September 14, 2005 1:58 AM BST
so your saying that theres no way the doctor will give me female hormoan tablets because of the fact i want to keep my penis and have it still work?
Thats alittle wrong isnt it? i just want to keep my penis but look female thats all. Ive seen male 2 female sex operations and its more scarey than any horror film ever put together and i dont want that. I just want to keep my penis but look and live my life as a woman
i cant belive this is so hard........i just want to be happy and be the real me yet it feels like ive so many obsticals thrown in my way. no wonder im so scared and frightened.........ive a bad feeling that now i know why im so unhappy in my life that if i cant get to the way im ment to be that im just going to end up doing something stupid
September 14, 2005 2:19 AM BST
It IS possible to get hormones prescribed in the UK even if you do not intend to have SRS, it's even possible through the NHS, though going down that route is reportedly an assault course and you can expect it to take years before they even think about giving you any sort of treatment other than psychotherapy. Russel Reid won't try to "catch you out" or "screw you over" from what I've heard, he's very reasonable, but that will cost you money, close to 200 quid per consultation. You will almost certainly have more chance of getting a prescription from him than from the NHS.
Most importantly though, hormones are not a solution in themselves; they are not magic pills that make you look like a woman, and they are only part of the "cure" for GID. It sounds like you have a lot to come to terms with, as we all do (or did). Don't rush into taking them, I really think it's best to have things worked out in your head first. They probably won't make a huge difference to your confidence and so won't make it easier for you to go out dressed. If it concerns you when people look at you that is something you need to deal with without the use of drugs, hormonal ar otherwise!
As has been said, hormones will very probably affect your virilty, certainly if you take enough to have adequate feminising effects. And they almost certainly will NOT make a difference to your facial hair, you must have laser and/or electrolysis for that, it's expensive and you can't get it on prescription.
I'm not trying to put you off Claire, in my case the desicions I have made have already changed my life dramatically; I am much happier living and presenting full-time as a woman, though I still have a long way to go. You're talking about "these last few steps", not so, FIRST few steps I would say! Be brave, and do what is right, but think carefully and lucidly. Be sure of who you are.
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