Maria,
Having been in a similar situation; First Aid on a heart attack and watching the guy die, I kind of know what you are feeling. Finding someone who has taken their own life, or watching someone lose the fight is a terrible thing and you think "could I have done more?" In many cases probably not, you did what you could at the time.
Make use of the counselling to get the feelings out and shared. Tell them what you think, feel etc and it will help. Just wish I had been offered it. And don't be afraid to contact the family and go to the funeral, sometimes you need closure, it helped me. If you want to chat with someone who has been through similar feel free to contact me.
Take care and don't be afraid to cry or talk about how you feel, bottling it up only makes it worse.
Alex
xxx
Maria, that is awful! Of course you're unnerved. That is to be expected. Is there anything we can do to help? Take care.
Mere
Oh, Maria <big hug>, that's terrible and as Meredith said, of course you're unnerved and upset, anyone would be. Please do attend the counseling, it will help, I speak from experience.
Best wishes and lots of hugs. We're here for you.
Hugs, Joni
June 6, 2005 11:51 AM BST
maria,what a truly awful experience for you! I can't even begin to imagine how that made you feel. you should take up the offer of counselling as it WILL help you get over it.Of course you also have everyone here to talk to as well if you need us.When one of our good sisters is down,then we all rally round to try and help.You take care honey...love,hugs and xxx anna-marie