 for the bulk of my life. All of you in thinking on me might think of these things : She is a bike rider, academic, science geek, diabetic, writer, et al – all things I do – but I would avoid the question of how I see myself, the who am I part of it. I thought very long on this moment – do I say something or do as I have always imagined – one day move away to somewhere where I walk in my door as me and just measure time from that moment on? By pure chance I find myself at this moment – where I have a handful of facebook friends and even after I came out to one among you in an emotional search I see I have a choice to make. Let things go as they are, ie pretend, or allow you to see and know me, decide for yourself am I a friend you wish to have, and move on in time from there. Interestingly facebook has presented me with one of the considerations I have had – say for example there is a class reunion – in the last 20 years I have had no interest in showing up due mostly to this battle and now that I am just me, I thought about it – but have terrible fear. Independent of all things I realized I will always be me, Briana, regardless of who I meet, know, the things I do, and the places I go. Never in my life have I felt as balanced, whole, fully happy, and empowered. Some of the first words I spoke when I broke the rule standing in from of the mirror 5 years ago in a summer dress were these : ‘so this is how it is, this is who I am, … it’s okay…I’m okay’. In a single bat of an eye a wave of energy passed through my body and I felt electric and alive and elevated. It felt as if a large cement weight lifted off of me. If someone were to describe such things to me in the past, before this, I would just nod and say ‘sure, sure, understand’ when in truth I had never had such a feeling. It was easy trying to be what I do – seeing myself as arrogantly smart and not just being myself – a smart girl who can easily admit I most certainly do not know everything. In fact, believe it or not, when reflecting on my battles through the years with myself – nearly caught wearing this or that and the like, for the first time in my life I could laugh at myself. Things are moving along and quite nice in my part of the universe at present, more or less. I see doctors and the like and so far all is good. I still am looking for work, though there seems some barriers on that front – suggestions are welcomed, I have the books ( which clearly have at least one more editorial revision to make, namely author name ), and I have a deep-seated wish to have a few gal pal friends and so on.I could drone on with a million memories, events et al, but maybe I’ll write a tell all book one day ( lol ).Recognize I am still on the earliest of steps of this – there are those who have little to no information on this and must be kept that way due to life’s complications – unfortunately theirs and not mine. So I ask some discretion in your ever sharing of this. Thank you for listening ( ie reading ) and spending some time. I am glad to have come back across all of you. Note I may change my name on fb and the like too, this is all quite new to me - so some nervousness. thanksBriana : )     Note the inclusion of photos and all. The reaction has been priceless - I have been crying on and off through the day. Hormones can be a bit pushy. I had the oddity of coming across and being asked by a dozen or so high school friends - only one who knows - until now, at least. It was like going to a class reunion.  I will add to this as needed. Wow, wow, wow. All the best to everyone here.  Take Care hugs, Briana Purcell - the Galaxy Girl!!  
    273 Posted by Briana Purcell
  • Hello Ladies - This is the most monumental post I have ever had! I came out in a big way - I posted the following post on my facebook, which has been under my birth name as it had to for many complicated reasons ( and probably won't be for much longer I suspect ).  Nevertheless, here it is : I’ll begin with Hello. This is a conversation I have reflected on for the past 5 years. It is about a secret I have held for more than 40 years prior to that time – even longer than I have known all of you and even before I lived here where we went to school together. I suspect many of us have a side to ourselves that is relatively secret, private, et al. I am fortunate in one respect I have only one thing in my ‘closet’ per se ( which I have called the bubble for more years than I can count ).Somewhere between the ages of 7 and 10 I made a private vow over this secret, the rule, as I called it – ‘never speak of this, never write of this, ever’. It held fast for nearly 40 years.On that day, when I came out, it was like any other but many of the external pressures were non-existent in my life – I only had me to look at in the mirror for the first time. I will reintroduce myself so as to avoid any more inquisitive looks or boredom – honestly I do drag on a bit.Hello, may name is Briana Purcell. I am a transgender woman. I have seen myself as a girl since the age of 5. It is something I denied, lied, and ran from for decades. It was easy actually. In life we have only two critical questions to contemplate and act on : 1) Who am I? and 2) What do I do? I chose to mostly focus on question 2 for the bulk of my life. All of you in thinking on me might think of these things : She is a bike rider, academic, science geek, diabetic, writer, et al – all things I do – but I would avoid the question of how I see myself, the who am I part of it. I thought very long on this moment – do I say something or do as I have always imagined – one day move away to somewhere where I walk in my door as me and just measure time from that moment on? By pure chance I find myself at this moment – where I have a handful of facebook friends and even after I came out to one among you in an emotional search I see I have a choice to make. Let things go as they are, ie pretend, or allow you to see and know me, decide for yourself am I a friend you wish to have, and move on in time from there. Interestingly facebook has presented me with one of the considerations I have had – say for example there is a class reunion – in the last 20 years I have had no interest in showing up due mostly to this battle and now that I am just me, I thought about it – but have terrible fear. Independent of all things I realized I will always be me, Briana, regardless of who I meet, know, the things I do, and the places I go. Never in my life have I felt as balanced, whole, fully happy, and empowered. Some of the first words I spoke when I broke the rule standing in from of the mirror 5 years ago in a summer dress were these : ‘so this is how it is, this is who I am, … it’s okay…I’m okay’. In a single bat of an eye a wave of energy passed through my body and I felt electric and alive and elevated. It felt as if a large cement weight lifted off of me. If someone were to describe such things to me in the past, before this, I would just nod and say ‘sure, sure, understand’ when in truth I had never had such a feeling. It was easy trying to be what I do – seeing myself as arrogantly smart and not just being myself – a smart girl who can easily admit I most certainly do not know everything. In fact, believe it or not, when reflecting on my battles through the years with myself – nearly caught wearing this or that and the like, for the first time in my life I could laugh at myself. Things are moving along and quite nice in my part of the universe at present, more or less. I see doctors and the like and so far all is good. I still am looking for work, though there seems some barriers on that front – suggestions are welcomed, I have the books ( which clearly have at least one more editorial revision to make, namely author name ), and I have a deep-seated wish to have a few gal pal friends and so on.I could drone on with a million memories, events et al, but maybe I’ll write a tell all book one day ( lol ).Recognize I am still on the earliest of steps of this – there are those who have little to no information on this and must be kept that way due to life’s complications – unfortunately theirs and not mine. So I ask some discretion in your ever sharing of this. Thank you for listening ( ie reading ) and spending some time. I am glad to have come back across all of you. Note I may change my name on fb and the like too, this is all quite new to me - so some nervousness. thanksBriana : )     Note the inclusion of photos and all. The reaction has been priceless - I have been crying on and off through the day. Hormones can be a bit pushy. I had the oddity of coming across and being asked by a dozen or so high school friends - only one who knows - until now, at least. It was like going to a class reunion.  I will add to this as needed. Wow, wow, wow. All the best to everyone here.  Take Care hugs, Briana Purcell - the Galaxy Girl!!  
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