Hi Lisa,
You know being transgendered for me was a long time sentence of doing things in a forced fashion, perversley you get messed up mentally overtime constructing your existence on the lines of "There no alternative","learn to enjoy what you are given"..all the while becoming some sort of mental slave .Along the way over the years "the no alternative" mindset meant I just did things for the hoot of it and was suprised when people seem to take it seriously ,didnt they realize I was just acting.seems so pointless now.Its interesting that in this internet age people will post photos of themselves.For me in the past I always avoided having my picture taken,I guess because I knew I would always be giving some sort of disgruntled scowl.Nowadays I dont mind as I am going to smile. I feel quite happy now after a period of HRT sufficient to give me breasts.It just seems right.
Locally there is cycle path that the local authority newly extended, but they put up a sign to say that it was a dead end with no exit to the nearby village.when they first heard about everyone thought great idea to connect the villages by bike.No one locally can understand how the local authority could build it like this , a pointless solution leading to a pointless journey..sounds familiar to me .
Like you I had a short hair episode, but this was one of those really awful moments in a M2F s life when you are so messed up mentally ,and hyper sensitive to comments for you to conform or else that you make the BIG MISTAKE for reasons of giving other people relief rather than yourself.As you say things "backfire". My God did it take me a long while to grow my hair back.
Donna
Lisa I think you are a wonderful caring woman and you know my thoughts about you being welcome here , you are very welcome. Some do not share my thoughts but that is their loss. The fact is you care enought to be here and I personally thank you for that.
Your life story or parts that you have shared with us just shows that gender is really just a word. Of course there are 2 genders but both do the same things in life. You have had to play the part of a man in the army which is a male dominated profession , you had to fit in and to do that you had to go against you birth gender in some ways. What you went through is kind of like a transgenders transition , like man up woman if you know what I mean.
At the age of 10 after my father died my mother tried so hard to beat the girl out of me , she was in a way trying to force my gender. I knew I was not a boy and rarely acted like one. When she started to break my bones rather than just beating me she still failed. I still have , and have had all of my life the scar on my head from the day she smashed my head against a door frame and knocked me out. After I came round not only was my head hurting but my right leg was too. When I found the massive bruise on that leg my brother told me that is where she was kicking me and shouting at me to get up , I was unconcious.
According to my mother she wanted a girl when I was born yet she actually had one. She never once treated me like one but should would not accept me for who I was , I was what she wanted but for that became her punch bag.
Forced gender does not work , gender is something that is always with you from the day you are born untill the day you die. The body is a shell but what is inside can be the opposite to the body. In an ideal world everyone would understand and accept that. Sadly we do not live in an ideal world so we just get on with it. My mother failed big time , she failed me as a mother and failed to knock the girl out of me , maybe that is how you feel about the army? Even if you did enjoy parts of it.
Sorry this is short but I need to get somethings done for tomorrow.
Take care and again thank you for being here xx
I do not take any offense Lisa. I cannot find one good memory of my mother how ever hard I search but my father and I had a wonderful relationship.
I have no belief in any after life unless this is it. If there were an after life my father would not be in hell and if he wanted my mother with him then that would be my wish , for him not her. His life was taken away far to early and I know he would have never allowed my mother to treat me the way she did if he had lived , I still hold his love in my heart.
I agree about your points about some mothers wanting girls then end up with boys and then feminising them as if they were trans. A legal age needs to be set and that age should be a minimum of 10 years old and a diagnosis made by a professional. If that diagnosis is gender dysphoria then hormones can be used before puberty kicks in but under strict medical supervision.
In the other post you and Donna were talking about hair. My hair has been long all of my life and many people tried to cut it , my mother included. My teachers and headmaster all tried before I was kicked out of school but they also failed , they even gave me money to go get it cut but they soon realised giving me money was not a good idea and it would not be spent on a hair cut.
Well it will soon be tomorrow and I need sleep so I am sending you a big virtual hug back.
Julia xx
Lovely GG Lisa - Came here from the Q and A page. I'm actually surprised that the video has some truth to it! Then again, that is pretty much how it feels living in the wrong body.. Forced to live that way I mean. I took a look at your pictures and they all look very nice! I love the facial expressions lol.
I'm glad to hear that there were at least a few individuals that felt they fit the roles perfectly after all because it really isn't a fun feeling being forced into anything really as you can imagine. I feel like I shouldn't be so surprised though this goes on because I'm always looking at things online telling how other countries differ from the U.S. Everyone all over the world can be so different with their views. I agree that it's definitely fascinating.
You're very welcome and I'm turning 25 on the 9th lol. Time really flies after high school. xD