August 25, 2005 1:03 AM BST
Hi Jack, I read your other post and I felt this one tells more about yourself. Personally I don’t think it’s up to others to tell you “what” you are, maybe you will discover more about yourself by reading others’ stories, thoughts and feelings here. I’ve never had therapy or counselling but I’m quite sure that I have the condition known as gender dysphoria, which perhaps can manifest itself in different ways. I’m an old git now though (42) so I’ve had longer to think about it. But I have to say, I knew from a very early age that something wasn’t right with me, I strongly wanted to be a girl, well I felt I WAS a girl, just I wanted to be more like the others. At your age I was probably trying not to think about it, though I slightly regret avoiding the issue for so long, despite it always being so strong in my mind. It’s good that you can talk to your family about it, being open is probably the best policy. Don’t worry about your dad, mine’s pretty much the same, the important thing is no-one has to live your life but YOU, so enjoy it. Try not to worry, things will become clearer I’m sure.
I’m off to Charing Cross in November as I’ve decided to go for full transition. That of course is not the only option so take your time and one day you will discover yourself and what is right for you. I’m sure this site will help. Plenty of girls here will be happy to talk things through with you if you want.
xx